Freeform Poetry II
Elizabeth Perkins
For Professor Michaels
The night covered in a dark thick fog
Even that can’t make my bright day darker
Though being alone once again is scary
The only darkness that will make me doubtful
Would be the one that grows from inside me
Surely if you were to peek into my thoughts
I get caught up in thoughts that hold no importance
This story has no protagonist
And it lacks a moral to boot
Is it because it’s unnecessary?
Through the entire night
All of tonight and after
Will be another overwhelming day
I don’t know when or how
These feelings started clouding my thoughts
I’ll take a step, then another and another
Trying to dodge my own way of thinking
Will I be able to smile today?
I don’t want to stay up here in the clouds
I don’t want to stay up all night again
I don’t want to feel like I’m wasting my time
The night feels longer as my canvas gets dirtied
How can I distance myself from it?
If the hours keep getting longer
And another painful day waits for me
I want you to make it stop
Shake me out of this feeling
I just want to feel the sun on me again
But now all I can remember is the chaos of the night
I don’t know when I got dyed in this dark blue hue
But I know I’m about to be completely monochrome
I want it to stop in one, two and three
But it’s like walking on a deep mud
And all I manage is to be submerged
I don’t want to stay up here in the clouds
I don’t want to stay up all night again
I don’t want to feel like I’m wasting my time
The night feels longer as my canvas gets dirtied
How can I distance myself from it?
Such a day feels like months
It feels like years
I start losing myself in time
Afraid of my newborn nonchalance
This night is long and full of thoughts
I don’t know when I got dyed in this dark blue hue
But it feels like I’m swimming in the bottom of a lake
And baby, you know it’s cold
No matter how far I reach out
My hands and feet touch nothing
All I want is to feel warmth again
But I struggle in vain