kate wiseman, “afterglow”
libertas arts and literary magazine
                                                                                   october 2008
      so there are these two young fish swimming along and they happen to meet an older
       fish swimming the other way, who nods at them and says "morning, boys. how's the
        water?" and the two young fish swim on for a bit, and then eventually one of them
                    looks over at the other and goes "what the hell is water?"
that's not my story. that's a story david foster    with writing, photography, business, and
wallace told when he was giving the                 graphic design." in the older issues, the
commencement speech at kenyon in 2005. his          columns line up neatly and the typeset is far
point was, as he said, that the most obvious,       more uniform than what you see in
important realities are often the ones that are     today's libertas, which is not to say that one is
hardest to see and talk about. end                  better or worse, but we do regret that the first
quote. david foster wallace died recently. he       objective seems to have been eroded by
hanged himself. he was an iconic figure in          increased dedication to the second.
american literature. there's not a point to that
story. maybe his struggles to see and talk about    in those first few years, a few authors stand out
those important realities went from the hardest     as frequent and powerful contributors. zac lacy
thing to the thing that was too hard. few           (class of '96) is one of them. his last piece is one
writers attack reality with their whole being the   that was reprinted from the semester before,
way david foster wallace did.                       called "waving the white flag." the article
                                                    stands as the unifying piece in a two-page
the first libertas was published in the spring of   spread in memory of zac lacy. an article printed
1996. the first band of student writers and         at the same time described him, in the then-
editors came together in dr. denham's kafka         editor of the davidsonian's words, as a writer
seminar. it was the first time that class was       who blended casualness and seriousness, a
offered in translation, and as dr. denham           great sense of humor and razor-sharp
says, it was a class to remember. because it        analysis. end quote. the same editor said that
was already past the time to apply to the           zac lacy set the bar for student publications: "to
activities tax council for money to support the     write critically and constructively; to have as
first publication, dr. kuzmanovich offered to       one's goal making things better, and not more
fund the first year out of his own pocket. dean     antagonistic; to recognize the process as an
shandley graciously stepped in on behalf of         integral part of the result." all of these things
davidson college to relieve dr. kuzmanovich of      were published in memory of zac lacy because
that duty.                                          zac lacy committed suicide the year after he
                                                    graduated — perhaps because of the consistent
the first years of libertas look more like an       persecution he endured as an openly gay man
alternative newspaper, and that's what it was: a    at davidson college, a subject he addresses in
publication aimed at voicing political and          many of his articles. it's possible, too, that the
artistic concerns. their mission statement          hard work of seeing and talking about reality
included two goals: one, that libertas would be     was simply too much for him.
a forum "for extensive and intelligent student
and faculty discourse," and two, that it would      it's been eleven years since zac lacy's death, and
be a place where students could "experiment         few, if any, of today's students are aware of this
painful part of davidson's history. the role        and writers alike. you don't have to be heavy to
of libertas on davidson's campus has changed        make serious points, as the writing of both
since then, too, moving from being a source of      david foster wallace and zac lacy amply
critical analysis of our community to an arts       demonstrates, nor is there any particular
and literature magazine. the davidsonian does       obligation to be serious on these pages. but no
an excellent job of covering college news, and      matter what the content of these pages or the
therefore we are no longer needed to fill that      tone, we pledge to you, dear world, to make it
void. one side effect, however, is that the         good. we pledge to make libertas sincere when
magazine is taken less seriously than it should     it ought to be, creative – always, fun – we hope,
be, and this open space is invaluable for readers   but above all, we promise to keep on writing.