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What if after Edward left, and things with Jake heated up and Edward came back during it and what
if she started to have feelings for a certain blonde haired empath. Read to find out! I know I suck at
summaries please just read! I do not own Twilight or any of these characters. They belong to
Stephanie Meyer, though I wish I had created them.

Chapter 1

Bella Pov

“I love you Jacob Black.” I said with all my heart and right then knew this is what was meant
to be. He turned to look at me. I very gently ran my finger down his jaw.

“Let’s go back to your house. I’ll leave Charlie a message.” He had question fogging his eyes.
He saw the total truth in my eyes and grinned my grin, the one that I so loved! He put his hand
under my chin and lifted it to a higher level and he relied to what I said.

“Isabella Swan I love you to,” and gently but passionately brought his lips down to mine. I
had so much trouble concentrating. The only thing that I could think about was his lips on mine.
The warmth was unbelievably comforting. I ran my fingers down his back. His body shivered and I
looked at his face and that it was glowing. He really did love me, like I loved him. I pulled my slender
body closer to him and knew what was coming. I felt my phone in my pocket vibrate. UGH I hated
when stuff like this happened! I struggled with myself trying very hard to not go back to his lips. I
looked at the caller id and it said Charlie/Dad. I knew I had to answer.

“Hello,” I said.

“Hey, sweetie I’m going to be at the station longer than usual so don’t wait around for me.”

“Okay dad, umm would you mind if I went to Jake’s house?”

“Na you go have fun I love you.”

“I love you to.”

I put the phone back in my pocket. I went back to the edge of my seat and went for another kiss. He
knew what my intentions where and helped out. He pulled me into his lap and started to kiss me,
and he and I both knew what was next and he was as jittery about it as I was. I craved for his lips.
They moved exactly like mine did. It felt right. Our tongues battled for dominance.

“Hey, Jake we should get out of here. I don’t know when Dad will be home and the clock in
this truck broke.” I said. I knew that if Charlie caught us all hell would break loose!

“Yeah you’re probably right.” He looked disappointed that I had pointed it out. Jake started
the car or in my case the truck. On the way back to La Push we said few words, lost in our own
thoughts! I was kind of freaking out knowing that I had never done what we were about to do. I
knew it would work out, but it was still a little scary. When we got to his house I glanced at him
shyly. His face was lit up and radiating with happiness. When we walked in to his house I looked up
at his sort of beautiful face, as I had once said.
 “Is your dad home,” I asked as he turned to smirk at me.

“Nope, he is at the Clearwater’s.” He said as we walked into his room. Everything looked like
it used to, but his bed. It was much bigger. It was probably because of how big he had gotten. I took
a breath to steady myself.

“I’m ready.” I said with my whole heart.

“I love you Bella.” He said with a smile as he lifted my shirt up.

“As I love you.” I murmured. He lifted my shirt up and over my head. He had quickly noticed
I was wearing my lacy purple and black bra. I had a matching pair of underwear under it, though he
didn’t know quite yet. I looked down self-consciously. He pulled my chin up.

“You’re beautiful.” He whispered in my ear. I shivered in happiness. I slowly pulled off his
shirt. He was beautiful, not me. I felt myself slowly melting into him. The feeling had no words to
describe it. He slipped his hands through the belt holes of my jeans and pulled me closer to him.

“Are you sure you’re ready?” he asked against my collar bone. I moaned against his touch.

“I have never been surer than I am now.” I gasped. With a smile, he unbuttoned my pants
and let them drop. I unzipped his pants and let them fall on their own. He put butterfly kisses up
and down my neck. I pulled his face up to my mine and kissed him with as much passion and love as
I could. I dropped his boxers. He slowly undid my bra and pulled down my panties. He smiled at my
new naked body. I blushed and looked at my feet.

“Look at me, I want to see you.” He ordered. I gulped and straightened myself. He slowly
maneuvered us on to the bed. I lay down. He held his weight careful not to crush me. He kissed
down my thighs and stopped at my hot spot. I was already pulsing. He slowly lowered into me. He
thrusted in as gently as he could, I winced and shrunk down. The pain was gone in a second, like
nothing ever happened.

“Are you alright?”He asked. I nodded and motioned for him to keep going. He repeated his
motions getting faster by the minute. I moaned in pleasure. I never wanted this to end. He thrusted
in one last time and we peaked.

“Oh Jacob...” I murmured as we fell beside each other. I curled into his chest and laid there
in complete and total bliss. I truly loved this man more than any man I had ever met, even Edward.

3 months later

I had my grocery list in front of me, looking for diet foods. I had started majorly gaining
weight and it was irritating me. While on the way to the food isle I decided to cut through the pad
and tampon isle.

I realized in an instant that I hadn’t had my period in 3 months. I bought a box and ran to
the store bathroom. The tests I took said that I was positive. I jumped and about fell on my face. I
picked up the phone and called Jake.
 “Hey Jake, I’m on my way.” I said quickly.

“Alright see you soon.” He said. I jumped into the car, with the already forgotten diet foods. I
drove in silence with only the sound of the truck driving. I drove up and knocked on Jacob’s door.

“Hey Jake,” I said cheerily. I said as I grabbed him in a hug.

“Hey Bells, what’s up? He asked warily. I took a deep breath and smiled.

“Hey Jake I’m pregnant.” I said. His whole face lit up in the biggest grin I had ever seen. He
picked me up swung me around like I was a bag of feathers.

“OH MY GOD YOU’RE REALLY PREGNANT! THIS IS AWESOME NO NOT AWESOME,

AMAZING! I’M GOING TO BE A DAD!” I smiled, relieved that he was happy! I was starting to get a
little nauseous.

“Okay first, can you put me down I’m starting to get dizzy,” I said, he immediately put me
down, ”Now heres the problem we need to tell Charlie, Billy, and René.” The ultimate doom would
be telling dad.

“Um, if you tell Charlie to come over in awhile we will tell them together.”

“Okay hang on let me call him.’’ I saw him mouthing ‘I’m a father’ over to himself. I chuckled
under my breath.

“Dad, its Bella.” I said casually. I wasn’t good at lying so I hoped he wouldn’t ask.

“Oh, hey Bells. What’s up?” He asked suspiciously.

“Jake invited you and I for dinner. Can you come?”

“Sure I’ll bring Billy. I’ll see you soon.”

“Okay see you there,” How would dad take it? I felt Jake was rubbing my shoulders.

“I love you, and everything will be okay.” He said and I knew he was right.

“I know and I love you to.” About an hour after I called, Charlie drove up the driveway. I
figured I better make very good dinner! I decided that I should just stick with steak and potatoes,
and with Jake’s help, we finished the whole meal pretty quickly. For the most part Jake and I kept to
our own thoughts while Charlie and Billy made idle chit-chat. Charlie started talking about the
“Bear sighting’’. Jake waggled his eyebrows and shot an amused smirk at me, and I stifled a giggled.
Charlie casually put in that the Cullen’s were doing good in Las Angelus. That’s when I stood up.

“Dad, Billy, Jake and I have something to say.” I looked at Jake intentionally. He caught on
pretty quickly. He looked calm, which was surprising.

“Bella is pregnant.” Charlie smile turned into a huge scowl and his face started to turn
purple. I cringed in to Jake. He rubbed my back. I hadn’t really noticed Billy’s reaction but he was
smiling. He looked at Jake and held his hand open.
 “Pay up!” Billy said with a smile. He met my confused gaze and replied “We had a bet that he
would end up with you.” I elbowed Jake in the ribs, knowing that I’d have a pretty good sized bruise
later.

”How long have you, you know, been pregnant?” Charlie finally asked calmly.

“Umm about 3 months, I think.” Charlie closed his eyes and rubbed his hand across his
temple, I knew he was pissed.

“Well what are you and Jacob going to do?” he asked stiffly. I wasn’t really sure what to say
to that. Jake decided it was his turn to talk.

“Well, first we are going to the doctor, actually right after dinner, for that matter.” Charlie
looked tired and weary.

“Well, what are you thinking Billy?”He said looking at Billy purposely. I was pretty sure that
he thought Billy was going to assign the punishment.

“I THINK I AM GOING TO BE A GRANDPA!” He was happy? Jake was fighting to keep a smile
off his face. I smiled and raised my eyebrows. I was just happy that he had taken it well. I picked up
my dish and put it in the sink. I wanted to be ready to go the check up.

Edward Pov

My angel was gone, the reason for my existence, gone. I missed her so much. Every day I
regretted what I said so much. My family never talked to me. Alice was the worst. I loved her so
much, but she didn’t share the same ideas though. She hates that I made us leave. She was sure I
was insane and by this point I wasn’t even sure who I was anymore. Alice walked through the door
and scowled.

HOW DARE HE LOOK AT ME? I MISS HER, MY SISTER, MY BEST FRIEND. I HOPE HE LIKES WHAT
HE HAS DONE TO THIS FAMILY, AND TO ME. CAN’T HE THINK FOR ONE SECOND THAT I AM IN PAIN AND
SO IS EVERYONE ELSE IN THIS FAMILY. WE ALL MISS BELLA! SO SELFISH!!!

She walked to Jasper and even I could hear her dry sobbing. It pained me to see her like this,
so hurt and even mean. Jasper felt like it was his entire fault. Rosalie just cared because her beloved
Emmet was in pain because he has lost his little sister. She acted like I was enjoying this…..agony. I
was tired of living through this.

“Alice, can you please come here for a moment? Actually get Esme, Carlisle, and Jasper while
you are at it.” I could tell she was suspicious when she left the room. Then she saw a vision that I
didn’t see coming.

“OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD! REALLY, WE CAN REALLY SEE HER!!” Esme
wandered into the room curiously.

“Yes and Esme and Carlisle and everyone else can to. Oh and you might phone Emmet and
Rose and tell them.” Alice flew out of the room in a speed 100 times faster than a human. Esme
looked over at me with a worried look.
 “Son, I know you love her and that you want her back, but what if she has moved on?
What if she has a life? You must consider this very carefully and look at this from every angle.”

She couldn’t I thought to myself over and over again. Could she?

Alice Pov

He was going to ruin everything that had been set. He was going to screw up everything that
had been set. I couldn’t believe it. I acted happy and excited, but I was pissed and the only one who
knew why, and could tell was Jasper. I pushed myself deeper into my visions, trying to find
something to change what he was doing and then I knew we were safe, this was just a minor black
in the road. Everything would hopefully work out, but you never know. You choose your destiny
and what happens. According to my visions things would work out in the end…

Bella Pov

I was huge and I didn’t like it. I was either sick or moody. We were on the seventh month. So
close. Jake and I had pooled our money. We had a little apartment in Seattle. Soon after we found
out that we were going to have twins. They were going to be little girls. Charlie had even started
liking the idea of being a grandpa! I was at Charlie’s house for the day. He wanted to see me after
work.

Lost in my own thoughts, I didn’t hear someone at the door. Finally the knocking broke
through the thoughts that were surrounding my head. I wondered who it was. I wobbled to the
door. I couldn’t believe who I saw!

“ALICE IS THAT REALLY YOU?!” I could hardly believe my eyes. I ran up and threw my arms
around her.

“Bella I have missed you so much, and I have a lot of questions to ask so we might want to
sit down.” At first I was too happy to even breathe. But then I did notice him, the reason for my
nightmares, and the sleepless nights of crying.

I walked straight up to him. I looked at him just for a second, and then with all the force I
had, I slapped Edward Cullen face. He looked stunned and his expression wavered.

“Alice you may come in.” Then once she came in I slammed the door right in Edwards face!

“Bella….” She gave me a disapproving look.

“I have to ask Jake if I can have him in the house” I said. She groaned.

“Really Bella,” she said as I pulled out my phone.

“Yes really,” I stated, “Is he still outside?’’ She nodded. I pushed in Jakes number and waited.
It only took 3 rings.

“Are you alright, is everything ok?” I giggled and smiled. I noticed Alice staring at my huge
stomach.

“Yeah I’m totally fine, I only have one teensy tiny little question.” I tried to sound casual and
I did a terrible job at it.
 “What is it?”

“The Cullen’s are here and they’d like to speak with me.” I heard him growl at the other end.

“I don’t like it.” He said. I sighed.

“I know.”

“Which ones?”

“Alice and… Edward.” He growled and cussed in to the phone.

“I really don’t like it.” He said.

“I know.’’ I sighed.

“If they hurt you I swear to god….”

“I’ll be okay I promise.”

“Okay than I guess.”

“It’s not like I’m going to go leaping into his arms or something, there’s nothing to be
worried about.”

“I know.”

“Good, I love you Jake, be careful.”

“Ok love you to.” I hung up the phone carefully and tucked it into my pocket.

“Edward, get in here,” I smiled at Alice,”it looks like I have a story to tell both of you.” They
both nodded. Edward’s eyes never left my stomach. I sighed and lifted my head high.

“First I need to say this to you, Edward; I have gotten over you in a way. Though there will
be a spot in my heart that will always belong to you, I am in love with somebody and I would
appreciate if you didn’t try to sabotage our relationship because I love him very much.” He had the
most pained expression on his face.

“But what about us?” he asked brokenly. I suddenly grinned knowing full and well what I
was about to say. I had practiced the facial expression and the speech at least a half a dozen times in
a mirror.
“There is no us and there will never again be an us.” The room was very quiet for a long
time. Edward just sat there, frozen.

“Are we clear?” He nodded

“Alice it is your turn, I want you to know, though you’re my sister, I will not have you
pushing him on me, are we clear,” She nodded, “good than, now do you have any questions?” She
squealed.

“How long have you been pregnant?” she asked smiling at my stomach.
 “We are at seven months!” She squealed and started jumping up and down!

“Oh Bella what is it,” she asked, “the baby is it girl or boy?”

“I have twin girls!” She squealed yet again. I looked at Edward. Alice sniffed the air.

“What’s that smell?” asked Alice.

“Jake…” I said simply. Alice shot a confused look at Edward who had a mask of horror on his
face.

“WHAT! ARE YOU CRAZY ISABELLA SWAN?” I stood my ground.

“Edward Cullen, Get out of my face!” I heard a growl from outside.”If you enjoy your face
and your hand,” I said as I glanced at his hands that were tightly wound around my wrist, “I’d let go
of me!” He pushed his face up to mine and tried to put his lips on mine. Alice stepped in between us.

“Edward Anthony Mason, you get your hands off her!” She snapped. He stepped back sadly.

“Bella...” he said brokenly.

“Leave,” I ordered. Alice looked terrible. I put my arms around her waist.

“Alice, hey it’s okay, you’re fine.”She took a deep breath and nodded.

“’I’m sorry,” she murmured.

“Its fine,” I smiled.

“Do you want to hear the names?” I asked hopefully.

“YES, YES, YES, AND MORE YES!!!” she squealed happily. I smiled, it was easy to change the
subject with her.

“Alice Carlie Black, and Ashley Marie Black, what do you think?” Her lips trembled and I saw
a smile slip across her beautiful face.

“You named her after me?’’ she asked quietly.

“Of course you are and always will be my best friend and Jacob said I could name her while
he named Ashley, though I thought he could have been a little more creative.” I babbled.

“You named her after me,” she murmured. I broke out into a smile when I heard Jakes
distinct howling from out of the woods.

“It took you that long” I yelled out through my open window.

“What are you talking about” she asked.

“Jake hates that I make fun of his choice of name.” I smiled.

“So he’s a werewolf….” She started,’’ What was that like,”

“It was amazing!” I said dreamily. She grinned and winked at me.
 “Was he your first,” she asked seriously. I nodded and smiled sheepishly. I heard Jake bark
from outside.

“I guess that’s my cue to head home,” she said quietly.

“I guess, but please back soon.” I said

“Okay Bella I will see you later.” She said. I threw my arms around her in a huge hug. Right
as my stomach touched her icy skin the babies kicked the hardest than they ever had. I gasped and
almost fell. Thankfully Alice caught me.

“Thanks,” I murmured breathlessly.

“Wow that must have hurt,” she said in wonder. I nodded and tried to focus on my
breathing.

“Well it wasn’t the most comfortable experience of my life.” I said with a sarcastic smile.

“I have to go so your boyfriend can come give you a kiss,” she giggled.

“Okay then I will see you later Alice,” She was out the door before I could even blink, and
Jake was through the door and had me in his arms within a blink. Stupid super speed!

“Bella,” he murmured against my neck. I buried my face in his hair and inhaled. He had a
woods scent that made me woozy, and I loved that.

“I missed you,” I breathed

“I missed you to, where they good to you, I heard some yelling Sam was the only thing that
kept me from killing them then and there.”

“I’m okay Jake I yelled at Edward.” He broke in to a breath taking grin that made my heart
stop. Then the baby’s kicked, hard. I gasped.

Jacobs POV

“Bella, Baby, are you okay?” I cried. She nodded 3 fast head bobs. Then, here in my arms her
water broke.

“Oh my god, I think my water just broke,” I picked her up bridal style and took her to the
door. She gave me an adorable irritated expression.

“I can walk you know.” She said. I nodded as I put her gently into the car and ran to the
driver’s seat. I knew I needed to get her to the hospital fast.

“Honey,” she said in a sweet voice, “you know you don’t need to hurry. I’m not in pain yet.”
Then as she said that, she screamed.

“Bella, Are you okay?!” She screamed again not nearly as loud but it was loud enough that
even the Cullen’s would have heard.

“OH MY GOD SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY WRONG!” she screamed.

 “I’m going as fast as I can babe,” I said in a strained voice, she whimpered. Then I smelt a
bloodsucker. I hissed. I saw a terrified look crossed Bella’s face.

“Bella I’m sorry,” I whispered. Then the loudest scream I’d ever heard erupted from her
throat.

Bella POV

I was in tremendous amounts of pain. It’s like I was dying. The burn that I had endured when James
bit me was nothing compared to this! I couldn’t even see straight.

“OH MY GOD SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY WRONG!” I screamed. I felt like my lounges would
burst.

“I’m going as fast as I can babe,” he said in a strained voice. I felt a whimper escape my lips. I
thought of poor little Ashley, and Alice. I hoped they weren’t in this pain. My vision cleared for just a
second and in that second a terrifying look spread across Jake’s face. I knew I must’ve looked scared
because he snapped out of it.

“Bella I’m sorry,” he whispered. I wanted to comfort him or to run my hand down his jaw,
but in one incredible flash I felt the worst and the single most painful thing that I have or ever will
endure. A scream, my scream erupted the air causing Jake to jump. I saw Jasper at the window;
wait… why was Jasper here? Then my vision went black.

Jacob POV

“What do you want bloodsucker,” I hissed. I wasn’t sure if he was running or he was holding
onto the car.

“Get in back.” he said stiffly yet calmly.

” Don’t tell me what to do you filthy-“

“SHE IS BLEEDING TO DEATH SLOWLY,’’ he screamed cutting me off. I turned around and
sure as hell as I was, I’d been wrong and she had been bleeding. I jumped in back and Jasper took
my driver’s seat.

“Bella pull through this for me and the baby’s. I love you!” I felt hot tears even against my
skin start to roll down my face. I saw her eyes slowly open,” that’s right baby, try and wake up for
me.”

“It hurts so much,” she whispered

“I’m sorry, sweetie it will end soon.” She nodded weakly.

“PULL HER AGAINST YOU NOW, JACOB,” I wasn’t sure on whether or not to listen to him; I
just focused on trying to contain the bleeding,
 “NOW, JACOB,” he screamed. I pulled her against me and held her tight. My chest muffled
her scream.

“Why did I have to do that, blood sucker?’’

“She would’ve burst her voice box…” He murmured staring at Bella

“How long till we get there,” I growled. Bella flinched and shrunk down into the seat. Jasper
sighed.

“2 minutes and 43 seconds,” he said. Bella moaned quietly.

“When will this end,’’ she whimpered.

Bella POV

It felt as if the pain would never leave. Every time I’d doze off, finally at peace, I would feel
the sharp pain. I couldn’t help but worry about the two children in me. What if they were in the
same pain as I was?

“How long till we get there,” Jake growled. I flinched and moaned as a piercing pain racked
through my stomach.

“2 minutes and 43 seconds,” he said.

“When will this end,’’ I whimpered.

“Soon…”

“We’re here, time to move,” Jasper called tensely. I was falling in and out of consciousness. I
felt my Jacob’s warm arms hold me. I remember vaguely that I had lost a good amount of blood. I
breathed in and out.

“I love you so much Jacob, I’m sorry,” I whispered. I heard the doors being pulled open in
one quick motion thanks to Jasper. I would be internally grateful to Jasper if I lived and if my
children lived I’d owe him our lives. I felt Jacob set me down on a cold gurney.

“No,” I gasped. I reached my hands out trying to find his hand or any part of him,” Please,
don’t leave me,” I choked out. I knew tears were sliding down my face.

“I’m not going anywhere,” He said. I felt a needle prick me. I started to feel drowsy

“Promise,” I asked

“Promise,” he said quietly.

“Take care of our babies; take care of them for me, and take care me of me, promise”

“I will,” Then everything went black.

Jacob POV
 I felt the tears starting to fill my eyes. I saw my Bella put to sleep.
“What are we going to do doctor,” I chocked.

“We are going to have to do a sea section, and there is a high chance that the babies could
die, and I need you know that.” I nodded.

“Could Bella,” I chocked and wasn’t able to finish my sentence. He nodded carefully.

“Ok,” I whispered. I walked behind the gurney that held my two children and my soon to be
wife. I was going to ask her to marry me today. I sighed and stifled a sob. Bella’s hand still hung over
the railing from when she tried to find my hand. Jasper walked quietly behind me. I started to pace
as soon as I hit the waiting room. I was stuck waiting for them to tell me when I could see them, my
daughters.

“Calm down, please your making me anxious pacing around like that.” Jasper said quietly.

“Why are you even here,” I snapped.

“I care for Bella.” He said simply.

Jasper POV

What he failed to realize was that she was going to be my mate. He was going to screw
something up and I was going to be there to fix her. I remember the conversation that Alice and I
had the day my family met Bella.

“Jasper you and Bella are meant to be and I will not stand in the way of that. You are both
destined for greatness. You two are truly mates.” I had been stunned in to silence.

“Alice I love you, and you’re the only person I could ever love. What about Edward?” I knew
I was pleading, but all I wanted to hear was that this was just a joke that Emmet had put her up to.
She looked up with solemn eyes.

“Jasper, I was meant to bring you to her, and I was meant to bring you to the Cullen’s, but
Edward and Bella were never meant to be, just wait. Major, god of war, you will find a use and you
and Bella will save us all.” I sat there, unsure of what to say to make her change her mind or what to
ask about being meant them all. It must’ve been wrong. I knew I’d never tell any of the others. This
was the pain that I would deal with on my own.

“But I love you Alice.” I said brokenly, reaching for her hand. She pushed it away.

“I will always love you Jazz, but I must find my true mate and let you meet your mate.” I
could see the true pain in her eyes. I felt something warm and wet slide down my face. Alice gasped.

“How did you do that Jazz?” Alice asked.

“What?” I asked sadly.

“You just cried and you’re still crying.” She said in wonder,” your powers must be growing.”
She continued. I gave her a quizzical look.

“What?”
 “I can’t tell you, but I can tell you one thing Bella is your mate.” I remember thinking about
well everything. The day I met Bella I knew Alice was right. The minute I laid eyes on Bella
something had clicked and I wanted to be near her and I wanted to protect her, but I wasn’t sure
how.

I knew my control was iffy and I couldn’t even picture my sweet Isabella dead, I’d rather her
in the arms of another man. Alice had been devastated when we had to leave Bella the way we did.

I sat watching Jacob pace. Every 20 steps or so, he’d murmur something to himself. I
wondered when I’d be able to see Bella and the babies. I heard the doctor muttering to himself.

“How am I supposed to explain this to these nice men?” I held my breath, what if Bella was
hurt, “Hello gentleman, I have some bad news and some good news.” Jacob jumped up in a flash.

“Is Bella alright,” he asked loudly.

“With time she will be okay, right now she just needs a lot of sleep and love, and excuse my
language, but she has been through hell today.” Jacob nodded.

“How are the babies?” I asked. The doctor looked down at his shoes.
“They didn’t make it. They suffocated.” Jacob stifled a sob and fell onto his knees.

“I need to see them.” Jacob said quietly, mainly to himself. The doctor nodded. I walked
quietly behind trying to keep Jacob’s emotions in check. As we walked through the door I was ready
to see them. Wasn’t I?

Jacob POV

My poor babies, oh why hadn’t I stayed with Bella during everything like I promised? I
walked slowly and carefully. The last thing I needed was to phase in front of everyone in this
hospital. I was thankful that Jasper was keeping me in check.

I walked up to the door where both my children were being held. As I stepped in the room,
my vision stopped on her. Ashley. It was like everything just stopped and that the only people on
the earth were me and Ashley. I had imprinted on my own child. Then I noticed she wasn’t
breathing. I half walked half ran to her. I picked her up and rocked her.

“Wake up, please.” I sobbed,” Please wake up.” I fell to my knees and cried. After a long time
of crying, I put the baby down and stood up stiffly. I walked slowly to the door.

“Jacob, where the hell are you going?” Jasper yelled. He easily kept up with me,” Aren’t you
going to check on Bella?” he asked.

“No,” I said. I had to leave. Whatever feelings for her I had, had died just like my imprint had.
Right before leaving out the door I wrote a note to Bella and left it at Jaspers feet. I ran at a much
faster speed than any human could go at. I knew not to look back. I’d have nightmares for the rest of
my existence.

Bella POV
 I was so tired. I grieved for my little babies that hadn’t made it. I wondered were Jake was. I
really needed him right now. I knew silently that tears were still falling down my cheeks. I saw
Jasper standing by the door he had an envelope in his hand.

“Hey Jazz, where’s Jacob?” I asked. I looked behind him, and through the window trying to
locate him.

“He left,” Jasper said grimly.

“Oh I bet he just needed some sleep, hell I need sleep,” Jasper frowned and shook his head,” I
don’t understand, where’s Jacob.” I asked a little scared.

“Here” Jasper said as he gave the note to me.

Bella

I don’t love you anymore. I’m so sorry that I led you on for so long. Ashley, our dead child, was
my imprint. I’m very sorry, but you will never see me again, and I will never see you again. I wish I could
change how things happened, but I couldn’t. Having sex with you was a mistake and I regret it. I’m sorry.
I will always love you in a way. Live well.

Jacob Black

I read it to myself over and over again trying to make sense of it. I started to sob. I felt Jasper
come over to me and hold me.

“Shhh its okay, I’m so sorry, Shhh.” He said, but whatever he said I just got louder. All the
pain I had endured for him had been for nothing. All the love was nothing now. He had just up and
left me, the hole that I had covered and filled with love broke open with a pop. I heard the door
open, but I didn’t even look up. I just sobbed into Jasper’s arms.

Jasper POV

So this was the stupid thing that Jacob was going to do. How could he hurt her so much? She
was going to broken for so long. How was I supposed to fix this?

“Oh my god, what happened Jazz,” Alice cried. I jutted my chin toward the envelope lying on
the bed where Bella had dropped it. She sat shaking and crying in my arms. I rocked her back and
forth and sent calming waves toward her. She acted like they weren’t even affecting her, but I knew
she was starting to slowly fall asleep in my arms. I noticed Rosalie behind Alice.

“How could he,” she spit, venom spilling out of her eyes like tears. Humans would think she
was crying, but I knew she was just mad as hell. I shrugged holding my mate.

“What about, Carlie?” Alice asked.

“She died, they both died.” I said grimly.

“Poor Bella,” Alice said sadly. I nodded.

“I could kill Jacob for doing this to Bella,” Rose spit, angrily.
 “Alice, are you sure we are meant to be?” I asked. She nodded. Her eyes glazed over and sat
there.

“What do you see?” I asked quickly. She smiled her knowing smile. Rose inched over, she
knew about me and Bella. Alice of course would never hide anything from her.

“You two will be very happy. Give it 2 months, I promise you, it’s worth the wait,” She
smirked. Bella was starting to wake up. She started getting anxious and upset. I sent calming waves
towards her and let them work their magic. She sighed. The doctor walked in.

“How are we feeling this morning?” Bella shrugged and looked over at me.

“’Morning Darlin,” I said with a smile.

“Hey,” she whispered sadly, looking down. I pulled her chin up.

“Hey it’s okay, don’t cry.” I begged. Tears started to well up in the corners of her eyes. I
knew she was trying to hold it in, but even I knew how deeply she was hurt. Sorrow rolled off her in
waves. I put my hand on her face gently. “For me,” I whispered. She sniffed and pulled herself up
right and nodded.

“I’m sorry I am hurting you so much,” she whispered. I growled.

“Don’t ever apologize for having emotions Isabella!” I finished angrily. She nodded and laid
her head on my chest and fell asleep, tears still running down her face. Alice sighed. Rose sat in the
corner of the room fuming.

“I wish she didn’t need to go through all this pain to just be happy,” Alice said unhappily. I
nodded. My poor Isabella, how would she ever get over this?

” Don’t even go there; she will be fine, 2 months.”Alice snapped. I smiled.

“Okay.” Now I knew I’d have to wait and hope that she would get better.

Bella POV

It had been 1 month and 29days since my Jacob had left me. I learned to cope. At first I tried
cutting. It hurt so much, but Jasper smelt the blood and came and stopped the bleeding. I didn’t like
bleeding anyway. Jasper talked me into a therapist. At first I was pretty hesitant about it all, but
after a couple of weeks I felt almost normal. It was nice to be able to feel this way.

I was frequently visited by the Cullen’s. They all felt bad, and every time I saw one of them I
saw pity in their eyes. Jasper and Rose were the only ones who didn’t. Rose and I were close now,
closer than me and Alice. Rosalie and I had talked while I was in the hospital.

“Bella, I never disliked you. I was jealous, you had everything, and it made me upset
knowing you were ready to throw it all away for one person. Think about it for one second, how
would you feel if you weren’t given the choice, because none of us were. Bella, you are a beautiful
strong human being, and I wish we could start over, I’d like to be your sister.” I had been is shock.
How could she have been jealous of me? After her story, I could understand to an extent.
 I still loved Alice nonetheless. I remember Alice telling me about how she and Jasper were
having a divorce. I knew I should have felt bad, but I didn’t. I don’t know what I felt for Jasper, but I
always wanted to be with him. I wondered if maybe he might, like me, but I quickly shot down the
idea. I knew I felt something for him. I wondered how he felt about me.

Edward showed interest. I shot him down. I didn’t like him and I wished he’d get that
through his thick head. I heard Jasper at the window. I smiled knowing full and well that if Charlie
knew that I had boys going through my window all hell would break loose. I got up and unlocked
the window and he gracefully jumped into the room.

“Hey Jazz,” I murmured. He smiled and walked over to where I was standing.

“Darlin there’s something that I need to tell you,” he said quietly staring into my eyes. f\

“What’s up?” I asked, confusion leaking through my voice.

“There’s something I need to tell you, and I’m not sure how you will take it,” He said
miserably.

“Go ahead and tell me, there’s not much that would make me upset anymore.” I replied
warily. I looked up as he paced.
“Bella, I love you.” He finally said. My mouth popped open with a snap. I looked at Jasper like
he had lost his mind.

“I don’t understand.”I said quietly. Than in a matter of seconds I felt Jaspers cold lips on
mine pushing down with more force than I felt was necessary. His kiss was full of passion and love.
He put all of himself in it. When we broke finally I giggled.

“What are you ‘laughing at Darlin,” he asked. I burst out laughing.

“I was waiting for you to do that,” I said as my laughing fit changed back to a subtle giggle.

“What,” He asked as I giggled again. It had been so long since I laughed; it felt good to feel
like myself again.

“I was wondering when you were actually going to show me how you felt, because I wasn’t
sure at all.” I finished with a smirk. He looked slightly amused, but then broke it off.

“What about Jacob.” He asked quietly. It stung I’d admit that, but I needed to move on. I
shrugged sadly.

“Jake will always own a part of my heart, as well Edward, but you Major, own my whole
damn soul!” I finished with a smile.

He pulled my chin up to eye level. He smiled and pressed his lips down on mine. He wasn’t
as careful as Edward was, and he was gentler than Jake had been. By the time we broke our kiss I
was gasping. He chuckled. I heard Alice at the window giggling.

“Peeping Todd,” I murmured to myself. I heard Jasper quietly laugh as he unlocked the
window.
 “I’m so happy for you,” Alice sang as she bounded over to me and gave me a hug, she gave
Jasper a gloating expressions, “I told you,” she sang.

“What,” I asked.

“I knew you to would end up together and I’m so happy you are.” She sang. I frowned. How
long had she known. Why couldn’t she have just told me? It was like she read my mind.

“If I had told you myself, would you have believed me?” She finished.

“Probably not,” I mumbled mainly to myself. Jasper chuckled. I gasped as I felt his arms
wrap around my waist. I’d forgotten what it felt like to have a stone arm around your waist. I leaned
into him. A smile graced his perfect lips.

“Someone let me in,” Edward snarled from outside. I tried to move away from Jasper, but he
just pulled me closer to him.

“Edward, leave,” I demanded in a shaky voice. He growled and busted through the window,
and landed perfectly. He then launched himself at me. Jasper pushed me into Rose, who had come in
shortly after Alice. She caught me and threw me over shoulder. I gasped in shock as she jumped
through the window. I could hear Jasper and Edward yelling in the woods for just a moment. Then
my vision went black.

Jasper Pov

“How could you, my own brother,” He snarled as he launched himself at me. I let the god of
war take a little of the reign. I was faster and stronger than Edward. I knew I couldn’t kill him,
because the family would be upset, and he wasn’t worth the hassle.

“How could you, brother, leave her to die in the woods like she was nothing, worthless,” I
snarled back with equal force. He flinched and recomposed himself. He snarled, and launched
himself in my direction. I easily sidestepped him and bit down hard on his hand. I heard him hiss.

“What the hell,” he screamed. I just shrugged and lowered into my defensive crouch and sat
there, waiting for his attack. He was scared; I could feel it coming off him in waves. He knew he
would lose if I actually decided to fight. He also had the doubt that I wouldn’t. I didn’t know how
long I sat in my crouch growling at Edward. I shot thoughts at him, with as much force as I could
throw at him.

“Does it bother that she actually kisses me, and does it bother you that she already admits
she loves me.” I demanded. He breathed a short quick breath.

“She doesn’t love you, she loves me. Do you wonder what she thinks when you were kissing,
whether she was comparing you to me?” He snarled back. My vision began to turn red. I snarled and
launched myself at him, with a battle cry that I had never heard in my existence, only knowing that I
couldn’t kill him.
 Rosalie POV

I couldn’t believe that Edward would risk Bella’s life like that. After all she had done for him,
after all the suffering she has gone through for him! I felt her peacefully sleeping in my arms. If he
bent a little hair on Jaspers hair I knew Bella would freak, and I was kind of excited to see how she
would react. She was more independent without him. I felt her start to stir.

“Edward, No leave him…alone.” She drifted back off. I finally made it to the house. Emmet
bounded over to me.

“What’s up Rose?” he asked. I just shook my head.

“Edward lost it and launched himself at Bella, and since Jazz and Bella are mates, Jasper
reacted defensively. I don’t know what's going to happen. If Bella loses another love I don’t think
she will make it.”

I felt my chest start to heave. I couldn’t let Bella be hurt again, not again. I leaned into
Emmet hoping his strength would rub off on me. I felt Bella starting to move in my arms. I laid her
on the couch and put her head in my lap. I patted her head and sat quietly waiting for her to wake
up.

“It’s okay Rose, Jasper knows how to take care of himself. For decades he was known as God
of War, I highly doubt Edward will leave a mark on him, and if he does I will kill him.” he said
simply.

“You know Esme wouldn’t want anyone dead. Think of how that would hurt the family.” I
said quietly. He just shook his head.

“I will do anything to keep Bella happy. After all she has been through, she at least deserves
this.” He said with anger toning his voice. I sighed and moved my attention to the girl in my arms,
only hoping one thing, that Jasper was safe.

Emmet POV

I looked at my sad wife. I was madder than I should have been over something like this. The
sad part was, at this point, I cared more for Bella then I had ever had for Edward. I hissed quietly as
I thought of his name. Rose’s head jerked up and she snarled.

“Rose, Bella is still asleep, let’s not wake her up.” I said softly. She nodded and sat down. I
saw her fingers running through Bella’s hair.

“It’s like silk,” she murmured, “It’s better than mine.” She whispered. I couldn’t believe what
I had heard. In the century I had known her she had never said something was better than hers.

I heard Bella whimper in her sleep. I snarled knowing that her dream involved Edward and
that he most likely was the nightmare part. Rose looked up with fury in her eyes. If Edward came
near Bella again after this, I had good feeling that Rose would make him suffer. I decided that I
should start a conversation. I was too angry to actually talk so I decided to talk to her through our
mate thing.
 “Hey, baby.” I thought with as much happiness that I was able to cook up.

“Hey,” she thought sadly, ”I hope Edward burns in hell for this,” She thought bitterly.

“I know, but you shouldn’t feel that way. Put yourself in his shoes for a moment, what would
you do?” I asked casually.

“I wouldn’t kill someone over it,” She snarled out loud,” Please do not compare him to me.”
She said huffily. I nodded. Now I waited hoping Bella would be alright, hoping that I wouldn’t have
to kill Edward.

Bella POV

I dreamed that I was in the woods. Jasper held his arms open to me. I ran into his arms
without a single thought.

“Hello, love,” A familiar voice purred in my eyes. My eyes snapped open and I saw Edward. I
tried to pull out of his arms, but I couldn’t, his hold on my tightened and I was pulled closer to him.

“Please, let me go,” I begged,” Please, you’re hurting me.” I said as he pulled me even closer. I
was starting to have trouble breathing. I whimpered. He laughed.

“I wonder has Jasper tasted you?” he asked out loud

“What do you mean Edward, Jasper has never drank my blood.” I said in scared voice.

“Not that kind of taste, has he felt what it’s like inside you.” I didn’t understand until I heard
his zipper pull down. I screamed.

“Please,” I screamed, “Please don’t do this Edward, If you really love me.” I yelled in panic.

“I do love you, and that’s why I have to feel you.” He purred. I heard his pants slide down.

“No!” I screamed. I sat right up. I heard a vampire hiss. I jumped out of my sitting position.

“Bella, calm down, it’s me Emmet,” but all I could see was Edward. I screamed and jumped. I
felt 2 freezing arms grab me.”

“Please, Please, just kill me.” I felt a hard slap pound my cheek. I gasped and opened my
eyes.

Rosalie POV

I sat beside Emmet, hopping that Bella’s nightmares weren’t all too bad. While humming an
old hymn, I felt Bella flinch and scream. I tried to calm her, but without Jazz here with his gift, and
Bella knowing he was okay, all I could do was wait and try to help. She screamed loudly enough that
if I had been human I probably would have gotten a nice headache.
 She sat up and jumped out of my arms in one quick motion that I had to admit was fast for a
human. I heard Em hiss, I put my hand up to calm him. I looked at Bella, and noticed that her eyes
were full of terror. She was freaking out.

“Bella, calm down, it’s me Emmet,” Emmet said trying to calm her. She looked half crazy,
how bad could her dream have been? I grabbed her arms and tried to pull her towards me so she
wouldn’t hurt herself.

“Please, Please, just kill me.” She sobbed. The only thing I could think of doing was to slap
her, and I did it hard enough that she would feel it. She opened her eyes slowly. I saw tears start
sliding down her face. Emmet barreled over to her with his arms open. She threw herself into him,
and sobbed into his chest. He hid his face to make it look like he was sad, but he wasn’t and he and I
knew it. He was furious, and even I could feel the anger radiating off him.

“It’s okay, Bella Boo. Everything is going to be okay.” He said softly, trying to soothe her, but
the more he said the harder and louder she cried. He sat there stiff with anger.

“ROSE,” he thought furiously,” If he ever comes near her again, I will make him pay, and I
will make it painful and long,” He thought angrily. I nodded, I was mad enough that I couldn’t talk or
think in sentences. I heard the door open and I could smell Jasper and Edwards scent together. I
hissed. Emmet didn’t even look up. He sat there rigid with anger. I heard Jasper run and pry Bella
from Em’s arms. Jasper sat there and held her.

“It’s alright darling, I’m home, everything’s okay.” He said soothingly. Bella through her
arms around him and cried hard into his chest. He held her there. He kissed her head and her lips
and her nose trying to calm her down.

Jasper POV

I threw Edward into a tree, and I knew if I was going to kill him I had to do it now.

“Do it major, do it now, kill me,” I stepped back and spit into the ground, ”What you don’t
have the guts do you, major?” He snarled.

“No I have the guts, but you’re not worth my time.” I said simply.

“You know I’m going to find Bella and talk to her myself.” He snarled. I just shrugged.

“She loves me, not you Edward and I couldn’t care less, but if you hurt her or force her to do
anything, I will be the one to end you myself.”I said back. He just shrugged.

I walked towards the house slowly. I heard Edward stalking slowly behind me. I hoped
Bella was okay. As I hit the mile mark, a huge amount of pain hit me. I gasped and stumbled a bit. I
grabbed my chest. I started to run at the fastest speed that I had ever pulled off. I had a feeling it
was Bella, but I didn’t want to believe it. How could my angel be this upset?

I pulled open the door. There I saw my mate in grief sobbing into my brother’s chest. He
was rigid with anger, and held Bella like she the only thing keeping him from attacking someone. I
heard Rose hiss as Edwards scent hit her. I didn’t register, all I could see was my mate in pain and it
was killing me slowly. I ran and pulled Bella out of Emmet’s chest, and held her close.

“It’s alright darling, I’m home, everything is okay.” I said as soothingly as the god of war
could pull off. She just cried in my arms. Her sobs subsided into tears and she fell asleep in my arms.
I kissed her all over face trying to keep her calm. I hummed an old lullaby into her ears and rocked
her. Emmet stood up stiffly and walked up to Edward. He stood with his hands in his pockets
staring blankly at Bella. Emmet roughly grabbed Edward by the shirt and lifted him off the ground
in one swift motion.

“Emmet,” I reasoned quietly. He dropped Edward and looked at Rose and I could tell he was
struggling with himself. He wanted to beat Edward; he wanted to make him suffer for what he did.
Hell, I did to and I wanted to make it painful. It must’ve been hours that we all sat there lost in our
own thoughts. Bella started to stir and whimpered. She was terrified and I knew it was a nightmare.

“I could kill you,’’ Emmet snarled in Edward’s direction. Edward scoffed and rolled his eyes.

“Leave,” I ordered. He shook his head. I snarled and started to get up, but Bella moved again
in my arms. Emmet laid an arm on my shoulders. I nodded and sat back down and ran my fingers
through her hair. She lightly snored; she only snored when she was under a lot of stress. We knew
she could be asleep for some time, she needed time to collect herself in her own way.

Edward started to move toward her, I snarled and threw a wicked amount of hatred and
fear is way. He did flinch, but kept walking. Emmet jumped between the two of us and Rose jumped
to the back of him, ready to pounce, I was sure. The god of War ached to be let out. I struggled with
him, knowing that I might hurt Bella and I could never forgive myself.

“Get away from her, you scumbag.” He just smiled and kept walking. What the hell! He of all
people should know what I did to people who ignored me.

"I have to hold her, she is mine” he snarled with a glint in his eyes. I hissed, but I kept my
attention on her every move, never thinking about anything but her. Edward finally walked in front
of me.

“Hello, my love.” He purred in her ears. I was to mad to even move. She let out a terrified
scream.

“Jazz, where are you?” she whimpered. I jumped at the mention of my name. She had never
mentioned me in her sleep.

“I’m here darlin.” I said in her ear. She immediately opened her eyes.

“Jazz you’re here.” she murmured. Emmet bounded over and through his arms around her
tiny frame. Rose walked over and held her to. She hadn’t realized Edward was there yet. Then she
walked over to me hands outstretched.

“God, I was so worried, did he hurt you at all.” Bella, one minute was having a nightmare, the
next she was caring about me. I loved her so damn much.
 “I’m fine Bells; of course he didn’t hurt me.” I pulled her face to mine and kissed her. I
pushed as much love and passion as I could hold. She had to break the kiss to breathe. I heard
Emmet chuckle. She blushed and looked down. I pulled her face up to eye level.

“Never be embarrassed for loving me.” She nodded and kissed my cheek. I knew she was
disoriented and tired. I figured a shower would help. I heard Edward growl as I picked her up and
ran to the bathroom. He kept at our pace, not even giving me space to breathe. I snarled and ran
into the bathroom and locked the door. When I turned to face Bella she had a smirk.

“So, the two Cullen boys are fighting over little fragile me.” She said with a smile. I looked
down at my shoes in embarrassment. I hadn’t thought Bella would notice it. She pulled my face up
and trailed her fingers across my cheeks. I leaned into her touch and sighed blissfully.

“Don’t be embarrassed Jazz, I love you.” I felt my whole face light up as she said these words.
I just sat their leaning into the warmth of her hand, letting the whole world drift around me.

Bella POV

I sat on the floor crying in Emmet’s arm for who knows how long. I just sat there. I cried out
of fear and sadness. I heard the door open, but I didn’t move. I couldn’t.

“It’s alright darling, I’m home, every things going to be okay.” I felt Jazz pull me into his
arms. I just sat there and cried. I cried out of terror, and sadness. I cried for my babies, and for
Jacob. I cried for everything that had ever made me upset. It was like we were the only people in the
world. Then I heard his voice. The nightmares were nothing compared to the fear I felt when he said
those words.

“Hello, Love.” I was still asleep, I must’ve been.

“Jazz, where are you?” I screamed to myself.

“I’m here darlin.” I heard him say into my ear. I immediately opened my eyes.

“Jazz you’re here.” I murmured. Emmet bounded over and through his arms around me.
Rose walked over and put herself into the group hug. I looked above Em’s shoulder for Jazz and
threw myself at him.

“God, I was so worried, did he hurt you at all” I asked looking over every visible part of his
body.

“I’m fine Bella, of course he didn’t hurt me.” He pulled his face to mine and kissed me. I had
to break the kiss so I could breathe. I heard Emmet chuckle. I looked at down. I felt Jazz pull me up
to eye level.

“Never be embarrassed for loving me.” I nodded and kissed his cheek shyly. The thought of a
shower crossed through my mind. Apparently Jazz thought the same because he picked me up and
started running, two times faster than any human could do at their best. I saw Edward running
behind. Jasper through open the door and locked it as soon as we were in.
 “So, the two Cullen boys are fighting over little, fragile me.” I said with a smile. He looked
down I pulled my face up and trailed my fingers across his cheeks. I felt him lean into my touch.

“Don’t be embarrassed Jazz, I love you.” I said with a smile. His whole face brightened. I just
sat there letting my fingers run up and down his cheeks. I couldn’t even remember why we had
come.

Emmet POV

“Poor Bells, It’s not fair.” I said childishly with a pout.

“What’s unfair?” Rose asked. I walked over to her.

“Letting him live,” I said quietly. She nodded but seemed hesitant.

“Sweetie, to you and me it seems right, but to Bella that would be, hmm bad?” I groaned. I
loved Rose, but I didn’t understand why she always had to be right. It was incredibly hard letting
him walk away after causing my baby sister pain and nightmares.

“I know.” I said in defeat. I heard Edward start going down the stairs, muttering to himself. I
snarled as Bella’s name came out of his mouth. He just smirked and kept going down the stairs.
When he hit the last stair I jumped up and ran to him. I picked him up by his shirt.

“If she ever has nightmare involving you again, I will personally end you.” I snarled.

“Oh does Emmy Bear have a crush on Bella, well you can’t have her, she is mine.” He hissed.
Rose had Edward out of my hands and in hers in a human blink. I chuckled and smiled. Watching
her take charge was the sexiest thing I could imagine.

“Listen up Eddie the day you left her was the day you lost all rights to call her yours. Now
you make one step out of line I will let her watch as I rip you to shreds. I will make you a jigsaw
puzzle. Hey maybe I’ll even hide every piece of your body in different cities, hell maybe different
continents, and it would take you centuries to just find them. I’m not someone to screw with
Edward.” She finished with a snarl. Edward looked a little shaken up to.

“Rosie, Baby, Let F*ckward go, he’s not worth it.” I said soothingly. She nodded and dropped
him.

“Em, let’s go to our room. We need some time to ourselves.” I agreed eagerly, with all the
lust Jasper was throwing around I knew it was going to be a fun night.

Jasper Pov

I sat there, comfortably in my mates arms. I stroked her hair and sent her waves of love and
adoration. Images of the night repeated in my mind, and if I had been human I would have been
blushing like crazy. I thought it was funny how horrible it must have been for Edward having all
that lust thrown at him.

I felt Bella start to stir in my arms. I smiled and pulled her closer into my chest. It felt good
to be with her, my throat didn’t even hurt when I was around her. It was amazing to finally be
comfortable with my mate. She slowly opened her beautiful brown eyes. It was like I was lost in
them.

Can you believe it, the God of War was in love, real love. She smiled and blushed as she
realized what we had done last night. I kissed he nose and sent her all the feelings that I had felt
that night. I was showing her how amazing she was and that there wasn’t a reason to be
embarrassed.

“Mornin Darlin,” I said with a smirk.

“What’s the smirk about major.” She purred, I smiled and pulled her on top of me,” Damn
Jazz, I think you got hotter last night, if that’s possible.” I smirked and waggled my eyebrows.

“Not possible Darlin.” I purred into her ears. She giggled and started trailing her fingers up
and down my chest. If only the newborns I had fought could see me now, I was even purring by this
point.

“Hey Jazz, there’s something I want to ask you…” she said looking down. I pulled her chin up
to eye level.

“Yes.” I murmured. I tried to tune into her emotions, but all I got was embarrassment.

“I would like to become a vampire, I’m tired of being pushed around and I don’t ever want
to lose you.” She said with a glint in her eyes. I just sat their totally astonished.

Bella Pov

I hoped he would agree, understand, or even be happy with the idea. I wished for the first
time I could read his mind, that just this once I’d know what he wanted. I took a deep breath to
steady myself. He flipped us over to where he was on top. He started to kiss my fingertips. I bit back
a moan.

“Is that what you want?” he asked seriously. I nodded at a loss of words. He smiled and
shook the hair out of his eyes. I looked up when I knew I had full control of my emotions.

“Jazz, that’s all I want, to always be with you and to never have to live without you or the
others.” He looked at me seriously, probably thinking of everything.

“You understand that Edward is part of this family and that you will have to see him.” I
nodded. I didn’t know why I broke down last night in the first place. I knew the nightmares were
bad

“Can we do it tonight,” I whispered. He looked deep into my eyes. I t was like he could see
right through me.

“Is that what you really want?” I nodded. I was tired of being human. I wanted to be Jaspers
equal for once, I wanted to be able to hold him to me for the rest of eternity.

“Yes.” He smiled and leaned to my ear.

“ Hey Darlin, what about Charlie and your mom?” he whispered.

 “I’ll miss them, but I know what I want to do. We are going to fake my death.” I whispered.
He leaned in and started to kiss me. He bit down onto my tongue, I moaned.

“If this is what you want then yes. Tonight and I will try to keep it from being to
unbearable.” he said. He started to kiss down from my lips to my thighs. I moaned and stopped.

“Jazzy, I need to go write a letter to Charlie and do some stuff before tonight and I can’t do it
if I am having sex with you.” I said breathlessly. He groaned and brushed the hair out of my eyes.

“Alright sugar, be home soon.” He said with a wicked glint in his eyes. I agreed and got
dressed and put on my make-up. I started wearing it after Jake left. I put my hair into a clip and
curled a small piece to hang. I put on a old pair of jeans and a short sleeve that said “I’m a sucker for
vampires.” People would think it had to do with the new show Vampire Diaries, which I happened to
love. The shirt was a little tighter than I expected. I heard the door open, and Jazz stepped in with a
smile gracing his beautiful face. He walked over and put his arms around my waist.

“Damn Sugar, if you’re trying to keep me from taking you right here and now, you’re not
doing a very good job.” He growled into my ears. I pushed away from him with a smirk.

“Well Mr. Whitlock are you trying to bed me.” I said with mock horror.

“Why yes ma’am, I think I am.” He said proudly. I smiled and placed a kiss on his cheek and
walked out of the room. I had major work to do if I was going to be turned in less than 24 hours.

Jasper Pov

I felt my disappoint as she left the room. I felt the pain that came when your mate was away.
It was excruciating if you didn’t know where they were. Thankfully, because Bella wasn’t a vampire
yet, she didn’t have to know about the pain quite yet. I heard Emmet come in.

“Tonight?” he asked curiously. I nodded and smiled at the night that awaited us. He nodded
and sat down.

“You know if you hurt her like F*ckward than I will kill you.” He said seriously. I nodded,
but he knew it would hurt me as much as it would hurt her.

“Em, am I doing the right thing?” I asked suddenly.

“Hell yes! This is exactly what I would do. Oh yeah Rose left with Bella so do you want to
play a video game with me even though we both know I will win?”

“Your on!” I said happily.

Bella Pov

I had the keys in my hands and my shawl wrapped around me. It was supposed to be
freezing. I couldn’t help but be excited for the night. I would finally be an equal and never have to
lose my family again. I started for the door.

“Hey Bella, can I come with you today, otherwise I am stuck watching Emmet play video
games.” She asked lightly. I laughed knowing that this was just her way of making sure I was okay.
 “Of course, but you may get bored.” I said as I opened the door.

“Honey, we have an eternity to do stuff.” She said with a smile.

“So, you know.” I asked, she nodded,” You aren’t mad at me?”

“Of course not, I couldn’t imagine losing my best friend just because she was just really old.
That would be horrible for everyone.” She said.

“Oh.” I said simply. Just 2 months ago I hadn’t even liked Rose, nor did I care what she
thought about me.

“So, where’s our first stop?’’

“We are going to stop by Charlie’s house so I can leave a note I made last night.’’

“Wait, you knew Jazz was going to say yes last night?”she asked with a raised a eyebrow. I
shrugged and grinned.

“You and I both know I am spoiled and that he would do anything for me.” I said.

“So, how did you know, he could have changed his mind.” I shook my head.

“Neither of us can imagine a life without the other.” I said.

“Oh,” she said, “that’s pretty awesome.” She said with a smirk. I drove into the driveway and
unlocked the door. Charlie was at work till late that night. I hoped he would move on, that he would
live his life without me. I didn’t want to lose him, but I knew what I wanted in life and this is what I
wanted. I left the note on the fridge. It read,

Dad,

I’m going to Seattle tonight to go to the movies and go lend some stuff to Rosalie like the scrapbook I
made. I should be home by the time you get there, but if I’m not there’s some steak and potatoes with
some broccoli in the fridge, just heat it up. I am forcing you to eat the veggies. If you want you can put
some cheese on the broccoli. I love you so much, and I want you to know that you have been amazing
father. I love you more than you will ever know. See you soon. Be careful, and don’t do anything stupid
or anything I wouldn’t do.

Love,

Bella Marie Swan

A single tear slipped down my face, but I quickly wiped it from my cheek. I knew he would
be okay, and I would always there to watch over him when he needed it most. I sat up after putting
it on the fridge. Rose threw her arms around me and just held me. It was all I needed.

“Bella are you sure this is what you want? You will never see any of them again.” I nodded
and wiped away the tears that had had escaped. I sat up and brushed off my jeans and smiled.

“That was easier than I expected.” I said. She just sat there shocked.
 “Are you sure you’re okay Bella, because what you just did isn’t anywhere near easy.” She
said. I just shrugged.

“I knew it had to be done, for both of us, as my final goodbye.” I said. I pulled away from her
and walked up to my room. She went behind me.

“Please stay down here; I want to say my goodbyes to this life privately.” She nodded. I
walked slowly up the stairs taking in every creak. I looked around all the things that were part of
my soon to be my past life.

I walked up to my desk and picked up the bracelet Jake had given me for graduation. It was
a silver chain with a wolf charm on it. I put it on my wrist and smiled sadly. Sometimes I missed him
so much I could hardly breathe. I would always love him for fixing me when Edward broke me. I
would always love him.

I ran my fingers along the picture of Jacob and I in the garage while he was fixing the bikes. I
smiled; his face was lit up and happy. He still looked child-like in the picture, still a hundred percent
human. I pulled the bag off my shoulders and opened it and I put the picture in it.

Beside it was a picture of Edward with his arm around my waist. I put it into the bag with
the picture of me and Jake. I picked up my scrapbook from graduation year and dropped it in my
bag. I got my collection of books and grabbed the ones I would miss most. I looked around the rest
of my room for anything else I would need as a reminder of my life, of everything.

I looked up around the room. I wanted to take a mental picture, so I couldn’t ever forget this
part of me. I would return someday, and that was for sure. Maybe when dad died, I would buy it. I
opened up my old computer and signed into email. I wrote,

Mom,

Hey how are you? I am good. I am going to the movies tonight probably to see the new Vampires
Suck movie. It’s about this girl Bekka who falls in love with a vampire. It’s supposed to be a comedy.
Seriously, who would fall in love with a vampire? I can’t wait to see it! After that I am going to go over
and see Rose. She wants to see my scrapbook, borrow some books, and some other stuff. Alice went out
of town to see her birth parents for a couple of days. I love you so much. I just wanted to let you know
that you are the best mom anyone could ever ask for. I hope to see you this summer before I go off to the
University of Alaska. I miss you.

Love,

Bella Marie Swan

I clicked send and smiled. I copied the message and sent it to myself. Then I typed up the
letter I made for Charlie. I wanted to remember them both. I knew they were all going to be okay. I
took one look before turning to leave the room. I went to go to the door, but then there was a knock
at my window. I smiled figuring that it was Jasper I turned around and gasped and saw it was
Edward.

“Bella, let me in.” I shook my head angrily.

“Get away from my house.” I said coldly.

 “Bella, just let me talk to you.” he said. I thought about it.

“Hang on.” I said. He nodded. I went downstairs, and noticed a note left by Rose. No wonder
he came now. It said,

Bella,

I will be back. Emmet called me and asked if I could come home real quickly. Don’t leave yet; I will be
back in like half an hour. Just so you know, your taking this incredibly well, I don’t think I could take it
this way. Oh yeah, call me if you need anything, but you probably don’t want to call me ;) Be careful.

Rose

I walked back up the stairs. I opened the window.

“You have 30 seconds so you better hurry.” I said coldly. He nodded and jumped through the
window.

“Bella, you’re making a mistake by choosing him, you’re making a mistake by choosing to be
changed. It’s all wrong. You’re supposed to be mine.” He said furiously. I just shrugged.

“Sorry Eddie, but I don’t love you anymore. I love Jasper.” I said back sharply, “Just for
future reference, I don’t belong to anyone but myself.” I said heatedly. He threw himself at me and
started to kiss me.

I tried to push him off me, but I couldn’t. I wasn’t strong enough. All I could do was just shut
off. His kisses had never been like Jaspers. Jazz was passionate and loving; he kissed me because he
needed me, not because he owned me. He finally stopped and I slapped him as hard as I could. He
looked stunned.

“You didn’t just do that.” He snarled. I shrank back immediately, but straightened myself
out. I stood up for myself and said,” I think I did.” He grabbed me and pushed me up against a wall
and tore off his shirt.
“What the hell are you doing?” I asked in horror.

“Jasper has felt inside you, so now it’s my turn.” I froze. He was going to rape me. I couldn’t
believe it. I tried to push him off again.

“Edward, if you ever loved me you won’t do this to me.” I said as tears started slipping down
my face.

“This is me proving to you that I am a better lover and a better mate then him.” He tore off
my shirt and started to grope my breasts. I screamed and screamed, but I knew no one would hear
me. Everyone was at work. He unzipped his pants and dropped them.

“Edward, please stop. Please stop for me.” I sobbed. He just kept pulling the clothes off me
like they were rags. It was just like my dream except this was real life and I knew all I could do was
hope Rose hurried up, I continued to scream in hopes that they would here it and come running. He
was down to my panties and ripped them off. He plunged into me.

I screamed in pain. He was being too rough, too hard, and too painful. I knew I was bleeding.
Jasper was careful during this but Edward was using all his strength. He slammed into me. It felt
like poles were being shoved into me. I started getting weak at loss of blood. My heartbeat was
slowing down. The pain was endurable. I just wanted to die. The blackness was coming on.

“I love you Jasper.” I whispered with the last ounce of strength I had in my body.

Rose Pov

Humming to myself I ran back to Bella’s house. Emmet had wanted to have a quickie, and
who was I to say no. I was about 5 miles away from Bella’s house. It would take me about 5 minutes
before I could get there. I heard Bella talking to someone.

“What the hell are you doing?” she asked. Who was there?

“Jasper has felt inside you, so now it’s my turn.” I froze. Edward was at Bella’s house and he
was going to rape her
“Edward, if you ever loved me you won’t do this to me.”She pleaded.

“This is me proving to you that I am a better lover and a better mate then him.” She started
to cry loudly. I heard a zipper go down and I knew it was Edwards. I started running at full force; I
had always been a slower runner than the rest of the family.
“Edward, please stop. Please stop for me.” She sobbed. I listened in horror as Edward began
to rape her. I threw open my phone” and clicked Jaspers phone.

“Hello,” he asked quietly.

“I went home for just a second and I started home and, and…” I cried with my body heaving,
“Edward was at her house and he’s raping her and I can’t get there fast enough.” He roared in fury. I
knew the god of war had come out to play. The phone went dead. I kept running till I hit her house
and ran in. I gasped in horror at what I saw as I flung the door open.

Edward had screwed Bella until blood was falling freely out of her womanhood. I pulled
Edward off Bella and threw him through the open window. She was breathing small shallow
breaths. I wanted to change her, but she wanted Jasper to do it. I waited cleaning up the blood and
trying to stop the bleeding. Jasper threw the door open and ran to Bella. I got out of his way. I knew
he needed to see her. I almost felt bad for Jasper. It was incredibly dangerous for a vampire to hurt
another’s mate and this was past that. Bye, Bye Edward.

Jasper Pov

I was busy planning that night when I got a phone call. I picked it up cheerily. Nothing could
ruin tonight.

“Hello,” I answered.

“I went home for just a second and I started home and, and…” Rose cried, “Edward was at
her house and he’s raping her and I can’t get there fast enough.” I roared in fury and broke the
phone. I started running to Bella. Emmet had heard the phone call and ran far behind me. I was
unstable.
 He knew the major was out to play and that anyone who got in my way was dust. As I got
closer I heard Rose running close ahead. I was a faster runner than Edward. I heard my sweet
Isabella screaming and crying in pain. I could hear her breath become labored.

“I love you Jasper.” She whispered. Rose was in the house and had Edward out the window
in a human blink. I threw open the door and pulled Bella into my arms.

“Bella, can you hear me?” I asked. There was silence the only sound that came out of her were quick
shallow breaths.

“Come on Sugar, for me please answer me.” She stirred a little and her heartbeat picked up.

“Jazz,” she whispered, ”Is that you?”

“I’m here Darlin; I am going to change you okay? Otherwise you could die.” I said in a panic. I
couldn’t lose her. I heard Emmet bust through the entry and growl as he saw what had happened.
Rose had thrown herself into his arms.

“If I had known,” She whispered to Emmet in pain. He held her rigidly.

“Ok,” Bella whispered. I kissed from her lips to her thighs to her bleeding womanhood to her
feet back to her throat.

“I love you Bella, I’m sorry.” I whispered.

“I love you to Jazz,” she whispered. I bit down hard so I could leave a mated mark. Her eyes
flew open and she gasped as the venom flew through her veins. I moved to her wrists and bit down
there to hoping that it would get the blood to her heart faster. She whimpered but held her eyes
shut.

I could suddenly hear her thoughts. Now that she was changing I could hear it all as she
could hear mine as well.

“Sugar, focus on the memories you want to take with you, the things you want to
remember.” I thought.

“Ok,” she thought back. I thought of things to keep her mind off the pain. I had told her that
when your mates as soon as the transition starts you can hear the others thoughts. I thought of old
cartoons and I thought of the first time we made love. She was comforted by those thoughts.

She was focusing on the night we had sex, everything about Jacob, which to be truthful
bothered me a little, but I knew these things were important to her. She thought about Charlie and
René and her room. Lastly, she thought about her dead babies. I knew they still caused her pain, and
I couldn’t understand why she would want to bring that with her.

After Rose had cleaned up the blood she took Bella’s car to the highway on the way back
from Seattle. She wrecked it up is the easiest way to put it. She put a body that she had burned
beyond recognition into the driver’s seat. It had been a body donated for science. She may have had
a little more fun than necessary.
 We brought Bella home and put her in my bed. I refused to leave her side. It could have
been hours or days. I didn’t pay attention. I kept thinking of things to keep her mind off the pain.
Her hair gradually turned coal black. If I thought she was beautiful than she was extravagant. She
was amazing. Her breasts had even gotten bigger, which is something I would have fun with. Her
eyes gradually opened and I noticed instead of red eyes like normal she had purple eyes. She could
only open her eyes for small amounts of time. Her heart started to stutter and then just stopped.
Her eyes opened slowly and looked at me.

Bella Pov

The pain was pain. There wasn’t a word that described it. My body felt like it was on fire.
The only thing that kept me grounded was Jasper. He kept me busy. He would think of everything I
enjoyed. I was thankful he was able to keep from thinking of the, the night.

No matter how much I blocked it off it’s like the pain was starting over again. With Jasper
there was pleasure and lust. It was nice. With Edward there was no pleasure. He put all the strength
he had into the thrusts. I can’t imagine how deformed my vagina had looked. At least I knew being a
vampire would fix it.

Jasper started thinking about what I looked like. I looked so much different. I was as pretty
Rosalie, yet as average looking as Jane from the Voltari. It was amazing.

The pain started to get worse until it felt as if the fire was a blessing. It all started heading
for my heart. I started to panic. I felt Jazz trying to calm me down and to take the pain away, but
nothing could take it away. I started to whimper, but I promised I wouldn’t scream and then my
heart stuttered and just stopped.

I opened my ears carefully looking around everything. I could see textures, I could see
colors that I didn’t know existed. My eyes rested on Jasper last. I looked over his body and snarled.

“What is is Bella?” he asked warily.

“How could vampires do this to the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. Even with the
scars. I missed so much with my human eyes.” I murmured he just shrugged. I leaned over and
kissed him with as much passion as I could. He automatically cheered up. He started to remove his
shirt.

“Hey now, cowboy, I need to go hunting otherwise I might eat you.” I teased.

“Oh, I forgot, I can’t imagine or well I can but you must be very uncomfortable.” I smiled
sheepishly. He grabbed my hand and we jumped out the window. I landed and turned to face Jasper.

“Did I do it right?” I asked.

“Yes, and that was very graceful even for a vampire.” I beamed. I had never been called
graceful for anything. I hadn’t thought about talking to Jazz in our mind so I decided to start.

“I love you,” I thought.

“Would you say that out loud for me.” He thought with a smile.
 “I love you Major Jasper Whitlock.” I said. He grinned and threw me over his shoulder and
ran me into the forest.

“How much?” He asked, I smirked and laid on an innocent expression.

“Well Major, if you wait till after I hunt I will prove it to you.” He grinned and put his lips on
mine. He slipped his tongue into my mouth. I couldn’t figure out if it was the blood lust or the lust
building up, but they were driving me crazy. I moaned into his mouth which sent an electrical
current through us both. I pulled away to the disappointment of both of us. I hoped kissing him
would take the Edward off my lips. I suddenly smelled something kind of sweet, but a little
repulsive.

“Jazzy I smell a mountain lion can I go for it?” I asked. He smiled and nodded. I let my
instincts take me. I let the lion think he had the upper hand in it, but all along I was just playing with
it. Jazz chuckled when I threw it into a tree. I snapped it’s neck and drank him dry. I buried the
remains and walked over to Jazz. I hadn’t spilt a drop which made me happy.

“Are you still hungry,” he asked curiously. I shrugged. My throat felt fine. There wasn’t an
ounce of pain. I immediately smelt a human.

“Hold you’re breathe.” He murmured. I forgot to and the human walked by. He smelled
good, but in a candle way, like the mountain lion had.

“I think I got lost, could you tell me where to go?” I smiled. His heartbeat stuttered as he
looked at me. He was probably lost in my eyes or something man like.

“Go straight, and turn left. It should lead you out of the forest.” I said. My voice was like
crystal wind chimes, even higher than Alice’s.

“Uh, thank you so much.” He stuttered out loud. I smiled and waved as he walked out of the
forest. Jasper growled and pulled me to him.

“I didn’t like the way he looked at you. By the way, How in the hell did you do that?” he
asked amazed. I just shrugged.

“His blood smelled nice, but at the same time I was repelled by it. Kind of like a food scented
candle, it smells good, but you don’t want to eat it.” I said.

“Well I knew you were remarkable, now how are you going to show me how much
you love me?” he teased. I purred and smiled.

“I’m going to shake your world Major.” I purred. He crushed into me and kissed me.
He made the world disappear. I slammed him into a tree and unbuckled his pants his eyes were
black, not because of hunger.

“Damn Bells, that was hot.” He murmured against my lips. I just rammed him into the
tree again and his pants fell. He moaned and licked my face. I smiled.

“Are you turning into a dog?” I teased. He turned us around and slammed me into a
tree. He ripped off my shirt.
 “Don’t tease me Sugar, you will regret it.” I smiled and pulled off his shirt, and kissed
both of his nipples.

“Is that so Major?” I said as he slid my pants down.

“Let the games begin.’’ Jasper whispered. I couldn’t concentrate on anything. I felt like
a million feelings were running through my body. He slammed me into a tree a little harder that
necessary and the whole tree collapsed. I giggled as I threw him on the ground.

He smiled and thrusted into me, I always met him halfway. He felt so good. When
with him I couldn’t remember Edward and what he did to me. When we finally peaked, I kissed his
chest and just laid there in complete comfort.

“Hey Sugar, I think it’s time we went home.” I looked into his eyes.

“Not until you hunt.” I ordered. He agreed and attacked a herd of deer. The smell
made me want to gag. It was horrible. When he was done I noticed that he had some still on his lips.
I leaned over and kissed him. I kissed the blood right off his lips. He attacked my lips. I smiled
against him. I jumped up from my sitting position.

“Let’s go home. I’m sure F*ckward is going to be there.”I said. Jasper looked up.

“You know he can’t ever hurt you again, right?’’ I nodded.

“Good, anyone who does is going to have one hell of a time.” He said. I laughed and
kissed his nose and skipped through the forest. It felt nice, I felt like I belonged in this world. No one
mattered but my family and Jasper. I looked over at him and smiled. As I walked to the door a
million different fragrances swirled around me.

Rose was first to come outside. She threw her arms around me. I inhaled deeply so I
always knew her scent. She smelled like an apple orchard.

“Hey Bella,” she said with a smile. Next, Emmet bounded over to me and gave me a
big hug. He smelled like the few minutes before it rained and freesia. It was a nice mix. When
Emmet and Rose where together it was the perfect scent.

“Bella Boo, you look hot, you wouldn’t mind coming to bed with me and Rosie some
night, would you?” he waggled his eyebrows.

“Not unless Jazz joined which is a slim chance, but I don’t think Rose would be very
happy.” I said with a smile.

“I’m cool with it as long as I’m in the middle.” She screamed. Jazz walked over and
gave me a hug. He smelled like Strawberries. It was nice.

“Mmm Bells, you smell like Vanilla and Roses, the way I remember it.” I smiled.

“You smell like Strawberries.” I said with a smile.

“So I have been told.” He said with a grin. A familiar scent started coming towards the
house. I heard Jasper growl beside me. I knew at once who it was.
 “Hello Love,” a familiar voice purred. I grimaced and looked at Jazz for help. He just
smiled at me and sent me waves of confidence and love.

“How dare you, come here and call me love.” I said with anger and venom seeping
through my voice. He smirked and walked over to me. I was still getting used to my newly improved
senses. I hadn’t noticed how close to me he was when he ripped my shirt off. I turned around and
had him by the throat. Emmet and Rose had to hold Jazz down.

“Damn Bella, that is so freaking hot.” Jasper and Emmet said at the same time. I heard
Rose hit Em upside the head.

“Ow baby, that actually hurt.” He said a little hurt. I leaned in to Edwards’s ear.

“If you ever try a stunt like that you will regret it, and don’t say I don’t have the guts
cause if I can do this,” I said as I ripped his hand off, “Then I can defiantly hurt you further.” I
snarled. He nodded, but I knew that this wasn’t the end. I dropped Edward shakily as memories
from that night went through my mind. I felt Jasper’s loving arms incase me. I felt myself slowly
breaking a part. I sniffed and fought back the terror and sadness.. I felt Rose come over to me.

“Hey Bells, lets come to my room.” I nodded. She pulled me up to her room and set me
down on the bed. Even as a vampire I still felt the hurt and pain. My chest started to heave then the
most unimaginable thing happened. Tears started flowing down my face. Rose pulled me into her
arms.

“Shh, come on Bells.” She said. I just cried, the more she said the louder I got. My
nightmare had turned into reality. I had been raped by someone that I had loved. I had been
practically killed by the person who supposedly loved me.

“Why did he do it to me.” I pulled out between my breaths. I hurt so much that he
could do that to me and not feel bad at all.

“I don’t know sweetie.” She said into my hair.

“Can I tell you my story?” I nodded unable to make words come out of my mouth. I
felt like my whole world was crashing down on me. I had carried the memory over, and it was
clearer than my vampire vision was. I could see everything so clearly and it felt like I was reliving it,
when it was all just all in my head. Rose had briefly gone over her story, but not really into details.

“My life was perfect. My father worked for the bank, therefore making us quite rich.
My mother kept the house in order, while my brother and I’s job was to look presentable. I was
beautiful and everyone knew it.” Her eyes began to darken and I could see the pain that was held in
them.

“I met a man named Royce. He was everything I had dreamed. He was rich, and
handsome, my knight in shining armor.” She snorted,”I was walking home from a friend’s house
when I saw Royce and his friends at the corner of the street. They asked me to come over so of
course I did. He bragged about my beauty and how wonderful I really was when a bunch of men
said that they couldn’t tell with all the clothes. From there I was beaten, raped, and left in the road
for death. That’s when Carlisle found me.” She said.

“What about Royce?” I asked quietly. She smirked and her eyes became mischievous.
 “I killed him and his friends painfully. I made them suffer.” I looked down. We were
so alike in what happened to us. I laid in her arms for a long time. I slowly sat up and straightened
my shirt.

“I’m going to go talk to Jasper.” I said. She nodded and smiled.

“I’m going to go sexually harass my husband.” She said with a glint in her eyes.

“Alright.” I walked toward Jaspers room. I knocked on the door, and stepped back. I
was scared that he would be mad or he would tell me he didn’t want me.

“Hello, Princess of War.” He grinned as he opened the door. I threw myself into his
arms and let him hold me. I was shaking, but I was out of tears to shed. He ran his fingers through
my hair.

“I’m sorry.” I murmured into his chest. He grabbed my chin and yanked it up angrily.

“Never apologize for hurting. What he did was so wrong and I will make him pay for
it.” He finished with a huff. I nodded looking down at my shoes. I didn’t admit it, but I was terrified
that he would come back and finish what he started.

“He won’t ever get close enough to even try.” Jasper snarled.

“Alright.” I said quietly. He pressed his lips to mine. I pushed myself into the kiss.
Hoping it would erase all the pain I held, hoping it would momentarily stop it all. I smiled as my
head began to clear thanks to Jaspers gift. Then I could hear Rosalie’s thoughts.

“EWWW,” I shouted, jumping back. Jasper looked down embarrassed.

“What did I do?” he thought sadly. His pain was radiating off him. I could actually feel
his pain and I didn’t like it.

“No, not to you, I loved the kiss. I can hear Rose’s thoughts and OH MY GOD.” I
screamed. He broke into a breathtaking smile and busted out laughing. I had to join him; I felt his
arms snake around my waist.

“Jazz is it possible to have all the gifts.” I asked. He looked slightly confused.

“You could be like a sponge and be able to replicate it.” He said. I looked down

“Jazz, I think I can replicate powers.” I said. Jazz looked thoughtful for a little bit and
smiled.

“Sugar, you can replicate, you’re a princess of war, and a sex goddess, how did I get so
lucky,” he asked with a smile. I looked down embarrassed, I always hated when I had so much
attention on me. I walked up to his bed and just laid there. I felt Jazz clime in after me. He wrapped
his arms around my waist.

“I love you Jazz, thank you, for being there for me.’’ I said against his chest. I pushed
as much love and admiration at him as I could. He smiled.
 “Till the bitter end Sugar.” He said with a smile gracing his beautiful lips. I kissed his
chest and laid my head against him. I was in complete bliss. Everything was perfect, and nothing
would ever keep me from him.

Edward’s Pov

I didn’t understand why I did it. I just did. I didn’t think I would hurt her. I just
wanted to prove I was better. I wanted to prove she was mine. I could still feel her around me. She
felt so tight and warm. I can remember the look of bliss in her eyes. She wanted more. Who was I to
say no?

Tonight I would come back. She would be a newborn so I would have to find a way to
hold her down. I had the pair of ropes that could contain newborns. Aro had given it to me as a gift.
It would finally come in handy. I craved her, like a drug and I needed her. I would go to her when
the group left for the hunt. Bella wanted to stay home and hang out. She needed “chill time” I would
gag her and rope her up. Then she would be mine, once and for all.

Bella Pov

“Are you sure your okay with me going, maybe you should come with me.” Jasper said
worry saturating his voice.

“Its fine Jazz, I need so time to recoup. You guys need to hunt and need some time to
think.” I said with a smile he nodded and kissed my lips sweetly.

“I’ll be home soon, promise.” He said as he walked out the door. His eyes had been
nearly black. I knew he needed to hunt about as much as I needed to. I slowly walked to our room. I
pulled out my black satin diary. No one knew I had it. Not even Jasper. I looked at all the dates. I
read about moving to Forks, meeting Edward, losing Edward, losing my children, losing Jake, and
gaining Jasper. I felt tears sliding down my face. I looked through till I found my favorite entry.

Dear Diary,

I wish I knew. He’s like a best friend to me, but at the same time I think I could love him. I
don’t understand how I could feel this way, but I do. Edward still likes me, but he’s a little young for me.
I still hate him for leaving me the way he did. My birthday was today, I’m 20. Jasper came with a present
that I loved. He gave me a charm for my charm bracelet Jake had given to me. I still miss Jake, but I’m
learning to live without him. The hardest thing that I did had to have been telling Billy what happened.
Charlie was sorry, but he couldn’t do anything. I can’t believe I lived this long. Back to my birthday and
Jasper, the charm was beautiful. It was a crystal heart. He said that it had been his mothers and that he
thought I should have had it. I loved it. Jasper is amazing. I don’t know what I would do without him. I’m
going to get ready for bed, Jazz normally comes about now. Goodnight sweet diary until tomorrow.

Isabella Marie Swam (hopefully some day) Cullen

I pulled my phone out and texted Jasper, with a smile.

 “Hey baby, I miss you.” I sent. I heard a pair of footsteps from about a mile away. I
tried to pay them to mind. I just put in my earphones and pulled out my diary. I wrote about
Edward raping me and me being a vampire. I knew in a hundred years I would want to be able to
read this and know exactly what I was thinking. I slowly shut my diary and looked up, and hissed.

“Well hello, love.” He purred.

“Get the fuck out of here Edward. I still owe you a good kick in the nuts for that stunt
back there.” I screeched.

“My, what a bad mouth we have. Maybe I should wash it out.” I scoffed and stuck my
tongue out at him. I knew it was childish, but I couldn’t help it. Before I could register it Edward had
his lips on mine. I threw him through the wall and straddled him.

“If you ever touch me again I will kill you, do you hear me?’’ I snarled. He just laughed
and ripped out of my hands.

“I’ll be back Isabella and I will make you mine.” He sang as he bounded out of my
reach and through the window. I squeaked and shrank down to my knees.

Jasper Pov

I could feel her pain and horror. I had no idea why. I was already finished hunting. I
was running full speed for the house than I was able to hear.

“I’ll be back Isabella and I will make you mine.” Edward sang happily. I felt like
ripping him to pieces, but my mate was in pain and she was first. I ran into the house and threw my
arms around her.

“I’m here Sugar. I’m here.” I said. I could see her tears running down her face. I knew
she could cry, but it just made my dead heart crack a little. I held her, and I knew at that moment I
would kill him for what he did to her. I was tired off letting him do this stuff. Carlisle and Esme were
still on a cruise around the world. They had asked us not to call till the end of the cruise. They didn’t
know about any of this. They had been gone since Bella’s miscarriage. They had no idea what was
happening here. I racked her brain for all the details, everything he had said and done.

“Jazz, don’t let him come back.” She said pitifully in my arms. I nodded

“Never.” I thought to her. If he ever went near my mate again he would be sorry and I
wouldn’t take the time to give Carlisle a good reason. I’m sorry, but I love my mate and she had
been hurt by Edward more that once and I was done. She straightened herself up and kissed me
with heat and passion. When we ended our kiss I just held her.

“Bella, what is the thing you always have blocked in your little head. I really would
like to know.” I said earnestly. She shrugged and looked up at me.

“Just my diary, when I write in it it’s normally very personal thoughts. Of course you
could read some entry. I am proud of a few.” She said with a smile. I nipped her nose playfully. She
yelped in surprise. I chuckled and thought, ”Darlin, I love you more than you will ever begin to
imagine. Edward’s just a fly on the windshield. I will kill him for what he’s done in the past. I won’t
let him hurt you again. I swear it Isabella.” I finished. I just sat there rocking her gently. She sighed
contently.

“I know Jazz. Don’t worry, next time I see him I am going to kick his ass all the way to
Canada.” She said with a smirk. I smiled and bit my lip. She thought it was sexy which made me do it
even more.

“Why Canada?” I asked curiously. She shrugged and smiled. The gleam in her eye was
back, and it made me ecstatic to see it. It hadn’t been there since before Edward raped her.

“I don’t know, I have just always wanted to go there so it’s a win/win thing for me.”
She said brightly. I chuckled and kissed her forehead. I wished I could kill Edward now, but reason
took over me. I would wait for Carlisle and Esme to get back, so they could say their goodbyes. They
didn’t even know Bella and I were mated. I knew they needed time to themselves. But this time it
was a little ridicules.

“I can’t wait for Carlisle and Esme to come back.” She murmured with a frown gracing
her beautiful lips. I nodded, silently agreeing with her. She sighed and laid back in my arms. I heard
Emmet quietly knock on the door.

“Come in.” I said in barely above a whisper. I didn’t want to destroy the peace and
quiet in our little room. I had been able to block out Emmet and Rose’s… err activities.

“Hey, Emmy Bear,” My mate smiled. He barreled over to her and pulled her from my
arms and into hers. I growled and hissed at this. Bella just smirked and hugged him back.

“What the hell did he do. I know he was here, I can smell in your room.” He growled.
She just shrugged and looked down.

“He tried to rape me again, but easily found out he wasn’t nearly as strong as I am.”
She said, I chucked and ran a hand through my hair. I really needed to cut it or something.

“Jasper Hale, don’t even think about it. If you cut the hair don’t even think of sex for
the next century.” She shot at me. I was baffled at the thought of her withholding sex. I immediately
started thinking of letting it grow out. She smiled. “That’s what I thought.” She smirked.

“Bells since you have Jaspers gift could you guys have sex already, I could really use
the lust right now.” Emmet said with a smile. I shot Emmet a grateful smile and looked over at Bella
innocently.

“If it would help Emmet than we should.” I said as innocently as I could.

“Sure, just for you Emmy Bear. I hope it doesn’t overwhelm you considering the fact
that there’s 2 of us now.” She smirked. Emmet leaped out of the room.

“Rose Baby, Lets have some fun.” He yelled from out the door. I smiled and closed the
door behind him.

“Well Darlin, I think I am about to make you cum.” I said with a smirk. She rolled her
eyes and laughed. I growled playfully and through her against the wall.
 “That might have hurt it I was human.” She said. I pulled her up roughly and kissed
her. Lust was coming off the both of us in waves.

“Well, I don’t want to hurt you, but I do want to make you scream my name.” I
growled. I ripped her shirt off and threw shredding down.”

“Aw, I liked that one.” She pouted. I’d just buy her a new one. I highly doubt that next
time would be any different. I stopped kissing her face and started to kiss from her head to her toes,
always passing her red pulsing spot. She didn’t like it at all. She pulled my face up to hers and kissed
me with passion that had me on my knees.

“Well Major, I think it’s about time we disposed of these clothes isn’t it.” She smirked I
nodded in complete agreement. She slowly got down on her knees, bouncing a little bit. She was
trying to make me crazy and it was working. She slowly pulled off my shirt. I ripped my pants off
quickly. Then I remembered, those weren’t mine I was borrowing them from a friend. Oops. I pulled
her to the bed slowly. It was my turn to have some fun. I laid her down on the bed and jumped on
top.

“Ready Sugar?” I asked. She nodded at loss of words. I decided to listen to her
thoughts for a second.

“I can’t believe this is mine. I don’t deserve it. He’s so perfect, beautiful I couldn’t be
any luckier.” I smirked and thrusted into her. I moaned loudly and did it again. I did it until I
couldn’t do it anymore and we both peaked screaming each other’s name. I fell to the other side of
her and pulled her into my arms. I laid my chin on her head and breathed in deep. I was in complete
heaven.

Carlisle Pov

“Darling, can we go home, I miss the kids.” Esme said against my chest. We were
laying together. The cruise really was amazing. Every continent we visited, we were able to say
hello to old friends. Sure I missed the kids, but we really needed this.

“Of course, my dear. When do you want to head home?” I asked. She smiled and
snuggled into my chest. I couldn’t help the purr that escaped my lips.

“The sooner, the better.” She said. I nodded. The next stop was America anyway so we
could just wait to be there and run home.

“Americas the next stop, we can stop there. Does that work?” I asked, she nodded and
breathed in.

“I wonder how Bella is,” Esme said, ”I mean it’s not easy dealing with the death of a
child, non the less 2.” She said with worry saturating her voice. I knew she knew what it was like.
Her child had died as well. She was the only one who knew how terrible it really was.

“I’m sure they would’ve called if something happened.” I said. She shook her head in
disagreement.

“No they wouldn’t, you told them not to contact you at all until we came home, I
highly doubt they would even consider calling you with that said.” She said. I immediately felt bad
for saying that. I knew I wanted time for just us, but I now realized how truly wrong. What if
something bad had happened and we were too busy to know?

“Esme, are you up to a little swim?” I asked. She looked at me quizzically with her
eyebrows pulled together.

“What?” she asked.

“Why don’t we swim home, it’d be fun. Plus I really want to go home.” I said
emotionally. I did miss the kids.

“That’s a good idea. Last one in the water is a rotten dinosaur egg.” She said with a
smile. We both ran into the moonlight and jumped off the edge of the boat and started swimming.

Charlie Pov (right when he gets home from work, before he reads Bella’s note)

I slowly grudged into the house. I grumbled mostly to myself. There was always
something keeping me from coming home when it came to work. I hung up my gun and belt.

“Bella, I’m home.” I yelled up the stairs. Ever since Jacob left I always wanted to make
sure she was okay. I knew she had the Cullen’s, but I still worried. I walked into the kitchen and saw
a note. I picked it up and skimmed through it. Normally she just called me, but I guess this was okay.

I pulled the food out of the fridge and stared at the broccoli in disgust. I pulled cheese
out and practically poured the whole bag on the broccoli, anything to keep from really tasting it. I
was just sitting down to eat when I the phone started ringing. Don’t we ever have peace in this
town?

“Is this Charlie Swan?” a unfamiliar voice asked.

“Yes this is, how may I help you.” I asked professionally.

“Well sir, we think your daughter may have gotten in a car crash.” I sucked in a huge
breathe of air. Tears started streaming down my face. She had just gone to 2 places. How could she
be dead?

“Are you sure?” I asked thickly.

“Does your daughter have an old beat up ’75 Chevy Truck?”

“Yes.” I said as I stifled a sob.

“Then yes, were sure. We need you to come down and sign some papers.” The man
said. I started to cry.

“I’ll be there.” I said barely above a whisper. My poor baby. My poor Isabella.

Bella POV

I couldn’t believe it. I was at my own funeral. It felt wrong, so very wrong. The
Cullen’s had been invited so me, being a Cullen, went as well. My father sat upfront stiffly my
mother at his side. She had tears running down their faces. This wasn’t the last image of my family
that I wanted. I sprinted out of the place, trying to keep at a good pace so the humans wouldn’t see
anything of it. I heard Jasper back behind me. He easily kept up with me, and for the most part let
me run it off.

“Sugar, can we stop running we need to head back for the families sake, they’re
probably worried sick.” I nodded and stopped running. My body felt numb. I wanted the images to
go away. Jasper had warned me that going would be a bad idea. It would hurt me in some way, but
me being stubborn had to go. I had to be there.

“Jazz, why didn’t I listen to you?” I asked with a frown. He shrugged and kissed my
forehead and winked.

“Cause you’re the Goddess of War darling, you have your own mind and your own
ideas. You listen to no one else. I love it about you.” He finished. I wished I hadn’t been so freaking
stubborn now. We finally made it back to the funeral and waited outside for the family. As the
family walked out of the church I heard Carlisle’s voice.

“Come on, dear. We are almost where they are. I can’t wait to see them.” I took off at
the direction of their voice and slammed into Carlisle’s chest. I started to cry. Everything kept
adding up, the threats, the funeral. Everything just had all finally exploded in my chest.

Carlisle POV

“Come on, dear. We are almost there.” I said. I could hear their voices. I could smell
one extra scent. It was familiar, but I couldn’t place it. It was getting closer, very quickly. I slipped
into a defensive crouch in front of Esme. Familiar or not I wasn’t going to take the chance. I looked
up fast enough I noticed a girl with black hair or, no it was dark brown. She was beautiful, not
nearly as beautiful as Esme in my opinion.

That’s when I realized that the vampire was Bella. How could she have been changed?
How could I have missed? Why was their so much pain in her eyes? What had happened to my little
girl. She slammed into my chest at a force that made me gasp. Tears, real tears not venom, started
streaming down her face.

“What happened here.” I said fury masking my voice. Who ever had made this happen
was dust. I felt Esme trying to mentally calm me, but we both knew it wasn’t possible.

“Hey dad.” Jasper said with a pained expression.

“What happened after we left?!” I screamed. Esme sat rubbing circles into my back
trying to calm me. Jasper ran up and pulled Bella out of my arms and held her while I tried to get
control of myself. Bell finnaly calmed down and sat there lost in her thoughts.