Things I wish I knew before I started on this Journey

Be Aware

Axiom: We are aware that we are aware. Self-reflexivity Awareness

Corollary: Attention is the “will” directing awareness into some particular channel and
keeping it there.. Loisette

Breathe
Axiom: Breathing is an activity. We are aware that we are breathing either by physical
sensation e.g. air moving in our nostrils or by the movement of a body part such as our chest
expanding and contracting.

Corollary: There is no such thing as breath.

Be Embodied
Being embodied means being in the body sensation or emotion.
Corollary: “Being aware of body sensations does not mean I am embodied.”
See Appendix A for elaboration

Contact your source

Axiom: The source is within us.

Recursion in general means to keep repeating a “process” on the results of each use of the
process. So, for example, if you ask a person, “How are you feeling?” and the answer is
“Sad.” In a recursion you would than ask the question, “And how do you feel about being
sad?” Recursion can be used to obtain the direct transcendental experience.
Transcendence is to go “beyond” ourselves or prior to our individuality,. We “go” to our
individualized experience of all that there is. Another way to put it is we want to
experience who we were before your mother and father was born.”

See Appendix B for different “Recursion to Transcendence” methods

Escape your Prison

Axiom: We are the jailer and the prisoner or as Pogo once said, “We have met the enemy
and he is us.”

Corollary: We have the power to free ourselves.

See Appendix C for “unlocking” or the Getting out of Jail Card

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 Appendix A Mickey’s Axiom on Embodiment.

Being Embodiment means being in the body sensation or emotion.

Let me briefly describe my experience to coming to this axiom.

Years ago, Roger Woolger as he was watching me attempt to do some emotionally regressive
work said to me, “Look it Mickey, you are going in and out of your body” As I attempted to
follow his suggestion “Stay in your body”, I became aware of what I call “somatic deflection’
(My term) or what Perls called “jumping”. Deflection is a gestalt term originated by Miriam
and Erv Polster. They defined deflection as a means of avoiding contact by jumping around
from one thing to another and never staying in the same place for very long.

A more experimental description of the problem and the solution to this problem is given by
Malcolm Huxter, a satipatthana meditation teacher. Here is what he wrote:

“I have been using meditation practices for nearly fifteen years, but began using
satipatthana meditation techniques about 7 years ago. I have attended numerous
meditation retreats and have noticed a "therapeutic" effect of mindfulness in these retreats
and in my daily life.

When I first started employing the satipatthana methods, I began experiencing a pain in
my heart area. At times it would feel as if a knife had been inserted and was being
twisted. At other times, it just ached.

When I meditated the pains would intensify and distract me from the primary object of
the meditation, so one day I decided to make the pain the object of my meditation.

Although the pain was dominant in my consciousness,

I found that when I tried to direct attention to the sensation my focus would 'deflect'.

It was as if my mind wanted to avoid touching that area. I experimented with methods
which would enhance exploration and slowly I learned that if I could generate a quality
of total acceptance and gentle love, then the pain would allow my mind inside. I found
that when I tried to direct attention to the sensation my focus would 'deflect'. It was as if
my mind wanted to avoid touching that area. I experimented with methods which would
enhance exploration and slowly I learned that if I could generate a quality of total
acceptance and gentle love, then the pain would allow my mind inside.”

So this dear ones this is the understanding that I wish more people and trainers would understand
this problem and solution.

May with all be embodied and have access to all of our life energy.

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PS; I recently in working with an NVC trainer I became aware that one of my core beliefs is that
I must become embodied so that I can stop people from violating my body.
PPS: In answer to J…’s question "What is the value of being connected to a given area of your
body?" my first suggestion is do it. Then give this "part" of you empathy. Finally, “What is your
experience?” For me it is a "releasing" and making more of my life energy available to me.
May we all be embodied and have access to all of our life energy.

Part I Perls Strategy for healing Somatic Dissociation

“Previously I (Perls) have warned you against a premature attempt to deal with a scotoma (MJ
note: A area if your body which has no sensation), but by now you should be advanced enough
to attend to it.

If, by letting your attention wander through your body, you discover places that you cannot feel
at all,

Find out at first the boundaries between felt and unfelt parts.
After that, keep your attention on the unfelt region.

This requires a considerable capacity for concentration.

Eventually you will find that there is some particular feel-a hypo-aesthesia like a numbness or a
dullness, a veil or a cloud. Feel this ''as if" experience like a reality, until one day you can almost
literally lift the veil; at that moment the biological sensations and images will come out into the
open, at first for a fraction of a second only, but later increasing their duration, and finally
assuming their proper place in the functioning of the personality.

In the theoretical part I have pointed out that the scotoma is mostly coupled with projections. The
image, sensation or impulse disappears from the internal field and reappears in the environmental
field. Therefore, if we tackle simultaneously with the scotoma the question of projection, we
increase the internal push and assist considerably in the stabilization of the personality.”

Note: Scotoma, as used by Perls is an area of diminished vision within the visual field. Perls
extends this term to include kinesthetic scotoma which is an area in which we feel no sensation
or as I (Mickey) call it somatic dissociation.”

Foot Note

An "indirect" influence can be achieved, for instance, by a vivid imagination. A good actor, by
putting himself into the imagined field of action and identifying himself with the person in
question, can produce emotions, which by direct conscious effort would not appear. (Hamlet
admires this ability- contrasting it with his own emotional lameness.)

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 Part 2 Mickey’s Version David Grove’s Strategy for healing Somatic Dissociation

The following strategy for healing somatic dissociation is based on the work of David Grove.
The intent is to elicit information about is true for you. There is no correct answer. The answer
comes from inside of you. Frequently the reaction is, “Wow, I never knew that!” This is not an
intellectual exercise where you already know the answer or where we think about it. It is an
experiential exercise in which you “do” it and await for the answer to emerge from inside you.

First Step.
Say to yourself “And when I say the word “I” where is my I when I say the word “I”?
Now what is your experience of the location of your sense of “Iness”.

Second Step:

What is your experience as you move your “Iness” into different parts of your body?
Your head? Your chest? Your stomach? Your legs?” Your arms? Etc.

Third Step:

Can you “stay” in a given body area and let the emotion there move in the way it needs to
do for its transformation ? Drop the story and stay in the emotion.

May your journey be easy?

Mickey Judkovics

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 Appendix B

We follow our quest by asking a question. Mickey

Recursive Transformative Visceral Questions (TVQ)

As we’ve said recursion is a process is of repeating the same question over and over again until
you achieve the result you want. So how do we ask the question and what are the questions we
ask? First, in asking the question we are seeking an answer that comes from our inner depths, an
answer, which is prior to your intellectual understanding. Secondly, as we ask the question and
wait for the answer to emerge, we keep our awareness inside ourselves, inside our body. Below
is a list of some questions you might ask.
Jori Manske: “And if you had that then what would you have?” NVC needs are being met.
Or (Mickey) “If that happens then what would happen?”
Asking these type questions recursively gets us beyond our needs to what Robert Gonzales calls
quality of being, i.e. Peace, Love joy, OKNESS, etc.
Mickey’s Questions (Modified from the work of David Grove)
“What was this before it was this?”
Megan Reichman’s question: “Where is this from?”
Or “Where does this come from?”
Bandon Bays’ (The founder of the Journey) Question:
“What is behind this?” Or “What is beneath this?” or “What is underneath this? “
From Ramana Maharshi of the advaiti tradition:
Ask, “Who am I?” or “What am I?”
For transforming emotions (Fear anger sadness):
Now ask, "What is my experience of the source of this energy?"
Then if you want, feel it in your body. Let it spread throughout you whole body. Stay
with it as long as you can.
Wolinsky recursive statement procedure:
Find something that you can say "I" about.
E.g. "I'm sad.” “I'm a man”
Or one can also use affirmations, for example, "I am a loving being".
Locate where in your body you are saying the "I" statement. Be there awhile.
From that place in your body, now say only "I",
Feel energy in this part of your body periodically saying "I".

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