INTRODUCTION

A lot has changed ever since we met.. I am now 6 months pregnant, and there’s alot of
improvement in my life.
I got my results, the lowest mark i had was 60% which was maths, i hit a distinction in Life
sciences got 84% and i got 71% for Physical sciences..
Banzi and i we madly inlove, he has changed he now knows how to control his Anger, we
spend most of our Time laughing and creating sweet memories than fighting..
Although i had given up my dream of being a doctor, but I’m still pursuing the one of being a
Pharmacist. But not just a pharmacist a head-Pharmacist.
I had taken up the learnership from Tpee and I’m making it Banzi and i we still planning our
wedding..
But you know drama always follows Me, although i might sound happy but there’s just one
person who cannot give me peace.
Let us go through my life again, and i hope this time around we’ll have a less bumpy Road.

I AM NOKWANDA NDABA, MRS ZULU THE 2ND. AND THIS, IS MY STORY AGAIN

PART 1 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
May 18, 2016visionarywritings
I soo wanted to experience the Varsity life so bad that im Sharing a flat with my best friend
Nobuhle.
I have also put her on the THOBEKGALE SCHOOL OF PHARMACY.
We were tighter than before because now we stuck with each other 24/7.
THE THOBEKGALE SCHOOL OF PHARMACY (TSOP) gives learnerships and Bursaries
to students who wanna pursue a career in Pharmacy.. I admire the campus it was not that big
and it was not small it accommodates 500 students.. When you done with your studies either
you work here in S.A or you go and work overseas..
The THOBEKGALE PHARMACEUTICAL COMPANY was coming the biggest and well
recognised pharmaceutical company in the African continent that now Mr Thobekgale senior
is building his own private Hospital..
The THOBEKGALE family was just swimming in money that some they didn’t even know
what to do with it.. That’s why they expanding their wealth by building a hospital and having
a Pharmacy school. The school is registered and it gives out certificates and Diplomas in
Pharmacy,they still yet to have a Degree in Pharmacy.
The certificate was a minimum of 1 year and max 2 years, then the diploma is 3 years min
and 4 years max. If you fail, you repeat the year if you fail twice they exclude you. Not
everyone gets the privilege to be here, only the best of the best end up here.
We were sitting in class waiting for our results, we had written a Pharmacy test last week.
Pharmacy is very difficult with the capital “P” and i was very nervous….
Buhle and myself we studied soo hard for this test. The tests are always multiple choice but
the fuckery is that there’s negative marking, so for every wrong they gonna subtract 0.5 on
the next answer that you gonna get correct..
The test wasn’t that hard, but with Pharmacy you can never be sure there’s alot of people who
were excluding for failing it twice. The students feel like negative marking is what’s killing
them but unfortunately we cannot change the rules..
We were a class of 50 students, all first years they have like 4 classes of first year students
each class consist of 50-60 students..
Prof fouche walked in he is the one who is teaching us pharmacy..
He is old, and has been a pharmacist for 40 years. He has a masters in that..
He had a mark attached to his coat, so we can all hear him because it was a big lecture Hall.
He was holding a piece of paper, he didn’t come with the scripts..
The lecturers don’t mark our scripts, the computer is the one that does all the marking so that
no student gets cheated..
Him: Good morning
We greeted him back.
Him: the marks are ready, i just need to compile everything then put them on the notice
board..I must say though that i am not happy with the results, most of you have failed dismal!
I started getting very worried, i am scared of failing..
Him: only a few students passed well but then others i don’t know what happened. Do you
guys know that if you underperform you are going to be on thin ice.
This guy tells it like it is..
Him: Don’t think you were the only ones who applied, no we get alot of applications every
year so for us to have selected you it’s a privilege and a blessing. But now I’m starting to
think that it’s a misfortune because you guys are not serious. Do you know that there’s alot of
students just waiting to enroll here at TSOP? Students with better results than some of you
here! You guys are wasting our time but most importantly you wasting your parent’s money,
our Bursaries, our study loans you wasting alot of our money. If you not sure why you here,
then go home and keep your bed warm..
The class laughed
Him: You laugh now but it won’t be funny when you see your results..
He opened the paper.
Him: in this paper i have names of the people who got distinctions (75%-100%), and I’m
gonna call their names out..
He called out the names, Buhle and i we were holding each other’s hands very tight we
needed to be in that list we studied hard. Lucky for us we made the list, we couldn’t believe
we were screaming like crazy…
Prof Fouche: Only 10 people got distinctions, some played around 60s and then others around
50s then the rest was a fail! Although 50% is a pass but i consider it a fail!
His phone rang..
Him: Excuse me
He walked out to answer it..
Buhle: i can’t believe we made it!
Me: You don’t know how Scared i was..
Voice: Well we know how Miss Nokwanda passed the test..
Eish i recognise that voice. That is Nataschi Aka Tash/Tasi.. She is my biggest enemy at the
campus right now. She bullies me on social media I’m talking about Facebook, Twitter, you
name it she’s there always throwing salt at me..
Tasi is Banzi’s ex when Banzi was still at it he happened to have fucked around and fucked
her so that’s why we here..
She stood up..
Her: Let’s give Nokwanda a round of applause she probably was given the memo
She started clapping..
Her: Yall know she’s engaged to my ex Clinton, Clinton happens to be Tshepiso
Thobekgale’s best friend so you know all of this comes with benefits..
Buhle: Tasi why are you always on Nokwanda’s case? Why don’t you just leave her alone
she studied hard for this test!
Tasi: Why don’t you just shut up! Because i wasn’t talking to you!
Sometimes Tasi makes me cry, that’s how much she gets to me!
Buhle: You are soo bitter and jealous!
Tasi: Jealous of what?? I mean look at me
She started turning around.. Aii yena she had the body and looks i have nothing on her that’s
why sometimes she becomes a threat to me..
Her: What’s there to be jealous of? I mean look at her then look at me.
Buhle: Then why is she with Clinton and not you?
Her: She trapped him with a baby.. That’s what ugly bitches do they trap niggas with babies..
I was boiling inside, i was busy tapping my foot..
Her: even with the baby Nokwanda you can’t make him love you, if you is ugly then you is
ugly!
That’s it, I’m tired of this bitch!
Me: Shut up!! First of all nothing about you is real! I know about the plastic surgery
Her: Sweety everything about me is real. The only unreal thing about me is the fact that i had
an accident then i had to fix my nose..
Me: You whole life is an accident!!
Buhle laughed..
Tasi: still that doesn’t change that you ugly!
Yooh this bitch! Mr fouche came back to do the question paper with us…i wasn’t
concentrating anymore i was boiling, i was hurt and all that..
Buhle: Don’t let her get to you..
.
Class was finally out, Buhle and i Walked up to the door.. Someone suddenly pushed me and
i hit the wall.. I felt a bit of cramps in my tummy..
Me: Awwwww
Buhle: Are you okay babe?.. Agh Nataschi what the hell Is your problem??
Tasi: Ohh my bad it was an “Accident” remember my whole life is an “Accident”
Buhle came to me, i was crying..
Her: Are you okay?
Me: i think so..
We started walking out..
Buhle: i cannot believe she did that! That low life bitch!
I still felt the cramps but they weren’t so bad anymore..
Her: Are you sure you fine?
Me: Ya i just need to sit down
Her: Let’s go back to the lecture Hall
We went back to the lecture Hall and i sat down..
Buhle: Want me to get you some?
Me: No I’m Okay
My phone rang, it was Banzi.. I answered.
Him: a little bird tweeted that somebody got a distinction..
Me: Ohw
Him: i thought you’ll be thrilled
I put him on loud speaker..
Buhle: Tell him (whispering)
Me: No.
Buhle: Tell him Kwanda
Me: No
Banzi: Tell me what?
Buhle: Kwanda she..
I looked at her, with pleading eyes i didn’t want her to tell him..
Buhle: She.. Someone pushed her
Banzi: What do you mean someone pushed her?
Buhle: She.. We were..
Banzi: Buhle talk!!!
I could sense that his mad angry now.
Buhle: it was a mistake though
Him: Who pushes someone by mistake?
We didn’t know what to say..
Banzi: I’ll be coming to your flat later, i think there’s alot that you girls wanna tell me
He hunged up..
Me: Nice going Buhle!
Her: He had to know.. You cannot let this girl bully you like this!

PART 2 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
May 19, 2016visionarywritings
Buhle and i we were having lunch at some cafe, we were done with classes for the day..
She was eating a pie and juice, i was having a salad.
Her: We are not hungry today?
I pushed the plate away from me.
Me: We are always hungry
Her: Still uneasy about what Tasi did?
Me: more like how she looks, how do i compete with that?
Buhle: You needn’t not to compete with her, Banzi is with you..
Me: Do you know how Scared i am, of him going back to his previous life
Buhle: Why would he?
Me: Look at me, i am a hippo! i wonder if he misses all those bitches.
Buhle: You like bringing yourself unnecessary stress, here have some juice..
I always live in fear that Banzi might just wake up one day and decide to go back to that life
of his, of dating bitches like Tasi..
Me: i haven’t felt my Mbalenhle moving today
Yes i am carrying a baby girl, and NaZulu already named her Mbalenhle.
Buhle: You need to go to the doctor
Me: i think so too, let me call Banzi
I took my phone and called him..
Him: Barbzie..
Me: Hey uhm.. Can you meet me at the doctor’s office?
Him: Why? Is everything Okay?
Me: Just wanna see if Mbalenhle is okay especially after the accident i had at school
Him: Okay I’ll meet you there
Me: Okay bye..
Buhle and i stood up, and we went to my car then drove to the Doctor’s office..
We got there and luckily for me, she was free. Buhle and i waited for Banzi at the reception.
Banzi walked in after 30min..he hugged Buhle then hugged me too.
Him: Sorry i took long, things were crazy at the office
Me: I’m just glad that you here
Him: Shall we go in?
Me: Ya
We took our file, and went in..
She was on the phone we waited for her..
Banzi got me a female doctor, that’s how insecure my husband is.
The doctor got off the phone after a while.
Her: My favourite patients
We greeted her
Her: Nokwanda i thought we were gonna see each other next week.
Me: i.. I had an accident at school and now i can’t feel my baby moving
Her: What kind of an accident?
Me: someone pushed me and i hit the wall
Her: Eishhhh im sorry i can imagine how painful that was
Me: Ya it was.
Her: You can go and change, and then we’ll do a scan
Me: Okay
I went to the other room to change,Banzi was with me..
Me: So you also gonna follow me to the toilet?
He chuckled
Him: just want to make sure that you okay
He touched my tummy….
Me: i am okay
Him: Okay
He helped me change into the hospital gown, then i went and got on the bed. He was sitting
beside me and holding my hand..
Dr: Okay let’s see what’s happening.
She put on the gel in my tummy and started with the scan.. The screen shows my baby the
way she is, this woman’s equipment was out of this world..
Dr: Ncoooh look at her she’s sleeping while sucking her thumb
She looked soo cute and adorable i just couldn’t wait for her to be born.
Dr: You gonna have one cute baby girl
Banzi: Well she takes after me
Dr: it looks that way.
Me: Is everything fine doc?
Her: Yes, everything seems to be okay. Her heartbeat is okay and she’s fine..
While she was busy, there’s a certain spot that she landed on that made my baby to move
very fast…That sudden movement caused me a bit of pain
Me: ouch!
Banzi: Are you okay?
Me: Yes i just don’t like it when she does that
Dr: Did you hit the wall on your right side?
Me: i think so
She touched there again and my baby moved again.
Dr: i think she’s still in shock about the impact that’s why she’s moving like this when i
touch this area.
Banzi: should that be a concern?
Her: Not really, she will be fine after some time.. I think this would be all we done
Me: Thank you Doc
Her: Don’t forget about our appointment next week
Me: i won’t.
I got up, went to change then we all drove to my flat, with Banzi following us…

We got to the flat, and all i wanted to do was just to relax

Banzi: Who pushed you again?
Buhle and i looked at each other
Me: i don’t really remember, we were all rushing to exit at the door it was crowded..
He took out his phone and dialed some number, he put it on loud speaker.
Voice: Dawg
Banzi: i am pissed Yow
I noticed that he was speaking to Tpee
Tpee: Sup?
Him: Some fucker at your school pushed Nokwanda to the wall, i almost lost my girls Man!
Tpee: Does Nokwanda know who pushed her?
Buhle: Well it..
Me: No i don’t.. It was full we were at the door
Banzi looked at me and i don’t know if he believed. He then walked out to talk to Tpee in
private..
Buhle: Why won’t you tell him?
Me: i don’t want him killing Tasi okay.. I don’t want my baby daddy being arrested i still
need him..
Buhle: His not gonna kill hwr
Me: You don’t know my husband
I wish i could tell Banzi, but I’m scared that him and Tpee might go on a Killing Spree again
and what if this time around they don’t get lucky, what if they get arrested..

PART 3 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
May 19, 2016visionarywritings
I’m in the bedroom all changed to my leggings and a t-shirt. I find them very comfortable.
I am laying in bed with my phone, and I’m on Facebook… Banzi walks in and takes off his
shoes, then joins Me in bed that phone call took forever.
Him: Woza ngik’shaye ngelamza (come here let me give you a kiss)
He gently pulls me closer and we kiss, i love all our wet kisses and they always make me
horny.
Me: Where did you learn to talk like that?
Him: I’m trying to be hood, i heard girls love niggas that are hood..
I laugh..
He leans closer and kisses me again, this time around with his hand running all over my
tummy..
My hormones are starting to betray me, i feel myself getting wet and getting very Horny..
He wets his two fingers, before i know it they have made their way inside my leggings..
Him: Can i take them off, they restricting me?
Me: Okay
I help him take my leggings off.. We continue kissing, our tongues colliding my hand running
slowly on his cheek.
His other hand has already made its way inside my Bumshort, he is vigorously rubbing me.. I
feel my hormones betraying me, I’m getting very wet i can’t kiss him anymore I’m just
moaning..
Him: You like that?
Words fail to come out, I’m just nodding my head..
After a while i help him take off his shirt and pants, he helps me take off my tshirt too.. My
hands makes it inside his boyshorts i am giving him a hand job, his fingers have already made
it into my wet hole..
Him: You very wet (Whispering)
I want him inside already..
He gets up and get a condom from my drawer, then he locks the door.
How we gonna do this with my big tummy on the way, u seriously don’t know..
He puts on the condom, then makes me sit against the headboard with pillows supporting my
back.. My legs are wide open, I’m holding them with my hands just to give him more room..
He slowly enters me, it’s a bit painful we haven’t had sex in a while…
Before i know it, i am screaming and he is moaning..
He is giving it to me, no like seriously giving it to me.
After a while i come, it doesn’t take long for him to come too..
We are breathing heavily, that was good though..
We decide to take a shower Together, and had one last round there then we went to bed and i
passed out in his arms..

BANZI
I am woken up by my phone ringing, i quickly grab it before it wakes Kwash up..
I slowly remove her from me, then i go out of the bedroom to answer it, its Tpee
Me: Nigga do you know what time it is?
Him: Fuck that we have a situation, meet me at the warehouse
He hangs up… I go back into the bedroom, Kwash is still sleeping peacefully..
I get dressed then i kissed her on her forehead and went out..
As i open the kitchen door i hear a voice saying “Where you going”
I turn around and Im relieved to see Buhle standing there..
Me: You freaked a Nigga out
Her: Sorry but don’t You think it’s late for you to be sneaking out?
Me: i have something to attend too
Her: Okay
Me: And why are you up?
Her: I’m a light sleeper, so i heard some noises that’s when i decided to come and check
what’s going on
Me: Well it’s just me..
I open the door, before i walk out i realise that there’s one important question i need to ask
Buhle..
Me: Buhle
Her: Yes?
Me: Who pushed my wife at school?
Her: uhm.. Well.. I think Kwash already told you
Me: i know Kwash she only told me what i needed to hear, not the truth.
Buhle: i swear we didn’t see who it was..
Me: You know that i will find out right?
Her: You know Banzi i really need to go back to bed, my classes start early and it’s already
01:00
Me: Fine, come and lock..
I walk out, and she locks the door behind me..
I know this girls are protecting someone and I’m gonna find out who they trying to protect…
I get into my Jaguar and drive to the warehouse…

I get to the warehouse and Tpee’s car is already there.

The warehouse is where we do all our dirty jobs that involves killing..
I walk in, and see some guy tied on the chair, his face is swollen and bloody..
Me: What’s up dawg?
Tshepi gives me a video cam..
Tpee: Check that out..
I check it out, and i get the surprise of my life..
Me: How the fuck did he get this?
Tpee: he says he was camping in a nearby area with his friends and they saw us Beating up
Bongz and me pulling the trigger on him..
Me: Fuck, this motherfucker took a video of the whole thing.. How many people have this
footage?
His not talking, he looks drained and ready to pass out..
Tpee: We need to find his friends and take it from there
Me: Yea you right, pass me the gun..
Tpee gives me the gun and i just shoot this fucker right there..

NOKWANDA
I wake up screaming. I am sweating, my heart is racing.. I look around the room and it’s dark
i must’ve had a bad dream.. I look over on my side and Banzi is not there..
I get out of bed, switch on the light and I’m looking for my phone.. This dream i had got me
all shaken up even though i don’t remember what it’s about..
I am looking for my phone i cannot find it, one thing i hate about my pregnancy is that i
forget where i put my things..
I walk out to the kitchen and have a glass of water to calm myself down.. My heart is beating
way too fast nje nginovalo..

PART 4 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
May 19, 2016visionarywritings
NOKWANDA
That dream i had, kept me awake until the early hours of the morning. I actually slept at
06:00am making me to miss my morning class..
It was 10:00am now and i was busy pacing up and down trying to find everything that i will
need for the day. Dread! I can’t find my phone, Buhle is not here i would’ve asked her to call
it.. I’m sure wherever it is Banzi called me alot of times.
I wasn’t going to let my phone make me more late, so i took my car keys and rushed to my
car..
I didn’t even have breakfast, i just bathe and that was it..
I got to school and at least everyone was waiting for the next class at 11:00, we live 30min
away from school..
I went to Buhle, she was sitting at our chilling spot under a big tree. She had her textbook
with her just paging through..
Me: one would swear that you really studying
Her: Gosh Kwanda i knocked and knocked in your room this morning you didn’t open. I was
ready to report you missing..
Me: Yea whatever!
I dropped my bag down and i was trying to sit down which was very very hard sitting flat on
the grass..
Buhle stood up and helped me to sit down…
She looked at me.
Her: How are you holding up?
Me: I’m tired Buhle i just can’t wait to give birth. My back is always Killing me, my feet are
always swollen and sore i can’t take this anymore..
Buhle: Your feet are swollen but you always wearing sneakers
Me: i can’t stop wearing sneakers because of Mbalenhle, i love sneakers..
Her: Suit yourself
Me: Have you seen her majesty today?
Her: Ofcause i saw her, you cannot miss her!
I laughed
Me: i wonder what drama she’s gonna throw at me today?
Buhle: She was quiet today, i don’t think she’ll be on your case
Me: Yeah right..

BANZI
I was sitting ontop of my desk, busy going through some files when i heard footsteps
approaching my office.. After a while i didn’t hear them, only to find my sexy and beautiful
Assistant Yolanda standing at the doorway..
She was wearing a short black skirt, a red shirt and red lips. That Red lipstick of her
Hmmmm i can’t even comment on it..
She has the most beautiful body I’ve ever seen after Beyonce..
Her: may i come in?
Me: You already in
I stood up and she approached me, shit that cleavage!.. She got very close.
Her: should i bring you your coffee sir?
She’s very close to Me, i can smell her perfume she’s just all over my face..
Me: I’ll pass this morning
Her: Well can we at least go out to this new restaurant down the street? I heard they make the
best steak ever..
She pecked my lips.
Me: Can my beautiful pregnant wife come too?
She didn’t expect that answer at all, she stepped away from me and fixed herself…
I laughed for a moment..
I heard a knock at the door it was my mother she walked in..
Mom: Good morning
She looked at Yolanda from head to toe, knowing my mother she already analysed her..
Me: You didn’t tell me that you were coming
Her: I wanted to surprise you
She hugged me,then looked at Yolanda
Her: Seems like I’m the one who got surprised
Me: That’s my assistant Yolanda, and Yolanda this is my mother NaZulu..
Yolanda: it is such an honour to meet you Mam’. You are such a great inspiration i have all
your videos you are such a great motivational speaker..
Mom: i bet i am
Me: Can you please bring my mom something to drink
Yolanda: Yes, Ofcause.
She walked out.. My mom looked at me
Me: I’m not fucking her
She sat down
Her: i hope not..
I went to sit down on my chair too
Her: Banzi don’t play Nokwanda like that
Me: I’ll never do that, i love Kwash and I’m not gonna risk my marriage for a hoe
She smiled at me..
Her: i am very proud of you
Me: I’m proud of myself..
My phone rang..
Me: Can i answer it?
Her: Go ahead
I answered.
Me: Clinton Zulu
Caller: You sound so Formal “Clinton Zulu”
It was Tpee
Me: Nigga what do you want?
Him: i found the person who pushed Nokwanda
Me: Yea?
Him: This is gonna shock you
Me: out with it already
Him: Tash..
Fuck!!!

PART 5 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
May 20, 2016visionarywritings
NOKWANDA
Indeed Tasi was very quiet today, she didn’t bother me at all or even look at me which was
very strange..
It was now lunch time, Buhle and i we were going to get something to eat.
Me: Tasi was indeed quiet today, she looked distracted
Buhle: Whatever happened i wish it can happen everyday so she can stay away from us
everyday
I laughed.. Her phone rang she answered..
Buhle: hello… Ya she’s here.. I don’t know the story with her phone.. Okay
She handed me the phone..
Me: Hello
Banzi: Barbzie what happened to your phone? I’ve been trying to call you.
Me: i misplaced it at the flat
Him: Come to the gate, NaZulu and i we waiting for you at the gate.
Me: Okay im coming
I hunge up and gave the phone back to Buhle..
Me: Let’s go to the gate
Buhle: Why?
Me: Banzi and his mother are waiting for us there
Her: Okay
We walked up to the gate, and indeed Banzi and NaZulu were standing there..
I walked up to NaZulu and hugged her, it’s been a while since I last saw her.
Her: Look at you my darling, you look good
Me: Thank you, and you look good too
She put her hand on my tummy..
Her: and how are we doing down there?
Me: We are fine..
Banzi: They didn’t push you today?
Me: No..
NaZulu: What are you talking about?
Me: i got pushed yesterday and i hit the wall
NaZulu: What?? Who did that?
Banzi: Yeah Kwash who pushed you?
Me: i didn’t see who pushed me
Banzi: Even you Buhle, you didn’t see anything?
She shook her head no
Banzi: Typical best friend!
Me: Ma you still remember Buhle my friend?
NaZulu: How can i forget her?
She hugged her..
NaZulu: How are you doing?
Buhle: I’m fine thanks and you?
NaZulu: I’m good, and thank you for being a good friend to Nokwanda
Banzi giggled..
Banzi: Yea i can make a good friend than her right now..
I wonder what was Banzi’s problem, he was acting rather strange..
NaZulu: Well i came here because i wanted to take you out for lunch, it’s been a while since
we last went out..
Me: I’d like that
Her: Are you attending at 14:00?
Me: No we done for the day
NaZulu: That’s good to hear then we’ll spend the afternoon together
Me: Can Buhle come along too?
NaZulu: Yes, Ofcause she can
Banzi: “Can Buhle come along too” as if like we have a choice
After saying that he got into the car…
Me: What’s wrong with your son?
NaZulu: His been like this ever since he got a phone call from Tshepi
Me: Ohw ya that says it all
He rolled down the window..
Banzi: i don’t have the whole day..
Aii we all got into the car and went..
I spent the whole afternoon with my mother in law, and it was splendid.. We went out to eat,
then did some shopping for Mbalenhle was just a wonderful day.

BANZI
After driving the girls back and sorting out a few things at the office, i decided to go and pay
Nataschi a visit..
I drove up to her flat, was around 18:00.
I got there and rang the bell, didn’t take her long to open..
Her: Clinton?
Me: Are you gonna invite me in?
Her: uhm ya, you can come in..
I walked in and she closed the door…
Her: fancy seeing you here
I looked at her, and thought of how she almost killed my girls… I couldn’t contain myself
anymore i slapped her across her face,then i pulled her by her weave and threw her against
the wall…
I went up to her while she was laying there.
Me: touch my wife again and I’m going to kill you! And take that as a warning..
After saying that i Walked up to the door..
Her: Let’s just tell her the truth shall we?
I stopped and looked at her..
Her: i wonder how she’s going to feel if she could find out that you still the same old abusive
bastard! The therapist shit that was all a front! You paid the therapist to vouch for you that
you going to therapy while you not..
I approached her and she moved backwards while still on the floor..
Her: or let’s tell her how filthy the Zulu family is! Let’s tell her how you guys get all your
wealth.. Let’s tell her about the Rhino horns
Me: Don’t push me Tash
Her: What about the illegal trafficking of organ donors? The explosives that you guys sell to
other countries initiating Terrorist bombing?
Me: Don’t test me! I can smoke you now and no one will even remember you!
She stood up..
Her: i knew you would say that, that’s why i was well prepared. Smoke me and someone else
is going to smoke your precious Wife.
I looked at her..
Her: if you kill me, she will be killed too!
Me: You bluffing
Her: if you think so then kill me, and let’s see if you gonna see your wife tomorrow
Me: What do you want Tash?
Her: You know what i want.. I want you to leave her
Me: That’s never gonna happen
Her: Clinton she’s not for you! Look at Joe she’s trying to change you? Busy wanting you to
see a therapist.
She got closer
Her: You know I will never change you, you can beat me all you want i don’t care
Me: You sick Nataschi you need help!
Her: You will leave her!
PART 6 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON
TWO
May 20, 2016visionarywritings

NOKWANDA
I was pacing down at the kitchen starring at that KFC meal. I love their Mash&gravy i got to
have it at least twice a day. So my meal was on the kitchen counter 4 pieces of chicken,
Mash&gravy, Coslow salad, and 2 mini loaves…
This is a perfect meal, but the only problem is that Banzi doesn’t want me touching the
chicken because he says sometimes their chicken is raw inside and that might not be good for
the baby, so everytime when i buy the meal i only eat the Mash&gravy..
Buhle walked in as i was busy checking it out..
Her: Are you gonna eat already?
Me: Are you crazy?
Her: Then stop starring at it as if like it’s in the museum..
Me: i mean it’s not like Banzi is gonna find out, plus I’m not gonna eat it everyday just for
tonight what harm can it do?
Her: Nokwanda either you eat it or you don’t
Me: Hmmmm I’m confused, this is a stressful
Her: i so wish to be you
I looked at her
Her: people have important things to worry themselves about, like what they gonna eat at
night and you are worried about whether you should eat a KFC meal or not..
Me: When you put it like that, you make it sound so very bad
Her: Anyway what was wrong with your husband today?
Me: What do you mean?
Her: The attitude
Me: His like that when his under pressure don’t mind him.
Her: i have to mind him because he made it seem as if like I’m a bad friend..
Me: You not a bad friend and he knows that
The door flung open as we were standing there, and Banzi came in you’d swear that a
Tornado or a lightning struck the flat.
Banzi: Why the fuck don’t you guys lock the door?
Buhle: That’s my queue to leave
She walked away to her bedroom. Banzi seemed a bit off, he looked very very very angry.
He banged the door,my heart jumped a bit.
Him: Yall should fucken lock the door at all times..
I didn’t say anything i just looked at him,he calmed himself down…
He put his hands around tummy and kissed me on my forehead..
Him: I’m sorry..
I put my hand on his cheek..
Me: What’s wrong?
He exhaled..
Him: just been dealing with some shit today
Me: NaZulu did mention that you weren’t yourself anymore after receiving a call from Tpee
Him: I’ll be fine
Me: If you say so then
Him: How are you? Didn’t have any problems at school?
Me: No school was fine..
Him: Speaking of school i.. There’s something we need to talk about
Me: What is it?
Him: first of all Kwash why are you even going to school?
Me: Excuse me?
Him: Its not like we financial stranded, i mean when you work we won’t even need the
money
Me: Its not about the money
Him: Then what is it about?
Me: i wanna be independent Banzi, i want to get me a qualification and be educated i don’t
wanna be another typical housewife..
Him: i don’t wanna lie, i would’ve preferred you to raise our baby
Me: i am gonna raise our baby
Him: Part time?
Me: Banzi where is all of this coming from all of a sudden?
Him: i.. I want you to quit school
Me: What?
Him: Kwash TSOP has proven not to be a good environment for you.
Me: i am not quitting school
He snapped..
Him: JUST LISTEN TO ME FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE!!!!
Me: I’m not gonna do this with you right now..
I walked away, he followed me..
Him: Kwash I’m sorry…
I got into the bedroom and shut the door at his face then i locked it while leaning on it trying
to determine if his gone or not..
Him: Nokwanda Ndaba, Mrs Zulu the 2nd i am sorry..
I didn’t say anything.
Him: just open the door so we can talk about this..
I heard Buhle talking..
Buhle: Maybe you should just leave Banzi
Banzi: Stay out of it Buhle
Buhle: I’m not gonna stay out of it, if you portraying a violent behaviour towards my friend i
have every right to interfer.
Banzi: Don’t you have something better to do with your life right now?
Buhle: Please leave before i call the Cops
Banzi: Here, you can use my phone
Buhle: You think I’m tripping I’m calling them for real
Banzi: call them already! You think I’m scared of the police?
Buhle: Its ringing
I know Buhle is crazy and she probably is calling them for real, so i decided to open unlock
the door and opened it..
Me: Buhle it’s fine
She had her phone next to her ear..
Buhle: Are you sure because it’s already ringing
Me: I’m sure
She hunged up..
Her: if you need anything I’ll be in my bedroom
I nodded and she went to her bedroom.. Banzi looked at me.
Him: I’m sorry for acting like a jerk
Me: When last did you see your therapist?
Him: Its been a while now
Me: maybe you should call and make an appointment…
Him: I’m not gonna Hit you Kwash
Me: So you say
Him: if you not gonna quit school then can you do me one favour?
Me: What’s that?
Him: move in back with me
Me: Banzi..
Him: Kwash I’m trying to protect you
Me: protect me from?
He didn’t say anything..
Me: protect me from what Banzi? What the hell Is going on?
Him: i went to see Tasi and..
Me: Wait you what? You went to see Tasi? Tasi Asnt like your ex? The one i go to school
with?
Him: Its not what you think?
Me: maybe you should leave
Him: Nokwanda i didn’t go there for what you think
Me: Buhle can you please call the Cops!!! (shouting)
Him: Fine I’m leaving..
He tried to kiss me but i pushed him off, those lips probably kissed Nataschi and now he
wanna kiss me, how Pathetic!

PART 7 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
May 22, 2016visionarywritings
NOKWANDA
It was a Saturday morning, and i decided that it would do me good if i could go and visit
home for the weekend especially since Monday it’s a holiday. Although home is not a happy
place, but home is home and i really wanna go to church it’s been a while. I’m thinking that’s
why all of this is happening because i haven’t been in touch with my spiritual life and i need
to ignite that salvation in me, i really need to fix my life…
I dragged my luggage bag to the door, Buhle was not around I’ll just call her when i get
home…
I went to my car, and put my bag in the trunk and drove home…

BANZI
I was at the kitchen drinking coffee, i was gonna drive to Tpee’s place, his the best Nigga to
confide in when it comes to such situations.. My mom walked in as i was standing there..
Surprisingly she didn’t say a word to me.
Me: Good morning
Her: What’s good about it?
Me: What’s bugging you?
Her: i got a call from your wife last night and she sounded pretty upset
You can’t touch my mother with Nokwanda, she loves her with all her heart..
Her: She’s saying you cheating with Nataschi, i thought we were pass that!
I put the mug down..
Me: im not cheating
Mom: Then explain you visiting her
Me: it wasn’t even a friendly visit
She looked at me
Me: i went to her because i wanted to tell her to stay away from Kwash.. She’s the one who
pushed her at school
Her: What?
Me: And that didn’t go well, she started blackmailing me that she’s gonna tell Nokwanda
about the family businesses and that if i hurt her Nokwanda will be hurt too..
Mom: What’s her price?
Me: I’m her price
She didn’t know what to say, that comment drained her strength..
Her: ive always warned you against this girls Banzi look where we are now..
Me: i know mom you don’t have to remind me
Her: Have you tried calling Nokwanda?
Me: She doesn’t answer my calls
Mom: poor thing, she’s probably alone wherever she is crying her lungs out.. Let me call her.
She took her phone and called her..
Her: Voicemail.. I probably should go and check if she’s okay
Me: Do that,while i find ways to deal with Nataschi

NOKWANDA
I got home after a while, my Grandma was happy to see me, she helped me carry my luggage
inside. You know how it is In the hood, almost everyone was out of their houses checking me
out and Gossiping.. That happens alot when you from a hood that has alot of girls who don’t
wish each other good things..
Koko: Nokwanda I’m soo happy to see you
Me: I’m happy to see you too
We sat down at the lounge..
Her: and your car, it’s very beautiful.
Me: Banzi bought it for me
Her: Cash?
Me: Yes
Her: How much did it cost?
Me: alot of money, I’m not sure how much exactly..
Her: You are soo blessed Nokwanda, God blessed you with a wonderful husband and
wonderful in laws do not mess things up..
I couldn’t hold back the tears, thinking of Banzi and Nataschi really set me off.
Koko: What’s wrong Kwanda?
I took a deep breath, then after exhaled.
Me: His having an affair
Koko: ini? (what)
Me: i don’t know if i wanna Marry him
She looked at me for a while before answering
Koko: Let’s not jump the gun
I looked at her.
Her: Nokwanda it’s not new that men cheat. He probably just wanted to have fun, it was a
fling don’t give up on your marriage just because of a fling!
Me: koko..
Her: Nokwanda this man is taking you to school, his family loves you.. If you don’t marry
him what are you gonna do? Come back to this life again? I will not let you make us a
laughing stock in this hood.. Did you see how everyone envied you when you got off the
car?? And you wanna give up your marriage because of some floozie? Don’t be crazy you are
going to Marry that boy!
My Grandma will never change! My phone rang and interrupted our not so going well
conversation. I checked who it was and it was NaZulu, i stood up and went to answer it
outside..
Me: Ma..
Her: Hello Sweetheart how are you?
Me: I’m hanging in there
Her: Where are you? I want us to go out have lunch and talk
Me: Unfortunately I’m at home
Her: Ohw i.. You didn’t inform me that you going home
Me: i need some space from everything..
Her: i understand, and i am very sorry Nokwanda
Me: Its not your fault
Her: i will fix this, just please don’t give up on my Son.
I didn’t say anything
Her: Nokwanda are you there?
Me: Yes
Her: Please don’t make any rash decisions or don’t do anything i will fix this okay?
Me: Okay
Her: i guess I’ll see you tomorrow, are you going to church?
Me: Yes i am
Her: Okay i love you
Me: i love you too
Her: Bye
Me: Bye

NAZULU
I have been up and down the whole day thinking about this situation and there’s no better
solution than the one I’ve came up with, and that is removing Nataschi from the picture
forever.. I love Nokwanda and i am not gonna let anyone come in between her and my son..
I had called Wilfred to come, so he can carry out this task because Wilfred is the only person
i trust who can do this job perfectly without getting caught and without any slip ups.. I was
sitting in my study drinking whiskey and waiting for Wilfred to call me and tell me that the
job is done.. As for Nokwanda i know she’s gonna come around and Im not even worried
about her family because that Old hag Grandma of hers, loves money more than anything I’ll
just give her money so she can convince Nokwanda to come back home and to Marry my
son. It is such a blessing to be such a powerful woman, because i get whatever i want.

PART 8 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
May 22, 2016visionarywritings
NOKWANDA
We woke up that morning and prepared for church. I was very happy that i get to go to
church today, it’s been a while. Maybe me being at church will give me peace..
My Grandma had me picking up her church friends with my Land Rover because in her
words she wants them to see that she’s balling..
The conversation in the car was one i didn’t wanna engage in. She was busy bragging about
riches she didn’t have, but riches that the Zulu family has and that kinda pissed me off
because one thing i don’t like, is making less fortunate people to feel inferior.

We got at church, i parked and we went in.. It was praise and worship time and from the door
i felt my heart jumping that’s how excited i was to be at church..
There was praise and worship, then offering, and all that you know the usual.. I didn’t go to
sit with the Youth because quite Frankly i didn’t have much Friends at church..
You know my church is that kind of church that harbours alot of rich people, so when you
don’t have money you are likely not to be taken seriously. So being in the youth service was
just somehow, all the rich kids would have their own crew, and us who weren’t rich will be
sidelined..
The most feared and the most respected family in church is the Zulu family vele. My Pastor
and his wife put my in laws in a very high pedestal.. They even sit where the Pastoral team
sits, you know those chairs covered with a white cloth and all that..
Rumor had it at church that NaZulu is the one supporting my Pastor and his family, she went
as far as buying him a car. Well i take that as just another rumour..
Time passed, it was now 11am and we were waiting for our Pastor to come and preach. Our
church starts at 9:00am and comes out at 12:30..
As we singing i was shocked to see the Zulu family entering, it was NaZulu, Banzi, and
Noxolo they were with our Pastor’s wife..
You know they grabbed everyone’s attention as always with their good looks and expensive
outfits…
I get worried every time when i see NaZulu entering because uzophapha and attract alot of
attention…
The ushers ushered them to their seats at the front, you know sitting in that section where not
everyone sits…
My Grandma leaned closer..
Her: i didn’t know they were coming
Me: i thought only NaZulu was gonna come but I’m surprised to see the whole family here..
I saw them looking around, i was praying that they weren’t looking for me i don’t have time
for them today i just wanna be with God and go home..
I checked the youth section and girls were going crazy as always, if only they knew how
unavailable he is they would stop……..
After a few minutes, my Pastor came in wearing that expensive 3 piece suit of his and he
went to the pull pit..
That’s just one of his expensive suits, he has alot of them..
As he was standing there, someone brought the Bible to him..
Pastor: i would like to Greet the whole congregation in the name of our Lord..
He looked to his right..
Him: i would also like to Greet the Zulu Family, we all know NaZulu she’s a member of our
church and today she’s with her children Banzi and Noxolo.. We know Banzi and Noxolo it’s
her first time coming.. Can they please stand up and just wave..
Haike they stood up and started waving, except for Banzi and everyone was clapping their
hands..
Pastor: i didn’t announce this because i was waiting for the Zulu family to give me
permission, and this morning NaZulu gave me permission to address this.. There’s a new
addition to the Zulu family..
My heart started beating very fast..
Pastor: NaZulu’s son took one of my daughters here in church..
People were busy looking around trying to see who it is…
At that moment i have a full blown panic attack..
Pastor: Lobola was paid, the two families were United and now we just waiting for the big
day..
I am literally Shaking, phela my church is big and I’m not ready for those eyes to pierce
through my skin..
The church was busy very curious in finding out who this “misery girl” is..
Pastor: Uhm i don’t know if i should call her name..
The church was busy screaming for the name to be called..
My Pastor looked around..
Pastor: Is Nokwanda around?
I saw alot of people getting shocked and i was sitting there with my heart on my knees…
My Grandma looked at me and cleared her Throat…
Standing up was the biggest challenge, not because I’m pregnant but because my knees were
weak and i am not good with people starring at me, all though i used to be one of the chorus
leaders but this situation is different….
I finally Stood up and people were clapping and making noise, some were very shocked….
My Pastor looked at the Zulu family and they all stood up and came to the front, Thixo wami
at that moment I’m ready to die…
They gave them the mics and my Pastor went to take his seat…
NaZulu: Sanibonani!!!!
The church went crazy i forgot how crazy my mother in law can…
NaZulu: Ngithi Sanibonani!!
The church lost it..
NaZulu: Oh wow.. I don’t know if it’s just me but i can feel the presence of the holy spirit
moving around in this place..
People were standing up and clapping shouting Amen and Hallelujah..
NaZulu: at this moment I’m not here to preach, but I’m here for something else..
Everyone took their seats expect for me….
NaZulu: When i was seating at home yesterday my son came to me and said “Mom i didn’t
do things the right way” i looked at him I was very confused by that statement and he said “i
wanna do things the right tomorrow” and here we are..
NaZulu stepped aside for Banzi..
Banzi: uhm, i am not very good with this church things but..
The church laughed..
Banzi: i respect God and i respect the Pastor because if I’m not mistaken he is the spiritual
father of everyone in this church..
The church shouted yes…
Banzi: a few months back i came home from overseas, and i couldn’t wait to see my
family….
He looked at me..
Him: Can my fiancé please sit down for a minute, i can see that she’s getting tired..
That was a relief, i sat down…
Banzi: as i was saying, i came home and i was very happy to see my mother and my sister
and i couldn’t wait to tell them about my engagement, i had engaged some girl from overseas
those who watch TV probably know her..
A few people agreed..
Banzi: as i was In that spirit of telling my mom and my sister about my fiance whom was
standing next to me, i…Unfortunately it didn’t go that well my mom told me that the family
had paid lobola on my behalf for some girl and i had no knowledge of it, no one informed
me…
The church was making noise all shocked, i was looking down…
Banzi: The girl was standing right next to my mom, i looked at her and i remember saying “i
will never love her”.. I didn’t want anything to do with her, she wasn’t my type or the type of
girls that i dated….
I abused her Everyday, i wanted her to pack up and leave but she didn’t.. I remember when i
had my tragic accident and specialists told me that i will never be able to play soccer ever
again, all the girls that i was with left.. I was alone not knowing who to turn too..
I turned to alcohol, my life was a mess i seriously didn’t know if i was coming or going…
But in that mist of pain, there was only one girl who stood by my side. She took care of me,
she did everything for me while i was on the wheelchair…. I could talk about this all day but
unfortunately we don’t have the whole day….
The church laughed..
Banzi: Nokwanda I’m here because i wanna proclaim my love for you infront of all this
people and infront of God.. I love you Nokwanda Ndaba, having you in my life has made me
a better person..Your Beauty comes from deep within and reflects on the outside, that’s why
you are soo beautiful in and out..
I felt tears forming in my eyes..
Him: My mom was the one who married you previously, but now i stand here and ask you to
Marry me. I’m even asking permission from your Pastor and from the whole church to make
you my wife, but most of all i am asking you can you please agree to be officially Mrs Zulu
the 2nd, Please marry me..
Pastor: Ask on one knee Boy
Banzi: i thought that died in the olden days
The church laughed..
Pastor: It didn’t, it’s tradition it will never die…
Banzi walked to where I was sitting and i stood up.. I couldn’t control the tears anymore..
He got on one knee and held my hand..
Him: if this doesn’t prove how much i love you, then i don’t know what will.. Nokwanda
Ndaba would you please and I’m pleading..
Noxolo: And we also pleading on his behalf
The church laughed..
Him: Please marry me?
I looked at him he looked nervous, the church was busy screaming that i should say yes..
I nodded my head with tears falling..
Me: Yes I’ll Marry you!
He smiled and stood up then hugged me, the church went crazy, they were making noise it
was just a mess…
I never knew that Banzi could ever do something like this one day..

PART 9 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
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I went to sit at the front with them, people at church couldn’t believe that a mere girl like me
Could mingle with such high class people it just came as a shock to them.. Some admired the
moment, some spoke amongst themselves some were busy starring at me…
The looks were so overwhelming, that i asked Banzi to accompany me outside….
He stood up and helped me to stand up, then we walked out while holding hands..
We got outside and stood next to his car..
Him: Are you okay?
Me: Yaa just couldn’t take all the looks that everyone was giving me..
He kissed me on my forehead..
Him: We don’t have to go back in if you don’t want too
Me: No i wanna hear the Pastor preaching
Him: Okay we’ll go back in when you ready..
Me: We can go back in
We walked back inside and sat down.. Banzi was being a gentleman helping me to sit down,
constantly asking me if I’m okay he was just being very sweet..

Church finally came out, my Pastor’s wife asked us to go to her house lunch was prepared for
everyone.. I don’t know how i felt about that because my Pastor is a well respected man and
being in his presence was just overwhelming, but hey i had the crazy Noxolo to make me feel
comfortable..
Banzi and i got in my car together with my Grandma while Noxolo and NaZulu got into the
other car and we drove by my Pastor’s house…
We got there and went in.. My Pastor’s house was a small beautiful house, was a 5 roomed
house.
We went to the dinning table and took our seats.. Banzi was sitting next to me, he just wanted
to be next to me not that I was complaining…
Noxolo helped my Pastor’s wife to bring food at the table, Ya whoever cooked went an extra
mile..
My Pastor said a prayer, then after that we started eating..
Pastor: Banzi and Nokwanda i would like you guys to attend our couple’s meeting every
Saturday starts at 9am-13:00..
NaZulu: i think that would be good for them especially since they young and new i think they
need guidance
Koko: i agree
Banzi: i think that would be great for us, what do you say Kwash?
Me: i think it’s a great idea
We continued eating and just having a nice conversation.. I seriously didn’t know think that
one day I’ll be sitting here having lunch with my Pastor and his wife.
After we had lunch, we said our goodbyes and left….
We dropped off my Grandma at home, then we drove to the flat.. Banzi was driving my car,
he was driving me back to the flat….
Him: So i was doing some thinking..
I looked at him as he was driving, while his other hand was holding my hand.
Him: How about you move back into the house..
Me: That’s a good idea
He looked at me..
Him: You think so?
Me: Yes but i only have one request
Him: Yes?
Me: Can Buhle move in with us too?
He let go of my hand.
Me: She’s the only friend i have
Him: i know that but I’m not separating you from her, you guys are still gonna see each
other..
Me: Then i don’t think that I’ll be able to move back into the house
He pulled aside..
Him: Are you for real right now?
I didn’t say anything..
Him: I’m in a relationship with you, not you and Buhle
Me: i know
Him: Then why are you bringing her into our relationship, what am i to do now marry the
both of you?
Me: There’s no need to be insecure Banzi she’s a girl
Him: i am not being insecure Kwash! I would like you to make me your first priority too
Me: You are my first priority..You know what I’ll move back in then..
Him: Naa don’t do it if you feel like you obliged to do it..
He started driving.. I really don’t like Banzi’s insecurities they bring out the monster in him..

We got to the flat and he helped me take my bags inside. The flat was quiet, Buhle was not
around..
Him: i guess I’ll see you around
Me: Okay, how are you gonna get home?
Him: I’ll call someone to pick me up
Me: i can drive you home i don’t mind..
Him: Is Buhle going to allow that?
Me: Banzi don’t be like that
Him: Bye Kwash
No goodbye kiss, no nothing…he just went out….
I chilled the whole day just watching movies and eating snacks until Buhle came home..
Her: Hey you back
Me: Ya i am
She came to sit next to me
Her: So how was home?
Me: It was alright
Her: Did you enjoy?
Me: Yeah i enjoyed
Her phone beeped and she took it out..
Me: Just that Banzi really surprised me today, he proposed at Church..
Buhle was on her phone all smiling, and not paying attention to what i was saying
Me: Am i boring you?
Her: What? No Ofcause not
Me: What’s up?
Her: Nothing
Me: That smile doesn’t say so
Her: Well I’ve been seeing someone
Me: Ohw nice.. Who is that someone?
Her: Shit i ain’t sharing my business with you
Me: Ohw it’s like that now?
Her: Yeap it’s like that
Me: Do i at least know him?
Her: i think so
She stood up
Her: Let me go freshen up
Me: Okay
I must evaluate all the man in my life to find out who she is dating.
PART 10 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON
TWO
May 24, 2016visionarywritings
# BANZI
It was around 21:00 and i had parked my Ferrari at the corner of the street were Kwanda
resides..
I saw Buhle approaching the car, that took her long enough…
I opened the door for her, and she got in..
Me: Did she ask any questions?
Her: obviously.. Banzi what do you want? I thought after what happened that night we both
agreed to move on and forget about it..
Me: i didn’t call you for a hook up, i called you because i need a favour from you
Her: What favour?
Me: i need you to convince Kwash to move back in with me..
Her: Why don’t you just ask her?
Me: Don’t you think I tried that?
Her: What she said?
Me: She wants you to move in too
Her: Ncoooh that’s sweet
Me: If she finds out what you did it won’t be sweet
Her: Are you gonna tell her?
Me: Why you doing this to her?
Her: Excuse me? Banzi i didn’t force you to have sex with me that night and worse you
brought Tasi along for a 3 some? You lucky she hasn’t snitched on you..
Me: And the same night you had sex with my best friend too
Her: i was drunk
Me: You are a hoe and i don’t think you right for Kwash
Her: Right back at Ya nigga
Me: And what’s this i hear about you and Tpee hooking up?
Buhle: Jealous?
Me: i love my wife
Her: i didn’t ask you if you love your wife or not..
Me: How much do you want, for you to stay away from Kwash?
She laughed..
Her: You Amazing do you know that?
Me: I’m already paying your share of the rent, I’m paying for your fees and I’m supporting
you so obviously money is what you want..
Her: Don’t take me like that!
Me: How should i take you? You practically blackmailing me to pay off your everything and
then you call yourself Nokwanda’s friend?
Her: i have to do what i have to do to survive
Me: So if i cut you off, are you gonna tell Kwash that you and i slept together when she was
off with Kresi living in phalaborwa?
She looked down..
Her: is that the kind of best friend you wanna be?
Her: i don’t wanna blackmail you Banzi
Me: Then why are you doing it?
Her: Because i.. My parents cut me off for good so i need to survive
Me: Is that even why you opened your legs so easy for me? Because you wanted to get to my
money..
Her: No!! I mean.. Does it matter?
Me: You such a cheap slut get out of my car!!
She didn’t say anything, she opened the door and went out, then i drove off..
Call me whatever you wanna call me, but i regret what happened that night.. After Nokwanda
up and left i was angry, Tpee decided to call up a few bitches and have a party. Buhle stopped
by to check up on her friend as she couldn’t reach her on her cell, and she joined the party.
One thing led to another and before i knew it i was having a 3 some with Tash and Buhle..
If Nokwanda ever finds out i don’t think she will ever forgive me…
I drove up to Tpee’s place and found Kresi with poonkie pie at the kitchen..
Me: Where’s the main man?
Kresi: His sitting by the pool?
Me: What happened?
When Tpee sits by the pool, it means something got to him.
Her: i don’t know he doesn’t wanna talk to me..
She looked down, she looked drained..
Me: Is everything okay between you guys?
Her: I’m tired Banzi, sometimes i just feel like packing my things and taking my daughter
and just go far away from here.. Sometimes i feel like committing suicide but then i think
about my daughter and..
I went up to her and hugged her..
Me: Don’t talk like that..
She was crying..
Her: I’m tired of this marriage, i just can’t anymore..
Me: I’ll talk to him..
I broke the hug and picked up poonkie pie who was also crying now, i think because she saw
her mom crying..
Me: Why don’t you just go and take a long bubble bath just relax..
Her: i guess so..
She walked upstairs and i Walked up to the pool.. My main man was sitting there drinking
Hennesy and smoking a cigar,he was also playing some music..
Me: You gotta start treating Kresi tight man!
Him: What did a Nigga do?
I sat down..
Me: first of all cut all contact with that bitch Buhle
Him: Eyy she gives great pussy
Me: And my sister?
Him: My mouth is sealed when it comes to that one
Me: i should fuck you up for fucking my sister!
Poonkie pie was busy stretching her hands wanting to go to Tpee..he put the cigar away and
took her..
Me: You gotta start treating her right man, for Naledi’s sake
Him: Don’t go there nigga my daughter has the best life ever
Me: Let’s wait until she’s 10 and sees what you doing to her mother
Tshepi: Kresi is weak, she needs to grow some clit then she’ll be fine!
There’s nothing ima say that’s gonna get through this nigga..

#NOKWANDA
I was woken up by a phone call..i took it under my pillow and it was Kresi, i answered it..
Me: Kresi (sleepy voice)
She was crying..
Me: Kresi what’s wrong?
Her: i can’t do this anymore, I’m not strong like Nissi
Me: What are you talking about?
Her: He told me how weak i am, he told me that i will never be half the woman that Nissi
was..
Me: What?? Where are you?
Her: i can’t Nokwanda, just take care of my baby please
Me: Kresi no!!!
She hunged up.. I tried calling her but she wasn’t answering..
I was panicking, i didn’t know what to do..

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# NOKWANDA
Unfortunately Kresi had tried to commit suicide. She overdosed on sleeping pills then
drowned herself in the bathtub.. She was found by Banzi and Tpee after i called Banzi..
She’s in hospital, in a coma and Doctors are not even sure that she’s gonna make it..
I had fulfilled her promise by taking poonkie pie, surprisingly enough Tpee didn’t give me a
hard time about that..
I was in my flat packing my staff, I’m going to move back in with Banzi and his family all of
this was just opened my eyes for me to realise what’s more important in my life..
Banzi and poonkie pie were waiting for me as i was busy packing, with tears in my eyes..
Banzi: What’s wrong?
I looked at him..
Me: i don’t want us to end up like Kresi and Tpee
Him: Come here..
He hugged me with his other hand, while he was holding poonkie pie with his other hand.. He
then kissed me on my forehead.
Him: That would never be us,I’d never put you through something like that..
Me: i mean she had to deal with abuse, then him cheating…i don’t know what I’d do if you
could ever do that to me..
Him: I’d never do that to you, ever..
Me: i know, that’s why i consider myself the luckiest girl ever..
He smiled at Me, but i could see that his smile was not sincere…
Me: i love you and i know we gonna make this work
He pecked my lips..
Him: i love you too… Can we go home now?
Me: Yes, let me take her while you get my bags in the car
I took poonkie pie from him and he got the bags then we went to the car.. Poonkie pie is
gonna live with us until Kresi is better, if she’s ever gonna be better…. I look at her and she’s
just a baby to be experiencing such i mean this is not the kind of life that i want for my baby.

We got home at everyone was sleeping, it was late so we also went to bed. Poonkie pie was
already sleeping in my arms…
I put her nicely on the bed, and put her Pacifier in her mouth..
Banzi: We must get her a crib or something
Me: What’s wrong with her Sharing the bed with us?
He pulled Me closer to him..
Him: Because i want my wife all to myself
He kissed me…
Me: We missed you
He put his hand on my tummy…
Him: i missed you guys too.. Are you sure you gonna be able to pull this off?
I looked at him a bit confused..
Him: school, Poonkie pie, and you almost 8months pregnant
I exhaled..
Me: Its not like i have a choice.. Kresi asked me to take care of her that’s what I’m trying to
do..
Him: will try to get a babysitter but in the meantime I’ll work from home just to babysit her
when you at school
Me: What did i do to deserve you?
Him: i should be asking you that
He kissed me again.. I love Banzi with all my heart. We have been through alot but we still
here and that’s all that matters…
Him: Let’s go to bed, you have school tomorrow
Me: Ya..
I changed into my pjs then hopped in bed..
Banzi: There’s a few documents i have to look at, I’ll join you guys later
Me: Okay
He walked out and i fell asleep with poonkie pie next to me…

I woke up in the morning, and poonkie pie was not next to me, so was Banzi..
I got out of bed, and looked at the time it was 7am. Great I’m gonna miss my first class..
I got out of bed, and went to run me a bubble bath..
I couldn’t stop thinking about Kresi, i hope she makes it.

I went and took a bath, then after dressed up for school..

I was wearing leggings, a maternity dress that reached my knees and pumps…
I got my things and Walked to the kitchen….
What i saw there, was heart warming..
It was Banzi, NaZulu, and Noxolo busy playing with poonkie pie i really like how they
making her feel at home she was all laughing and everything…
Banzi was all dressed up for work, which was weird because he said his gonna work from
home..
Me: Good morning
NaZulu: Hey sweetheart, I’m soo glad that you are back
She came and hugged me..
Her: This is what a strong woman does, you fight with your husband but always come back
home..
Me: That’s true Ma..
Her: You look good, that outfit suits you
Me: Thank you..
I looked at Banzi..
Me: i thought you were gonna work from home
Him: Mom and Xolo have agreed to babysit
Noxolo: Yall can go we’ve got this
Me: Thank you soo much guys
Noxolo: Its nothing
Me: I’ll see you guys later then
NaZulu: You not gonna eat breakfast?
Me: No I’m very late
Banzi: We’ll grab something along the way
Me: You driving me to school?
Him: Yes
Me: won’t you be late for work?
Him: I am the boss, I’m never late for work
Me: Okay
I said goodbye to everyone then we went to his car.. As he was driving me to school, i went
on Facebook..
I was shocked when i visited the TSOP Facebook page, they had some post about Nataschi..
Which read:
“Former THOBEKGALE SCHOOL OF PHARMACY student Nataschi Williams was found
dead in her flat 2 days ago,after overdosing on drugs.. Autopsy was done and results stating
that high levels of heroin and cocaine where found in her blood which led to her untimely
death”
Wow i never knew that Nataschi was on drugs..

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# NOKWANDA
Time went, and i was 8months pregnant now. I couldn’t wait to give birth, all this weight on
me has restrained me from living my life..
It was around June and we were about to finish writing our exams, only two exams were left
for me to write which was Pharmacology and chemistry..
After those exams I’ll be off from school until i give birth.. NaZulu together with Xolo and
Banzi treated me like an Egg.. They didn’t want me to even have little stress because it might
affect my last trimester..
Fortunately Kresi was out of the Coma she was recovering very well, she even has therapy
sessions with some physiologist at the hospital. I had spoken to the Zulu family that can she
be allowed to come live with us when she gets discharged just until she stands on her two feet
and be independent then she can move out..
Poonkie pie was just a blessing in my life, me and her we were very tight i liked the bond we
have and also this experience will make me know alot about babies until mine comes…
Nataschi was dead indeed we buried her last weekend and her death came as a shock to all of
us because we didn’t know she was using Drugs, the was no signs that she’s a drug addict..
Her Family wanted the Cops to investigate because they suspected foul play, they stood by
their word that Nataschi has never used drugs and they suspected that there was foul play as
far as her death is concerned…
They even went as far as hiring a PI to help them find whoever is responsible for their
Daughter’s death….
Today i was writing chemistry, i wasn’t that Nervous because i had studied very hard,
NaZulu went as far as getting me a tutor to help me with chemistry.
As the papers were being handed to us, i looked over at Buhle’s desk and she wasn’t there at
all…Buhle has been acting very weird lately she wasn’t showing up for school, her cellphone
was off she missed 2 exams, this one being the second that she missed… I was very worried
about her, because if she keeps on going like this, then she will be excluded because TSOP
has very strict rules especially when it comes to academics…….
We wrote the exam and it was hard, it wasn’t the same Chemistry that i was used too at
school it was different and difficult…

After the exam, i went straight to my car..

Surprisingly i bumped into Buhle at the parking lot.. She looked like a wreck, her clothes
were dirty, her hair was a mess she was not herself at all, if i didn’t know well I’d say she’s
another one that’s no drugs…
She came to me and hugged me all crying, she wasn’t smelling good at all..
Me: What’s wrong?
Her: Nokwanda everything is wrong i just don’t even know were to begin..
I didn’t like seeing my friend in that state..
Her: i got kicked out of the flat because i couldn’t afford rent anymore, my parents have
disowned me, i practically do not have anything..
Me: Omg Buhle, where have you been sleeping?
Her: My car that is why I’m such a wreck Kwanda i am homeless and i don’t know what to
do
Me: Well uhm i can talk to NaZulu, I’m sure she won’t mind allowing you to live with us
Her: No!!!
That was intense…
Her: i mean, i cannot live with you
Me: Why?
Her: i…Kwanda i just need some cash to get through please help me with that
I looked at her she looked very desperate.
Me: uhm i will help you, how much do you need?
Her: Im not sure
Me: Will 5000 be okay?
She nodded her head…
Me: Let’s get in the car..
We got into my car, and i drove straight to the shopping center that was close to campus…
Me: How did you get here?
Her: i Walked for an hour
Me: What? You walked
Her: i had no choice
Me: Why didn’t you come to write?
Her: That’s the last thing on my mind, right now I need to to sort out my life..

# BANZI
I was in a meeting with an important rich client Mr Naidoo, he is Muslim…originally he is
from Afghanistan and moved here in SA 2 years ago….
The reason why he left his country is because the Cops are pursuing him, his the best terrorist
after Osama..
Me: So how many explosives are you gonna need?
Him: About 500..
Me: That’s quite a lot
Him: Make it happen, my County is under attack and we need alot of Merchandise to strike
back..
Mr Naidoo only orders about 50 explosives but 500 that’s alot…
Me: You know it’s gonna cost you a lot of money
Him: Name your price
Yolanda came into the office with a tray. It wasn’t tea or coffee it was whiskey, ice, and
glasses..
Her: Here you go
The reason why i hired Yolanda to be my PA is because of her dumbness, she’s those
brainless bimbos. She doesn’t have a clue on what goes down here, she thinks we sell
medical equipments to different hospitals but in actual fact we sell illegal guns to potential
clients as well as Explosives..
Me: Thank you Yolanda
Her: Anything else?
Her: that would be all thank you
We do not keep the guns inside the Premises we have a warehouse for that, because we don’t
want the Cops coming here and sniffing around….
I poured whiskey for us..
Me: I’ll get everything for you
Him: Then I’ll transfer money..

#NOKWANDA
I bought her a few clothes, i bought her food and all the necessities that she’s gonna need
ontop of that i gave her 5000..
Her: Thank you Nokwanda, you are a life saver.. I don’t know what I’ll do without you
Me: Its fine..
Her: i never thought life would be this difficult for me
Me: You’ll be okay bae and if you need anything call me.
Her: Thank you
I hugged her again and then we went our separate ways….
As i was driving home, i was still thinking about Buhle what’s happening to her is just too
sad..
I got home and Noxolo was babysitting Naledi, NaZulu was running errands..
Me: Hey guys
Noxolo: Hey, look whose back
I sat on the couch..
Noxolo: How was the exam?
Me: Difficult as hell
Noxolo: I’m sure you’ll pass it
Me: I hope so
As we were sitting there Wilfred walked in..
Him: Good afternoon
I greeted back..
Him: Is NaZulu around?
Me: No she’s running errands..
Him: I’ll come back later
He walked out..
Noxolo: i don’t like this guy..
Me: ya there’s something sinister about him, he just doesn’t look like your typical guy..

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# NOKWANDA
It was soo very sad seeing Buhle in that state. It’s amazing how life can just chew you like a
gum and then spit you out just like that…
I was in my bed relaxing and reading a Novel. We just finished eating supper and NaZulu
decided to go to bed early with Poonkie pie..
Noxolo was not around, she went clubbing with her friends as always, i wish sometimes she
could take life seriously that one..
Banzi was still at work, he called that his gonna be late..
Kresi was getting discharged tomorrow, i had asked the house keeper to clean the bedroom
for her i want her to find the place very clean.
Banzi came in at 20:00 he looked tired..
Him: Good evening
Me: Hey
He sat down and took off his shoes and loosened his tie..
Me: long day?
Him: You have no fucken idea, i just wanna take a bath and just sleep next to my wife..
Me: You won’t believe what happened today?
He looked at me..
Me: i saw Buhle..
Him: Is that supposed to be interesting?
I closed the my book.
Me: She was in a state that i didn’t like Banzi, she’s homeless
Him: so?
Me: She’s living off her car
Him: Baby i still don’t understand how all of this is related to us?
Me: i gave her 5000
His eyes popped out..
Him: What the fuck did you just say?
Me: She really needs help Banzi
Him: She has parents!
Me: They cut her off!
Him: So how is that your problem Mother Theresa?
Me: Your language is offensive
Him: No more allowance
Me: Excuse me
Him: You cut off!
He stood up and went to the bathroom..
Me: Why am i being cut off?? (Shouting)
He didn’t say anything, i then heard water running.. I seriously don’t know why Banzi hates
Buhle soo very much.
After bathing, he wore his Pj pants and a vest then came to bed..
He started kissing me from my neck, while running his hand on my thighs.. I was wearing a
tshirt only..
Me: I thought i was cut off?
Him: Financially you are
Me: i thought you were tired
Him: And i think you talking too much
He kissed me.. Our sex life was not that great anymore, you know with my big tummy
standing In the way it was hard to do any position…
Him: i love you Kwash
Me: i love you too
We continued kissing while his hand made it all the way up in my thigh..
He looked at me
Me: You not wearing any underwear?
Me: No..
Him: You soo naughty
Me: Look whose talking..
I like it when things are this peaceful between me and Banzi, he has been really supportive
throughout the whole pregnancy..
I love him with all my heart and soul…..we only had one round, i just hope i give birth soon
so that our sex life can be normal again..
We were laying in bed, my head was on his chest and he was busy playing with my hair..
Me: Banzi
Him: Yeah?
Me: i think we should get married in a month’s time after giving birth
Him: That’s a great idea
Me: The theme can be purple&white or Red&White
Him: Do you wanna plan the wedding yourself?
Me: i think I’ll have to get a wedding planner i mean with school and the baby my hands will
be full..
Him: You know that you don’t have to go to school
Me: Banzi..
Him: Okay sorry.
Me: And tomorrow we need to fetch Kresi early in the morning
Him: heard that Tpee is gonna fetch her
Me: That’s exactly why i should fetch her
Him: Kwash can you just stay out of their marriage
Me: Banzi that marriage is toxic for her.
Him: But…
Me: We fetching her tomorrow and that’s final
I moved back into my pillow and slept..

# KRESI
By 8am i was sitting on the bed ready to be fetched..Nokwanda had promised to come and
fetch me, i think living with them will do me good right now…..
I was shocked to see Tshepi walking in.. The fear in me creeped out,i fear this guy with all
my heart.
You can’t even attached him to the devil, i think the Devil is better than the kind of Person
Tshepi is..
Him: Let’s go home wifey
I didn’t say anything….
Him: Kresi..
I looked at him.
Me: i want a divorce
Him: Are you crazy??
Me: i can’t keep on living like this
Him: You don’t have too if you could just stop pissing me off! (shouting)
It’s best to keep quiet when his like this….
Him: Now let’s go!! Your baby is waiting for you act like a mother for once! Now she’s busy
being raised by other people!! Stop with this childish acts of yours and be a mother to Naledi
just for once!
I looked at him..
Me: Then be a good husband to me just for once!!
That shut him up

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# NOKWANDA
Xolo and i got to the hospital, Tpee was there.. I don’t know what the hell he wanted because
his the reason why Kresi was here in the first place..
I walked in..
Me: Kresi are you ready to go?
Her: Uhmm yes i am
When she tried to stand up, Tpee forcefully sat her down on the bed again..
Me: Hey!!
Tpee: Stay in your Lane Nokwanda!
Me: Leave her alone you can see that she doesn’t want you!
Kresi: Nokwanda please..
I could see that she was very scared of him, she was at the verge of crying..
Tpee: Nokwanda go and fix your own marriage, because your marriage it’s gonna Hit the
rocks soon!
Okay what did he mean??
Xolo: Tpee please don’t make this hard
Tpee: Kresi is my wife and she belongs at home
Me: She don’t belong anywhere with you! Let her go!
He snapped..
Him:”before playing Dr Phil in my marriage go and tighten your husband’s pants because his
sleeping with every skirt that passes by!
I thought I probably heard wrong, but then i didn’t..
Me: Wha.. What did you say??
Him: i don’t repeat myself
He then looked at Kresi
Him: I’m giving you a week to make up your mind..
He then walked out…
I sat down.
Xolo: Don’t let him get to you, we know how much of a jerk Tpee is.. He probably said that
to upset you
Me: Tpee doesn’t look like the type of person that would just lie..
Kresi: Nokwanda don’t take what he said to heart, think of your baby you don’t need that
stress..
Me: Omg Banzi is cheating on me
Xolo: Don’t be crazy!
My heart sank, there is nothing more painful than being cheated on..
Noxolo and Kresi were there convincing me that Banzi is not cheating on me, i just didn’t
know what to say.
We went out of the hospital, and drove home.. I was very quiet all the way to home, i was in
deep thoughts thinking about this whole ordeal i mean if Banzi is really cheating on me then
we gonna go back to square one..

We got home and i went straight to my bedroom, i laid in bed and just let it all out..
I was very hurt, i love Banzi with all my heart and how can he hurt me like this??

# BANZI
I was in my office handling some paperwork when my assistant walked in..
Her: Would you like me to get you anything?
Me: No
I went back to what i was doing.. She stood there, and i looked at her..
Me: Anything else?
Her: Don’t you find me attractive?
Me: Excuse me?
Her: i mean i always dress up to impress you, I’m beautiful or so i thought but you never
even look at me in that way..
Me: You very attractive i won’t lie, but I am happily married, i love my wife and I’m
attracted to her…
Her: Ohw
My phone rang.. I picked it up
Me: Banzi Zulu speaking
Xolo: Banzi
Me: Xolo
Her: You have to come home.
Me: Why?
Her: Its Kwanda
Me: What’s wrong with Kwash?
Xolo: Tpee has told her about the affairs and it’s not looking good
Me: He did what??
Xolo: Please come home, she’s locked up in the bedroom all crying it’s just a mess.
Me: I’m on my way
I put the phone down and stood up..
Me: Cancel all my meetings!
Her: What’s going on?
Me: Just do as i say!!
I took my phone and car keys then went.. Tpee has gone too far!

#NOKWANDA
I was feeling some cramps, they weren’t that heavy but they can’t be ignored too… I got out
of bed and took my car keys, i wanted get the truth and the only person who can tell me is
Tpee…
I felt like peeing first, i went to the toilet but nothing.. I then walked out.. Luckily the house
was quiet, there was no one to stop me..
I walked up to my car, then drove to Tpee’s place…
As i was driving there, the cramps got stronger..
I was trying soo hard to ignore them but it was hard so i pulled over..
I went out of the car and leaned on it, i was seriously in pain.. It started off as like period
pains but now i don’t know what it was..
I went back to the car and drove to Tpee’s place..

Luckily i made it there, then i Walked up to the door and rang the door bell..
My cramps would come and go, I was wondering what was happening to me…
Tpee opened the door..
Him: Nokwanda??
I walked inside…
Him: What are you doing here?
I stood there..
Me: i….
Him: You?
I hold my tummy..
Me: I…
Him: Nokwanda i don’t have..
Me: My water just broke!
Him: What?!
The cramps were just worse now and i was screaming..
Tpee: Shit Nokwanda!!!
Me: Help me!!!.
Him: Let’s go to the hospital, can you walk?
Me: I’m only 8months pregnant this cannot be happening
Him: Can you at least walk?
Me: i feel like dying Tshepi.. I can feel my baby coming
Him: Then let’s go
Me: I’m not gonna make it.. You might have to deliver her
I said that while taking off my leggings
Him: whoa!! Hold up a second Nokwanda!!
Me: Its now or never!!
I could see that he was really scared,if only he knew that this baby was on her way..

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I wish i could say Tpee acted as a midwife and helped me to give birth, but he drove me to
the nearest hospital… If someone told me then that Labour pains and giving birth would be
this painful, i would’ve checked those Pills Banzi gave me and made sure that they were
morning after pills…
So there i was in the labour ward Crying, i felt like i was about to die. It felt like i was about
to die..
I was in the labour ward with 2 nurses and Tpee, his phone started ringing..
Him: i have to take this, it’s Banzi
He started walking out..
Me: Where do you think you going?
Him: My phone is ringing
Me: You and i we not done Mister come back here!!
Him: Nokwanda…
Me: Banzi is not important right now i am!!!!!! (shouting)
He looked at me..
Me: You have never felt the wreth of a pregnant woman, and believe me you don’t wanna
feel it!!!!
He put the phone away, and came back..
I looked at the Nurses..
Me: Give me the Epidural!
Nurse1: Relax we will give you..
Tpee: You need to calm down Kwash!
Me: Ohhh my baby is coming, i can feel her!!!
Nurse2: Don’t push as yet..
Me: I’m gonna die!!
Tpee: i doubt that will happen
Me: Tpee tell me something..
Him: What?
Nurse1: Try breathing in and out and relax
I was breathing in and out kodwa that wasn’t helping..
Me: Tpee is Banzi really cheating on me?
Him: i don’t think we shouldn’t be..
I pulled him with his tshirt..
Me: if you don’t tell i will squeeze your balls you will regret ever messing with me!
He yanked my hand off..
Him: You need to calm down
Me: You will tell me now!! Or i swear I’m not gonna deliver this baby and it will be all on
you!!!!
Tpee: Look Kwash he had a 3 some, it was just a stupid mistake
Me: He had a what??
Nurse1: i don’t think you should be telling her such things, her blood pressure let’s try to
keep her calm..
Me: Nurse or sister or midwife you don’t wanna try me!! Not today Fam..
Nurse2: Give her the Epidural already
They administered the Epidural, then ran tests..
Nurse2: Let’s see how far are you
I opened my legs wide, Tpee looked down
Him: You are putting me in a very awkward position..
Me: Who did Banzi sleep with??
Him: Please focus on giving birth
Me: i need to know Tpee please
He exhaled..
Him: Buhle and Nataschi
I was hoping that he wasn’t telling the truth, i was hoping that he would say I’m joking but he
didn’t.. At least if he had his 3 some with some Random Hoes, but Buhle out of all
people????
The Doctor walked in..
Nurse2: I’m glad you here Doc, her water long broke she has to give birth or the baby is
gonna run out of oxygen
The doctor took his position…
Him: What’s your name?
He asked me while putting on his gloves and mask..
Him: Okay Nokwanda after counting to 3 i want you to push okay?
Me: Okay..
Dr: 1..2..3..push
I pushed..
Dr: You are doing good
My main focus right now, was to deliver my baby what Banzi did I’ll deal with that later..
The pushing part went on and on, i even thought that i was never gonna give birth…
After a while, i heard a small cry..
Dr: Congratulations it’s a baby girl
I couldn’t stop the tears..
Tpee: You did great..
They wrapped her with a sheet, and handed her to me… She was soo tinny and adorable..
The nurse took her after a few seconds, they had to go and run some tests because she is a
premature…. What i was thankful for, was that i had given birth to a beautiful baby girl..

While i was bathing, and all that the nurse made my bed and disposed the bloody sheets etc..
Tpee had called Banzi while i was showering etc.. The Nurse helped me get in up on the
bed…
I was still in pain and i was bleeding they had given me a Sanitary pad…
Tpee: Look at you, i thought you was ready to kill me.
I giggled a bit..
Me: Thank you, for going through this process with me
Tpee: Its not like you gave me any choice..
I held his hand..
Me: Thank you though
Him: Don’t mention it
I then heard someone talking..
Voice: Ohh so this is the shit that’s been popping behind my back??
I looked at the doorway it was Banzi, i let go of Tpee’s hand.. Banzi looked a bit sloshed,
alcohol doesn’t love him at all and i don’t know why he keeps on drinking…
He came closer..
Him: So you would rather have him hold your hand throughout the whole process while you
giving birth to my daughter? My own fucken daughter Kwash??
Tpee: This is not the place or the time
Banzi looked at him, if he had a gun he probably was gonna shoot him instantly..
Banzi: So this is how it is man?
He went up to Tpee and started pushing him..
Tpee: Don’t do it Dog
Banzi: Let’s do it, let’s settle this right here and right now!
Me: Banzi stop!!
Him: Shut the fuck up Nokwanda! Can’t you see that 2 grown Ass man are settling this
matter how it’s supposed to be settled!!
Tpee: i don’t have time for this, Kwash be good..
Banzi: Don’t runaway nigga, let’s settle this!!!
As he was about to push Tpee, Tpee slightly shifted and Banzi fell….
Tpee went and Walked out..
I looked at Banzi on the floor..
Me: i hope you dead!!

PART 16 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
May 28, 2016visionarywritings
After a week the Doctor discharged me. My Mbalenhle was growing and getting stronger
each day.. Unfortunately i couldn’t take her home with me because Doctors still had to make
sure that she can be able to breath on her own and all…
I would be required to come everyday and breast feed her..
Ever since Banzi came that day and fought with Tpee at the hospital i have never seen him
Again, he never called or even bothered to come and see his Daughter…
NaZulu came to fetch me that morning, i wasn’t happy about going back at home…
We were in the car and she was driving….
Her: i can’t get enough of Mbalenhle she is such an Angel..
Me: She is indeed
Her: How are you feeling?
Me: I’m getting there
Her: Noxolo told me about Banzi cheating
I didn’t answer..
Her: Nokwanda i am not trying to defend my son but, He slept with 2 girls there is no love
there or attraction it was just sex. At least if she slept with one girl..
Me: Ohw wow..
Her: He is sorry okay, this is very hard on him his drinking heavily i think you guys need to
talk things out
Me: I’m tired of talking things out with Banzi
Her: You cannot say that, there’s a baby involved now. She’s gonna need both her parents
I cannot believe what Banzi was saying to me right now..

We got home and i went straight to my bedroom. I didn’t wanna talk to anyone.. I laid on the
bed and started thinking.. I have nothing i cannot go back home my Grandma will never
accept me with me especially since i have a baby now… I am still at school, i will not be able
to look after me and my baby….
Whoever said marriage is easy Lied, if i knew back then what i know now I’d probably
would’ve never agreed to this…
How did my life get so bad, so quickly.. I’m just 19 years old how am i going to make it. I
wish my mother was here, then i would be suffering with her. God you can be so unfair
sometimes.

# KRESI
Tshepi has asked to meet up with me and Poonkie pie. I wanted to Say so no but i cannot
keep him away from his Daughter that would be very evil of me….
We were at some restaurant and waiting for him, it didn’t take him that long to show up..
Poonkie lost it when she saw him, she opened her arms for him to pick her up, he got her
from me…
Him: Hello my Angel
She was busy jumping in excitement and smiling…
Him: ive missed you too
Tshepi and Naledi, they have a strong bond that i truly admired.. He looked at me..
Him: How are you?
Me: I’m good and you?
Him: I’m good… You look good
Me: Thank you
Him: Are the Zulus treating you well?
Me: They good to us
Him: I’m glad to hear that
Me: i had that you were there when Nokwanda went through the whole ordeal of giving
birth..
Him: he showed up at our place unexpectedly then she had labour pain out of nowhere
Me: It must’ve been hard for you
Him: i thought i was gonna die
I laughed.. He looked at me
Me: What?
Him: i miss my wife
Me: Tshepi..
Him: i miss waking up next to you, i miss holding you, kissing you.. I miss seeing you in the
kitchen cooking for me, i miss seeing you sitting at the dressing table and combing your hair
or putting on make up, i miss that cute silly laugh, i miss that smile that you always give me..
It was hard not to smile..
Him: Yea I’m talking about that smile.. He extended his hand and touched mine..
Him: i just need one last chance
I’ve given him soo many chances and he has disappointed me in every one of the chances…
Him: if i mess up and you leave me, i promise i will give you that divorce you been asking
for..
I looked at him, his eyes collaborated what he was saying..
Him: i love you Kresi, only you know the person that i am.. No other woman can understand
me like you do… I know that i haven’t been the best husband to you but I’m willing to try If
you give me one last chance…
Me: i hear what you saying and.. I’ll give you one last chance. But only in one condition..
He looked at me…
Me: i want us to go see a marriage counsellor..
He kept quiet for a long time.. Then spoke after a few minutes..
Him: Okay we’ll see a marriage counsellor
Me: And I’ll move back in the house when i see some changes
Him: Can i make a request when it comes to that?
Me: Yes?
Him: Can i rent a temporary house for you? I don’t like you staying with the Zulus especially
when things are like this between me and Banzi
Me: Its fine
Him: So should we get something to eat?
Me: ya we can
Him: Ohh and i would like us to go away just for a while me you and poonkie pie..
Me: That’s great
Him: Maybe Thai land
Me: Wow i have never been out of SA
Him: Maybe you can choose how about Dubai?
Me: How about Las Vegas?
He looked at poonkie pie
Him: Can’t go with her to Las Vegas..
Me: Maybe Vic can babysit
Him: You right, plus his been saying that he misses her…
Me: Then we’ll go to Las Vegas
He smiled at Me.. I seriously cannot wait I’ve always been wishing to go to Las Vegas….

# NOKWANDA
I had just finished bathing when Banzi came in.. He looked drunk, not that drunk but he was
drunk..
He threw his car keys and phone on the bed..
Him: And what do you know, my wife is home
I ignored him…
Him: So how was it?? Having Tpee holding your hand throughout the whole process of you
giving birth
Me: maybe he wouldn’t have done that if you were actually there
Him: Maybe if i was called i was gonna be there
I didn’t feel like entertaining him..
He got close to me, and ran his hand down on my Pussy..
Him: So he saw my assets?
Me: Banzi please
He then put his hand on my neck and tightened his grip
Him: What the fuck were you even doing in his house?
He pushed me against the wall and strangled me. I was running out of breath.. If you haven’t
noticed, my husband is very very Jealous…
I was coughing and trying to get his hand off my throat but he just continued, i think his
intentions were to kill me..

PART 17 NOKWANDA’S PAIN

May 29, 2016visionarywritings
Banzi had gone back to his old self, i was scared for myself, i was scared for my baby’s
health it was just chaos..
Today me and NaZulu had fetched Mbali from the hospital, She was one strong baby.. She
looked more like Banzi she didn’t take much of my features. Especially when it comes to her
complexion it was Banzi..
NaZulu was inlove with Mbali, she couldn’t keep her eyes off her..

We got home and we went in.. Had pink balloons around at the door written “Welcome
home” Noxolo was very happy to meet Mbali for the first time..
Noxolo: She is soo tiny and adorable.. I am a very proud Aunt
NaZulu: And she looks exactly like Banzi, she is a true Zulu..
Noxolo: And she’s sleeping..
Me: She sleeps alot, she’s lazy..
Noxolo: I’d rather have a baby that sleeps alot than a baby that cries alot
We laughed..
The door bell rang..
NaZulu: Wonder who that could be
Me: I’ll go and check
I walked up to the door, and when i opened there was Buhle standing there..
The Nerve!
Me: What are you doing here?
Her: Hey Kwanda, it’s a been
She looked clean this time around but looked like she had withdrawal symptoms, i was
suspecting she was on drugs..
Me: What do you want?
Her: I’m here to check up on you Nokwanda…I mean we haven’t seen each other for a while,
I’ve missed you
She tried getting close to me to hug me, but i pushed her back..
NaZulu: Who is it Nokwanda?
Me: No one important
Her: Why are you acting like this Nokwanda?
I don’t think that she thinks that i know about the 3some thing
Me: i know about the 3some
Her jaw literally dropped to the floor..
Her: i know that you think I’m Evil or what but..
Me: But what?? You were friend Buhle i trusted you and all along you been sleeping with my
Man!!!
Her: it was just once Kwanda and i didn’t mean too
Me: i trusted you with all my heart
I saw tears in her eyes..
Her: it was nothing big, i just wanted him to help me with my bills
I looked at her dumbfounded
Her: my parents disowned me, i had nowhere to go.. After sleeping with Banzi i blackmailed
him and in so doing he had to pay my rent, and everything else
Me: You bitch!!
I slapped her, she looked at me not believing that i slapped her..
Me: Go back to the trash can that you come from!!
I heard a voice behind me, it was NaZulu…
NaZulu: You have a nerve showing up in my house after what you’ve done!!.
Her: i didn’t come here to disrespect anyone.. While everyone is looking at me as if like I’m
the evil one here, just remember that i didn’t force Banzi to sleep with Me!
NaZulu: Leave my house you Tramp! And never ever set your foot in here
She turned around and left, i went in and shut the door..
Noxolo: And then??
She was standing there rocking Mbali back and forth..
I went up to her and took Mbali, i am done with this family..
Noxolo: Hau Nokwanda..
I went upstairs, and packed my things.. This time around i am done with Banzi and his
Family for good…..
When i was done packing i left Mbali on the bed, and took my bags downstairs…
Noxolo: Whoa hold on?? What are you doing?
Me: What does it look like I’m doing
I took my things to my car..
NaZulu: You cannot just leave Nokwanda
Me: What’s going to stop me?
I went to get my baby while she followed me
Her: Where are you gonna go?? Because clearly home is not an option
I looked at her.
Me: Is that why you go me?? Because i come from a disadvantaged family and you took
advantage of me?
Her: That’s Absurd
Me: Its True ain’t it? You wanted to tie me to your son because you know the kind of person
that your Son is. You got me Because you know that even if the going got tough i won’t leave
because I have nowhere to go!!
She didn’t know what to say..
Me: May Lord have Mercy on your soul..
I took my baby and Walked up to my car.. I put her car seat at the back and strapped her… I
then went to the driver’s seat and just drove out of that place..

I just drove, and drove i had nowhere to go.. I thought of going to Kresi but she won’t be able
to protect me from Banzi, she’s vulnerable just like me…
I pulled over and started crying.. It is hard being an Orphan,had i still had my parents with
me. Life would probably be different. I wasn’t gonna be where i am now..
I turned around and looked at Mbali, she was sleeping so peacefully.. Whatever decision i
make it will affect her and her future, i hope leaving her Father was the best Decision i have
ever made..
My phone brought Me back to earth when it started ringing.. I checked who it was and it was
Banzi, i Answered..
Me: Hello
Him: What’s this shit i heard about you moving out and taking my baby with you?
Me: Buhle was at the house did they tell you..
Him: i don’t care!!! Nokwanda if you wanna go, it’s fine go but don’t fucken take my
daughter with you!!!
It’s now he acknowledges that he has a daughter, he never visited her at the hospital but has
the Nerve to call her “My daughter”..
Me: Please don’t ever contact us, I’m done with you!!
Him: Nokwanda don’t test me!!!
I hunged up..
I sat there thinking were i can go, until something hit me.. There’s only one person who can
protect me from Banzi.. I started my car and went there..

I got to the THOBEKGALE PHARMACEUTICAL COMPANY, and Walked in.. I hated all
this security checks that i had to go through…
I got to the reception and just walked up to the Elevator..
Receptionist: Excuse me Mam’ you cannot just walk pass me
I was standing there with Mbali but she was in her car seat..
Receptionist: Mam’ please if you don’t cooperate i will call security
The elevator opened and i Walked in, then went Tpee’s office..

I walked out of the elevator in the 7th floor then went straight to his office, luckily his PA
wasn’t at her desk so less drama..
I opened the door, and Walked in.. He was doing some paperwork.
Him: Nokwanda!
He was shocked to see me..
I put the car seat down..
Me: I’m sorry to just budge in but, i didn’t know where else to go..
He looked at me..
Me: i need a place to stay for a few days..
Him: Nokwanda..
Me: Tshepiso please, i have a newborn and.. We need a place to stay but most importantly we
need someone to protect us from Banzi
Him: i don’t wanna be caught in this situation of you and Banzi
Me: if he kills us, would you wanna have that in your conscious??? Knowing that you could
help us but you didn’t
He looked at me for a very long time..
He exhaled..
Him: “11759” that’s the code to my house, i will alert security to be on the lookout incase He
comes
Me: Thank you soo much
Him: You better go, incase He comes here
Tpee is not that bad after all..

PART 18 NOKWANDA’S PAIN SEASON

TWO
May 30, 2016visionarywritings

Life with Tpee was very peaceful. Banzi kept his distance, it was almost as if he let us go
completely.. Kresi wasn’t really happy about the whole situation, but since a baby was
inloved she let us be..
I was going back to school soon, i had got my results and i passed. I didn’t hit distinctions
this time around but, at least i passed so i was safe……
I was at school attending the morning class, i had dropped off Mbali at Kresi’s place since
she was living off on her own.. She was more than happy to babysit for me, and poonkie pie
adored Mbali. She was very fascinated by her especially for the fact that she was small and
she could kiss her and poke her cheeks…..
I was busy thinking of my baby throughout the whole lecture, i never really knew that i was
gonna love my baby like this, i never thought it was possible but i loved her more than
anything in life..
I’m thinking more than life itself..
As the lecture went on, Buhle walked in.. She looked like her old self, was Banzi Supporting
her financially? Or did she find herself another blesser?..
I didn’t even look at her that long, and she didn’t sit next to me which was good.

Attending all my morning classes with Buhle in the same atmosphere as me was just
somehow.. She made me uncomfortable, she made me angry.
The clock finally hit 13:00 and it was lunch time.. We went out of our last class..
I quickly exited because i really didn’t want to talk to Buhle at all..
I made my way to the cafeteria, and got me a burger with a can of iron brew..
The Zulus were sending me money every month, especially for the sake of Mbali they really
wanted their little princess to have the best of life…
My phone rang as i was busy eating, it was my Grandma..
Me: Koko
Her: Nokwanda yini le engiyizwayo (Nokwanda what Is this that I’m hearing)
Me: uzeweni (What did you hear)
Her: You left your husband?
Me: Did they tell you the whole story?
Her: Nokwanda after they paid lobola for you and you left, we talked to you we told you that
Marriage is not easy..
Me: Koko Banzi is not a human being, he is a monster!!
Koko: Hai Nokwanda!!
Me: I’m sorry i will not go back to that house again
Koko: You don’t have a choice!! Go and fix your marriage
I couldn’t hold back my tears anymore..
Her: Do you know that they no longer sending me money every month since you left?
Me: Stop making this about you!! This is not about you!!
Her: Don’t raise your voice at me!
Me: So you would rather have me come out of there in a coffin??
Koko: Don’t overreact!! NaZulu is a woman of Faith! She’s a woman of God
That right there was my queue to hang up and i did..
I cannot believe that my Grandma was saying such things to me, money means more to her
than my life.

# BANZI
I was sitting in my office, looking at Nokwanda’s picture..
I miss her soo much but at the same time, i am very angry at her…
I love this soo much and all i wanted was for her to understand why i was angry..
Having another nigga, hold your wife’s hand in the labour ward. Helping her go through the
whole ordeal and then you the last person to be called just can do a number on a Nigga..
Now to hear that she’s living with Tpee that’s worse.. I found myself throwing her picture
against the wall..
The Anger inside of me was building up..
My assistant came in..
Her: Boss i heard something breaking are you alright?
Me: I’m fine
She looked at the picture, and tried picking it up..
Me: Leave it!!
She left it..
Me: Can you bring me a glass of whiskey?
She acted as if like she didn’t me..
Me: Got that?
Her: You have a meeting in 10 minute’s time..
Me: So?
Her: You know one glass becomes two glasses then three, then before we know it, you have
downed half of the bottle!!
I stood up..
Me: Cancel all my meetings
Her: Where you go
Me: out!!
Her: But..
Me: Can you actually do what i pay you for?
Her: Yes boss..
I took my keys and went..

# NOKWANDA
Finally school was out.. I was walking out to my car, and i just couldn’t wait to get home to
my baby..
I felt someone touching me on my shoulder..
I turned around and it was Buhle.
Her: Nokwanda
Me: What do you want?!
Her: Can we talk things out
Me: i have nothing to say to you
I continued walking to my car, got in and started driving to Kresi’s place to fetch Mbali..

I got there and found her sleeping, my baby sleeps alot no wonder why she’s soo chubby.. I
thanked Kresi then took Mbali and we went..
My phone rang as i was about to unlock the car.. It was Banzi..
My heart started beating very fast, i didn’t know what to do.. But knowing Banzi he would
make a big deal out of this so i answered…
Me: Ba.. Banzi
Him: Kwash i wanna see you
He sounded like he was broken, i could sense it from his voice..
Me: Banzi
Him: Please baby.. Just for a couple of minutes we need to talk
I didn’t know what to say..
Him: Please come by at the house we need to talk..
Me: Whose at home?
Him: Noxolo and my mother
At least there’s people so it will be safe..
Him: You can bring Mbali i wanna see her too
Me: Okay we’ll be there..
Maybe we can work things out, maybe we can be a couple again..

#BANZI
I waited for Nokwanda while drinking Jack Daniels.. I was starting to get in the vibe (
drunk).. All i want is to understand her relationship with Tpee..
I was the only one around the house, i mean if i told her that she probably wasn’t gonna
come..

After a few hours of me waiting, i heard the kitchen door open.. I went to check, and
Nokwanda walked in.. She was holding Mbali in her arms…
Nokwanda: Are you excited to see Daddy? Ya i know you excited..
Our eyes met, reminding me of my love for her and the first time we kissed and made love..
Her eyes were full of fear, she looked very scared.. Scared of me. How did i become a
monster to her??
Me: Wow she looks Cute.. Can i hold her?
Her: Where is NaZulu?
Me: Nokwanda can i hold my daughter?? Can you at least afford me that?
She got closer and handed her to me..
It was my first time seeing her and holding her, she was an Angel
Me: She’s cute
Her: Very cute… Can i have her back?
Me: What? You think I’m gonna hurt my baby?
Her: Banzi please
I walked upstairs with her following me..
Her: Banzi give me my child!
We got to the highest point of the stairs…
Me: Come back home
Her: That’s something we need to talk about
Me: We talking about it now!
Her: Not like this Banzi
Me: Then if you leave and go back to him, know you gonna live alone!
She tried taking Mbali from me, but i pushed her hard and she tripped and fell down the
stairs…
Me: Nokwanda!!!!
She laid down there, not moving an inch.. That instant my daughter cried.. The kind of cry
that could alarm anyone..
My mom told me that Mbali doesn’t cry that much, she’s not a baby that cries.. I walked
down the stairs, i felt dizzy i thought i was gonna collapse or something…
I went down to her, she was bleeding through her mouth..
Me: Kwash wake up baby I’m sorry..
I shook her but she didn’t move. Mbali was crying i didn’t know what to do..
I saw blood on the floor, it was coming from the back of her head..
It was alot of blood, i knew right there that she’s not coming back..

# MESSAGE FROM PRESH

I wish when i heard that i could say, they rushed her to the hospital and that saved her.. But
unfortunately it was too late for her.. I hope that this story has opened our eyes that Love ain’t
supposed to hurt, if you feel like you suffocating get out of the relationship before its too late.. I hope
that the other lady who also helped me to write the story realises that Money doesn’t ease abuse, that
money shouldn’t be an excuse for him to hurt you…
Thank you for everyone who supported the story, i hope you’ve learned from it..
What happened to the real Banzi after this? I truly don’t know..