Lethokuhle

To be honest I love men, NOT the type that would let me pay for my own drinks,
let me walk home but portray this so-called swag on the Gram. I was into those
nerdy college type dudes driving daddys’ car to school and spending their parents’
money, basically, a snob. A movie and dinner kind of guy. I was in the upper level
life and my family made sure they keep in that status.

Sonke? He was different, he had two sides to his personality which I couldn’t
really understand.

He was loving and comforting yet had a very dark side to him then he made me
feel safe and loved. He fought for me which made me fall deeper in love with him
even more than I thought it would. Sonkesethu Shange was in control of his life.
My plan was to kill time with him until I meet the guy who sweeps me off my feet
but my mom told me one thing

Happiness is not what happens down the road, happiness is now

 Chapter 1
December 24th Sonke calls me up and says,
Sonke: My lovely lady
Me: Baby
Sonke: Please be ready at 5PM my friends are having a braai at Westbrook beach
Me: Wow
Sonke: I am asking you to join me
Me: Oh okay
Sonke: You can bring your sister along if that’s okay
I smile to myself
Me: okay I will
Sonke: Okay Cheers
Me: Okay
He hangs up without asking me how I am and if I am okay…Lord… This guy is just too ghetto
for my liking…I turn to my sister
Me Sonke invited us to a beach braai at Westbrook beach in LA Mercy
Noxy: That is nice but we have church tomorrow…
Me: I will tell him to bring us early if that’s okay?
Noxy: Okay I don’t see any problem
Me: Cool
Noxy: Plus I like Sonke
ME: Haaaa Nox
Noxy: He respects me which is good.
Me: Yeah I can tell
Noxy: Such Potential you don’t notice
Me: I do
Noxy: Mmm
Me: Whatever
I took a quick shower and wore my log summer dress as it was humid, I put my weave into a
pony and then applied my make-up, My phone Beeped as a message notification.

Sonke {Hi Baby lami, Ngicela uphume, I am outside kini}

I checked outside from my bedroom window and I text him back

Me {Hawu you said uzofika at 5pm}

Sonke {Yes baby lami but besengikukhumbula plus I need to go ngasekhaya to buy drinks and
ngicela ukuhamba nawe baby Sizobuya sesithatha uNoxolo then masesiya eWestbrook.}
I walked downstairs while Noxy was watching TV

Me: Nox, Sonke wants to go to Inanda to buy drinks, what will you be drinking?
Noxy: well… I will have Hooch
Me: Okay, I will see you in a few minutes.
I took my phone and headed to his car
Me: Babe
Sonke: Muntu omuhle
I smiled and I kissed him on his lips as he kissed me back
Sonke: Mmmmm Yeah
We drove all the way to Inanda, he said that was the only bottle store he could get two for one.
We didn’t say much to each other as I was busy on my phone chatting to Zeeno and he was
driving and playing some Black Coffee. Everyone knew Sonke at the Inanda Area and to be
honest most people did not know me or about our relationship as we had a weird relationship, I
guess I was happy to keep it low-key and he was happy in not making it known. It was just 3
months ago that we decided to give it a try, I liked the fact that he was a stress free type of
nigger. He also minded his own business as I did my own and would never be on my case
about my whereabouts, with who and why - he is too chilled and I love that about him.
Sonke: Lethu Ngicela uhlale emotweni ngoba angifuni ukungena nawe kuma-bottle stores
cause bazokuthatha kancane abantu
Me: I totally agree, it is not my scene
Sonke: You will be drinking juice right?
Me: No
Sonke: Oh, Uzophuzani?
Me: I was thinking hunters Gold or Purple Ice
Sonke: Okay
Me: Noxy will drink hooch
Sonke: Okay
Me: Be quick before someone steals me
He laughed while getting out of the car and he walked to the entrance. There were guys sitting
outside in camp chairs drinking their beer and the music was loud.
I logged into my BBM and started chatting to Zeeno and she told me we have to go to the
Durban underground event tomorrow after church, I said cool but I am super broke as I am
getting paid later in the week, she said we will make a plan and will come over to my place
around 3PM tomorrow so we can leave early and the best thing is the event at People’s Park in
CBD, so it will only be 20 minutes away from home.
Sonke came with 2 boxes and he put them at the back seat of the car and he got inside the car
Sonke: who are you chatting to as I could see you all the way from the store ukuthi you’re
smiling wedwa?
I laughed.
Me: I am chatting to Zeeno
Sonke: Tell then une’baby lakho manje and switch this phone off
me gave me a funny look, then stared at me.
Sonke: My phone is off why can’t you do the same?
Me: Why is your phone off in the first place?
Sonke: Because I’ festive and my family is calling me nonstop and my battery will die soon
Me: Well I don’t have anyone who will be calling me and my phone will stay switched on just in
case I have an emergency. He looked at me and gave me a long stare he then put his music on
and started driving back to SmallVille to pick my sister up. We drove in silence as he was a bit
annoyed, I could tell. I was no longer in the mood to entertain him as he was being controlling.

I got out the car as soon as he stopped at the gate, I opened the gate and walked to the house,
I ran upstairs to my room and grabbed a warm cardigan and told Noxy to get ready Sonke is
outside, she locked the doors and we headed over to Sonkes’ car .
I got into the passenger seat and Noxy got into the back and greeted, he started the car he
started talking to Noxy and they were throwing around jokes, I didn’t involve myself in their
conversation but I was busy playing a game on my phone but I could hear them. He said to her
if Lethu had to leave me, I would kill her and I laughed and choked on my spit, I hoped he was
joking I wasn't sure what is it he was trying to say or imply but it freaked me out a bit since we
were just new in this relationship, he then held my hand and started singing Beyoncé Smash in
to you....

“Head down, as I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground

Eyes shut, I find myself in love racing the earth
And… I’m soaked in your love
And love was right in my path, In my grasp
And me and you belong

I wanna run
smash in to you
I wanna run
and smash into you”

He put my hand on top on the gear as he was changing it.

Sonke: Baby lami kufanele ufunde ukushayela manje so that you will drive my Vura or this
number 7
Me: VW
Sonke: everyone knows it’s mine so you will be safe in it
he stopped on the side of the road and said please come this side i will teach you how to drive it
me: I know how to drive
Sonke: Then come over this side
Me: no baby not now, I mean not at this very moment and its late and the roads are busy
he laughed and said uyigwala kodwa baby wami,
Noxy: Uyaqala ukukubona lokho? Lol akekho oyigwala kakhulu in this world okudlula uLethu
I laughed because hayi I am afraid of death, He then got back onto the road and we drove
blasting Beyoncé album 4 we all sang softly.
Sonke: baby wami, every time I miss you I played this track
He skipped to a song and played this one
*I thought that things like this get better with time but I still need you...Why is that?
*You're the only image in my mind so I still see you around...
*I miss you like every day…. I want to be with you but you’re away......
*I miss you, missing you insane but if I got with you would it feel the same....

Here I am blushing
Sonke: You are getting closer to being my addiction
He held my hand again and moved the starring with 1 hand, he kept looking at me with every
chance he got and all I did was stare at him and I thought to myself
This guy is getting me hooked on him and maybe I should actually give him a chance and love
him cause right now I feel like I am killing time and he does not seem to be my type but he
knows how to get me smiling and feeling like I am the only girl in the world.
next thing I knew we are at LA Mercy Westbrook beach, there were so many cars, a lot of
people with braai stands and probably every second car was playing music, different type of
music, the vibe was just right, there were a lot of posh cars. A muscular dark guy in complexion
runs towards Sonkes’ car.
Guy: Boy Unjani?
Sonke: Sho Nigga
Guy: Uyiphethe leyanto?
Sonke: Yes it’s in the boot
The guy runs to the boot and take out 5 bottles of sky vodka and 2 bottles of Jameson with a
cooler box full of ciders and walked towards a crowd that was near the braai stand. Sonke
parked his car facing the group which we were with.
Sonke: Okay ladies, let’s meet my friends.
 Chapter 2

We step out of the car and Noxy was walking ahead of us, he holds my hand and kisses the
back of it, I stopped.
Me: Are you okay because you are so loving right now?
Sonke: nginebaby lami, ayikho into engangidumaza
I felt my palms sweat. Oh God, maybe he knows I was out with my girls last weekend and he
will flip at the fact that I was with other guys from university and I didn’t tell him anything, Marcus
my Ex guy was there, something doesn’t seem right though, I smiled at him trying to hide my
guilty face.
Me: You loving me too much.
Sonke: Baby that is my Job.
I stared at him and He put his left hand on my waist.
Sonke: Asambe, Noxy ulinde thina.
We walk up to his crew and there was a one series BMW red in color that was playing music.

Guy: Hawu Miss, unjani mam? How rude of me angibingelelanga emotweni bengomiwe.
He laughed.
I Looked at Sonke as I hate that word.
Sonke: uMam wakho yini lo Sthe? Her name is Lethu and this is her older sister Noxy. Noxy
gave both of the guys hugs and while I was about to do the same he stopped the guys
Sonke: No hugs allowed kuLethu.
I look at him very much confused and after saying that he walked away towards the crowd and
left Noxy, these two guys and I, then we all followed him and everyone started greeting him like
he was some sort of a celebrity, handshakes and hugs all-round with these other girls while
Noxy and I stood against the red BMW with our hands folded. he went to his car and came back
with 2 camp chairs and placed them next to four ladies that were sitting facing the sea, we sat
there with Noxy, we introduced ourselves. Sonke then came back with two bottles of Skyy
Vodka and cranberry and said ladies enjoy. He went back to the car and came back with a 24
pack of Hooch and 12 pack of Hunters Gold and put in into a cooler box with ice.
Sonke: Baby wami, ungaphuzi kahkulu you have church tomorrow.
I smiled
Me: Okay I won’t.
Sonke: The food is almost ready.
Fat Lady: hayi ngoba sekukhona wena Sonke izinto zizolunga fast.
She gave me this fucked up look and I got a bit pissed, wtf? Why is she looking at me like that?
What does she mean? Where do they know each other from? I open my can and poured some
booze into my glass and start drinking my Gold still trying to digest what this fat yellow bone
said.
After a while Sonke came back and touched my shoulder.
Sonke: Sithandwa sami usaright?
Me: Yes I am
Sonke: I am here love, ungabhoreki indoda ikhona.
I smiled
Me: I know sithandwa sami.
he smiled
Sonke: Lokhu saqala this is the first time you said sithandwa sami.
I shyly looked away and he kissed my cheek
Sonke: Ngicela usenzela ukudla.
I looked at him in awe!
Me: Me?
Sonke: Yes.
Me: Are you sure, I don’t even know these people.
Sonke: They know you. You don’t have to be shy around your family.
Me: Family?
Sonke: Yes, Your family.
I stood up
Me: Ladies may you please help me dish up.
A tall slim lady stood up and said
Girl: GIRRRRL I am starving, of cause I will help.
With a huge smile on her face.
Noxy: Okay no problem.
We headed over to the braai stand and took out paper plates and rolls and Sonke helped with
cutting the meat into pieces as it was also hot, we added the home made salad one of the ladies
came with.
Sonke: Baby I want chicken wings only, I am tired of red meat and sausages
Me: Okay
I did that and added 2 soft rolls and added some chakalaka, green salad then handed it over to
him. He kissed me on my cheek.
Sonke: Thank you.
After I was done with dishing the food and we ate he sat in the back seat of his car and I sat in
the front, Noxy decided to chill with the girls and I stayed with Sonke in the car.
Sonke: Baby wami do you remember how we met?
Laughing out loud
Looking at each other through the rear view mirror.
Me: I do
While laughing
Me: Although I was super sick
I giggled
Sonke: I called you 55 times on that day and waluziba ucingo lami.
Me: Baby yazi ngangilele cause I went out with Goodies the night before so I was so tired and I
had a hung over
Sonke: Naniyephi?
Me: Lunarosa.
Sonke: I could tell ukuthi you were hung over
Me: Sobabili no Goodies
Sonke: Whose car were you using vele?
Me: My brothers
Sonke: Cha uyariska shame, driving in that condition to iNanda
Me: Goodies had to be at work the next day and she had to go home.
Sonke: Hayi Ngiyezwa.
Me: You also looked wasted?
Sonke: Hayi hayi hayi yazi ngangiphuma ukuyodlala ibhola Lethuee.
me: Unamanga?
Sonke: Hayi hayi hayi Serious, kusho ukuthi ububi bami.
Me: Nxese
He laughed
Sonke: Well enjoy your days of parting because you will stop in a couple of months, I don’t want
my wife out and about at night akukho-safe
I looked away as soon as he looked back at the mirror. After we were done eating I took our
plates and threw them in the bin and cleaned up after the guys, I closed all the left overs and put
it in the boot of the 1 series as requested by Sonke.
Sthe: After church siyaqhubeka kwami, that meat can last me a full month and we need to finish
it tomorrow
The guys laughed, someone shouted ”kumele” in the backgroud.
Sonke: Ubala lolo vele siphilela ukudla inyama.
I went over to join the girls and we were taking pictures and I borrowed Sonkes’ phone and
without hesitations he switched it on and gave it to me, He switched the camera on for me so
we started taking group pictures then he took pictures with me, we took so many pictures and
they were all on point, you know iPhone pictures never disappoint. I started scrolling through the
pictures
A text came through and I clicked on it, I really didn’t mean to.
It read…

Nomz {I’ve been trying to reach you but it seems as if you are too busy with your Hoe's, don’t
bother rocking at my place, my boyfriend is here}

I dropped the phone from the shock, I quickly picked it up but it was now off, a girl said ouch
sorry oe ayifanga I-screen?
Me: It doesn’t look like it but let me try and switch it on, Sonke came over and touched me on
my shoulder.
Sonke: Baby u-right?
Me: Yes, it just slipped from my hand...I am sorry baby.
My hands shaking with nerves from that text I saw.
Sonke: It’s cool baby.
I handed over the phone him.
Me: please send the pictures via WhatsApp to me.
Sonke: Okay give me a moment.
He sent them through within a few minutes and he went back to his car, he sat inside his boot.
I was scared and pissed off at the same time, who is this Nomz chick and wtf did she mean he
is with his “hoes”,fuck this! Right now he is probably reading the SMS and only God knows what
I am to him. I decided to confront him about it and I walked over to his car busy talking on the
phone, so am I his side chick? And this Nomz is his girlfriend or fuck buddy or whatever she is?
The bottom line is that there is 2 of us maybe more.. Nxa…. I didn’t even wait for him to finish
the call.

Me: I need to talk to you

He was still busy on his phone so he had to cut the call and speak to me.
Sonke: I have to go.
He hung up
Sonke: Lethu what’s up?
I looked at him dead in the eyes.
Me: I want to go home, I don't want to be here anymore.
Sonke: Ngoba?
Me: Please take us home,
He put his hands on my shoulders.
Sonke: What is the matter now baby lami?
Me: Nothing I just want to go home.
Sonke: Why?
Me: Angisafuni ukubalana.
Sonke: Why ungasafuni ukubalana?
Me: It’s cold, I am tired and I need to be home early since I will be going to church
Sonke: So sonke lesikhathi sizalana and siyahlala sidle and manje you decide ukuthi ungitshele
ukuthi awusafuni ukubalana? You told me vele ukuthi you have church to go to ekuseni and I
will take you and Noxy to church and all of a sudden usukhathele? Why don’t you tell me what is
the problem coz these excuses you are giving me are stupid? If you are feeling cold get inside
the car and put the damn heater on.
Me: But I want to go home.
Sonke: Stop this childishness *Yelling* you are always on and off vele, ikephi inkinga yakho?
Me: I want to go home.
Sonke: Why ubeneconsi kanje?
I walked away.
Tall slim chick: Lethu you okay?
Me: I will be fine.
Fat yellow bone: Trouble in paradise? Sonke ain’t no angel phela uyaziwa...
They all laughed, I sat there all humiliated and embarrassed and mad as hell, this bitch is
getting on my last nerve, I sat there for twenty minutes staring into space and Sonke was staring
at me from where he was standing with his boys, his phone was busy as he kept answering it.
Noxy: You want us to take a walk to the beach?
Me: Yes please.
Tall slim chick: I will join you guys.
I wore my cardigan and I took my can of Hunters Gold, Noxy took her Hooch and this chick took
her glass of Skyy mixed with cranberry. I didn’t say anything to Sonke but I just walked past him,
he seemed more mad that I was but I just didn’t care, if he cannot take me home, I will exclude
myself. We walked to the beach where there were light pole, we only walked towards the shore
but we didn’t want to swim, I had my sandals in my hand and my can in the other, as we walked
on the stones and the beach sand there was a wooden seat with a shelter where we could view
the beach, we sat there.
Tall slim chick: Lethu and Noxy I am Thah Short for Thandeka.
Me: Oh my I have been sitting with you ladies for hours and I didn’t even get your names.
Thandeka: It’s cool, you seemed to be busy and Sonke won’t let you off his sight.
Noxy laughed so hard that I ended up laughing too.
Noxy: You could swear you are in a prison Lethu while laughing, is that what made you upset?
Me: No I just wanted to go home.
Noxy: Why because we are having fun?
Me: I am just tired.
We continued drinking.
Noxy: Am not yet ready to go.
Me: okay its fine it’s just that…
I kept quiet.
Thandeka: What?
I was quiet thinking should I tell them that I read his SMS? Or should I just leave it?
Me: The girls we are with don’t seem to like me and I don’t feel comfortable.
Thandeka: Hawu baright nje.
Me: That yellow bone doesn’t like me.
Thandeka:,The yellow bone??? She burst out laughing
Me: Ngempela
Thandeka: Cee-Cee?
Me: I don’t know her name?
Thandeka: Oh she is friends with Sonkes’ ex so that is why she is mistreating you,
Me: Which Ex
Thandeka: I have never met her but he was seeing her sometime earlier this year and since
then I have never heard of her.
Me: Oh
Thandeka: So don’t let them get to you and Sonke will put her in her place ngoba leSkyy
asesiphuza sesehlela ngezansi.
Noxy and I laughed and said
Me: Okay I won’t, I will enjoy myself.
My phone rang, Sonke was calling.
Me: Guys Sonke is calling me.
Thandeka: Well like we said, you are in prison with that nigger.
Noxy: Answer Lethu.
Me: No
I decided to ignore the phone call because I was still pissed at him, I didn’t even know why he
was calling me.
We sat there for an hour or so just talking about life, fashion and man, we laughing nonstop as
we were having so much fun. Thandeka and I exchanged numbers as we all clicked. We
decided to leave because it was getting a bit cold so we walked back to the parking lot where
the guys were at.
Just before we can get to them this parking Sithembiso points at us, Sonke woke up from his
camp chair and comes towards us with an attitude
Sonke: where have you been?
We looked at him
Sonke: Where have you been?
He pulled me by my arm
Sonke: where the fuck were you and why did you ignore my calls?
Sithembiso: Nigga calm down
Me: Sonke
I was as scared as I have never seen Sonke like this, he has never spoken to me like this and
neither has he ever put his hands on me like this.
He put both his hands on my shoulders and started squeezing them and he shook me
Noxy: Sonke Stop it,
Sonke: Niphumaphi?
Noxy: We were just sitting at the beach talking
Thandeka: Lethu needed some space coz your ex's friend are being sarcastic with her
Sonke: Ex?
Thandeka: Cee-cee
Sonke: Ucee-cee
Thandeka: Hayi Kahleke nawe hawu, uyazi ngikhuluma ngoobani?
Sonke: Wenzeni u Cee-cee ku Lethu
Noxy: Being rude to her
Sonke: Utheni?
Noxy: She is giving her attitude
Sonke: Utheni?
Everyone kept quiet, sonke looked at me
Sonke: Utheni?
Me: please stop this, I want to go home
Sonke: come here
he grabbed my left arm as we walked, we went back to towards the bench where we were
sitting, I started crying and thinking what is this guy’s going to do to me, he is so angry and mad
Me: let me go *Screaming*
Sonke: Umemezelani? Am I a stranger to you?
Me: You are hurting me
Sonke: Kade wenzani no Thandeka la
me: baby I was sitting here and drinking ciders
Sonke: why didn’t you tell me you are taking a walk?
Me: You looked mad and I didn’t want to disturb you
Sonke: Why did you not answer my calls?
I was quiet, I couldn’t talk as I was scared and at this stage I was crying nonstop
he pulled me near a street pole where there is light
Sonke: look at me
I looked at him
He was navy lack in complexion, that’s how mad he was, his eyes were red
Sonke: ikuphi inkinga lethu?
Me: Nothing
Sonke: I was worried sick about you
I looked away
Sonke: This attitude you are giving me is pissing me off even more
Me: Ufuna ngithini? I told you I want to go home
Sonke: Why did you cut off ama calls ami? After that you come back laughing with a girl you
don’t even know
me: So I am supposed to be all emotional just because you don’t want to take me home?
Sonke: Buka nje ukuhuluma nami kanjani? yazi Lethu awazi ukuthi ngikuthanda kanjani and
lapho wena you act like you don’t give a fuck about me
I looked away but he pulled my face to look at him
Sonke: Last week you were out parting with boys, you were wasted lethokuhle in Florida road
Me: Me?
Sonke: Ungangezi ibari… usugroova ngisho koflorida?
Me: You are the last person to ask me that
Sonke: What?
Me: You are dating another woman and lapho you come here and question me about my life?
*Screaming*
Sonke: Don’t raise your voice at me
Me: really Sonke Shange? *Screaming*
all I saw fireworks on the sky while I felt my buttock hitting the ground, he picked me up
Sonke: don’t you ever speak to me like that do you hear me
He let go of my arm and walked away
I didn’t even turn to see who saw me, I just ran towards the shore and started crying, I was still
struggling to come to terms that he hit me… really hit me, I mean this nigger has the balls to hit
me and I will still have to travel with him home after this, I still have I have to face all these
people and pretend like I am fine, why did I even come here? I hate him....Already I hate him....
 Chapter 3

I sat on a rock at the beach, I had my legs hanging inside the water as the waves slight hit on
my legs

My cheek was throbbing and it was probably red or swollen as it hurt

The time is now 12.30am, so its officially Christmas day and I am sober with a heart aches

“I got beaten up for confronting him about his mistress”

This is not what I am game for? Why do I have to meet all these assholes who think they can
belittle me?

I wanted to be home so badly, as much I enjoyed the peace of being at the beach starring at the
sky I just wanted to be home in my bedroom.
I wanted to call Marcus and ask him to pick me and Noxy up but I knew it would end up in to
such a huge fight, Sonke will never allow another man to take me fin front of him.
Marcus on the other hand, he is such a sweet heart, if he was not the asshole that he is we
would still be together right now.

I remember the first time he took me out on a date, He came to campus with his dad’s BMW Z4
and I sat on the passenger’s seat like some kind of a princess, we drove to the Musgrave center
and had dinner at Mug n’ bean, I had my favorite Lasagna with lemon juice while he had a salad
with orange juice

He told me how much he had a crush on me from the day he saw me at the canteen and he
knew right there and then that I was the one, I suited his profile perfectly, I was gorgeous,
intelligent and sexy, My personality was so him.

After that he took me for shopping at coco Inc, he got me a 24inc Peruvian weave and a watch.
I was too excited and I could not wait to get home and brag about my gifts, we even kissed for
the first time on that day.

He had to drive me all the way to Verulam from Musgrave to drop me off since it was late, When
we drove to SmallVille was surprised to see my home, he probably expected me to come from a
less fortunate family than him

I found myself smiling as I kept my thoughts on Marcus

On that day he even asked me if he can come inside my house and I refused cause bantu
would kill me if I were to bring a male inside our home, that’s how much respect I have for my
siblings, I remember how angry Noxy was on that Friday
She asked me where I was and why I did not tell the driver I am going to some place and why I
allowed Marcus to drop me off at home and that he is a no good forward spoilt brat.
While I was in my thoughts, I heard cars driving off, then I came back to my reality

I got off the rock and I walked up to the parking’s where everyone was dancing and having the
time of their lives

Noxy walked up to me and hugs me

Noxy: Are you okay?

Me: Yes I am
Noxy: Sonke said you wanted to be alone
Me: I did
Noxy: Your phone was off when I tried calling
I faked a smile
Me: I am okay

I walked up to Sonke leaving Noxy standing alone

Me: I am feeling cold

Sonke: So?
Me: I need the car keys

He didn’t bother to even ask me if I was okay, Instead he just gave me the car keys and
continued chatting with his crew, I walked to his Golf 7, sat on the back seat of the car and
cuddled myself.
I had an awesome view of them as they were having the time off their lives while I was having
such a miserable night, they were dancing, Eating and they were all sitting together on their
camp chairs sipping on booze, I was so jealous, I wanted Sonke to give me attention but at this
very point, it was impossible to even get him to look at me

I sat in the car starring at them until I dozed off….

I woke up with the sunray shining directly in to my eyes, it looked so beautiful and the entire sea
looked so peaceful and all colorful

My eyes felt puffy, My neck felt sore and Noxy was sleeping next to me covered with a shawl
Outside was Sonke with his friends and some girls with music blasting from one of the cars, I
looked at the time, it was 4.45am in the morning
I opened the door as I wanted to speak to Sonke, As soon as I opened the car door, he turned
to look at me, I walked up to him

Me: Hey
Sonke: Yes
Me: Please take me home
He looked pissed and tipsy at the same time

Sonke: Give me 5minute

I looked around and I realized I was rude as everyone was now paying attention to me

Me: Hi Guys
Guys: Hey
(Cee-Cee): Ouwsie you look terrible hey, next time stay at home cause this life style is not for
you

I got more mad, I looked at Sonke expecting him to say something but he just sipped on beer
pretending like nothing just happened

Me: 5minute is too long, I want to leave now

I walked to the car and set on the passenger’s seat and I started hooting for him to come
through.
He walked towards the car, got inside and he started the car without saying anything to me and
Noxy
He put his music on which it was Beyoncé song while I kept my eyes glued on the window
He tried reaching for my hand but I folded my arms, I was too mad at him for not fighting for me
when his bitches were disrespecting me, the fact that he hit me for confronting him about this
Nomza chick, I didn’t want anything from him.
The drive was awkward, He kept chatting to Noxy but I didn’t respond until we got smallVille

I got off his car as soon as he reached our gate, he tried reaching for my hand but I was too
fast, I slammed the door and looked at him

Me: Don’t bother taking us to church, we will take a cab

He gave me a deadly stare and I did the same then left him parked outside

Noxy: Bye Sonke

Sonke: Sho Sbari

He Parked outside for 15 minute if not more than he drove off

Noxy and I decided to get ready for church, at 6.30am we left with a cab.
7am we were at church at St joseph in Verulam, The church service was awesome as we
bumped in to mom’s friends
They gave us Christmas gifts and they told us they loved us like their own and that we must
never feel alone as they are there as parents to us, it was a bit emotional as I would have loved
for mom to be there but I guess it’s true when what does not kill you, makes you stronger
At 10am we were home, I ordered Chicken Tikka as we were too lazy to cook and we were
going out in the next few hours, within 30 minute the tikka was delivered, Noxy and I ate and we
took a nap in our rooms.

Around 12 midday I woke up to go to the bathroom and have snack as I was feeling a bit
hungry, I went to the bathroom then I came back to get my phone and I ran down stairs to the
kitchen, I had poured orange juice from myself and I took out a packet of lays and I went back to
my bedroom, I sat on my bed and attended to my phone as there were messages and missed
calls.
It had five missed calls from Sonke and two text messages from him

Sonke {So now you not taking my calls}

Sonke {I am outside the main gate, get your ass here}

My heart skipped a beat and I thought to myself this guys is losing too much focus, he has the
nerve of bringing his ass here after what he did to me.
I walked up to my bedroom window and peeped through from my curtain, a white VR6 was
parked outside opposite my sliding gate

Me: He must be fucking kidding me

I gathered myself together and went over to him

Me: Sonke
Sonke: Baby lami
Me: What are you doing here?
Sonke: Are you okay?
Me: I am good
Sonke: How was church?
Me: Good
Sonke: I will assumed you were sleeping right?
Me: Yes I was
Sonke: Okay
me: Why are you here?
Sonke: I was missing you

I gave a sarcastic laugh

Sonke: Ngicela ungivakashela today

me: I Can’t
Sonke: Ngoba?
Me: My big brother is in Durban
Sonke: So?
Me: I have to be at home
Sonke: Fuck your brother
Me: That is my brother you are talking about
Sonke: You my girlfriend not him
Me: Still
Sonke: You will be turning 21 in the next few month so why do you need his approval?
Me: He is my brother and it’s called respect
Sonke: Hayi Kahle Lethu
Me: Plus I have plans tonight
Sonke: What plans?
Me: The Durban underground
Sonke: With?
Me: With my best friend and sister
Sonke: Ubani Loyo Mngani?
Me: Zeeno
Sonke: What time will you be back home
Me: Around 10 to 11pm if not late
Sonke: Okay I see

I faked a smile

Sonke: Please behave

Me: I will
Sonke: Do you need cash

I laughed out loud

Sonke: What is funny?

Me: I don’t need cash
Sonke: Sure?
Me: Yes I am sure

He got out of his car, he put his hands on my waist and he pulled me closer to him, He planted a
kissed on my forehead then he got into his car, He switched it on and he looked at me

Sonke: I love you

Me: I love you too

He drove off and I went back in to the house and I cuddled myself in my bed.

Zeeno got home called me at 2.30pm while I laid on my bed

Me: Hey Girl
Zeeno: Hey boo Boo, Are you home?
Me: Yes I am
Zeeno: Okay I am leaving home now, be there in 20 max
Me: Cool
Zeeno: Bye
Me: Cheers

Zeeno arrived around 3:15pm in a black Polo Vivo, the driver waited until I buzzed her in, Noxy
and I waited for her at the door, she had a sling bag and a luggage bag and I must say “she
looked posh”

Noxy: New Man?

Zeeno: Potential
Me: From?
Zeeno: Can I come in first, sit down and then tell you guys all about him

We laughed as we walked inside the house, we hugged each other with excitement
She sat down on the couch taking her shoes

Noxy: We waiting
Me: Start talking young missy

She laughed

I walked over to the kitchen poured her a glass of wine as she loved it, then I walked back to the
lounge to hear about this hot mysterious man

Me: Here we go
Zeeno: Just what I needed
Noxy: Thank you Lethu, maybe she will start talking now
Zeeno: Haibo I am coming from home, don’t get confuswd with this luggage bag
Me: Home as in where?
Zeeno: Well let’s say I was not sure on what I will wear tonight but I need to look posh
Me: You do already nje
Zeeno: Nah, that was to bribe mom, she will never me let me leave the house with a boy using a
short skirt

We laughed out loud, Noxy went to the kitchen and came back with a flying fish beer and ice
Tropez, she opened her flying fish and gave me the Tropez

Me: Already guys?

Noxy: ke December boss, why not?
Me: Who is that hunk
Zeeno: Well his name is Nkosi, he works opposite my work place in Morningside
Noxy: He looks cute
Zeeno: But childish

we all laughed together

Me: He looks mature

Zeeno: Looks are deceiving honey
Noxy: So isisheli for now?
Zeeno: Yebo love
Noxy: Time will tell
Zeeno Looked at me
Zeeno: Start talking
Me: About?
Zeeno: Noxy told me
Me: Okay, I don’t know about Sonke
Zeeno: Sonke?
Noxy: Yes… THE…. Sonke
Zeeno: And Marcus?
Me: Ex
Zeeno: That loser
Me: Tell me about it
Noxy: His too much of a spoilt brat and too self-observant

We all laughed

Zeeno: I though you guys were going to work things out though, Sonke is too old for you and
usile nje loyamfana
Me: We just 6 years apart
Zeeno: That is still too much
Noxy: But he is just too sweet and he seems to be stable
Zeeno: Hayi oe, unobuskhotheni nje loyamfana, I don’t approve
Me: Zeeno, Don’t confuse my heart
Zeeno: Okay, maybe I need to get to know him nje kancane
Noxy: We went out naye izolo to Westbrook
Zeeno: My Invite?
Me: It was a sudden thing
Zeeno: Bitches be parting without me
Noxy: Hayi kahle Zeeno
Zeeno: Okay fine, I will let this go

We laughed
Zeeno: How was it though
Noxy: I won’t complain bandla, he spoiled me and Lethu was being a spoilt brat as always
Zeeno: Hayi sisi, you won’t make it with that guys if you are a spoilt brat, don’t be a nagging
girlfriend Please
Me: Okay thank you for the advised, can we please get ready?
Zeeno: True, I still need to decide on what to wear
Me: Well I know what I am wearing
Noxy and Zeeno walked to Noxy’s bedroom and I went to my room to take a shower and decide
what to wear.
I decided to curl my weave and I put a knee length black pencil dress with yellow pointy stilettos,
I put on my nerdy specs.
Zeeno had a short orange jumpsuit with black heels that matched her pendant and sling bag
Noxy wore a short black skater skirt with a grey vest and grey heels and she matched her bag
with a gold necklace

We chilled downstairs once we were done on how to get to the venue

Zeeno: I was thinking ufobele u Sonke asihambise to the underground

Me: Hell No
Noxy: Why not?
Me: I told him I was going to the underground but he didn’t offer to take me
Zeeno: Then ask him
Me: Why don’t we ask Unkosi, The potential
Zeeno: Never
Me: That is exectly how I feel

We looked at Noxy

Noxy: What?
Zeeno: Banzi?
Noxy: No
Me: Why?
Noxy: trouble in paradise
Zeeno: Ngo December?
Noxy: Yep

We laughed and then we requested for an Uber and we both took our spare keys just in case
we lose one and we also took the company credit card for emergency. I got a SMS from Sonke
while we were on an Uber to people’s park.

Sonke {what time will you be at Stadium?}

Me {I am on my way right there now so it should be in the next 30 minute}

Sonke {Uhamba Ngani?}

Me {Uber}

Sonke {Okay}

FNB  {S Shange sent R5000. At FNB ATM, Press proceed, select ewallet and enter the below
pin Expires in 4 hours}

Me: Guys * Screaming*

Noxy: And then?

A SMS notification came through

Sonke {have fun with the girls, keep me posted FYI Merry Xmas}

Me {thank you Sonke, merry Xmas to you too, thank you for the cash}

Sonke {Anything for you}

I was so excited I showed my girls

Zeeno: Sizospenda tonight
Me: Plus I had like R1000 in my account
Zeeno: I have R500
Noxy: Not sure
Zeeno: Let’s get VIP Tickets?
Noxy: That is more like it
Me: I am game

The cab dropped us off at the sun coast drop off zone, We had dinner at Suncoast on me then
we had to walk from sun coast to People’s Park as there was traffic.

When we got the underground it was a bit quiet but the crowed was starting increase as the
evening went on, I saw a few faces that I know
We settled down with at the VIP section and we decided to buy 24 pack ice Tropez with ice and
we got hot dogs and we chilled and cached up since we haven’t spent time together, time flew
by pretty fast
I went to the Hip Hop section, Zeeno and Noxy stayed at the house section which I was not a
fan off, I danced all alone and I was happy having to see AKA, K.O, Duncan, Zakwe and of
cause my favorite artist Kuli Chana, I even took a picture with him
I was dancing with so much and I bumped into my old colleague T-Bos and we were dancing
and laughing at some people who were dancing like kangaroos, he got me 2 ice Tropez and a
hot dog again and we spoke about work as he was still working in retail, I told him Marcus and I
broke up and I having a new boyfriend, he told me he was moving to cape town end of
February.
Before I knew it was 12 midnight and I had eight missed calls on my phone, two from Zeeno and
six from Sonke, One SMS from Zeeno and it read ….
Zeeno {Hun come to the house section...ziyakhipha...}

I said by goodbyes to T-Bos and headed over to the house section.

On my way to them I got a SMS from Sonke

Sonke {Lethokuhle ukuphi?}

My heart skipped a beat. I started getting a bit uncomfortable, I replied…

Me {I am still at people’s park}

Sonke {Uhamba nini?}

Me {we will leave soon}

Sonke {Time?}

Me {Just now}

Sonke {I am coming there now, I will text you when I am outside]

Me {I don’t want to go home just yet}

Sonke {you should have been home long time ago}

Me {we will leave before 2am}

Sonke {that is unacceptable, I am coming}

I did not respond to him, when I got the girls I showed them the SMS

Zeeno: Really though?

Me: yep
Noxy: Hayike, let’s get ready to go home
Zeeno: His So controlling
Me: My Life
Zeeno: I so disapprove
Noxy: I so approve
Me: Guys….

We all cracked with laughter

I bought a bottle of water and started drinking water as I was a bit tipsy, within 25 minute he
sent an SMS and it read….

Sonke {I am outside opposite the sun coast road}

Me: Guys he is outside, I replied back

Me {we are coming}

We walked out and we saw his Red Golf 7 with hazard lights on, he was with Sithembiso so we
all got in the back seat.

Me: Sanibona
Sithembiso: Sho
Sonke: Ninjani ladies
Zeeno: We good
Sonke: Uright Noxy
Noxy: Ngisharp Snari wena?
Sonke: I am Good, listen ladies ngisaya la kwamashu ngiyoshiya usithe then go drop you guys
off home
Zeeno: No problem

He drove to kwamashu and we were all a bit tense in the car as I was expecting to get scolded
or worse a beating like yesterday
I kept drinking my water and chewing my gum, as soon as we dropped Sithembiso at
kwamashu I went over to seat in the front seat, he just grabbed my neck and kissed me even
before I could close the door.

Zeeno: Wow you guys

Noxy: You guys have drunk passengers, remember?

We laughed even though I was scared, the way he held my neck and kissed me was not
romantic at all
within 15 minute we were driving in to smallVille.
Sonke: Noxy u Lethu will come through in the morning
Noxy: Oh Okay, she didn’t mention that to me

I looked at Sonke

Sonke: It’s my idea

Zeeno: you Sure Lethu?
Me: Yeah, I will see you guys later
Noxy: Okay cool what should I tell Bantu when he rocks up?
Sonke: Call her when he does
Noxy: Okay
The girls walked out and Noxy opened the sliding door and went inside the house

Me: I need my clothes and toiletry bag

Sonke: It’s late for you to go and pack now
Me: Alright
We waited for Noxy to call me to tell me she and Zeeno are safe inside and the alarm is on then
we left to Sunningdale. He blast Zakwe while speeding to Sunningdale, in 10 minute we were
driving in to his house.
 Chapter 4
I walk in to this beautiful double story house, the couch were red leather design
The kitchen and the lounge were an open space and you could view the garden and pond all
the way from the patio
I could view the pool from the lounge and I must say, the house was perfect and beautiful.

Sonke: This is my house

Me: It is Nice
Sonke: Welcome home
Me: Thank you
Sonke: You should bring some of your clothes over as there is more than enough space for you

I smiled and blushed while I was listening to him

Me: Okay I will think about that

he smiled

Sonke: Uzongitshelake ukuthi ubusuhlaleleni ekugrooveni

Me: I lost track of time babe

before I could finish the sentence he planted a kiss on my lips and I didn’t refuse him, from a
baby kiss to a French kiss and I just followed his lead
The kiss was soft and wet, it was sexy and it was a kiss I have never had before, the kiss was
slow and he was gentle with me, I got lost in him.
He put his hands on my waist caressing me softly, he held my body with his soft hands as he
enthused his hands down to my buttock and started caressing my hips and my dress was slowly
glided up, I felt hot flushes as he continued kissed me, his hands embraced my boobs while his
cologne suffocated me in a good way
He started kissing my neck and I started to get Goosebumps but I pulled away

Sonke: Baby

I struggled to breath

Sonke: You okay?

I took a deep breath in
Me: I am fine
Sonke: Then what is wrong?
Me: It’s just that I am stinking of alcohol
Sonke: Nami nje

me: I need to shower

Sonke: at 2am in the morning?

Me: Yes
Sonke: Okay sure

He took my hand and walked me upstairs in to his bedroom

Sonke: This is my room, Our room

Me: Okay, Yinhle

He then took me in to a in suite

Sonke: Here we go

He opened drawer and took out a bathing sponge and clean bath towel and gave it to me

Sonke: Unfortunately I don’t have those girly shower gel or bubble bath but you can use my
shower gel
Me: That should be fine
Sonke: I will prepare something to eat while you shower

He walked out as I undressed myself, I opened the shower door and I went inside and I ran the
water, I took a cold shower as I feeling hot and my body was just not in control, I used his
shower gel which made me smell like him and I loved.
After I was done I took the clean towel and wrapped myself with it, I got out of the shower and I
stood in front of a large mirror in the in suit looking at myself, he walked in while I was staring at
myself and I got chills under my skin

Sonke: May I put your clothes into the washing machine

Me: Sure
He took the clothes and walked out with while I followed him, I sat on top of his bed and I looked
around the bedroom.
His bedroom had a balcony that was above his pool, Everything in the room was all build in and
the color was coco and white, He had silver and grey curtains with a king size bed and he had
white linen beddings which made the bedroom look simple but elegant. His side lamps were
wooden man made with a huge mirror across the head board, There was a white sleeper couch
on the side with matching side tables

Sonke: Well if you don’t mind, you can use my T-shirt and sleeping pants

I took that offer as I had nothing to wear

Me: Sure

He took them out from his drawer and gave me with a pair of sox

Sonke: Let me give you some space

He walked out, I used his Nivea body lotion I put my hair up into a pony dressed up and I went
downstairs to eat as I was hungry.

The pants were a bit tight as I was a size 32 with hips and he was probably smaller than me
judging by his pants, he looked at me smile then looked away

Sonke: That is my wife right there

I smiled

Me: After Amalobolo

He laughed out loud

Sonke: Soon my baby, soon

Me: Really?
Sonke: You just need to get your act together and stop I-drop yakho

I looked at him and I pulled my face

Me: I see
Sonke: Kodwa Ngiyakuthanda

I blushed as he said that

we ate and after eating he put the dishes into the dish washer, he took my hand and we headed
upstairs to his bed room.
He dimmed the lights as we walked in and I looked at him all quizzically

Me: Why?
Sonke: I don’t not sleep with the lights on
Me: Scared of the dark?
Sonke: Maybe or maybe I am trying to impress you

I laughed

Me: I am a guest after all so I don’t have much of a say

He laughed out loud and got under his duvet and I followed him and snuggled in his chest
I felt safe in his arms, he smelled so good even though he didn’t shower
His body was muscular as I could feel some muscles and abs

I immediately imagined Tyrese as he has his look alike look, that ghetto style.

His chest was just the perfect size for me, he put his arms around me.

Sonke: Leth I am sorry I laid my hand on you last night, it’s just that I have never dated a girl like
you
Me: Like me?
Sonke: That does not submit to me
Me: Meaning?
Sonke: You do whatever you want to do at any given time, you feel that your opinion matters
most and you come first before everyone, you are too independent and sometimes I feel that
you don’t need me in your life
Me: Hawu Sonke
Sonke: I know we hardly know each other as partners but I have known you for a while
Me: I know
I felt a smile on his voice
Sonke: Quite frankly I knew you while you were in high school just that you didn’t know me
Me: I had no idea
Sonke: I used to ask goodies about you but she would tell me I am too old for you

I laughed out loud as I thought of what Zeeno said earlier on

Sonke: I could tell you were so arrogant and self-observant even though I never spoke to you

I laughed again

Sonke: I love you Lethu and I want to grow old with you

I tilted my head to look in his eyes

Me: I love you too just that you scare me at times, you get aggressive every now and then, you
make me fear you.

He kept quiet

Sonke: You have to fear me because if you ever cheat on me I will kill you

my heart skipped a beat then I giggled trying to bury the fear on my face

Sonke: Since today it is your first time in my house, I am going to have the best sleep ever with
you right next to me.
Me: Wow
Sonke: I want you here until new year’s eve

I got uncomfortable when he said that

Me: No I can't, my big brother will be home on new year’s eve

He put his hand on my shoulder

Sonke: This is your home now

I turned to look at him, he kissed me so passionately that I think is lost memory, he ran his hand
on the back of my neck with his other hand caressing my boobs, he stopped kissing me and
looked me in my eyes and smiled, he kissed me again and this time around he got in top of me
and both his hands were all over my body, he got me losing control as one hand was squeezing
boob and one hand on my butt, he kissed me passionately while my thoughts were slowly
fading off, my hands were on his waist and to be honest my body was heating up, I felt like I
was catching fever, I could literally feel myself sweating and I was not in my normal state, I
enjoyed his kisses while we ran our hands on each other, He lifted his upper body and took off
t-shirt then he came back to my body, he started to bite my neck and his hands were invading
stomach and all the way to my boobs, he inserted his hand inside my t-shirt and started taking
care of my boobs, I could feel his fingers massaging my nipples and I let out a slight moan while
he kissed me neck.

I pushed him away as reality knocked me like a moving truck

Me: No Baby
He stopped and looked at me all confused
Sonke: Ngobani?
Me: Not today
Sonke: Mina ngiyakufuna nje
Sonke: I want you to
Sonke: Then What?
Me: I am not ready
Sonke: We’ve been together for months Lethu
Me: The timing babe
Sonke: But I am your boyfriend Lethu, not some strange
Me: I Know, It’s just that
I tried looking away but his eyes were stuck on me
Sonke: If you don’t want to have sex with me I won’t force you
Me: I promised my brother I will wait till I turn 21 years to have sex
Sonke: 21?
Me: Yes
he stood up from the bed and put the lights back on
Sonke: Are a virgin?
I couldn’t look at him in his eyes as I felt so embarrassed.
Me: Yes

He started laughing

Sonke: Kahle, Lethu Tell me you are joking

Me: No I am not
I looked at him with a straight face and he stopped laughing
Sonke: Didn’t you have boyfriends before me?
Me: Yes I did
Sonke: Udlala Ngami manje
Me: No I am not
Sonke: You trying to tell me you did not sleep with your exes?
Me: No I did not
Sonke: Bavuma nje ubancisha ukukie?
Me: I am not a hoe
Sonke: I did not say you are a hoe
Sonke: Okay baby askisi just that....
Me: Just what?
Cutting him off
Me: Just because I party and get drunk with my girlfriend does not mean I sleep around
Sonke: Nami angishongo njalo
me: Then what are you implying?
Sonke: Come on Lethu, Bengizibuxela nje
Me: I promised mom and dad I will not sleep with anyone until I turn 21 and I won’t break that
promise
Sonke: I am sorry for upsetting you

He sat next me and pulled me into his arms

Sonke: I will respect that sithandwasami, I mean I am not rushing anywhere

Deep down I knew he was lying and he will probably hit another Marcus on me

Sonke: I love you

I hugged him back

Me: I love you to
Sonke: kombe when are you turning 21?

We laughed together as I was not expecting that question

Me: In a couple of months
Sonke: Months
Me: In February
Sonke: Eish okay baby, asilaleke since I won’t be getting some
He let go of me and dimming the lights back to how it was and he pulled me into his chest as
he laid on the bed, He put the Aircon on using the remote since it was a bit hot, he held me so
tight and I felt so safe in his arms
I Slowly drifted all the way to dreamland.
 Chapter 5
I had a terrible dream as if I was sleeping next to snake and the funny part about this dream is
that I felt safe with this snake and It wanted protecting me too
I even covered it with a blanket just make sure that it was safe
It was as if this snake was my pet and not an enemy and while it was tossing it touched my skin
and I woke up
I was literally wet from sweating, my heart was beating fast that I could literally hear the heart
beat
I ran my hand to feel Sonke but he was not next to me but the door was half opened.
I looked at the watch next to the bed and it was 4.30am, I assumed that he went to the toilet or
maybe he wakes up around about this time
I laid my body back on the bed and I fixed the pillow, I tried sleeping but I was too scared and I
was still a bit shaky.
My phone rang around 5.30 and it was Noxy calling, I was not in the mood to talk as Sonke was
still not in bed after the call ended I noticed I have a SMS and it was from Bantu my brother

Bantu {Girls or should I say ladies, I am on my way Durban from Richards bay, I should reach
home in about 2 hours or 3 if not more. XOXO}

My heart skipped a beat then I told myself I am just 20 minute away from home so I should
make in time, I sent an SMS to Noxolo

Me {Hey Sisi I got Bantu’s text. If he gets home before me, Please tell him I went to my friends
funeral. I owe you mwah}

My battery is low and I needed to shower and charge my phone, food is not an option at this
point.

I woke up and dragged myself to the windows and I drew the curtains for the sun to shine
through, I could tell it was going to be a hot day
Sonke’s car was not on the drive way so I knew he isn’t not home
I walked outside the door and stood on top of the stair care

Me: Sonke *Screaming*

Me: Sonke are you home?

I noticed the doors were opened in all the other rooms, I became inquisitive the I walked
towards the room next to Sonke’s
the room was fully furnished with a double size bed, the room was painted in cream and the
beddings and curtains were grey then the built in and robes were wooden made, I walked in and
opened the robe, it was empty but the drawer had clean bath towels, the room was very neat
and tidy and you could tell no one slept on this room or maybe it is a guest room

I Walked out to the next room, the next room had blue beddings and by the look of things, he
probably had a son or maybe twins since there are 2 ¼ size beds and there were clothes on the
robe which were sized 2/3 years and ¾ Years, the in suite had a shower and a bath tub with a
an toilet, there were soccer balls kiddies drawings on the robe

I stood there for a few minutes trying to bump into a picture maybe or something to make sense.

I walked out slowly to the next room that had nothing but a piano and a silver wooden laundry
basket and it had blinds and the room was painted in charcoal color, it was weird in that room, I
didn’t even walk in cause the environment was just scary, I assumed it where he distresses by
playing a piano. I walked across to the next room which was opposite Sonke’s room, the room
was beautiful, I saw heaven in it, it was perfect and it he a lot of a feminine touch with white
beddings, silky white curtains with mirrors on the ropes, The beddings were white and the
furniture was also white. while I getting lost in it I heard the main gate sliding and I ran to his
bedroom I got into the in suite and took his pants off and t-shirt and put the shower on, I stood in
the shower until I heard the bedroom door opening

Sonke: Lethokuhle
Me: I am in the shower
Sonke: Okay be quick
Me: Okay

I took a quick shower with just water as I didn’t want to smell like a man when I get home, it was
relaxing though and I needed a cold shower after all that sweating I had from my dream

I got off the shower and took a clean blue bath towel and wrapped it around myself and I walked
back to the room, he was not there so I walked down stair, he was sitting on a high chair in the
kitchen counter busy on his phone
He probably heard my foot steps as he turned and looked at me

Sonke: You don’t get tired of teasing me neh?

I laughed

Me: Well if you allowed me to take my clothes last night we wouldn’t be in this situation

He woke up and came over to me and s

Sonke: Well we will have breakfast now and you will have it dressed like this

I smiled
Me: Well if you think this is fine I will just give you a sneak preview
Sonke: And that is?
I Turned around to show him my butt line
Sonke: Mmm
Me: Can you see how short this towel is?
Sonke: I love the view

He came behind me and held my waist and pulled me towards him, he ran his hands around my
collar bone and then slide his hand inside my boob, I held on tight to the towel to make sure the
towel does not fall, His hand was smooth in between my boobs, I turned my head to look at him
and he looked at me and took the hand out.

Sonke: Sorry, I was thinking of a different breakfast

He Walked away to the kitchen, I laughed as I sat on those high chair in the kitchen counter
Sonke: excuse me
he went upstairs and within a minute he came down with a Nike sweat pants and his black vest
Sonke: This will do for now
Me: Thank you, Yes it would
I walked up to him and took the clothes
Sonke: You can use the main bathroom to change if you want
Me: Thanks

I walked through the passage to get to the main bathroom, I walked in and it was the biggest
bathroom I had ever been too, even my house bathroom is not that big, everything was white
gold and glass, the bath tub was a see through glass and the taps were all gold in color
Me: Wow
I put the sweat pants on and the vest, I tucked the vest inside as the pants were a bit tight and
were a low cut. I walked out and back to the kitchen while he was warming the breakfast from
wimpy and he made himself a cup of coffee and I told him I will have juice
Sonke: Awufuni ukuqubeka la ogcine khona? Uphuze ice-Tropez?
with an embarrassed face I looked down
Me: No
Sonke: Sidakwa
Me: I am not
Sonke: Stop drinking then
Sonke: I will think about it

I followed him to the patio which had his pond view, we sat there and we dug in and for the life
of me I finished the meal within 15 minute and if I didn’t know better, I would have said I am
expecting my very first junior but I know better

Me: What time will he take me home

Sonke: After we done shopping
Me: Shopping?
He looked at me
Sonke: Yes, we are going to buy clothes for you that you will keep in this house
Me: Wow
Sonke: So you won’t have to walk around dressed like a tom boy

I laughed out loud as he leaned over and kissed me

Sonke: Baby lami, I know I am a bit stern sometimes but angifuni lutho ngawe
Me: Stern, meaning?
Sonke: Are you ready for a relationship?
Me: Yeah, I thought we are on a relationship vele
Sonke: I mean a serious relationship
Me: Okay, depends on how serious
Sonke: You have to let me know your whereabouts, your needs, your wants and your troubles
Me: Oh That, of cause
Sonke: I ride for you and you ride for me, I mean we have each other’s back and do everything
together
Me: I don’t know
Sonke: Decide
Me: I am falling for you and I love the feeling
Sonke: I love you and I have already fallen for you

I smiled and looked at him

Sonke: I barely slept last night, I couldn’t believe you were sleeping next to me
Me: I love being with you
Sonke: I want you with me all the time, my heart is at peace when I am with you Lethu
Me: Like heaven?
Sonke: Beyond heaven

I smiled as he leaned over and gave me a kiss on my lips again

Sonke: Two days in a week you will come over or maybe a week
me: My sister?
Sonke: Does she have a boyfriend?
Me: Yes
Sonke: Does she visit him?
Me: Yes
Sonke: How often?
Me: All the time and weekends sometimes
Sonke: So why can’t you visit me?
Me: Okay I will
Sonke: If you worried about your brother I can introduce myself
me: No
Sonke: Why not?
Me: Not yet babe
Sonke: So you are not serious about is?
Me: I am, I just want us to take things slow
Sonke: Why?
Me: We still getting to know each other
Sonke: And that is why I want to know your family too
me: Okay, I will tell him about you but not now, maybe after Christmas or after my birthday
Sonke: Sure?
Me: Yes
Sonke: I will give you cash to pay for your studies and I will give you an allowance every month
if you want, will that be fine?
Me: Tempting
Sonke: Because I love you
Me: My studies are already paid for
Sonke: Allowance
Me: I work part time
Sonke: Is that money enough for you?
Me: Not really
Sonke: See my point
Me: Money spender?
Sonke: I want you to know I can take care of you
Me: You haven’t even tasted my pussy and you already spending on me

He laughed

Sonke: I am investing cause soon you will be Mrs. Shange

As shocking as that was I was happy inside to hear that, it gave the Goosebumps like the
feelings I felt last night when he was kissing me

Me: Okay Mr. Shange but I will still work on my part time job
Sonke: Okay I will allow that as long as it won’t interfere with your studies
Me: No it will not

My phoned warned me again that my battery is dying and it was now on 10%

Me: Do you have a Samsung charger?

Sonke: No I don’t, I am using an apple phone but I will get me a charge in gateway
Me: Okay
Sonke: hurry up as we don’t have much time and I have to take me home early.
As soon as he mentioned home my heart skipped a beat,
I thought of the clothes I saw upstairs in the kid’s room, I wanted to ask who it belongs to but I
was sacred since he loses his tamper like a switch plug
I quickly put the dishes on the dish washer and I used my stiletto with sweat pants, in a way I
looked so damn sext, just like Mini Dlamini just that I was a bit petite and I am a yellow bone
with small boobs, if I could make my boobs bigger I would.

While he was upstairs I walked down stairs to view the house, the office was to clean and he
had an apple laptop and IPad on the table, there were business books and kiddies books on the
shelf and the next room was a gym, there was those huge punching bags with gloves hanging
on the wall, a treadmill and skipping ropes.
the next room it looked like a music studio, there was a mike on the other side and on my side
there were those things that looked like a sound system that a DJ uses, the last room was a
clean huge bedroom with a king size bed and it had a huge TV on the wall, the design was the
same as his bedroom, including the bedding, I walked in and opened the robes and they were
empty, the in suite was as big as his bedroom and it was clean.
I heard the footsteps coming from the stairs and I walked towards the lounge and looked at the
portraits on the wall

Sonke: Baby are you ready?

Me: Yes

I looked at him

Me: Damn
Sonke: What:
Me: My baby is so so so hot

I looked at me, this guy is too much for me, he had G-star RAW jeans with Armani sneakers, to
compliment his jeans he had a white golfer that had a small Orange boss writing in denim white
RAW Binnie hat with diesel shades on.

I saddened my face a bit

Sonke: What is the matter?

Me: Nothing
Sonke: Sure?
Me: You look really good
Sonke: Thank you baby

He had the biggest grin in his face

Sonke: Lets go

we got out and he put the alarm on and he opened his Golf 7 door for me and I sat on the
passenger seat, he walked over to his seat and he played drake Feat Rihanna Take care, He
was rapping along while he was driving and I was singing Rihanna’s part.
Within 10 minute we were entering the gateway parking’s

Sonke: Okay love which store do we start at?

I smiled

Me: Mr. Price

Sonke: what?
Me: I said Mr. Price
he laughed out loud
Sonke: Okay
Sonke: What is wrong with Mr. Price?
Sonke: Nothing asambe

We got out of the car and we walked passed Truworths and we took the elevator to upstairs, we
walked to Mr. price as he held my wait, I was happy he held me for everyone to see that he is
mine. I walked in at Mr. price and picked a few pair of jeans, shirts and t-shirts, I also picked a
few denim shorts, short summer dresses, caps, hats, necklaces and sling bags

Me: I am done
Sonke: You don’t want to try them on?
Me: No I am too lazy but they should fit
Sonke: Okay

We walked over to the pay point over 3k, we walked out of the store

Sonke: Next shop?

Me: Legit

We walked to Legit, I Shopped then he paid when I was done

Sonke: Can I take you to a shop that you will love?

Me: Yes

He took me to rage store and I lost it again. The shoes were just out of this world and I took
quite a few pair of shoes.
Went to Woolworths where he got himself a few golfers and chinos, I got some few underwear’s
from Bonang’s lingerie

Sonke: I cannot wait to see you in those

I laughed
Me: Will you behave?
Sonke: I will try

He helped me choose a few and that’s how I knew what type of colors he loved in a woman

Sonke: Please buy your toiletries as well

I went over to the food section and I got myself toiletries and I walked up to him and
We went over to the pay point, we paid and the we walked back upstairs to urban.
Sonke: baby here
He gave me his bank card
Sonke: Shop here at urban and vertigo while I go to the car to put these bags
Me: Okay
Sonke: After swiping wait at the store for 5 minute so I will find you.
Me: Okay

I went to urban and got a few dresses, skirt, urban pants and golfers, then I walked to vertigo
and got myself dresses, shirts and jeans, I got him 2 golfers as well.
I went Zara and decided to buy myself perfume and sling bags and shoes
I decided to get my brother a shirt with shoes and my sister a dress with matching shoes and a
hand bag, when I was paying the total cost was 9K I got shocked, I wanted to leave something
but I didn’t find anything worth letting go off so I swiped and walking out the door, I waited
outside the store for 2 minute and he came through

Sonke: Now this is more like it

Me: Spending that much?
Sonke: The store
I laughed, he kissed me on my cheek and took the shopping bags
Sonke: I saw a watch that would look perfect on you
Me: Where?
Sonke: Come let’s go
He held my hand and we walked to diesel.
He got me 3 pair of watches, jeans with 3 pairs of sneakers and a handbag that came with a
matching 5 inch heel
Sonke: Let’s see if you want anything from guess clothes
Me: No, I am not a fan
Sonke: Let’s just have a look?
Me: Okay
we walked to the elevator and went down to guess, he got a few jeans and t-shirts for he and
accessories, and I picked a few dressed with shoes and hand bags
Sonke: Can we do lunch?
Me: Sure
He took his phone out and called beluga to make reservation, we walked to Hugo boss and he
got himself golfers and shoes. We then walked to the car to leave the shopping bags
Sonke: Baby, can we hit a quick stop at I store? I need to reset setting on my phone
Me: Cool

We walked to I-store and he went to a consultant as I looked around at the Mac books, the
sales assistance came and explained the specs and features of the mac, to be honest I was lost
as I have never even owned a mac or apple phone.
Sonke walked up to us

Sonke: baby I am getting you an apple phone

me: Me?
Sonke: You are currently phoneless
Me: OH my
Sonke: Okay let me just get you a Mac book for university and an IPad
He walked to the sales rep and spoke to him and he went to the pay point, within a few minute
we were walking out with the shopping bags.

Sonke: Asambe siyodla manje

Me: Sure

I was quiet, I was mixed emotions as I could not believe someone would spend so much of
money on me, I mean I am still learning to love this guy, what if we don’t work out and he has
got me so much of things?
We got to beluga and we ate, he had a glass of beer while I had a glass of wine, I hardly said
anything while we were eating, he looked fine and he enjoyed his meal, he was done in 20
minute while I was still half way, he excused himself to the rest room and then came back after
5 minute if not less, I took about 10 minute to finish my meal

Me: baby can I pay for this meal?

Sonke: No its cool baby, I got this
Me: Please
Sonke: No

He called the waiter and he gave him his credit card, as soon as the waiter came back with the
card and the slips he gave him a R50 Tip

Sonke: Asihambe babe

We walked out together holding the shopping bags and walked to the car and we got it and I put
the bags on the back seat of the car.
He looked at me

Sonke: Are you okay?

Me: Yes
I looked down trying not to show him I was emotional
Me: just that I have never had a person who has bought me so much of things
Sonke: Ubala lolu babe
Me: I mean I come from a well of family but I have never spent so much of money in one day

he smiled

Sonke: Ingoba ngiyakuthanda

Me: I love you too sonke
Sonke: I Just need you to know one thing
Me: Yes
Sonke: as long as you know all the holes in your body belongs to me

I looked at him and laughed

Sonke: this is just the beginning

I smiled at him and I leaned over and kissed him, he kissed me back without hesitations

Sonke: Let’s get out of here before we run out of exit time

We drove out of the parking lot and went straight to sunning dale. It was around 1pm and my
phone was off, okay my old phone was off.
The first thing when we entered the house was open my old phone to get the SIM and I inserted
It into my Apple iPhone 6s Plus 64 GB gold, I charge it.

Sonke: Baby, can I quickly check on something, I will be back in 30 min to take you home
Me: Sure

He came over to kiss me and then he walked to his gold.

I ran upstairs and started unpacking my things,
I took all the shoes and put them on the shoes robe next to his and I out the sneakers next to
his.
I put my Nivea body lotion, face cream and perfume next to his
I went to the in suite, I put the my face scrub, body lotion and pink bathing sponge next to his, I
put my pink and white bathing towels on the drawer and I went back to the bathroom.
I hanged my coast and jackets next to his, I folded my jeans and put them on an empty robe
and I hanged my dresses and skirts.
I put my sox, lingerie and bra’s on an empty drawer which was on my side
I took a shower once I was done, I used my new lotion and wore G-string with a matching bra
and I wore a black pencil dress that hugged my body perfectly, my hips were all out I put my
weave into a bun and took out my mac bag and inserted my Mac book. I put on my make-up
and make sure I look natural.
I went down stairs and I poured a white wine in to a glass and I sat on the couch waiting for
Sonke as he was gone for two hours if not more.
After 30 minute I heard the sliding gate open and I quickly went to the sink and washed the
glass and got myself and apple to try and kill the smell and taste, he walked in
Sonke: Baby I sorry, ngibambzekile
Me: Okay
Sonke: Are you ready?
Me: Yes

He walked to the lounge and he dropped the packet he had in his hand

Sonke: Baby you look amazing

I smiled

Sonke: Thanks to my nigga I look this fresh

He came towards me and kissed me on my neck

Sonke: Mrs. Shange to be, you are one fine ass woman I swear Boity has got nothing on you

I laughed out loud

Me: I wish
Sonke: I swear babe, umuhle and you have a killer body

I Smiled at him as he kissed my lips

Me: baby please take me home now

He kissed me again and then stopped

Sonke: sure let’s do this baby

He got the I store packets that had my mac book and Phone box with my IPad still sealed
Sonke: When you get home check if they are working fine
Me: I forgot about my bothers gift and Noxy

I ran upstairs and took the Zara Shopping bag, I walked down stairs and we walked out to his
car
Me: Can we stop at the sunning dale mall as I needed gift bags?
Sonke: why?
Me: I got my sister and brother gifts with the e-wallet you sent me
he laughed
Sonke: Smart girl, I am sure they will love it
me: I also got you a gift?
Sonke: What?
Me: I left it on top of your bed
Sonke: I cannot wait to see
me: I hope you love it
Sonke: Anything from you I love
I giggled.
we hit a 10 minute quick stop and the he hit the gear, I was scared to even switch the phone on,
we got to my house gate and I kissed him
Me: I will call you later
Sonke: I was hoping you would want to spend the night at my place again
Me: I said nice try, will call you when I settled here
Sonke: okay.
We said our goodbyes and he left.

Chapter 6
I walked in and my brother was drinking ice tea at the kitchen counter

Bantu: Wow, look who went to the funeral and went shopping

I laughed

Me: You know a girl distresses with shopping

He walk towards me and hugged me

Bantu damn you smell of such expensive male perfume

I laughed

Me: Well as you know when people go to funerals, they go all out and when you cry everybody
wants to put you in their arms

We all laughed
Noxy walked in

Noxy: Good lord, Is a dress this fine allowed in a funeral

I smiled at Noxy then we hugged

Me: Yes, I have to look fine sister

I started walking up stairs to my bedroom as they both followed me like a child carrying candy

Bantu: Lethu where did you get this money to but apple staff
Me: Savings, I work you know
He laughed
Bantu: smart just like dad
I gave him a million dollar smile
Me: well I did not forget about you guys

I handed over a gift packet to bantu and one to Noxy

Me: Merry Christmas guys sorry I am late with the gift but yeah

Bantu opened it and it was a black casual shirt from Zara with brown sneakers

Bantu: Wow little sis I love it

Noxy opened hers and it was a denim pencil dress with denim pointy stiletto
she sat on my bedroom sleeper couch
Noxy: How did you know?
Me: You are my sister remember? I know you like the palm on my hand

We had a group hug

Bantu: Well since Noxy is now 23 and you are turning 21 in a few months, I think it’s fair I give
you’re your gift early
Me: Gift? With a big smile on my face
Bantu: Noxy Thank you for being such an awesome sister to Lethu cause I know she is a
handful
Me: Not True

He looked at me and laughed

Bantu: Okay, not really a handful but I know she turns to you every time she needs something,
you are always there to protect her as your baby sister and I appreciate you doing that on my
absent.
The business has been growing rapidly for the past months, I need you to take over from this
side as a director and I know you are capable of doing it.
Noxy: wow… are you sure Bantu?
Bantu: Yes, it’s what dad wanted as soon as you turn 21 and I gave you this year to show me
that you can manage the company and you have proved that
Noxy: Thank you Bhuti
Bantu: You know way too much then I expected you to know, you played a big role as a
manager and a director is just as much and you will just sign everything that involves the
company
Noxy: I will make you proud
Bantu: I will put you up to speed and we will communicate over Skype and on emails and
authorize things together, we will work hand in hand
Noxy: I am game

They took a high five, bantu turned and looked at me

Bantu: Lethu, I know you have been struggling a lot since the accident and having to lose mom
and dad but you have been strong and you being the head of finance at the office really means
a lot, even though you are still studying and you still take time out to be at the office and help
your sister shows how much you have grown, you are turning in to a young smart beautiful
woman that mom and dad would be proud off
I was tearing
Bantu: I need you to make sure that you graduate this year and you get into the family business
full time
Me: This is my last year vele bhuti
Sonke: You are smart so I know this year you are completing university
Me: Thank you
Bantu: After your birthday I will also do uMemulo for you like I did for Noxy and make
Me: I cannot wait
Bantu: But you need to make sure you don’t lose your virginity until you are done with the
studies
Me: Oh Bantu
Bantu: What?
Me: I cannot have this conversation with you
Bantu: Angiyifuni indaba yama boyfriends Lethu
Me: I know
Bantu: Noxy, make sure she focusing on her studies
Noxy: She knows how I lose it when she loses focus
Me: Hawu guys
Bantu: I trust you though, I know you won’t disappoint your family
Me: I want to have umemulo with my graduation party
Bantu: That would be next of next year
Me: I am fine with it
Bantu: Okay, it’s your call
We hugged each other again
Bantu: My present to you guys is down stairs
We all walked down stairs and he opened the garage, two BMW were parked, one was a navy
blue 3 series with a sun roof and tinted windows, another was a maroon 1 series with a sunroof
and lightly tinted windows.
Bantu: Choose umazikhethele
Noxy: ours?
Bantu: Yes
Me: Hawema
I ran to the maroon 1 series and it had a face uplift compare to last year’s model
me: May I have this one
Noxy: navy is so me
Bantu: Yes if you guys are fine with it
me: I love it
Noxy: I love it too bhuti
Bantu: I know you’ll too much
he Laughed out loud while folding his arms
Bantu: I knew who would love which model and color between the two of you

we both screamed and ran back to bantu hugging him

Bantu: Haay kahleni phela yooor, ngizovuka pantsi apha

we kissed him and we all fell on top of each other

Bantu: Ngishilo kodwa

We kissed him still

we both drove our cars out and drove around the small Ville area and we drove back home.
He also parked his gold M4 and we took selfies
Noxy: Uploaded out 3 cars of Facebook and he tagged both Bantu and I with a status

*The Khumalo’s with their Beamers*

Bantu added it on Instagram with the same status

I have never been this happy and to top it all mines was an automatic car so I wouldn’t have to
stress or worry about changing gears all the time.
We decided to go out for super, we went out to Dros at the gateway mall and we had the best
time ever, I forgot how small my family was but we are awesome together and we can conquer
the world.
Bantu: Guys I will leave on the 1st of January to go to JHB
Me: Why so soon?
Bantu: Business Ain’t going to run itself
Noxy: True
Me: Oh well, its business after all
Bantu: Guys, I have met someone
Me: Ooh
Noxy: Is she hot?
Me: I hope she is uMzulu

Bantu laughed

Bantu: Yes Lethu, she is a Zulu

Me: Good
Bantu: She is pregnant
Me: Oh my God *screaming*
Noxy: We going to be aunties now
Me: This is great new
Bantu: that is the reason why he went to Richards bay, I had to ask baba omncane to help with
the Lobola and damage negotiation
Noxy: Is she from Durban kwamashu?
Bantu: Yes, Kwamashu
Me: Then that’s should be easy to do
Bantu: He might go to her family at the end of January
Noxy: Please book them a flat or they must stay at the MT Edgecombe apartment
Bantu: Hawu Noxy
Me: Uqinisile, they are too much
Bantu: Okay, ngizobona ngimisa kanjani
Me: How far is she?
Bantu: She is three months and she is starting to show
Noxy: We are so happy for the additional member of the family and oh My….
what is her name?
Bantu: Sibahle Dlamini
Me: I will search her on Instagram just to see how she looks

he looked at us

Bantu: I hope you guys are not yet dating, I will accept Noxy but not you Lethu
Me: Why not?
Bantu: We spoke about this
Me: Okay
maybe after you turn 21 I will give you a break but not now.

Noxy looked at me

I smile at them
Me: relax, I got a lot to worry about

He smiled at me
Bantu: Good

Noxy Laughed as I pulled my face

Bantu: Guys the company with be paying for the car insurance, house insurance, House
maintenance and maid salaries, you will still get your salaries depending on the hours you put in
Lethu and Noxolo we will discuss yours when we at home.
Diesel and patrol will come from your pocket, you will still have to add R1500 each for the
grocery at home and you will buy you own clothes, and you can use the company credit card for
emergencies but nothing else.
Me: That is fine with me
Noxy: Same here
Bantu: I will send you university and books fees for next year
Me: Okay cool

We ate supper and then we drove home in Bantu’s M4 coupe.

As soon as I got to my room I called my baby to check up on him but his phone was on voice
mail, I took a shower, brushed my teeth and then I tried again after 30 minute but it took me
straight to voice mail. I sent him a text

Me {where are you and why is your phone off?}

I decided to sleep

The next day we had breakfast and my sister and brother were in the office getting up to speed
with the family business,
I spent my day trying to figure out my IPad and Mac on how it works and I managed to add all
my details and have it running
Sonke’s phone was still off
I decided to go out and do house grocery shopping since I had R4000 from Sonke’s e-wallet
and I got paid my R4500 Salary with 2000 bonus and I didn’t want us to be broke of food in
January cause my brother will not budge in, as long as the maid and lights and water is paid for
he is done but at least the company is paying for insurance and security services which also
play a big role to us.
I decided to drive to pick n pay at the crescent in uMhlanga, I spent about 3k on food alone, and
I also got toiletries from clicks for myself and a phone cover.
I was so hungry by the time I was done shopping, my only option was wimpy or mug n bean and
I was now hungry after shopping so I decided to sit a wimpy and grab and bite
I packed my groceries in my boot and went to wimpy and sat outside to clear my head as I don’t
know where Sonke was, I ordered a wrap with a beer (flying fish).I Enjoyed the meal and some
me time, I took a selfie and uploaded it on Facebook and status was **Me Time**
I paid for my meal and I decided to go home and spend time with the family, while I was walking
towards my car someone tapped me on my shoulder
Sithembiso: unjani muntu wakhe?
I turned as I didn’t know the voice but the face was so familiar,
Me: Hi
Sithembiso: I am Sithembiso, Sonke Shange's friend that you met at the braai in LA mercy
Me; oh hi
he hugged me and I hugged him back then I pulled away as soon as I realized I am not
supposed to as Sonke hates it, he smiled at me
Sithembiso: ufunanu la wedwa
Me: I came to do shopping for home
Sithembiso: That is nice and nice car
Me: Thanks, it’s mines
Sithembiso: wow Sonke didn’t tell us you drive

I smiled

Me: I do
Sithembiso: It’s posh, iyakufanela
Me: Thank you
Sithembiso: Usuyahamba?
Me: Yeah, I am done here
Sithembiso: I am waiting for my girlfriend and she is taking forever to come through
Me: That’s a woman for you
Sithembiso: you want to catch a drink
Me: Hot chocolate would do
Sithembiso: Your choice
Me: Mocha Smoothie actually
Sithembiso: No problem
we went back where I was sitting and I ordered a mocha and he ordered a beer
Sithembiso: how long have you and Shange been together? As it was my first time to see you
Me: A couple months
Sithembiso: oh okay, How is he with you?
Me: He is a sweet heart yazi, he has his moments but he adores me
Sithembiso: Wow that’s the first
Me: I love him
Sithembiso: I can tell, have you been to his place?
Me: yes I have
Sithembiso: you must be special then because none of his exes ever been to his house except
for his wife, baby mama and kids
I literally spilled my ice mocha on my top with the shock on what he just said, I looked at him
Me: Wife?
Sithembiso: You didn’t know?
Me: No, he is married
Sithembiso: Was
Me: what are you on about?
Sithembiso: Sonke has an ex-wife
Me: Wow
Sithembiso: you who is now engaged to someone else
Me: Damn
I was still trying to figure out why he didn’t tell me all that abut him
Sithembiso: he has 2 boys, twins but their mother is late
me: Shame man. What happened to her?
Sithembiso: car accident
me: How old are the twins?
Sithembiso: They are 2-3 years old
me: Shame man
Sithembiso: that is why it is hard for him to love a woman
me: But he loves me just fine
Sithembiso: he has flaws
me: Like?
Sithembiso: You will see
me: what is his wife name
Sithembiso: Noma
Me: Okay
Sithembiso: she lives in morning side with her fiancé
me: Oh Okay
I was just too shocked
me: why hasn’t he told me all this?
Sithembiso: well give it time, if he is serious about you he will tell you
Me: I haven’t spoken to him whole day I don’t even know where he is or with who
Sithembiso: I was with him last night drinking at my place
Me: And he didn’t bother to call me?
Sithembiso: we are friends and business partners so we were swamped with business last night
Me: Where are his boys right now?
Sithembiso: they are with their grandmother in Cape Town
Me: Did they go alone?
Sithembiso: They left with their nanny since they still small

I looked at Sithembiso and I started thinking to myself

I cannot believe this and I won’t be able to drive in this state, I was shaking and I was not really
sure if I was angry at him or the truth was just too much for me to handle, I mean Sonke is old
but I just didn’t expect him to have kids or an ex-fiancé and he was supposed to tell me all these
things even before we agreed to give this relationship a go ahead.

I decided to chill with Sithembiso for a while as I was trying to gather my thoughts together, after
about 20 minute I decided to leave as my brother was texting and asking my whereabouts. I got
home and I told them I will prepare supper since I got my favorite staff and I needed to keep my
mind occupied, I tried calling Sonke but his phone was still off.

I cooked lasagna, I made green salad with spinach and feta and butternut and I added a bottle
chardonnay on the table, my desert was a hot chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream on the side.
I went to chill on my bedroom for a while and around 6.30pm I went downstairs to call them from
the office, I went to the kitchen and I warmed the food and we dig in, after the meal we had we
the desert and we decided to watch a movie together like the old times.
We watched our favorite movie

*Law abiding citizens*

This movie never gets out of style, around 11pm we decided to call it a night as I was too
exhausted to even take a shower, I just took my clothes off and slept with my t-shirt and panty
I put my phone on silence and left it to charge the snuggled onto him

Chapter 7
I woke up by such irritating noise, all I could hear was the buzzer and when I checked my side
watch it was 2.15am
I took my phone from under my pillow and it had10 missed calls from Sonke
My heart started beating fast, I walked towards my bedroom window to check on who was at the
gate I got a shock of my life when I saw Sonke’s Golf and he was standing outside of the car
pressing the intercom, I ran to our kitchen downstairs I picked the received up

Me: Sonke
Sonke: Lethu
Me: What are you doing here
Sonke: I need to see you

Bantu came down walked towards me as I slammed the received down

Bantu: Who is that

Me: I am not sure

He took the receiver

Bantu: who is this?

Sonke: Sonke
Bantu: How can we help you at this hour?
Sonke: Ngicela uLethokuhle

Bantu looked and I felt like I am getting a heart attack

Bantu: This guy’s wants you

Me: Me?
Bantu: Yes you

He Starred at me

Bantu: At this time? usikhotheni wakuphi lo?

I looked away

Bantu: You better start talking

Me: I don’t know him
Bantu: Lethu stop lying cause the more you lie to me the more you are getting me agitated
Me: Angimazi
Bantu: Okay

He reset the alarm and then opened the door, he walked out to the main gate

Bantu: U Lethu akakwazi

Sonke laughed

Sonke: You must be her brother?

Bantu: Yes, funani?
Sonke: You are asking me this for the 2nd time now, I came here for Lethokuhle
Bantu: You are fucking crazy, at this time? What do you want from her and nihlanganiswa yini?
Sonke: Akufuni wena lokho
They were both angry and they started to yell at each other then I screamed at Sonke

Me: Sonke please this is my brother

Sonke: And then?
Me: Stop this, you cannot speak to him in this manner

Sonke starred at me and I noticed his eyes were red and I could smell whiskey all the way from
inside the gate, if he was on the other side of the gate he would have fucked me up

Bantu pulled by my arm back to the house leaving the main door opened

Bantu: Is that what you do when I am not here? Boys visiting you at this hour?
Me: No Bantu, I don’t know what got in to him?
Bantu: Who is he?
Bantu: You just told me awumazi

I looked away as I could bear to see his face

Me: May I please speak to him

He starred at me

Me: Please give me 5 minute ngiyakucela bhuti

He looked at me

Bantu: I am not opening this gate

Me: He won’t leave until I speak to him
Bantu: Where did you meet this thug?
Me: Can I just get him to go first?
Bantu: Fine, Speak some sense in to him before I call dog unit on him

He turned and walked up the stairs, he turned and looked at me

Bantu: Be Quick and lock up

me: Okay, Thanks
Bantu: We will finish this in the morning
Me: Okay

My heart was beating so fast as if it would hit straight through my chest and it felt as it if will pop
out, I have to deal with the two man I fear the most.

I grabbed the house key, walked out and closed the door, I opened the main gate and walked to
Sonke
Me: Sonke, What are you doing?
He gave me a deadly look
Me: Baby, what is wrong?
Sonke: I tried calling you
Me: Baby I was asleep
Sonke: Are you are fucking Sithembiso?
Me: What? No
Sonke: I am not going to repeat myself
Me: No baby

My voice was crackling as I was nervous and scared

Me: I bumped into him at the crescent today and

Sonke: And you fuckin’ hugged him?

He cut me off while I was trying to explain?

Me: No…Yes….No baby

Sonke: You are lying to me and I will fucking kill you yezwa

I started crying as I didn’t know what to say, I tried to hold his hand but he pulled it away

Sonke: Lethu
Me: Okay he hugged me
Sonke: Fuck?
Me: I didn’t do anything with him
Sonke: Angeke uhamba utobozwa abantu lethu siyezwana?

I nod my with so much fear, He starred at me for a while

He got inside his car as I stood outside

Sonke: Ngena emotweni

I walked over to passengers side and got inside his car, when I got in he starred at me and his
eyes were so scary like he wanted to kill me

Me: I am sorry I didn’t know you hated it that much baby

He didn’t say anything to me he just started the car

My heart raced

Me: Sonke wenzani?

Sonke: Coming home with me, go pack things that you will need
me: I can’t
Sonke: Ngoba?
Me: My brother is here and I cannot just disappear in the middle of the night and to top it all my
brother is already pissed off

He just looked at me

Sonke: Do what you got to do I will be waiting here

He switched the engine off
Me: Sonke Please
Sonke: Begging me won’t work

I went inside and I locked the door and reset the alarm, I was already crying, I ran upstairs into
my bed room and I sat on my bed
The time was 3.22am
I walked towards the curtain I looked out the window and his car was still there, I picked my
phone up and called him, he answered and said

Sonke: Lala baby I cannot drive in this state but I am not going anywhere
Me: You cannot park outside my gate kanje
He dropped the call
I got into bed and logged in to my WhatsApp, I tried chatting with him but he ignored all my text
as I was apologizing and pleading for him to drive home
I sat in my bed for about an hour if not less I then awoke to check if he was still parked outside
my gate and his car was still there, I went into my in suit took a shower then wore my skinnies
with sneakers and put a sweater on
I took my phone and my key, I went outside and reset the alarm and opened the main gate, I
knocked on his window and he unlocked door for me to get in
Sonke: Ready to go?
Me: Yes
He started the car and drove off, I text my brother and sister

Me {I am sorry, I had an emergency, I will chat with you guys later}

I switched my phone off, within 15 minute we were in Sunningdale, the drive was too silent and
was too short, and I could sense that Sonke is still very pissed.
We stepped in and he took a bottle of vodka poured it into a glass with lime and he added ice
cubes, he sat on the stairway and looked at me while I was stood near the kitchen counter,
he gave me a long stare from my head to my toe
Sonke: Lethokuhle Khumalo, tell me who you are

I swallowed my saliva so hard that I think he heard me, I struggled to breath to breath as I felt
like I was stuck in an elevator and I was running out of breath
Me: Sonke
Sonke: Yes
Me: You know me
Sonke: I don’t
As he took a sip from his glass
Me: what do you mean?
Sonke: Tell me about you? What type of a person are you? What type of a woman are you? I
looked deep at the palm of my hand trying to figure out what he wants to know, instead of
protesting

My name is Lethokuhle Khumalo, I have one brother Bantubethu Khumalo who is 27 years old
and he lives in JHB, I have a big sister Noxolo Khumalo who is 23 years old, we both live in
Durban small Ville, Our parents passed on 2 years ago due to a car accident in Margate, The
house belongs to my sister and I, we live with a family friend who happens to me our house
assistance Mathema, she is away for the holidays at the moment. We have a caretaker as well
who lives on the outside building baba uZondi.
I am turning 21 next years on the 24th of February, I am currently going to be doing my 3rd year
in DUT, I am currently studying financial adviser and I work part time at the kays which is our
family business.
The Kay LTD is logistic company in Durban, Richards bay and Johannesburg. I have 2 close
friends Zeeno from Verulam, Goodies from Inanda which you know and, we go out mostly on
weekends, we love picnics and movies and drinking at the beach or the pool. I have a boyfriend
he looked at me, Laterally stared at me
his 27 years old and he lives in sunning dale and that’s all I know about him
I went over to the cupboard and pulled out a coffee mug and I put water on the kettle and
switched it on and I put rooibos and honey into the cup while he was still faced towards the
stare case, he then turned and he was staring at me and I turned to continue with what I was
doing.
I poured water into my cup and sat on the kitchen counter staring at him, he looked at me and I
looked at him, I looked at my mug and took a sip and that sip took me to the Garden of Eden
and brought me back to this hell.
Me: what am I doing here?
He Looked at me
me: Is staring at me part of the game you are playing?
He woke up from the chair and went over to his double door fridge and took out bottled water
and he turned to me
Sonke: what the fuck were you doing with u Sithembiso?
Me: I told you nje
Sonke: Don’t make me ask you again
I looked him directly in the eye
Me: before I answer you, who is Nomza?
He stared at me and that he cleared his throat and came closer to me
Sonke: Did he tell you that?
Me: No but I saw a SMS in your phone
Sonke: So now you were going through my phone?
Me: Are you going to answer me?
He starred at me
Me: Once you have an answer for me them you can ask me what I was doing with uSthembiso

I poured the remaining of my tea down the sink and I walked passed him, I walked up stairs to
his bedroom, I too off my sweater and jeans off threw them on the couch in his bedroom and got
under the duvet as I was tired and annoyed at Sonke’s behavior.
It almost 6am and he is just pissing me off with his behavior, I left my family to be with him and
he keeps pissing me off with these questions when he can’t even answer mines.
I just needed sleep and time to clear my head as I had my brother to deal with when I get home,
after a while he walked in to the room he got into bed
I felt his eyes stuck on me but I pretended like I am sleeping, he turned me around and put his
hands on my neck

Sonke: Ubufunani nosthe?

I struggled to breath and I tried pushing him off me but he was too strong and I started crying
and pleading him to stop but he was not stopping, I couldn’t really hear him as all I could see
was his mouth moving but no words coming out. I closed my eyes really tight.

Me: Sonke uyangilimaza

Sonke: Ubufunani nosithembiso?
Me: Sonke ngiyakucela
Sonke: Answer me
Me: Ngyaxolisa
Sonke: Uxolisani

I struggled breathing, my legs were dancing while I was trying to get him off me and he let me
go eventually. I started coughing.
He sat at the edge of the bed with his face faced towards the robe and I sat still against the
head board, we both sat on the same position for minutes. My neck was sore.
He turned around to look at me and I looked away trying not to cry or show him that I am in
pain, he looked angry and his body was shaking, I was also mad at whatever Sithembiso told
him.
 Chapter 8
I woke up and I looked around I realized I fell asleep on Sonke’s bedroom
I looked next to me and he was no there, the curtains were closed and it was dark inside the
room, the Aircon was on and his side watch was flashing the time 10am.
My body was so painful, it felt like I was drugged.
I turned to sleep on my right side and there he was sitting on the couch with a glass on his
hand, he was staring at me, I pulled myself up and sat with my back against the head board, I
started coughing and he threw a bottle of whisky to me

Sonke: what? Your throat is itching for this?

Me: No

Shaking my head

Sonke: So now you don’t know how to speak?

My throat was hurting and I tried to speak but my voice was too faint
I started tearing in my eyes
Me: Sonke what do you want from me? What did I do to you for you to do this to me?
Sonke: Ubifunanu nosithembiso?

I stared at him

Sonke: I asked you a question and I expect you to answer and not be smart about it

I took a deep breath

Me: I went shopping at the crescent and I bumped into Sithembiso and he asked me to keep
him company while he waited for his girlfriend
Sonke: so now your duty is keep other many busy?
Me: No it’s not
Sonke: what did he tell you?
Me: He told me you have 2 kids and an ex-wife
Sonke: what else?
Me: He told me the boys are visiting CPT
Sonke: what else?
Me: He asked me about myself
Sonke: who were you with?
Me: With him
Sonke: Besides him
me: Alone
Sonke: How did you get to uMhlanga
me: I was driving my car
Sonke: You have a car now?
Me: Yes
Sonke: When did you buy it?
Me: My brother got it for me
Sonke: You expect me to believe that?
I looked at him with disbelief

Me: Yes you suppose to believe me cause I am not lying

He woke up and walked towards

Sonke: Why should I believe you

Me: Because I have never lied to you like you have to me, the only person who should have
trust issues here is me and quite frankly I cannot do this anymore

He stared at me

I started getting emotional

Me: I have been in relationships but I have never been treated like this, you ill-treating me, you
beating me up, you strangle me and forcing me to go with you in the middle of the night, this is
not love its torture

He stared at me without saying a word

Me: You have issues

He stood in silence staring at me

Me: you are destroying the love I have for you, I have never dated a guy like you before and
now I know this has been the bigger mistake I have made
I woke up and walked past him and I grabbed my jeans and sweater and put them on
Me: this is too much for me, I am not even a woman yet and I am dealing with this crap
I looked at myself in the mirror and I had red marks on my throat and I tried wiping the tears
falling from my eyes but it was pointless, he was staring at me with shame in his face, I tried
walking out and he grabbed my arm and put me in to his arms and I cried in his arms
He held me until I was calmer and he sat us down on top of the bed

Sonke: I overreacted, Ngyaxolisa

Me: Sorry is not going to take away these scars and neither will it help me when I get thrown out
at home, I walked down stairs and he followed me and he sat on the couch
Sonke: I am so ashamed of myself, you don’t deserve me, all I do is try to control you when you
are such a free spirit soul person. I know I haven’t been honest with you but I don’t want to lose
you.

I looked away

Me: Right now I need space to figure out if I want this relationship or not, I need to be with my
family right now, I need to spend time at home and focus on me right now
He stared at me
Me: so much has happened in two weeks and right now my heart and mind and are running in
to 2 different directions,
Sonke: You are breaking up with me?
Me: No, I just need space
Sonke: What is space Lethu? Is that not breaking up?

I kept quiet and didn’t answer his question.

We both stayed in silence
I logged in to I store and downloaded Uber, I registered and then requested for one. I walked to
him as he was now sitting on the staircase

Me: I am leaving
Sonke: No, I will drop me you off
Me: I want to travel on my own
Sonke: How?
Me: I have requested for an Uber and its outside

He looked at me and I kissed him lips, he held on to my hand and I pulled it

I buzzed myself out and I walked out the door and got inside the Uber .
I cried the moment I sat on the back seat.
Uber driver: Are you okay?
Me: No, I just need to get home
Uber Drive: Okay mam
I was quiet on the Uber and I was lost in my thoughts. So this is it? All I wanted was to be
locked in my room and cry myself to sleep. We got into my gate and I thanked the driver and I
unlocked the gate, the moment I got into the house everyone went all quiet my brother came to
me slapped me so hard that I had to balance on the wall. I ran upstairs in to my bedroom, I
locked it and sat on my bed.

Everyone is mad at me and I have lost the one person I really thought was going to love
Me.

Mathema normally say’s “umuntu uyazakhela umuntu wakhe” and I was willing to do that with
Sonke and now lelothuba lishabalele.
Noxy came and knocked on the door and I didn’t open, my brother came and knocked but I had
no intensions of leaving my room, I didn’t even have the appetite and I was tired of everything,
Sonke kept calling and calling and calling and I just left the phone ring.

I woke up freezing my ass off and got under my duvet, it looked dark outside so I assumed it
was late, I took my phone and it has 26 missed calls from 5 different numbers, 15 from Sonke, 5
from an unknown number and 6 from a number that is not on my contacts, I checked the
number on true caller and it picked up Thule Yana, I had no idea who is that so I left it, I logged
on WhatsApp and there 25 messages from people congratulating me for the car and some were
from Sonke and I didn’t open them, I decided lie and just think of all the things we had and the
moments we spent and very first time he kissed me. I missed his smell, his touch and his neck
kisses, how could I have drawn myself so much into a guy when I didn’t even know his
background, a nigga with kids and an ex-wife at this age.
I guess we just not meant to be hey....I switched the air cone higher so that I will feel more cold
and end up falling asleep. I tried sleeping again and next thing I knew I heard a knock on my
door

Noxy: Lethu, Sonke is here

I ignored her
Noxy: Please attend to him before bantu comes back
I walked to my window to check if his car is at the gate and to my surprise he was there.
I looked at my watch and it was 7pm, I put on my gown as I was using nothing but my bra and
boy legs, I wore my sox and put on my sleeping shirt and I opened the door, I went downstairs
Noxy was watching TV, I walked past her and I walked to the gate
Me: What are you doing here?

Sonke: Ngize kuwen

Me: Ufunani?
Sonke: You
I just looked at him, I opened the gate and walked out to him
Sonke; ngiflophile I know, I don’t trust umuntu wesifazane and its hard for me to after my ex-wife
Me: You didn’t even get to hear my side of the story Sonke, you bust lost it
Sonke: Ngiyaxolisa nana, Please meet me halfway MaKhumalo, I promise it will never happen
again
I looked at him
Sonke: Lethu, angeke ngikwazi ukuphila ngaphandle kwakkho and nawe you know that, you are
my last hope in love and happiness.

I looked at him as I didn’t know what to say

I left him at the gate and went upstairs to my room, I took my phone and keys and I ran back
down, I opened the gate and I ran to him and threw myself at him and I kissed him passionately
even when I stopped he was still puzzled

Me: let’s go
Sonke: Where to?
Me: Anywhere, just the 2 of us
Sonke: but baby you using a gown
Me: I know with nothing inside
he looked me in my eyes, we got the car and drove off, we passed the airport and went to mug
n bean for a quick supper as we were both starving
Sonke: we are now driving to St Lucia, Please try and find accommodation while I drive
he gave me his iPad and I started searching for accommodation, most places were fully booked
or closed. I couldn’t really find anything and it was almost 9pm
Me: baby I can’t find anything kusho ukuthi sizolala emotweni
Sonke: Never
He played Beyoncé – Rocket, he was singing along with his deep voice trying to seduce me and
I must say it was working, I was ready to be a woman and he was not making it easy for me to
stay sealed until my birthday.
At about 11pm we were driving in to St Lucia and we started looking for accommodation and
luckily we found a sea view lodge that had a room available, we decided to take it.
We checked in and we were taken to our room which was a bit small but it was fine for the night.
The worst part is that I only had my bra and underwear and a gown, we got under the duvet and
I fell asleep in his arms within minutes, I was woken up by the sunray shinning on my face and
his were around me and his cologne smelled all over me.
I woke up and reached for reached for my phone which was on the side table, Time was 9am,
and I had missed calls from Bantu and Noxy and SMS.

Bantu {Are you mad at me?}

Noxy {Lethu, Please answer your phone cause Bantu is losing focus}

I replied to Bantu
Me {No I am not mad at you}

Me {I replied to his text, I am with friends, I will let you know when I will be coming back home}

Sonke reached for me and he pulled me back to his arms

Sonke: Ubusy neh?

Me: I am just texting my brother
I leaned over to him and kissed his lips
Me: Good morning
Sonke: Good morning babe, Ulale njani?
Me: Well I was next to you, so my slept was perfect

He Smile

Sonke: What is the time?

Me: we overslept because it’s past 9am
He did not respond
I woke up and walked towards the window I opened the blinds, we had a weird view that had
trees only with swings on the tree branches, I thought of how angry Bantu Is probably is.
I felt his warm hands holding me from the back and he kissed my neck, I stood still, he
continued kissing me my neck rubbing his hands over my boobs, I turned around
Me: I had no idea we will end up here
Sonke: I love being here with you
I smiled at him and he kissed me until I felt his shaft on my belly, he pulled me and held me tight
as he continued kissing me, we got lost in the kiss until he stopped kissing me
Sonke: You are so beautify, Your body is soft and flawless
I looked down as I was getting shy, he lifted my face up to look at me
Sonke: baby, you are so hot, I didn’t know you are this fair and that your body is this soft,
looking at you in your underwear turn me on
I giggled
Sonke: You are one fine ass woman and I swear on my life, I cannot wait to have you
He kissed me again and ran his hand down my buttock and started squeezing it.
Sonke: Mmmm
I pulled back
Me: What is wrong
Sonke: I don’t think I can hold on till your birthday
Me: No, We have too
He pulled me close to his body and started kissing my neck and leaving a love bit on my neck,
he ran his hands inside my boob and I was losing the battle as I wanted him so badly but then
he pulled back and looked at me.
Sonke: baby we need clothes
Me: Eish
I realized we have no clothes
Me: Let’s call reception to find out which is the nearest mall or clothing store
He walked over to the side, picked up the receiver and dialed reception
Sonke: Hello
He was then quiet
Sonke: You are speaking to Sonke, I am staying at your lodge and I need to know if there is any
shopping center around St Lucia or here
He was then quiet
Sonke: Clothing stores?
He was quiet again
Sonke: Okay thank you
he hung up and he turned to look at me
Sonke: they told me opposite the lodge there is a billabong, Roxy and Volcom clothing store
Me: They sell surfing staff
Sonke: let’s check it out
We looked at each other, he threw my gown at me and I wore it
we headed to the stores, they also had wimpy and woolies in the same place.
I went to billabong and I chose denim shorts, vest, and a set of lace G-strings with matching Bra
set. I got myself a swimming costume with a shawl and a cap, I got sweat pants, t-shirt, a long
summer dress with flops and sandals.
He took to shorts, t t-shirts, sweat pants, vest and those muscle fitting man’s underwear, He got
himself flops and 2 snap back caps.
He then walked over to the counter and paid and we popped in a woolies and we got toiletry
staff and went back to our room.
Sonke: can we shower together
I looked at him
Sonke: we won’t do anything
For the first time ever we showered together, his body was so fine and I must say the nigger is
10/10, dark and sex, it was my first time to actually see him naked and he did not make it easy
for me.
He opened my pink gown and looked at my cleavage as I was using a black push up bra and a
black lace boy leg and black made me look a lot fair than I am, he dropped the gown on the
floor and then put his hand on my shoulder and he came close to me that I felt his chin on top of
my head, I got lost in his arms with his cologne smelling so good, he unclipped my bra and it
loosed m boobs, he took the straps out from my shoulder and I met him half way by putting my
arms out, he then put his hands on my hips and started moving my panty down, he kissed my
neck and he started kneeling as he was taking off my pants out, I had to lift 1 leg at the time to
help him take off the pants, he threw it on the floor on top of my gown and he lifted his body up,
he put his hands on my neck as he came closer to kiss it then he whispered on my ear
Sonke: Shaved and sexy
I giggled as he ran his hands on my shoulder and down to my hips than he moved it to my but
cheeks and squeezed it
Sonke: Mmm, you so sexy and so perfect
He slid the shower door and then took my hand to help me walk inside the shower, he ran the
water and it was too cold that he felt me move my body with fear, he put me against the corner
of the glass and the water was hitting him on his back, his skin felt soft on my boobs and his
hands and my body connected, he then put his hands on my hips and he put me on the front of
him and the water was just perfect, the water went through my face and weave as he stood
behind me with his shaft hard as a rock, he put the soap over my shoulder and on my boobs
and started rubbing my boobs and stomach, I was lost in a world I never thought existed, I
closed my eyes as his hands went further in to my thighs and he passed cookie, he kissed my
neck as the water hit our bodies, he turned me around and he put the shower gel into the
sponge and he rubbed it on my back and waist, he starred at as me as he did that and his lips
were half open and his pinks lips were so sexy, I went more closer and started kissing his lips
while his hands were on my butt, he pulled back
Sonke: Can we?
I stared catching my breath as I wanted him but I had a terrible feeling
Me: I want you but not right here
Sonke: I am sorry for asking
Me: No its fine
He kissed me and gave me the sponge and I washed his back and then his chest, I was scared
to go down as the shaft was just staring at me
Sonke: His all yours, you can touch him
Me: I did and he was so hard
Sonke: he wants you
me: I am sorry
Sonke: Come on baby, it won’t hurt
Me: I know but we not ready
Sonke: look at me, look at him, he wants you
I looked at him
Me: Not now baby, Please
Sonke: he pushed me against the glass and he put his body against me and his shaft was so
hard on my belly
Sonke: Please
He started kissing me and his hands ran down on my waist and inserted his hands in between
my thighs and I moaned
Sonke: I know you want me too
Me: No baby

He moved his fingers down there and to be honest I don’t know which world I was in, I put my
arms on his shoulder as he rested his head on my shoulder kissing my neck, his hands were
moving everywhere on my body, he started kissing my boobs and then back to my lips and he
stopped and stared at me

Sonke: Please Lethu, I can’t focus right now

Me: I want you Sonke but baby please not right now
Sonke: Why wait, don’t you love me
Me: I do but the timing
He pulled away from me leaving me against the glass, I stood there as took the sponge, put the
shower gel on it and started washing himself, the water was splashing on my face and he really
didn’t care and neither did he even turn to look at me, once the water ran through his body and
there was no soap he gave me the sponge and I took it, he slid the glass door and went out and
he slid it back in again, I moved over and I started bathing, my body was still heating up as it
was yearning for him
I almost broke my virginity in the shower as I laughed to myself
I washed myself and closed the tap and opened the glass door and step out into the shower mat
and I grabbed a white bath towel to dry myself, my weave was soaking wet and I used another
towel to try and dry it but it was pointless, I needed a hair dryer.
I went out from the in suite to the bedroom and he was already dressed in his shorts and t-shirt
and he was starring outside the window.
I went to the mirror and put my weave into a pony and I opened the towel to lotion my body,
after that I wore very my underwear, a very short denim short and a vest then I wore my flops
and he was still glued on the window. I wasn’t sure if he was angry at the fact that we didn’t
have sex or his mind was just not here.
Me: Sonke I am done
He turned his head to look at me
Sonke: Okay
He looked at the shorts
Sonke: that is very short
Me: No they not
Sonke: My opinion
Me: So you don’t like them
Sonke: No
I opened the package and took out knee length shorts, I took out the ones I was using as it
revealed my pink G-string and I wore the longer short and put back the other one back into the
packet.
Sonke: Much better
I smiled at him as I took an empty shopping bag and went to the bathroom to pick up my gown
and underwear on the floor and I walked back to the room.
Sonke: I don’t see myself celebrating new year’s eve here, can we look for a better place
me: Sure, I don’t like the view
Sonke: Me too
He turned around to look at me,
Sonke: lets pack all this into the car and go to have breakfast
Me: Okay
He took the shopping as I followed him with the car keys and room keys
We got in the car and packed out staff in the boot and then we drove to wimpy and we ate then
we took a walk around the area and we found a great accommodation that was right next to the
beach and the environment was perfect and less busy.
We told us our room is available to use and they gave us the keys
we drove back to the sea view lodge and checked out and we handed over the keys then we
drove back to our new dolphin resort.
We got in to our room that was big, it had 1 big bedroom with a huge bathroom and it then had a
kitchen and a lounge, it had a veranda where you can have a braai, I went to the bedroom to
hang out clothes and I out the dirty ones onto the basket.
We spent the day indoors all over each other and I loved the attention. He made sure that he
dedicates this holiday to me, I wished we were having sex but I wanted to wait and see if sonke
deserved all of me. I loved the fact that my baby was patient with me not rushing into sex even
though we both knew he wanted me. The day was short lived but he told me about himself and
his boys, he told me about his high school days and that he did not finish his matric as he has
an opportunity to be a soccer player and when that fell apart he took the money he saved to
open up a warehouse and that’s when he started making money.
His first car was the white golf VR6 and he got the house in sunning dale and revamped it. He
told me he met his ex-fiancé when he started his business and he needed help with transporting
goods and she was desperate for a job as she was the only bread winner home, he gave her
the job and they became close once she was working for him but after the breakup she moved
on and she now runs her own business.
I told him about my family and my high school days, I told him the plan is to work at my family
firm once I graduate as that was my parents wish. He told me I will make it and I must stop
parting and he does not like me to party.
Tomorrow was the 31st of December so we were looking forward to it. We ordered supper which
was bunnies and salads with orange juice, sonke didn’t like the bunny but I enjoyed it. We

31st of December that was the day, we decided to have a braai in the afternoon as we wanted
to spend the day just together.
Sonke went to woolies ad got meat, sausages, chops and wine, he then went over to the bottle
store and got whisky and red square ciders while I was making salads and pap. Sonke came
back after a while and he suggested that we spend the day at the beach and I agreed with him.
Bantu called while I was lying in sonke’s chest, I hesitated in answering it but I had to otherwise
my brother was going to kill me when he sees me.

Me: Bhuti
Bantu: Lethu
Me: Unjani?
Bantu: Not good and you?
Me: Surviving
Sonke pinched me when I said that
Me: Ouch
Bantu: Sorry
Me: Sorry, I pumped into something
Bantu: Sorry
Me: It’s okay
Bantu: Ukuphi?
Me: I am with my friends at St Lucia
Bantu: Oh, I didn’t know you were going to be away for new year’s eve
Me: I forgot to tell you guys
Bantu: Noxy?
Me: I am not sure, asihambanga naye
Bantu: Oh, I guess she is also with her friends
me: I am sure
Bantu: Nibuya nini?
Me: I am not sure yazi
bantu: Okay, be safe
me: Thank you
bantu: Sibahle was hoping to spend new year’s eve with us
me: I am sorry, tell her next year
Bantu: Sho
Me: Okay
Bantu: Okay let me not keep you, enjoy and call me after 12 midnight
Me: Will do
Bantu: I love you
Me: I love you too
We ended the conversation and I hung up.

Sonke: He doesn’t sound angry

me: ears dropping
Sonke: baby you right here, I heard everything
me: You could have blocked your ears
he laughed and kissed me on my head as he woke up
Sonke: asiye olwandle babe
Me: Okay, let me change

I wore my bikini with my shawl and flops, he wore his shorts and vest and cap and he applied
sun skin protect lotion on my body and I did the same in his body as the sun was about 30
degrees. I made cocktails with vodka and he took his Jameson and ice, I took strawberry’s with
cream and I made hot dogs for us to nibble on at the beach, I carried the beach towels with a
baskets and cushions and he carried the cooler box and we walked to the beach, the sun was
perfect and there were kids with their parents and there were elderly couples.
He laid on the towel with his glasses on and I laid on his chest with my glasses, we sipped on
our drinks, his hands were on my tummy and I had my hand on his chest, the sun was just fine
as ever, we sipped on our drinks and we took selfies, we had elderly woman that complimented
us.
Sonke was tall dark with a perfect body like Idris Alba just that sonke was a thug in suite type of
a guy. I was fair, slim with a bit of hips, more of the innocent type of a woman.
Every time I walked up to the beach to deep my feet in the water got a bit mad as the guys
would stare at me and it was a vice versa feelings, the white girls only drooled on his body and I
had to make him put his vest back on. I made sure I show people that he is my man, my one
and only.
After hours from being at the beach we went inside our room and we decided to braai our meat
as it was already after 6pm. I had a shower on my own as I didn’t want the previous accident to
repeat itself, he showered after me and then we chilled outside as he was braying the mea, we
ate and then had some quality time.
We stayed indoors watching the New Year’s Eve show on SABC 1 which was live at people’s
park. Around 11:58 we went outside and did the countdown with the people who were outside
and I think they were also there for a holiday, we shook hands welcoming each other to the New
Year and Sonke kissed me, we watched the fireworks.
After new year’s eve shut down awe went inside the house

Sonke: Lethu
Me: Baby
Sonke: I want to show you something
Me: what
Sonke: Come here

I walked to him as he was sitting on top of the bed, I stood in front of him and he held my waist
as he woke, I looked at him as he was taller than me, he carried me and I put my legs around
his waist and my flops fell on the floor, he turned around and put me on in the middle of the bed,
I laid on the bed as he got on top of me and je started kissing me and I whispered in his ear
Sonke: Sonke, we not ready
Sonke: I know

He kissed me on my lips until I got drunk from his kiss, he went down on my neck, he pulled out
my vest and I was left with a bra, he kissed me and put his hands on my back as he unclipped
my bra and he took it out as it was a boob tube bra, he started kissing my boobs while I was
running my hands through his fade haircut, he went down to my mini skirt and pulled it out and
left my G-string exposed to him, he looked at me as he pulled it out and he came back up to my
face, he wet kissed my lips then whispered to me

Sonke: relax, I won’t break you just yet

He kissed my boobs again all the way to my stomach and then to my cookie.
I lost in, my body took over me as I had no idea what was happening to me, I tried to control my
body but it did not belong to me anymore, it took Sonke’s demands.
He kissed me right there, I started moaning and running my hands through his head, I lifted both
my knees up as he was in between me. My mind was gone as I started speaking and saying
words that did not make sense, I kept whispering his name as he made sure he is satisfying me.
My body started doing the count down, it felt as if I was a clicking time bomb that was ready to
explode, he squeezed my thighs with his hands as I felt wet down there and before I knew it I
was shivering and he held my but cheek tight and squeezed it.
I opened my eyes and his face was already on mines, he kissed me passionately and the he left
a love bite on my boob, he came back up to my face and starred as me while I was still trying to
recover from what just happened.
He kissed my neck and whispered in my ear.
Sonke: Happy New Year from Sonke
He kissed my cheek and got out of bed and went to the bathroom.
I put my legs back together as they were far apart and I pulled the sheet on the bed and
wrapped it around me and I walked to the kitchen to get water, I drank the water and then
walked back to bed, he came out from the bathroom with just a towel wrapped round him, he
removed the towel and wore his hugging boxers and he took the duvet out for the robe and sat
on the bed while I stared at him.
He looked at me and he winked
I wanted more, I wanted that feeling again and I wanted him, I saw his lips moving but his body
took over me
Sonke: Lethu
I stared at him
Sonke: Lethokuhle
me: Yes
Sonke: You okay?
Me: Yea as I cached my breath.
I walked to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror and I was glowing, I looked different
and happy, I washed myself and I wrapped a towel around me, I walked back to the bedroom
and I wore my underwear and a gown and I went to sit next to him
Sonke: did I hurt you?
Me: No you didn’t
Sonke: Sure
I smiled and looked away, he kissed my neck leaving another love bit
Sonke: let’s sleep
Me: Okay
I cuddles on his chest as he covered me with the duvet.
 Chapter 9
After a three days stay in St. Lucia it was time to go back home, spending new year’s eve with
my man was amazing, better than the Christmas we spent.
We were all over each other and he could not let go of me and my hand, we were too much
closer and in love then we have ever been.

Sonke: Baby can I drop you off first? I have to visit my mom Inanda and to wish her a new year
Me: Its fine, I also have to spend time with my brother before he goes
Sonke: How will you explain the marks on your neck and boobs

I looked at myself in the mirror and I was green and red in some places.
I took a deep breath in

Me: I don’t know

Sonke: Askisi baby
We drove from St Lucia to home while he was holding my hand he squeezed my thighs every
now and then, we drove at my gate.
He dropped me off at home after a 3 hour drive
Sonke: will see me later

I kissed him and came out of his car with denim shorts vest and sandals with Billabong and
Volcom packets.
I smelled of him and I knew I have to change before interacting with everyone and try to hide
these love bites.
I inside the house and no one was home, I took a shower and wore my long summer dress, I
unpacked my dirty clothes put them in the washing machine and the house was a mess, I
applied concealer with foundation and blush and I could barely see the love bites.
I cleaned up my bedroom and prepared dinner, I SMS Bantu

Me: {Hey Bantu ukuphi?}

Bantu {Hey Lethu, we decided to go do a mini shopping with Noxy, we will be back in an hour
or two}

I decided to roast a chicken and made every salad I know they both love and I put the bottle of
wine into the bucket and I set plates out in the garden, I drank my wine while I was thinking
about Sonke and thinking about the amazing time we had.
when they came I was on my 2nd bottle and they had company who happened to look pregnant
Bantu: sis this is my boo as I have told you
Me: Hi Sibahle I am happy to finally meet you
Sibahle: Likewise
She sounded like a chilled woman and I was happy that my brother is happy with her, he was
very different and soft with her around
Me: I made supper
Bantu: Thank you Lethu, I am starving
Noxy: Happy new year’s by the way
She came over to hug me I did the same with bantu.
We spent over 3 hours chatting and eating and it was amazing
Bantu: Guys we are driving up tonight so we have to start packing.
They packed their staff and around 6pm they left and he gave me 3K to sort myself out and 3K
to Noxy, we then locked all doors and drank our wine
Noxy: I was with Banzi on new year’s eve, it was the best, his family is amazing Lethu
Me: So you and Banzi are like serous now?
Noxy: Yes, I love him so much
Me: I am so happy for you
I went to hug her
Noxy: How is Sonke?
I smiled and looked at her
Me: He is good
Noxy: You are glowing
Me: Really
Noxy: Yes
Me: I think I am falling for him big time
Noxy: I can tell, did you and him do it?
Me: Do what?
Noxy: You know, have sex?
me: No we didn’t, it was hard having to back him off but he understood
Noxy: Keep him waiting till we have uMemulo wakho
Me: I will
We continued drinking our wine and watching MTV Base
we were so drunk that we fell aleepp in the lounge on the couch, we were woken up at 6.30 by a
house phone ringing, I answered it was Bantu asho that he and Sibahle got home safely and he
said babuzondi and Mathema will be coming through today and he reminded me that I need to
go pay for at university next week and I said okay and goodbyes,
I peeped outside the window and Sonke’s car was there, I unlocked the alarm and went over to
him and he was sleeping in the car.
I knocked on his window and he woke up
me: Sonke what is he doing here?
Sonke: I tried calling me last night but there was no answer so I came through here
me: Missing me that much?
Sonke: Ubukuphi?
Me: I was here at home
Sonke: You stink of alcohol and you are still dressed in your PJ’s
me: Noxy and I were having wine and we passed out in our couch.
He laughed out and loud
Sonke: okay let’s go
Me: I didn’t bath as yet
Sonke: that is not a problem but I need your help
I got in the car and I was a bit skeptical as I wasn’t sure what is it that Sonke would need help
with. He drove off, I texted Noxy

Me {will be back in a couple of hours, Sonke needs my help with something}

Noxy {As long as it is not sex}

Me {We not there yet lol}

Noxy {Mmmm I see, Love you}

Me {Love you too}

We drove to sunning dale slow this time around

Sonke: My boys are coming back this week and I need you to help me in tiding up the house as
my maid will be back in a weeks’ time
I loved the fact that he sees potential in my motherhood skills, I smiled at me, I held his hand as
he held the gear
Me: well I can do that
Sonke: Ngiyabonga Sithandwa sami
We got to his house and I decided to put an apron on and started off with putting his dirty
clothes in the washing machine, I put all the jeans in the washing machine while soaking all the
white T-shirts and jeans with jik. Sonke was still upstairs and I think he was neatening the
bedrooms.

I went to the kitchen and put all the dirty dishes into the dish washer and I started throwing away
all expired food from the fridge, I washed the fridge, kitchen built ins and I threw away things we
don’t need, I cleaned kitchen and used the hoover to remove all the dirty then I moped, I then
vacuumed the lounge and the dining room.
Sonke came down using his short and he was topless, I bit my bottom lip trying to control
getting honey, he gave me that slow motion walk that I felt breeze brushing through my face.
Sonke: baby I will take care of the rooms upstairs, you do the downstairs while smiling at me
showing off his dimples
I stared at him all the way to his shaft and I went back up
Sonke: Lethu
I looked at his lips and they were sexy as ever, his lips were moving and I could hear him but
my body didn’t allow me to respond
Sonke: Lethokuhle *Yelling*
I snapped out of it
Me: Yes baby
Sonke: baby I will take care of the rooms upstairs, you do the downstairs
Me: Okay
Sonke: You okay?
Me: Yeah
I cleared my throat
Me: I am fine
Sonke: Okay

He walked back upstairs

I went over to clean the gym and packed all his dirty things that were lying everywhere and took
it to the laundry room, I took off the jeans and put the white clothes and I went to the back to
hang the jeans in the sun, I went to the spare bedroom I vacuumed it and changed the beddings
and I dusted and vacuumed the music room, I then cleaned the main bathroom and I was done,
I went to the laundry room and took out the washed white clothes and I put in all the beddings
Sonke put on the basket and the boys dirty clothes.
After 2 hours we were done and we sat in the pool sipping on a cider while he was sipping a
beer, I sat on top of him while both our legs were hanging inside the pool, we started kissing.
He got inside the pool with his shorts and came between my legs and we kissed nonstop,
before I knew it Sonke pulled me to the pool, my apron and PJ’s were wet.

Me: Sonke *Scramming*

Sonke: Vele usazogheza
Me: yeah but after I was done with everything
I came out of the pool with my face all pulled out, he walked to the house and came back with a
big beach towel and threw it to me, I wrapped it around me while taking out my tee and shorts
and I stayed with my underwear.
Sonke: Need help?
Me: No
I walked to the house with wet feet and walked to the main bedroom downstairs and wiped my
legs and feet then I walked back to the lounge and he was sitting there playing the TV game.
Me: Really?
Sonke: What?
Me: We not finished?
Sonke: Kushodani?
Me: We have to iron all clothes
Sonke: Ini
Me: Kunjalo nje
Sonke: Lethu
Me: Please
We walked to the laundry room and I started steaming all clothes that were clean after that we
decided to pack the kids staff and I noticed there different clothing sizes
Me: Why are there different size’s babe?
Sonke: My stepson comes and visit now and then even though he now lives with his mom
me: Step?
Sonke: Sorry, Noma’s son
me: Oh, okay
Sonke: You cool with that
me: What?
Sonke: Her son coming over?
Me: It’s your house so the choice is yours
Sonke: We in this together so every decision I make involves you
me: Angazi
Sonke: Okay
He looked away and we continued with what we were doing, it was too awkward so needed to
break the ice
me: Who look after the kids when you at work?
Sonke: The twins live with his mom INanda
me: Oh, I though they live here
Sonke: They visit me at least once a month and we go out
me: Don’t they miss you?
Sonke: They are a lot closer with my mom
me: do they miss their mom?
Sonke: Well they do I am sure and her death was a shock to all of us but my mom and my
sisters are taking good care of them.
he packed all the things into their drawers, he took his clothes to his bedroom as I followed him
upstairs, We got into the bedroom and he packed his staff in to his robe and he helped pack the
rest of my clothes into my side of the wardrobe.
As soon as we were done I took a long bath, I laid there with my eyes clothes and tried to rest
my body a bit but Sonke decided to show up in the bathroom, he pulled his shorts down and got
into the bath tub.
I was in shock and also speechless, I stared at him as he came closer to me and he started
kissing me, he then kissed my neck and went down to my boobs and then came back up and
kissed me then whispered in my ear
Sonke: You want me
I Nod my head
Sonke: You sure?
I shook my head
Sonke: Not sure
Me: Yes
Let me help you decide
He kissed me again on my lips trying to shut me up, I got lost in his kiss, he went all the way
down on my neck and around my ear
Me: Sonke Please stop
He stopped and looked at me as I stared at him.
Sonke: Okay let stop
Me: No
He looked at me
me: can I blow you?
He stared at me
me: What?
Sonke: You want to blow me?
Me: IF you want?
Sonke: I do
We both stood up and I first kissed his lips then I kneeled on the bath tub into the water and I
took hold of his biggie
I sucked like how you suck a pin pop, I struggled getting it right as he moaned and then he
would say ouch, I decided to use my hand instead and it did the trick, he moaned and
whispered in gibberish until he reached his climax, he kneeled down to kiss me and he drained
the cold water out, he closed the drainer and added more warm water and washed me as I
washed him and the we laid on the tub
Sonke: Eish babe ungilimazile
Me: I am sorry babe, angikwazi
Sonke: I could tell
Me: Sorry
Sonke: Its fine, Thank God awukwazi cause we were going to have a problem if you were a pro
We laid on the bath tub until the water was cold, we got off and I wore my shorty PJ's and he
wore his, it was almost 6pm so I decided to cook something nice, I made a chicken strips and a
cheese source with onion rings and French salad, I placed the food neatly on the table while he
was watching soccer and I called him to tell him supper is ready.
While we were having supper my phone rang and it was our Mathema

Me: Hi Ma
Mathema: My baby, Ukuphi?
Me: I am at a friend’s place
Mathema: Which Friend?
Me: I will tell you when I come home tomorrow
Mathema: Ngikuphathele Amadumbe nobatata
Me: Uqinisile?
Mathema: Yes baby
Me: I cannot wait, ngizokunona kusasa
Mathema: Okay my baby, ulale kahle
Me: Nawe ma
We hung up
Sonke: Ubani loyo?
Me: Mathema our house assistance, uthi ungiphathele amadumbe
Sonke: Mmmm ngavele ngawahalela
Me: That makes the 2 of us
Sonke: Your food is also devine sithandwa sami
Me: Thank you
We enjoyed the meal together while Sonke told me about his childhood, how he grew up, how
he became a business person and ended up owning warehouses and becoming a supplier.
Sonke: All my life I wanted to become a soccer player but after I hurt my ankle, PMB united
didn’t want to take me and I also knew that my chances are slim of playing soccer again as I will
spend most of my time sitting and waiting to be a substitute.
By the look in his eyes I knew he loved soccer but he enjoyed running his own warehouse even
though he had a manager in charge
Me: You are doing a good job with LL
Sonke: Thank you
Me: maybe you can be our client and we will provide transport for your clients
Sonke: Meaning?
Me: Your clients use their own transport for pickups and delivery right?
Sonke: Yes
Me: in that case, we will deliver their goods, invoice you and you pay us and then you charge
the client
He looked at me
Sonke: you not just a pretty yellow bone but you are also smart woman
He kissed my forehead
Sonke: tea?
I smiled
Me: Yes Please I would like to have rooibos tea with honey
Sonke: Coming right up
He walked over to the kitchen to plug the water, he made the tea and then walked to the lounge
as I followed, we had tea while I was cuddling in his arms on the sofa.
We decided to watch a movie called

*With this ring movie*

My Phone rang and I ignored it and it rang again and then again, I got a bit pissed as I didn’t
know who would call me at this time.
I woke up to go check who was calling and to my surprise it was my college ex who dumbed me
cause I didn’t want to have sex with him.
Me: Marcus to what do I owe this late call from you?
Marcus: wow is that a way to greet an old friend
me: I don’t recall being your friend,
Marcus: oh okay anyway I am calling cause I have been thinking that you might have changed
your mind
me: About what?
Marcus: About us having sex
me: Ini?
Marcus: Don’t act like you don’t want me
Me: Nxa
I hanged up
I went to sit next to Sonke and the phone rang again and I ignored it
Sonke looked at me and I looked away, the phone rang again, I walked to the table
Me: Marcus what do you want?
Marcus: I want to have sex with you
Me: I don’t want to have sex with you and you are not my type anymore so stop calling me
I put my phone on flight mode as this asshole was not getting tired of calling me.
Sonke woke up and said you can switch the light when you done I will be in bed as he walked
upstairs.

Me {stop calling me, I am with my boyfriend}

I put my phone on silence and left it on the table, put the mugs on the sink switched the light off
and headed upstairs.
I opened the door and Sonke was already inside the duvet, I took my gown off and got into
bed.it
Time was 11.45pm, I tried holding him but he was cold towards me like he didn’t want me to
touch him, he didn’t even respond to my touch, I turned my back and fell asleep.
 Chapter 10
I was woken up with a hoot at the gate and the intercom was buzzing nonstop, Sonke woke up
and ran downstairs and he came back breathing very heavy
Sonke: Lethu
Me: What is going on
Sonke: you need to hide
Me: what?
Sonke: you have to hide
Me: why should I?
Sonke: I cannot explain right now but please trust me
I woke up grabbed my gown and put on my slippers and went downstairs
Me: Where?
Sonke: Outside building
He went to the drawer took out a key and threw it at me, it hit the wall and fell on the floor, I
picked it up
Me: Who is at the gate
Sonke: Baby, I will explain everything when I am done
I did as I was told, I went to the outside building that had one king size bed and a 32CM flat TV
screen, A mini kitchen that had everything, I looked on the fridge and there was expired yogurt
with fruits and ciders, the freezer had ice cream only. I put on the TV and watched channel 0
and I took out a bowl and I had the chocolate ice cream, within 20 minute I heard dishes
breaking and I heard a female yelling

*How could you do this to me?

*You are such a bastard
* She has moved in too?
*Who is that bitch?
*I hate you
* I though you loved me

I could not hear Sonke’s voice or maybe he was calm

I decided to keep to myself until he calls me.
A part of me was a bit pissed, clearly the woman in the house is his girlfriend as why would she
come here in such an early hour, fight with Sonke and break down the walls and states I am a
bitch if she was not his girlfriend.

Or maybe Noma is not an ex and I am a fuckin' side chick bitch to him he has not yet tapped so
he is tagging me along.
I was trying so hard to control my anger as I sat there watching TV on the bed for almost 3
hours.
I laid on the bed and covered myself with a thrower until he came and knocked at the door.

Sonke: Lethu
I sat STILL on the bed
Sonke: Open baby, It’s me
I walked to the door and opened it, he looked like a mess, like he was at war, we stood there for
a moment looking at each other, I couldn’t look straight in his eyes, I was scared at the same
time… In the back of my head I knew what was happening but I wanted to know why it was
happening. This means he was not true to me, he has been lying to me all along
Me: What is going on
He looked away
Me: I am talking to you
He looked at me
Sonke: Lethu I am sorry
Me: For what?
Sonke: All this
Me: This?
Sonke: Lethu
me: Who was that?
Sonke: she is gone
Me: Who the fuck was that *Screaming*
Sonke: Don’t scream at me
Me: You are something else…
I stormed out of the outside building walking to the main house, everything was scattered on the
floor… I ran upstairs and changed into a dress with sandals, while I was changing I realized that
all my clothes were squashed in to the wardrobe and my shoes were misplaced.
I left it as it is, I went downstairs and the kitchen was a mess, the glasses and plates were broke
on the floor, I looked around for my phone and it was safe on the coffee table.
Sonke was sitting on the kitchen counter with his face buried in his hands, he looked so broken
and it killed me because I didn’t know if he is broken because his girlfriend found out the truth
about me or it is because I know he has been lying to me
Me: Please drop me off home
Sonke: Lethu Please
Me: Right now you don’t nee me here and quite frankly I don’t want to be here
Sonke: Listen, What just happened here was not part of the plan
Me: Of Couse it was not
Sonke: Please don’t raise your voice at me
Me: If you cannot take me home I will request for Uber
He lifted his head up and he looked at me
Sonke: baby please don’t do this, I need you right now
Me: Need me?
I laughed out loud
Me: I am just a bitch that shouldn’t even be here
Sonke: You don’t understand
Me: Make me understand
Sonke: I love you but she is raising my kids
Me: And then?
Sonke: Lethu just listen
Me: I though your mom is raising your kids
Sonke: They live with my mom but they know Noma as their step mom
Me: And then?
Sonke: Lethu Please
Me: Your point is?
Sonke: I need her but I love you
Me: What?
Sonke: ngenzenjani?
I looked at him and I wanted to bitch slap him from where I was standing
Me: You must be fucking kidding me
Sonke: Watch your mouth Lethu, actually calm the down
Me: Calm down?
Sonke: Yes, I don’t appreciate you talking to me in this was
Me: And I should appreciate you telling me you want the both of us
Sonke: Ey Lethu
He looked agitated while I gave him a sarcastic smile
Sonke: I have been through a lot today Lethu, so please be mature about this
Me: Fuck being mature, you cannot want two people at once
Sonke: Well I am the first on earth so what
Me: Fuck you
Sonke: Lethu I love you
Me: You just love me cause you haven’t tasted my pussy
He got up and pushed me against the sofa that I fell on it then feel on the floor of the other side
of the sofa
I couldn’t feel my left arm
Me: Ouch Sonke
Sonke: You have a fucked up mentality Lethu, Really fucked up
I stood up as I held my elbow
Sonke: Maybe you think I am one of the guys who are after your pussy that is not me, I get to
have a pussy anytime I want and your is not a diamond

I stared at him

Sonke: Siyezwana
I couldn’t believe the words he said
Sonke: I love you but sometimes you are so damn childish, you are 20 but you sure as hell act
like you are 12 years old.
Me: childish? Look who is dissing on me
Sonke: Fuck you Lethu
I slapped him so hard that my hand ached
Sonke: What
His faced turned navy as he slapped me back, I fell on the single couch as he came closer, I
have never seen him look at me the way he did, it’s like he wanted to punish me for slapping
him.
Me: You hitting me?
Sonke: Ucabanga ukuthi ngiyibari mina
I shook my head telling him no
Sonke: Angisiso isithabane mine ungibheke kahle

He walked closer to me and slapped me again, I kicked him on his stomach with both my feet
and he hit the edge of the coffee table as he balanced with the sofa, I tried running away but he
grabbed me with my arm and threw me against the wall
I hit the wall with my arm and head, I started bleeding from my head

Me: You have hurt me

Sonke: That’s nothing

He walked towards me and I ran over the couch and went to the gym room, I tried locking the
door but it was pointless and I knew he was probably still coming for me, I grabbed a golf stick
from his golf bag and I walked out the door to him, we both stood in the middle of the passage

Me: Please let me go

Sonke: Ucabanga ukuthi wenzani?
Me: You are going to kill me Sonke
Sonke: I love you Lethu. Why do you have to be like this?
Me: I hate you and I don’t want you anymore

He grabbed the golf stick and we fought for it until I manage to take full control of it, I started
hitting him from his arms and legs, he tried to come more closer but I was not playing with the
gold stick, he was now bleeding on his arm as he tried holding the golf stick, he managed to get
hold of it and he held the stick and pulled it towards him and I let it go as I was being pulled
towards him and I could not afford for him to get hold of me

Sonke: This is what you want Lethu

me: Sonke baby please
Sonke: Now I am baby?
Me: Sonke Please
Sonke: You think you can lay your hands on me? Me? Sisonke Shange?
Me: Ngyaxolisa
Sonke: I am going to teach something your parents forgot to teach you

He hit me so hard with the golf stick that I lost my balance and fell on the floor, he hit me again
on my arm, I tried to hold the stick but he was too strong, I tried picked myself up but my leg
was sore

Me: Sonke my legs is broken

Sonke: Really
Blood was now coming out of my nose and my forehead, my elbow was also bleeding and the
carpet was just full of blood as he was bleeding too.
His phone rang and he turned to look for it while I ran for cover to the bathroom. I locked the
door.
Sonke: bitch you not going to stay there forever

I sat on the toilet seat pad and I started crying

Sonke wants to kill me, I stood up and looked at myself in the mirror and I looked terrible, I took
facial tissue from the built in robe and wiped my face and nose but it was pointless, I washed my
face with warm water and then wiped it with a clean bath towel from the drawer, I washed my
elbow and wrapped a towel around it, my dress was torn and messed with blood and I could not
move my arm as it was sore, I sat on the toilet pad again crying to myself while he knocked on
the door

Sonke: Lethokuhle open up

Me: So you can kill me
Sonke: I am not going to kill you, just open up so I can see that you okay
Me: I am telling you that I am fine, that should be enough for you
Sonke: You are bleeding so you might need a doc
Me: Now you care
Sonke: I love you, I just didn’t mean to hit you
Me: But you did
Sonke: Just open the damn door *Yelling*
Me: No *screaming*

He started bagging the door, within 5 minute I heard a police siren outside the house, I sat
quietly and the banging of the door stopped.
The intercom started buzzing

Sonke spoke on the received as I could hear his voice

I unlocked the door and peeped through to see if he was there but he was not, I ran to the main
door where he stood on the door entrance, I ran to make it to the door, he tried catching me but
I was already outside on the top step.
Me: Help

The police van was parked outside the gate with the blue lights flashing

Me: Please help me *Screaming*

I Ran towards the gate screamed for Help.

I saw 2 police man taking out their guns and aiming for Sonke behind me while coming closer to
the closed main gate, I got to the gate.

Me: Please help me, he wants to kill me

Police: Sir, Put your hands where I can see them
Sonke: I am not armed so don’t point the guns at me
Sonke walked towards me with blood all over his shirt and PJ pants and opened the gate
Sonke: I have the key on my hand
He opened the sliding gate, the two police man came in
Police 2: what was happening here?
Sonke: Please come inside, I don’t want my neighbors to hear about my personal life
Me: am not going in there, he will hit me again

My nose started bleedingl of a sudden, Police 1 took out a hankie chef from his pocket and gate
to wipe my nose

Police 1: Please come down sisi

Police 2: Lets go inside and talk about this like mature people
Me: No
Police 1: He will not do anything to you
Me: Fine
The 4 of us walked in to the house and Sonke sat on a single couch while the 2 police man sat
on the middle couch which was a 3 seat couch and I sat on a single couch towards the door.
Police 2: What is happening here?
I looked at Sonke and he looked away
Sonke: Kwenzeke iphutha ngamubeka isandla
Police 1: Kanje kodwa? Look at her forehead and her arm
Me: he was killing me
Sonke: I will never do that
Police 2: How do you explain this
Sonke: I lost control
Police 1: It was a war in this house yeeeeer
They both looked around while I stared at Sonke and he kept his eyes on the coffee table
Police 1: What made you lose control
Sonke: She started hitting me
Both the police man looked at me with shock
Me: he lied to me and he hit me first, I only hit him back as a self-defense
Both the police looked at Sonke
Sonke: It’s my fault and I was wrong
He looked at me

Sonke: I am sorry Lethokuhle, baby I didn’t mean to say what I said

Me: You almost killed me
Sonke: I was just trying to discipline you
Me: By hitting me? I am not your fuckin’ child
Police 2: Sisi, hayi ngendlamba
Me: Sorry
Police 1: Buti, kombe ngizothi ungubani?
Looking at Sonke
Sonke: I am Sonke Shange
police 1: wena sisi
Me: Lethokuhle Khumalo
Police 1: Ngyabonga, Nomzane Shange, iqale kuphi lempi?
Sonke: Kusuke kwafike usisi ebengizwana naye kudala and ngacela ulethokuhle ukuthi ahlale
kenye indlu until ngizengiqede naye
Police 1: kanti nisathandana yini naloyo sisis?
Sonke: Cha sesihlukene
Police 1: Pho besikuphi isidingo sokukhipha umuntu othandanaye?
Sonke: Angifunanga ukuthi kube engathi ngiyabeyisa bobabili
Police 1: Awuboni ukuthi umuntu odelelekile la ulosisi ohleli la?
Sonke: Ngiyazi muntu womuthetho and ngiyazixolisela ngaloko
Police 1: Kwasekwenzekani?
Sonke: Usisi lo ebengizwana naye wasuke walwa la endlini sengimutshela ukuthi ukhona
umuntu esengizwana naye and ngiyamucela angaphinde eze kwami ngoba ngeke aphatheke
kahle, kwathi eseqeda ukubulala izinto lauindlini ngahamba ngiyobiza uletho but lapho
ubesevele ediniwe saqala lapho ukuxabana then ngagcina sengimubeka isandla.
Police 1: Mmm hayi ngiyeza
I stared at him as he said all the shit he said and my tears were dropping in silence
Police 2: Uqinisile lethokuhle?
Me: He told he loves both of us as I was not fir enough to raise his kids, so I told him the only
thing he wanted was to just sleep with me and he hit me cause of that.
Police 1: mmm
Sonke: I didn’t mean it that way
Me: Pho why did you hit me?
Sonke: Because you’re hurt my feelings with what you said
Me: You had no right to do what you did to me, You have a wife lapho uzongenza iside chick
Sonke: I told you I am not fucking with her *Yelling*
Police 2: Ngicela nehlise umoya
Me: I cannot feel my arm and I need a hospital
Sonke: I will take you
Me: I don’t want anything from you
Sonke: You also broke my thumb
Me: fuck you
I started yelling at Sonke and the police were in-between us,
Sonke: I lost control and I think I broke my thumb and she broke her arm
Me: I need a hospital urgently
I could not feel my arm
Me: he is cheating on me and his wife and right now he saying all these lies to you to get out of
this mess
Sonke: she is not my wife Lethu, ngimulobolile but asikashadi and we are separated at the
moment and you are my girlfriend now
Me: shut up, you had your turn of talking now it is my turn
everyone starred at me and I continued
Me: he is cheating on his wife with me and he is cheating on me with his wife of whatever she is
to him, she caught him this morning when she came here as he asked me to hide on the outside
building and she did all this mess you are looking at
I was so upset, hot steam was actually flowing from my nose, I was more mad at the fact that
Sonke is lying and he is making it seem like I caused this fight
Police 2: Okay and then?
Me: After she left he called me trying to explain what happened but I didn’t bother listening to
him, I changed to go home and he pushed me and i fell over the sofa and I woke up and tried to
protect myself, this guy is dangerous and he is a lying scheming bastard and I hate him, I don’t
want anything to do with him, if you guys didn’t come through he was probably going to burn me
alive in this house.
The police tried to calm me down and to take his side but all I wanted was to go home, I logged
on my Uber app and requested for a cab.
I went upstairs and I out cardigan over myself and grabbed a hand bag and I went down stairs, I
got a notification that my ride Uber is now outside, I walk out leaving the police man sitting on
the lounge with Sonke and I got in to the Uber and then it drove off.
As soon as I got home Noxy drove me to Mt Edgecombe home.
We didn’t speak on our way to the hospital as I was crying, as soon as I got there I went to
casualty and I had to have x-rays done and the scan confirmed that I broke my arm and I have a
few internal bleeding, they wanted to admit me but I refused to, my forehead has a minor
scratch that did not need stitching, after 4 hours of being there Noxy drove us back home, my
phone was off as my battery dead, I went to bed and I slept.
Around 7.30 Noxy woke me up to eat, I went downstairs and Mathema with baba Zondi was
there

Zondi: Lethokuhle mntanami kwenzekanleni?

Me: Ngilimalile sidlala ukuskater
Noxy looked at me
Mathema: Kodwa Lethu, you have never skated before why would you try now?
Me: I shouldn’t have
Mathema: Hawu my baby, nxese, cishe walimala ngisho ihlo
Me: Thank God I survived
Zondi: Ngozokunika Iboza uthobe ngalo
Me: Thank you

We ate and Noxy told me the business is doing good and if I can help out once I am okay and I
promised I will, when we were done Mathema washed the dishes and then we sat and had
biscuit as she told us about her visit to the farm, Mr. Zondi also showed us pictures of his kids
and he told us he came with Millie’s and we must bake the Millie bread, Mathema said she will
do it over the weekend.
I felt tired and I said my goodies as I went to my bedroom, I tried to take a shower but it was
hard as I was not used to not using my other hand, after a terrible shower I wore my vest and
shorts and took some pain killers and then slept, just before I could fall asleep someone
knocked on my door
Me: Come in
Noxy walked in with 2 cups that has mush mellows on the top
Noxy: You look terrible
Me: I feel terrible
Noxy: Hot chocolate always does the trick
I smiled at her
Me: Ungathi uyazi how much I need it
I moved over and she sat on my right side of the bed and passed the hot chocolate to me and I
started drinking it as the mellows were melting.
Noxy: What happened
I looked at my hand as I was embarrassed and I didn’t know how to start telling her?
Me: Sonke and I had a fight and he slapped me and I hit him with a golf stick and then he beat
me up with it
Noxy: He did what?
I started crying, she put her arm around me
Me: Sonke has an ex fiancé or ex-wife I don’t know, but he has been cheating with me behind
her back
Noxy: No Lethu, I mean he introduced you to all his friends
Me: They probably knew I am a side chick
Noxy: Bustard
Me: I hate him
Noxy: I hope you didn’t sleep with him
Me: No I didn’t, I guess that is the reason why he held on to me
Noxy: Man are such dogs yazi, Didn’t he take you shopping?
Me: Yeah, all paid for shopping, weekends away and new gadgets, that was all to get my cookie
Noxy: His no good nje for you, Mxm let him be
Me: I want nothing to do with him, I hope I never get to see him again
Noxy: Apparently he came here while we were at the hospital
Me: How do you know?
Noxy: Mathema called and told me there is a guy with a red car asking for you and I told her to
tell him we are not in, I had to rush you to a family hospital.
Me: Thank you, I am scared of him
Noxy: Do you think he wanted to do something to you?
Me: Maybe
Noxy: How did you get out though?
Me: Police
Noxy: Who called them?
Me: I think the neighbors when Noma his ex-wife was throwing things around
Noxy: She saw you?
Me: No, Sonke hid me on the outside building
Noxy: This guys is something else
Me: Yeah and I sat there for hours and when I asked him about it he hit me
Noxy: I am sorry boo
Me: I will be okay
Noxy: Do you love him?
Me: I hate him
Noxy: There is a thin line between love and hate
Me: I hate him
Noxy: I am sorry
Me: Please don’t tell bantu
Noxy: I am sure Mathema told him already
Me; Tell him I was skating
Noxy: Okay I will

She hugged me and left my room, I stayed in bed thinking about what happened, I loved Sonke
so much but I also hated him so much. He was as good as dead to me, he must keep the
clothes in his house as I no longer wanted them because I will not accept or allow myself to be
another man’s side chick.

Weeks passed by as I was home, campus started and I had to skip university and work since I
had a cluster on, I couldn’t do much even though the pain was gone and replaced by itchiness, I
spent most time working from home and studying from home, Sonke believed my lies.

I ignored Sonke’s calls and WhatsApp text and I did not respond to him emails.

After four weeks I removed the cluster but my arm was still a bit of a struggle to use, it was three
weeks away from my birthday and I started using my car to university and to the office as well.
Sonke was still calling me Three to five times a day and he will send me SMMS which are still
unread and some deleted, he did not understand what “Leave me alone meant”, I also saw his
car a few times outside my campus and outside my house but I didn’t entertain it, we haven’t
spoke for almost a month + and I was still not interested in speaking to him even though I
missed him so much, even at the end of January he sent 5K into my account and I didn’t send it
back as I didn’t know his account details and I didn’t want to call him.

I started campus and had to attend quite a few classes to catch up since I missed out a lot, Max
and Sean were happy to see me, they helped me with notes and assignments preps as I had
assignment pilling up, I spend most of my lunch breaks at the library and after classes I would
go to the office and help with paper work and drop offs when necessary them I would be in my
room studying and doing my assignments, Noxy went out mostly on Fridays with Banzi and they
would come back on Sunday so I spend my weekends indoor, I kept to myself made sure I keep
myself busy and I don’t have time to waste thinking about love. My brother came down and few
times since business was blooming and spent most of my time with him, I loved my car and it
was my new love, I took it to a car wash almost every week even though diesel was top
expensive.

On my birthday I skipped campus as I didn’t want to see all those fake bitches who pretend to
be my friends, I went out for lunch with the squad at pop up society in Glenwood, Goodies,
Zeeno, Noxy, my two gay friends from campus Sean and max and a very close friend of mine
who works at the Kay’s company Ian who happens to be gay to.
We took tons of pictures and uploaded on Facebook and Instagram, we had those
mouthwatering desert they have at pop up society with her gourmet burgers, he had a few
drinks afterwards just bonding and having a girl time.
Around 3pm we moved next door from pop up society at badgers, we sat outside on the balcony
and we had drinks and snacks to nibbled on, since it was Friday my squad agreed they were
going to sleep over at home and we will have a small braai at our home the next day and
Sunday we can do the beach but tonight we will have a girls PJ Party 
My squad was more excited than I was and they kept telling me life begins when you are 30 so I
must relax and live young since I am 21
Goodies said she will be the first to tell us how is the 30th life when she gets there since she
was 3 years older than me as I was the youngest in the squad.
I couldn’t drink much as my mind was just all over the show, This day was indeed special but I
missed my parents and I wished Sonke was around, I missed him so much and my heart and
lips were yearning for him plus he did not text me to wish me happy birthday or call me today.
My phone rang while I was in my thoughts.
I looked at the phone and it had Sonke Calling
Ian: don’t you dare answer that unless you want to end up in kings way hospital this time around
We all laughed
Goodies: cut him some slaak thu, the guy wants to wish her happy birthday I am sure
Noxy: Let me answer it, I will pretend to be you
My heart was skipping beats
I passed it
Noxy: Hello
Noxy listened and then she smiled and cut the call and passed it to Zeeno
Noxy: He said
Noxy hung up and passed it to Zeeno,
Noxy: he head it was me
The phone rang again and this time around Zeeno answered and put Sonke on loud speaker
Zeeno : Hello
Sonke: Hi Zee, can I speak to Lethu please
Zeeno: Lethu is not here right now but I will tell her you called
Sonke: Okay, Please ask her to look across the road
We all turned and looked across but we didn’t see anything
Sonke: Look at Amsterdam Lethu
We all looked up and he was sitting on the patio outside Amsterdam and
He waved at us
Zeeno: She saw you
Sonke: Ngiyabonga sisi

He hung up

Ian: Yooo lomfana uyageza hayi

Noxy: OMG I hope he does not come here
Sean: Kodwa Lethu hayi nani niyaqoma bo
Me: Sean
Sean: uyabona ukuthi Iplayer le ngisho imunyama nje
We all cracked with laughter to that statement
Max: He e is coming here
I started to shiver as it was cold
Goodies: boo come down, he won’t do anything to you
I gave her a faint smile cause they didn’t understand, I was not afraid of him but I was afraid at
what my heart make me do, Sonke is my weakness and he knows that too, I don’t trust my
tongue when I am around him.
Within a minute or two he was behind max who was holding my hand
He looked so fine that I wanted to jump off my chair and suck his entire body like a dog sucking
a bone, his body was perfect and his eyes were as sexy as ever, He was using a light denim
blue jean with a white Nike t-shit and a light blue opened shirt, he had white sneakers on with a
white beanie. I stared at him as if it was my first time to see him until max squeezed my hand.
Sonke: Sanibonani
We all greeted back, He looked at me and I looked away trying to get my strength on track .and
Sonke: Hi to the most beautiful woman I love
I tried looking at him but my eyes teared and I quickly looked at Ian who had the most pissed off
face look ever
Sonke: The birthday girl, happy 21st birthday MaKhumalo
I smiled and said thank you
Sonke: I saw your tags on Facebook that you are at pop up society so I thought I should come
through this side to wish you since you have become a stranger
I cleared my throat and looked at him
Sonke: You no longer take my calls why?
I smiled I looked at him
Me: Well thanks to Facebook you go the opportunity to wish me well, Ngiyabonga
He flirted me with his eyes showing off his dimples
Sonke: still feisty I see
Me; wow guess who made me stronger at that
He stared at me for a while and before he could say anything
Me: thank you and goodbye
He stopped to say whatever he was about to say and he came closer to my face and moved to
whisper in my ears
Sonke: You are just my type, You are mine and you will be Mrs. Shange
I turned to look at him and we looked at each other then I looked away
He lifted his head
Sonke: Enjoy the rest of the evening good people
He walked inside badgers while we sat looking at each other
Zeeno: Utheni
Me: He said I will be Mrs. Shange
Ian: Eish kodwa lomlisa, take him back nje oe, his got that thing nje that makes the beans jump
We all laughed
Zeeno: He is yummy though
Noxy: Young black and hot
Max: Don’t listen to them Lethu
Sean: Max do you want him
Ian: Sies
Goodies: Mmmm Here he goes
We turned as he walked out of the badgers and walked out, he turned and out eyes met, he
winked his eye at me.
He continued walking away.
Goodies: He has gotten more hot hey, compare to his young days, no girl wanted him
Max: He is not Lethu’s type
Noxy: and who is her type
Max: Marcus
We all cracked with laughter
Me: Babe, Please he is not
We laughed so hard at each other’s Ex’s until we decided we had enough and we requested for
the bill.
Our waitress came back after three minute to tell us our bill has been paid for then handed over
the Slip to Noxy

*Anything for my queen*

*S.Shange

Goodies: He is a winner indeed

Ian: Impressive
Sean: He is a winner
Me: Guys lets go
Zeeno: Gangster love

We all laughed and we decided to leave, Zeeno drove with Ian, Noxy drove with Sean and Max
and I drove with goodies
We played our jam “Nadia Nakia – The Man” we sang along until we were tired.

Goodies: Boo
Me: Yes honey
Goodies: I bumped in to Sonke last week
Me: I don’t want to talk about him
Goodies: I know but can I just tell you what happened?
Me: Okay
Goodies: First I have a gift for you
I smiled and looked at her and I quickly looked on the road
Goodies: It is a Spar voucher, for the two of us to get pampered
Me: OMG goodies, I need this
Goodies: It’s for 3 hours so I was thinking we go now
Me: I completely agree
Goodies: Whooo hoooo *Screaming* I will SMS Noxy and tell her we will be a bit late
I took drove to uMhlanga in meridian drive and we got in and they welcome us with such
warmth, we changed into their white gowns and we laid on those massage beds while
woman were oiling our bodies and doing what they are good it.
Goodies: I saw Sonke last week Saturday Inanda
Me: What did he say?
Goodies: He parked the car with his crew and they were drinking as normal, I walked past him
with my baby sister, I tried my best to avoid him but before I knew it he whistled at me and I
ignored it then he screamed *G*
I turned around and he waved at me asking me to come to him, he went inside his car and put
the music soft and came out again and he greeted me and asked me how you were, I told her I
have not seen you in a while since you have not left your home with a broken arm, he asked me
if you are still staying in small Ville and I said yes then he asked me to go with him to you but I
refused as I was not sure if you wanted to see him. He told me to tell you that he loves you, he
now knows that he made the biggest mistake of his life to lift his hands at you and he prays
every day that God cane give him one last chance to prove and show you home much he loves
you. I told him I will tell you when I see you on your birthday then he asked me what would you
like for your birthday and I told him I don’t know but I got you a voucher to go to the spar with
me. He asked me to tell him once I know ukuthi ufunani but I haven’t cause I don’t know

Me: This is deep but I don’t want anything from him

Goodies: I know you hate him right now but just put yourself in his shoes, yes what he did has
no excuse but just look deep on your heart search if you still need him in your life

Me: To be honest G I love him so much, I miss him so much, falling asleep is hard at times
cause I don’t think I can love again, I fell Sonke G and I don’t see myself loving anyone else
except for him

Goodies: Then give it a try, Sonke is not the type of guys we used to dating, he is different, he
wants to be loved hard and he will love hard
Me: But he has a fiancé G
Goodies: They broke up, his mom told my mom at how disappointed kwi ngoduso ka sonke
ngoba she has another man and Sonke found out
Me: Don’t lie
Goodies: Yeah, apparently he threw her out when he found out and this was months back
Me: He did tell me they are no more
Goodies: He was probably right
Me: But he told me he loves the both of us
Goodies: Then make him decided on who to keep
Me: I don’t know
Goodies: Don’t lose a diamond while waiting for stones
Me: I will think about it

We had a full body massage then we spend the rest of the hour at a sauna and then we left to
home, we stopped at gateway for a quick shopping and we went home
The squad was sitting at the patio when we drove in to the house, I parked my car in the yard
and we headed inside, I wanted to put my shopping in to my room before joining the team and
charge my phone.
When I walked in it seemed a bit weird and Zeeno ran towards the door

Zeeno: hoe I need to show you something

she grabbed my hand leaving goodies behind and we ran to the back on the pool side area and
everyone screamed

**********surprise*******
Fireworks went off in to the air I smiled and I was like
Me: wow guys, how did you guys plan this? Who did and how?
Noxy: ask us that later but right now go and change into your swim wear, I looked around and
everyone was dressed in their SIM wear, I saw friends that I have not seen in days and Marcus
was also there, the guys were using shorts with vests and some were suing nothing on the top
and they looked hot but not hot as Sonke
Me and goodies ran in to my room and my outfit was on top of my bed and it was black body
suit with a statement *Birthday Queen* and the scarf was gold with black and gold flops, I
changed in to it in my in suite and max fixed my weave and I decided to wear gold studs
earrings, I went down to the pool area and my squad had things under control, the deco was out
of this world and all the woman were dressed in swim suits but in a respectable way.
My cake was so big with a 21 on the top, everyone sang for me, my colleagues from the office,
high school, university friends, my brother’s fiancé and he was there.
The party was so chilled yet fun, my brother hired a catering company they did the spin braai
with cocktails, the cupcakes were gold and everything was perfect.
We took photos and videos, I was tagged like crazy on Facebook and Instagram,
I was officially 21, a woman, I wished was here, I wanted to break my virginity and I was ready
and I wanted Sonke to be the one to do it, I know I promised my family that I will wait till the
traditional ceremony but I wanted to give all of me to Sonke, I went inside the house and I
looked everywhere for my car keys but I couldn’t fine it, I went to my room and it was not there
so I decided to leave it.
I went back to my crew and partied like there was no tomorrow, we had shooters and snacks.
The security escorted people out around 3am and my squad stayed and we continued with the
fun.

Chapter 11

My sleep broke at 5am which happens every time I drink alcohol

Max was sleeping next to me with Zeeno on my bed, Sean was sleeping on my bedroom
sleeper couch.

My mouth was too dry so I went downstairs to get water, I noticed a Red Golf 7 parked opposite
my home gate, it was still a bit dark so I couldn’t really make out if it was Sonke’s car or not but I
ignored it as he would call if it was him.

The house was sparkling clean like there was never a party last night, I took my phone to see
the pictures we took and it felt like a dream, it was the best birthday party I have ever had and I
don’t think I will ever have a better birthday party than this, I looked outside and the pull area
was clean as well.
I walked to the fridge and my cake was still in the box untouched, I took a bottle of still water
and walked to the bar area, the bar had so much of ciders and whisky that people did not finish
last night.

I warmed some meat that were left over from last night then I sat on the couch eating and
watching channel o until 8am.

Since we had a braai the day before everyone woke up sick, I warmed the meat for my squad
and we all chilled on the couch catching up on what happened last night.

I received an SMS from Sonke

Sonke {how is the birthday girl doing? I hope you not hung over, may I have the honor of taking
you out for lunch since I could not do so on your birthday}

Me {Thank you Sonke, I am sorry but I have plans today}

Sonke {Please, it will be for an hour or two}

I thought about it and I really did miss him, I have nothing to lose for seeing him, I replied back
to him

Me {Okay, We will we meet at?}

Sonke {Umhlanga at the pearls}

Me {cool, see you then}

My brother came downstairs and greeted my squad and he looked my way

Bantu: well sis, since you were so drunk last night, you didn’t even get to see my gift

I laughed at that statement as I was trying to brush the embarrassment off, I woke up and
hugged him
Me: To be honest, I didn’t see anyone’s gift

Ian: since when do people come to parties without gifts?

I let out a loud laugh

Bantu: All your gift were put in the garage but mines is…

Me: where?

Bantu: Come here

We walked to the office and we both sat down

Bantu: I am giving you a Million Rand to start a business

Me: A Million?

Bantu: Yes

Me: That is a lot of money

Bantu: It’s what dad wanted, Noxy also got it when she turned 21

Me: Oh

Bantu: Any idea on what business you would like to start?

Me: I have always wanted to own a clothing store and a restaurant

Bantu: well think about it and let me know if you need any assistance

Me: Thank you Bantu

Bantu: This amount will be in your account by Monday and if it used for anything else….

He gave a deadly stare and I laughed out loud

Me: Trust me, I won’t let you down

He hugged me

Bantu: I love you sisi wami

Me: I love you too

Bantu: I need to take a shower, we are going to Richards’s bay today and tomorrow we leave
for JHB

Me: When will come down?

Bantu: I am not sure but I will let you girls know

Me: Okay, no stress

Bantu: And behave

Me: Hawu Bantu, I will

Bantu: Good

We hugged and we walked back to the lounge, Mathema came in and started preparing
breakfast and I helped her as my friends came to visit me, we set the table outside on the patio,
while eating we planned to go for movies in gateway at 1pm, I said cool with the idea but I will
have to start somewhere, The were cool with it.

After I was done with eating I went upstairs, took a quick shower and I wore my sissy boy short
cream color pleated dress that revealed my entire back and I wore black lace bra with a
matching boy-leg then I put my gold nine west sandals and gold stud earrings, I took out my
gold sling bag and I put my purse and phone in it and put my weave into a pony, I was not much
of a makeup girl but I did apply powder, eyeliner and a nude colored lipstick, I was set and
ready and the time was 11.34am.

I went downstairs

Me: Guys I will see you later

Goodies: Date?

Me: No

I pulled my face while answering goodies

Zeeno: We know you darling

Me: Guys…..

They all laughed out love while Noxy started singing

Me: Did anyone saw my car keys?

Ian: At the top of the micro wave

I walked towards the microwave and I took the keys and I ran out of the house.

Me: Bye Bitches

Ian: Bye Hoe

I got in to my car and I drove in a crazy speed, I didn’t not want to be late.

When I got to the pearls of Umhlanga I text him to know which side he was on
Me {I am here}

Sonke {I am too, Come towards the shipwreck}

Me {Okay}

I got off my car and I walked towards the shipwreck, I spotted him right at the end of the bridge
and he was facing the sea. He looked sexier than the last time I saw him.

He had blue skinnies with a bottle green golfer and green Armani Jeans sneakers, he looked so
fine that I my knees started shaking, I didn’t know if I should continue or I should run back in to
my car and drive home, he turned around while I was still contemplating and his look almost
knocked me off the bridge, he smiled and walked towards me

Sonke: Princess

Me: Hi there Mr.

Sonke: Fine as ever

Me: I wish I could say the same

He laughed at my statement then he gave me a hug, the smell of his cologne abducted my body
in to a world of its own, I pulled away as I didn’t want to be trapped in that moment

Sonke: I have made reservations for us at oyster box if that is fine with you

Me: It is perfect, I was craving for oysters with sushi and prawns

He smiled

Sonke: Great, I will feed your craving

I giggled as he gave me that sexy look

We walked next to each other in silence, he kept looking at me from the corner of his eyes and I
was doing the same, we got into oyster box restaurant, the waiter took us to our seat which was
at the balcony, He sat opposite me so he could have a better view of me.
Sonke: how have you been?

Me: I have been surviving and you?

Sonke: I cannot say the same, life is life….

Me: Yeah I get those moments but nothing last forever

Sonke: You think so?

Me: I know so

He smiled and signaled fir the waiter to bring our meal as he had ordered already

Me: Mm it looks marvelous

Sonke: I told you I will feed your cravings

I smiled at him thinking he has not stopped trying to charm me, maybe I should take G’s advice
while I am at this.

We enjoyed our meal while trying so hard not to look in to each other, he was gentle with every
word that came out of his mouth.

Sonke: Lee I have something to tell you

Me: Hayi Sonke, you cannot talk with your mouthful

He smiled at me

Sonke: Sorry Mom

I laughed at that “Comment”

Me: You can start after finishing the food your mouth

He gave out a slight laugh as he grabbed the serviette and wiped his mouth

Sonke: Lee
He took a deep breath and he looked right in to my eyes

Sonke: Thank you for coming through

Me: No stress

Sonke: Lee

Me: Yes

Sonke: I owe you an apology for all that I have done to you, you didn’t deserve the hurt I caused
you…. I know my sorry won’t change all that has happened but i am hoping it will create a better
future for us

I cleared my throat and I sipped on the red wine while listening to him

Sonke: Lee I should have been honest with you right from the very beginning

Me: Why weren’t you?

Sonke: I was scared

Me: Of What?

Sonke: Of losing you

My heart raced while he stared right in to my eyes

Sonke: I should have told you about Noma… I should have told you she was still in the picture…
I know I should have treated you with respect and I should have protected you instead of hurting
you.

He looked at his food for a while then he lifted his head and looked at me again

Sonke: Lee Norma has so much of hold over me, I couldn’t shake her out of my life, my kids
love her and she loves them too, she is experienced in having to take care of kids and…

Me: And?

Sonke: You don’t know anything about kids

Me: I was will to learn Sonke, I am not a child that you think I am

Sonke: I know Lee and I am sorry I underestimated you

I took a deep breath in as I was trying so hard to hold my tears back

Me: Are you guys still together?

Sonke: No

Me: Why?

Sonke looked away

Me: I think it is fair that you tell me the truth

Sonke was quiet

Me: I see

I took my bag and he held my hand

Sonke: We are no longer together

I looked at him
Sonke: We are not married either, Yes ngacela kubo ngase ngalobola but that all ended when
she walked out of my life

I listened to him as I continued drinking my wine

Sonke: My kid’s mother passed on two year ago and Noma was back in the picture when their
mom passed on

Me: Back?

He kept quiet for a while

Sonke: Noma left me and I met the boy’s mother and when she passed on I went back to Noma
and our relationship has been up and down ever since

Me: So where do I fit in in all this?

Sonke: You complete me MaKhumalo and everyday not spent with you I lose out on happiness,
I know I have failed you as a man and you don’t see a need to fight for us anymore and I don’t
blame you, I was wrong in raising my hands on you or even threatening you, you are a free
spirit woman, you are kind, you are a fighter and a lover which these are the things I found
perfect about you.

I looked away as I was getting emotional

Sonke: My house is not a home without you

He looked at me and took my hand

Sonke: Please give me one last chance and let me show you love, let me show you the
meaning of love and allow me to bless your world with happiness

I smiled as I looked at him

Me: I wish it was that easy but it is not, you have hurt me Sonke

Sonke: Ngiyaxolisa Lethu

Me: Sorry doesn’t make things okay Sonke

Sonke: I know baby but this is supposed to make us stronger and not tear us apart, I promise
you that things will be a lot better now and I will be your Idris Alba Ke

I laughed so hard that people turned and gave me a dirty look

Me: It won’t work out Sonke

Sonke: Lee it’s just You & I

Me: You haven’t changed Sonke

Sonke: Please trust me Lethokuhle

Me: How can I after this? After what happened? You almost killed me

Sonke: That will never happen lee

He reached out for my hand and put his hand on top of mine

Sonke: One try Lee, Just one

Me: If you hurt me again?

Sonke: Shoot me, kill me and expose me and tell the whole world about me

I stared at him

Sonke: I won’t hide you Lee, I will show you to the whole world, you will be my one and only

I laughed

Sonke: Ngiyakucela Lethokuhle

Me: One try

Sonke: One

Me: We will take this one day at a time

Sonke: Yes babe

Me: Okay

He smiled at me and kissed my hand

Me: No beating me up, hitting me, controlling me and cheating on me

Sonke: I promise

Me: Good

We had our desert brought to us and we dug in

I felt like I was giving my pass away and he was going to control me but his eyes, his eyes
showed me Miami, a place beautiful like heaven I guess, my lips yearned for his lips and my
body was aching for his. After the desert he requested for the bill and he gave them his credit
card.

He turned to me and gave me the most sexiest smile ever

Sonke: Thank you for giving us another shot, I promise you won’t regret it

Me: I hope so

We walked out of the pearls and we took a walk at the beach trying to reach out for the feelings
we kept away, We were walking next to each other but I was still bumping in to him accidently,
that is how nervous I was, I mean I don’t ever take an ex back and this is an ex that almost
killed me and an ex that all my friends don’t like for me.

While we were still ponding I got a text from my squad telling me they are in gateway, I replied
back telling them I am running late they must catch the movie and I will catch up with them later.

Me: Sorry, I am supposed to be with my friends watching a movie right now but I am not there

Sonke: I am sorry, you may go if you want to

Me: No, I will catch up with them later

Sonke: I know I don’t deserve anything from you but thank you for allowing this moment
I smiled looking at him

Sonke: I have a gift for you

He looked at me and then he took out a small box that looked like a ring box

Me: No Sonke

Sonke: Relax, it’s not what you think

Me: Oh Okay

Sonke: Open it

I opened the box and it was his house key with a key ring that had a message “Our home”

I looked at him

Sonke: You are welcome anytime

Me: Thank you

He then took out an envelope from his jacket and said this is a fully paid trip for 4 to cape town,
includes accommodation, flight, transport and food.

Me: Cape Town?

Sonke: Yes, It expires after 36 months

I woke from the bench we were sitting on, I sat on his lap and I gave him a hug

Sonke: I can get used to this

I felt as if I was stuck in his arms, I lifted my body from him but he pulled me back then he
turned his head to kiss me, he first teased me by moving closer to me then he pulled back, he
put his hands on my face and gave me a long wet kiss

His lips tasted like a cold pineapple juice on a deserted area, his lips were soft like a fresh
apricot, I smelled his Hugo Boss Cologne and I loved every moment of being in his arms then I
pulled out and I sat next to him.

I was happy even though I was a bit shaky but it will be alright, they say when something comes
back to you then it was meant for you

He took my hand and held it against his chest

Me: Do you still communicate with Noma?

Sonke: After she officially broke it off with me the morning she found your clothes in my house
we haven’t spoken
Me: Do you miss her?

Sonke: No, I missed you

Me: Not as much as I did

Sonke: I love you Lethu, I swear on my life I love you

I smiled and kissed his lips

Me: I love you Sonke

I stayed in his arms until I saw the time from his watch

Me: Sonke, Thank you for the lunch but I have to go

Sonke: No problem, can I walk you to your car?

Me: Sure

He walked me to my car, we hugged and kissed then I got in to my car and I drove off to
gateway, finding parking was such a mission but I eventually got parking near woolies outside
entrance, I locked my car and ran to the movies, they told me the movies will be over in an
hour’s time, I said I don’t mind they sold me the ticket and I ran inside

Luckily my squad was sitting in the front row so I could make them out, we cached the movie
together then we had dinner at greedy Buddha, after that we went to galaxy to have a few drinks
and then we decided to go home. We go home put some music on and we started our own
party, I did not tell them where I was or with who, Sonke kept chatting with me on WhatsApp
and I had to chat back as we both wanted this relationship to work out We partied until we
passed out.

The next day we cached up with the squad but I didn’t tell them about Sonke as they would
have been more pissed and start giving me their one cent advises. We spent the day together
and I thanked them for making my day special, everyone left later on that day, Noxy had to drop
off Ian and Zeeno, I dropped off Goodies, Sean and Max.

Mathema cooked pork ribs with veggies, we also had wine together with Zondi, we bonded and
we also spoke about the party and fun we all had, once we were done around 8pm and I went to
my room and I passed out without even taking a bath. My sleep broke around 3am, I felt drained
and I knew it was the wine, I needed milk so I went downstairs and had milk with cookies then I
went back up to my room, I heard a car door closing I then checked from my bedroom window
and it was the Red Golf 7 again and it had a male inside, I pressed the emergency button for
our alarm alert services to come through, They called the house within a minute and I answered
and told them there is a car outside opposite our gate and it just strange and wired as we don’t
know the car, they advised they will send out security guards and police services, within 3
minute they were outside our house gate and they went over to the car and they spoke to the
guy inside and he left, they called the house and I answered and I told them we okay, they said
the guy was lost so he needed directions to phoenix so they gave him directions. This seemed
strange as I have seen this car over 3 times and it looked like Sonke’s car.

I called him and he answered within the 2nd ring

Sonke: baby lami?

Me: Baby

Sonke: You okay?

Me: Where are you?

Sonke: In my house

Me: Oh okay

Sonke: What is wrong?

Me: Nothing

Sonke: Do you want me to pick you up?

Me: No I was just missing your voice

Sonke: I miss more than just your voice

I giggled as he said that

Me: Ulale kahle babe

Sonke: How about I take you to campus tomorrow and I will pick you up from campus and you
can come over to my place

I smiled to myself

Me: that would be great, pick me up at 7am as my first calls is at 8am

Sonke: No problem love wami

Me: goodnight and I love you

Sonke: I love you more

We hung up
7am he was already waiting outside my home on the side of the gate, from my bedroom window
I had to study his car and try to identify it to last night’s car, the cars are the same just that
Sonke’s one has a darker window tinting, Has roof top and standard Rims.

I got dressed quickly and I grabbed all books and mac book and my travel bag and my handbag
and I ran down stairs, no one was on the dining room so I unlocked the alarm, I took my house
key and I opened gate and I got in to Sonke’s car and we drove off

By 8am I was in class, he came over around 11am to give me lunch which was a burger king
meal and he left as he was rushing for a meetings, I had to keep a straight face with Sean and
Max as I had to lie to them that it is my new crush and I knew that they don’t believe me.

At 3pm he picked me up and dropped me off at his place and I decided to cook a nice meal for
him, I went upstairs, my clothes were still on my side of the wardrobe all packed and some were
ironed and put into the hangers, I changed into his long shirt as I had boy legs on and I used my
slops, I made a chicken stir fry with baked wedges and carrot salad, I decided to bake a carrot
cake as well and I was done by 5pm, I took a shower and used his shirt with my G-string and
my sleeping shorts, I chilled in the lounge chatting with my squad, after a while I heard
something dropping from upstairs and I freaked as I was alone in the house, I walked to his
bedroom but the noise was not coming from there and I went to the kids room and nothing was
there or fell then I went to the piano room and I saw the basket moving, it was shaking
uncontrollably and I freaked out and then a rat ran out and went to the built in robe that was
there, I closed the door as I was scared of rat I ran down stairs and I opened the main door,
after about an hour or 2 I heard a lady singing coming from the outside building with a maid
uniform coming in the house, she stopped and stared at me

Mamiki: Hi

Me: Hello

Mamiki: I didn’t know we had a visitor

Me: I am sorry, I wasn’t told we have someone else in the house

She smiled

Mamiki: I am sorry I was taking a nap

Me: No it’s fine

She sniffed around the air to get the Aroma

Mamiki: you cooked?

Me: Yes I did, it’s not a lot though as I thought I was cooking for 2 people

Mamiki: hayi khululeka ngane yami, sizodla sonke nje sisherishe

I laughed

Mamiki: I am Miss Zim Mamiki

Me: I am Lethokuhle

Mamiki: lovely name, I assume you the one who washed Sonke and the kids clothes? And you
ironed them while I was gone?

I smiled

Me: Yes I did

Sonke: You are a wife material indeed

I smiled

Me: Okay

Mamiki: I will leave you to your space while I go and prepare my bed

Me: Okay

I sat on the couch and I decided to text Noxy and tell her my whereabouts

So she will not worry about me.

Me {I am at a friend’s place and I will be home tomorrow}

At 6.30 Sonke walked in while I was sitting in the lounge watching a cooking channel, he kissed
me and walked upstairs while I stayed in the lounge and he took a shower while I prepared the
table, I went outside to call Miss Mamiki, she first declined my request but I begged her and she
said she will come, Sonke came down and I told him Miss Mamiki will join us, he was not
pleased with it but he accepted it, we had supper together and she told me all the things Sonke
puts her through with the girlfriends he had and we were laughing about it, we sat on the table
for over 2 hours enjoying the meal.

Around about 9.30pm we called it a night and Mamiki left to her room

Sonke and I sat on the couch watching music videos, He had his arms around me as I had my
hands on his chest, he pulled a shawl that was on top of the couch and placed it on my thighs
as the shorts I used were too short, his hands were so warm and I could feel his heartbeat.
Sonke: Baby wami

Me: Love

Sonke: Uright kodwa?

Me: Yes baby I am fine

Sonke: Thank you for such a lovely meal

Me: You are welcome

Sonke: I had no idea you can cook

Me: I am multi-talented

Sonke: I cannot wait for breakfast then

I laughed out loud

Me: I thought I will have breakfast in bed

Sonke: And Campus?

Me: before campus

Sonke: Work? I am the boss remember? I have to be a good example to my employees

Me: And a good man to your woman

Sonke: Oheee Kombe, Umuntu uvelelwe

Me: I love you more as I kissed his cheek.

He woke up and walked to the kitchen and he came back with two mini magnums already
opened

Sonke: Ice cream

Me: Yes Please

He sat next to me and put his arm around me, we had the ice cream, I tasted his which was the
Mint one and he tasted mines which was death by chocolate, we kissed in between our ice
cream until we were done

Sonke: Boo, I will be upstairs, it’s late now

Me: Okay, let me neaten up and I will be up now

Sonke: Don’t take too long

Me: I won’t
He kissed my forehead and ran up the stairs

I sat on the couch scared of going to bed as I knew we might end up having sex since I was
now 21 years old, I pick the shawl and left It at the edge of the couch and I switched the lights
off and I entered the alarm code Sonke told me then I walked up to his bedroom.

The lights were still on but Sonke was already in bed on his phone, I walked in and put my
phone on my side table and I walked to the bathroom, I brushed my teeth and I looked at myself
in the mirror

Me: Am I ready?

My heart skipped a beat

I took the shorts off and I said a quick silence prayer, I told myself I will follow his lead.

I flushed the toilet then walked back to the bedroom, this time around his phone was on his side
table and he was sitting up

Sonke: You done?

Me: Yeah

Sonke: Woza silale manje

I switched the lights off and walked to the bed

He woke out of the bed as soon as I got in, he turned the light on then dimmed it.

Sonke: Can I?

Me: Sure you can

We walked back and got into bed, he opened his arms and I laid my head on his chest

Sonke: Thank you for giving us another shot

I kept my head down and I took a deep breath

Me: I love you Sonke, my feelings for you are getting stronger each day and I am slowly falling
deeply in love with you

Sonke: I will catch you Lee, I promise I will love you and protect you no matter what

I lifted my head up to look at him as he was running his fingers through my weave, he gave me
a wet kiss with his soft warm lips and I kissed him back, I followed his lead, he ran his hands on
my back while he pulled me closer with the other hand.

His body was warm, his hands were soft on my body as I felt his every touch, my body was
leaving me for him once again, it was under Sonke’s spell, His shower gel was the only smell I
could get even though I felt as if I was suffocating, I was struggling to breath.

Sonke stopped kissing me and starred in my eyes, he moved on top of me while looking right
straight in my eyes, he pulled the duvet out of the way and he planted his lips on my lips and
gave me the most sexiest kiss ever, the kiss got deeper and sexier as he played around with his
tongue on my tongue, his hands pulled my legs apart and he laid himself in-between my thighs,
His hands were moving up and down my hips as he gave me the most passionate kiss ever, he
moved his lips down to my neck as I let out a slight breathing noise, I was reaching out for
breath as he moved up to my ear

Sonke: I am going to love you

He kissed my neck again and this time around I felt a sting and I knew he was leaving his mark
on me, I put my hands on his arms rubbing my hands on his back.

He started unbuttoning his shirt that I was using while kissing me, he pulled out the shirt and I
helped him by lifting my body up so I can free my arms, he stopped and stared at my bare skin,
with nothing on but my lace black G-string.

He looked at me and smile while biting his lower lip, he came closer and he whispered on my
other ear this time around

Sonke: You going to be crazy about me

I moved more back trying to get his eye contact and I did, he bit his bottom lip again as I laid on
the pillow, he kissed my neck then started kissing on my nana’s while I ran my hands on his
head and shoulders, he went down to my navel and starting living love bites there too and
kissing me, he squeezed my buttock and then pulled my G-string out, he looked at me and I just
knew what he was going to do with me, he went right to my honey pot and started eating me so
gently while squeezing on my boobs, I had already lost my mind as I started moaning and
speaking in tongues while moving my hips back and forth, I struggled breathing that I had to
increase my breathing levels, I held on to the pillows and squeezed them so hard, my body was
sweating and heating up fast, I swear I thought I was going to go mad, the feeling was a lot
more than the last time Sonke did this to me, my body shivered and vibrated as if I was being
shocked with electricity, the feeling I reached was beyond this world, he came back up on top
and he kissed me passionately while his hands were still on my boobs

Sonke: I am going to show you heaven

I held him tight as my body wanted him so badly, I was still trying to find my strength as I was
breathing heavy as if I ran the stare case thrice, he came more up to me and he opened my
side of the drawer and took out a condom, he opened it while staring at me, I put my hand on
his waits as he leaned over to kiss me, he then took the condom out of the cover carefully and
he put it on to him, he started kissing me again then he looked at me

Sonke: Ready?

I looked at him and I nod my head

Sonke: Baby if you not ready tell me

Me: I want you to make me a woman

He smiled as he started kissing my neck licking it, I felt him rubbing his shaft on me and I
moaned again, I felt so wet down there and the more he did that the more I moaned and I called
his name, he tried entering me but he pulled out

Sonke: Tell me if I am hurting you

I nod my head

He looked at me and kissed me and taking me to that world that does not exist on this earth, he
entered me and I moved my body more back

Sonke: Relax

I looked in his eyes and he entered me again

Sonke: Trust me

He kissed me as I was distracted and I held him tight, I felt a needle pain down there

Me: Ouch

Sonke: Shu, He kissed me as he pulled out and entered me again and he kept doing so until I
no longer could feel any pain, this time around we were moaning together even though I was
louder, Sonke even stopped kissing me and instead he held me tighter, I wrapped my legs on
his buttock as his pace was increasing and I moaned and screamed with my nails scratching his
back, the more he increased his pace the more I screamed and scratched him more

Sonke: I love you Lee

I kept calling his name and moaning in a way I have never ever did, it felt so good that I was on
a different world without my body, I didn’t want this feeling to stop, his body was so smooth on
my skin, he was so gentle with me even though our bodies were rocking against each other and
all sweaty, my body reached that vibrating level as he moaned a bit louder than he collapsed on
top of me all sweaty.

My body felt like I was high on some strong weed, Sonke knew how to work my body and my
body gave him access to do whatever as I could not control what was happening to me

I felt like my mind was lost out of my body then it came back to me, Sonke held me tight and
kissed me while he was breathing heavy, he stopped and looked at me

Sonke: I am sorry, did I hurt you

I smiled at him

Me: I am okay
He then slowly pulled out of me and slept on the side, he pulled me to sleep at the top of his
chest and he wrapped his arms around me, his heart was beating fast

Sonke: Welcome to being a woman

Me: Thank you for being gentle with my body

Sonke: Thank you for trusting me

Me: Thank you for using a condom

He laughed out loud

Me: I was about to ask you for it then you took it out from the drawer

Sonke: What if I didn’t have?

Me: Angazi but I probably wouldn’t have done anything

He laughed out loud and he kissed my forehand, he woke up and walked to the in suit then he
came back within a second and he switched the lights brighter

Sonke: Lee, don’t panic

He looked at me as I was covering my body with the flat sheet

Me: What’s wrong?

With a nervous tone

Sonke: You bleeding

My heart skipped a beat, I woke up from the bed covering myself with the sheet, the sheet on
the bed has blood stains, I looked at him and he looked at me

I felt so embarrassed, he walked up to me and kissed my forehead

Sonke: It was your first time babe, its normal

I nod my head

Sonke: Relax, I will clean this mess up, you can go and take a shower

I tried walking but I was so sore, I even struggled a bit to walk but I had to as I did not want to
look into Sonke’s eyes since I have messed his bed.

I got into the in suite and I removed the flat sheet and I put it in to the laundry basket and I
looked at myself in the mirror

I had red marks all over my neck and tummy, it looked like it was a bug bite but I loved looking
at it, it gave my body a stinging feeling, I put my weave up into a pony and i walked into the
shower, I decided to shower with cold water as I was still feeling a bit hot, I stood under the
water as it ran down on my soft body, I closed my eyes and I ended up smiling to myself and as
I got flash backs of Sonke doing all those things to me, everything came back to me as it was
and my body felt as if I was still in that place, the water felt good on my body but my mind was
not even focusing on what I was supposed to do now, I was distracted with the shower door
opening and it was Sonke

Sonke: I came to check up on you ngoba awusaphumi

Me: I am sorry, I even forgot how long I have been in here for me

Sonke: Can I join?

Me: Sure

Sonke: Ngiyeza manje

He walked to the bedroom then he came back, he undressed while I changed my water to be
warmer, he then came in and stood behind me.

He took my shower gel which I left months ago and it was still sealed as I have never opened it,
he put it into my pink sponge and started rubbing my back then he turned me around rubbed my
chest and shoulder, I looked up and I touched his shaft as it was already up, I played with it
using my hands, he closed his eyes and bit his bottom lip and started saying Mm mm, hearing
him say that turned me on, I kissed him and he kissed me back, my body was already on its
own level, Sonke put me against the wall, he opened the door and came back with a condom as
he opened it and he put in on, he lifted my one leg up and he entered me as I moaned with
pleasure, he lifted me up and put me against the wall and I wrapped my legs around his waist
with my hands around his neck, he started stroking me, and the water was splashing on his
back, every stroke took me to a upper level, his name was the only thing I was moaning and
whispering, he took me off against the wall and turned me around, I pushed my ass out a bit
and he entered my honey pot from behind, I felt all of him the more he stroked me, I screamed
and moaned, his hands were on my clit and one on my boobs and he held me tight towards him
and I was in a world I have never been at, I lost control of my body, the glass was slippery as I
wanted something to hold on tight too, my heart rate was beyond being normal, he was
moaning in my ear and speaking gibberish but to me it didn’t make much difference as I was
doing the same, we both reached a climax and we stood still against the shower glass while the
water ran in to our bodies

He whispered in my ear

Sonke: Thank you for allowing me to turn you in to a woman

While I was still trying to catch my breath

Me: I love you

Sonke: Not as much as I love you

I turned around and we kissed me, we showered together once again and I left him in there, I
dried my body and hair then I went to the bedroom, he had used different bedding on the bed
that were grey and white, he had a box of condoms in the bed and I took the box and left it on
his drawer, I wore my silk nightie I got from woollies and I didn’t use any underwear as I was
sore, I got inside the bed and I waited for him, he walked out after a few minute later with a
towel on his waist and I could just see his waist line that was sexy as ever, he put on his shorts
only and dimmed the lights and came in to bed.

Sonke: Woza la

I moved to him on his chest

Sonke: You okay?

Me: I am a bit sore

Sonke: You will be fine love, give it a day or two

Me: Okay

He kissed my forehead

Sonke: I didn’t believe you when you told me you are a virgin

Me: Really?

Sonke: Yes, I thought you were testing me

I laughed out loud

Me: I was for-real

Sonke: It is my first time to break a girl’s virginity, I hope I didn’t hurt you

Me: It did hurt but I am okay now

Sonke: I love you babe

Me: I love you more

He kissed my lips

I laid on his chest until I drifted to dream land.

I awaken with him playing with me in my v-jay, his hands were magical and I was already wet, I
felt as if I was drugged and high, Sonke kissed me on my shoulders and he turned me to face
him, he played with me while staring at me while I moaned, I struggling with breathing, he
turned me over to put me on my side, he tried entering me as he lifted my leg up

Me: The condom Sonke

Sonke: Hawu Lee

Me: No, condom babe

He let my leg go and he moved to his drawer and he took out the whole pack and inserted one
and he entered my Cookie from behind with my leg up, his shaft was so hard and he was
moving fast this time around and he was moaning and squeezing my thighs, he let go of my leg
then he exited me and put his hands on my waist directing me to get on top, I did.

I spread my legs as I sat on top of his manhood and he entered me while we both moaned,

I tried riding him but it felt as if his dick was going to come out from my throat, he helped me
with moving my waist back and forth and I caught up with the pace, I started rocking him and
grinding on him as he spoke a language I have never heard, all I could hear was my name in
between, my body allowed for him, it followed every inch of him in me,

He pulled me to him and held me tight against him and then started fucking me hard, all I could
do was scream his name until I climax and he climaxed within seconds after me.

Sonke: I cannot get enough of you

Me: I love every bit of you in me

Sonke: I am going to show you things you have never seen before

Me: You have started already

We kissed each other then I pulled him out and we cuddled

The night was short but I kept having dreams that were repeating itself and to me it felt real.

Sonke woke me up with the style….. while I was sleeping on my side entered me then he
started rocking me without even sexing me or getting me wet, I was already wet but he was just
giving me a different love making scene, he rocked me with a fast pace and with every pace
increase I was getting louder and he put his hand on my clit…. and I lost control he took one
hand and he pulled my weave, he was like a beast and he was rocking me so much that I was
slowly getting off balance on the bed and I reached cloud 999999 or more, he collapsed his
head on my neck as he kissed it so hard and I think he left a mark again

Sonke: this pussy is so good,

I giggled

Sonke: It is mines Lee…mine, mines alone Lethu

I tried catching my breath so I could answer him

Sonke: You heard Lee

Me: Yes and it is also vice versa

He laughed then kissed me and went to throw the condom away, he came back and checked
the time and we were late, it was 7.30am

We woke up and we took a quick shower and he wore his black suit with a golfer and Aldo
formal shoes, while I wore my Aca Joe dress with Zara gold sneakers and I grabbed my bags,
He was late for his meeting and I was already late as I missed my first class so I had to rush to
attend the second class.

He dropped me off at campus and drove to work.

I was in a happy mood, I was glowing and I was in my own world

After his meeting he kept calling me and texting me nonstop, I wanted him so badly that I was
daydreaming about me and him doing all those things that we did.

Max and Sean could tell I was not myself but they did not get in to it, all I wanted was to be done
with campus and then get home to my man.

At 3.30pm he picked me up and we drove home, we wanted each other so much that he parked
inside the garage, He closed the garage door then we got out of the car and he put me on the
bonnet, he took my panty out, I stopped him as I got down from the bonnet and unbuckled his
belt then pulled his pants down, I went down on my him and sucked his shaft, he moaned but
the garage had an echo so he tried to keep it down so Mamiki will not hear anything as her
room was next door, I gave him a deep throat like my friends advised me to do, he grabbed my
weave and he started directing me with his hands until he lifted me up and put me back on top
of the bonnet, he rubbed his shaft on my V-jay that I moaned as the feeling was too good, he
spread my legs and he put the condom on and entered me, he stroked me for a few minute and
I climaxed, he climaxed after a few seconds after me, we kissed and I planted a love bite on his
neck, I took my panty with and I open the garage door and walked to the main house as he
drove back to the office

I took a shower and prepared a meal then I stayed in bed trying to avoid Mamiki

I was more in love with Sonke then I was prior, all I could do was think about him, about us, the
love making, the sex, the fucking and him spoiling me, I loved him even more than he did with
me.

I stayed over for about two weeks at his place even though I did go to the office after campus, I
told Noxy the truth as Sonke could not stop leaving love bites on me and I also had to be honest
to my sister
She was shocked at first but she saw how crazy I was about Sonke.

Sonke picked me up from the Kay’s office as he did not want me to drive my car, we spent time
together all the time and if we were not together he would call me and text me nonstop.

I was becoming addicted to him and he was addicted to me, I made sure we use condoms
every night, every morning, I was scared of falling pregnant and I was still learning to trust him.

Months went pass, we had a crazy bond and everyone knew Sonke and I are an item as he
started uploading pictures of me on his WhatsApp and I did the same but made sure I blocked
Bantu every time I did that.

I just took a shower after a hot Friday afternoon after campus, I decided to wear my shorts and
vest with flops and I had lunch downstairs and after that I went to relax in the garden and I read
(Hlomu The wife book) I got lost in it for hours then I went back in to the house.

I walked into the lounge and two boys were sitting on the lounge watching Television.

Me: Hi

The both turned and looked at me and did not say anything to me, they looked at each other
and then they looked at me, I heard Sonke’s footsteps as he was coming from our bedroom

I looked behind me and Sonke was walking down

Sonke: Babe, kade ukuphi?

Me: In the garden, I was catching up on my book

Sonke: I was worried there for a second

I smiled at him as he walked towards me

Sonke: Met my empire

Me: Lwandle and Lwando?

Sonke: Yes

I looked at him

Sonke: They will love you

I walked to the lounge as they ignored my presence, they starred right to the television

Me: So who is Lwandle?

One twin looked at me and smiled showing off his dimple just like Sonke’s

Me: You are Lwandle?

He smiled and nod his head

Me: And what his name? Pointing at the other twin?

Lwandle: Lwando

He turned and looked at me

Me: Sawubona

Lwando: Hi, who are you?

I turned and I looked at Sonke as he walked towards us

Sonke: She is my surprise

Lwandle: Muhle

I blushed

Lwando walked up to me and hugged me, I looked at Sonke as I hugged him back

Lwandle woke up and kissed my cheek

Lwandle: Are you going to play games with us

Me: Which game

Lwando: I will teach you, let go

He took my hand as he led me in to his bedroom upstairs, he switched the Television on and
handed me a game and he showed me how to play it but I lost within minutes

Me: I am not good with this

Lwando: Don’t worry, you will learn

Sonke and Lwandle walked in with ice cream, Lwandle gave me one and Sonke gave Lwando
one.

We had the ice cream while they told me about crèche and their grandmother and how much
fun they have with her, Sonke played the games with them while I made supper.

I decided to roast chicken with a potato mash and gravy with a salad, we had it with mango
juice, as soon as we were done I offered to bath them and they didn’t mind.

Sonke dressed them up in their PJ, we had biscuits with milk then I read a story book for them
and they were knocked out before I could even finish.

I went downstairs while Sonke took a shower and I decided to call goodies
Me: He G

Goodies: You got a lot to tell me

Me: I do

Goodies: Are things good though

Me: They are too great, I met the twins today

Goodies: No ways

Me: Yep

Goodies: welcome to motherhood

Me: I am the youngest in the squad yet I am the first to become a mom

Goodies: Indlela sizoyibuza kuwena

Me: I will enjoy it while I am at it

Goodies: Uyiletha nini inkomo kamawakho kini

Me: G

Goodies: What? He has to pay for your virginity

Me: That is not for you to decide

Goodies: I will give Bantu a call

Me: No G, I am going to kill Noxy

Goodies: You are losing focus though, you didn’t even join us last week for our meeting

Me; we had a meeting last week?

Goodies: Yea, don’t you read your text?

Me: I hardly have time and max didn’t remind me

Goodies: Maybe you should ask Sonke to be your timer

we laughed

Me: We will talk soon boo

Goodies: Bye lovey

Sonke walked in and we cuddled on the couch then we went to sleep.

The next day we took the boys to the zoo then we went to Ushaka, had supper then went home.

On Sunday we went to church which was for the first time together, I wanted the twin to love
church and know that on Sundays it is church and Sonke was happy with that idea, after church
we had lunch then Sonke took me to small Ville to visit my family and he asked me to drive back
with my car as he went to drop the boys off at his mom’s place.

Home was all quiet and no one was there. I drove to Inanda to visit my friend Cindy and around
4pm I drove to sunning dale as Sonke was there already, we cooked supper together and we
crashed early as the next day was Monday and we had to plan the boy’s birthday party as that
was the only thing they bragged about the whole weekend.

Chapter 12

Me: Happy birthday Lwando and Lwandle

I walked in with two big gifts into their bedroom and they ran towards me and hugged me

L&L: Mama

I stood with so much shock, they called me mama, Sonke came in and he kissed my cheek

Sonke: Good morning mama… Good morning Big boys

they hugged their dad and they pulled the gift from me and ripped the cover apart and they both
screamed, I got them scooters so they can play with in the garden when they visit, Sonke kissed
my cheek

Sonke: Thank you for being a great mom

I ignored him as I spoke to the twins

Me: boys wake up, we have a birthday to attend

Lwando: who's birthday Mama?

I smiled

Me: Someone special to us

I took out their costume made outfit and they both ran to the bath tub, I looked at Sonke

Sonke: You are changing my boys

Me: Well they look like my other half, how can I not change them to love me like I did with you?

He held me on my waist

Sonke: Ave ngizokumuthisa wena uyezwa

I laughed giving his the innocent look with seductive eyes

Me: Please bath the kids while I make sure the deco is set, the guest will arrive before we know
it.

I went to the venue and checked and everything was on point, I hired Lolo’s event to do the
decoration and entertainment with food, all I had to do was dress like a mom and look pretty
since the members of his family were going to bring their kids to the party.

As soon as I walked back into the house and walked to the kitchen a lady was loudly talking to
Sonke

Mrs. Shange: I wanted them to have their 3rd birthday party at my place, what made you
change your mind as we agreed on it Sonke

I walked in and greeted her, she stared at me and then she walked towards me

Mrs. Shange: So this is the beautiful lady the boys always talk about, you are indeed beautiful

Mrs. Shange: I am Sonke’s mom and you must me mama lee,

Me: Sawubona ma

Mrs. Shange: Uyakhuluma?

I smiled

Me: Yebo Ma, Ngiwu MaKhumalo

with a big smile on my face and she looked at me & smiled

Mrs. Shange: Ukhethile mthanami, kuzophuma amakhaladi la,

I giggled

Me: Eh Ma kunzima, Usonke uwuphorishi phela

We all cracked with laughter

Sonke: Lee, ngicela singaxabani ngoba uma usazohamba

Mrs. Shange: Thank you for organizing their party and bringing such joy in their lives, they are
so happy with your around

I looked at her

Me: I love them

Those words that came out of my mouth shocked me but deep down in my heart it was true, I
really did love them as my own.

She gave me a long hug and kissed my cheek,

Mrs. Shange: Welcome ka Shange mntanami.

Me: Ngiyabonga Ma

The guest started arriving and to be honest it was going to be my first time to meet the Shange
family and most of his friends, the parents were sitting alone and we served them drinks and
braai meat and the kids had burgers with drinks, everyone sang for the boys and they had so
many gift, while everyone was mingling in the garden I walked to our bedroom to change as I
had an apron on the whole day thanks to Sonke’s mom, I heard voices coming from the other
room and I went towards it and it was Sonke and some female who I saw earlier on at the party
with a boy child.

Me: Hi

they both turned to look at me, Sonke looked annoyed and she gave me a fuck you look

Me: I am sorry to disturb you, Sonke can I talk to you for a Minute?

Female: OH the wife to be is here

Me: Sorry?

She just dashed me over and walked pass me, I got to shocked at what just happened that I
gave Sonke a stare

Me: What is wrong with her?

He stared at me

Me: Why you in this room with her? No one is ever allowed in here but she came in here?

He took my hand and pulled me out of the room, he closed the door, locked it and he walked
away leaving me standing there alone

Me: Sonke what is going on?

Sonke: non-of your business

He ran downstairs and I went inside our bedroom, locked the door and I stayed there for about
an hour, I got a SMS from goodies

Goodies {we are outside the gate}

I quickly put on my knee length dress and ran down stairs, I passed Sonke chilling with his boys
in the lounge and they all turned and stared at me which pissed him off, I opened the gate for
goodies and Noxy and they walked in with 4 gift bags, they left the car parked next to our
neighbors fence as there were so many cars parked on the road, you could swear it an adults
party, they came inside the house and we sat at the kitchen counter, I dished the left overs for
them as they were late and they wasted no time in eating

Sonke came and greeted the girls and he called me aside

Sonke: Please change the dress

Me: Why?

Sonke: The black lace on the back of the dress is revealing the bra straps and it is too short

Me: No

Sonke: What?

Me: I won’t

Sonke: Lee

Me: Who doesn’t know bra straps here?

He gave me a fucked up look and I gave him the same look back and went back to Noxy and G.

We drank wine and we cached up about our lives, Sonke’s mom walked in while we were
talking

Mrs. Shange: Haibo ngane kamatho, unjani?

Goodies went over and hugged Mrs. Shange

Goodies: Unjani ma?

Mrs. Shange: I am fine my baby, wena uyaphila?

Goodies Yebo ma

Mrs. Shange: haibo MaKhumalo usis wakho yini uGoodies nalosis ahamba naye? Masenifana
nonke nje

I smiled and introduced my sister Noxolo and they shook hands

Goodies: they are my close friends from high school, they used to visit me Enanda

Sonke: That is how I knew Lethokuhle Ma

Goodies: Don’t remind me Sonke

Sonke: I knew uyeyena lo ozogcina ewumakoti wakwakho Ma

Everyone Laughed

Mrs. Shange: Ukufanele Futhi Ngane yami

We all laughed and Goodies cached up with Sonke’s mom as they are neighbors Enanda.

Sonke’s mom said she was leaving and Sonke’s sisters said bye to me and they all left, only his
friends were there now and they were slowly getting drunk.

The lady I saw upstairs walked towards me as she was leaving and said this is not over, imina
ingoduso kasonke and uzongishada

Me: Who are you?

Lady: They call me Noma

Noxy: Siyabonga sisi, usngahamba

Noma: Wena ungubani kombe?

Goodies: Wait here, I will show you who she is

Goodies went to the kitchen drawer and Noxy ran after her

I gave her the awe look as I was shocked at her statement.

This Noma lady looked like she was in her mid-30, Tall thin and almost as fair as me.

I smile and she clicked her tongue and left with her son, Goodies came to me clicking her
tongue

Goodies: This Bitch is losing it

Me: You know here

Goodies: Yes, when she and Sonke were still dating, she used to visit kubo Enanda

Sonke walked up to us and put his hand on my shoulder

Sonke: You okay

Me: Yea

I walked away and started cleaning the kitchen.

Everyone then packed up and left, my mood was no longer the same, Sonke helped me clean
the house, we ordered pizza for supper and after that we packed the boys gifts and finally the
boys fell asleep after bathing.

It was now me and Sonke with the walls of this house, I am pissed off at the fact that he invited
his Ex in to his house and let her speak to me anyhow, He was tipsy and he seemed to be
pissed as well but nothing could top mine.

I went to our bedroom and I took a shower and then switched the light off as I snuggled up in
bed, after a long wait he entered our b bedroom and stood for over 5 minute at the door and I
pretended as if I cannot feel him standing at the door, I was facing the opposite side so he could
not see my face, he walked into the room and took his clothes off and entered the bed with
boxes only, he turned to look at me and I looked at him, I turned and looked on the other side of
the bed.

Sonke: Is this how you speak to me Lethokuhle?

I ignored him

Sonke: When I tell you to do something you must listen and not give me that attitude

I ignored him

Sonke: Lethokuhle ngikhuluma nawe

I woke up and I switched my side lamp on and I turned to look at him

Me: Why was she here?

Sonke: Is that the only thing you are thinking about?

Me: I asked you a question Sonke, what was Noma doing here?

Sonke: Her son is friends with my boys

Me: Why didn’t she drop the child off?

Sonke: You are asking the wrong person

Me: Benifunani ekamareni nobabili?

Sonke: Business

Me: What business?

Sonke: I am not going to answer myself to you when you cannot even respect me

Me: You the one that’s disrespected me

He laid on his side of the bed, covered his face with the duvet

I was more pissed than anything, I switched the lamp off and laid in bed, he didn’t even touch
me and his breath was stinking of alcohol

I had the bad dream similar to the one I had the first time I spent the night in his house, I woke
up all sweaty and when I reached for him he was not in bed

Me: Why am I dreaming of this snake again?

I was scared, I switched the lights on and the air cone on and covered myself with the duvet
over me and eventually I fell asleep

I woke up at 10 in that morning and I took a shower, wore my denim shorts, white cotton plain
shirt and wore my white all-star, I went downstairs and no one was around, I looked for the twins
and they were not here, I called Sonke to find out where he was and he told me he is at his
mom's place to drop off the twin

I got so mad as to why he didn’t wake me up to say my goodbye to the boys

He told me he was rushing, I told him fine and he said he will see me later and we ended the
call.

WTF just happened to Sonke and me? He is being so damn strange.

I What-sapped Zeeno to tell her what happened and she was mad as I was, I decided to drive
out for breakfast but I realized he took my car since his cars were blocked by my car, I decided
to drive his golf 7 and hey, icala ngizolithetha selenzekele plus I will be back within an hour, I
went to Mug & bean and had a blazing breakfast with a rooibos tea on my own, I took a picture
and uploaded it on Instagram and my WhatsApp. I decided to go do my hair and nails and by
2pm I was done and I went to Sonke’s place.

He was there as my car was parked outside.

I walked in while he was on the phone screaming and using the f**** b**** words

Sonke: Bitch you better come and take this crap out of my house before I fucking loose it,
siyezwana?

I closed the door and he turned to see who it was, he realized it was me he ended the call

Sonke: And you? Where the hell were you and who said you can use my car?

I looked at him and ignored that question

Sonke: Uthuleleni ngikhuluma nawe *Screaming*

Me: I think I should go home today

Sonke: Ngoba?

Me: Because I don’t feel welcome here

Sonke: Oh okay, which nigger where you with?

Me: Man?

Sonke: You smell like a man and you are using shorts, AGAIN? what the fuck did I tell you
about using short clothes, he came towards me and I walked backwards

ME: It’s not that short

Sonke: Don’t piss me off

Me: Sonke kwenzenjani?

Sonke: Awungihloniphi Lee, uqoka kanje manje wena?

Me: Baby it was hot today and I was alone eating breakfast

Sonke: Uhlulwa yini ukudla la endlini?

Me: I was bored

Sonke: Ubereka emadodeni?

He slapped me across my face and I fell towards the port plant at the door, he shut it closed
with his foot and he took out his belt out,

Me: Sonke please

He ignored me as he hit me with his belt, I pleaded for him to stop but he didn’t, I cried until I
couldn’t cry anymore, he grabbed me with my left arm and took me to the main bathroom, he
opened the taps on the bath tub running the water

Sonke: Khumula

I took off my clothes

Sonke: Get in

I got inside the tub and he gave me a bathing sponge

Sonke: wash yourself until you clean cause you’re dirty and you stink of the man you were with.
I sat on that cold water for hours crying and my body was freezing

Me: What the hell just happened to Sonke? What was going on between us? Why is he being
like this again? Why is he loving me wrong? What did I do? Maybe I was supposed to stay at
home and not go out.

I was in so much pain and all I wanted was my mom, I needed my dad, I wanted Noxy to hug
Me and tell me everything will be okay? Tears were like a waterfall on my eyes, my mouth was
dry.

I woke up, grabbed a towel and dried myself.

I walked upstairs to our bedroom and he way lying on couch, I stopped at the door then I walked
in to the in suite and drank panado’s then I walked back to the bedroom, I dropped the towel
and I put on my bikini panty with a bra, I wore sweat pants with a vest and a pull over.

Sonke was quiet and he didn’t even bother to look at me I looked for my phone and my bag but I
realized it was downstairs, I walked there and I took it then I walked back to our room as I could
not find my car keys and he had it last, I was crying in and I kept sniffing my nose.

Me: Have you seen my card key?

Sonke: Ufuna ukuyaphi?

Me: Home

Sonke: kanti ukuphi?

Me: Emzini kasonke

He lifted his upper body and sat up straight

Sonke: I see

Me: Keys Please

Sonke: Okay angiwazi, it probably fell when I was disciplining you

Me: Disciplining me

Sonke: Yes

I flaunted a side smile being sarcastic, I sat down on top of the bed and requested for a Uber
but I got a notification that there was no Uber available in the area so I should try again after 30
minute.

I called Noxy

Me: Hey Sisi

Noxy: Lee unjani?

Me: I am okay, where are you?

Noxy: I am in Pinetown for the weekend

Me: Okay, I thought you were around

Noxy: Emergency?

Me: No, I can handle it, chat later

Noxy: Okay bye

I hung up as fast as I could as I did not want her to hear that I am not okay.

Sonke: Lethokuhle

I ignored him and I called Zeeno

Me: Hey Zeeno

Zeeno: Darling unjani?

Me: I am good

Zeeno: Sorry I couldn’t make it for your step kid’s party, I am not in Durban

Me: Oh where are you?

Zeeno: I am in PMB

Me: No boo its fine, I was calling to tell you things went well

Zeeno: We have a lot to catch up on

Me: True, I will call you later on, I realized I have to do something

Zeeno: No problem

I hung up

I sat there thinking who to call as I wanted to be out of this house, I starring at the watch, it was
almost 5.30pm.

Sonke woke up and walked downstairs, I ignored him as seeing his face pissed me off, I heard
the main door locking and I ran down stairs, he locked me inside his house, walked to open
the sliding door but it was also locked, I look the glass that was on the kitchen counter and I
aimed it for the door, it hit the door and fell on the floor and shattered in pieces, I was so mad at
Sonke for doing this to me, I heard the sliding gate open and I knew he is going out.

I sat on the couch and I started crying like a crazy woman, I just knew he will come back late
and drunk probably, I tried calling him but he cancelled my calls, I walked to his kitchen and I
took out a Moet from his wine board and started drinking, I put on channel o and started
watching music videos and I uploaded a status on FB
“Sometimes you give them your all and all they do is return a plate full of kak”

Within 20 minute it has 55 likes and there were 5 comments

*Zeeno – What’s wrong boo?

*Max - Yenzeni leyonja?

*Sonke - Inja? @ Max

*Max -

*Sonke - True and the worst part is ‘it kills you when they mean the world to you and they try to
kill you alive’

I got red instantly and went to his wall to send him a message and to my surprise he was tagged
at Lacoste lounge at Kwamashu by Nomza Noma, I went to her wall and it was the ex-fiancé
and she also put a picture of herself with Sonke talking to Sithembiso on the background and
the status was ‘nothing can keep us apart’

My heart sank and my heart beating rate increased, I tried calling him but the phone rang twice
and then to voice mail

I sent him a text

Me {this is how you do me?}

I sat for a few minute waiting for a response but nothing

I tried calling him and this time around the phone was off.

I went upstairs and my mind was slowly disconnecting with my body, I took his clothes and
sneakers and put them on the bath tub, I went to the laundry room looking for patrol but I found
spirit, I took the spirit went back to our bathroom and I poured it in to his clothes, I walked to the
kitchen looking looked for a lighter but I found a match box on the drawer, I walked back to the
bedroom in suite and I lit the clothes on fire, I cried as his clothes hit the fire as I was so mad,
the fire was too strong and by God’s grace the sprinklers did not go off.

I sat on the toilet seat drinking his Moet and the fire then started to die off and the tub was black,
I opened the tap and all the ash was stuck on the drainer, I closed the taps and I went
downstairs and I sat on the couch and I went on WhatsApp put up a DP with a quoted line

*Life is a bitch like your side nigga* I put a smiley face as a status and I logged out.

I sat on the couch drinking until I passed out.

Chapter 13

I woke up to cold grabbing my painful body, I turned around and it was Sonke, his eyes were
red and his face looked like he was going to kill me, he was just pulling me with my clothes and I
tried getting his hands off me

Sonke: side nigga Lethu?

My mind was puzzled

Me: Leave me the fuck alone

He lifted my upper body up from the couch and sat me up

Sonke: Ungijwayela kabi wena

He slapped me so hard that I came back to reality, Sonke was hitting me and this time around
he was using his hands

Me: No sonke ngiyakucela

Sonke: Am I you side nigga?

Me: No baby, Please you are hurting

He slapped me again

Me: baby you not

I put my hands on my face trying to cover my cheeks

He hit me again and this time around it was harder

Me: that is just a picture nje baby, it has nothing to do with you and I, uyistraight sami Sonke

He stopped and he smiled

Sonke: I will show you what is a side nigga

He pulled my pants off with my panty, I fought pulling my pants back up but he pushed me and I
fell into the couch then to the floor, he pulled my pants out

Me: Sonke Please don’t do this

I pushed him with my legs but he was too strong, we struggled until I fell off the floor again,

He stretched my legs apart, he pulled his boxers down

Me: Sonke stop it, I don’t want to sleep with you, Baby please
Sonke: You think you can use me and the call me a side nigger? fuck that shit, I will fuck you
until you tell me I am your straight nigger

Me: Sonke you are my straight nigger

His arms were over me and he was too strong for me

Me: Sonke at least use a condom please

He put his hands on throat so I couldn’t breathe, I kicked his balls and he screamed with pain,
he let go of my neck and I bit his hand and he started screaming again

Sonke: You bitch, he moved away as his hand was paining and woke up from the floor, I woke
up from the floor thinking where do I run to but all of a sudden he turned into a snake and it
crawled towards the stairs then I started screaming

I woke with my legs spread wide apart but my sweat pants were still on, I was wet from
sweating and I was coughing as if something was stuck on my throat.

I was dreaming

My heart started racing as I heard the door unlock and he walked in drunk

He was using different clothes from the dream I just had

He looked at me and smiled at me, he walked closer to me and he brushed my face and then
kissed my forehand

Sonke: I love you but you….You *Screaming* Ungithathisa kwesinayi

I just stared at him

Sonke: You…You…..Yes you don’t deserve me

He walked past me and he sat on the stair case and drank the beer he had on his hand

He looked at me

Sonke: why? Why do I love you?

I stared at him

Sonke: Why do you love me Lethokuhle?

I walked to the kitchen and I drank water then I went back into looked at him

Sonke: Why can’t you love me like Noma? I walked up to him and slapped him, he put his hand
over his cheek as he stared at me, I ran past him to upstairs and I locked the bedroom door as
soon as I entered and I got into bed
I was so cold and I was hurt and I was still in pain from the belt whooping, I woke up and I went
over to the bathroom and took painkillers and I set on the bed so angry and crying and my
womb hurting so much as if I was going to get my periods, I kept thinking about that horrible
dream I had

Me: Maybe I should not drink expensive alcohol, it does not go to well with my body.

I finally drifted to dreamland.

I woke up with bangs on the door

Sonke: open this fucking door now

I ignored him

Sonke: Lethokuhle

Me: I am still sleeping

Sonke: This is my house, open this door before I break it down

I walked to the door and I opened it, I stood at the door entranced as he dashed me over
walking in to the bedroom, he walked in and this time around he was sober but looked pissed
and he smelled like a tavern, he looked around the bedroom and it was a mess

Sonke: What happened here?

I ignored him

He sniffed his nose

Sonke: Were you smoking here?

I looked at him with an attitude

Sonke: I am talking to you demit

Me: Noma happened

He looked at me with such shock

Sonke: Wenzeni unoma ?

Me: Look around this room, it is all her cause and your unfaithfulness

He came closer to me

Sonke: What did you do?

He opened his robe

Sonke: what did you do to my shoes and clothes?

I stared at him without uttering a word

He walked to the in suite and he came back

Sonke: Lee *Screaming*

Sonke: Usuyahlanya? You burnt my clothes? What if this house cached fire? What is wrong
with you?

Me: You are what is wrong with me

Sonke: Kodwa Lethu

Me: Why did you hit me and lock me into this house? I hate you and I want to go home, you are
bitch ass Muthafucker that I wish I never met

Sonke: Uzongihlanyisa

Me: Fuck you

He grabbed my weave and pulled me towards him then he let me go

He took a deep breath in

Sonke: I am not going to do this with you

Me: You already have

Sonke: Let’s not do this today

Me: So it’s okay for you to do what you did

He snapped

Sonke: What the fuck did you expect me to do? I tried calling you 15 times yesterday and you
were nowhere to be found, I even drove to small Ville and your maid said you never showed up
there, I got here at 12pm and you only came back at 4pm looking fly as ever

Me: Still it give you no right to hit me

My voice got crackly as I was breaking down and crying

Sonke: Ubukuphi Lethokuhle

Me: I told you last night, I went to have breakfast then I went to the salon Sonke, why don’t you
believe me

Sonke: Why was your phone off

Me: It was not

He walked down stairs leaving me to cry on my own

I took out my travel bag I started packing my clothes, I wanted to be out of there before we have
a second round of fighting and this time around he might kill me

He walked back upstairs and he stood at the door entrance

Sonke: Don’t do something you will regret

Me: I won’t regret this decision, you beat me up, cheat on me and then expect me to stay in this
house when I am not even married to you, bullshit

He was silence

Me: Go to your whore, she will probably love to have you back and right now you stink of her

He just stood there like a brick wall and watched me pack, when I was done I took my phone
and I walked past him and went down stairs, He stood on top of the stair case looking at me

Sonke: Don’t do this

Me: You gave me no choice

Sonke: You not leaving here

Me: My car keys Sonke

He starred at me with those sexy puppy eyes

Me: My car key *Screaming*

I walked inside the lounge then the kitchen but it was not there so I knew he had them on his
pocket, I waked upstairs as he sat at the edge of the bed with his hands covering his head

Me: I want my fuckin car keys Sonke

He Ignored me

Me: Please

I walked towards him, he let go of his head and looked at me from toe up to my eyes without
uttering a word. He woke up and he put his hands on my arms and he pushed me back words
until I hit the wall, he didn’t even give me a chance to say anything he kissed me as he ran his
hands on my butt, I pushed him out of my way but he was too strong for me, he held me so tight
against him still kissing me

Me: No Sonke, leave me alone

He didn’t stop, he continued with his hands all over my body, I loved the kisses but I was still
mad at him for going out with his ex and belting me

I couldn’t help but not want him, He stopped kissing my neck and looked at me as my body was
now reacting to his request, he took his sweater off as I stood against the wall then he came
towards me again and plated a wet sex kiss on my lips and I followed his lead, he kissed me so
good that I got wet instantly, he pulled my pants down as I felt his magical hands on me, he
moved and whispered in my ear

Sonke: Do you want me to stop?

I shook my head

He went down on me while I placed my hands on his head, he separated my legs apart but they
couldn’t get that far apart as my sweat pants were stuck on my ankle, he tongue fucked me too
well that I was moaning to myself, trying to keep my body focused and in control.

He moved his hands down my sneakers, opening them up and took the pants completely out,
he got up and he rubbed his shaft on me that I screamed even more then he stopped and
walked over to his drawer to put the condom on, he then walked back to me and played around
with his shaft on my cookie he even made a few sounds, he picked both my legs up and I
wrapped it around his waist, he entered me and I moaned louder, my body rested against the
wall and he stroked in and out of me, my hands were all o his shoulder and I was squeezing
him, his pace was faster than normal, my noise level increased, his moaning increased, he was
slowly turning in to a beast but my body felt like it is exploding

Sonke: Why didn’t you wait for me?

I giggles

He let me go and I turned around for him to enter my cookie from behind, he pulled my weave
as he entered me and I moaned as he did that, he pumped me until my body was reaching
another climax, he held on tight to me like a pillow, he was moaning right in my ear as I
whispered his name, we were about explode and that what happened, we both climaxed
together as I held on to that wall, we were all sweaty and breathing heavy and tired, he pulled
out and I turned around to face him, he helped me take off my sweater and my vest and he
kissed me on my neck and breast

Sonke: You still want to leave me?

I looked away from his eyes

He put his hands against the wall and my face was in-between his arms facing him

Sonke: Please don’t leave me

I looked at him as I was catching my breath and his lips were so damn sexy

Sonke: I love you too much to lose you

I looked at him

He pushed his body against mines so tight that I struggled moving and breathing

Sonke: Lee you mine now and I will never let you leave me, just get that out of your head

He planted a baby kiss on my lips then he gave me a stinging kiss on my neck then stepped
away from me, he picked our clothes on the floor and walked to the in suit.

I stood there like someone just stole a candy from me

I followed him to the in suit and we showered together then he left me in the shower as he was
done, I showered and I dried my body an my weave, I walked in to the bedroom with the towel
on my body and he was sitting on top of the bed that he already made, the room was a bit
neater than what it was last night

I looked at him as he looked at me, I felt like shit as I burnt most of his clothes and he was
probably pissed off.

I opened my robe and I applied lotion into my sore body then I wore my underwear and bra then
I put on jeans with a lace long sleeve as I had red marks on my shoulders and thighs.

I looked at myself in the mirror as I applied my make-up, he starred at me from the bed as there
was silence in the room, he woke up from the bed and stood behind me with a towel on his
waist, he put his hands on my waist and pulled me towards hima as he walked backwards to the
bed, he sat down and I sat me on his lap, I struggled looking at him but he forced me too

Sonke: Baby ngyaxolisa, There is no excuse for what I did, you took my car… You looked fine
on those selfies you took….. I freaked out love…. The thought of you with some guy pissed the
hell out of me. Lethu you are my world and angifuni lutho ngawe.

He was quit for a while I stared at him

He was the one that could not look at me this time around but he forced himself to look at me

Sonke: I know you mad and you have every right to be, I had no right to belt you the way I did, I
had no right to go out with my friends when my ex-girlfriend was there, that was stupid of me.

Lethokuhle I have never loved any woman the way I love you and I know I am a jerk sometimes
but baby I love you
We had a locked look for a moment

Sonke: Please forgive me

I Looked at him

Me: You promised you won’t hit me again

Sonke: It was a mistake Sithandwa sami, I lost control

Me: What if you lose control again

Sonke: It won’t again, trust me

We looked at each other then we kissed a passionate kiss, I put my hands on his shoulder as
he put his hands on my waist, I sat up facing him with both my legs spread apart in between his
thighs.

Mamiki walked in singing a gospel song, Sonke and I stopped kissing and I woke up as fast as I
could

Mamiki: Uxolo, I thought senihambile

Sonke: Kanti isikhathisini ma?

Mamiki: Kuyoshaya o10am manje

Sonke woke up from the bed

Sonke: Demit I have missed my meeting

Mamiki: Hayi ngizobuya la mase nihambile

she walked out of the bedroom as Sonke put his phone on the charger and he called his PA
asking her to reschedule all her meetings for Wednesday and got ready for work, I sat on top of
the bed. He stopped and looked at me

Sonke: Are you not going to campus?

Me: I missed 3 classes already

Sonke: It’s my fault

Me: It’s fine

I was quiet for a while

Me: I want it to be home for a while and catch up with my sister

He looked a bit sad as I said that

Sonke: Uzobuya nini?

Me: Not sure

Sonke: Uzobuya?

Me: I don’t live here Sonke, I just come to visit

Sonke: Will you visit again?

Me: Yes

Sonke: Ngicela uhambe kusasa, Your body is still bruised and I don’t want your sister to think I
am abusing you

We looked at each other in silence

Me: Okay

We went downstairs and we had breakfast that Mamiki had already prepared, once we were
done Sonke walked to out to amici’s building and came back and took his lap top bag and his
lunch that I prepared for him

Sonke: I am leaving, I will be back in a few hours

Me: Okay

Sonke: Please study

Me: I will

As soon as he left Mamiki came to me

Mamiki: You seem down today

Me:I am okay

Mamiki: Okay, I need to sort out your bathroom, Sonke told me there was an accident

I laughed out loud

Me: Yes, let me help you clean Ma

Mamiki; No my baby, Sonke said I must make sure you are studying and not reading your taxi
driver books

I laughed out loud

Me: He is so crazy

Mamiki: Please share when you are done with the book, I love reading

Me: You can read it since I will be busy with my studying

Mamiki: Thank you lovey

She left me in the kitchen to the bedroom, I spent most of my time studying in Sonke’s study,
Mamiki made lunch that we had lunch at the garden then I helping her with a few house chores.

She told me Sonke’s ex-fiancé killed Sonke baby mama via witch craft and that I must also be
careful, she told me I must protect myself by wearing a string that is prayed for by a prophet or
pastor, I told her about my dreams and she told me I must tell Sonke about them since he
knows more about traditional staff but his late baby mama used to always dream of snakes as
well.

I was a bit disturbed at what she told me as I have never been exposed to such things in my life,
I come from a praying family and since I have been with Sonke I have forgotten to pray, I have
skipped church so many times.

Mamiki cooked chicken and ham pasta then she left to go sleep.

I sat on the lounge catching up on some series when Sonke walked it after 7pm, he had a
bouquet of roses with him, and he walked in left his bag on the couch and gave me the roses as
he kissed my forehead.

Me: Thank you

Sonke: I am sorry for last night baby

Me: It’s fine baby

Sonke: I will never hurt you again

I smiled at him, he kissed my cheek then he went upstairs and showered then he came back
smelling fresh.

Me: Come sit down, the food is ready

He walked on the dining table and we started eating

Me: How was your day?

Sonke: Very short, I had back to back meetings, did you study?

Me: Yes I did and Mamiki looked after me with the food
Sonke: She is amazing neh?

Me: Yes, I like her a lot

Sonke: I think she likes you too

we ate and he offered to wash the dishes while I went to bed.

I changed in to my shorty PJ’s and a vest with sox on.

Sonke walked in while I moved the pillow to the couch and helped me, he dimmed the lights and
we got in to bed, I slept on his chest while he rubbed his hands on my body

Sonke: I love you Lethokuhle

Me: I love you too Sonke

Sonke: I am going to miss not having you here

Me: I will still come and visit Sonke

Sonke: But I want you here full time

Me: It is against our culture nje Sonke

Sonke: But baby I need you here

Me: I will still visit nje

Sonke: Please don’t leave

Me: Okay

I said that just to shut him up as he was nagging me

Sonke: So tomorrow?

I laughed out loud

Me: I miss Noxolo and I have to help out with the office work, I need to make payment kusasa
futhi

He took a deep breath

Sonke: Okay

Sonke fell asleep before me as I could hear his breathing, I left his chest and laid my head on
the pillow, my body was feeling numb so I woke up and I took pain killers then went back to bed.

I fell asleep after 15 minute.

I woke up to Deborah Frasier playing loud in the house, The sun was already out as the curtains
were drawn, I reached out for Sonke but he was not in bed, I woke up and I found a trey with
breakfast on my bed, the mango juice looked so good that I took a sip of it.

I sat up straight and I looked for the time, it was 7.45 which meant Sonke left about 45 minute
ago, I took the tray and placed it on my lap and opened the plate cover and the food looked
Devine, It has two well done eggs, four slightly grilled beacon with two sliced toast and two pork
sausages and grilled tomatoes, I took the fork and knife and I started eating.

My phone buzzed while I was eating, I reached for the phone and it was Sonke sending me a
WhatsApp Text

Sonke – How is my baby doing

Me – Thank you for the breakfast

Sonke’s DP changed to a written quote

Sonke – Are you done eating?

Me – I just started

Sonke – Let me know when you done babe

Me - Okay love

I continued with my breakfast and I tasted so damn good, I finished my meal and drank my
juice, I was so damn full that I put the trey on the side table, I laid my head on the bed and
decided to send a message to Sonke as promised

Me – Thank you for the breakfast baby, it was out of this world

Sonke - It was made with love

Me - I loved it

Sonke – Mwa

Me – Chat later

Sonke – Why?

Me – The meal got me too full, I am just going to take an hour nap

Sonke – Vila Voco

Me – It’s your fault cause you spoiled me

Sonke – Cha, ubuvele uyivila nje

Me – Whatever
Sonke – I still love you

Me – I love you too

Sonke – He sent me a kissing face

I logged out and laid in bed, I needed to pee so I woke up and ran to the in suit but there was
rose petals on the floor leading me to the in suit, I walked slowly and pushed the door opened

He had candles around the bath tub with water on the tub with roses inside, he had a bubble
bath soap on the side which is for me to put on my water.

I did what I came for and flushed the toilet than I walked to the bedroom to get my phone but
writing on mirror distracted me, I stopped and it wrote

‘Please say YES you will marry me’

My heart skipped a beat as I stopped, I followed the arrow written in the mirror with my lip stick, I
found a small box with a red ribbon on it, I took it and opened it and it had the most gorgeous
ring on it.

It had a small diamond on top and the rest was silver, I got emotional and started crying, I
looked around the bathroom and roses were everywhere, the scented candles were on and the
bath towels were red and the robe to use was also red, I struggled to breath, I walked out of the
bathroom and took my phone

I didn’t know what to do, I tried the ring on my finger and it fit so perfectly like he knew my ring
size

I went to the bathroom with my lip stick and I wrote at the bottom of the arrow

Yes

I ran hot water on the tub and added the bubble bath so there will be foam, the foam looked
amazing with the roses Patel on it, I took my clothes off and I got inside, I took my phone and
took a photo of my ring in the finger revealing my thigh between the foam and roses Patel, the
photo was sexy as fuck.

I uploaded the picture on WhatsApp and I changed my status to

“And I said YES” I love you sonke

I called Sonke but he did not answer, I went to his WhatsApp and I sent him a text

Me - Yes baby, I will marry you

I sent all the pictures to my squad group and logged out.

I laid my head on the tub and I cried tears of happiness

Sonke proposed and he wants me to be his wife, that shows how serous he is about me and
yes I want to be his wife, grow old with him and have many kids with him.

I loved him so much and my body was yearning for him at this moment.

My phone buzzed with messages on my WhatsApp.

Sonke video called me and I answered straight away, he was at the office with the background
he had

Sonke: Baby uqinisile?

Me: Yes

I nod my head

Sonke: Lethu, Are you’re serous?

Me: Yes, I will be your wife

Sonke: I love you Lethokuhle Khumalo

Me: I love you Sonkesethu Shange

He hung up and I went back in to enjoying my bath

I thought of bantu and I had to call him before he sees my display picture

I grabbed my phone and dialed him

Bantu: Baby sister, Usuwenzeni since you are never home? What do you need?

Me: Well I have great but shocking news

Bantu: Okay I am listening

Me: Bhuti my boyfriend proposed

there was silence on the call

Me: Hello bhuti?

Bantu: I am here Lethokuhle, I am still trying to digest what you are saying to me, what
boyfriend

Me: I have a boyfriend

Bantu: Since when?

Me: For a while now

Bantu: This is crazy

Me: Please don’t be mad

Bantu: are you pregnant Lethu

Me: No I am not

Bantu: what is the rush? shouldn’t you be working on your career before rushing to this and who
is the guy and how long have you been dating, Yazi Lethu I need to come down home for this
nonsense

Me: It is not nonsense

Bantu: Lethu it’s hard to do so with the baby being here and the business being too busy

Me: You don’t have to come down now

Bantu: I guess I have to meet him?

Me: Bantu there is no need to stress out I love him and he loves me to

Bantu: how old is he?

Me: He is 27

Bantu: Mudala nje lomuntu Lethu

Me: I love him

Bantu: Wazini ngoThando Lethokuhle?

I kept quiet

Bantu: Don’t we give you everything at home? Don’t we take care of you? Do you think dad was
going to allow this?

I was quiet

Bantu: You haven’t even graduated and you are rushing to be someone’s wife
Me: I just called to tell you the new bantu

I started crying

Me: All I want is for you to be happy for me and not do this, why bring dad in to this?

Bantu: because I don’t want you to make any mistake

Me: I am not

Bantu: What did Noxolo say about this?

Me: I haven’t told her yet, Sonke proposed this morning

Bantu: Morning?

Me: Yes I slept over at his place

Bantu: At his place? For fuck sake, did you sleep with him?

I was quiet

Bantu: I have to go

He hung up

I cried then I got out of the bath and washed the tub and I put the red robe and sat on the bed, I
decided to get under the blanket and I called Noxolo

Noxolo: Finally you called

Me: Hey Noxy

Noxy: You sound down, what’s wrong?

Me: Bantu

Noxy: What did he do?

Me: His mad

Noxy: Cause Sonke proposed?

Me: Yes

Noxy: Mxm ungamunaki, he will come around

Me: I am worried

Noxy: Don’t be, forget about him, tell me how did he proposed

Me: Well, he made breakfast for me and left it in the bedroom and went to work and I went to
the bathroom to pee and boom, the pictures I sent on the group chat was what happened

Noxy: Oh my word *Screaming*

I laughed out loud

Noxy: Did you tell him YES?

Me: Yes, I changed my DP and he Video called me

Noxy: I saw, he even changed his Display picture to the same as yours and his status is “And
she said yes, I love you Lethokuhle Shange

Me: Really

Noxy: Yes, I am so happy for you

Me: Thank you Noxy

Noxy: When will you come back home, we need to celebrate your singleness before you get
married

I laughed out loud

Me: Plan it

Noxy: In progress already

Me: Chat later boo

Noxolo: Don’t forget your tests, I saw your time table and schedule on the fridge

Me: really?

Noxy: Don’t tell me you forgot

Me: I did

Noxy: Well get on it and study

Me: Send me the picture please

Noxy: When I get home love

Me: Thank you

Noxy: I love you sister

Me: I love you more

I hung up
I wore my underwear with my robe and ran downstairs to get my study books and I bumped in
to Mamiki

Mamiki: Haibo, lady in red, kwenzenjani?

Me: Hi Ma, I am sorry I am in a rush

Mamiki: I made food, come let’s eat

Me: I already ate ma

Mamiki: Okay

I went to the study and I sat down and got down in to studying, after lunch Mamiki called me to
tell me she made lunch

I walked out and I went to the dining table and I started eating, she stared at me

Me: Hawu ma, you are staring at me

Mamiki: You are glowing

Me: It’s nothing

Mamiki: I saw the notes on your bedroom while I was cleaning

Me: Oh no

Mamiki: I was not snooping, I was just cleaning and changing the bedding then I saw the
bathroom

Me: Yes ma, it is true

Mamiki: Nkulunkulu umukhulu

I showed her the ring

Me: I love him

Mamiki: He has changed Usonke my baby so I know he loves you

Me: Was he that bad

Mamiki: Sonke used to be drunk every night with girls in and out of this house I tell you

Me: Haaa

Mamiki: I used to clean every day, condom papers, underwear’s and Bra’s and he used to tell
me to throw away all those clothes away

I laughed even though it hurt a bit

Me: I hope he is serious about me and we won’t end up like Noma

Mamiki: He proposed to her cause she forced him to and he wanted someone to look after the
twin, I told him he must propose cause he loved her not cause he wanted her to help with
raising the kids

Me: Eish

Mamiki: Just pray to the one above my baby, Sonke loves you and I know he does

Me: Thank you Ma

Mamiki: Now finish up and go back to study before Sonke blames me for you not studying

We laughed, I ate the food and she took care of the dishes and I went back to study

Around 3pm I went to the bedroom to check on my phone and I had tones of messages on
WhatsApp but I didn’t have time to go through it. Sonke walked into the bedroom and hugged
me from behind, I turned around and looked at him

Sonke: Mrs. Shange to be

He kissed me and I kissed him back, he lifted me and put me on top of the bed, he got on top
me and started kissing my neck, he opened my robe as it revealed my white bra and bikini
panty

Sonke: Mm you look so hot Mrs. Shange

He got out of the bed and took off his tie and opened his shirt while I laid in bed staring at him
doing all that, He opened his shoes and pants and he came to bed with just his boxes

Sonke: I have been craving you the whole day

Me: Mm That just turn me on

Sonke: Let me show you what I mean

He pulled his hugging Hugo boss boxers and he got on top of me, he kissed my lips then on my
neck and he pulled my nana’s out of the bra and kissed them, he came back up and kissed me
on my lips, his hands went down on my cookie and he pulled my panty aside and worked his
magic, I moaned and started scratching his back, he pulled his hand out and he entered me
skoon, I moaned as he did, he went in and out for me while I wrapped my legs on his waist, our
bodies blended together as he paced up and down on me, our bodies were heating up as I was
getting more and more louder, he stopped and laid on his back, I got up took off my robe and
panty and I got top of him as we both moaned, I made sure I ride my baby, I swirled on him
making sure he does not forget how I fucked him. My body was hot and all sweaty, he was
moaning louder as I increased my pace

Sonke: Baby I am coming

Me: Me too

I increased my pace as he held my waist and helped me. We reached an organism together.

I collapsed my body on top of his, we laid there for a moment until he got up and switched the
lights on and closed the curtains as it was getting dark outside.

He came to bed and we stayed there covered in sheets, we cuddled and kissed and I placed a
lot of love bites on him even though I could not make them out since he is dark.

Sonke: Baby we didn’t use a condom

I was quiet for a while, I imagined so many possible things

Sonke: Don’t worry, I am clean, Sengisholo chances of pregnancy

Me: How do you know you clean?

Sonke: We run a campaign in my business that people must check their status at least twice a
year so I also participate

Me: Okay

Sonke: Plus I used my condoms, you just lucky to taste him with no rubber

I laughed out loud at what he said

Me: I will get morning after tomorrow

Sonke: We need to get ready

Me: For?

Sonke: I am taking you out tonight

Me: To?

Sonke: It’s a surprise

He got up and went to take a shower, I woke up and I took out my bottle green knee length
dress I got from urban with a heel I got from Aldo, I took out a 2 piece lingerie I got from
temptations and I put my hair in to a pony, he came out from the bathroom with a towel and I
went in and took a 10 minute shower, I applied my make up in the bathroom then curled my
weave and then walked to the bedroom, Sonke looked sexy as fuck, he had his straight leg
pants from Hugo Boss with a long sleeve Fabiani shirt and Hugo boss casual shoes, he smelled
fine, he looked hot in all black, I applied my lotion while he sat on the bed staring at me.

Sonke: Umuntu ukhethile yazi

I blushed
Sonke: I cannot wait for you have my 15 kids

I laughed out loud

Me: Yazi, you can be crazy sometimes.

I got dressed and I was done in 15 minute, we walked out and we used my car

Me: where is it?

Sonke: Umhlanga

Me: Oh, its 10 minute away

Sonke laughed, we drove for a few minute then we walked in to an exquisite restaurant named
El Toro, the environment was awesome and it looked like Sonke’s taste, it looked expensive
and posh

We sat down and a white young handsome guy walked to us

Manager: Mr. Shange and Mrs. Shange to be, welcome to El Toro

Sonke: Thank you, This place is so me

Manager: I am glad you like it, I have the best waiter on the house that will be taking care of you
and your fiancé

Sonke: Thank you

The waiter told us the food will be ready in 10 minute. I looked at Sonke

Me: But we haven’t ordered

Sonke: I did already

He held my hand and looked at the ring, It looks perfect on you

Me: Thank you, uyaqala ukungincoma

Sonke: Baby I always do

Me: not when I change my hair or nails

Sonke: Baby angikaze nginake, you always have the same type of weaves, you keep it simple
and perfect

Me: I will put blond one of these days

Sonke: Ey babe don’t, uyabona le eyokugunda eceleni is not on. I hairstyle yezingane leya

I laughed so much at what he said

Sonke: Primary futhi, not even high school

While I was still laughing out food came and it was a juice stake with sides, it tasted Devine that
every fork in my mouth was an organism, Sonke enjoyed it as much as I did. After 45 minute we
drove to the Umhlanga beach at the peer, Sonke and I got Wakaberry and we took a walk at the
beach, we sat on the rocks near the light house while enjoying our Wakaberry as we looked at
the sea and the beautiful starts in the sky.

Sonke: Yazi baby it is my first time to do something like this

Me: To be at the beach?

Sonke: Yes

Me: Do you like doing it?

Sonke: Everything I do with you I love Lethokuhle, you give me peace, you give me a different
world, you give me something that is worth fighting.

I listen to him as he spoke

Sonke: Lethokuhle, you are average girl but who holds my heart it’s in hand, I love you so much
that angifuni lutho ngawe, if it was in my hands you and I would own a house in the middle of an
island where everything gets delivered to us and it will just be you and my boys, just us and no
one else

Me: That’s a dream

Sonke: I know nginomona ngawe, I don’t want any guy looking at you, smell you or even touch
you. God knows I will kill someone should they put their hands on you

My heart skipped a beat and I swallowed the frozen yogurt.

Sonke: Please look at me

I looked at him, his eyes were glowing

Sonke: Ngiyakuthanda Lethu and please promise me you will not cheat on me and you will not
leave me no matter what we go through

I looked

Me: I promise I won’t cheat on you Sonke

Sonke: Promise you won’t leave me

Me: I promise I won’t leave you

He kissed me and I kissed him back

Sonke: I will always love you, protect you and keep you safe. I promise I will not put anyone
before you. Baby you and I are a team and I want us to be a winning team. There is no you
without me and there is no me without you, we both are one

Me: Okay baby

Sonke: Don’t lie to me no matter what Lethu, Don’t trust anyone except me

Me: Yes baby

Sonke: I love you MaKhumalo and please love me right back, that is all I need from you, love
and trust

Me: I need you to protect me and don’t hit me again

Sonke: I have a short temper love but I promise, I won’t lay my hand on you ever

Me: Okay

Sonke: No cheating on me, I swear to God I will kill you and that looser

I laughed so hard

Me: I won’t Sonke, Trust me

We kissed then we walked to the car and drove, He held my hand until we go home, He carried
me to bed and we had a hot steaming love making session, it was passionate and out of this
world.

Sonke woke me up in the morning to get ready for campus and I did, it was 6.30am already so I
had to be quick and leave at 7am, I dressed with jeans and a sweater and sneakers, I went
down stairs and Sonke was eating breakfast, I kissed Sonke I skipped breakfast and I drove to
campus.

Max and Sean congratulated me for being Mrs. Shange to be but I didn’t entertain it as I had to
get ready and be prepared for the test, we studied together the whole day, around 4pm I drove
to Sonke’s place.

Sonke called me as soon as I entered the house

Me: Hey baby

Sonke: Baby lami, Unjani?

Me: Tired, ukuphi?

Sonke: baby, I am calling to let you know I will be home a bit later than normal

Me: Why?
Sonke: I have to see my mom today to tell her I proposed to you and you are soon to be Mrs.
Shange

I smiled

Me: Okay then I won’t cook supper cause you will probably eat over at your mom’s,

Sonke: Okay baby, be warm

Me: Be safe

Sonke: I love you

Me: Me too

Sonke: No, I don’t like that

Me: Okay, I love you too

I decided to also go home and be with my family, I bath and took my books and drove home
with his VR6 since my car was already parked inside the garage, I decided to get myself a nice
pair of clothes so I hit a quick stop at gateway and rushed to legit, I made it in time before the
shop closed, I got myself 5 stunning cocktail dresses with shoes and handbags. The sales lady
was as angry as I left the shop at 7.15, unfortunately she had to assist me.

On my way to my car I saw Sonke’s Golf, I walked around it and it was his Golf 7, I took a photo
of it and I called him right away but the phone rang for a few seconds then went to voice mail.

I got mad that I even got an ache on my tummy, I decided to go back to his house. I got inside
the car and I drove to sunning dale and when I got there he was not home.

Me: So sonke is lying about where he is tonight, I wanted to believe him so much that I didn’t
even want to call his sister, I thought of driving to his home but it was too far and late for me, I
called goodies, her phone rang for almost a minute before she could answer

Me: Hey G

Goodies: Hey Mrs. S to be *Screaming with excitement* finally I get to be a brides maid

Me: Yes honey finally

Goodies: Congratulations boo

Me: Thank you babe, I am leading in the group and I hope you are next

Goodies: Oho mxm, I am turning 26 next month but still no sign of a baby or the ring

We laughed together

Me: Boo I need a favor from you

Goodies: Yes ma

Me: Can you check is Sonke is at his mom place, you don’t have to go inside just check if his
car in the yard

Goodies: I doubt it, Sonke is like a king in this place, Mekukhona yena uzwa ngomsindo nje and
all the boys would be at his outside building

Me: Eish okay but please check

Goodies: Okay I will ring you back within 5 minute.

Me: Thank you honey

Goodies: No problem

she hung up, I walked to the kitchen and drank water, I took out my book and opened it to try
and study but I couldn’t.

Goodies called back

Me: G

Goodies: I told you, his not there and his sisters said they last saw him last week Sunday

Me: Okay boo, Ngiyabonga

Goodies: Is everything okay

Me: Yes boo, all is good. I have to go now

Goodies: You don’t sound okay

Me: it’s that time of the month that I get to cry over silly things

Goodies: Oh those days, don’t even remind me, ngiphuma khona

Me: I Hate them

Goodies: Okay listen on Friday will come over kini, we have a wedding to plan

Me: Okay boo, I will see you on Friday

Goodies: No bitch you will pick me up at home

Me: Okay I will come all the way to Enanda and pick you up

Goodies: Smart child

Me: I love you too

Goodies: Goodnight
Me: Cheers

I hung up

I started crying as my heart was too heavy, I was shaking

Me: who was Sonke with in gateway?

I sat on his bed hungry and pissed again, I went downstairs and I made hake with a garlic roll
and ate, I had juice and then a menthol to kill the fish taste, I went to his study and tried to study
and it worked, before I knew it was 12 midnight, I walked outside of the study and put all the
lights off and I went to his room, I heard footsteps on the piano room then I heard something
drop, I opened the door and it was dark, I switched the lights on then I realized the laundry
basket fell, I must have been the wind as the window were open. I was scared to even go inside
so I closed the door and then ran to our bedroom and closed the door, I decided to sleep with
the lights on, I didn’t even fall asleep, all I could hear was the wind blowing outside as it was
now 01.01am, I heard his car pull in and I woke up and sat up on the bed, I heard him come in
the house walking upstairs, He opened the door and I looked straight at him as he looked at me

Sonke: Baby you waited up for me?

Me: Uphumaphi?

Sonke: Enanda baby where else would I go

He looked at me and became defensive

Sonke: I told you nje

Me: Okay how is your mom

Sonke: She good yazi, I am thinking of buying her a place in Umzinyathi Ridge, where she will
have a place of her own, my sister are stressing her out with these kids they keep having

I smiled at him

Me: That’s sweet

I looked at him

Me: let me sleep I have a test tomorrow

Sonke: No you cannot do so without me giving you a proper sleeping pill

Me: No baby not tonight

My heart was just not at ease and quite frankly I don’t trust him, he got on top of me and started
kissing my neck

Me: No baby
Sonke: Please baby

He took off my the sleeping tee I had changed in to and revealed my fresh fair boobs the nipples
were staring at him and all he had to do was rub his thumb again them slowly and soft, I pushed
him off me

Me: Stop it

Sonke: Baby what’s wrong? Am I not good enough for you in bed anymore?

Me: WTF?

I thought to myself What game is this nigger playing

I looked at him, I took my t-shirt, put it on and then put my head in the pillow and face the other
way, he took of his chino's and shirt and was left with his tight boxers and vest, he got under the
duvet and held me tight from the back

Sonke: I love you MaKhumalo

Me: I know

Sonke: I am not the best guy you possible wants me to be, I am sorry that I am not perfect but
above it all I love you and you the only woman I have loved this much, I will never make it
without you

I was quiet, it was hard to even breath, he ran his hands all over me

Sonke: Please allow me to love you

I was quiet

He kissed my neck and was all over me

I gave in not cause I wanted to but I needed him to leave me alone so I could have peace and
quiet.

This time around he was a bit rough, he rode me like there was no tomorrow and it felt like he
was more concerned on coming rather than pleasing me, his body and heart was with me but
his mind was not with me, this time around we had sex and not love making, maybe it was me
as I felt he was lying to me or maybe he was feeling guilty for lying to me or maybe we were just
having second thoughts about this marriage thing, we are two different people from two different
worlds.

4am my alarm rang, I went down stairs had a cup of green tea and then went to the study to
study, at 5am I decided to get ready for campus, Sonke was lost in his dreamland, I made my
way to the shower without switching the bedroom light on, I got dressed and I was ready by
6am. I had to wake him up as we needed to leave at 7am and I wasn’t sure if he is dropping me
off or I will drive myself to campus, I switched the lights on and went to him, the husband to be
had a huge love bite on his neck which shocked me, I walked backwards trying to think if maybe
I placed it but I don’t recall leaving that, I went to the mirror to have a look at my neck, there was
nothing, I stood in the mirror dreaming and trying to figure out if I left this on him and I forgot
about it

Sonke: Don’t worry you look gorgeous in that denim dress *I got shocked*

Me: Oh hi baby, sorry I was thinking of something

Sonke: I hope you were thinking of big boy cause his missing you right now

I smiled and looked at him and then back to the mirror

Me: I am late I have to go

Sonke: Why so early?

Me: I need to catch up with my class mates and I need to catch up since I will be writing exams
this coming months

He woke up and came towards me and kissed me on my forehead

Sonke: Baby are you sure you okay? you just seem distracted

I looked at him

Me: I am fine, go shower before you get late for work

He smiled, kissed me again the walked away

Sonke: Okay baby Lami

While he walked to the shower

Me: Lovely love bite there

Sonke: Where

Me: Have a look in the mirror

I walked out of the bedroom to downstairs, I gathered my things and took my car keys and I
went to the garage. I moved his golf and VR6 out and I took my 1 series out of the garage then I
put the cars back in, I went inside the house and got my books and went into my car.

Sonke came out the house with a towel on his waist and he looked fine as ever

Sonke: Baby I will take you to campus

I stopped and stared at him before entering my car

Sonke: Ngiyakucela

Me: Okay but I want to go home after campus and see Noxy

Sonke: It’s fine baby I am not busy today I will drop you home and pick you up again

I took a deep breath in and out again, I looked away

Me: Okay

I closed the car door and walked right behind him back to the house, walking behind him I
noticed he had scratched on his back, he must have been fucking her good I guess, just like
how he fucks me

Me: Is your back not sore? you need to stop scratching yourself so much

He didn’t try to say anything or even look at me instead he stopped for a second and then ran
up the stairs.

I went to the main bathroom, sat on the toilet seat and I cried, he was fucking someone else and
I don’t even have the energy to fight with him because he might even lose his temper and hit me
again.

I looked at the ring and took it out and put it on my pocket, I fixed my face and decided to not
put make up again, I walked out from the bathroom and he was walking down the stairs, I
stopped and looked at him, he stopped and looked at me and we stared at each other for a few
seconds I looked away and then walked towards the kitchen counter and sat at on the high
chair.

Me: Would you like some tea?

Sonke: No baby I am fine, should we go?

Me: Yes we can

The drive to DUT was awkward, I literally had nothing to say to Sonke and he did not have
anything to say to me, I was so mad at him I didn’t even want to hear his voice, I switched the
radio on and it had Beyoncé’s CD on, I skipped to the broke hearted girl track, I put the music
up and put my shades on

*I don’t want to be without you baby

*I don’t want a broken heart

*I don’t want to take a breath without you baby

*I don’t want to play that part

*I know that I love you but let me just say

*I don’t want to love you in no kind of way

*No No

*I don’t want a broken heart and I don’t want to play the broke hearted girl

**************I was singing along too********

Sonke: Baby where is your ring?

I looked at my finger and looked at him and looked back to my window

Me: I probably forgot it in the bathroom

Sonke: I didn’t see it though

Me: Maybe the main one I will check later

Sonke: mm

I looked at him and then away again

Sonke: Baby we not okay

I kept quiet

Sonke: I feel that we are drifting apart, what is the matter?

Me: Nothing Sonke

Sonke: You sure?

Me: I think I am about to get my periods or something

Sonke: You've gotten your periods before and you were never like this

Me: I don’t know Sonke, I just want to write my test and get over it

Sonke: what time is?

Me: 9am

Sonke: I will wait for you to finish the test

Me: Okay, you can get me morning after’s while you at it

Sonke: Okay I will and Maybe we can do a movie once you done and spend the day together

I didn’t want to be with him so I had to think of a plan fast

Me: That would be nice Sonke but I really need to catch up with my studies and today I have to
be home cause my girlfriends are coming over

Me: Why don’t they come over in sunning dale? I have two spare bedrooms that they can chill
on and my house is as big as your home

I was quiet

Sonke: I know that you guys need some quality time but Lethu…

Me: Sonke can we discuss this after my test? I am really not in the mood to discuss this right
now

Sonke: Fine

We were quiet until we got to DUT, I kissed him and walked to the main gate and some bitches
took interest in my car

They probably saw a fucking hot guy in him plus he was driving a beamer that happens to be
mine nxa so they tried to score points by acting wild.

I was so mad and I hated the fact that I even kissed him

I got into class and I studied until the teacher came in and we started the test, it seemed to be
easy and I think I Aced it as I knew everything.

I was done within 45 minute and I walked out and grabbed my bag. I noticed there is a text from
Sonke

Sonke {All the best love}

Me {Thank you}

Sonke {Are you done?}

Me {Yes}

I was still mad at Sonke so I decided to go home to smallVille, I requested for an Uber and I
switched my phone as soon as I got home, Mathema made a heavy lunch for me and I did not
complained, I missed her, I missed her food and I missed being spoiled by her.

We had a long chat about what was happening in my life and what I have missed, after the chatI
decided to take a nap in my room.

Mathema woke me up after two hours

Me: Ma

Sonke: You have a visitor

Me: Please tell them that I am not well and they my must come back later

Mathema: I can’t do that as he is already angry my baby

Me: Sonke?

Mathema: Yes

Me: Okay I am coming

I went down stairs and I saw Sonke sitting outside on the patio, I gathered myself together and I
walked up to him

Me: Hey baby

Sonke: Lethu what the fuck is wrong with you?

His voice was so grumpy and his face had the annoyed look, I looked at him then Mathema

Sonke: I am sorry to swear Mam

Mathema: No its okay Son

She looked at me

Mathema: Lethu baby I will leave you two alone

She walked away to her outside building

Me: Sonke you need to watch how you speak to me in this house

Just before I could finish the sentence he slapped me so hard on my cheek that I bumped on
the sliding door.

Sonke: You don’t listen Lethokuhle, you don’t ever fuckin listen

Me: Why are you hitting me?

Sonke: Ufuna ngikuphinde?

I walked away from him into the house but he grabbed my arm and pulled me back and he put
both his arms on my arms and shook me against the sliding door

Sonke: Sekufika le engicikeka khona

Me: Let me go *Scream*

Sonke: Do you want this relationship to work or not?

Me: It’s not working nje vele sonke

He looked at me

Me: You cannot go around parting with other females, fucking them and then propose to me like
nothing happened

Sonke: Ukhuluma ngani lethu?

Me: Where were you last night?

Sonke: Bengisenanda I told you that

Me: Really? Are you sure you don’t want to change your answer?
He looked at me

Sonke: Where are you going with this Lethu?

Me: Let me go

He took his hands off my arms

I put on a sarcastic smile

Me: The love bites, and scratches on your back, you fucked her good neh? I hope you enjoyed
every stroke while I was lying in our bed waiting for you to come home

I walked away as he followed me

Sonke: Lethu stop this

I turned around to face him

Me: Stop what?

Sonke: I cannot deal with this behavior

Me: Fine then go

I walked to the lounge

Sonke: It’s not what you think

Me: What is it then?

Sonke: I don’t know what scratches you are talking about, the love bit was probably from you

Me: You say you've got the most respect for me but sometimes you don’t give me that respect

Sonke: Lethu

Me: You make me live in your house and still you cheat on me? Cheat on me Sonke? Really?
Do I suck that bad that you be cheating on me? you must be fucking crazy to think I will marry a
bastard like you

He stared at me

Sonke: You must be crazy to think all those things, you and I are one and the sooner you get to
understand that the better

Me: Get out

Sonke: what?

Me: I said get out

Sonke: I am not leaving here without you and you should know that unless you want Mathema
to witness your death ngoba I will kill you should you think of leaving me

Me: I am home and I want to be home

Sonke: Don’t test me Lethokuhle

I stared at him as he stared right back at me

Sonke: Go get your stuff we going

I stood there staring at him with so much shock and fear in my eyes,

Sonke: I said go get your fucking things

I started sobbing as I walked out of the lounge, I was now crying and I went upstairs, I took my
things then I went to tell Mathema that I will be at my boyfriend’s house for a while, I couldn’t
even look at her in her eyes, she stopped me while I walked away

Mathema: Whatever you do please don’t fall pregnant, you guys are not ready to build a home,
spend less time in bed and more time studying and building your career, I know what you are
worth and I pray he sees that too

She gave me the warmest hug I haven’t felt since mom passed on, I kissed her cheek

Mathema: If you need me, I am just a phone call away.

I walked out of her room, in to the house, gathered my things and followed Sonke to my car and
he drove off.

Chapter 14

Sonke drove like a maniac to Sunningdale, I held on tight to my bag and in to time we were at
his place, he got off and unlocked the doors & went inside, I stopped sobbing as I stepped in the
house and he looked at me

Sonke: it’s about time you grew up and realized how may woman would kill to be my woman
I smiled at him as he gave me that lame advise even though it bruised me

Me: true and you seem to be forgetting your place as my man

I poured myself a glass of wine in one of those big wine glasses and I walked up stairs, I took
my clothes off while walking up the stairs and by the time I got into my bedroom I was in my
G-string and a bra, I went to the bathroom ran the water on the tub and put bathing salt and a
bubble bath, it smelled so good, I took my bra and G-string off and laid on the bath tub while
sipped on my natural sweet red wine, I called goodies

Me: Hey G

Goodies: My honey

Me: What are you doing tonight?

Goodies: Nothing and I am weekend off

Me: I will pick you up tomorrow, bring extra clothes because you will be sleeping over at my
house

Goodies: Your house or home?

Me: House

Goodies: Wow, great I will see you then

I hung up and I text Noxy

Me {Tomorrow we have plans for the whole weekend, Have your clothes packed and come over
to Sonke’s place.

Noxy {Great, I have also called Zeeno and she told me she is coming over to visit her parents
tomorrow since she is currently in PMB}

Me {Cool, what time will you be here?}

Noxy {She said around 12 midday, I told her I will pick her up from her home around 4-5pm, she
must look hot and carry extra clothes}

Me {Great, see you then}

I rested on that hot perfect water that soothed my body and the wine that tasted so divine, after
30 minutes or so I decided to take a warm shower, afterwards I dried myself then I wore my
sexy lingerie that I got from woolies "Bonang Matheba’s Design" and it fitted me perfectly, I was
more thicker than I was months ago, I was sexy as fuck, I wore a matching gown over it and
I called Mr. delivery.

I ordered sushi and I provided Sonke’s credit card, I went down stairs after about an hour since I
left him, I walked down and he was busy mixing his drink at the kitchen counter, he turned and
looked at me and I flipped the weave out of my face and put it into a pony, I lifted my eyes up in
a slow motion while biting my bottom lip and all he could do was look at me.

From my silver painted toe nails I had to my sexy super fair legs and my curved hips and then
all the way to my boobs and then my face

The gown I wore was not so tight but was loosen up a bit and he could see my cleavage

Me: Did you get my morning after?

Sonke: Yes, they in the car

I took the car keys and walked out of the house barefoot and I opened his car, took the pills then
walked back to the house, I left the car keys on the counter and I took the pill.

I put on the sexy, slut walk

The intercom buzzed and I knew it was the delivery guy

Me: that’s for me

while walking towards the intercom receiver

Me: Hello Okay I will come to the gate now

I ran upstairs and wore my slippers and quickly ran down again and went towards the door, I
accepted the delivery and came inside, I took out the plates and glasses

Me: I ordered sushi hake and oysters, what would you prefer?

He cleared his throat

Sonke: Hake

Me: Okay, I warmed the frozen already made spinach and feta from Woolworths, I added the
salad and fries on his meal and put in on the dining room table as I had sushi and oysters

Me: supper is ready

He came through

Sonke: Thank you, we ate and I kept moaning with every bite of the sushi I ate and all he could
do was pierce through my body with his sexy gangster eyes, I was done before him and I looked
at him then his food
Me: why aren’t you eating?

Sonke I am, you just happened to finish your food quicker than me

I smiled at him

Me: Okay

I poured myself another glass of wine as I had finished my previous one, he looked at me

Sonke: That a bit too much of wine don’t you think?

I looked at him and smiled

Me: This is nothing compare to the amount I drink when you are in another’s woman arms while
I wait for you in our bed

Sonke: I am going to take a shower and be in bed

I didn’t respond, I washed the dishes and I decided chill and watch music videos since it was
around 8pm, I sat there watching Generations, then Isibaya and The queen and then I opened
Channel O, around 9.45 he came down

Sonke: Are you going to come to bed

I looked at him

Me: I am happy here

Sonke: Okay fine then

I was Horney as hell, all I could do was imagine him rubbing himself on me and whispering all
those naughty words to me, I wanted him but I had to control my cookie, at this point he didn’t
deserve my pussy or my love for all the bullshit he is putting me through, I decided to crash on
the couch, I decided to put the heater on and I grabbed a shawl and put it over me.

Sonke: Baby wake up, why are you sleeping here?

My eyes opened and it was Sonke running his hands on my thighs asking me to wake up

I looked at him

Me: I am awake

He looked at me

Sonke: Should I carry you upstairs?

Me: No I will sleep in the guest room

Sonke: Why?

Me: I want to be alone tonight

Sonke: that’s bull

He lifted me and he carried me, I tried to fight him off but he had control over my body that I
couldn’t fight him and the wine got the best of me

he laid me on the side of my bed and he took off my gown and then covered me with the duvet,
he then dimmed the lights and he came to his side of the bed, he came closer to me and held
me tight from behind and his shaft was so hard that I got wet instantly but I couldn’t reveal that
cause at this point, he was my enemy and I didn’t want to entertain his hungry dick

Me: I am tired and I want to sleep

He didn’t answer me, Before I knew it his finger was already inside me and I was moaning but
still telling him to stop

Deep down I didn’t want him to stop but I also wanted to show him that I am not that weak

I got on top of him as he was squeezing my butt and biting my neck and squeezing my boobs
he pushed my G-string to the side as he was stuck on my boobs, I was ready, I mean I wanted
Sonke Shange inside me

His phone rang and we ignored it, we kept on kissing

The phone rang again, I stopped kissing him and he pulled me back

Sonke: Baby ignore it I am sure it is no one important

I pulled away from him and I stood up and took the phone

#Noma calling….

I switched the light and threw the phone at him

Me: Here is your hoe calling, you can go to her if you want to and fuck off

He took the phone and cut the call

Sonke: Baby please, I don’t know what is it that she wants

Me: At this time?

Before he could finish that sentence the phone rang again, he looked at the phone and ignored
it, I grabbed the phone

Me: Let me help you

I answered

Me: Sonke's phone hello

Noma: Okay can’t you see on the caller ID who is calling

Me: Sorry but this number is saved as Ex so I am still trying to figure out which Ex is this and
why on earth is this Ex calling my man at this time of the night

Noma: Bitch its Noma, now put my fiancé on the line

Me: Okay fiancé hold on

I looked at Sonke

Me: Fiancé your other Fiancé wants to speak to you

Sonke: The fuck, Please tell that bitch I am busy with my future wife tell her to stop calling me

Me: Can you hear that?

Noma: Fuck you

She hung up, I threw the phone at him

Me: Well your fiancé is waiting for you, so you may go and fuck her

I walked down stairs, I added more wine to my glass and he came down and he pulled the glass
from me

Sonke: That’s enough Lethu

He carried me to the bedroom and switched the lights off and he came to bed

He held me so tight to me as if I was planning to escape

Sonke: I hate seeing us like this

Me: I hate you for allowing other people to destroy what we have

Sonke: I hate the fact that I don’t know what I want but all I know is that I love you and I want
you only, I love Lethu, you are my fiancé now and I will marry you.

I started crying

Sonke: Shoo, baby I am here and I will always be here, I won’t cheat on you again and that I
promise you, I will be the best man that you have ever been with and I swear on my life I will
love you till the day I leave this earth.

My pillow was wet with my tears, all I felt was his warm hands all over my body asI fell asleep in
his arms

Sonke: Baby wami

He touched my face

Sonke: Sithandwa sami please wake up

I turned my head to get his hands off me

Sonke: Lethu

I opened my eyes and Sonke was next to me

Me: Sonke please just 5 more minute

Sonke: baby your brother is on the line

Me: Sonke I can’t speak to him right now

Sonke: baby

Me: I will speak to him later on today I just need more sleep

Sonke: Fine

I heard him speak to someone on the phone then he put the phone on the side of his bed, he
came closer to me and put his hands on my waist pulling me closer to him.

Sonke: Baby, Bantu is coming down tomorrow to discuss the Lobola negotiations

Me: On a Sunday?

Sonke: Yes

Me: Okay

He kissed my shoulders and my neck

Sonke: Lethu I want you

I ignored him
Sonke: Please give me you

I ignored his request

Sonke: Please

I won’t lie I wanted him too, it was 8am and probably his maid was already in the house but I
wanted him, we kissed and while we were getting it on but we needed.

Me: Please get a condom

Sonke: Baby we don’t need a condom anymore

I stopped sexing him and looked at him

Me: Ngoba?

Sonke: We will be official now, we won’t need it

Me: No ways

Sonke: You can go on a pill if you are not ready to have my kids

Me: As soon as you stop fucking other bitches maybe we will stop using a condom

Sonke: You didn’t have to put it down that way

Me: No condom, No sex

He woke up and took out a condom and he put it on

Sonke: Happy?

Me: Delighted

Sonke: I am not putting on the condom cause you don’t trust me but I am putting it so you won’t
fall pregnant, I don’t want you to blame for having a child that you never wanted

That bruised me, It hurt me cause there is nothing I would love more than to have Sonke’s kids.

I was hurt cause I would love to have his baby but I did not take it to heart, I focused on us as
we had the craziest rough sex ever.

Sonke knows how to hit it right, he knows how to get me screaming for all the right reasons, he
holds it down and to be honest, he is the best for me and I don’t want to taste anyone's dick
besides his.

We bonded for a while than he went to take a shower, I laid in bed for a while then I grabbed a
condom and followed him into in suit then in to the shower.
Me: Can I join

Sonke: Anytime

I walked in and I gave him the most amazing blow ever and I needed to cover up for the first
blow I gave him, I took my own time with him, all he could do was moan and say

Sonke: Hawema….baby…Lethu I love you….mmmmhhhmmm…baby you so damn

good….MaKhumalo I love you…..

I inserted the condom on him and he picked me up and put me against the shower glass and he
slowly got inside me and he started stroking me and all I think I said was his name and
gibberish and he was responding with moans, after we both reached the climax he put the
shower gel all over my body and washed me with the scrub and I did the same, we kissed
nonstop until we were done.

I wore a tight golfer dress from Aca Joe with Armani sneaker, I felt so sexy as I had a G-string
underneath with a matching bra I decided to put my hair into a pony as it was wet and all messy
after that shower sex we had, I put my stud gold earrings with pink gloss, I went down stairs and
to my surprise he had made breakfast, a full English breakfast.

We had breakfast and he said we have to be at gateway at 11am as we have to do grocery

shopping, at 11am we were in gateway and we did a grocery shopping and we had lunch once
we were done, we went home, I had to tell him the plans we have with the girls since he will
explode if I don’t tell him.

I told him my close friends will be coming over tonight and he said no, I have to spend the night
over at SmallVille because my brother will be down to discuss Lobola negotiations

I woke up from the couch with so much shock

Me: What did you say?

Sonke: Lobola negotiations

Me: When?

Sonke: Tomorrow

Me: Fuck

I took my phone and I ringed my brother

Bantu: Hey sisi

Me: Hey Bantu

Bantu: I tried calling you this morning but your boyfriend, sorry your fiancé answered

Me: I am sorry, I was still sleeping

Sonke: Well just know that Emzini you have to be awake at 4am

We both laughed out loud

Me: That is too early for me

Bantu: I know, I am still trying to figure out if that boy knows what he is getting himself in to

Me: Hawu Bantu

Bantu: Don’t cry now, I am joking

Me: I know boet

Bantu: Please make sure you are home, I am on my way to Durban with Bbaba omdala, I had to
start Empangeni and Richards bay to pick them up for the negotiations

Me: Okay I will pick my friends up then and I will come home

Bantu: Okay, Later then

Me: Love you

Bantu: I love you to

We ended the call, I looked at Sonke

Me: I will leave at 4 to pick Goodies and Zeeno then go home

He smiled and looked at me

Me: I guess you have the whole house to yourself and you can be a hoe about it

He laughed

Sonke: I love your pussy, it’s my addiction

I gave him the stare

Sonke: I was thinking before you leave, we should have a round or two

Me: Mxm

I just walked up stairs packed a few things I might need and I left the house with him watching
soccer and having his beers.

I drove to pick goodies up from gateway, I texted Noxy and Zeeno that I will meet them at home
and not Sonke’s house since they are having the Lobola negotiations tomorrow I will have to be
home

They all seemed happy we drove home to smallVille with Goodies and Mathema had already
cooked a great meal and it smelled divine

Around 6.30pm we were all eating supper so we decided to get wine and drink at the Jacuzzi
with our bikini's

Sonke called me over 20 times telling me he loved me and he missed me and he is with his
uncles at his place planning the Lobola negotiation strategy so my brother will not kill them with
the price.

He spoke to my squad on loud speaker and told them to take care of me until tomorrow as I will
officially be his wife.

The girls loved him, even Zeeno who is so choosey when it comes to man, she approved of
him.

We stayed on the Jacuzzi and Mathema joined us and she gave us advised on relationships
and she told me I must make sure that I am making this decision from my heart and that I must
study and graduate before I agree on having a child, she also had wine and we were so wasted
that we fell asleep on the couch

4am Mathema woke us all up and told us we need to shower and help with cooking as my
uncles and brothers are upstairs and Sonke’s family will arrive in no time.

I had to use a long traditional outfit and put a scarf on head for respect and I stayed in my room
until I was told the Shange’s car is outside

The time was about 6am,

When the intercom buzzed I ran to the window to see the Shange family, Sonke was not there
and I didn’t know anyone from the three Shange members that were there but apparently some
knew me, they stood outside with cash and a bottle of whiskey, after a while my dad's brother
went to the gate he allowed them in

After one hour and 30 minute I was called downstairs with my sister and they asked the Shange
family on which daughter they came for and they pointed at me then my uncle dismissed us
Noxy and I walked back to my bedroom and after one hours I was called down and told the
Lobola negotiation was a success and I am now soon to be Mrs. Shange, I was happy as I
walked back to my room and Sonke called me just before I could sit on the bed

Me: Hubby

Sonke: Wife

I giggled

Sonke: Thank you for allowing this even though I am such a mess
I was quiet for a while thinking of the love bite I saw and scratch marks and I imagined him with
someone else, my heart skipped a beat and I took a deep breath in

Sonke: Are you there?

Me: Yes I am

Sonke: I want you to come live here permanently and I have requested that from the elders

Me: So soon?

Sonke: You don’t want to?

Me: I do?

Sonke: Then we sorted, listen my uncle is calling me, I will speak to you later

He Hung up

Bantu walked up to my room and he hugged me while sitting next to me

Bantu: So you are now Mrs. Shange to be

I took a deep breath looking at him

Bantu: He loves you I guess

Me: How do you know

Bantu: Uyamazi ubaba omdlala uyithanda kanjani imali

I laughed out loud

Bantu: Uzame ukubalekisa labantu baka Shange but they handles the game well, The Shange
wanted you as a wife at whatever cost

Me: How much did you sell me for

He laughed out loud

Bantu: The Lobola money will be put in to a safe and we will use it for umabo and traditional
wedding, it is not for spending

I laughed

Bantu: So today is your last day la

Me: I will leave tomorrow bantu, we can chill together since it is a holiday

Bantu: The Shange wants to leave with you today

I looked away
Bantu: They are your new family now

Me: I know

Bantu: We are still your family too and if you want to come home, you are welcome

I hugged him

Bantu: I will see you downstairs

I wore my ring and went downstairs and we had a family lunch with the Shange Family.

My dad’s brother took me to our traditional outside building where have and he lit Impepho and
thanked the ancestors for this day and explained that I am now a member of the Shange Family
and not a Khumalo, he asked them to protect me on this new journey I was about to take.

He gave me advice on how I should behave with my in-laws and I should always respect my
husband.

We walked back to the house as I said my goodbyes and we got in to our cars, I drove my own
car as the Shange elders drove in their own car, I was told we are going to Enanda as there is a
ceremony there. When we got there they welcomed me with a white goat and Sonke’s uncle
took me to the bedroom where he burnt Impepho and spoke to the ancestors and told them I am
now a member of their family, the ancestors must take care of me and protect me through it all.

We spent a couple of hours with his family, Sonke took me to his outside room and said this is
where we will sleep when we are visiting here, the twins were so happy to see me and I was
too, I love them so much

Sonke’s mom had a traditional brewer made and she was having the time of her life, her friends
were helping with everything and she introduced me to so many people, we also had dinner at
Sonke’s home and then Sonke announced that we have to leave early since we will be
celebrating our engagement

Sonke told his family that he has booked velvet lounge in Florida as a small engagement party
celebrate for us.

Sisanda his sister said she will join us and Sonke told her she must get ready as we will be
leaving in the next 30 minute

She came back dressed in a black number and she looked stunning

Me: She is going to have a lot of number request tonight, she looks hot

Sonke: She has twi kids and a boyfriend so I will fuck her up right there should she try that shit
I laughed

Sonke: It’s not a joke

Me: Sorry

Sonke: Wenake you are no longer allowed to wear all those short things as off today

I gave him the stare as we walked in to the car and we drove off with Sisanda.

We got to the house within 45 minute but Sisanda was not comfortable being stuck with her
brother and his fiancé

Sisanda: Guys, I am meeting my friend in town and then I will meet you guys at velvet

Sonke gave her the deadly stare

Sisanda: Hayi Sonke, it’s a female

Sonke: Ubani?

Sisanda: Ngeke umazi

Sonke: Fine

He pulled out R500 and gave her, she requested for an Uber while Sonke made something to
drink, her ride was outside in 5 minute and we buzzed her out.

I was happy and glowing as I am now Mrs. Shange traditionally and my family loves him

I loved him more

I undressed and got into the shower and I was smiling to myself and day dreaming, the shower
door opened and Sonke stepped in with a sealed condom on his hand

Sonke: One round

I giggled

Sonke: Just for control

I laughed out loud, I put my hands around his neck and I kissed him, he came in and pulled the
shower door to avoid the water spilling on the bathroom mat

He put his hand on my waist as we got into that deep kiss that we even forgot we are wasting
water, he turned me around and he put on his condom than entered me from behind, he fucked
me so good that I even said I am ready to marry him, we kept it quick as the time was not on our
side, he left me in the shower and I spent time day dreaming again until he called for me

Sonke: Lethu sheshisa baby everyone is waiting for us manje

I quickly grabbed a towel and ran to the bed room, Sonke had a gorgeous navy blue buffy skirt
in the bed with a champagne loose silk vest

Sonke: Here is your outfit

I looked at him and he was already dressed in navy blue skinny chinos and he folded them at
the bottom with a navy suede shoe and a champagne color shirt

Sonke: Baby qoka phela

I wore my black G-string and matching boob tube bra that had a string in the front, I didn’t even
put lotion on properly as he was watching my every move, I put on the vest the skirt and I
decided to wear black accessory

I had to decide which shoes to wear but he choose my champagne color heels from woolies and
I put on my perfume and we were set to go

He took out my navy blue small handbag from nine west and he gave me I put my phone, wallet
and wipes then we walked downstairs and walked to the car

As Sonke drove the car he held my hand

I was nervous as I imagined how the party will be and who will be there and if everything will go
well.

I was quiet in the car as Sonke kept squeezing my hand... He cleared his throat

Sonke: I know it’s too early to say this as you are still trying to figure out how much I love you
but thank you for choosing me and thank you for learning to trust my love for you

I smiled as we looked at each other and then he looked away focusing on the road

We were like small kids who just had their first kiss, I was in love and he was in love, the world
only revolved around us at this time and I wanted him more than he could ever imagined, I felt
as if he was the reason why I did not give other guys a chance as God was keeping me pure for
him, he was my world and I did not see anyone above him, He was my heaven and earth and
being with him made me the happiest human being on earth, despite the shit he does when he
gets drunk with bitches and come home with love bites, he was a good lover, a good fucker and
a good boyfriend, he made sure I am happy and I well taken care off, he showed me he would
kill for me and he proved I am the one for him. He was my Zorro as I had a crush from Zorro
since pre-school days.

Chapter 14

Sonke drove like a maniac to Sunningdale, I held on tight to my bag and in to time we were at
his place, he got off and unlocked the doors & went inside, I stopped sobbing as I stepped in the
house and he looked at me

Sonke: it’s about time you grew up and realized how may woman would kill to be my woman

I smiled at him as he gave me that lame advise even though it bruised me

Me: true and you seem to be forgetting your place as my man

I poured myself a glass of wine in one of those big wine glasses and I walked up stairs, I took
my clothes off while walking up the stairs and by the time I got into my bedroom I was in my
G-string and a bra, I went to the bathroom ran the water on the tub and put bathing salt and a
bubble bath, it smelled so good, I took my bra and G-string off and laid on the bath tub while
sipped on my natural sweet red wine, I called goodies

Me: Hey G

Goodies: My honey

Me: What are you doing tonight?

Goodies: Nothing and I am weekend off

Me: I will pick you up tomorrow, bring extra clothes because you will be sleeping over at my
house

Goodies: Your house or home?

Me: House

Goodies: Wow, great I will see you then

I hung up and I text Noxy

Me {Tomorrow we have plans for the whole weekend, Have your clothes packed and come over
to Sonke’s place.

Noxy {Great, I have also called Zeeno and she told me she is coming over to visit her parents
tomorrow since she is currently in PMB}

Me {Cool, what time will you be here?}

Noxy {She said around 12 midday, I told her I will pick her up from her home around 4-5pm, she
must look hot and carry extra clothes}

Me {Great, see you then}

I rested on that hot perfect water that soothed my body and the wine that tasted so divine, after
30 minutes or so I decided to take a warm shower, afterwards I dried myself then I wore my
sexy lingerie that I got from woolies "Bonang Matheba’s Design" and it fitted me perfectly, I was
more thicker than I was months ago, I was sexy as fuck, I wore a matching gown over it and

I called Mr. delivery.

I ordered sushi and I provided Sonke’s credit card, I went down stairs after about an hour since I
left him, I walked down and he was busy mixing his drink at the kitchen counter, he turned and
looked at me and I flipped the weave out of my face and put it into a pony, I lifted my eyes up in
a slow motion while biting my bottom lip and all he could do was look at me.

From my silver painted toe nails I had to my sexy super fair legs and my curved hips and then
all the way to my boobs and then my face

The gown I wore was not so tight but was loosen up a bit and he could see my cleavage

Me: Did you get my morning after?

Sonke: Yes, they in the car

I took the car keys and walked out of the house barefoot and I opened his car, took the pills then
walked back to the house, I left the car keys on the counter and I took the pill.

I put on the sexy, slut walk

The intercom buzzed and I knew it was the delivery guy

Me: that’s for me

while walking towards the intercom receiver

Me: Hello Okay I will come to the gate now

I ran upstairs and wore my slippers and quickly ran down again and went towards the door, I
accepted the delivery and came inside, I took out the plates and glasses

Me: I ordered sushi hake and oysters, what would you prefer?

He cleared his throat

Sonke: Hake

Me: Okay, I warmed the frozen already made spinach and feta from Woolworths, I added the
salad and fries on his meal and put in on the dining room table as I had sushi and oysters

Me: supper is ready

He came through

Sonke: Thank you, we ate and I kept moaning with every bite of the sushi I ate and all he could
do was pierce through my body with his sexy gangster eyes, I was done before him and I looked
at him then his food

Me: why aren’t you eating?

Sonke I am, you just happened to finish your food quicker than me

I smiled at him

Me: Okay

I poured myself another glass of wine as I had finished my previous one, he looked at me

Sonke: That a bit too much of wine don’t you think?

I looked at him and smiled

Me: This is nothing compare to the amount I drink when you are in another’s woman arms while
I wait for you in our bed

Sonke: I am going to take a shower and be in bed

I didn’t respond, I washed the dishes and I decided chill and watch music videos since it was
around 8pm, I sat there watching Generations, then Isibaya and The queen and then I opened
Channel O, around 9.45 he came down

Sonke: Are you going to come to bed

I looked at him

Me: I am happy here

Sonke: Okay fine then

I was Horney as hell, all I could do was imagine him rubbing himself on me and whispering all
those naughty words to me, I wanted him but I had to control my cookie, at this point he didn’t
deserve my pussy or my love for all the bullshit he is putting me through, I decided to crash on
the couch, I decided to put the heater on and I grabbed a shawl and put it over me.

Sonke: Baby wake up, why are you sleeping here?

My eyes opened and it was Sonke running his hands on my thighs asking me to wake up

I looked at him

Me: I am awake

He looked at me

Sonke: Should I carry you upstairs?

Me: No I will sleep in the guest room

Sonke: Why?

Me: I want to be alone tonight

Sonke: that’s bull

He lifted me and he carried me, I tried to fight him off but he had control over my body that I
couldn’t fight him and the wine got the best of me

he laid me on the side of my bed and he took off my gown and then covered me with the duvet,
he then dimmed the lights and he came to his side of the bed, he came closer to me and held
me tight from behind and his shaft was so hard that I got wet instantly but I couldn’t reveal that
cause at this point, he was my enemy and I didn’t want to entertain his hungry dick

Me: I am tired and I want to sleep

He didn’t answer me, Before I knew it his finger was already inside me and I was moaning but
still telling him to stop

Deep down I didn’t want him to stop but I also wanted to show him that I am not that weak

I got on top of him as he was squeezing my butt and biting my neck and squeezing my boobs
he pushed my G-string to the side as he was stuck on my boobs, I was ready, I mean I wanted
Sonke Shange inside me

His phone rang and we ignored it, we kept on kissing

The phone rang again, I stopped kissing him and he pulled me back

Sonke: Baby ignore it I am sure it is no one important

I pulled away from him and I stood up and took the phone

#Noma calling….

I switched the light and threw the phone at him

Me: Here is your hoe calling, you can go to her if you want to and fuck off

He took the phone and cut the call

Sonke: Baby please, I don’t know what is it that she wants

Me: At this time?

Before he could finish that sentence the phone rang again, he looked at the phone and ignored
it, I grabbed the phone

Me: Let me help you

I answered

Me: Sonke's phone hello

Noma: Okay can’t you see on the caller ID who is calling

Me: Sorry but this number is saved as Ex so I am still trying to figure out which Ex is this and
why on earth is this Ex calling my man at this time of the night

Noma: Bitch its Noma, now put my fiancé on the line

Me: Okay fiancé hold on

I looked at Sonke

Me: Fiancé your other Fiancé wants to speak to you

Sonke: The fuck, Please tell that bitch I am busy with my future wife tell her to stop calling me
Me: Can you hear that?

Noma: Fuck you

She hung up, I threw the phone at him

Me: Well your fiancé is waiting for you, so you may go and fuck her

I walked down stairs, I added more wine to my glass and he came down and he pulled the glass
from me

Sonke: That’s enough Lethu

He carried me to the bedroom and switched the lights off and he came to bed

He held me so tight to me as if I was planning to escape

Sonke: I hate seeing us like this

Me: I hate you for allowing other people to destroy what we have

Sonke: I hate the fact that I don’t know what I want but all I know is that I love you and I want
you only, I love Lethu, you are my fiancé now and I will marry you.

I started crying

Sonke: Shoo, baby I am here and I will always be here, I won’t cheat on you again and that I
promise you, I will be the best man that you have ever been with and I swear on my life I will
love you till the day I leave this earth.

My pillow was wet with my tears, all I felt was his warm hands all over my body asI fell asleep in
his arms

Sonke: Baby wami

He touched my face

Sonke: Sithandwa sami please wake up

I turned my head to get his hands off me

Sonke: Lethu

I opened my eyes and Sonke was next to me

Me: Sonke please just 5 more minute

Sonke: baby your brother is on the line

Me: Sonke I can’t speak to him right now

Sonke: baby

Me: I will speak to him later on today I just need more sleep

Sonke: Fine

I heard him speak to someone on the phone then he put the phone on the side of his bed, he
came closer to me and put his hands on my waist pulling me closer to him.

Sonke: Baby, Bantu is coming down tomorrow to discuss the Lobola negotiations

Me: On a Sunday?

Sonke: Yes

Me: Okay

He kissed my shoulders and my neck

Sonke: Lethu I want you

I ignored him

Sonke: Please give me you

I ignored his request

Sonke: Please

I won’t lie I wanted him too, it was 8am and probably his maid was already in the house but I
wanted him, we kissed and while we were getting it on but we needed.

Me: Please get a condom

Sonke: Baby we don’t need a condom anymore

I stopped sexing him and looked at him

Me: Ngoba?

Sonke: We will be official now, we won’t need it

Me: No ways

Sonke: You can go on a pill if you are not ready to have my kids

Me: As soon as you stop fucking other bitches maybe we will stop using a condom

Sonke: You didn’t have to put it down that way

Me: No condom, No sex

He woke up and took out a condom and he put it on

Sonke: Happy?

Me: Delighted

Sonke: I am not putting on the condom cause you don’t trust me but I am putting it so you won’t
fall pregnant, I don’t want you to blame for having a child that you never wanted

That bruised me, It hurt me cause there is nothing I would love more than to have Sonke’s kids.

I was hurt cause I would love to have his baby but I did not take it to heart, I focused on us as
we had the craziest rough sex ever.

Sonke knows how to hit it right, he knows how to get me screaming for all the right reasons, he
holds it down and to be honest, he is the best for me and I don’t want to taste anyone's dick
besides his.

We bonded for a while than he went to take a shower, I laid in bed for a while then I grabbed a
condom and followed him into in suit then in to the shower.

Me: Can I join

Sonke: Anytime

I walked in and I gave him the most amazing blow ever and I needed to cover up for the first
blow I gave him, I took my own time with him, all he could do was moan and say

Sonke: Hawema….baby…Lethu I love you….mmmmhhhmmm…baby you so damn

good….MaKhumalo I love you…..

I inserted the condom on him and he picked me up and put me against the shower glass and he
slowly got inside me and he started stroking me and all I think I said was his name and
gibberish and he was responding with moans, after we both reached the climax he put the
shower gel all over my body and washed me with the scrub and I did the same, we kissed
nonstop until we were done.

I wore a tight golfer dress from Aca Joe with Armani sneaker, I felt so sexy as I had a G-string
underneath with a matching bra I decided to put my hair into a pony as it was wet and all messy
after that shower sex we had, I put my stud gold earrings with pink gloss, I went down stairs and
to my surprise he had made breakfast, a full English breakfast.

We had breakfast and he said we have to be at gateway at 11am as we have to do grocery

shopping, at 11am we were in gateway and we did a grocery shopping and we had lunch once
we were done, we went home, I had to tell him the plans we have with the girls since he will
explode if I don’t tell him.

I told him my close friends will be coming over tonight and he said no, I have to spend the night
over at SmallVille because my brother will be down to discuss Lobola negotiations

I woke up from the couch with so much shock

Me: What did you say?

Sonke: Lobola negotiations

Me: When?

Sonke: Tomorrow

Me: Fuck

I took my phone and I ringed my brother

Bantu: Hey sisi

Me: Hey Bantu

Bantu: I tried calling you this morning but your boyfriend, sorry your fiancé answered

Me: I am sorry, I was still sleeping

Sonke: Well just know that Emzini you have to be awake at 4am

We both laughed out loud

Me: That is too early for me

Bantu: I know, I am still trying to figure out if that boy knows what he is getting himself in to

Me: Hawu Bantu

Bantu: Don’t cry now, I am joking

Me: I know boet

Bantu: Please make sure you are home, I am on my way to Durban with Bbaba omdala, I had to
start Empangeni and Richards bay to pick them up for the negotiations

Me: Okay I will pick my friends up then and I will come home

Bantu: Okay, Later then

Me: Love you

Bantu: I love you to

We ended the call, I looked at Sonke

Me: I will leave at 4 to pick Goodies and Zeeno then go home

He smiled and looked at me

Me: I guess you have the whole house to yourself and you can be a hoe about it

He laughed

Sonke: I love your pussy, it’s my addiction

I gave him the stare

Sonke: I was thinking before you leave, we should have a round or two

Me: Mxm

I just walked up stairs packed a few things I might need and I left the house with him watching
soccer and having his beers.

I drove to pick goodies up from gateway, I texted Noxy and Zeeno that I will meet them at home
and not Sonke’s house since they are having the Lobola negotiations tomorrow I will have to be
home

They all seemed happy we drove home to smallVille with Goodies and Mathema had already
cooked a great meal and it smelled divine

Around 6.30pm we were all eating supper so we decided to get wine and drink at the Jacuzzi
with our bikini's

Sonke called me over 20 times telling me he loved me and he missed me and he is with his
uncles at his place planning the Lobola negotiation strategy so my brother will not kill them with
the price.

He spoke to my squad on loud speaker and told them to take care of me until tomorrow as I will
officially be his wife.

The girls loved him, even Zeeno who is so choosey when it comes to man, she approved of
him.

We stayed on the Jacuzzi and Mathema joined us and she gave us advised on relationships
and she told me I must make sure that I am making this decision from my heart and that I must
study and graduate before I agree on having a child, she also had wine and we were so wasted
that we fell asleep on the couch

4am Mathema woke us all up and told us we need to shower and help with cooking as my
uncles and brothers are upstairs and Sonke’s family will arrive in no time.
I had to use a long traditional outfit and put a scarf on head for respect and I stayed in my room
until I was told the Shange’s car is outside

The time was about 6am,

When the intercom buzzed I ran to the window to see the Shange family, Sonke was not there
and I didn’t know anyone from the three Shange members that were there but apparently some
knew me, they stood outside with cash and a bottle of whiskey, after a while my dad's brother
went to the gate he allowed them in

After one hour and 30 minute I was called downstairs with my sister and they asked the Shange
family on which daughter they came for and they pointed at me then my uncle dismissed us
Noxy and I walked back to my bedroom and after one hours I was called down and told the
Lobola negotiation was a success and I am now soon to be Mrs. Shange, I was happy as I
walked back to my room and Sonke called me just before I could sit on the bed

Me: Hubby

Sonke: Wife

I giggled

Sonke: Thank you for allowing this even though I am such a mess

I was quiet for a while thinking of the love bite I saw and scratch marks and I imagined him with
someone else, my heart skipped a beat and I took a deep breath in

Sonke: Are you there?

Me: Yes I am

Sonke: I want you to come live here permanently and I have requested that from the elders

Me: So soon?

Sonke: You don’t want to?

Me: I do?

Sonke: Then we sorted, listen my uncle is calling me, I will speak to you later

He Hung up

Bantu walked up to my room and he hugged me while sitting next to me

Bantu: So you are now Mrs. Shange to be

I took a deep breath looking at him

Bantu: He loves you I guess

Me: How do you know

Bantu: Uyamazi ubaba omdlala uyithanda kanjani imali

I laughed out loud

Bantu: Uzame ukubalekisa labantu baka Shange but they handles the game well, The Shange
wanted you as a wife at whatever cost

Me: How much did you sell me for

He laughed out loud

Bantu: The Lobola money will be put in to a safe and we will use it for umabo and traditional
wedding, it is not for spending

I laughed

Bantu: So today is your last day la

Me: I will leave tomorrow bantu, we can chill together since it is a holiday

Bantu: The Shange wants to leave with you today

I looked away

Bantu: They are your new family now

Me: I know

Bantu: We are still your family too and if you want to come home, you are welcome

I hugged him

Bantu: I will see you downstairs

I wore my ring and went downstairs and we had a family lunch with the Shange Family.

My dad’s brother took me to our traditional outside building where have and he lit Impepho and
thanked the ancestors for this day and explained that I am now a member of the Shange Family
and not a Khumalo, he asked them to protect me on this new journey I was about to take.

He gave me advice on how I should behave with my in-laws and I should always respect my
husband.

We walked back to the house as I said my goodbyes and we got in to our cars, I drove my own
car as the Shange elders drove in their own car, I was told we are going to Enanda as there is a
ceremony there. When we got there they welcomed me with a white goat and Sonke’s uncle
took me to the bedroom where he burnt Impepho and spoke to the ancestors and told them I am
now a member of their family, the ancestors must take care of me and protect me through it all.

We spent a couple of hours with his family, Sonke took me to his outside room and said this is
where we will sleep when we are visiting here, the twins were so happy to see me and I was
too, I love them so much

Sonke’s mom had a traditional brewer made and she was having the time of her life, her friends
were helping with everything and she introduced me to so many people, we also had dinner at
Sonke’s home and then Sonke announced that we have to leave early since we will be
celebrating our engagement

Sonke told his family that he has booked velvet lounge in Florida as a small engagement party
celebrate for us.

Sisanda his sister said she will join us and Sonke told her she must get ready as we will be
leaving in the next 30 minute

She came back dressed in a black number and she looked stunning

Me: She is going to have a lot of number request tonight, she looks hot

Sonke: She has twi kids and a boyfriend so I will fuck her up right there should she try that shit

I laughed

Sonke: It’s not a joke

Me: Sorry

Sonke: Wenake you are no longer allowed to wear all those short things as off today

I gave him the stare as we walked in to the car and we drove off with Sisanda.

We got to the house within 45 minute but Sisanda was not comfortable being stuck with her
brother and his fiancé

Sisanda: Guys, I am meeting my friend in town and then I will meet you guys at velvet

Sonke gave her the deadly stare

Sisanda: Hayi Sonke, it’s a female

Sonke: Ubani?

Sisanda: Ngeke umazi

Sonke: Fine
He pulled out R500 and gave her, she requested for an Uber while Sonke made something to
drink, her ride was outside in 5 minute and we buzzed her out.

I was happy and glowing as I am now Mrs. Shange traditionally and my family loves him

I loved him more

I undressed and got into the shower and I was smiling to myself and day dreaming, the shower
door opened and Sonke stepped in with a sealed condom on his hand

Sonke: One round

I giggled

Sonke: Just for control

I laughed out loud, I put my hands around his neck and I kissed him, he came in and pulled the
shower door to avoid the water spilling on the bathroom mat

He put his hand on my waist as we got into that deep kiss that we even forgot we are wasting
water, he turned me around and he put on his condom than entered me from behind, he fucked
me so good that I even said I am ready to marry him, we kept it quick as the time was not on our
side, he left me in the shower and I spent time day dreaming again until he called for me

Sonke: Lethu sheshisa baby everyone is waiting for us manje

I quickly grabbed a towel and ran to the bed room, Sonke had a gorgeous navy blue buffy skirt
in the bed with a champagne loose silk vest

Sonke: Here is your outfit

I looked at him and he was already dressed in navy blue skinny chinos and he folded them at
the bottom with a navy suede shoe and a champagne color shirt

Sonke: Baby qoka phela

I wore my black G-string and matching boob tube bra that had a string in the front, I didn’t even
put lotion on properly as he was watching my every move, I put on the vest the skirt and I
decided to wear black accessory

I had to decide which shoes to wear but he choose my champagne color heels from woolies and
I put on my perfume and we were set to go

He took out my navy blue small handbag from nine west and he gave me I put my phone, wallet
and wipes then we walked downstairs and walked to the car

As Sonke drove the car he held my hand

I was nervous as I imagined how the party will be and who will be there and if everything will go
well.

I was quiet in the car as Sonke kept squeezing my hand.. he cleared his throat

Sonke: I know it’s too early to say this as you are still trying to figure out how much I love you
but thank you for choosing me and thank you for learning to trust my love for you

I smiled as we looked at each other and then he looked away focusing on the road

We were like small kids who just had their first kiss, I was in love and he was in love, the world
only revolved around us at this time and I wanted him more than he could ever imagined, I felt
as if he was the reason why I did not give other guys a chance as God was keeping me pure for
him, he was my world and I did not see anyone above him, He was my heaven and earth and
being with him made me the happiest human being on earth, despite the shit he does when he
gets drunk with bitches and come home with love bites, he was a good lover, a good fucker and
a good boyfriend, he made sure I am happy and I well taken care off, he showed me he would
kill for me and he proved I am the one for him. He was my Zorro as I had a crush from Zorro
since pre-school days.

Chapter 16

I woke up with my phone ringing and I ignored it but it woke sonke up as he also complained

Sonke: Lethu your phone is ringing

I ignored both Sonke and the phone, The phone stopped ringing for a while then ringing again

I looked for it under my pillow and I found it, I looked at it and it was a number not saved but
looked familiar, I answered

Me: Hello

Voice: Lee what why did you block me?

Me: Who is this?

Voice: Lethu its Marcus

I looked at the time and it was 4.20am

Me: Marcus why are you calling me at this time?

Marcus: because you blocked me Lethu, why?

Me: Please call me after 9am and then we can talk nxa

I hung up but the nigger called again

Me: Dammit Marcus what do you want from me

Marcus: What’s up Lethu? you are being strange right now and why on earth would you block
me?

Me: My boyfriend blocked you so please do your drugs and stop calling me

I ended the call and put my phone on silence

Sonke: Uyazi lomfana wakho ungijwayela kabi Lethu, he know you are with me so why the fuck
is he calling you at this time? Why would he be so irate when you blocked him? Kuyacaca
ukuthi imina islima la,

I took a deep breath and I woke up, put on my gown and sleepers and I went down stairs, I
decided to watch TV since I won’t sleep until the break of dawn with Sonke nagging me about
Marcus.

Sonke came down after 15 minute and he took the remote and switched off the TV

Sonke: Lethu this is how things will be now? You will just walk away and ignore me?

I ignored him

Sonke: Okay suit yourself

He went upstairs and I stayed downstairs pissed off and I started crying, I wasn’t in the mood for
campus but I had to get ready, within a week I will be writing my final exams and I don’t need
this stress and most importantly I don’t want to disappoint bantu.

I went upstairs and he was in the shower, I decided to take a bath, I added my water from Mr.
Majola and bubble bath gel and I got inside, he came out of the shower and looked at me, I
looked at him as he dried himself with a towel and then went to the bedroom, I remembered that
I needed to talk to him about visiting home to study properly, I bath and got off after the tub
within 10 minute and rushed to the bedroom, I walked in while he was dressing up

Me: Sonke I need to talk to you

Sonke: Now you want to talk?

Me: Yes, I am going home today

Sonke: Why?

Me: I am writing my final exams next week and I need to start focusing on my studies

Sonke: So? Akufundeki yini la?

Me: No kuyafundeka, it’s just...

Sonke: Just what? There is a study room down stairs so uvinjwa ubani ukuthi ufunde?

I stopped and looked at him with a sad face as he was acting like a jerk

Sonke: I am asking you a question, ubani okuvimba ukuthi ufunde layikhaya?

Me: No one

Sonke: Then you have your answer

Me: What?

Sonke: Playing Dumb does not suit you

I decided to shut up and just look at him being my boss

Sonke: You are not going anywhere

My heart shattered

Sonke: Get ready I will drop you off at campus, driving this car of your is making you lose your
mind

I opened my wardrobe and took off my sweat pants and a Nike t shirt and a jacket, I took out my
white air force and wore it, I looked silly then I changed, I took out my scarf and I put on my
make up, I decided to take off my sneakers and wore pointy heels to make is a bit sexy and I
put on a silky loose strap top and wore a long denim jacket over

He was sitting in the couch staring at me, I did the bed and I went to the bathroom to put my
string then I was set to go, I went down stairs took a fruit, gathered my laptop bag and books
bag and I told him I am ready, we got into my car and we drove off, he tried making a
conversation but I was not interested Nje

We stopped at the garage he put a full tank of diesel in my car and then we went to the
McDonalds drive through to get breakfast then drove me to campus,

We reached campus and Sonke dropped me off, I didn’t even kiss him goodbye as I was still
mad at him.

I got to class and I found max gossiping with Sean

Me: What have I missed bitches

I screamed across the room

Lecture: Excuse me Miss Khumalo, Please take a seat as we are revising for exams. We are
not in the club Please

I walked in and sat on the next available seat with embarrassment.

It was the longest hour of my life as Sean and Max were making conversation with me with their
lips, I am not good with lip reading so I was getting pissed off as I wanted to know what was
happening.

Everyone looked at me and I knew I was the only one who does not know anything since I was
skipping classes too often.

As the time went by it eventually wore off as the revision was real, the exams were just around
the corner and we had to make sure we study hard.

When the session was over I walked out last from the class room

Sean and Max were sitting at the canteen when I walked in up to him

Max: Good lord lee

Me: What?

Max: It is so hard to get hold of you

I laughed

Me: No you the one that have been a stranger though

Sean: Never mind that boo, how are you feeling though?

Me: Well I am alive Guys and getting fat

I laughed,

Sean: I can see that

Me: Come on guys, you make it seem like I was sick or something

The looked at me and then looked at each other

Sean: She doesn’t know

They both looked at me

Me: What?

Max: Didn’t you see Facebook?

Me: Facebook? What is happening with Facebook?

Sean: Oh father

Max: We are skipping the next class

I turned around and everyone was staring at me

Me: What guys, Max talk

Max: I must talk?

Me: Sean

Sean: Me?

Me: Guys

Sean woke up and he grabbed me as we walked out of the canteen and went outside to one of
the benches under a tree

Max: I will show you something, promise you will not go all crazy on me

Me: I won’t

Sean: I don’t trust her

Me: I won’t *Yelling*

Max: Whoa

I gave him the stare

Max logged on this his Facebook account and went to his friends and searched for Sonke
Shange, He then went to his post on his wall

His last post was this morning and it read "Breakfast on the go with bae" and he tagged me on
it” We scrolled down and a photo he was tagged in by Nomza Noma, Max opened the picture, it
was Noma using Sonke’s gown in my in suite and Sonke shaving on the background, I put my
hands on my chest while Sean put his hand on my shoulder, I tried hard to held back the tears
but it just got the worst of me

Max: Lee
Me: What does the status say

Max looked at me

Me: What does the status say max *Snapped at Max*

Max: Owethu-Sonke

Me: When was it uploaded

Max was quiet for a while

Max: Saturday 9.45pm at Sunning dale Durban North

Me: What the fuck is this

Sean: There is more babe

I looked at max

I grabbed his phone and looked at these tags,

The next tag was at kwamashu at one and only Saturday 6.30pm “My weekend” Sonke was in
the background with Sithembiso drinking” I felt hot, I tried breathing in and out but I was failing

Sean: Boo

I took a few pulls of breaths in but I was struggling

Max gave me water and I drank half of the bottle

Sean: We need to fuck this bitch up

Max: Lo aunty Noma is losing focus and i am getting tired of her

I couldn’t talk and all these images were running through my head, I tried to figure out if it is an
old picture or not but Sonke did shave over this past weekend so it’s obvious that he shaved for
her. I snapped

Me: Max when did you see this?

Max: A couple of days now

Me: Why didn’t you call me?

Max: Lee

Me: You Sean?

Sean: Eeeh

Me: Fuck this

Max: I tried calling you but your phone rings once and then dies off

Me: Really now max, you lying to me… God I’ve been such a fool and my friends just watched
me

Max: I tried calling you this morning too lee, Listen

He took his phone and dialed my number bur it rang once and then the call got cut

Me: Let me see

I checked the number and it was mines

I took my phone out and I dialed max but a pop up on the phone was “Please remove the
number from the blocked list to dial it”

I looked at Max

Me: What the fuck is going on

Max: I am listening for your excuse

Me: Sonke

Max: Sonke what?

I went to my blocked numbers and I had so many people blocked and there were numbers that
are not even saved on my phone

I went to my WhatsApp and I also had Max and Ian blocked

Me: This asshole

I grabbed my bag

Sean: Baby

Me: Guys I am done with this dog…this ass-hole

I broke down and cried then I took my phone and requested for Uber

Sean: Boo no

Max: Lethu wenzani?

Me: I am going to his office now, this asshole has crossed the line

Max: You need to calm down first

Sean: Go home and wait for him

Me: No guys, in my house? My man? His Gown? Naked in my bathroom? Spending our
money? I will be damned

I walked out to the drop off zone to wait for my Uber while max and Sean ran after me

Max: We are coming with you

Me: I got this, Just check on me later

They gave me a group hug before I entered in to the uber, I got in and the Uber driver drove off,
I cried throughout the trip, I was so hurt and I felt so broken.

Sonke is supposed to love me and protect me from all this, I hate him so much.

The driver took me to straight to the LLS warehouse in Umbilo, when I got there the security
stopped the car and requested for an appointment card, I opened the back window for the
security guard to see me, I had tears in my eyes so he got a bit nervous

Security: Mrs. Shange you okay?

Me: Hi, is Sonke in?

Security: Yes mam he just got in

Me: I am here to see him, He knows

Security: Okay

He opened the gate as the Uber driver drove in, we go to the entranced and I took out my last
R100 from my purse and gave him and he drove off.

I went straight inside the building and went straight to his office, the receptionist tried to stop me
but I was in no mood for crap, I pushed his office door and to my surprise that bitch Noma was
there. Sonke stood up with such shock on his face while Noma stared at me

Sonke: Baby

Me: So this is how you do me Sonke?

Sonke: Baby…Lee

Me: Don’t fucking baby me Sonke

Sonke: Lethu

He gave me the stare while my eyes went straight to noma

Me: And you

Noma: I think it’s my queue to go

Me: Bitch sit right there, both of you think I am a fool neh?
Noma looked at Sonke and then looked at me as if I am crazy

Sonke: Lethu, I am at work la

Me: I saw all the Facebook pictures

Sonke: Pictures

Me: And wena Sonke, you fucking lied to me you ass hole

Sonke: Lethu ukuluma nami njalo?

I took my bag pack and flung it straight to him and he ducked

Sonke: Baby wenzani

Me: I hate you

Sonke woke up and walked to me

Sonke: Lethu stop this

I slapped him across his face and I pushed him so hard that he fell on top of Noma, I don’t know
where I got the strength from but I had it, Me *Screaming*

Me: How dare you Sonke? How dare you lie to me? How dare you cheat on me with this hoe?
you told me you are over her Sonke, you told me you didn’t sleep with her yet she was in my
bedroom, in my bath tub and in your gown, I fucking hate you Sonke and fuck you and her, the
two of you deserve each other, We are over

I was so mad even my face was place

I got out of the office and I slammed the door behind me, I heard the door opening and Sonke
was running after me

Sonke: Baby

I ignored him

Sonke: Lee

Sonke: Baby it’s not what you think as she stood in front of me and put his hands on my waist

I started hitting him with my laptop bag but he held my arms, he was to strong but I didn’t stop to
try and fight him off

Noma walked to us

Noma: Lethokuhle you are causing a scene

I stop hitting Sonke and I gave Noma a slap that she flew off across the floor
Sonke: You better shut the fuck up when I am talking to Sonke

She walked toward me

Noma: You bitch

She came attempting to hit me but Sonke stopped her

Sonke: Noma wenzani?

Noma: Your slut is losing major focus

Sonke: Ngicela uhambe Noma, this is all your fault and Facebook, ubuhlulwa yini ukuthula

I slapped her again while Sonke was still holding her and the security guard came in and pulled
me on the other side

Sonke: I told him not to touch my wife

The security let me go and I took my bags as I went to Sonke, he was standing next to Noma

Me: Where is my car key?

He walked backward

Sonke: baby calm down

The entire firm was on stand still, his employees were staring at us and I really did not give a
fuck, Sonke over did it and this time around he crossed the line

Me: I want my fucking keys now you bastard

He held my arms and put me against the wall

Me: What you going to do? Hit me like you always do when you cheat on me with this hoe, Go
ahead do it

I was so broken

He let me go and stared at me

Me: I hate you, no give me my fucking key now

Sonke: No

Everyone was still starring at us and Noma was still behind me

I took my heels and I threw it at him while he caught one and ducked for the other one

I was so mad that I wanted to kill him

Sonke: Baby Please calm down, you are causing a scene

Me: She was in my bed Sonke, you fucked her in our bed

My voice was crackling

Sonke: I didn’t fuck her

Me: You told me you are through with her, You promised me Sonke

Sonke: Baby I love you

Me: You stay with her, I am leaving you

Sonke: Never

Me: You such a hoe of a man

I walked to his office and I came back with my phone in my hand requesting for an Uber

He pulled me to his office and locked the door he slapped me so hard that I saw stars

Sonke: how dare you come here and cause such a seen, this is my business Lethu and right
now abasebenzi bami bazongithatha kanjani

I looked at him and I realized how much I hate him and I didn’t care what he was going to do to
me

Me: They will know the bastard that you are, you took your side bitch into my house and you’ll
uploaded pictures on Facebook

Sonke: Lethu

Me: Then you have the audacity to block my friends on my phone, you such a liar and I don’t
know what I saw in you, we are done so let me out of here and give me my god damn car keys

Sonke: You are not leaving here like this, I will not allow you to drive in this state

Me: You are going to let me out of here whether you like it or not

I started banging the glass door as his employees could see us from the inside you are in

He closed the blinds as I unlocked my phone to go back to the Uber app but he grabbed it and
threw it against the wall

Sonke: I said you are not leaving here, now sit down *Yelling*

Me: No I will not

His face changed from being sincere to being pissed, He came closer to my face

Sonke: Sit the fuck down and shut the fuck up before I turn you into the condition of that phone

I sat down, He took off his tie and unbuttoned the collar of his shirt

We both sat there in silence

He pressed 0 on his office phone

Sonke: Hey Soni, Tell everyone they can leave in the next 30 minute except for the security and
please pay all the casuals their wages, you will find it are in the office safe and make sure that
you cancel all my appointments as I have an emergency to attend to. Thank you Soni

He hung up and he looked at me as I was wiping tears from my face

Sonke: Is this how you behave now?

I ignored him

Sonke: I am talking to you

Me: You are asking me a dumb question, so I won’t answer that

Sonke: Your attitude

Me: Your cheating

He looked at me

Sonke: We are not leaving this room until we sort this out

Me: There is nothing to sort out, you have decided ukuthi ufuna ini empilweni yakho and clearly
I am not part of your list

Sonke: I chose you and I am still choosing you

Me: Why choose me when you still going to be fucking her?

Sonke: I did not sleep with uNoma

Me: the past weekend you guys were having a time of your life while I was at home

Sonke: I told you she was going through a lot

Me: To be naked in our in suit is going through a lot?

Sonke: She was taking a shower?

Me: In my in suite? While you shave

Sonke: Who told you all this?

Me: Spending cash on her at one and only? She was the queen I see

I woke up and looked outside the window and I stared at the cars parked on the parking lot

I started breaking down again

Me: You promised me, You promised me Sonke

I turned to look at him

Sonke: baby I made a mistake, I swear it’s you that I want, I don’t want her Lethu

Me: you lied to me, all this time you were lying to me, I want to go home

Sonke: No

Me: I am done with your dusty ass

Sonke: Into yokugcinake leyo, khohlwa, your home is in Sunningdale lee

Me: You call that a home? Where you bring all your hoes khona? you got some nerve telling me
that shit

Sonke: I am right here with you, it is you I want and Ngiyaxolisa about this and it won’t happen
again, give me the silent treatment, sleep on the guest bedroom, have your crazy nights out but
don’t leave me MaKhumalo, please, Ngiyazi ngiyiflop but I need you in my life, you are all that I
have right now and I want you no one else

I couldn’t stop crying

Me: I hate you

He stood up and came to my side of the table right at the window and he hugged me, I pushed
him but he fought me until I was in his arms

Sonke: I love you baby

I cried louder

Sonke: Don’t cry baby, I love you and you only, she was a mistake, I swear it was a mistake

I moved away from him and went to sit on the couch at his office

He came to me and sat next to me, i tried to compose myself but it was too difficult

Me: I want to leave now

Sonke: Siyekhaya right?

Me: I just want to get out of here

Sonke: at least tell me we are going home

Me: Okay right now I just want to be out of here.

He took the key out from his pocket to unlocked the door, he took his coat and placed it over my
shoulders, he took both our laptop bags and my handbag with the broken phone and we left the
building while the security was locking up, I sat at the back seat of my car

Sonke: Baby please come Ngaphambili

Me: No

Sonke: Lee

Me: Please don’t beg me

I was still crying so he just let me be

The drive was quiet and sad and emotionally draining.

We got in the house and I went upstairs to take a bath but I just saw their images in my in suite
and i got more upset, I gathered my toiletries and went to the guest bedroom downstairs, Sonke
was nowhere to be seen and I was not bothered by that, I took my clothes off with the string and
ran the water, I laid on the water for a while then then I fell asleep on the bath tub and I woke to
someone screaming my name and it was Sonke. I looked at him wondering what got in to him

Sonke: This water is cold

Me: It was warm

Sonke: Baby how long have you been here for, this water is ice cold

Me: Please leave

Sonke: Lethu

Me: I need to get out of the water, Please give me some space

Sonke: There is not a part of your body I don’t know Lethu, so must I leave the room just
because you are naked

Me: Get out *Screaming

Sonke: Fine, I will make a cup of tea for you, maybe it will make you feel better

He stepped out of the in suite, I got off and put all my things in the basket then I wore a guest
gown over and walked to the bedroom.

I sat in the guest room and watched TV from the bed, I tried closing my eyes but they were sore,
the room was so cold and my heart was aching

Sonke walked in holding 2 cups of hot chocolate

Me: I need to be alone

Sonke: I am not going anywhere

I could see in his eyes that he meant what he said, he put the mugs on my side of the bed, he
sat on the couch and he starred at me while I stared at the TV, I don’t even know what was
playing as my eyes were there but mind and heart was somewhere else
I was so mad, I started crying again, he woke up and came to me, he sat on my side

Sonke: Phephisa baby, I don’t know what I was thinking and quite frankly I was not thinking at
all, I didn’t know it will get to this and baby hurting you kanje is one thing I didn’t aim for

Me: What was your aim

Sonke: Baby can we not do this?

I looked at him as he was telling me that shit

Sonke: I swear I didn’t know about those pictures, I didn’t even realized I was tagged on
Facebook and I have untagged myself baby,

He wiped the tears of my face

Me: Do you realized how embarrassed I am? Do you even know how much you have broken my
heart? Do you realize you have killed us?

Sonke: Baby it won’t happen again

Me: It’s not about it happening again, it’s about the promises you have broken It’s about the
trust you have killed and it’s about you not doing it at all

I stopped crying waiting for a comeback from him but he was silent

Me: Nxa

I took the hot chocolate from the side of the bed and took a few sips while he had his head
buried under his hands

Sonke: I hate having to go through this with you, especially with your exams around the corner

Me: Yes and that is why I need to be at home with people that love me and care about me

Sonke: No, You need to be at home with your husband lethokuhle that care for you
Me: Care?

Sonke: Despite Amaflops ami, yes I care about you and us

Me: Why are you still here vele?

Sonke: I want to be with my wife

Me: You wife is somewhere out there

Sonke: You are my wife

Me: Not yet

Sonke: You are, you just don’t know it yet

My heart skipped a beat, What is he talking about now?

Me: Meaning?

Sonke: I love you

Me: Those words are useless to me now, Please leave

Sonke: No

Me: You always get your way out Sonke but this time I am for real, I need you to get out

Sonke: No

Me: Get out *Screaming*

Sonke: Please dlulisa baby

I looked away

Me: Nxa

Sonke: Please forgive

He came closer to me and he took the mug away from my hands and left it aside of the table, he
sat on top of me facing me and he kissed my lips

Me: Please don’t

I looked away, he kissed my neck and I pushed him away but he was too strong for me, I didn’t
have the energy, he lifted both my hands and put them against the head board, I tried talking
but he kissed me, I couldn’t move or talk, he continued kissing me until I was drugged into his
love, my body disobeyed me took Sonke’s side, he let go of my hands and opened my gown
revealing my boobs and shaved pussy, he had stars in his eyes that made me drip instantly, he
kissed my neck and gently handling my nipples, he lifted my thighs and pulled me towards the
middle of the bed and spread my legs apart, I immediately got drunk in love with his kissing and
before I knew it he was naked on top of me and riding the fuck out of me, he starred right into
my eyes, he tried to talk but he could not even utter a word

Sonke: Lethu mmmm Lethu i love you baby lami

He stopped and looked at me while enjoyed every single stroke

Sonke: Please tell me you love me too

Me: I love you too Sonke

He kissed my neck leaving love bites and he rode me smoothly and slowly, he kept stopping
and kissing me and then leaving love bites on my me, my hands lost focus as they were on his
back pulling him closer to me as I reach an organism, I came over twice with just the same
position, I moaning his name and I love you until my whole body shivered like I had fever and
before I knew it our bodies collapsed against each other, he didn’t stop kissing me on my neck
handling my boobs, he kissed me and got me more drunker then I was, his body was so perfect
and gentle on me, he was the one for me even though he has hurt me over and over. His was
bad at the way he treated me but my heart yearned for him as I loved him more than anything in
this world, he fucked me good every single time that we are slowly becoming sex addicts.
Sonke knew his way in me, it was not just sex but it was the way he handled my body, the way
he owned it and the way my heart skipped a beat every time I am with him. I looked at him as
he starred while laying on top of me

Sonke: You are mine, Please stop fighting me

Me: I love you boo

Chapter 17

I woke up with a headache, sore throat and my eyes felt heavy, I was sleeping on Sonke’s
arms, I tried to move but he pulled me back

Sonke: Stay baby please don’t go

I laid on the same position feeling his heart beat

Sonke: I want you next to me

I relaxed back into his arms and he started stroking my hair and running his fingers through my
body, We laid in silence

Sonke: Ngiyaxolisa sithandwa sami

He swallowed his saliva then he took a deep breath

Sonke: I am sorry for putting you through this Lee, I should have been a better man and a good
boyfriend to you, I know I have hurt you over countless times without deserving your
forgiveness.

I am a walking dog who is trying to change baby, I am very far from perfect and I don’t think I
will ever be perfect but I want to be perfect for you. Lee I don’t deserve you, you are so perfect
and I take advantage of that

My tears were already dripping on the pillows, I tried so hard to cry in silence but my breathing
failed me

Sonke: You always give me chances to make things right but I blow it then I go and hurt you
again. I feel so bad and hurt because you would never hurt me the way I have hurt you.

You have every right to blame me for this fall out, I know we are like this cause of me, my
cheating my abuse and my insecurities it’s all my fault.

Put it all on me Lethokuhle, I am an asshole and I don’t know how to be perfect for you

I could feel his heart beat increasing, he held me tight

Sonke: Every time I try to be on track I get tempted and then I ruin things cause of my
weakness, Lee Tell ngenzenjani ukulungisa izinto? Tell me what must I do to make things okay?
I don’t want to lose you MaKhumalo

I was quite for a while trying to ease the pain but it was too much

Sonke: See what I do, I make you cry in my arms over and over and I just don’t get it why I hurt
you so much when I love you this much, I cannot lie to myself Lethu, angiyilutho ngaphandle
kwakho and I swear in my life and my kids life. I love you Lethokuhle Khumalo

We were both quiet for a while, I cleared my throat while wiping my tears

Me: Sonke
Sonke: Sithandwa sami

Me: I will be sleeping in this room for a while

Sonke: Baby

Me: Please

He took a deep breath in and then out

Me: I just need space to clear my head

Sonke: Space?

Me: Living space Sonke

Sonke: Lethu

Me: I need to focus on my exams Sonke and then we can deal with us

My voice started breaking

Me: Right now I don’t have the energy to be dealing with this, My mind is just not functioning
well

Sonke: Baby that is what I am here for, to lift you up when you falling down

Me: I need me to deal with me right now

Sonke: Baby, let’s not allow people to come in between us

Me: Please Sonke

Sonke: Baby don’t push me away ngiyakucela

I lifted my head up and turned around to face him

Me: We will still be in the same house

Sonke: Different beds lee

Me: I need it

Sonke: No, we need to be sleeping next to each other

Me: Sex is not going to fix things Sisonke, It will never fix the fact that ulethe omunye umuntu
wesifazane kwethu and you shared our bed with her

I tried stopping my tears but I couldn’t

Me: I can’t even walk in to my own bedroom without thinking of you and her, I can’t even bath in
my own bathroom cause I see pictures of you and her
I cried while he stared at me

Me: Can’t you see how much this is killing me? I need to be alone for a while Please

I looked away

Me: Anyway, I am Just a few steps away from you

Sonke: Okay Lethu, Baby if this is what you want I can’t stop you but

He looked at me

Sonke: Can we eat supper together?

Me: I am sure we can work on it

Sonke: And spend time together on weekends with the twins

Me: Okay

We both were quiet for a while

Sonke: Mamiki cooked your favorite meal today, roasted lamb with spinach and feta with
wedges and butternut, I also got your favorite sparkling wine

Me: Thank you but I am really not hungry

Sonke: Please

I looked away

Sonke: I know I am in no position to be asking you for anything but please, It’s just food

Me: Fine

Sonke: May we?

We got up and we both wore guest gowns and we walked out the door, from the door entrance
there were roses Patel from the room all the way to the patio, I turned and I looked at him and
he smiled, I blushed a bit then continued walking, we reached the patio and there was a full
bouquets set of red roses with a big note written i am sorry. he sat me down and opened the
plate cover and the food looked yummy that my stomach grumbled, I didn’t even have much
apatite but the food was very attractive, he sat down opposite me and we ate in silence until we
were done, he put the dishes into the washer, I took my laptop bag and bag pack and went to
the room and I studies, it helped me keep my mind of things and the room was just perfect and
peaceful, I studied until I fell asleep in the bed

An alarm rang, I tried waking up but Sonke held me so tight, I opened my eyes and we were in
the guest room in bed with gowns and his phone was just buzzing on the other side of the bed

Me: Baby

Sonke: mmmm

Me: Sonke ufunani lana?

Sonke: One more minute baby

Me: Sonke

He ignored me, I grabbed his phone and switched the alarm off

Me: Sonke wake up

Sonke: baby

Me: Don’t baby me, ufunani lana?

Sonke: Baby I couldn’t sleep without you

Me: We agreed that I will sleep here alone Sonke

Sonke: I am sorry but I can’t do this, it’s so cold without you in our bedroom

Me: Jesus

Sonke: If you want we can move to this room baby

Me: That is not the point

Sonke: Asilale baby, come here, It’s too early to be having this conversation

Me: There is no NO with you

Sonke You were sleeping so peacefully I just wanted to hold you.

Me: I want to be alone in this room

Sonke: Think about it then

Me: Fine

Sonke: Come here

I stayed in his arms, His arms was so warm as it was windy outside, I wanted us to stay like this
forever, be in his arms every morning and every night, I love Sonke and I hated the fact that his
so undecided when it comes to me and Noma, I should have left him permanently when we
called it off the first time but now, now I cannot spend a days without him, I can’t even spend a
day without talking to him, I love Sonke and his supposed to be mine just as much.
I started thinking of my mom and dad and that if they were here I wouldn’t have been with
Sonke, I wouldn’t even be engaged and be in love kanje, my mom would have made sure I
ended this the moment it started and now I am so broken with no one to run to except for
Sonke, I started crying in silence and he felt it, he pulled me closer to him and kissed my
forehead

Sonke: Baby it will all get batter in time, I promise you

We stayed in bed for hours just holding each other.

His phone rang and he ignored it

Me: Please take it

Sonke: Having you in my arms is all that I need

Me: it could be an emergency

Sonke: From?

Me: It could be family Sonke

He let me go and pulled it from the side stand, he looked at it

Sonke: Noxy tried calling

I looked at him

Me: Please call her back, Phela I am phoneless at this stage since superman decided not to
save my phone

He laughed and kissed me on my forehead

Sonke: I will replace it love

He dialed Noxy and put her on loud speaker

Noxy: hey Mkhonyana, Unjani?

Sonke: Sho noxy, ngigrand wena unjani?

Noxy: I am good yazi, I am looking for Lethu, her number is on voice mail

Sonke: Nangu la eceleni kwami hold on

Noxy: Thank you

Me: Noxy

Noxy: Gosh you sound terrible, it’s either you are getting flu or you went out last night got
wasted and lost your phone and now you are hung over or you had to much fucking that you are
losing your voice

Sonke Laughed out loud while I cleared my throat

Noxy: Why are you so distance vele, you not even responding on the group chat

Me: Eish sorry sis, my phone screen cracked so i switched it off nje cause it pointless to have it
on when i can’t even use it

Noxy: Lol joys of having a hubby who will replace it, umosha imali kamukhonyana

We all laughed

Sonke: tell her Noxolo

I gave him the stare

Me: Whatever

Noxy and Sonke Laughed

Me: to what do I owe this call though ekuseni kanje

Noxy: kahle sis, u10 manje, udidiswa ukubanosonke cuddling in bed

While she laughed

Me: Noxy

Noxy: Okay Sean is mad at you cause today it’s his birthday and he has been organizing a get
together later on today and you are not responding on the chat

Me: hawu nox, We are writing exams next week, U organize ama party abi Mxm

Noxy: it’s not a party for 3 weeks, it’s a night out with friends and loved ones and it’s for a couple
of hours, you will rest on Sunday and study on Monday, yini ukubora?

Me: Hayi nje

Noxy: Sonke must join us too with his friends, max wants this thing big and I was thinking we
send him R500 each, then spend R500 on meat and drinks, it will be a grand each and a gift of
course

Me: Okay, where is he having this party?

Noxy: Newlands west kamawakhe, his got catering doing the deco now and he is buying staff
he needs, use Sonke’s phone for now to call him, i will send you his number on Sonke’s phone
okay?

Me: Okay Cool

Noxy: Later hone’s, buy Sonke

Sonke: Sho Noxolo

He pulled me back in his arms

Me: I am not in the mood to see people

Sonke: Umnganakho nje

Me: Yes but I am not a good company right now

Sonke: Let’s go love and make his day fab like he did in yours

I smiled

Me: I would love to but I don’t have nice clothes, I have gained weight and most of my clothes
don’t fit me

He laughed

Sonke: I know your style, I mess up and you shop?

Me: Don’t start with me

I bit him playfully and he pulled a pillow and started hitting me, I screamed and we started
paying with pillows until he grabbed me and placed me on the bed and started kissing me, I
had my legs wrapped in waist and his was in-between my thighs.

The door was flung open, we looked at the door and his mom opened was at the door Mrs.
Shange: Akuvukwa yini layikahaya?

We got up and fixed our gowns

Mrs. Shange smiled

Mrs. Shange: I loved that view, fanele nenze izingane manje, Ulwando nolwandle are getting old

Sonke and I looked at each other

Mrs. Shange: Wozani sidle, i made porridge

Sonke and I looked at her

Sonke: Ipharishsi?

Mrs. Shange: Yes, Wozani

We walked behind her all the way to the dining room and she had some flowers in the middle of
the table in a see through vase, lwandle and lwando were there, they ran to hug me and we
kissed and they told me they missed me and they have a gift for me, they ran to their back
packs and took out handmade gift cards and it had heartens on it with drawing and colors, I
looked at them and thanked them and they said thank you for the clothes you got us, I smiled
and I gave them the longest hug ever. I looked at them and I told them I love them we sat down
and we had porridge, I put Rama on mines with sugar and the boys had it with peanut butter, it
felt so good having something I haven’t had in a while and we chilled and the boys were just
killing me with laughter, we had a fruit salad thereafter and the boys asked to go play their
scooter games in their room, I walked up to go take a shower then Sonke’s mom requested to
speak to me and Sonke as she did not have much time.

Mr. Shange: Ninjani?

Sonke: Siright ma, kwenzenjani?

Mr. Shange: Lethu is not okay i can see that

I looked away trying not to look her in her eyes

Mrs. Shange: Lethu

Sonke: Ma Please, Lethu is fine

Me: I am fine ma

Mrs. Shange: I heard what happened at the warehouse, You receptionist told me

Sonke: I am going to fire that B****

Mrs. Shange: Ini?

Sonke: Sorry ma, I just don’t like people who mind my business

Mrs. Shange: Uzomugxoshelani? For telling me that truth? Or for telling me ukuthi
umuhlukumeza kanjani u lethokuhle?

Sonke: Hayi Ma uyabonake, everybody is adding their stupid comments

Mrs. Shange: shut up Sonke

She looked at me

Mrs. Shange: Lethu are you okay?

Me: I am fine ma, I am over it, Sonke and I spoke about it and we are fixing things

Sonke: uyabonake ma

Mrs. Shange: Shut up wena, You are a disgrace in the Shange family, If your father was still
alive ingabe uqondile uyeke lobufebe bakho, this is not how we raised you sonke, I did not raise
you to lay your hand on a woman and I did not raise you to use woman kanje, do you know vele
ukuthi ufunanini? Do you want this kids to grow up and do the things you do to woman? Abuse
and sleep around with them? Do you know ukuthi amantombazane ayathakatha manje? Do you
know ukuthu kiyafiwa yizifo manje? uzimisele ngani vele sonke

Sonke was quiet and his face changed to being pissed

Mrs. Shange: Ngikubuze umbuzo sisonke shange

Sonke: Ngiyamuthanda ulethu ma

Mrs. Shange: well you better wake up before you lose uLethu, Allot of guys would kill to wife her
and have kids naye and ngeke umuthole umuntu othanda olwando the way she loves them,
these kids have bonded with uLethu and now you want to take the most important thing to them
away? be a man and man up and stop hopping around

Sonke: Ngiyezwa ma

Mrs. Shange: if I hear anything ekanjena, I will call Lethu's family and tell them everything and
you will lose her and it will be too late, this child is too your to be dealing naloshidi

Sonke: Yebo ma

Mrs. Shange: Lethu uRight my baby

Me: I am fine ma

Mrs. Shange: okay, I just wanted to make sure that you are okay, you are such a strong woman
my baby

She walked over to me and hugged me and the she gave Sonke the stare

Mrs. Shange: sesiyahamba, i just needed to come here and talk to you’ll, siya eGateway to
watch I movie then go home

Me: Mmm That is nice, Granny with grandkids

we laughed

Mrs. Shange: *Screaming* Lwandle and Lwando wozani sihambe,

They ran to me and hugged me while Sonke ran upstairs and said he will take a shower and
drop them off at gateway. Sonke's mom told me to tell Sonke that she gave me the strings to
protect me for exams cause he doesn’t like these kind of things i said okay but I took it out
cause he was in the bathroom when I was bathing, she said don’t stress I will talk to him and
honey love him, Sonke needs to be loved and he will shape us, I promise you.

I sat with my boys until Sonke came down with shorts and a tee with flops and they left, I
decided to take a hot shower and I put my string on, I then walked naked to our bedroom as no
one was in the house, I got into our bedroom and I pulled out my black leggings with a long
length pull over and I went down stairs, I cleaned the lounge and dining room and Sonke walked
in and I was resting on the couch.

He had a chocolate cake slice from mug n bean with a iPhone packet

Sonke: I am sorry about your phone love, they replaced the phone since it was insured, they
transferred everything from that phone to this phone

Me: Thank you

I took my phone out and i had tons of WhatsApp and he opened quite a few of them i asked him
why he was on my phone and he said he logged in on WhatsApp by mistake, we shared the
slice but he was greedy and I ate a small piece of the cake.

We chilled together in the lounge while I organized my phone and I decided to call Sean

Sean: hey bitch, you better bring your ass here tonight and that fine man of yours here

I laughed out loud

Sean: Nizilungisile izinto kodwa?

Me: Well I can’t talk much because you know, his right here and he will trip if I talk about boys

Sean: Oh shit, you cannot talk?

Me: yep

Sean: Okay, so you coming tonight?

Me: what time does it start?

Sean: at 7pm but you have to be here at 5pm

Me: Okay, we will go Enanda later on and then come through

Sean: okay, pick goodies up and drop her off kini cause she will come with Noxy and her man,
Goodies will spend the night at her man’s place la E new lands

me: Okay, uphi u Ian and max?

Sean: Max is probably high with his blesser but he will be here ngabo 8pm and Ian is on his way
to help out.

Me: Okay ushoda ngani?

Sean: I need more booze and snack boo

Me: okay should I send you cash or buy booze

Sean: buy booze boo, I will send you WhatsApp and with change add snack and don’t forget my
gift

me: I haven’t forgotten, I will see you later boo

Sean: bye hoe and he hung up

Sonke: your friend is loud, you didn’t even wish him happy birthday

Me: lol I am saving the best for last

He laughed

Me: What time will your mom and the boys be done?

Sonke: she said I must pick her up at 3pm

we sat and watched cartoons they were playing on TV since the twins left and we enjoyed our
us time until mom called to be picked up, we drove with Sonke’s to gateway, we went to
Sportsceen and I bought Sean a pair of jays and nerd glasses, we met with Sonke’s mom at the
drop off zone, we ordered pasta from Tasha’s and kiddies meal pasta at Mimmos and then we
drove to Enanda to drop them off, we dropped mom and the boys off and then went to goodies
house to pick her up.

Chapter 18

Everyone was saluting Sonke as if he is some celebrity, he told me he has a soccer club and we
will come to watch them on Sunday, I was cool with it, goodies came through and we left to my
home in small Ville, I tried to entertain goodies but it was hard, I was not in my normal state and
I struggled having to, Sonke kept it cool with goodies and they reminisced about the old times
when Sonke used to be a professional soccer player and how much girls used to fall for him,
Goodies told him how lucky Sonke is by dating me and having to have me as his wife to be
since I was a very well behaved child is school and smart, Sonke agreed with her and he also
told goodies how lucky he is to be my fiancé and that he would never trade me for anything.

When we got to small Ville Noxy was ready to leave, we didn’t even drive in as we were all
rushing, we said our byes to goodies and then we drove back to sunning dale, I took a quick
shower when I got to the house and Sonke did after me and we got ready, he wore his diesel
blue low cut jeans and his Fabiani white t-shirt and diesel low cut white sneakers and his diesel
black buffy jacket.

I decided to wear matching diesel sneakers, white low cut with a bit of bling with my black
skinny jeans, I topped it with a see through black loose vest that revealed my red push up bra. I
put on my silver studs and a silver female boss watch and I had sling bag. he came closer and
held my waist before walking out of the bedroom

Sonke: You look so good that I want to fuck you now before we go
I pushed him out of the way

Me: We are late

Sonke: Please meet me half way lee

Me: we need to go and buy booze and the time is not on our side

Sonke: Promise me you won’t behave like this with your friends around

Me: My friends don’t have to know that my marriage is falling apart cause my man cheats

Sonke: Lee

Me: I won’t tell them

Sonke: Promise

Me: Fine

He kissed my cheek, we walked out of the house and we got into his golf and we decided to buy
booze at the Glenore spar since they close late, we got 24 pack of Bernini 24 pack of lemon
light and 2 bottles of Hennessey and 2 bottles of Jameson, I got myself 12 pack of purple ice
and 6 pack of red square reloaded, he added another 6 pack of red square reloaded, we got a
few packet of chips and we grabbed hot dogs for ourselves as we were hungry. We then drove
to new lands. We reached around 6.30pm and it was already happening, my friend had those
fancy marque up with deejay stand, it was too packed that we even had a problem getting
parking we had to call Noxy to find out where her car was parked.

She told us she kept a parking for us next to her car the we drove around looking for her 3
series, We eventually found it next to the house, we got off the car and Ian ran up and gave me
a hug and he shook Sonke’s hand.

We walked together to the house and Ian whispered in my ear

Ian: our crush is here

I looked at him then Sonke who was looking around the area and people were waving at us

Me: who?

Ian: DJ feel

Me: OMG Babe

Sonke: Yes

Me: Sorry babe, I am talking to Ian

Sonke gave me the stare as we walked in the marque

Ian: I tagged you on Instagram with his pictures I took of his now

Me: Ian

I gave him a dead stare as he laughed.

Sonke: Babe we forgot the drinks in the car, I will take them out

Me: Okay I will get a cooler box

Sonke: Okay

Ian and I walked towards the house and Sonke screamed my name, I turned and he called me
back to the car

Sonke: Ikhona I cooler box la, we will use ours

Me: Okay

Sonke was busy taking the drinks out and he left 1 Jameson and 1 Hennessey in the boot with
his mix, We also left 12 pack of purple and 6 pack of red square in the boot, I went to the
marque and I saw Sean, we ran to hug each other and I had his gift in my hand and he took it,
held my hand and ran to the bathroom since the house was too full, he looked at it and said
OMG boo, he screamed and hugged me.

Sean: Jay boo *OMG-Screaming*

He took the box out and inside was the glasses with a gateway gift card which I didn’t know
about, he took it out and it had R500 credit on it. I assumed Sonke threw that in

Me: From Sonke and I

Sean: bitch please I know, you can’t afford these sneakers

I laughed and hugged him

Me: Happy birthday boo, I love you

Sean: I love you too boo

Me: I am glad you like them and No Sonke did not buy them we did together, I paid and he
helped me choose

Sean: So you guys are okay?

I looked away

Sean: Lee
Me: We making it work Sean, We just going through a lot and I don’t want to stress you about
my drama

Sean: Boo, you know I am here for you

Me: I know boo, we will talk after the party okay

He hugged me the we went outside as people were already getting down with amavosho,
Sonke was sitting with Noxy's and goodies boyfriend Ike, Sonke was drinking his Hennessey
and the other 2 guys were drinking Cruz, He looked a bit lonely so I walked over to him, I
greeted everyone one and they greeted me back then I sat on his lap and kissed him while
everyone was like *Get a room please*, Sonke didn’t pay attention to them as he kissed me
back then we stared at each other’s eyes for a few seconds then I woke up

Me: I am going to help with ukuphaka

Sonke: Okay, don’t take too long

Me: Okay

I walked to the kitchen I helped dish the braai meat and the time flew faster than expected, after
we were done eating Noxy and I helped clean up the kitchen and the dishes then I went to sit
with Sonke who was now sitting with Goodies, Ike, Banzi, Noxy and Ian, we all chilled while
Sean came out with a hot outfit and everyone stood up and sang for him like he was a
goddess and he was dancing and after that he had a speech where he thanked everyone for
coming and for the gift, He will be tagging all of us on Facebook and Instagram and he asked for
everyone to enjoy themselves.

After a while late max came and he looked so high with an old dark suthu man who sounded
like a Tswana from JHB, they both chilled in our table but max did not seem pleased.

Max called me aside to talk

Max: Honey

He hugged me and I hugged him back

Me: Who is that guy?

Max: My man

Me: That I have never heard off

Max: We met 2 nights ago and I have been crashing at his hotel

Me: Where is he from?

Max: Tswane

I laughed out loud

Me: I thought as much, his accent

Max Laughed

Max: Wena No Sonke? Zishap

Me: We still together

Max: No lee

Me: I love him

Max: Ukuthi adlale ngawe kanjena? He fucking broke your virginity and now he is going around
acting like a hoe

Me: We making it work Max, I don’t know what is up with him but ngiyamuthanda

Max: I won’t tell you what to do but he is bad news nje and you deserve better

I smiled and kissed his lips

Me: Relax, I am a big girl

He held on tight to me

Max: I got weed

We stared at each other

Me: I want some

Max: Follow me

He took me to the bathroom, we locked the door and he lit an already made weed and he
smoked , I had a few pulls as I didn’t want to overdo as Sonke was going to notice, after the
smoke Max gave me a mint gum, I washed my hands then we walked out. When I walked back
to the table Sonke was staring at me and I tried by all means not to look his way as I did not
want our eyes to meet.

As soon as I sat on the table DJ feel started playing, max, Sean and I ran to the dance floor,
Noxy and goodies were there already and we were broke it down, I don’t know how to dance but
I rocked ama voshso, Max and Ian put on a show that everyone were cheering for them, there
were so many hotties and a few tried hitting on me and I pretended like I didn’t notice, there
were to many hoe's and they were sexy as fuck.

I felt Sonke’s hand on my shoulder and I turned and he held my waist, it was too loud where we
were so he was not talking, he just ran his hands on my bums and squeezed them that I felt my
panty liner getting moist, he then held my hand and pulled me out the dance floor and we
walked to the table, He took his seat and pointed at my seat with his eyes, I sat down
Sonke: i don’t know ukuthi wenzani but sit you ass down

He took his glass and poured his Hennessey, I was a bit embarrassed as Ike was there.

I gave Sonke the stare and he just didn’t give a fuck about it

Ike looked mad as hell

Ike: uG uzongithola kahle today

He looked

Ike: Please go call your friends to sit down, Utshwala sebehlela ngezansi

Sonke gave me the stare as I woke up and went up and tell goodies her man is mad and said
she must come sit down. While I was talking to goodies, Dj feel got off the stage and walked
towards us

DJ Feel: Ladies

I smiled

Sean: Thank you so much for making my day

DJ Feel: It’s my job

I looked at him as our eyes me

DJ Feel: Lee Right?

Me: Yes

He gave me a hug and lord i wanted to faint cause I was too lost in that hug then he pulled away

DJ Feel: You look fine and gorgeous in person

Me: Thank you

Sean: She is taken bra

Me: Sean

DJ Feel: I don’t see a ring on her finger

We laughed

DJ Feel: It was good to meet you Lee, I need to get to my job

He then walked back to the stand and continued with Deejaying.

I was scared to turn and walk back to the table as I knew sonke was staring at me.
I left Sean standing with a few of our university mates i walked to the table and Sonke sat like a
gangster on the chair and watched me walk up to him as I sat on his lap and hugged him

Sonke: usudakiwe manje uyabo? Maybe we should go

Me: No baby not yet

akA all eyes on me played, I stood up and I pulled him up to dance. He woke up and we
danced, I kissed him and he kissed me while we were dancing, I put my hands on his neck and
he had his hand on my waist.

Max walked up to us

Max: this is what we want to see, not other bitches tagging you on Facebook

I laughed as my friend was drunk and he was going to piss Sonke off, I stayed in Sonke’s arms
and I pretended like I did not hear max, when the DJ changed the song we had snacks and we
all sat together with my squad and their partners, we took pictures and max uploaded it on
Facebook and tagged Sonke and I, his status was my favorite couple, I decided to put our
squad picture up on Instagram and I tagged them all including Sonke.

I was on my 9th bottle of purple ice and Sonke was almost half way down with his Hennessey
bottle, we were getting sloshed and max and I were getting high as we kept smoking weed in
the bathroom and it was the same slope he came with, I stopped dancing since Sonke had a
problem with it but he was loosening up a bit as he was now dancing, my man was so hot as
fuck and most girls kept trying to get his attention but his eyes were on me, I did not keep my
eyes of him as I wanted no bitch around him, and I made it well known that he was my man
every time he woke up to dance.

Max walked up to me and told me some is calling me, I kissed Sonke and told him I will be back.

I followed max to the parking’s near Noxy’s car, Marcus was standing there with a bottle of black
label, and He looked drunk and messy.

Me: Marcus ukuthu ufunani la?

Marcus: Damn Lethu

He gave me the “I want to fuck you ” stare and bit his lower lip

Me: Yes Marcus

Marcus: Mfethu uyababa today bra, uyanyisa

Me: You haven’t answered me

Max: Let me leave you two to talk

I stared at Marcus
Marcus: I saw the pictures max uploaded on Facebook then I had to come see you personally

Me: Well here I am

Marcus: Lethu your bf is lucky yazi

Me: Thank you

I walked away but he pulled my hand, I turned around to look at him

Me: What?

Marcus: So you really over me?

Me: Marcus I am engaged

Marcus: But I love you

Me: OH when did you realize that?

Marcus: I was childish back then lee

Me: Marcus, that’s like a year ago

Marcus: Okusalayo ngiyakuthanda

Me: You are wasting my time right now

I pulled my hand and walked away to where sonke was sitting

Sonke: Uphumaphi?

Me: I was looking for Ian, I need to speak to him

Sonke: Don’t piss me off Lethu

Me: Ngani?

Sonke: Who was asking for you?

I looked at him

Sonke: Ungangihlanyisi lee, not here and not tonight

Me: Sorry ke, i will sit down

Sonke: I am asking you uphuma kuphi? Kubani?

Max walked up to me and Sonke

Max: Lethu come let’s take a walk

I looked at Sonke

Me: Excuse me

We walked to the bedroom and we lit the weed and smoked, I was sitting in the seat and max
was sitting at the edge of the bath tub

Max: So?

Me: Bra

Max: Things seemed a bit tense there, zishap vele?

Me: I cannot tell him I was busy talking to Marcus in the dark behind cards, he will lose it

Max: Hayi nawe nalomfana, I just don’t like him for you, his too ghetto

Me: Max, No, his my man and I don’t want to have this conversation

Max: Hayi kodwa don’t say I didn’t tell you so, pull out while you still can

The flanged opened

Me: baby

Max dropped the weed on the floor

Sonke looked at max then me

Sonke: you smoke weed lee?

Me: No max is smoking it not me

Max picked up the weed on the floor

Max: you want some Sonke?

Sonke walked in towards me

Sonke: You are fucking sinking of weed and you have the audacity to sit there and lie to me

Me: Baby I am not lying, Max is

Sonke slapped me across my face that I fell next to max

Max: Sonke what the fuck?

Sonke: You shut up

Sonke: We leaving

He walked out and I ran after him

Me: Sonke wait

He turned around before we could exit the house

Sonke: Yazi wazewangiphoxa, ubhema insangu ematoilet ongawazi nezitabane? The fuck

Me: I didn’t

Sonke: You still lying to me

I started crying as my heart rate was beyond control

Me: it’s was just for fun babe

He left me and went to sit with Noxy and her man, everyone was drunk, I went and I sat next to
him

Sonke: Guys, I am tired and sloshed, so I am calling it a night

Banzi: Chill Sonke, it is still early

Sonke: I know but I have a long drive from here and namaghata abusy lately, I don’t want to be
arrested for drinking and driving

Noxy: Uqinisile u Sonke, we should call it a night

Sonke: Noxy, I think lee will be going home with you

Me: Me?

Sonke: Yes you

Noxy: Hawu, I will be staying over at Banzi’s place

Me: I didn’t say I was going home

Sonke: I am not driving with someone who stinks of weed

Everyone looked at me and I looked at Sonke

I then looked away and kept quiet

Noxy: Ngayihalelake manje

Everyone laughed

I woke up and looked for Sean and I found him in his room with some guys

I decided to leave him as he was getting laid while I was about to get dumped, I pumped in to
max and his max in the lounge and I told him I am leaving and we hugged and I left them to be,

I walked to the table with my bag

Me: Sonke I want to go

He stared at me from my hair to my toes, we woke up and said his goodbyes the crew, I did the
same and we walked to the car, we got in and he started the car without saying anything to me,

we drove home as he was blasting sSjava – shishiliza track and he had it on repeat.

I was slowly dying inside and I didn’t know what he will do to me when we get home.

We got to sunning dale and he parked on the drive way and locked the door while I waited for
him at the door entrance, he unlocked the door and we got inside, I put the alarm on and reset it
again as we were not going to leave thereafter.

The moment we walked at the door he grabbed my butt and he pulled me close to him, we
kissed each other while undressing each other

I guess we wanted each other more than we yearned for each other, he didn’t even want us to
go in one of the rooms.

He Pulled my jeans down and my t-shirt, I was left with nothing but my underwear on, I helped
him undress and we kissed on the couch until we were naked, he sat on the couch and I got on
top of him and rode him as he planted kisses on my neck, we were on another level and drunk
sex was so damn good, all I could hear was him calling my name and how much he loved me
while I said more or less the same thing, he stood up and carried me against the wall, I wrapped
my legs on his waist as he fucked me, my nails were digging in to his back as I screamed his
name, he fucked me so good that I reached such an amazing climax, he reached his climax a
few seconds after I did, Our bodies shut down as he carried me into the couch and laid me
there, He took the thrower on the couch and we snuggled on the couch together.

When I woke up he was not next to me on the couch but he was on the kitchen with his boxers
on making breakfast, my head was a bit light

Me: Baby

Sonke: Love, you awake

I looked around me and I was wrapped around with a thrower, I was completely naked

Me: We slept here?

Sonke: We fucked here, you don’t remember?

I smiled to him as he walked over and kissed me

Me: How can I, when you held me against the wall like superman

He laughed out loud

Me: Not so loud, my head hurts

He walked to the kitchen then he came over and gave me an ice cold red square

Sonke: Have this baby, you will be fine

me: Thank you baby

Sonke: Sdakwa and ntsangweni

I laughed out loud

Me: wusangifuni yini?

Sonke: Heyi phela umuntu uzokwenzenjani? I am stuck with you, End of February I will be
officially your husband

Me: I was thinking we get married on new year’s eve, have a night wedding and on the 1st have
the traditional wedding, in that case we will save a lot of money cause we will be celebrating
new years and getting married at the same time and then we can go away for a week and then
come back to focus on our business

Sonke smiled and looked at me

Me: What?

Sonke: I like

Me: What?

Sonke: Our business

Me: You will be my husband nje

Sonke: you are smart, I love you baby lami

Me: I love you too Shange wami

Sonke: okay this next 2 weeks you need to focus on the exams and we will then start planning
the wedding, I will try and do the booking and things as such, so which wedding are we having?
A grounds wedding? or warehouse wedding

We both laughed

Me: I was thinking a garden or beach wedding

Sonke: a garden wedding at Mt Edgecombe golf club, it would be great

Me: How about Virginia beach and then we will use the hall for the reception

Sonke: uqinisile but I will have to go home after the wedding cause we will have to be in Enanda
by 7 to welcome your family
Me: So we won’t spend our first night together?

Sonke: we will make a plan

Me: I love it

Sonke: i will arrange the booking and invitations baby, I will draw up a list of my invites and you
send me yours okay, I will have it posted by courier it

Me: Okay baby

Sonke: Let me warm our breakfast

Me: You made breakfast?

Sonke: It’s a guy thing to make breakfast after your girl gave you the best ride ever

I laughed as he walked back to the kitchen

Sonke grilled chicken & Beef and salsa we had it with garlic rolls, by 10am we were done and
we took a bath together and I wore his shorts and tee and he wore his sweat pants and t-shirt,
we chilled and bonding together, planting kissed and love bites on each other

We drew up a list of who to invite and I decided to have 4 brides maid and 1 maid of honor, we
agreed we will use Navy blue with white and Champaign colors, he told me he will take care of
everything and he will contact the wedding planner the next day. I decided to study as he was
doing his salary payment for his company.

Around 6.30pm he called me out of the study and told me supper was ready, I walked out of the
study to the dining room and the table was all done up, he had yellow rose on the table with
candles on

Me: Wow

He dimmed the lights and the place looked amazing

Me: What did I do?

Sonke: It’s what I did

He held my hand and sat me down on the table and he sat opposite me

Sonke: I want to show you how important you are to me, I have lost too much time doing the
wrong staff when all I should have been doing was this

I laughed

Me: True

He kissed the back of my hand

Me: The food smells lovely

Sonke: Stir fry with Greek salad with mash and gravy

Me: Healthy

Sonke: As you

Me: Thank you

Sonke: Lets Pray

He held my hand and he prayed the we ate, the food was not too amazing but I enjoyed it, it
was made with love and I appreciated it, A food cooked by your man is priceless.

After we had food he took out caramel pudding and it tasted like heaven, I just didn’t imagine
Sonke as this softie since he is so hardcore.

After supper Sonke gave me the morning after pills which I completely forgot about, we
showered together and then we headed for bed.

the next three weeks I was glued on my books and I spent most of my time studying in door and
driving to campus to write exams and drive back to our house, I did not even have time to chat
on my phone or use WhatsApp too often and Sonke made sure I am studying and he was also
testing me and helping me where I needed help on, we didn’t have much sex after I took the
morning after pills and I was on my periods, he tried to control his Horney-ness even though he
was a sex addict, he respected my decision for putting sex aside until I was done with my
exams.

On the 10th of November I wrote my last paper, after the exam he picked me up from campus
with max and max's side nigger to keys on davenport,

Max’s Bf was such a hot nigger and he was loaded that he offered to pay for the whole bill and I
didn’t complain, Sonke was not at ease but he had no choice as max wanted the nigger to
spend on him, Max’s friend showed up later on and Sonke and I decided to leave as he was not
cool with being surrounded by gays and lesbians.

When we got home all Sonke wanted was sex, we had almost three rounds of sex as that how
much we missed each other and he loved every bit of my body which made me love him even
more, he knew how to take care of my needs.

The next day I decided to visit my GP so I could go on a pill since Sonke was trying to get me
pregnant, the Doctor gave me antibiotics as I had sex the previous night and he put me on an
injection, Sonke did not like the injection part but I preferred the injection as I would forget my
pill every day.

Noxy was on a month trip away with her boyfriend and my brother depended on me and Sonke
to go to the company and see if everything was running smooth but it was and my brother
signed off any decisions that needed to be done and Sonke was so helpful in contacting the
driver and trucks servicing and maintenance and that my brother was so impressed.

We decided to send out our wedding invitations on the 15th of November which gave our guest
enough time to prepare and those who needed to be in Durban Sonke arranged a B&B stay for
his family that stayed in Eshowe and I had to make sure that I arrange accommodation for my
family from Empangeni and Ndwedwe, my home was big enough to accommodate all of them.

We spent the whole November in and out of the fitting rooms with the wedding planner and my
bride’s maid were on set and ready for the day.

My close friend Cindy will be my maid of honor as she is the only friend I have that is married
and she was old wise and mature, she is as fair as me and a bit thicker than me, her dress was
going to be the same as the brides maid dresses but hers was going to be navy with
champagne lace on the sides, for the traditional wedding we kept the same colors but my dress
was going a pencil dress and champagne in color with a fur navy blue shoulder thrower and with
a matching scarf.

Sonke was going to use champagne traditional outfit with navy blue layers and we agreed on
rocking navy blue low cut all-star. My bride’s maids were Goodies, Zeeno, Sibahle and Noxy
and his best man was Sithembiso, his cousin brother Nkosi, his business partner king and his
old time friend Jimmy. We agreed on platinum rings with black pearls, we had each other’s
initials added on each other’s rings, I wanted my ring as 1 piece and his as a 2 piece, and I was
fine with having curled weave platted on the side. My family was happy and the boys were going
to be my best man, we used king’s daughter as our flower girl and the kids were going you use
navy blue and gold

Chapter 19

On the 3rd of December I received confirmation from my university that I passed all my
modules.

I called Sonke as was at the office when I received the new, we agreed that we will go out and
celebrate as this is the best news ever.

I decided to call Bantu as he was the one waiting for these results more that anyone

Me: Hey Mr. Khumalo

Bantu: Sisi Wami?

Me: I have forwarded you an email

Bantu: Okay let me open my mails, I hope it is good news

Me: I bet you it is

He was quiet for a while

Bantu: Wow MaKhumalo, you have outdone yourself

Me: I told you

Bantu: Congratulations sisi wami, Now I allow you to get married

I laughed

Me: So what if I failed?

Bantu: You were going to be Miss Khumalo till you wear that black coat and hat

I laughed out loud

Bantu: I owe you a major gift for this and thank you for making me proud.

Me: Thank you for making me not give up on my education

Bantu: That is what I am here for sisi wami

Me: Okay before I cry, let me go

Bantu: I will see you soon

Me: I love you

Bantu: I love you more

We hung up.

I received an email from my university with an interview request to work at Ernest & young but
the interview was scheduled for January before my graduation.

I saved the date on my calendar then I called Sonke’s mom to plan Sonke’s birthday party

Me: Hi Ma

Mrs. Shange: My baby, unjani?

Me: I am fine ma and wena unjani?

Mrs. Shange: I am stressed, I have no idea what to wear for the wedding

Me: Hawu ma, we can send you cash if you are running short of it

Mrs. Shange: I will never say no to money

We both laughed out loud

Me: I can have the wedding planner to have a dress designed for you

Mrs. Shange: Hawu sithandwa sami, ingabe ungisizile

Me: Okay ngizomusendela I email manje then I will let you know ukuthi singamubona nini for
measurements

Mrs. Shange: Okay love, Ngiyabonga kakhulu

Me: Anything for my mom

She giggled

Me: Ma, I am planning a braai enanda for his birthday on the 16th

Mrs. Shange: Hawe Jesu, Yazi besengikhohliwe

Me: Nami ma, Ngikhumbuzwe yiremider efonini yami

Mrs. Shange: So ufuna ukwenza ibraai la enanda?

Me: Yebo ma, he loves where he grew up and he loves being that side so I was thinking of
having the braai there and we will spend the night there to

Mrs. Shange: That makes me so happy

Me: Can I leave the food department to you ma?

Mrs. Shange: Yes of cause my baby

Me: I will send you the money for food and meat and salads to you and I will speak to sisanda
on who will be invited

Mrs. Shange: Okay my baby, uyazi eloxion kuza ngisho intuthane, so we have to make sure
there is enough food for everyone

Me: Yes ma I know, so I thinks R5000 should cover the food?

Mrs. Shange: That will be more than enough, R2000 meat should do then we will buy drinks
with the rest

Me: Okay ma, I will update you with your dress and if there is any changes with the party

Mrs. Shange: Okay my love

Me: Thank you ma, bye

Mrs. Shange: Bye my baby

We hung up and I SMSed sonke’s friends about the braai and I asked them to spread the word
as I did not know all of Sonke’s friend’s.

I left the office and went home as it was already late, when I got home Sonke was already
home.
I walked in and he was not in the kitchen or the lounge so I assumed he was upstairs, I went to
the study and I left my laptop, I took of my shoes and walked to our bedroom and Sonke was
not there, A new black short dress was on top of the bed with a black G-string and a matching
bra, a red rose was next to the dress with a note written “A big congratulations to my wife for
getting your degree, please use this dress as your man is taking you out tonight”

I sat on the bed and I reached for the dress, it was stunning as it was a chiffon material and it
was too sexy, imagining myself in that dress turned me on.

I grabbed my phone and tried calling Sonke but his phone rang on his side of the bed, I
wondered where he was as his car was on the drive way

I took a quick shower and wore the dress and wore black heels and I put my hair in to a pony
and I went downstairs.

He was sitting on the couch using black jeans with a white golfer and while Lacoste shoe

Sonke: Here is my smart princess

I blushed as I walked towards him, he stood up and walked to meet me half way and he kissed
me, he went upstairs and came back with his phone and car keys

Sonke: Ready?

Me: Yes

Sonke: Great, You look stunning

Me: Thank you, you good with my clothes

He kissed my forehead then he reset the alarm and we drove in his golf, we got to davenport
and we parked outside Oliver and oil and we walked upstairs, we sat outside the balcony and
we had their started which was out if this world and their pasta was something that I have never
tasted before, it was out of this world. He handed me a gift from his pocket and he asked me to
open it and I did without even trying to figure out what it was, It was a pure gold chain with a
heart pendant on it, I opened the pendant and it had a picture of us in it

Sonke: This chain to remind you on how important you are in my life

I shed a tear on my left eye and he wiped it

I took the serviette to wipe both my eyes as he smile at me

Me: Thank you

Sonke: It is not much but trust me it comes from within

Me: I love it

We kissed and we continued eating the desert, once we were done we went to O’Bryan’s and
we had a few drinks there then we drove home, As soon as we reached home Sonke smacked
my ass while I was opening the door and I wanted him right there and then but I controlled me.

We had one of those hot steaming night and those drunk sex kind of moments, everything was
perfect and life seemed so perfect and everything prayed for was just falling in to place.

I was due to graduate next me, I was due to get married in a couple of days, my husband was
too loving, his family was awesome and our relationship was out of this world.

The month went by pretty slow and planning Sonke’s braai was such a mission as he was good
at figuring me out when I am hiding something or doing something behind his back, Noxy
helped me with having the cake picked up on the 15th and Sonke’s mom had the food under
control, Sisanda invited close friends and his high school mates and I had to make sure that he
looks fresh on that day. We were ready for his big day and it was due in just a couple of hours.

I decided to leave work early since it was a holiday the next day and the rest of the staff had left
already, I got home and I took a shower as Sonke was not yet home, I wore my sexy lingerie so
I will welcome him home on his birthday eve, I wore a gown and I prepares supper which was
marinated ribs with a garlic role and a green salad, I set the table and put flowers to make the
table look stunning. I went upstairs and I packed clothes we will need for the night stay at his
home tomorrow and I put it on my car boot then I laid on the couch waiting for him.

The time was now 7.30pm and he was not home, I called his phone and he answered

Me: Baby Ukuphi?

Sonke: Baby ngila embilo with amajitha

Me: But baby I am waiting for you

Sonke: Baby, I just need to chill with boy’s nje kancane

Me: What about me?

Sonke: Give me two hours babe

Me: Two?

Sonke: Lee Please

Me: So I am supposed to have supper ngedwa?

He was quiet then I cut the call and dialed jimmy

Jimmy: Hi Mrs. Shange

Me: Hi jimmy, Sonke is with you?

Jimmy: Yes
Me: Please tell him to come home

Jimmy: Sonke won’t listen to me

Me: Nikuphie nendawo?

Jimmy: We at Sihle’s place

Me: If Sonke is not home is 30 minute I will be driving to there, please convince him to come
home

Jimmy: Sho

My phone started beeping, Sonke was calling me

Me: Bye Jimmy, Sonke is calling me

I answered Sonke’s call

Me: Yes

Sonke: Why did you cut my call?

Me: I called

Sonke: So?

Me: I had the right to cut the call

Sonke: Okay

He hung up

I warmed my food and then I ate my supper on my own then I had a glass of wine, Sonke
walked in while I was still eating

Me: Welcome home

He looked at me and he went upstairs then came down after 20 minute, he opened the bar
fridge and took out a beer then sat on the couch and changed the channel to super sport

Me: so you not going to talk to me?

Sonke: I am not allowed to spend time alone nabangani bami?

Me: With other woman?

Sonke: When you called jimmy did you hear other woman in the background?

Me: No

Sonke: So you look at me and see a man hoe?

Me: No

Sonke: Why did you call jimmy and beg that way

Me: I

Sonke: Is jimmy your friend?

Me: No?

Sonke: Lose his number

I kept quiet cause clearly he does not want me to talk

Sonke: Ugcine ngci ukufonela abangani bami siyezwana

I stared at him, he took another sip of his beer and stared at the TV, I took the rest of my food
and emptied it to the bin and cleared the table then I went upstairs and I got into bed, he came
up after a few minute and he got into bed

Me: I though your friends are part of this family

Sonke: You thought wrong

Me: God, you don’t trust me

Sonke: This has got nothing to do with trust, my friends are off limit

Me: Why

Sonke: Ngicela ukulala

Me: No

I switched the side lamp on

Me: I want to know why?

Sonke: Ubanaga isicefe lethu yazi

Me: I want to know why

Sonke: I don’t want you calling my friends and I don’t want them calling you, it’s that simple

Me: Okay, sorry then

Sonke: Good

I switched as I was so mad, he has such stupid rules as jimmy Is harmless, I moved closer to
him to feel his warm body but he shifted away, I moved more closer and I put my hand on his
waist
Sonke: Lee I am trying to sleep

Me: I am also trying to sleep but I am cold

Sonke: Wear something warm then, I am not your body heater

Me: You don’t even want to fuck with me tonight

He was quiet

Me: Fine

Sonke: Like I said, I am tired

Me: Since when are you tired for sex?

Sonke: Since I have a controlling wife who does not want me to chill with my mates

Me: OH, fine

I moved back to my side of the bed and I tried to sleep but I was so hurt, I was Horney with a
bruised ego, I walked out of bed and I changed in to my warm pajama’s and I went back to bed.

My alarm went off at 5.30 and Sonke was still sleeping next to me, I went downstairs and I
prepared breakfast for him then I took a shower and wore my short summer dress with flops, I
woke him up singing happy birthday to him and I gave him which was a Hugo boss watch and a
Armani sandals.

Sonke: Thank you baby

I kissed him and he pulled me back to bed as we romanced each other and had a quickie just
for control, I wanted him from the previous night and having him in the morning made me
explode to another level.

I had to shower with him again then we had breakfast, I told him goodies has a function later on
today so we will have to go over to her place and maybe hit a stop at his mom’s place since.

He was fine with it, he didn’t want to do anything, and he wanted us to be home.

Around 9am Noxy came with Banzi and we all chilled at the back in the pool sipping ciders.

At 2pm we decided to drive to Enanda, Sonke drove with Banzi while I drove with Noxy, we
followed Sonke and when we drove past his house it was too packed, he stopped in the middle
of the road and Banzi manage to drive the car off the road, I got off and I ran inside as his mom
screamed happy birthday son, Everyone started cheering for him, his friends went over to hug
him as I went over to his mom to find out if everything was under control and she said yes.

The house was packing up with his close friends and family as I helped with the salads and
drinks while his mom entertained her church friends.

Sonke looked happy and I didn’t get to speak to him as he was busy with his friends, I chilled
with Noxy and Goodies while we prepared food, King took over the meat as he was braai

Around about 5pm everyone was there and he started of setting up the table at the garden then
we started eating, Sonke’s cake was amazing, it was a soccer stadium with his name on the
middle, he loved it so much that he didn’t even want to cut it.

Around 8pm people left, Sisanda and Cc were so drunk, Sonke was also drunk and I was tipsy.

I used the dish washer and I cleared the kitchen myself as they were all bonding as a family,
once I was done I went to Sonke’s room and took a hot shower then I dressed up in my nightie
then I wore a gown over, I then walked to the main house and chilled with the family while then
were reminiscing about things that happened before and how they grew up, I was too happy to
see Sonke this happy, I wanted him to be always the way he is. Around 12 midnight we went to
sleep.

The next day we skipped work as we were hung over, we spent the day as a family then we left
to our house in the afternoon.

Our Christmas was a bit boring as most of our family members were out visiting extended
family, it was just me Sonke and the boys, king and his wife visited use and we had a nice
Christmas dinner, we invited Cindy and her husband on the next day for boxing day and Cindy
got to know and approve of Sonke.

Life was just great and we enjoyed every moment we got to spend together with Sonke and
close friends even though we were just nervous with the wedding coming up and Sonke was
just trying to get me pregnant. we made love in the morning and night and every now and then
during the day, we were both glowing and it was making me nervous, life seemed so perfect he
was loving me more than he ever did, I loved Sonke more than I would possibly thought I would,
I didn’t see a day without him or my life washout him, his house was now a home and not his
house, it was our home, we also printed pictures out and placed the on frames all over the
house.

On the night before our wedding Sonke and I were preparing to go out, I was not going to see
him until the next day at the altar, We have been having sex like crazy and we have been
drinking and smoking weed together but tonight we were going to do all this with our friends

Sonke: No strippers laphayana or max and Ian wakho bazongithola kahle

Max and sonke organized my bridal shower at the pearls in Umhlanga and his bachelor party
was at Glenwood, king planned it and he promised me it will be saint, I trusted king and I knew
Sonke won’t fuck anyone, I told him to at least fuck someone wearing a condom and he laughed
and said, nothing is better than the meal I eat at home and tomorrow night I will hit my own shit,
I couldn’t help but laugh, I was going to go home with my brides maid after the bridal shower
and he was going to come here with his best man, Noxy came to pick me up and Sonke kissed
me and for some strange reason he asked us to pray before we apart until tomorrow and we did
and i left with nosy, we kept chatting on WhatsApp and I was ignoring everyone else, A
unknown number sent me a text saying all the best for tomorrow, if it does come, it had a DP
with a say *I know where karma lives* then I just ignored the text, I didn’t even have the time to
search the number on Trucaller, I just left it, Sonke called me and asked me if we got there and I
told him we are almost there and we said our goodbyes, when I got there the girls were using
G-strings with matching bra's in our room and the balcony had an open bar and the girls were
kinky, I got into my leather lingerie and my friends were showing me how to ride my man and
how smooch his D* and how to see when he is lying and how I can tell if he was Fucking
someone else, they danced to sexy jams like Ciara ride it and we smoked weed and drank
cocktails and I was too sloshed, I missed Sonke so much that I called him crying

Sonke: baby

Me: Baby I want to be with you

Sonke: baby usudakiwe?

Me: No I want you, I want to be with you

Sonke: don’t worry tomorrow I will be all yours

Me: I can’t wait baby

He went all silence on me

Me: Khona ama stripper yini lapho

Sonke: Yes, I mean no

Me: Please behave or I will give your cookie away

Sonke: I will be arrested before my wedding day, I will call the manager and make sure he gets
all males out of that room

I laughed out loud, The girls were making so much noise that I struggled hearing Sonke

Me: I’m lying, it’s just gay guys here

Sonke: Okay baby, sleep now kancane cause you might wake up with no voice tomorrow plus it
will be hot as hell, you don’t want to be sweating more than me with a hung over

Me: Okay baby, I love you

Sonke: Ngiyakuthanda nawe

We both hung up.

We danced and I drank some more until I passed out. I woke up with a heavy headache and the
time was 5am as it was still a bit dark outside, no one was in my room except for my brother, he
was sitting at the bedroom couch and just staring at me,

Me: Bantu why are you staring at me like that?

Bantu: Cause I am so proud of you, Uziphathekahle until your wedding day, mom and dad
would be so proud of you

Me: I have a hangover and you are going to make me cry

Bantu: Here is a red square, you need this I took it and it was cold and perfect

Me: Thank you

Bantu: I cannot wait to walk you down the aisle, you will make the most beautiful bride

I smiled at him

Me: Udlala ngami

bantu: Sonke is a good man, Just love him, he has changed from that thug I saw outside this
gate, I see a man who will treat you as his princess yazi

Bantu was quiet for a while

Bantu: Whatever you do love your husband and make sure you don’t cheat on him Lethokuhle,
after today there is no going back and you lose the I or me, it all be about we and us, Sonke will
now be a part of you and the boys will be your kids. Love them like your own and if things get
too hard don’t run out but stick it up, but if he no longer wants you, you will always have this
home and your apartment is still available. We will always be here for you lil sis. I walked to him
and I hugged him and thanked him for the advice.

Bantu: wake-up ke and get ready cause your in-laws are on their way to here and you need to
look great for umkhehlo wakho, I woke up bath and wore my traditional dress and before I knew
it the Shange family was screaming at out gate, there was so many of them with pots and
blankets and clothes, they were allowed in and walked into the garden and they had a whiskey
bottle with cash, I was called downstairs and I was given my set of clothes from the family and
scarf and a blanket and each member of my family got a present and then I had to wear a cow
skin with my boobs showing as I had to celebrate that I lost my virginity after 21 with the man I
am marrying, I had a spears with me and I had to put it in front of people and they would give
me cash, virgins from my dad’s family were accompanying me and they were also dressed in
our traditional outfit with beads and short red skirts with their boobs showing, I felt rich as I had
so much of money on my head and I looked stunning with the outfit.

Sonke could not keep his eyes off me as my boobs were all out in the air, I am sure the idea
pissed him off more than anything.

Sonke’s family had 200 notes pinned into my head and after that we ate the cow that was
slaughter for me by my family.
All my friends were there and they all looked stunning, things were done pretty fast as we were
done by 2pm.

Sonke’s family had lunch with us as were now a family.

My brother loved Sonke and they got along very well as they spent most of the time talking
about business, The Shange family loved me and I saw humanity in them

The families had to leave at 4pm so we will prepare for the wedding, Noxy and king were liaising
with the wedding planner to make sure that everything was ready and all set

before the family could leave Sonke came to me while saying my goodbyes to the family.

Sonke: I will see you late on at the isle Mrs. Shange

I smiled at him

Me: I love you

Sonke: I love you too oh I will leave love bites all over those boobs cause they are mine,

I wanted to kiss him as his lips as they were more juicy then anything but my family and his
family was there. But he kissed on my cheek instead and I walked back inside the house
covering myself with a blanket. The cleaning service came through and helped with cleaning the
house and by 4.30pm everyone had left and the family members were getting ready for the
wedding.

My brother walked in the kitchen while I was chatting with my cousins

Bantu: Well done Lee

Me: Thank you

Bantu: Uziphathe kahle sisi wami

I smiled at him

Bantu: Mom and dad would be proud of you

my aunt zandile commented on the side giving me a hug.

Aunt Zah: Please go get ready now Lethokuhle, kufanele ubemuhle for umshado wakho

I walked into my room, I closed the door and I sat behind the door crying, I cried so much that
my head felt light.

I couldn’t believe that in the next hours i will no longer be a Khumalo, This house will no longer
be my house, I cannot run back here every time Sonke and I get into an argument, I was not
going to be a Shange, Traditionally and by law, What if Sonke was not for me and what if I was
making the biggest mistake of my life, what if my dad is not happy with this and what if I will not
be happy with Sonke as my husband?

I sat behind the door for a while, I wiped my tears and I decided to take a bath in my in suit and
drank my glass of wine.

Someone knocked on my in suite

Voice: Hi lee, its T here

Me: Hey T, I will be out now, give me 2 minutes.

It was my hairstyles, she got here a bit early then the time I expected her to so I had to be quick
on the bathroom, after I was done I wore my lingerie and gown over and I went to my bedroom.
She did my hair so perfect as I wanted curls with my weave he was amazing, he then went to
the other ladies to sort their hair out while the make-up artist came and she started doing my
face, She told me she was done with my brides maid who were in the other room.

I was left alone once the make-up artist was done, I looked so perfect, and she added a few
touches on face as I wanted to look as natural as possible.

Cindy walked in and complimented my look and then she helped me in wearing the dress and
she took pictures with me and uploaded on her face book and said congrats to my beautiful
friend on your wedding night

Cindy: you look stunning

Me: Thank you

Cindy: Marriage is not a joke lee, Trust me I know

I looked at her

Cindy: It is perfect but it comes with a lot of dress and drama, don’t ever make your man feel
less of a man no matter how many wrongs he does

I Sat down on the bed

Me: He used to hit me

She stared at me

Me: He stopped, he hasn’t touched me for a while now

Cindy: Do you love him

Me: My heart won’t be able to beat without him Cindy, I feel as if he is the only person I am
living for

She looked at me and smiled

Cindy: You love him lee

Me: More than I could say

Cindy: There is thin line between love and lust

Me: Its love Cindy, It is love

She walked to me and hugged me

Cindy: All he needs is love and support, give him that and he will show you the world

I looked at myself in the mirror and I looked absolutely gorgeous and my veil was long as my
dress so Cindy and I decided that we will use it when we get to the hall as we didn’t want it to
get dirty.

My girls were fine as hell, Noxy was just perfect as the figure was all out, and we took the squad
pictures and posted them while waiting for the cars.

My family left with about 6 cars and I was escorted to a convertible Bugatti white in color, it was
just me, that’s how gorgeous the car was, I drove with a female driver on the car while my girls
were following me with two blue Aston martins convertible, when we got to the hall they made
us use the back entrance, I could feel the sea breeze all the way from the car, we went to the
hall back room and we fixed ourselves.

My dress was pure white color with opening on the side, it hugged me perfectly that my hips and
boobs were out, it was long sleeve and more like mermaid cut at the bottom, I had to use nude
lingerie to compliment the dress

Chapter 20

I stood on the beach sand and I could see Sonke with his best man and my brides maid on the
alter looking gorgeous, there was gold light at the altar and Sonke smiled at me and his friends
tapped on the shoulder as a signed for him to relax as i am here, my face was covered with the
veil and everyone stood up and piano started playing, its sounded so real then i heard Mariah
Carrey’s voice

*I got to take a little time, A little time to think things over

*I better read between the lines incase i need it when i am colder

*In my life there's been heartache and pain (tears fell from my eyes as my brother came stood
next to me)

*I don’t know if i can face it again

*I can’t stop now i have travelled so far to change this lonely life...

*I want to know what love is

*I want you to show me

*I want to feel what love it

*I know you can show me

My brother put his hands through the veil and he wiped my tears and he kissed my cheeks

Bantu: is it tears of joy or you don’t want to go through with this?

I looked at him

Me: I have wanted this all my life and right now I wish mom was here to be singing this song
and dad walking me to my husband

He smiled

Bantu: They are watching right now and they are here in spirit

He put down the veil and gave me a tight hug

Sonke: We love you MaKhumalo, when you walk out of here you will be Mrs. Shange, a strong
beautiful Mrs. Shange

He opened his arm and I put my hand over his arm and we walked towards my man, The song
repeated again and this time around people were singing to the chorus, I cried even more when
Mariah Carey said *** I've got nowhere to hide, I guess love has finally found me***, I looked
up and all my friends and family were smiling and looking at me, they looked so proud of me
and i looked at the altar, they all looked happy for me and my eyes ran to Sonke, he was
emotional, scared and happy at the same time, my brother and i got at the altar and bantu gave
my hand to Sonke

Bantu: don’t forget what we spoke about, she is my life and i love her

Sonke took my hand

Sonke: Like I said, ngiphilela yena

they shook hands, Sonke took both my hands as Noxy took the bouquet from my hand and she
winked at me

Sonke: I knew this dress was nice but baby this is flames, umuhle

I blushed as he said that

The priest then asked everyone to stand as he said a prayer and then everyone sat and then he
began with the ceremony,

Priest: Before we begin with the ceremony, is there i didn’t have a planned vow so I was going
to allow the priest to have us say the traditional vow but Sonke had something else planned, my
veil was already out of my face so he had a better view of my face.

He looked straight into my eyes

Sonke: Lethokuhle, I believe in you, the person you will grow to be and the couple we will be
together.

I promise to be loayl at all times and give you the best of me as I love you ans only you
lethokuhle Khumalo

I promise to be faithful and supportive and to always make our family’s love and happiness my
priority.

I will yours in pnenty and wants, in sickness and in health, in failure and in triumph.

I will dream with you, celebrate with you and walk besides you wherever our journey leads us

Living, learning, loving together forever

Me: I smile, Yes baby I will

Priest: wise words son

The pries looked at me

Priest: Miss Khumalo do you have vows of your own?

Me: I didn’t plan anything so I will say what on my heart right now

Priest: You may my dear

Me: Sonke

I looked up to him
Me: Sonke I promise to love and care for you, and I will try in every way to be worthy of your
love.

I will always be honest, kind, patient and forgiving

I promise to try to be on time

But most of all, I promise to be a true and a loyal friend to you

With my whole heart I take you as my husband, acknowledging and accepting your faults and
strengths, as you do mine

I love you Sethusonke Shange

Sonke: I Love you too Lethokuhle Khumalo

Priest: I will therefore say the traditional vows, we will start with you Ms. Khumalo

Me: I, [Lethokuhle Khumalo] take you [Sonkesethu Shange] take you to be my [Husband] to
have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness
and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward till death do us apart

Sonke looked right in to my eyes

Sonke: I do

I smiled at him

Priest: You may go ahead son

Sonke: I, [Sonkesethu Shange] take you [Lethokuhle Khumalo] take you to be my [Wife] to have
and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in
health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward till death do us apart

I smiled to myself then I looked at Sonke as he held my hands, both our hands were shaking

Me: I do
The priest then requested for the rings and Sonke put his ring on my wedding finger while I put
his, he lifted my vail and gave me the sexiest wet kiss I have ever received from him, the rest of
the world didn’t exist with me when he kissed me.

Then the priest pronounced us husband and wife and Sonke pulled me close and gave the most
passionate kiss I have ever experienced in this earth, he then looked at me and said I love you,
everyone whistled and clapped hands and then AKA congratulations track played. we then
walked to garden and we took photos with the crew and we also walked to the beach to take
pictures, it was getting a bit dark after we were done with the pictures, Sonke and I went to
change to our 2nd outfit, He wore a champagne coat with navy shirt and skinny formal pants
with Aldo formal champagne shoes, I wore a navy lace boob-tube dress with lace sleeves and
an open back and I wore champagne color pearls and champagne heels, the deco was out of
this world, we had speeches done and people were all wishing us well and Sonke then
requested to dance with his wife, Ed Sheeran Thinking out loud played and we danced while
everyone looked at us, I felt like beauty of the beauty movie, I was the princess and he was the
prince, this was our moment and he gave me the most perfect wedding and I loved every bit of it
at 11.59 we did the new year’s eve countdown and I was so glad to be next to my husband once
again, we kissed he said this year our business will bloom, we will move into a new house and
we will upgrade our cars and by this time next year we will have Lethu Jnr, I laughed and said
this year we will work with trusting each other with everything and we will have more sex and
yes, hopefully we will have 2 girls, another set of twins he said and I said yes, we hugged each
other and had more wine, he looked at my hands and said on your right you will put your
engagement ring and on your left you will have your wedding ring, his mom then came and told
us that we need to call it a night, tomorrow is another day

I drove the Bugatti to my apartment in Mhlanga as I had to sleep outside of home but I could not
go to Sonke’s house as they haven’t yet welcomed me as a wife, few minute later Sonke rocked
up and we spent

hours together in bed then he had to leave, at 4am I had to be dressed on out traditional attire
and I went home and my brides maids were already dressed, my make-up artist did my nails
and I reset my hair and we went Inanda to Sonke’s house and I had to give out gifts to the
family members and they had to put inyongo to accept me a wife and now I was officially Mrs.
Shange, the ceremony was perfect and the family was loving and perfect and I was happy, at
5.30 our transport to the airport came and Sonke told me we have to leave, we said our
goodbyes and ran to the cab, Noxy, bantu and king were in charge with making sure that
everything is returned smoothly and king was to make sure the house in sunning dale is locked
and cleaned. We got into the airport and we took the flight to Cape Town, we took a cab when
we landed and we had a room at the waterfront, the stay was awesome and we loved every bit
of it, we had a whole 2 week to ourselves with no interruptions.

The first thing we did when we got there was bath together and it was a steamy hot bath, baby
was addicted to me and the fact that I was officially his wife turned him on even more, we didn’t
even sleep, we fell asleep in front of the TV on the floor but naked, but the shawl always help as
we end up rolling in it, we woke up at 9am and we called for breakfast, Noxy packed all my
things and there was hardly anything normal to wear, there were more G-strings, lingerie’s and
gowns rather than sweater, there were only sandals and no sneakers and there were sexy
dressed that even sonke was unhappy with the dresses, we went shopping at the water front
and I got proper clothes and he also spoiled himself, he even got me shoes from nine west and
guess and handbags from emporium, I was happy and he was happy, we were all over each
other like jelly and custard, we decided to get matching tattoos on our wedding ring fingers, he
put my initial which is ‘L’ and I put his initials which is “S” we made sure that we capture every
moments as we took pictures of everything we did together, we went to the table mountain, we
parted at the long street and we met new people, we also looked around for apartments to buy
when we are visiting cape town but we spent most time indoors exploring each other.

Two weeks went by pretty fast and we had to go back home.

Chapter 21

We landed at king ushaka airport at 7.30pm, we decided to have supper at mug n bean, at 9pm
king picked us up and drove us home to sunning dale, hubby and I were tired and we just
needed a bath and a sleep but king was too happy to see us and we had to play along, the
moment we go home I went straight to the bath tub and laid on it until sonke joined me, we
spent an hour sitting in the water but we could not stay in the water for long as we had to sleep,
the house was too clean both our phones were in the side table and I took mines and I switched
it on, the moment I did I received almost 55 SMSes, 1181 WhatsApp and 899 emails, WhatsApp
was most group chats so I saved that for the next day and I headed to bed, we slept so
peacefully and our bed was just too welcoming.

I woke up early the next day for a change and I made breakfast for my husband, I woke him up
to take a shower and then came down stairs for breakfast, he did indeed do as I asked.

After a shower he came down and we ate breakfast together, he then called his reception to tell
her he will come in a week early to work which will be next week so she must schedule all his
meeting from that day and advised her I will be joining the company as the head of PR and she
must make sure my office is neatly arranged and I will be based upstairs, she was happy and
advised everything will be on track by Monday. after breakfast he asked me to sit at his office
with him to look for houses as king declined his request to buy the holiday house they own at
ballito, we searched the net and we found a few nice houses around the area we are in and La
Lucia, we called a few houses to view and appointments were settled for Tuesday and
Wednesday.

I loved this house we live in but it had too much memories and we needed change as we were
now not lovers but husband and wife and the feeling was mutual with him, while we were having
some quality time the buzzer rang, we both looked at each other as no one but king knew that
we were back and we wanted to stay low for a while, I went to the intercom and asked who it
was.

Noma: Its noma here, can I come in?

Me: Noma? Ufunani?

Noma: Akufuni wena lokho, just open the gate

Sonke: who?

I looked at sonke

Me: It’s Noma

Sonke: ufunani?

Me: I don’t know

Sonke: don’t open the gate I will go to her, She was driving a black jeep, sonke opened the door
and ran to her, he opened the gate and walked out to her, he spoke to her and it seemed as if
they were having a very intense conversation and after a few minute she drove off and he came
back to the house.

Me: what did she want?

Sonke: This woman is crazy nje baby, it’s some business shit documents that she wanted so I
told her to call the office for those documents

Me: Then why come here? How did she know we are here?

Sonke: I don’t know babe and I didn’t even ask her

Me: Uyacika lomfazi

Sonke: Tell me about it, Izapha uzogona kwihubby yakho

Me: I went and I sat on his lap

Sonke: Did I tell you how beautiful you are?

Me: You did

Sonke:I am proud of having you as my woman

Me: I am proud of having you as a man

My Phone rang just before we could kiss, It was a 031 landline number so I answered

Me: You are speaking to Lethokuhle Khumalo.....Shange

Voice: Good morning, you are speaking to Leah Lynn from SA private recruiters

Me: Hi Leah, how may I assist you

Leah: I am calling you regarding an application that was submitted by your university and we
have a company that is interested in recruiting you

Me: Oh okay

Leah: They are offering you a very good package and need you start as a the head of ASAP

Me: Okay, when do they need to see me to start

Leah: well there will a penal interview next week Monday

Me: Oh wow, sounds amazing but I have already received an offer from a different company

Leah: That is sad, how about we have a meeting and you decided from there, compare the
salary and the offers that each company is offering you

Me: I will just do that, Will Thursday be fine?

Leah: this week Thursday?

Me: Yes

Lean: I will arrange a meeting with their recruitment team and management and I will send you
a confirmation email and the location

Me: That would be great

Leah: Thank you for taking my call and enjoy your day

Me: Thank you Leah, you too **Hung up**

Sonke: who was that?

Me: Some company offering a PR chairman position

Sonke: Why didn’t you tell them you have a job already?

Me: I just want to see what they are offering me

Sonke: okay so awufuni ukusebenza kwi company yethu?

Me: No baby, i just want to see what they could be offering me

Sonke: Decide ukuthi ufunani lethu nxa

He woke up and went to his study, after a while he sounded like he was on his phone and he
came back after 10 minute,
Sonke: let’s go see a house in La Lucia, I just got a call now that they are available for viewings

Me: But we still spending some time indoors love, reschedule for tomorrow.

Sonke: Uyafuna ukuza or you don’t?

I wore my coat and pumps, I grabbed my phone and we walked to the car, He drove off to La
Lucia, it wasn’t really far from us as it took us about 5-10 minute to get there, the house had
face brick, it had beautiful roses in the front and a sliding gate, we buzzed in and within a few
seconds we were allowed in. the house had a drive through with a double garage that was big
enough to occupy at least 4 SUV cars, we got out of the car and we were welcomed by a
beautiful slim woman in a matching white suit, she smiled. Hi my name is Samantha Rooi I will
be helping you view the house, Sonke shook her hand

Sonke: Thank you I am sonke shange and this is lethokuhle Shange

She smile as she looked at me

Samantha: You are beautiful, your skin is flawless

I smiled as I shook her hand

Me: Thank you

Samantha: May we proceed

Sonke: Yes Please

the garage was build next to an outside building, 1 building was a store room with a basement
and the next room consisted of a 2 bedroom a toiled bath and the kitchen that was connected to
the dining room, it was pretty small but Mamiki would love it as it is bigger than her current
room. There was a big garden with swings and a mini soccer field and then we walked towards
a pool that was medium size with enough space to have a pool braai, the fence were big that we
could not see the neighbors

When we walked to the main house that was not much different than ours in sunning dale but
this one was a lot more homey rather than fancy like sonke’s bachelor house we walked in from
the patio to the a bar room that looked like Luna Rosa at home, the design was so much the
same, from the bar to the couch and the pictures, it had couches and a bar stools but from the
outside you would never tell it is a bar on the inside, Samantha walked us back into the patio
then we walked into the main house, the lounge was huge with a big window and you could
view a mini garden with flowers and then we walked a 1 stair case up and we landed into the
dining room, there was a kiddies play room on the left hand side and then an office next to the
play room and then we walked to the kitchen, the kitchen was huge that it can accommodate 50
people and there was enough space to do everything and it also consisted of laundry room and
it had an exit door that takes you to the drive through, we then walked into a passage and it was
a guest room and the next room was a guest room and opposite was another guest room and
next to the room was a big bathroom and straight ahead was the main bedroom was was huge,
bigger than our current bedroom, it had a balcony that you can view the pool, garden and
outside building, The 3 guest rooms had balcony with in suits. The main bathroom was too posh
that I fell in love right away and sonke could see that.

Me: This house is perfect for a family

Samantha: it was owned by a couple with 4 kids, they now moved to Cape Town so they are
selling the house

Sonke: lee you like it?

Me: it has a chimney for those long winter nights, so yes I like it baby

Sonke: Okay Samantha we will get back to you by Wednesday

Samantha: no problem, I will be waiting for your call

we said our goodbyes and we drove off, I really loved the house, the boys were going to love it
and it also had a play room, mini soccer ground and a chimney, I was already excited and
looking forward to moving in, we decided to stop at La Lucia mall and do a mini grocery then we
had lunch and went home afterwards

Sonke and I hardly spoke about the house and his mind was not even with his body, he barely
spoke to me even after I tried to have a conversation, when we got home I decided to cook
supper, I cooked a mutton stew since it is his favorite with rice and Greek Salad , it was
something simple but yummy.

He went out for 2 hours then he came back home

I got a WhatsApp from an unknown number that sent me a text on my wedding eve night, it read
congratulations welcome to hell, I opened the DP but there was a broken rose as a picture, I
replied and said actually its heaven, who is this? my message was delivered but I couldn’t tell if
it was read or not as I had that option disabled, I decided to go offline and check my Facebook,
people uploaded pictures of me and sonke and the pictures were random and beautiful, I smiled
to myself and said damn I was fine, sonke held me from behind and we looked at the post and
tags on my wall, Ian uploaded a picture of me him and sonke and it had 503 comments with
1189 likes, we viewed the comments and people were congratulating us but some bitches
hating saying "Finally lomfana oyinja kanje ugcine eshadile' and sonke got mad and told me to
log off and I did, he became edgy

Sonke: We should not have Facebook now since we married and we must keep away from the
spotlight

Me: Hell no, I need to shine habe

Sonke: Grow up, this thing is for groupies

I just stared at him as he was on Facebook a lot more then I was, I went to WhatsApp to check
if I have received any response from my mystery contact but nothing, sonke's DP was me and
him cutting the cake on our wedding and he probably stole it from one of his friends and is
status was *We made it, Now I know how much we are meant for each other, I love you Mrs.
shange*, I decided to update my DP with a pictures we took in cape town at a Jacuzzi, I was so
flawless and my body was wet with foam and his was sexy as ever, my status was update to,
*Just when I was about to give up on him, he hit me with a bang, My family*, I went and sat on
top of him while he was watching soccer trying to get his attention but he got mad which is what
I wanted, I wanted him to get mad so I can sweet him off his feet in the bedroom but my phone
rang which was such a distraction, it was noxy

Me: Hey Noxy

Noxy: hey wife

Me: Wife it is

Noxy: how is the cape?

Me: well it was good, we landed izolo

Noxy: haa awusasho doti

I laughed

Me: I need some quality with hubby, sexing, fucking and loving making time nje

Noxy: He he he

Me: Just for control

Noxy: Hayi kahleke, i need to speak to you bra

Me: what’s up boo

Noxy: well I can’t tell you over the phone

Me: you can come over when you done at work, I cooked mutton stew

Noxy: Sonke won’t mind?

Me: No man, you are family

Noxy: okay I will be there at 6.30

Me: Okay, see you later

I decided to take a shower and sonke was busy in his study and I set the dinner table and noxy
came while I was doing so, we hugged each other and cached up a bit then sonke joined us

Sonke: Noxy ubhekekuphi usukhuphele kanje?

Me: 2 weeks nje we don’t see you and now usumkhuli kanje?
Noxy: Both of you are getting on my nerve yazi, kahleni

We laughed at her and then we had supper and spoke about the wedding and how it went and
who was dressed the part and who got too drunk and how the brides maid got drunk after we
left and that king kissed goodies and goodies hit him with her shoe, we laughed so much, we
told her how the stay was in cape town and the Tattoo’s we now have.

Noxy stopped eating and looked at us as we stared back

Noxy: guys I am pregnant

Sonke and I stared at her in a shock and I broke the silence

Me: OMG noxy, I am going to be an aunt? Aah sis congratulations, did you tell banzi

Noxy: yes he knows but he doesn’t want the baby

Sonke: Uyahlanyake loyo, ngobani?

Noxy: he said his family will trip

Sonke: haibo kanti how old is he?

Noxy: 26

Me: No man his probably scared, having a baby is a big thing and he is scared because he
needs to do a right thing

Noxy: but we don’t have to rush to get married, we need to just plan things kahle nje

me: How far are you?

Noxy: I will be 4 months next week and I found out a week ago when I started fainting

Sonke and I laughed

Me: fainting?

Noxy: at work in a meeting cabanga

Sonke: ha ha ha Kodwa sbari, awulimalanga?

Noxy: i was just embarrassed nje

me: Did you tell Bantu

Noxy: Not yet, he is coming down next month so I will

me: Should I be there?

Noxy: No I can handle him

me: I will talk to banzi

Noxy: No boo, he will come around, his tripping and all over the place right now

Sonke: relax uzobaryt, give him a couple of days, we all freak out when we hear the word
pregnant, I am just waiting for lee to tell me she is ready

Me: no I am happy with lwandle and lwando right now

We continued having supper then I brushed Noxy’s tummy introducing myself, she started
easing up and also communicating with the baby, I was so happy with the 2nd member of the
khumalo family on the way.

Noxy decided to drive home at 9pm and we headed to bed, sonke was distance and I wanted to
play Beyoncé’s song and dance for him but his mood did not sit well with me, even when he
mad love to me he was holding me too tight like he is mad at me, he even left my shoulders
bruised, he didn’t even call my name or even look at me and when he was done he just held me
tight.

When I woke up in the morning he was dressed and ready to go to work,

Me: baby didn’t you say you will go to work next week

Sonke: I am just checking up on a few things and I will be back in few hours babe

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Just a few hours lee

I stared at him

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Yes

Me: are you okay?

Sonke: yes I am fine, see you later.

He kissed me the he walked out, I got out of bed and I took a shower and I had breakfast.

I sat on the couch and went through my phone to view the messages on my text and I replied on
some and then I switched my mobile data as I wanted some me time.

I watched the TV for a while then I dozed off on the couch, I was woken up by sonke and came
and we went to view the houses but they were not pleasing so we agreed to taking the house in
La Lucia and I was happy, we called Samantha on Wednesday and we told her we are taking
the house and she came to our house to sign off and finalize the sale, I called Leah and
declined the offer and apologized for leading her on, we went to kings house on Thursday and
she told us how embarrassed she was when king kissed goodies thinking it was his wife and we
spoke about the wedding and we told them we got a new house and they congratulated us and
we left around 10pm, we hardly had sex that week as sonke was just distracted and I didn’t
want to ask him anything cause he would say nothing or push me away.

Chapter 22

The business was doing well and I had settled in perfectly at the company, sonke took me to his
meetings and I was also involved in accounting and final decisions making for the company, it
gave sonke more time to be also be involved in his holiday house business as he bought 4 more
houses in the LA mercy and tongaat area and he was making money, we also moved in at La
Lucia. My graduation was just great and my brother was there with his family and we all bonded
as the Shange and Khumalo family.
The boys loved the house, sonke and I became more closer than anything even though he had
his moments of being distracted, life was just great, we were getting richer, we happy and in
love, we loved our house and we bonded more with the boys as we picked them on most
weekends. Mamiki settled in well at the back room and she also spent more weekends with us

On my birthday we booked a week away to amanzimtoti with boys, we decided to book a chalet
whereby we will all be happy, sonke got me a stunning bracelet with the our suname on it. The
stay was awesome as most places were not busy and we had the time of our lives. The boys
were so happy to spend the week with us even though they missed out on school but it was my
vest gift ever to be with my boys.
We went from swimming, to skating, to shopping, to the movies and to be together.
Sonke put so much of attention to use and I was more and more in love wit him.

Noxy was getting big and bantu was excited about the baby, she was now 6 months pregnant
but she looked like she was 9 months, he baby was big even though I though she is having
twins, Max got engaged to his blesser and the wedding was going to take place in the next
couple of months and I was one of the brides maid, sonke was not happy with it but hey I have
my ways of twisting his arms and ended up giving me a go ahead. We attended a business
meeting in Kimberly and we had to be in Kimberly for 2 weeks and we had fun as to us it was
more of an adventure. After our 2 weeks business trip we stayed indoors for the entire week and
Friday we had to be at work for payment to be processed, sonke left early as he had to sign off
a few deals, we closed the office at 2pm on Friday and it was a Easter weekend so Durban was
busy and there was traffic everywhere, I decided to drive using the Durban north route and I
also wanted to stop at the sunning dale shopping center and get a turkey as there is a turkey
place. I happened to see noma driving her car, she looked like a mess and she was swollen on
her face like she had some sort of an allergy and she was speeding that she almost knocked
me off, I swapped lanes so that I would driving behind her and mind my own business, while
driving towards our old house noma stopped at that house and the gate opened and she drove
in, I saw sonke's golf in the garage but I thought I was imagining things, I decided to drive home
as sonke would have been home now, I was so confused as to why noma would drive to my old
house and a red golf parked outside which happens to look exactly like sonke’s, I wanted to
drive back and check the number plate but I didn’t want to kill myself with this pain, I rushed
home to la Lucia hoping that sonke is home but he was not so I decided to call him
Sonke: baby lami
Me: Baby ukuphi?
Sonke: I am in enanda babe, I came to pick up the boys for the long weekend, I will leave in the
next few minutes
Me: oh besengikhohliwe
Sonke: Hawu babe, i will see you just now, I love you
Me: I love you too
*Hung up*
I decided to take a bath and prepare a light meal cause I felt light headed, I was alone in the
house so I watched a movie called “The calling”, I was so lost in the movie that I only heard my
boys come in, I was dressed for the part to jump around with my boys, we played singing games
with sonke took few videos and uploaded it on my Instagram and some other video on his face
book page, we ordered pizza and I had wine and sonke had a beer, the kids went to bed at
10pm and we stayed in the lounge till 12pm then we called it a night, the next day we planned to
go watch a movies at gallery mall and do lunch, we left the house at 10am and we watched the
farm house movie and we then went to the ice rink at 2pm and at 4.30 we were done a we had
dinner at panarottis and we shopped for toys and TV games since it was Easter holidays then
we went home, sonke bath the boys and I showered, I tucked them in while sonke was
showering and then they slept around 8, I decided to bake for the boys and sonke helped me
while we were sipping on some Hennessey and we decided to take a swim at the pool and we
swam until late.

I woke up cause the sun was shining right through my eyes and I was sweating, I opened my
eyes and I was in my bikini in the couch with a thrower and sonke was holding me behind, I
heard footsteps running and I ran with the shawl
lawndo: Mummy, you not in your room
Me: yes baby we are getting ready for church
Lwando: yeeeeeeh, okay should I go bath?
Me: go to your room mummy will come and bath you now
Lwando: Okay Mama
I woke sonke up to go bath as we had 1 hour to get ready for church, Getting him up was worse
than getting the twins up but eventually he woke up to shower, I bath the boy and they wore
their maroon chino's with white golfers from earth child and sonke wore his Raw denim and
maroon shirt with maroon Carvela, I wore a maroon dress with white heels and a white clutch
and I put my weave into a pony, we drove with my red 1 series, we made just in time and I
decided to confess as I did not follow the fasting process and I needed to have my sacrament,
within 2 hours we were done and headed home, sonke and I decided to have a mini Sunday
braai at La Lucia beach I took the meat out and marinated it, I made seasoning pap and green
salad with chakalaka, we took it with us to the beach, Sonke braai the meat with the boys and
while I was sun bathing and I also went for a swim, even though I was 1 size bigger then I was 5
months ago, I was okay with my body I was content and sonke and the boys wore their shorts,
we were taking pictures and uploading on Facebook and Instagram and sonke was only tagging
me and bragging about how happy we are and that he thanks the lord above for his family
around 3pm we decided to go home and we bath and we played games, the boys were super
tired and we made them sleep early, sonke and I had some quality time at the bar and we had
weed, we were high drunk and in love, we crashed around 8pm and we woke up early the next
day as I had to drive the boys to Enanda and visit Cindy after I drop them off. at 11am I left
using the golf 7 and drove to fill the patrol and then I drove to Enanda, I stayed with ma for at
least an hour then I went Entuzuma to see Cindy, Cindy was happy to see me, she told me she
is looking for another job as she was tired of her old job as it was stressing her, she got me a fat
cook with fries and cheese stuffed inside, I fell in love, it tasted Devine, I even took 1 home so
sonke could tasted this amazing food we are missing on by living in the suburbs, sonke kept
calling me as he was bored at home, I told her we will be planning a baby shower for noxy and
she needs to make sure that she comes and she said her hubby will drop her off and then I
went home, for some strange reason I decided to drive past my old home in sunning dale cause
I could not believe noma would buy our house, I drove past and she was driving off with a tall
muscular guy kissing her and he went back inside the house so I had to drive off pretty fast as I
am sure she noticed sonke's car, I went inside the La Lucia mall and parked for 15 minute then I
drove off and went home, sonke was calling me when I drove into the yard
Sunken: Lee uphumaphi? You have been gone for half a day and lapho I am starving, kade
ukuphi *Yelling*
me: I went to drop the boys off then I spent time with your mom, was that a crime?
Sonke: No baby wami, its dangerous to be driving around Golf 7 R32, its very risky
Me: maybe we should sell it then if it causes you so much of stressing
Sonke: hayi khohlwake lapho, ngilinde I Golf 8 nje
Me: I used to think I am all that when you came to see me with your Golf 5 R32, it was posh and
sexy
Sonke: I loved that car too much
Me: Well you upgraded with this one
Sonke: It’s not the same, the G5 was the best
Me: Just like your G7
Sonke: Just like my wife
Me: so you are comparing me into a car
Sonke: a posh car
we laughed as I kissed him then I went to the kitchen and I made a roasted lamb a with a wrap
and a salad, I prepared the table once I was done and we had dinner, both our alarm went off
and he attended to both the phones,
Sonke: You are due for a injection
Me: Oh shit, I completely forgot but I will go tomorrow
Sonke: Hai okay, qubeka Ne prevention yakho shame
Me: ha ha ha Thank you baby and I went to kiss him, Since mamiki was not back I had to iron
his clothes for work the next day and I decided to go in late, in the morning sonke used my car
to go to work and I used his golf and went to the doctor and I had my injection then I went to
work. I had back 2 back meetings as sonke and I were planning on opening a clothing store in
the gateway mall and surroundings but our design had to be unique but we wanted to
accommodate the family designs but we got an option of opening up a B&B in Glenwood, we
bought the offer and we were due to take over as of the month of July, we had to revamp the
houses and turn them into a B&B and also get a caretaker and a cleaner who will look after the
house like their own, I called Cindy and offered her to manage the B&B and holiday house as on
my side I was getting swamped with handling 2 businesses, she was thrilled, I offered to pay her
twice of what the company is paying her but she needed to have a PA who will assist her with
bookings and meetings and making sure the place is on point, she did not mind so I sent her a
contract for her to sign and advised her she can serve a full month notice at her current
employment, Sonke was too occupied as he was meeting with new clients and we had to
expend the warehouse or get 2 branches, we decided to launch it after we launch the B&B. in
June we invited our business partners to the B&B launch that had a restaurant outside and we
had a lot and a positive feedback, we made it to the front page of Sunday sun *Black
empowered couple launches their own B&B in Durban* we had positive comments on face book
as we also launched a website and Facebook page and the next few weeks we launched the
ware house in Springfield, we invited our existing customers and they were impressed and we
threw in a free freebies for our clients and things were perfect, we decided to put the clothing
store on hold until next year and we wanted to open it under a different business name, our B&B
was LL B&B on Glenwood, it was not too far from keys and olive and oil. we threw a beautiful
baby shower for noxy as the B&B and banzi got her a jeep pram, she was too huge that she had
to take an early maternity leave and I was due to help out at home for the next 3 months but I
didn’t mind cause I was now more familiar with the business and the clients now knew me and
trusted me so I knew as of July I am taking over, sonke was not happy about it but I was ready
to be hands on for both the businesses, at home we had to buy 5 more trailers as now we were
transporting for Coca-Cola, Woolworths, checkers and fruit n veg, we had more and more big
clients and we also had a few deals to close with car dealers to transport cars.

Sonke was sleeping on top of my boobs after we had one of our crazy moments that we cannot
grow from, His phone rang and he ignored it, I took it to see who was calling and it picked up as
a not saved number,
Me: Sonke's phone hello...... the call was cut
Sonke: ubani?
Me: I don’t know the call was cut
Sonke: leave it babe
the phone rang again and I asked him to take it, he took it and he looked at the number and
ended the call
me: why?
Sonke: I don’t know who it is
he woke up and went to the bathroom, I heard him talk on the phone then he came out and said
baby I have to go, king is in trouble
me: what happened?
Sonke: I will know when I come back, don’t call his wife because she will be stressed
me: Should I come with you?
Sonke: no stay with the boys, they will freak out when they realize we are not here
I decided to stay with the boys, I logged on my WhatsApp and I tried typing on Kings’ wife then I
realized sonke told me to not say anything to her, I tried calling sonke but he did not answer, I
sent him a text
Me {please be careful, I love you}

There was no response so I decided to sleep.

I felt sonke creep into bed late, I looked at the side watch and it 1am in the morning, so he left
for 2 hours
Me: Baby
Sonke: Lala baby, all is fine
I moved over to him to fell his body, he was cold and his heart beat was not normal
Me: how is king?
Sunken: his okay, he is at his place now
Me: what was wrong?
Sonke: he almost got hijacked so I had to save him
me: ohno is he okay though?
Sonke: Yes his fine, just don’t tell his wife
Me: okay, I pray his okay, he kissed my forehead then held me tight, his heart was racing to
Ethiopia I think cause I even struggled to sleep, he was very shaky
Sonke decided to take the kids to Enanda and he left at 3pm and he was not back at 9pm, I
called his phone and he did not answer and I called his mom and she did not answer so I
assumed she was sleeping, he only came home at 1pm and I was sitting on the couch waiting
for him
Me: where have you been? I have been worried sick about you
Sonke: I am sorry babe, I forgot my phone in the car and I was playing pool with abo sithe
Me: Really?
Sonke: Yes Really
Me: And you sober?
Sonke: Hawu babe
I walked past him and went to sleep in my bed, He tried reaching out for me but I was too pissed
as he did not even call me to tell me he will coming home late.
In the morning he left before me and I didn’t mind, I was not in the mood for him and I was still
ticked off at him.
I decided to start at the pharmacy as I felt the flu creeping up, I went to the clicks pharmacy in
La Lucia and got myself corenze and flutex then I went to the garage to filled patrol then I gave
them shange's credit card, The Patrol attendance assistance looked at me
Him: Hi Mrs. shange
Me: Hi
Him: Have you given birth already?
I laughed caused he mistaken me for my sister
Me: No I am not pregnant, it’s my sister
He looked at me
Him: eish sorry mam, I thought I saw you driving this car few days ago
Me: No my sister drives a 3 series
Him: Uxolo but hayi I must say nice car
I smiled
Me: Thank you
He gave me the card back then I drove off and went to the office, I did what I had to do then I
went home, I left early cause the flu was giving me no rest, I went home and I stayed in bed until
6pm and I text sonke

Me {please get take-away from gateway babe, the flu is getting to me}

Sonke {Okay love, I will and please rest. I will be home in a few minutes}

I decided to go back to sleep, My phone rang and it was Max, I was in no mood of entertaining
him so I ignored the phone, he called again after a few seconds and I decided to answer as max
is the type that does not give up.

Max: Boo
Me: hey Honey
While cleaning my nose
Max: How are you feeling?
Me: I feel miserable hey
Max: I can imagine boo but you are strong
me: Lol of cause I am, I need to see a doctor tomorrow
Max: haibo oe, kanti you are taking this bad kanje?
Me: it’s getting bad boo, I can’t even concentrate, and I left work early today
Max: you shouldn’t be at work boo, awufuni ukuzoshawa umoya kwami?
Me: ha ha ha haibo now that’s too much I have kids you know
Max: kahleke nje lethu, uzobekezelela umuntu onezingane ngapahadle and then come and tell
me you have kids, so nalekanoma nayo nizoyikhulisa Nina? Usuyagula mngani
me: what
I was quiet for a while
Me: What are you talking about
Max: Ingane ka Noma
Me: Ingane?
Max: ingane oe, i just saw them now la E gateway playing happy family, ungathi uzuzala noma
inini nje, that’s how big she is, aaaarg I hate this sonke and I warned you about him
Me: Max what are you talking about?
Max: Haib oe, wazenza ukhalipha manje? I am talking about sonke no noma, I just saw them
now la egateway at babies’ r us
me: what the fuck are they doing there?
Max: Lethu, are you okay? Kanti sikhuluma ngani la?
Me: I though we are talking about my flu, what are you on about?
Max: hawema so you don’t know?
Me: Know what?
Max: Noma is pregnant and I think, well sonke is the dad because I saw them shopping now la
e gateway
me: No, not my sonke
Max: eish boo I have to go
Me: We still talking
Max: I though you knew
Me: Noma is pregnant?
Max: Looks like it
Me: Oh no God
I hung up, my head was spinning and my heart was racing, sonke, noma at babies’ r us? Noma
can’t be pregnant with sonke's baby and why wouldn’t sonke tell me? I got out of bed and
walked to the kitchen to get water, I opened the fridge and took out still bottled water and I drank
half the bottle, I started pacing up and down and I tried calling Cindy but she didn’t answer, I
thought of noxy but I didn’t want to trouble her as she was highly pregnant.
Me: Who the fuck can I call?? I started screaming and I threw the bottle on the sink
I logged into Facebook and logged into noma; s account, there was nothing about pregnancy
and she only had sad statuses and she removed all sonke's pictures that she had plus I saw her
with a guy not so long ago, what the fuck is happening, I called sonke
Sonke: baby lami
Me: where are you?
Sonke: I am buying pasta at Tasha’s, I am just waiting for the order, and I will be there in the
next 20 minute do you want anything?
Me: No *Snapped*
I hung up, I didn’t know whether to drive to gateway or wait or what, I went to his study to look
for something but none, his laptop was with him and his phone, I called noxy as I was losing my
mind.
Noxy: hey sis
Me: No nonoxxxxyy
Noxy: what are you crying?
I was quiet for a while
Noxy: Lee
Me: Max uthi ubone sonke with noma in gateway and she is pregnant
Noxy: Wait Noma the ex?
Me: Yes Noxy *Screamed*
Noxy: you need to calm down, we don’t know the whole story here and it could be that they
bumped into each other, take it easy have a bath and wait for him, did you call him
Me: yes i did and he is in gateway waiting for our food which he ordered
Noxy: So relax lee, just take it easy alright?
Me: Okay
I walked to our bedroom and I ran hot water and I got in, I tried to relax but my mind was just out
of this place, I got out and I wore my seat pants and a long sleeve t-shirt.
Sonke walked in while I was walking to the kitchen
He looked at me and my eyes were red from crying
Sonke: Baby
I looked at him
Sonke: Is this what the flu doing to you?
I just looked at him
Sonke: Come here, let daddy take care of you
He put the food on the table and took my hand to the lounge and sat me down while he
massage my neck, it felt good and I loved it but I was like this cause of him
Me: Sonke ubukuphi?
Sonke: getting food, I told you nje
me: Who were you with
Sonke: he stopped massaging me and said ngedwa, why?
me: You are lying to me *Screaming*
He moved his hands off me and came to stand in front of me
Sonke: uthethelani? Is that a way of talking to me?
Me: Fuck that, I asked you ubunobani sonke
Sonke: Fuck what?
I stood up
Me: I asked you a question
Sonke: it looks like you are in one of your moods today, is it the flu that’s got you worked up
kanje? I gave him a slap and pushed him against the wall
me: you were with noma right? When were you going to tell me she is pregnant?
Sonke: what? Who the hell told you that?
Me: don’t you dare lie to me, don’t you dare, how can you do this to me, I started hitting him and
he held my wrist and pushed me against the sofa
Sonke: lethu stop this, ungenwe yini?
Me: tell me the truth sonke just tell me the truth *Screaming* Let me go, fucking let me go
Sonke: I am going to leave you alone until you calm down,
He let me go and walked towards the dining room and I ran and took the car keys from the table
Me: You are not going anywhere, he walked towards me to get the key and I ran to the patio
and I threw it in the middle of the pool or the garden but I was not really sure where the keys
landed
Me: you are not leaving this house until you tell me the truth
Sonke: There is nothing to tell you
Me: What were you doing with your pregnant ex fiancé at babies r us?
Sonke: I was not with her
me: do you want me to show you the pictures or better to call her? How about we call her using
you phone, I took his phone from the counter and he tried to take it away from me and we
fought for the phone until I threw it on the floor and I pushed him
Sonke: you have fuckin lost your mind lethokuhle
Me: NO you have lost me and I am leaving you tonight, I went to the bedroom and I took off my
bags and I started packing, he came and pushed me against the wall,
Sonke: you are not leaving me
Me: I am
Sonke: Just listen to me
I tried fighting him
Sonke: It is not what you think or heard lee
Me: What is it then
Sonke: It was a mistake
Me: a mistake *Screaming*
I pushed him but he was too strong for me
Me: Get off me you sun of b*tch, how could you have sex with her when I am always ready to
fuck with you and worse… make her pregnant sonke, how could you do this to me, how could
you break us like this *Screaming and tears were just falling*
Sonke: baby I can explain if you just calm down
Me: You impregnated another woman when I was in your bed waiting for you, how can you be
telling me that you can explain that sonke?
Sonke: Baby
Me: let me go (screaming)
Mamiki came inside my bedroom, Mrs. are you...sorry is everything okay?
Sonke: Yes please give us a moment
me: No, tell him to let me go, I want to go, I want to leave his asshole
Mamiki: Mr...
Sonke: Ngicela usidedele kancane ma
Mamiki Okay
She walked out and closed the door behind her
Sonke Lee calm down
I just sat down on the floor against the wall and I cried
Me: sonke, how can you do this to me
Sonke: it’s not what you think baby, I broke it off naye I swear, I didn’t know ukuthi umithi until
our wedding eve
Me: and you didn’t even bother to tell me, all along I was just fooling myself thinking you have
changed but you nothing but an ass*ole sonke, I fuckin hate you, I need to get out of here, I
don’t ever want to see you again
Sonke: lethu please
I woke up but my head was so light and I saw stars and then darkness

I woke with lights in my eyes and I saw a white male in white smiling and looking at me,
Voice: She is awake...... get some water for her
I saw sonke next to me and the doctor was checking my pulse
Doctor: Are you okay Mrs. Shange
I looked at him
Me: Where am I?
Doctor: You passed out and your husband bought you here an hour ago
I looked around the room and sonke was right next to me
Doctor: How are you feeling?
My head was light and my heart was heavy sonke lifted me up to drink some water but it tasted
horrible, he then put me back into the pillow, the doctor asked me to confirm how many fingers
he had up and I told him 1 then 2 then he said okay you are fine, I will check on your results
then you can go home okay if they are good
the word home made me more upset, I looked away as I remembered that we are having a
baby with another woman, he came to the other side of the bed and said
Sonke: Ngiyaxolisa Mkami, I really didn’t mean to hurt you kanjen love ngicela ungixolele
Me: There is nothing that you can say that will fix this, You didn’t think about me
Sonke: baby I was not thinking period but I didn’t not plan or wish for things to be this way
Me: It is what it is, please go to her and leave me alone
Sonke: I want to be here nawe
Me: Ngicela ukuba ngedwa sonke
Sonke: I am not leaving you here
the doctor came in while we were arguing about this
Doctor: Well we have ran a few test and it seems as if your blood pressure is high and you have
a fever and the good news about this is that your blood results shows that you are 2 months
pregnant which is why you fainted and the fever is popping up
Me: I am pregnant?
Doctor: Yes you are, congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Shange
Me: I am pregnant? How come?
Sonke was quite
Me: These results are wrong Doctor I am on an injection so how can I be pregnant?
Doctor: Prevention methods are not a 100% accurate so there is 1% chance out of that 99%
chanced of you not falling pregnant, in this case you fell in to the 1% category. If you are
unhappy with the pregnancy I can refer you to a Gynea who will be able to give you options of
terminating the pregnancy
Sonke: No doctor that won’t be necessary
Doctor: Well it is a decision that should be made by both parties
I just stared at the two of them
Doctor: Mrs. Shange are you okay?
Me: Yes
Doctor: Mrs. Shange the nurse will check you out and she will provide you with a card to visit
the Gynea. I have prescribed a few vitamin tablets for you to take, the script will be provided to
you at reception
Me: Thank you doctor
He left and there was silence in the room and none of us said a word until the nurse came in
and advised me I can change into my clothes as I have been checked out, I went to change at
the bathroom then I went to the receptionist to take the script and sonke signed for my
discharge and we went into his golf.
My mind was not with me and my body was just not helping, it was so hard to digest this and it
saddened me, how could I be having a child with someone who is already having a child with
another person?
We got into the car and we drove off
Me: I would like to go home in small Ville
Sonke: Not tonight, you need to rest a bit and stop stressing
He switched on the radio and he was playing big nuz ntombi enhle
All I could do was stare at the window while we drove past uMhlanga to La Lucia and I was so
mad at myself, how can that happened to me when I now know this asshole has been living a lie
with me, I hate him and I hate him for using me like this, now I will be stuck in this marriage
cause of this baby I was carrying, I hated him so much, he touched my hand and I pulled it and
folded my arms and then looked out the window and he turned the radio down
Sonke: I know right now everything seems so messy but I assure you that it’s not going to be
like this forever, I love you lethokuhle, I don’t see my life without you and I am sorry for all the
drama I am causing in this marriage, it will all get better I promise you.
I didn’t respond as I was so mad.
We got into the house and I went to shower in the in suit, I cried on the shower as I washed
myself but I felt dirty and I hated my life, I wanted to kill someone, myself or sonke or noma or
the babies that are on their way, I wanted to find somebody to blame but I was to be blame
myself cause I knew the type of person he was when I said I do and I promise to love him
through it all at the altar, I sat on the shower floor and I cried and I felt cold water running
through but I still sat there crying until he walked in switched the tap off and carried me to the
bathroom and he wrapped me with clean towels and he put me on his lap and dried my weave, I
felt weak, I felt as if I am not good enough cause if I was he would never have went to her, I was
not good enough for him, I shifted from his lap and I laid on the bed and I fell asleep on my
pillow, mamiki woke me up the next day with a rooibos tea with honey.

Mamiki: Vuka baby and have some tea, I am making breakfast for you
me: Thank you
Mamiki: Uzizwa unjani ntombi?
Me: I am better
Mamiki: okay, let get breakfast ready
Me: Thank you, usonke ukhona
Mamiki: no uhambe ekuseni and akashongo ukuthi uyaphi
Me: Okay
I sat on the bed drinking my tea and thinking that maybe his girlfriend is giving birth, that is why
he left so early, I heard a car pull in and I knew it was him but I heard a female voice
Noxy: Hi mamiki, where is lee
Mamiki: in her bedroom
Noxy: Hey sis
Me: You are so big, did you drive yourself?
Noxy: of caucus yes, I am pregnant and not sick
me: I know, just making sure you not stressing yourself
Noxy: I am good and wena?
I looked at her with blank eyes
Me: she's carrying his baby
Noxy: No lee, how can sonke do this?
I started crying
Me: He did Noxy and yesterday we found out that I am 2 months pregnant
Noxy: what? How? Where you not on a pill or injection or something like that?
Me: I was but he said prevention methods are not 100% Guarantee
Noxy: well it is good news just that he is an ass for doing this to you sisi
Me: I don’t want this baby, it will always remind me of this miserable life
Noxy: No Lee, you are talking crap ke manje, we were raised better than this and you are
married, the only person who should be feeling like this is noma not you, you are allowed to
have kids with your husband
Me: You mean a cheating so of a B**** he walked in before I could finish the B*** word
Sonke: Hi Noxy Unjani?
Noxy: Sbari, i am good and yourself?
Sonke: hayi kuyancengeka
Noxy: I am glad hey, I came to checkup on my baby sis
Sonke: Okay
Noxy: She told me she is not feeling well
Sonke: Oh I see, did she tell you the good news?
Noxy looked at me
Noxy: Yes congratulations to you guys
Sonke: siyabonga, usyeza wakho usezoba ne Bestienyana
Noxy: lol you mean a sister or brother (While she was laughing)
Sonke: Khona lokho, uyanda umndeni ke manje
Noxy: Say that again, too many of us are pregnant
She turned around and looked at me as he stood at the door entrance and then noxy said she
has to go and she will call me later
Sonke: Breakfast?
Noxy: No I will pass, she must eat for me
pointing at me, she woke up, kissed my cheek and left, I was left with sonke in the room and it
was quiet
Sonke: how are you feeling today?
Me: I ignored him
Sonke: mamiki has made breakfast, please come and eat
Me: I am not hungry
Sonke: if you don’t want to eat that is fine but cabangela ingane
Me: That’s the least of my worries right now and I have decided to not keep this baby
Sonke: Uyahlanyake manje
Me: It will always remind me what an asshole you are
Sonke: watch your mouth lethokuhle, usuyaphunyuka esandleni
Me: What you going to do? Start hitting me again?
Sonke: If I will have to remind you on who wear the pants in this house then I will, now get your
ass off that bed and come eat breakfast, I am giving you 2 minute to decide or I will come and
drag your ass to the dining room
He walked away, I took a deep breath and woke up, I was not craving for breakfast at all so I
had muesli and yogurt, I made sure I eat something that is quick and then walk out of that room
with my pride in the sky, we had breakfast in silence, I was mad, he was mad and the world was
just fucked up. in 15 minute I was done and I woke up but he pulled my hand
Sonke: Please sit down
Me: No I don’t want to sit here next to you and pretend like we all happy when I fucking hate you
I pulled my hand from his and walked away, After taking a shower I decided to go out for some
fresh air and figure my life out, I wore my bra and a matching hot panty, I stood in the mirror and
I looked at my stomach, it was flat that I didn’t even picture myself with a bump, I rubbed it and
started thinking on how beautiful my baby would be and before I could control my emotions I
just burst out crying but I couldn’t afford to be in that position but my heart was too sore, I turned
around to get face wipes and I realized he was standing at the door entrance staring at me, our
eyes met, deep down he was broken as I was but his face was arrogant that he didn’t see
anything wrong in what he did, I looked away, he walked in and closed the door and he sat on
the bed while I got dressed.
Sonke: You know I didn’t mean for all this, never in my craziest dreams did I ever thing we
would end up here, all I wanted was for us to raise lwandle and lwando together and give them
a sister and build our empire together, to turn this house into a home, that is all I ever wanted
and I still want that with you. Can we start over this whole mess and make things work even with
the mistakes we have made
I ignored him
Sonke: Khuluma nami baby
I was quite, he woke up and walked to my side of the bed, he put his arms around me from
behind
Sonke: Ngenzenjani to make things right? Tell me and I will do it
me: There nothing you can do to change the fact that umithise someone else
Sonke: It was not planned
Me: Is that what you will tell your child?
Sonke: I cannot tell my baby ubeyiphutha
Me: Then don’t tell me that
He was quiet for a while as he laid his chin on my head since he was taller than me
Sonke: It’s a Boy
Me: Congratulations then
I pulled away from him and walked away from his arms, A part of my heart died right there, I
was losing my step, my breath and my head felt light again
Sonke: Lee ngiyazama, Just….Just meet me half way
I took a deep breath in as I felt as if I was losing my breath, I was quiet for a while
Me: This is all too much for me, right now you are no different than my enemy
Sonke: Baby that is not true
Me: I don’t know what is true anymore
Sonke: The love I have for you is true
Me: You do not do this to somebody you love
Sonke: Okay can we take time out sit down and try to talk things through?
I ignored him
I wore my jeans and t-shirt then my sweater on top and I took the car keys
Sonke: Uyaphi
Me: To get fresh air
Sonke: Where
Me: I don’t know, cape town maybe
Sonke: You not serious
Me: Anything is possible
I walked out got in to my car and I drove and drove until I was at sun coast, I decided to drive to
north beach and I sat in my car crying, Sonke tried calling me but I didn’t answer, I drove back
home cause I had nothing to do but on my way home I decided to go to gateway mall, I walked
in the mall looking for something to get my attention and it felt like people were staring at me as
if I was naked, I was a mess I won’t lie, I walked to babies r us and I decided to walk out, I got to
woolies and I got wine and wings and junk then I decided to buy baby clothes for my new son to
be, I got in the car and drove to sunning dale, I was not thinking straight, I didn’t know what I
was doing as I couldn’t control myself, I wanted to know why noma is living in my old house and
to also be sure that she is really pregnant.
I cried on my way there and I was speeding like I am being chased, when I got there I switched
the engine off then I rang the buzzer, I rang it for about 5 times until someone picked it up
Noma: Ufunani Lethu...
Me: I came to give the baby a gift since I was not invited for the baby shower
Noma: I don’t have time for this, please go away
me: Please noma, I am not here to fight, I swear...
A part of me wanted to fuck her up but at the same time I needed the truth, I had so many
questions, I wanted to know so many things
Me: I promise I am not here to hurt you
She was quiet
Me: Please noma
Noma: okay, I will let you in but just for few minutes and then you leave
Me: Okay thank you
The gate opened and I drove in, I took a deep breath and waited at the door for her to open.

Chapter 23

The house was as the way I left it, from the painting to the couch and patio chairs, it felt like I am
walking into my house

Noma: Hi lethu

Me: Noma, Here’s a gift, I hope you like it

Noma: Thank you

Me: Can I come in?

She looked annoyed and a bit pissed

Noma: Sure

She moved out of the door entrance and I walked in, I stood in the lounge looking around

Noma: you can have a seat

Me: Thank you

Noma: can I get you something to drink?

Me: Just water please

she went to the kitchen to get me water and came back and gave me, I didn’t trust her so I took
1 sip and left it on the coffee table

Noma: So how are you keeping

Me: I am surviving

I looked away as I could not look her in the eye

Me: Noma when did you get pregnant?

Noma: To be honest I am not sure but I found out 2 weeks before you guys tied the knot

me: How long has sonke known?

Noma: Why don’t you ask him, he is your husband after all?

Me: he doesn’t want to tell me anything, that is why I am here, I didn’t even know you bought
this house

Noma looked at me

Noma: What makes you think I will answer you?

Me: Because you are a woman, you should know how I feel

Noma: Do you think I care?

Me: You should, since I will be a second mom to this child

Noma: This house was a gift from sonke

me: He what?

Noma: Yeah, he said my apartment is too small for the baby

Me: Is it?

Noma: He said you hate this place

Me: Wow

I felt like a bullet just hit straight through my chest and my heart felt so damaged, I felt my eyes
failing me and my heart was slowly filling my eyes, I closed my eyes for a while and then I drank
more water

Noma: you okay?

I ignored her question as I didn’t know what lie to tell her since my face was so obvious on how
hurt I was
Me: Are you guys still together?

He stared at ne

Me: An answer would be nice

Noma: I don’t know what we are

Me: And that means?

Noma: Listen Sisi, After sonke decided that he is marrying you I broke it off with him and he kept
coming back to me, he even got me the jeep that I drive cause he wanted me to stay in his life

Me: He got you a car?

Noma: Yes, That’s how much he said he loves me

Me: But you knew he was with me?

Noma: So? What’s your point

I stared at her like I am starring at a monster

Noma: a month before your wedding I knew that he was not going to leave you and he was
stuck on you then I went Ulundi to be with my family, to start afresh and just to push him away
so he would forget about me but when I found out I was pregnant I freaked out

She took a deep breath in and put her hand on her stomach

Noma: I tried getting in touch with him but he ignored me then I sent him a text and he called me
back, I told him that he is the father and he told me it was not his baby, I told him I was going to
tell you and he told me he will kill me even before I could utter a word to you.

She stared at me and I was already crying at that time

Me: How could you guys

Noma: I wanted to tell you, I even sent you a WhatsApp text then I stopped myself

She looked as if she wanted to cry too

Noma: I even came here to tell you after the wedding but he told me to shut up about this until
the baby was born or he will make sure my life is a mess so I kept it discreet cause no one
messes with sonke

I was sobbing

Noma: sonke does not trust me and he will never trust me, sometimes I think he loves you more

Me: Sonke didn’t want me to know that you are pregnant?

Noma: I don’t know, maybe but he kept his distance from me, i tried moving on but it’s really
hard to do that when you are pregnant

Me: Why?

Noma: I wish I could answer that question but Sonke broke it off with me completely after the
wedding then after a few months he called me to tell me i can move in at his old place as you
guys have moved out and i did

Me: So this house is yours?

Sonke: He will only sign this house off to me after I give birth

Me: He said that?

Sonke: Not in so many words

Me: i see

Noma: Sonke loves the both of us lethu and its better you realize that fast, i will always be a part
of sonke's life whether you like it or not

I could not help but nod my head, as much as I hate it she was right, she was due to have his
baby anytime now and his baby was growing inside of me

Noma: Sonke owes me, i helped him build the business, sonke is nothing without me and this
baby is proves that

The door flanged opening and sonke walked in, He looked at me and noma

Sonke: Lethu, ufunani la?

Me: I should be asking you that

Sonke: The tracking service told me where you were

Me: Nice!!!!! I looked at noma and said i have to go, i hope he loves the gift

Noma: Thank you

I stood up and walked past sonke and i walked out, sonke ran after me

Sonke: Baby can we talk?

Me: No you stay here with your family, they need you more

Sonke: Baby what did she tell you?

He ran and blocked me from getting in to my car but i pushed him out of my way and i got into
the car and he ran back to the house screaming at noma asking her what did she tell me
I hooted for someone to open the gate for me until sonke came out of the house

Sonke: baby you cannot leave we need to talk

I took out my keys from the ignition and then ran back to the house and i opened the gate and
put it on locked mode then and i ran to my car, started my car and drove off, i didn’t care if he
was staying there or leaving or fucking her, i wanted to be out of there as fast i could, i drove
around and i found myself at the umhlanga peer and i cried until my eyes were puffy and
painful, i needed something to take the pain away and i opened the wine bottle i got from
Woolworths and i drank it in my car, it hurt so much as i saw families going to the beach with
their kids while i was stuck in my car crying cause i had lost the family i though i had, i needed
more wine so i drove to Woolworths and when i got there it was closed, i decided to go in to
restaurant called little heaven and ordered a bottle of wine, i sat alone crying and the manager
came to ask if i was okay and i said yes, i drank my wine until i was done then i requested for
another one then the manager came to me

Manager: Mam, I would suggest that you have water now, you have had too much to drink

Me: Water is not going to numb this pain I am feeling

Manager: Neither will the wine mam

Me: It will make me forget

Manager: Only for now

Me: May I have another bottle of wine

Manager: How are you going home mam

Me: I I don’t think that is any of your idea, are you going to get me more wine or should I leave?

Manager: It is coming right up mam

I sat there until 10.30pm and the restaurant was closing, I paid the i stumbled all the way to my
car with an open bottle of wine and i sat in my car and i cried, i took my phone and dialed sonke
and it only ran once and he answered

Sonke: Baby ukuphi

Me: I loved you sonke, I loved you

Sonke: Lee ukuphi

Me: I loved you, i gave you all of me, i gave you my life but I was never good enough for you

Sonke: baby you are drunk

Me: I thought you loved me sonke, you made a promise at the altar that you will be loyal and
honest to me
Sonke: Baby where the fuck are you *Screaming*

Me: How can you give our house to another woman?

Sonke: Baby don’t do anything stupid please

Me: How can you buy another woman a car?

Sonke: baby?

Me: How could you keep so much from me? You supposed to be my husband, you supposed to
be taking care of me

Sonke: Please stay where you are please

I cut the call and i drank wine from the bottle, he tried calling back but i cut his call and i sat
there, my eyes were blur and i couldn’t see clearly i looked for my keys they fell, I reached for
them with my hand but finding them was a mission, i decided to sit there for a while as my head
was spinning around in circles and after a while i looked for the keys and started the car and i
drove, i was driving so slow but felt like i was fast, i was scared cause i was too drunk, i wanted
to go to my apartment but my flat keys were not with me so i drove to La Lucia, it took me 45
minute to get to my house and when i got to the drive through sonke was waiting at the door,
before i open the car door he walked up to me

Sonke: You are drunk, sidakwa, what are you trying to do lethu? Kill my baby?

me: I felt something fighting to come out of my mouth then i ran to the house then to the
bathroom to throw up, sonke walked in the bathroom after a while

Sonke: how can you do this? Are you trying to kill our baby?

I walked out of the bathroom when I was done throwing up, sonke followed me to our in suit, I
rinsed my mouth and open the shower door, i took all my clothes off and i had a hot shower
then i wore my gown and i went to bed.

I got under the duvet as sonke was bitching and moaning, I didn’t entertain it as I was sloshed.

i woke up to the boys screaming my name

Lwando and lwandle: Mama don’t be a sleepy head, wake up

Me: Babies

I lifted my upper body and gave them a tight huge

Lwandle: You sick mama

Lwando: you look bad mama

I gave them a faint smile and i told them i was okay but i couldn’t even finish a sentence, i woke
up and ran to the bathroom and threw up and they screamed mama is sick, baba mama is sick,
sonke came with his mom as i was throwing up, i felt miserable and sonke's mom gave me
water, i drank it and i decided to brush my teeth and asked both of them for space so I will take
a bath, the boys were waiting for me in my bedroom playing with my phone as I could hear them
all the way from the in suite, after bathing i wrapped myself with a bath towel and went to the
bathroom and sonke was there, he told the boys to go to their room and he locked the bedroom
door, i changed into a long dress and wore my sandals as he was staring at me

Sonke: I don’t understand you

Me: We don’t understand each other i guess

Sonke: If uqubeka kanje lethu, you are going to lose me

Me: I already gave up fighting for you, I lost anyway

Sonke: This attitude is not on lethokuhle, we supposed to be working things out but you busy
drinking and coming home after midnight

I ignored him

Sonke: Who were you with last night

Me: i was alone and my day was lit i even decided that i want a divorce

Sonke: what?

Me: Unfortunately i am not a dvd player you think you can FFW or RRW

Sonke: He put his hands on my arms and he pushed me again the wall, he put his hand against
my neck and i screamed as he was strangling me

His mom knocked on the door

Mrs. Shange: Sonke kwenzekalani lapho,

I couldn’t scream anymore as I could not breath

Mrs. Shange: Open this door now

He let go of me and i sat on the floor holding my neck

Sonke: if you think you going to make me love you and then leave me, i will kill you even before
you sign those divorce papers, when you said i do you signed yourself to me, you are mine.

He walked to the door opened it and walked out while his mom walked in, she ran to me
Mrs. Shange: Makhumalo are you okay?

I shook my head

Me: No, he tried to kill me

Mrs. Shange: Haibo sonke….

she screamed for him until he walked back in to the room

Mrs. Shange: Lock that door behind you

He locked the door, Mrs. Shange stood up as she was kneeling next to me, she stared at sonke

Mrs. Shange: Strangle a woman sonke

Sonke: Ma, Lethu uzongihlanyisa

He punched the wall

Mrs. Shange: I know you crazy sonke, but this?

Sonke: Ma You could have heard what she said

Mrs. Shange: That gives you no right to lay your hands on her sonke mannn….

Sonke: I lost it ma, she wants to have an abortion and now she wants to divorce me? For one
simple mistake i made?

Me: You make it seem like it was a minor mistake sonke

He clicked his tongue

Me: One? One? Getting another woman pregnant is not a mistake sonke

Sonke: i said i am sorry lethu, ufuna ngenzenjani? Izolo i cooked a romantic dinner for us to sit
and talk and work things out but you decided to go drink at some tavern, usuyisidakwa nje

Me: That’s better than being a hoe man

He walked towards me but his mom stood in front of me

Mrs. Shange: Sonke, sonke calm down baby, actually both of you calm down, this is not how
grown ass people sort things out, this behavior is unacceptable, can the 3 of us sit down and
talk about this? throwing these type of words around is not healthy and khona izingane la
endlini, Please man

Sonke sat at the edge of the bed and his mom sat next to him, i stood against the wall

Mrs. Shange: come sit down my baby

Me: No thank you i prefer standing

Sonke: Manje usuzobakuhlaza ngisho nakumawami?

He gave me a deadly stare

Mrs. Shange: I know you are hurting my baby

I looked at her as she stared at me

I walked and i sat next to her and she took my hand

Mrs. Shange: This is the biggest trial your marriage is facing right now, this is not the time to be
fighting like a cat and dog, sonke you were wrong to cheat on your wife and uze umithise, Lethu
came to me crying telling me that you are hitting her and you back together with noma and i told
her to hang on and love you despite of your flaws and she promised me that she will try and i
have been seeing the amount of love she has for you sonke, even lo noma wakho did not love
you the way lethu loves you, fanele uzehlise and uxolise mowubhedhile.

She turned around and looked at me

Mrs. Shange: Lethu this is not how you treat your husband, stay out late drinking alcohol just
because he failed you, you not supposed to be giving away something you have been praying
for just because someone beat you to it, this baby is a blessing and you should be thanking god
for this child, divorce is forbidden in Catholics and you out of all people should know that, you
have to be strong baby and pray, when last have the 2 of you been to church?

Me: Ngama Easter

Mrs. Shange: Then maybe you should start going to church

Sonke: Ma i love ulethu more than anything, i don’t want to lose her and i just don’t know what
to do to show her that, she doesn’t listen to me or speak to me in a way she used to, she treats
me like an enemy

Me: That’s was the reason why to were having sex with noma?

Sonke: No

Me: Then what is your reason sonke?

Mrs. Shange: My baby

She looked at me and I started crying and she rubbed her hand on my back

Mrs. Shange: Calm down sthandwa sami

I looked down as I felt so much pain to even look at them in their eyes and started rubbing my
fingers against each other
Me: I am damaged ma, the sonke i love wouldn’t have kept this secret from me for 6 months,
give his side chick out house that we made love on and probably conceived this baby i am
carrying on, buy another woman a car when he hasn’t even bought me a car, give her money
and buy her clothes just because she is carrying his child, he wouldn’t have super with her and
then come and lie in my face about his whereabouts, is he doing this to me cause i don’t have a
mom who will come and fight my battles for me? Am i not good enough for you sonke? Do i not
love you right? Do i not feed you? I work with you and you know how busy we get yet i still come
home and cook you a meal and make sure you a full and satisfied in every way, what have i
been lacking at? What is it that made you run to noma every time you needed sex? Is my body
not pleasing enough for you? Is it because i was not ready to have a child? What was it? What
is it that i am terrible at? What is it that she has and I don’t?

My nose was running and tears where flowing like a waterfall on my cheeks,

Sonke's mom pulled me closer

Mrs. Shange: Shuuu my baby, Nxese Sisi, nxese shange

Sonke came to me and kneeled on the floor

Sonke: baby you are perfect in every way, it’s me, it’s me that didn’t know what i wanted then, I
was confused but i made the choice to be with you sithandwa sami, ngicela ungazinyezi, you
are perfect, he took my hands and kissed the back of it and he wiped my tears, ngyaxolisa
ntombi emhlophe, makhumalo wami, i will make it up to you for the rest of our lives and i
promise you, noma and i are not together but i am just trying to be a supportive father, she will
never come between us, can we just not let her ruin this bond we have? Can we stick together?

Me: This is so hard on me sonke, it really is

Sonke: Please don’t leave me Lethokuhle Shange, I will do all that you want me to do i promise,
I swear on our my kids life that i will love you and only you baby

Me: we will see, this is not easy

Sonke: Thank you baby, it will be worth it i promise

He hugged me, inside i was itching of slapping him but i had to respect his mom’s presence and
i had to be calm as i didn’t want to come across as rude, his mom asked us to pray and we did
and she told me we need to visit Majola cause all of this drifting apart could have been caused
by noma and she insisted that we drove to him that very morning and we did, when we got to
Mr. majola's house he was preparing for his afternoon church service and he asked us to come
into his hut and we left the shoes outside.

Majola: Mrs. Shange, ubukeka ungaphilile

Me: Hayi baba ukukhathala nje, asibone ukuthi kubangwa yini ukukhathala,

He lit white and yellow candles and he started playing hard and harder and he held my stomach
and he prayed hard on it, he took out a string and he prayed for it and he gave me to put in on
and he gave me water to drink and it tasted for cold and fresh, he looked at sonke and he said
you have to do what is right, qeda bonke ubudlelwani obubi obenza nonmnaka makoti wakho,
she is no good and you know that, lengane etwele usis lo isenkingeni and you need to make
sure that you keep both of them safe, lenyoka unoma owakuhlanganisa nayo ayikufuni and
izokubulala ngoba ifuna unoma qha, the next time you are with unoma izokubulala and you will
leave your kids and you wife, he gave sonke the same string but different color and he said
sprinkle this water on your car when you get home and the garden and make sure that
umkwakho is safe.

Sonke: Ngyabonga baba sonke put a R500 cash on the floor and we left, we drove ma home in
silence and she wanted to know what Mr. majola told us and she told him but did not mention
the snake part, i wanted us to be alone to ask sonke but i was scared, we got enanda and we
had lunch and i spent time with the boys and i went to visit goodies and it was so good to see
her, her mom and I spoke and i told her everything and they comforted me and told me noma
was such a hoe that’s why she and sonke broke up in the first place and maybe it’s not even his
child, i wanted to believe her but we all knew the truth, sonke was the dad. Sonke picked me up
from goodies house and we walked around the hood holding hands and he told me he has a lot
to tell me and he will tell me when we get home, while we were walking he received a phone call
from noma. Sonke looked at me

Me: Go ahead

Sonke: Eish, Noma yini manje?

Sonke was quiet for a while then his facial expression changed

Sonke: Hang in there I am on my way

Sonke looked at me

Sonke: baby, The baby is here and she needs me

Me: Okay, I guess you should go then

We rushed to the house and sonke told him mom while I walked to his outside building and I sat
there so helpless, after a few minutes sonke walked in

Me: Baby you still here?

Sonke: Please come with me

Me: Me?

Sonke: I need you

Me: Are you sure?

Sonke: Yes
I woke up and we ran to the car

Sonke: Baby Please call the paramedics, she said she was bleeding so I don’t know if that is
normal

Me: Oh NO baby

I called the paramedics while sonke was driving us to sunning dale, the drive was hectic as we
took the Verulam route and when we got there, the paramedics told us she was in labor and
they are taking her to umhlanga hospital as it is the nearest to her, we locked the house and
drove to the hospital, when we got there we were told she was sent to casualty and no one was
allowed in, even sonke.

We spend 20 minute at the reception and sonke was pacing up and down and i was sitting
down praying for both of them to be okay, the walked out and requested for Mr. Shange but we
both ran to the doctor

Sonke: How is my son?

Doctor: Are you Mrs. Shange? Her husband?

I looked at sonke

Sonke: No i am the father not her husband

the doctor then moved her eyes to me

Doctor: And you are?

Me: I…

Sonke: She is my wife

Doctor: You will have to excuse yourself, Only Mr. Shange is the patients next of kin

Sonke: This is my wife, so she is part of family

Doctor: Okay

The doctor looked at sonke and me and then he looked away

Sonke: And then?

Me: Baby Please

Doctor: We tried our best to save the baby Mr. Shange but by the time we got him out it was
already too late, the embolic cord ended up being coiled around his neck

Sonke: What do you mean doctor

Doctor: I am sorry Mr. Shange but your son did not make it but his mom is strong, she is
unconscious now and you can see her

Me: No…

Sonke: You not serious

Doctor: Once again i am sorry Mr. Shange

I put my hand on his shoulder to try and comfort him but he pushed my hand out and he walked
out of the hospital

Me: Sonke…

Doctor: Give him so time, he will be fine

Me: How is Noma taking it

Doctor: She did not take the news too well, She is not okay

Me: Oh no

Doctor: She will need the best support from your husband, it’s not easy losing a child

Me: I can imagine

Doctor: I will keep her in for a couple of days

Me: Can I see her?

Doctor: I am sure you can

I followed the doctor as she led me to her room, she topped outside

Doctor: I will leave you to it

Me: Thank you

I stood outside trying to gain the strength and courage to face noma, I took a deep breath in and
I opened the door, i walked in but she did not turn to see who was at the door, I walked towards
her but she didn’t even turn to look at me, She held on tight to a pillow and she crying

Me: Hi Noma

She didn’t turn

Me: How are you feeling?

She turned and looked at me

Noma: I am sure you are happy right

I shook my head
Me: This is not what I wanted

Noma: You can keep him, He was never mine anyway

Me: Noma, Please

Noma: get out

Me: I know you hurting noma

Noma: I said get the fuck out, get out …

The machine started beeping and getting louder and threw a pillow at me

Me: Okay, I’m sorry …

I turned around and i walked out of her room and back to the reception.

I walked out of the building to the parking but the car was gone, I sat on the steps and I held on
tight to my stomach

Me: What if it was my fault? Maybe me going over to her place stressed her out?

I started crying and I wanted to be home but sonke had taken the car and i was left with no
money and no phone, I walked back to the hospital and went to the receptionist and asked her
to help me call a cab and she did, within 15 minute the Mozzi cab was outside and it took me to
my house, when I got there I buzzed for mamiki to buzz me in and she did, I walked to my
bedroom and I took out cash and i paid the cab and I buzzed him out.

I went straight to the bathroom and showered then i wore pj's with a gown over and i waited for
sonke,

Time went by so I decided to cook supper, around 8pm I decided to eat then I got a thrower and
snuggled on the couch waiting for sonke, i fell asleep on the couch.

I woke up around 11pm but he was nowhere to be seen, i tried calling sonke with the landline
phone but his phone was off, I tried my number but it rang to voice mail, I gave up and I went to
bed.

I was woken up by a falling glass and Sonke walked in, I looked at the time and it was 3am in
the morning, sonke was pissed drunk and he was bruised on his left eye

Me: Baby

I woke up and ran to him, I helped him walking inside our bedroom

Me: Baby what happened

Sonke: Please hole me

Me: Sonke…

Sonke: Please

He gave me a look and he just broke down and cried in my arms and i held him tight, i cried with
him cause some part of me felt how much he was hurting and I couldn’t do anything about it

Sonke: This is all my fault

Me: No it’s not baby, these things happened

Sonke: No, It’s me

He cried even louder as I held him more tighter until he passed out, I lifted him in to a straight
position and I covered him with the duvet, the time was now 5am, I walked to the car and took
both our phones and I i texted Soni the receptionist that were not coming in and i text noxy.

Me {Hey Noxy today was supposed to be my first day back at the office but can you fill in for me
from home, I have an emergency I won’t make it to work, I will update you later}

Within 5 minute she replied back

Noxy {Okay, Its fine, I will tell the assistance manager}

I went to the study and sent out a few emails to make sure that I reschedule my meetings and I
SMSéd sonke’s mom informing her of the news.

I then made sonke a full breakfast meal because i wanted to be supportive, i also wanted to call
the hospital to check on noma and I was told she is recovering well.

I got distracted while I was passing the kids play room, I stood in the play room looking outside
the garden as the waterfall ran through the waterfall and i was lost in thoughts, I thought of how
painful it would be should I lose my baby, Yes I did not plan the baby but it is a blessing from
God. i placed my hand on my tummy and i started praying that God keeps my baby safe as
soon after i opened my eyes sonke was staring at me from the kitchen door and he looked
unhappy i got a shock as i didn’t even hear him open the bedroom door, i walked towards him

Me: Baby i made breakfast

He just looked at me strangely

Sonke: I am not hungry

He walked past me the went to the bar and he came back with a bottle of Jameson premium,
already opened and he started drinking it from the bottle.
Me: Baby No

Sonke: Ngicela ungiyeka Lethu

Me: Baby drinking is not going to make things better

He ignored me, I walked towards him as he settled on the couch

I kneeled before him

Me: Baby please don’t do this

He gave me a deadly stare

Sonke: Don’t….Don’t act like you care

I felt my heart dying while I still lived

Me: Sonke

Sonke: You didn’t want this baby, so why fake all this now?

Me: Baby that is not true, I didn’t want this happen

Sonke: Just leave me alone, go visit your sister noma abo max and leave me in peace

I started crying

Me: This is my house

Sonke: Well right now I need to be alone

Me: I am not going anywhere

Sonke: Suite yourself

Me: So this is how we are going to live now?

He ignored me while taking a sip from his bottle

I got up and i decided to let him be, I took a shower and i went to the hospital to check on noma,
I walked into her room, she looked at me as I walked closer

Me: Noma

She ignored me as if was not even in the room

Me: How are you feeling today?

Noma: How do you think feeling?

I was still for a moment and didn’t utter a word

Me: I am sorry about your baby, I never wished for anything like this to happen

She was quiet for a while then she started crying

Me: It’s okay to cry

Noma: I blame that hoe of a man, He got my baby killed

Me: Don’t do this to yourself noma

Noma: If he didn’t stress me with the hoe's that he is fucking i would be with my baby right now

Me: Sorry?

She stopped crying and looked at me

Noma: I just feel sorry for you, you too innocent for sonke

Me: Noma Please

Noma: You have no idea on who you are married to

Me: I don’t get you

Noma: he is such a hoe

Me: No

She gave out a small laughed and gave me a pity smile

Noma: you are too much of an angel for sonke, you don’t know him, he shows you this perfect
side that he wants you to see but sonke is a monster and I wish I never got myself involved with
him, all he has done was bring the worse to me

I started shaking with fear and I tried to make out what she meant but nothing made sense, it
felt like she was hallucinating

Me: You are just angry, I understand

Noma: You don’t get it do you?

Me: What?

Noma: Sonke is a hoe, he fucks every pussy he bumps into

Me: That is not true

Noma: He is a murderer

Me: No

Noma: You don’t believe me? Fine… ask him about Philile, Sam, the twins mother, he will tell
you

My heart raced all the way to Kimberly and all the way back, I started panicking

Me: Sonke would never cheat on me

Noma: That’s what you think, You are his pearl… His diamond…. The love of his life… he will
never let you see his messy side.

I started at her

Noma: Do you know that he asked me to abort this baby? Do you know that lwandle's and
lwando's mom was his side bitch? he got her killed cause he didn’t want her to raise his kids,

Me: Noma stop it

Noma: He probably paid these doctors to say the baby was distressed and got my baby killed

Me: Sonke loved this child noma, if you knew how much he is hurting

Noma: He is faking it, Sonke does not have a heart and i fuckin hate him

Me: I am not going to allow you to speak such ill about my husband

Noma: Truth hurts?

Me: You so evil

Noma: No he is

I woke up and left without having to say anything to her, I didn’t want to hear anything coming
out of her mouth more, Sonke is not a monster and he ? Was it true that sonke was the person
she said he is? I didn’t want to go home to face him as I was so confused.

I know sonke loves me and yes I love him too but he would never kill anyone, not a single soul.

I decided to drive to The Kay’s LTD and Sizwe the assistant manager updated me with work
and I asked him to keep an eye on things and make sure that he gives me a report every day, I
spend about 2 hours at the office finalizing the report for last week, Sizwe ordered nando's and
we had it at the boardroom and then after that i left and i went to LL PTY (Sonke’s office) and
everyone was happy to see me and they asked me where is sonke and i told them he is not well
so he will be out of the office for a few days and i need everyone to be hands on with the
company and i called Cindy to check up on her and she told me the B&B is fully booked and the
flats are okay just a few repairs here and there but business was good. I went to central Durban
and i got us meat from shisa nyama and i went home.

My car was still parked at the garage so sonke was s at home, I took a deep breath and I got
out of the car and walked to the house, when got inside and he was sleeping in the couch and
the bottle was empty.

I went to the bathroom and i ran hot water for him in the bath tub then i helped him up to the
bathroom and undressed him and i put him in a bath tub and he held on tight to me and he
kissed me, The kiss was dry and awkward and I pulled back

Sonke: Baby I need you

Me: Baby I am here for you

Sonke: Come in the water

Me: I prefer a shower

Sonke: Then let’s shower together

Me: I still need to warm and food baby so we can eat

Sonke: You don’t have to beat around the bush if you don’t want to fuck with me, tell me straight
that you don’t want to have sex with me

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Leave

Me: Baby

Sonke: Do you or do you not want to have sex with me

I felt like fireworks were hitting through my chest

Me: I looked away

Sonke: Please excuse yourself I need to bath

Me: Baby it’s not….

Sonke: get out *Snapped*

Chapter 24

I walked out and went to the kitchen and poured red wine in to a glass then i smelled it, i wanted
to have a sip so badly but i thought of my baby, I put my hand on my stomach the i poured it
down the drain then washed the glass and i went to sit on the dining table and wait for sonke to
join me, He took forever to join me and I was starving….after a few minute he walked from the
main bathroom to our bedroom with a towel on his waist, he looked a lot better than how he
was, i was too hungry so i dug in while waiting for him then after 15 minute he walked out
smelling and looking fresh he had his light blue denims on with a white sweater a white beanie
and white air force

Me: Where are you going?

Sonke: Out

Me: Out where?

Sonke: Hayi kahle, umuntu ngeke asashawa nje umoya without being interrogated?

Me: I want to know where you are going

Sonke: I said out

Me: Wow you are something else

Sonke: Yea, that attitude right there is not what i am not in the mood for

He walked towards the kitchen door the I snapped

Me: Fine go to oPhilile no Sam bakho, they probably fuck you better than i do

he stopped and came back to the dining table and he threw the car keys on the table that they
knocked over an empty glass and it fell on the floor and cracked, i sat still not even looking at
him

He sat down and he started eating without saying anything to me, we ate in silence I struggled
getting the food down my throat, I was scared and all the things noma said to me where
overcrowding my thoughts i woke up and picked the glass up and i went to the kitchen to get
another glass and he came stood and behind me, i could smell him behind me and he put his
hand on my waist and he moved them all the way to my boobs and he started squeezing them
while running his hands on my neck then down again to waist and he pulled my body against his
and he placed his lips on my neck, he ran his tongue all over my neck, he started breathing
heavy and I was slowly getting wet, my body was screaming for him

Sonke: I love you too much Lethu and that is my biggest fear, you own my heart and you just
don’t see that

He pulled me more closer to him and he squeezed my boobs a bit harder and it was so painful

Me: Ouch sonke you hurting me

Sonke: that is how i feel when you accuse me of things i don’t know of

He let my boobs loose then he ran his hands down to my thighs and he pulled my skirt up and
he inserted his hand inside my thong and he started fingering me, he held me tight against the
kitchen sink and I started moaning and moving to the direction of his hand, his one hand was
rubbing my boobs and he was breathing right in my ear, i wanted him in me so much that i put
my hand on his neck and pulled it closer, i wanted to kiss him but i couldn’t cause he was
behind me, when he realized how wet i was he turned me around and he looked at me straight
in my eyes

Sonke: Do you know how much i want you right now?

I sucked my lips and put my hands on his neck

Me: I want you to

Sonke: No you don’t

Me: I do

He kissed my lips and then he let me go, he took his my hands off his neck, he took his car keys
walked to the door, he stopped and then he opened the kitchen door

Me: Please don’t leave me alone Sonke,

He didn’t turn to look at me but he stood at the door entrance

Me: I don’t want to be alone

Sonke: So?

Me: I want to be with you

Sonke: Are you sure?

Me: Yes

he closed the door, locked it then came to me, we looked at each other for a while then he put
his hands on my waist, he kissed my lips then my neck and he walked back to the bedroom and
he wore his sleeping pants and his t-shirt, i stood in that one position day dreaming of him on
what he just did to me and i literally bagged him to stay, he walked to the kitchen and I stood
there like a log

Sonke: Are you not going to shower today?

Me: Yes eerm i am going to now

Sonke: okay i will be in the study - he walked away and then i cleaned up the dining room and
inserted the dirty dishes into the dish washer then walked to our in suit an took a hot shower, i
was feeling so sexy that i couldn’t even think straight that i wore my sexy lingerie which was a
pink and black bra with a lace G-string and i wore my gown on the top and put on my slippers, i
went to the kitchen and decided to warm the frozen brownies and i added cream on it with a
cherry and i knocked at the study

Sonke: h

Me: Baby are you still busy?

Sonke: No

Me: Can i come in?

Sonke: Sho ngena

Me: I made chocolate brownies, would you like some

Sonke: You know that is my favorite

I walked over to him to give him a plate and he pulled me over to sit on top of him and he took
his plate and placed it on the table, he took the spoon and fed me the brownie with cream, I ate
it and he then fed himself, his rubbed his hands against my gown and the silk texture was just
too much on me

Sonke: Ususinda kaso?

Me: Not true

Sonke: Ngampela, how on earth will i carry you now when you this heavy? we laughed

Me: You will have to figure that one out cause i love it when you carry me

Sonke: eish, i have to go back to the gym then

Me: I will join you

Sonke: Of Couse you will join me after you give birth, I am not a lover yezidudla

Me: ha ha ha I won’t get any fatter than this

Sonke: Njengoba usufubela kanjena nje

Me: Uqambamanga sonke

I stood up and he pulled me back and he gave me those long stinging kisses on my neck and i
knew he dropped a love bite, i wanted him to do that, I loved it when he did that, i took his hands
and put them on my boobs, he unwrapped my gown and i felt a cold breeze on my skin, he
rubbed his hands on my bare skin and he rubbed my thighs all the way to my boobs then down
there, i turned around facing him and his face was lost in between my boobs and i bit the bottom
lip, he lifted his face and we kissed, the kiss felt like the king corn ice cream, i didn’t want the
kiss to end and neither did he, he pushed the laptop and the plate aside and put me at the edge
of the table and he came between my legs splitting my thighs apart, i took his shirt out and he
helped me and he drew his pants down and he kissed me on my neck all the way to my belly

Sonke: Yours skin is beautiful

Me: Sonke...

Sonke: MMMmm
He unbuttoned my bra and helped take off my G-string, he sat on the chair and pulled me to him
and he entered me from behind and he helped me with the pace of lifting me up and down from
him, it was so good that i was speaking gibberish and all i could hear from him saying
makhumalo, mmmm lethu and i increased the pace as i was on another level, he stopped me
and he put me back on the table facing him, he entered me, he looked at me

Sonke: I love you lethokuhle Shange, i love you

Me: I love you more Sonke Shange

He increased his pace and i held on tight to him while he held on tight to my wasted and i was
screaming and he was calling my name until we reached the climax, he kissed me and the
carried me to the bedroom naked and he kissed me all over my body, he got into bed and we
cuddled until i fell asleep

I woke up to the bedroom lights shining in my eyes and i realized i was in sonke's arms naked
under the duvet, i woke up and looked around for my gown but it was nowhere to be found, then
i walked to the study and took my gown and wore it had picked up our clothes and threw them in
the laundry room and the plate in the kitchen, i put the alarm on and switched the lights off and
went back to bed, Sonke and i just had one of the best sex that we haven’t had in a long time, i
got under the duvet and i started pleasing him there, i loved the fact that he was moaning and
he put his hands on my head directing me gently with his hands, i went in too deep that he
started calling my name, i wanted to please my man, i wanted to leave a mark that he can have
his bitches but he is my man, i got on top of his and i put my hands on his muscular chest and i
started riding him, his hands were on my boobs and he was studying my body, then he put his
hands on my waist and helped me to increase the pace, he lifted his body up and pulled me to
him and he hugged my body tight to his and he pounded me and we moaning until our bodies
collapsed on each other all sweaty with heavy breathing, i held on tight to him and i started
kissing his neck leaving marks all over his body and he didn’t complain like he always does, i
turned around and slept on my side and he held me from behind tight towards his chest

Sonke: That was amazing

Me: You are amazing

Sonke: No we are great

Me: Goodnight sithandwa sami

Sonke: I think you mean good morning, its 2am

Me: Ha ha ha Good morning

He kissed my head and i fell asleep listening to his heart beat

I woke up in the morning all tucked in and sonke was not around, i looked at the time and it was
10am
Me: Dammit i over slept

i woke up grabbed my gown and ran to the bathroom, i took a shower and then i walked to the
bedroom to decide on what to wear, i decided to wear a pencil fitting grey dress with nude
pointy heels with pearls accessory, i didn’t have time to apply make-up so I put an eye liner
fixed my eyebrows then i put on a natural mat lipstick, i grabbed my bag but i couldn’t find my
car keys so that I meant I have to look for them, i walked to the dining room and it was clean
with a bouquet of roses on the table with a note

"You are an amazing woman that i would never want to lose in my life” I love you" S"

I smiled and took my phone and it had 6 SMSes, i sat down as i was hungry as hell and i went
to the kitchen and grabbed a fruit, i started looked for my keys but i couldn’t find it, the only key
that was there was for the VR6, i decided to leave the BMW parked outside the yard and i took
the VR6, i let the car idle while i went through the SMSes, i had a sms from sonke

Sonke {baby i have deposited 300K in your account, move in to your private trust fund cause it’s
not for shopping}

I laughed while reading that, I went over to the next text and it was from FNB Connect, another
SMS was from Sizwe from the Kay's office

Sizwe {Hi Lethu, we need to discuss the new clients credit, please let me know if you are
coming to the office today}

Another SMS came through from sonke

Sonke {I am organizing a funeral for Malusi - My late son, please notify the family as it will take
place on Thursday, i love you}

I felt my tummy turn and I got mad again, not at sonke but with this whole situation, how the fuck
will I explain a dead new born baby that is not even mine, nxa I ignored his text and went over to
the next sms which was from Max

Max {hey punk, i miss you and i need a job, call me}

I made a mental note to call max after I speak to the recruiting team at the Kay’s

I tried calling sonke but his phone was busy, i called Sizwe to tell him i am on my way to the
office.

I reversed and then drove to the office, it was hard driving his VR6, it was fast but the starring
was just off for me.

I got to the office, settled in and I went to sizwe’s office

Sizwe: Thank you for showing up Mrs. Shange, the clients here in the next 20 minute
Me: Oh no, I am starving

Sizwe: You have 10 minute

Me: Thanks

I walked to the canteen and got myself a fruit salad with and a yogurt, i sat down and ate, I tried
calling sonke while I was at it but his phone was now on voice mail, I was done exactly in 10
minute then I went to the boardroom.

Ivan steer was there and I greeted him and we cached up with how his family is and how we are
coping with the family as he knew the business is doing well

Ivan: I can see your marriage is good

Me: See?

Ivan: You are glowing and you have gained in the right places

I laughed out loud

Ivan: Plus the red marks on your neck says it all

I laughed with embarrassment

Me: Shit, I need a scarf

I walked out to noxy’s office and luckily she had one so I put It one and walked back to the
boardroom

Ivan: Really?

Me: Yes

He laughed while shaking his head, I sat down opposite him, Ivan was a is a lawyer and I
needed to know if he can do a background check for me, I love sonke with all of me but I need
to know what he does when I am not with him, I know he says he is at the office most of the
time but my instincts were telling me knows a noma and him aren’t really done.

Me: Ivan

He stopped typing on his laptop and looked at me

Me: Can I ask you something

Ivan: Yeah sure

Me: It’s personal, not work related

Me: Okay shoot

Me: Can you track information about someone

Ivan: Depends

I took a deep breath

Ivan: Lee

Me: Do you know of any P.I then?

Ivan: What is this about lethu

Me: think my husband is cheating

Ivan: You think?

Me: I know he is, I am just in denial

Ivan: You guys just got married though

Me: I know

Ivan: Trust issues?

Me: It’s more than that

Ivan: Are you sure you are ready to know the truth he might be saving you from?

Me: I just want to know the woman he is cheating with but i need someone who is discreet

Ivan: I have someone in mind, i will send you his details

Me: Thank you

Ivan: Just make sure this does not destroy your marriage

Sizwe walked in with the client while we were at it, we all greeted each other and then we
started the meeting, Ivan drew up the contract and agreed on the rate and then the meeting was
done in 3 hours.

Everyone left and Sizwe got us lunch then he gave me all the files to go through them so that he
can send them to bantu then I went to noxy’s office and buried myself with work, once I was
done I went over my emails and replied to the important client, before I knew it, it was past my
work time, I looked around for my phone and it was off, I remembered I didn’t put it on after the
meeting, i switched my phone back on and i had a SMS from Ivan

Ivan {Hi Lee Mr. Pian 07255700**, he should be able to assist you with what you need, tell him
you got his number from me}

I replied
Me {Thank you Ivan }

I went to the next SMS that was from sonke

Sonke {Please call when you stop bitching around wherever you are"

I put on a puzzle look as to how can sonke say that? When his the one that fucks around nxa

I took my laptop bag and walked to my car and drove off, I was too mad at what sonke just said
and I couldn’t wait to even get home to give him and piece of my mind

I called him and the phone rang once and he answered

Sonke: Ukuphi

Me: Baby i am driving home

Sonke: Good

He hung up

Nxa, sonke can be rude at times, when i got home and i parked at the gate cause i didn’t know
why sonke was so mad, i opened the gate and drove in and he was at the kitchen door entrance

I got out of the car

Me: baby

Sonke: Where have you been

Me: I was at the office

Sonke: I called the office and you were not there

Me: I was at the Kay's office

Sonke: and you couldn’t tell me you are going to that office today?

Me: Sizwe text me and told me we have to meet with a client plus you know noxy is on leave

Sonke: and you forgot that you have a husband to tell that to?

Me: I tried calling you but you didn’t answer

Sonke: You are asking for it

he didn’t even wait for me to say anything He walked in and i drove the car into the garage and
then walked to the house, he was in his study and mamaki had left to her room, i decided to
start chopping veggies as i wanted to cook beef stew, i spent the rest of the evening cooking
and i bath and then transferred the money into my other account and i called him when super
was ready, we ate in silence cause i didn’t want to piss him off much more that he was already
pissed, when we were done i washed the dishes then i went to sleep, he came and stood at the
bedroom door

Sonke: Have you told the family about the funeral?

Me: I forgot but i will text them tomorrow

Sonke: Nxa

He got more mad and slammed the door, he came to sleep after an hour and he didn’t even
touch me and i didn’t even try to touch him either, the next day i checked in at the LL office and i
told them sonke lost his bastard son and the funeral is tomorrow at out old house and i called
his mom to tell the rest of the family and my family, i arranged catering for the funeral then i left
it at it as it was none of my business, sonke and i hardly spoke and when i got home his mom
and boys were there and i prepared the spare bedroom for her and they boys, i took out outfits
the boys will wear tomorrow and sonke walked in and stared at me

Sonke: Wear black kusasa ngoba uzobe uhlezi nonoma ocansini

I turned red and I could literally feel the steam coming out of my ears, He must be fucking crazy
to tell me this

Me: I will do no such thing, that was not my child

Sonke: You will do it

Me: I would rather not go to the funeral if you think i will be sitting with noma

Sonke: I am the man in this house and you are forgetting that

Me: but it was not my baby

Sonke: It was my baby

Me: Yes yours and your side chick

Sonke: Lee

Me: What?

Sonke: Listen

Me: You must be joking, Ngeke ngiyenze leyonto, i wont promote cheating in this house

Sonke: Uzoyeka ukubukisa ngami and uyeke ukuqhopisana nami, you will do as i tell you and
no but

he walked out of the boys room, i went to sit in the lounge, we weren’t even allowed to switch on
the TV, he walked in
Sonke: The baby’s body will start here first then to sunning dale where we will have the service
and then to the cemetery, you need to be up at 5am, he walked away

I went to our bedroom bathroom bath and then wore my nighty and then went to have super, i
was quiet and i didn’t say anything to whatever he and his mom were talking about, i had my
food and i help feed the boys, i bath them i tucked them in, i said goodnight to his mom and i
went to bed, sonke came to bed around 10pm and he got under the beddings, i moved away
from him as i didn’t even want to feel his skin on me, we both laid in silence until he moved over
to me and he kissed my neck and i just knew what he wanted

Me: No sonke i am tired

Sonke: I am not tired

Me: No *Snapped*

He woke up and he put the main lights on

Sonke: Lethu as much as you hate the idea yokuthi ngimithise ngaphandle but that is my son
and i need you to be a bit supportive

Me: I have to be up early tomorrow, My I sleep?

Sonke: I am still talking to you

Me: and what does me not being in the mood for sex got to do with what you saying now?

Sonke: right now you are hard on me cause you don’t want to sit with noma

Me: Ngeke vele

Sonke: You will

Me: I don’t want to sit with noma cause i did not approve of that pregnancy in the first place,
your bitching around cause her to be pregnant and then for her to lose the baby now leave me
the hell out of it, i will not go if i will be sitting next to noma and be your puppet, he walked up to
me and i woke up from the bed and ran to the balcony, he stopped half way and went to switch
the lights off and then went to bed, i stood at the balcony scare of going to bed, i walked out and
i sat in a chair at the dining room, i drank water and then i decided to go back to sleep, i got into
bed and he came close to me again, I could feel his skin on me and his breathing right in my ear

Sonke: I hope you are done thinking about tomorrow?

I ignored him

Sonke: Bottom line is you will do

A tear escaped my eye

He started kissing my neck and i just knew that we won’t sleep until he gets some, he kissed me
and lifted my nighty up, i was not in the mood plus i was unhappy to even be here, he got on top
of me and he rode me, he was just moaning on top of me, as much as i loved him being in me i
just couldn’t allow my mood to fail on me, i had to be mad and stick to it for him to change his
mind, i held him tight as i climaxed and my voice disappointed me, he came after a few seconds
and he collapsed next to me, i woke up to pee then i went back to bed and he held me tight and
we both fell asleep, he woke up at 5am asking me to get ready as he is going to fetch the child
from the mortuary and i must get ready and make sure the boys and i are ready, i did as he
asked and by 8am we were leaving to sunning dale after the coffin came to our house, there
coffin was so small that sonke was carrying it and noma's eyes were red from crying, there were
few family and friends at the house and then we went to the cemetery and then we came back
to sunning dale to have lunch, most people left at 1pm and i stayed over to help noma, we sat
next to each other the whole time but we didn’t say a single word to each other and i thought to
myself this woman has control over everything and i was just a distraction in their lives, i feel like
i came in their lives and ruined things cause she gets everything she wants, a car, house money
and now i have to sit next to her at funeral of a bastard child.

when i was done i took the boys and i went to La Lucia with them and we all bath with holy
water and then we cuddled, i called the company’s and they were doing well and i decided to
called Mr. Pian the P.I and we arranged to meet at north beach and i must have 10k cash, i
agreed, sonke and his mom came after 2 hours and sonke had to drive them home, i stayed in
bed trying to figure out my life, sonke came home after 10pm and asked me to make him food, i
warmed pizza that the boys and i had and gave him with juice and i went back to bed then he
came after a while

Sonke: Thank you for respecting me enough to do what i asked you to do

Me: Cool

He kissed my forehead and then we slept, i woke up early the next day as i had to go to the
bank to withdraw 10k and i told sonke i have a meeting to go to and he told me he will be at the
office the whole day which was good for me. We got ready and went to the office while I stayed
home working, around 11am i called Mr. Pian and he told me he will meet me at California
dreaming, i went there and i waited for him and he called me after 10 minute and i saw a man
waving at me and he came and sat with me

Pian: Mrs. Shange right?

Me: Yes that is me

Pian: what can i do for you?

Me: Ivan gave me your contact details, i would love for to follow my husband Sonke Shange

Pian: What is the reason for this if you don’t mind me asking

Me: I think he is cheating on me

Pian: I see
Me: Please keep it discreet

Pian: That is part of my job

Me: Thank you

Pian: I will get on it right away

Me: Thank you

Pian: Do you have my money?

Me: Yes i do

I gave it to him from an envelope and he thanked me

Pian: Let me leave you and start my job, i will be in touch

Me: Thank you, goodbye

He left and i ordered a sea platter and i enjoyed it with an awesome sea breeze and when i was
done i went to visit noxy and i told her everything on what happened and she told me she did
not come to the funeral cause she has nothing to do with noma, sonke is just full of shit

Noxy: I think you should visit here for a week just to clear your head, i am due to give birth
anytime and i would love to have my sister around

Me: I will let sonke know and i will call you tonight

We spend time with Mathema and babuzondi until late and i decided to drive to my house and
sonke was there waiting for me in the dining room

Sonke: So which lie are you going to tell me today? *Screaming*

Me: I was with noxy

Sonke: with Noxy? Is that your lie?

Me: No i met with Ian in north beach then i went to visit my family

Sonke: You really think that I am dumb neh?

He slapped me across my face, I stood there with so much shock

me: Sonke Please. Let’s call noxy

he took his phone dialed Noxy and put her on loud speaker

Sonke: Hey sbari unjani?

Noxy: Hayi sikhona wena unjani?

Sonke: I am fine sbari, i wanted to know if you saw lethu

Noxy: Yes she left a few minute ago, I am sure she is on her way there

Sonke: Okay no its fine i will call her, I was just worried ukuthi ukuphi

Noxy: Okay sho

Sonke: Bye Sbari

He cut the call and looked at me

Sonke: Your ancestors are still with you

He took out a gun and went to put it in the safe, i didn’t even know sonke owned a gun and he
had a gun with him, for what?

Me: You had that gun for me?

Sonke: No but it looks like you are craving it

I kept quiet and he told me he is hungry, i asked him why he didn’t cook and he told me that is
not his duty, i made him a sandwich then i went to bath and sleep, he came to bed and slept
while he cuddled me.

We didn’t talk about what happened early on and he pretended like everything is fine

We woke up early the next day and he made breakfast for me in bed with a rose, I wasn’t
wowed as he does this every time he hits me, I sat next to me with a bowl of cereal while I ate
the breakfast he made for me

Sonke: I love you lee and I am sorry for being such an ass

I nod my head as I didn’t want to say anything

Sonke: I have been under a lot of stress babe and I am sorry for being this abusive husband, I
didn’t meat to raise my hand on you and It won’t happen again

Me: You have said that before

Sonke: I know babe, I just can’t control my temper sometimes but I will try harder

Me: If you say so

Sonke: Ngyaxolisa babe

Me: I forgave you the first time you hit me

Sonke: Babe

He pout his mouth as he looked at me and he looked so funny

Sonke: Please

Me: Fine

He kissed my cheek and went back in to eating his cereal

Sonke: I was thinking we visit a Gynea to check on the baby

Me: Not today Sonke

Sonke: Please babe

Me: My Gynea is close today

Sonke: We can visit any, it’s just for today

Me: Fine

Sonke: Get ready love, he walked out while I finished on my greasy breakfast and took a
shower

Sonke drove us to a Gynea in Durdoc center and we paid cash instead as it was just a once off

the Gynea asked me if it was my 1st visit and i said yes, i asked the Gynea to run a HIV test for
me as I have not tested and he did my test right there, Sonke was a bit pissed as he was not
there for all the nonsense, all he wanted to see was his child

With God’s grace the test was negative, we had a scan made and i must admit, this is going to
be one bubbly active child, the Gynea couldn’t tell the gender but to me it looked like a boy, it
had Sonke’s head and not mines, the baby and i were healthy and he advise me to eat healthy
food and less junk, he told me i was due in December/January, i was happy with that and so
was Sonke, he then took me out for lunch at zigzag and the ocean view was beautiful and then
we took a walk at the harbor and we went for a boat ride and then we went to shop at galleria
mall, he got a few things for himself and H&M had a sale that i got almost everything i needed
and then we had super at beluga and then we went home, he showered together and then went
home and the next day we went to church and then we spent the rest of the day in the pool in
our house, the next weeks we were swamped with work and i went to visit noxy every day after
work cause Sonke didn’t want me to sleep over and within a month Noxy gave birth to a boy
and she was happy, we name the boy as Nkanyiso, bantu and sbahle came down to see the
baby and they told us they have decided to get married and Sibahle wants me as her maid of
honor and then noxy as her brides maid and we said yes, sonke got nkanyiso a mini BMW
which he will be able to drive when he is 3 or over but he just loved it cause he got Lwandle and
lwando too, Max was getting married and Sonke and i had to look tops, as much as he didn’t
want to go he was forced too, Noxy was back in shape, it was as if she never fell pregnant

Chapter 25
I woke up to a phone call from Pian, I took the phone and cancelled the call as Sonke was
sleeping next to me so I couldn’t answer and I also had a terrible heart burn

I SMS Mr. Pain,

Me {can’t talk right now, will call you later}

Mr Pian {we need to meet}

Me {I will confirm later}

I deleted the tread and I put my phone on my side table

Sonke: Who are you chatting with this early?

Me: Noxy, I need to know what can I take for a heart burn

Sonke: Gaviscon babe

Me: That doesn’t work

Sonke: Call mom, she will know

Me: Okay I will later, I am sure she is still sleeping

Sonke: You might be surprised

We were disturbed by my phone as it notified me I have a message. I took the phone and read
the text

Mr. Pian {Okay}

I deleted the SMS and I put the phone back into the side board and went back to Sonke’s arms

Sonke: baby we need to get ready for the wedding and by the look of things we are late

Me: I want to stay in your arms

Sonke: That is fine with me, vele nje umshado wezithabane Ain’t my thing
I laughed out loud

Me: Okay let’s get ready

Sonke: Lethu

Me: Baby you convinced me not to be a brides maid so I cannot not go

Sonke woke and took a shower and then I took a shower after him, he wore black skinny pants
with a grey shirt and grey low cut formal shoes and I wore a long grey hugging dress with back
heels and a matching purse

my weave was curly so it didn’t need any touch up, but my tummy was just too huge for my
months, the stomach was just so heavy that I had to carry flops to change in to when my foot
aches

Sonke carried food for me because I am always hungry

We drove my beamer to the wedding, it took place at E-section Kwamashu,

When we got there, there were close friends and family and a few people that supported gays.

Max looked happy and in love

Sonke knew a lot of people as they were calling him Mlungu or Baas and it seemed like people
that worked at the warehouse as some even discussed work with him, the reception was at
kwamashu F hall, it was so full that Sonke and I had to wait for 20 minute to enter the hall and
luckily our names were on the VIP guest list, the deco was so beautiful and max looked too hot,
I just don’t understand why hot guys turn gay, I was due to give a speech but I was too tired so
Ian went on my behalf and said all the crazy shit max did when we were all together parting,
everyone was so happy for them and I must say, Gay people know how to turn up because it
was happening but we had to leave early as I was nagging and telling Sonke we need to go and
Sean called me a mini elephant. The moment we got home Sonke gave me a foot massage and
I fell asleep immediately without even bathing, I woke up around 2am and Sonke was not in bed
and his car was gone, I tried calling him but his phone rang in the bedroom, I made something
to eat cause I was too hungry, my phone rang and I ran to the bedroom to answer and it was
king calling, I answered

Sonke: Baby

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Baby I was checking up on you, Please switch the alarm on now love

Me: Why Sonke, ukuphi?

Sonke: Baby there is an emergency at the holiday house in Ballito and I had to rush here, switch
my phone off, I will be home in 30 minute

me: Why must I switch it off?

Sonke: For once please listen, put the alarm on and lock the doors, Switch my phone off and
sleep, I will be there in 30 minute.

Me: Okay

Sonke: I love you

He hung up and I did as he told but his phone kept ringing with a private number, I wanted to
answer it but I was scared, I decided to go back to bed, I went through his phone and the last
call he received was from king and before then it was P... and then king again, I decided to go
through his pictures, he had nothing suspicious and it was mostly pictures of me sleeping or just
random pictures, he also had group pictures of his friends and warehouse pictures on camera,
His WhatsApp had a lot of messages from the unknown numbers but i didn’t go through it cause
I had to open them so I logged out and switched his phone off, he was not home yet and it was
over an hour, I fell asleep while I was waiting for him.

I woke up with the baby pressing on my bladder and I ran to the toilet to pee, when I came back
I realized Sonke was not home and it was now 8am, I took my phone and I called king, he
answered and said I am on my way there don’t panic and hung up, he got to my house and
opened the gate and then knocked at my door, I opened it and he was alone in his car

Me: Hi King, Uphi u Sonke?

King: Hello Lethu, may I come in?

Me: Sorry, please do

He walked in and sat down at the dining room table and asked for water, I poured water for him
and sat opposite him

Me: Uphi U Sonke? Is he okay?

King: Yes but he had to drive to Cape Town

Me: Cape Town?

King: Yes

Me: Why?
King: We have a fraudster who is trying buying our holiday house, So Sonke has to be in Cape
Town for a week or two to sort out this mess

Me: Why did he have to drive though? Why didn’t he book a flight?

King: Because there were no flights available at that time.

Me: So how will I talk to him because he left his phone? He knows I am pregnant, why didn’t
you go?

King: I have very important client to meet tomorrow and on Wednesday, so he suggested I stay
and he will go

Me: This is crazy, Sonke akangicabangeli nje

King: Uxolo

Me: Fuck This

King: Do you have a friend who can stay with you while he is gone?

Me: No its fine I will manage

King: Okay, call me if you need anything

Me: Okay I will

King: There is one thing though

Me: What?

King: Sonke asked me to make sure that you are safe

Me: I have lived here for months, trust me I will be safe

King: I know but I just need to be sure on my side

Me: Meaning?

King: I have organized a driver for you and I will tighten the security

Me: kahleke king, I can still driver although my stomach is bigger than it should

King: True Lethu, ungathi uzoteta noma inini nje

Me: I am only 5 to 6 months pregnant, I still have another 4 months to go

King: Hayi angiphiki Just that inkulu ingane yenu

His phone rang and he answered

King: Excuse me Lethu I have to take this call, Hello....Okay ngiyeza ngizonivulela

He hung up

King: The driver and security guards are here, I am going to open for them

He walked out and a opened the main gate, a white jaguar drove in with five man and a woman
in the car, the guys came out and king took them around the house then came back to me

King: There will be two security every day and night, Please make sure the electric fencing is on
all the time,

Please switch the alarm on every day before you leave and you get home

The female driver will be driving you around and if you need anything you must let him know

Me: God I feel like I am Michelle Obama right now

King: Lethu I am serous

Me: Fine

King: Good, Please don’t give my guys a hard time

Me: I won’t

King: I have to sort out a few things, I have to go

Me: Okay

He left

I asked the lady if she wants breakfast and she said no, she took out her luggage and I showed
her the guest room while I went to take a bath

I laid on the bath tub for minutes trying to digest what just happened and Sonke…lord knows
how much I will kill Sonke when he gets back because this is just not fair
I wore my sweat pants with Sonke’s t-shirt and then I stayed in bed, I decided to bury myself
with work since I was behind, with Sonke not here that meant I had to focus on both companies
and that just pissed me off even more

I was so mad at Sonke and king who the fuck does he think he is to get security and a driver for
me? I was so mad that I just threw my side lamb against the wall and started screaming.

The driver knocked at the bedroom door to ask me if I was okay and I said yes then she left.

I went to make breakfast but I ended up having a cereal as I was too lazy to make a full
breakfast feat then I went to my bedroom and I stayed there the whole day finalizing the
employee’s files and their medical aid.

Mamiki called me to tell me supper was ready and I went to eat with just the three of us on the
table, the lady introduced herself as Philile, It was the same name that Noma told me of

I just wasn’t sure if it was the same Philile, I became a bit agitated as my insecurities were
building up

Me: Philile do you know my husband?

Philile: Mr. Shange?

Me: Yes

Philile: No mam, I only met Mr. King Sikobe as he called our company and requested for a
driver

Me: Okay

Mamiki: Unobuso obujwayelekile yazi

Philile: Abantu abaningi bajwayele ukusho njalo

Mamiki: Okay dali

Me: Are you from Durban?

Philile: Yes Stanger

Mamiki: Eve ngiyithanda imbewu yesestanger

Philile laughed out loud

Philile: Ayisafani neyakuqala

Me: I have never been there hey

Philile: You should visit, it is a beautiful place

Me: Maybe Sonke and I will go there for his birthday

Mamiki: Maybe uzobe usuthethile

Me: I doubt

Mamiki: Pho ufike nini le ethekwini

Philile: I can to Durban to study in DUT but due to financial reasons I couldn’t complete my
course so I dropped out, luckily I had a driver’s license so I was hired by this transporting
company i work for

Mamiki: Do you have any kids

Philile: Yes 2 beautiful boys, One is 5 Years and one is 7 years old

Me: Ah that is nice, do they live here in Durban?

Philile: No, they live with their dad in Sandton, we no longer together

Me: I am sorry

Philile: It is okay, it’s part of life

I was sadden with what she said, I don’t ever see myself without my kids

We ate and when we were done I went to bed to sleep as I felt too tired

this baby was just making me tired

I woke up in the morning at 6am, bath and I wore my white maternity dress with baby heels and
a coat, I straightened my weave and I left to make breakfast but Mamiki beat me to it as the
breakfast was made already, Philile was already eating

I was starving but greasy breakfast was just no on my list for the day, I decided to have muesli
with yogurt then I was ready to leave

I called LL's office to tell them I will be coming in as Sonke is not around and I called Noxy to tell
her I will send her an email on accounts to touch base with as I have to be in my company on
Sonke’s absent, she was fine with it.
Philile was already idling the car when I walked in to the drive way, she drove me to Umbilo and
we were at work in 20 minute.

I had back to back meeting with new clients, I had to have contracts drawn and I had to call
Muzi the business and Shange’s family lawyer to draw up and the contracts for new clients

He told me Sonke must come through to see him when he is back from cape town and I
promised to pass on the message.

Philile drove us back home in the afternoon, I bath ate and went straight to bed as that’s how
tired I was

The week went by and I missed Sonke so much, the house was just too lonely without him, the
bed felt too big for myself only so I decided to visit home over the weekend Noxy was happy
that I was home plus I also needed to bond with her baby boy, baby Khumalo, he was too
adorable and he looked more like me rather than Noxy.

Philile took me and baby K to gateway and we watched a movie, shopped at earth child and
then went home, he was so well behaved and his mom decided to go make another baby while I
was bonding with my baby K, Mathema made a delicious meal for us and we dug in, Philile
used the guest room as I slept with Baby K in my room

On Sunday I spent the day with Mathema and baba u Zondi, I decided to leave on Monday to
work because I didn’t want to go to my house, I missed Sonke so much that every night before
sleeping I would go through our photo's, and in the morning I would do the same so being
around people made me feel less lonely

Om Monday we went to work and did the normal, the next day was the same On Wednesday I
decided to call back Mr. Pian as I have kept him on hold for too long

I dialed his number and he answered on a 3rd ring

Mr. Pian: I have been waiting for your call

Me: I am so sorry I got too busy

Mr. Pain: I thought you were getting cold feet’s

Me: No, not at all, do you have anything?

Mr. Pian: Yes and we have to meet ASAP

Me: How about tomorrow

Mr. Pian: That’s great with me, we will meet at the harbor tomorrow at 11am

Me: Okay
I hung up and got back to work, I couldn’t help but get a nervous about meeting Mr. Pian but I
wanted to know the truth, God help Sonke should I find something recent. King called while I
was in my thoughts but I was in no mood to chit chat so I let it ring to voice mail

I left work early because I was not feeling too well, Philile and I were quiet in the car so she
decided to put the music on and she played Kanye west and Rihanna all of the lights, this track
took me way back when Rihanna was, me and my sister cut our hair so we will look like
Rihanna on take a bow video, I couldn’t help but smile to myself

Philile: It’s good to see you smile, Ave umuhle

Me: I am just thinking about my sister the way we were obsessed with Rihanna that we did
almost all her hairstyles, mum hated it but dad gave us everything we wanted

Philile: Your dad must have been the dad of the year

Me: He was and he will always be

Philile: Where are they vele?

Me: They are late

Philile: Eish sorry sisi

Me: You know it’s been a while since I’ve visit them, would you mind driving me to my
Edgecombe cemetery?

Philile: No I don't

Me: Please, I miss them

She drove me to Mt Edgecombe cemetery, parked outside and I walked in, I didn’t even buy
flowers but i am sure they are happy to see me here, I cried the moment I came closer to the
their thumb stones, I kneeled in-between.

Me: Daddy

A tear escaped from my eye

Me: Oh daddy I have grown so much, I am going to be a mom very soon

I couldn’t help by break down and cry

Me: Oh daddy I miss you so so so much Baba, Life is so hard without you, I never thought I
would get here without you, I am not your little girl anymore… I am married to an amazing
husband… I would have loved for him to be like my daddy but he is not, he has a good heart
and at the same time he has a short temper but he loves me. I hope you are taking good care of
mom there...

Mom I miss you, I miss our girl talk and you shouting…I am a woman now with a baby on the
way…I know you taught me to always be independent and mummy I am, I try to live by the rules
you taught me every day… Noxy and I don’t fight any more, we have grown so much and we
are a lot more closer than before….Thank you for loving us and giving us the best advise a
mother can give her daughters.

I am sorry I didn’t come with flowers but I needed to chill with you guys for a while, I decided to
Hmmm our church songs just the way mom used to sing it, I prayed and then I walked back to, I
got in the car and Philile looked at me from the review mirror.

Me: Thank you, I am done

Philile: Okay, feeling better?

Me: Much better

Philile: I was thinking we buy supper today so your maid can relax, she has been going an extra
mile to keep you smiling since Sonke left

Me: What do you think we should buy?

Philile: Well since we are in phoenix why don’t we buy chicken tikka

Me: Who sells the best tikka here

Philile: Don’t stress I will take you

She drove around phoenix and we got into a place called wood view and she placed an order
for four, I asked why four and she said she will have two and I said I also want two, she
cancelled the order and got 2 full chicken with a 2Ltr coke and 15 Roti and she asked for the
source to be on the side, we waited for about 20 minute in the car then we received the order
and left
We got home and she unpacked the food and she told Mamiki supper is ready she doesn’t have
to cook, I placed the dishes on the table and I washed my hands and we dug in, it tasted so
good and I can’t even tell how many pieces I had but I loved it, I felt more fuller then anyone
cause my baby started kicking, at first I though it was my water breaking with the way the kicks
were going

I stood up with so much shock

Me: Guys my baby kicked

Mamiki: Hawu kodwa Jesu

Me: Its kicking so much

Mamiki: May I feel it

She put her hand on my stomach and this time around it gave a big kick that it tickled more

Me: Philile would you like to fell?

Philile: No Thank you

me: Why not?

Philile: Okay why not

She came and put the hand on my stomach and the baby kicked again

Mamiki: Wow this must be a boy

Philile: Most definitely, phela your husband only get to have boys only

We all laughed out loud

Me: Kahleni becasueI am hoping for a girl

Mamiki: Maybe after having 5 boys God might just bless you with a girl

Me: Haa Ma I won’t even go that far

We sat around the fire place as it was cold Mamiki told us of her old days how they used to get
married and their husbands will have more than three wives, all those fairytales, around 9pm I
decided to bath and sleep.

I couldn’t sleep much as this child was kicking more that it should hey or is it because it’s too
bubbly, I woke up and I decided speak to god, I took my rosary from my bag and I kneeled down
and I began.

I began by holding the crucifix, In the name of the father and of the son and of the Holy Spirit (I
made the sign of a cross)

I said the apostles creed, I went on in to saying our father then the Hail Mary.

I continued with the rosary until I was done

I woke up and I went to the kitchen, I took the holy water from the fridge and had a sip and then
I walked back to my bedroom, the baby stopped kicking so much then I managed to fall asleep.

I woke up at 8am and I called my Gynea and asked her if she will be available today, she said
she is only available at 9.30 as she will be n theatre the whole day today, I asked if I could pop
in and she was fine, I took a shower and I wore low cut maternity pants with gypsy top and baby
heels, I didn’t have time to put make up so I put natural lip stick from mac, I took my handbag
and laptop and rushed out, I told Philile that I have an appointment with my Gynea at 9.30 at St.
Augustine medical center so we have to rush, she stopped eating her breakfast and we got in
the car and she drove like a pro, by 9.23am we were at St. Augustine and I ran to the room and
her receptionist was there waiting for me.

Hi: Hi

Receptionist: Good morning, May I assist you?

Me: I have an appointment with Dr. Lumia

Receptionist: Mrs. Shange Right?

Me: Yes

Receptionist: Dr. Lumia is waiting for you, you may go in

Me: Thank you

I walked in and she looked at me all shocked

Dr. Lumia: Lee

Me: Hi Doctor

Dr. Lumia: OH my, I had no idea you were expecting

Me: Sorry I didn’t have much time to come through, I went to a GP and he broke the news to us

She looked worried

Dr. Lumia: But have you been taking your vitamins?

Me: Yes I have, he did prescribe them for me and we did get a scan when I was 4 or 5 months I
think

Dr. Lumia: Okay let’s get started since I will be the one helping you deliver right?

Me: Yes you of Couse

Dr. Lumia: how is Noxolo?

Me: She is doing well hey and the baby has grown so much

Dr. Lumia: He was a fat baby

We both laughed

Me: Very

Dr. Lumia: Okay I will have to take some bloods to send them to the lab just to check if you and
the baby are okay, I will also check your HIV status and I also have to do a pap smear and
check your blood pressure and sugar

Me: Okay no problem

She then took four samples of blood and she checked my sugar and blood pressure which was
normal, she checked my HIV and it came out negative, she also sent blood samples to the lab.
She asked me to undress just to check the baby's scan and when I will be due. I did and I wore
those hospital gowns and I laid on the bed which was on the next room from her office, she had
a big screen and she applied the gel and I saw movement on the screen, she spent at least two
minute focusing on the screen and then smiled and looked at me

Me: I am hoping that is a good smile

Dr. Lumia: it is, I am happy with what I am seeing

Me: Thank God

Dr. Lumia: They are so strong, their heartbeat are just too strong

Me: They?

Dr. Lumia: Yes your twins

me: I’m having twins?

Dr. Lumia: Didn’t you know?

Me: No the first scan picked up 1 heart beat and 1 baby

Dr. Lumia: That happens especially on your 1st trimester

Me: Oh my word, I am having twins

Dr. Lumia: Yes you are having twins

Me: My husband will be shocked cause we have two boys who are twins

She looked at me all quizzical

Dr. Lumia: But in my files it shows that this is your 1st pregnancy

Me: Yes it true, the twins are not my biological twins

Dr. Lumia: I see

Me: Their mom is no more

Dr. Lumia: Oh that’s sad, how old are they?

Me: They are four years now

Dr. Lumia: How are they with you?

Me: They are darlings, they feel like my own

I smile to myself

Me: I don’t think I would be able to live without them

Dr. Lumia: I am sure they feel just as much

She smiled at me

Dr. Lumia: Okay This is both their heart beats, the legs and they spinal cord and this is their
heads as you can see they are very active

Me: Last night I couldn’t sleep, they were kicking so much

Dr. Lumia: try and avoid sweet staff before you sleep, rather drink water or rooibos tea without
sugar just a s small drop of honey

Me: Okay I will keep it at that

Dr. Lumia: would you like to know the gender?

I was quiet for a while

Me: Not yet I guess

Dr. Lumia: want to keep it as a surprise

me: I guess

Dr. Lumia: Okay. Would you like the video and a scan?

Me: Yes please, my husband has to see this blessing

Dr. Lumia: It is indeed, is he working today?

Me: No, his in cape town

Dr. Lumia: Oh no Man

Me: Business

Dr. Lumia: Okay, I will make sure my receptionist gets the DVD and pictures printed

Me: Thank you

Dr. Lumia: No problem, you are due to deliver in December but because it is twins i would
recommend that we do a C-section beginning of December and not too late

Me: You the doctor so i go with your suggestion

Dr. Lumia: Okay i will book you in here if that fine

Me: I am happy with St Augustine

Dr. Lumia: Okay perfect, come in next month for a normal checkup okay

Me: Okay i will

Dr. Lumia: My reception will call you a day before to remind you okay

Me; That would be awesome since i forget a lot

Dr. Lumia: Pregnancy makes you feel old in terms of thinking

Me: tell me about it

Dr. Lumia: Okay Mrs. Shange, i have to leave for theatre, my reception will show you out

Me: Thank you doctor

I changed back to my clothes and went to the reception and she gave me a card for my next
appointments, multi vitamins and she gave the pictures and the DVD, I walked out and went to
the car and Philile was busy on her phone, she cut the call the moment i sat in the back
Philile: How did it go?

Me: Too well, we are having twins

Philile: wow congrats mummy

Me: Thank you, Sonke will be so shocked

Philile: Maybe not, he has twin genes in his blood

me: How do you know that?

Philile: he has twin’s nje

me: Ukwazelaphi lokho?

Philile: The photos in your house and Mamiki told me you have twins

Me: Oh yes, sorry

Philile: MMMM pregnancy

Me: I blame them

we laughed and we drove to the office and I got a SMS from Mr. Pian

Mr. Pian {Please don’t be late}

I remembered that I am meeting him, I sent a text back

Me {I won’t be}

I don’t know how I will leave the office because I cannot go with Philile, no one has to know
about this.

The moment we got to the office I went straight to my office and I locked the door, I have 30
minute to get out of here and who can I ask, I took my credit card and phone and I unlocked my
office and went to my receptionist

Me: Soni

Soni: Hi Mrs. Shange

Me: do you have a car?

Soni: Yes Mam, I do

Me: Please borrow me your car, I have to go somewhere and I need to go alone

Soni: well okay, its new

Me: Don’t worry, I won’t hurt your baby

Soni: Okay

Me: and please don’t tell a soul that I left the office, not even Sonke

Soni: His my boss

Me: Soni

I gave her the stare

Soni: Okay, your meetings?

Me: Reschedule

Soni: Okay, its parked on the basement

She gave me her car keys

Me: Thanks a mill

I grabbed the car keys

Soni: Drive carefully

Me: I owe you

I walked to the basement and I unlock her door to see which Hyundai it is and it was a white i20,
I got inside and I drove off using the back exit, it was a Hyundai i20 so it was not as fast as my
car but it did the trick, I was in town in 20 minute and drove to the harbor and parked then I spot
him feeding the birds. I locked the door and I walked towards him with Soni’s sunglasses

Me: Mr. Pian

Mr. Pian: Mrs. Shange, we meet again

Me: Shall we?

Pian: Of Cause
we walked and sat a zigzag and I ordered water with lemon and he ordered whiskey, He pulled
out and envelop

Pian: Open this when you are home because I need you to be in a better place when you open
this

Me: What’s Inside:

Pian: Pictures of his mistresses

Me: Mistresses?

Pian: Yes

I took a deep breath

Me: I was hoping you would tell me I was imagining things

Pian: I am sorry

Me: Who is it?

He took a deep breath in and looked at me, I could tell he was sadden by what he was about to
tell me

Mr. Pian: Mrs. Shange whatever you do with the information I give to you, Please do not tag my
name along, your husband is a very high profile man and if he finds out that I linked this
information to you, I will be dead by tomorrow morning

I gave him a questionable look

Me: Yes he is well known but he wouldn’t kill a soul

Mr. Pian: No one messes with a guy like your husband my dear, he is well known and getting
this information was hard, that is why it took this long to get info on him, he has loyal enemies I
am telling you

Me: Guy like my husband?

Mr. Pian: You husband is well connected Especially with him being the drug lord, I had to be
careful on who I ask information from and he is also one of the riches guys here in Durban, he
just keeps a low profile to avoid suspicious to the cops

Me: Drug lord?

Mr. Pian: Yes drug trafficking

me: Drugs?

Mr. Pian: Shu, people are going to hear us

Me: I am sorry, I didn’t know I mean…… i don’t know anything about drugs

Mr. Pian: Oh my, what have I done

Me: Please be honest with me

Mr. Pian: Do you even know who your husband is?

Me: I don’t know anymore

Mr. Pian: This is going to be harder then I though

Me: I guess I don’t know who I got married to

I started breathing fast and I couldn’t help but shed tears

Mr. Pian: Calm down Mrs. Shange, You are causing attention on us and we don’t want your
husband finding out about me.

Me: I am sorry

Mr. Pian: have some water

I drank some water

Me: How long has he been trafficking drugs

Mr. Pian: After he dropped his soccer career he started the warehouse business and that’s
where he made contacts with drug lords from overseas and that is how he became the biggest
drug lord in Durban and he is one of the riches black guys in Durban, I didn’t dig much about his
career and what he does, I focused on his love life as I though you knew about the business,
some properties he has over the country are under your name

Me: Me?

Mr. Pian: Yes you are Mrs. L Shange his wife?

Me: Yes

Mr. Pian: There you go

me: What else do you know?

Mr. Pian: That his ex-fiancé works for your husband, as much as they were once lovers but she
was employed by him and they all still do business together

Me: Noma

Mr. Pian: Yes I think that is the one

Mr. Pian: Also he has a 4 months year old son who lives with his gran parents in Newcastle

Me: What?

Mr. Pian: Yes, The child’s mother Nomandla Chili died a week after she gave birth from stress in
hospital

me: Nomandla, is that not Noma?

Mr. Pian: There is Nomakiti Zungu who was also pregnant but she lost her child the ex-fiancé,
then there is Nomandla Chili who gave birth to his Son but unfortunately died at her son’s birth
and Sonke is linked to having her killed.

Me: Killed?

Mr. Pian: Yes, His doctor had her killed

Me: Why?

Mr. Pian: he did not want the child but she wanted the child, so to make things easy was to get
rid of the mother and have him raising his son

Me: Sonke is a killer

Mr. Pian: Yes but he would never touch you

Me: What makes you say that

Mr. Pian: He would kill for you, that’s how much he loves you, no one is due to tell you anything
about him and if they do, they all die, Noma is still alive cause he works for him and king bagged
him not to kill her

Me: King?

Mr. Pain: Yes king also works for him

Me: OMG i feel so stupid, i though king is his business partner with that whole holiday houses
story and right now is not home for the past 2 weeks cause of that shit

Mr. Pian: Calm down my child

Me: Can you find out everything about Sonke and his associates?

Mr. Pian: It’s going to cost you

Me: How much

Mr. Pian: We looking at 20-30k

Me: I don’t have that much of money lying around

Mr. Pian: You can let me know when you have it so I can begin with the investigation

Me: Okay, I will put a notice in my bank as soon as I get it out I will notify you

Mr. Pian: Not a problem child, just delete my contact details and call me from the call box, he
might even be tracking your phone

Me: Would he?

Mr. Pian: Anything is possible with your husband mam, he is well connected

Me: Jesus

Mr. Pian: I have to get going child, Remember don’t tell anyone about me.

Me: Okay I will not, farewell Mr. Pian

He walked up and walked out, I sat there crying looking at the sea and I could not believe half
the things I have heard today, I looked at the envelop, I want to open it but the environment
does not allow me, I called the waiter and requested for a bill, I paid with my credit card.

Chapter 26

I walked to Soni’s car and I sat inside, I opened the envelop and it was pictures, bank
notifications and emails with names of the girls his fucking, there were so many, I mean i would
take 1 or 2 but 4 or 5 is so damn much, I went through the bank statement and he transferred
money to Noma C and Noma Z, Shopping for 20K in cape town, Bookings at the Hilton and
coastland and car hire in east London and Sandton. There was a picture with king Sonke and
Philile together, a second picture was Sonke kissing Philile and I fumed even more, this bitch is
fucking my man and then comes and live in my house….FUCK

I got so mad that I broke down again.

I went through the pictures and some pictures he was with Noma at a club, another picture with
Sonke and Sam the property agent, another picture with him and a black American woman, I
screamed so much probably people heard me.
I wanted to hit something as I was so upset but I was distracted with my cellphone ringing, I
didn’t even check who was calling

Me: Yes

Soni: Mrs. Shange

Me: Sorry, Hi Soni

Soni: Hi Mrs. Shange, i was wondering when will you come back cause i have to go out for
lunch

Me: Oh no Soni, I lost track of time, please request for an Uber and take petty cash from the
office and please ask one of the driver to come pick your car up from my house and they must
bring my laptop bag and handbag

Soni: Okay mam

Me: Please lock my office when you done, i won’t be coming in for the rest of the week so
please make sure the staff is handling things well

Soni: Okay Mam and she hung up

I started the car and i drove to a garage, filled the tank with patrol and i withdraw R2000 and i
got myself snacks and chocolate and i drove home, i put R1000 on the seat and wrote a note
thank you - spoil yourself and i pinned it together with my hair pin, i put the rest of the cash in
my pocket, when i got to the drive through my 1 series was there, the jaguar was there and
king's 5 series was there, i stopped in the middle of the drive through and i took the envelop and
i drove in, i got out and i could hear all of them laughing and Philile was laughing louder than
anything.

I walked in and i went to the dining room they stopped laughing as soon as the saw me but I
didn’t entertain them, I walked to my bedroom and i threw the envelop on the bed and i took my
clothes off and i wore my sweat pants and t shirt and i walked back to the dining room and
walked into the lounge, they all had glasses of whiskey and Sonke looked like he was on some
stress shit

Sonke: here is my baby with my baby

He stood up slow and walked slow towards me and kissed my tummy first and then he kissed
me on my neck and all the way to my lip then he looked at me and he noticed that I was off it

Sonke: I know you mad at me for not touching base for 2 weeks but it was business baby

Me: Okay
I looked straight in his eyes as he was fucking lying to me

Sonke: Lord i missed you

He hugged me and then ran his hands all the way to my bums, he squeezes my but cheek and
then he let me go

King: I think you guys need a room

Me: No king, I think you need to get out of my house

Kind: Sorry

Me: Don’t sorry me, Get out

They all stared at me in aweh

I stood up and walked to the kitchen and came back with a bottle of water, I was thinking what
could I possibly do to hurt all of them as they stand before me, that bitch was quiet and I wanted
to fuck her up so badly or worse kill her

I stood at the kitchen entrance and drank my water while they all stared at me

Sonke: Love

Me: Turn around and say love to her, not me

Sonke: Lethu

He gave me a dead stare as i walked away

King: Eish ndoda usejaivini

Sonke: Lethu *Screaming*

I turned around as sonke screamed my name and I slapped him so hard that he blinked twice

Me: Don’t you ever raise your voice at me

Sonke: No you did not

Me: Don’t you think i know about you fucking that bitch and the nerve of you allowing her into
my house sleeping under my roof when you are tapping her? Who the fuck do you think i am
sonke?

Sonke looked puzzled and shocked, he turned around and looked at philile then back at king
and then me, I turned and I gave king a dangerous look

Me: And as for you king, you such a hypocrite by even allowing sonke to get you to bring this
bitch here
King: Le le

Me: Don’t lee me king, I cannot believe you, I cannot believe this

King: Sonke does not know philile

Me: Now you are going to lie to me?

King: I am being honest with you

me: Really? Having whiskey in my house when she is supposed to be waiting for me at office to
drive me around

Philile: I came here looking for you then i found king and your husband la and king offered me a
glass

me: Really? You must be thinking i am dumb right?

I looked at king

Me: King you also tapping that?

King: No

Me: Oh yes off cause, you cannot tap what your boss has tapped

Sonke did not utter a word but his eyes were on me

Me: All of you, get the fuck out of my house now *Screaming*

I threw the bottle of water to philile but she dodged it while the water spilled on the floor, I went
to the spare room and collected phililes clothes and threw them on the dining room floor

Me: Bitch get your clothes and fuck off from my house

She stared at me and I walked towards her and sonke held me on my shoulders

Me: and take this hoe of a man with you, i don’t ever want to see you again sonke can you hear
me

I pushed him and he hit his back against the wall

Sonke: He he We lethu, ukungikhumbula konke lokhu?

Me: Fuck you and her, How could you sonke…..

I went to the bedroom and took his suits on the hangers, I walked past him

Sonke: That’s my staff

I walked out of the patio and I threw his things in to the pool and I walked back inside the house
me: That is missing you, no fuck off

King; Mfethu awumuyeke kancane ashawe umoya

Sonke ignored him

me: You stay out of it king, you said you don’t know anything right? Now shut up and help your
friend and his tramp out of my house

Sonke: This is not your house lethu

me: don’t make me more mad then I already am

King: Asihambe boy

Sonke: Angiyi ndawo, umuzi wami lo

Me: Used to be until your started fucking norma chili and norma what, L.k, philile an these other
white hoes

Sonke: Uyitholaphi yonke lenonsense lethu

I walked past sonke to philile and I grabbed her braids while she tried getting me off, I felt sonke
grabbing me from behind but I did not let go of the braids, I dragged her on the floor while sonke
pulled me backwards, Philile was screaming and swearing me but I didn’t care, I wanted this
bitch to know how hurt I am, King came and held philile and some of her braids were on the
floor when I decided to let go of them

Philile: You bitch

Me: If you think you are his only side chick, keep dreaming darling…You not even on the top 5

Philile: Sonke, how can you let talk to me like this

I turned around and looked at him

Me: Go ahead, save your bitch

King: Lethu I think you need to come down

Me: GET OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW….

Sonke: King

King: Sonke…PLEASE nigga

Sonke: Philile, king ngicela nisidedele

King: Angeke ngikwazi boy, ukhulelwe lomuntu

Me: get out all of you before I call security to escort you out
Sonke: Lethu maannn…*Screaming*

Me: What you going to do? Kill me like your baby mama's? Should i also choose if you must
save me or your baby?

Sonke: Guys phumani *Screaming*

Philile: Can I have my car keys

Me: Bitch you forgetting your cheap clothes

King: Boy

Sonke took out a gun and placed it on the table, I swallowed hard

King: Hayi Sonke

Sonke: she asked for it and now the ball is in her court, i am tired nigga and all i wanted was to
come home to my wife and lapho she is bitching and moaning about all this nonsense that i
don’t know she heard

King: Hayi kahle Skhulu

Sonke looked at me

Sonke: You decided how i leave here lethu, i am not leaving this house and you are not leaving
this house and that is final, the gun is here, you can shoot me and then my body will be carried
out of here, ngizophuma ngifle la uyezwa

Me: Do what you must but i want you out of my house, you are such a hoe sonke, a fucking hoe
and i hate you

I started crying while I took all the frames that were on the table and threw them on the floor

Me: I hate you so much, you have ruined my life you piece of shit

He was walking towards me and i walked up the stairs to the dining room trying to get away
from him. I wanted to stop crying but I was too hurt and his side hoe was rejoicing with the pain I
was in

Me: Don’t come near me, i don’t even want to smell you here

He stopped on the stairs took his gun and walked up to the dining room and he sat on the chair,
he was so calm and i didn’t see any sign of danger in him but then again with sonke anything is
possible

Sonke: Sit down

Me: Never, not with you

King: Lethu just stop this

Me: Please leave my house king and take this slut with you

Sonke: We-Lethu

Me: She is a slut vele

Philile: King can we leave?

I looked at sonke

Me: If you don’t leave i am

King picked Philile’s clothes and they followed each other to the car

Me: And you?

I gave sonke the look

Sonke: Like I said, Umuzi wami lo

i walked to the bedroom and put my clothes into my suitcase, he came in the room while i was
packing and crying and wiping my tears

Sonke: Lee

I ignore him and he walked to me took out my clothes from the suitcase and we fought over it
but he had more strength then i did the I let it go

Me: Fine keep the clothes, you can give it to your bitches

He grabbed and put his hands on my arm and pushed me against the robe

Sonke: Listen

Me: You are hurting me

Sonke: Just shut up and listen *Screaming*

I stopped talking cause he was hurting me and he had my back against the robe and the door
handles were pocking me on my back, he pushed me even more harder and the more he
pushed me the more i cried

Me: Sonke Please

Sonke: I am not fucking anyone, i was away cause of some business

Me: Let me go

I tried pushing him but he was just hurting and finally he let me go
I started hitting him and he walked away and I still followed him hitting, he held both my hands
and put me on the bed until I was calmer and he let me go and stood far off from me

Sonke: You seriously need to calm down

Me: Your an asshole sonke, i don’t know why i fucking got married to you, Just take your things
and go, please go

Sonke: I am not cheating on you

I took out the photos out of the envelop and threw it at him

Me: How do you explain this

He picked up 1 photo at the time and then he looked at me

Sonke: You had me followed?

Me: That is not the point

Sonke: How dare you have me followed

Me: And how dare you cheat on me

Sonke: For fucks sake, this was long time ago lee

Me: Really sonke, Sam? Philile? Noma? Fuck you man

Sonke: Lee

me: How do you explain a 4 months year old baby? How do you explained that *Yelling*

Sonke: It’s not what you think

me: Enlighten me sonke, all you have been doing is using your dick in all the wrong places

Sonke: Lethu I love you

me: OH now you realize you love me? Noma was just right about you

Sonke: Fuck what noma said, Right now it’s about you and me

Me: No, it’s about what you have done sonke

Sonke: I didn’t want kids with her

Me: What did you think? Fucking her without a condom

Sonke: Yes I made that mistake but we agreed she will get morning after’s or be on a pill

Me: Wow
Sonke: baby Please

Me: Don’t please me, you so selfish

Sonke: I didn’t and still don’t want to have kids with her baby

Me: I know there is more than just a fling between the two of you

Sonke: babe don’t do this

me: she is your employee right?

Sonke: What the hell, No baby

Me: I know everything sonke, i know that i am living a lie with you

I started crying again and my voice was just breaking

Me: i know that you are not who you say you are…. no I said that wrong… you are not what i
thought you are

Sonke: I love you lethu

Me: No you don’t

Sonke: I do

Me: You don’t love me

Sonke: everything i do is for you and my boys lee

Me: No, You have done nothing for me

Sonke: All this lee, all this is for us and the kids

Me: All that you have done was to cover your tracks

Sonke: That is not true baby

Me: I have never asked you to kill people sonke, why would you do that

Sonke: I didn’t kill anyone *Screaming* … Fuck this

Me: Then how do you explain all this *Crying*

Sonke: There is nothing to explain love

Me: How can you do this to me? To us? The kids? How am I supposed to raise these kids
alone?

Sonke: Give me a chance baby

Me: Is this not true?

He looked away and then looked at me, he then walked towards me

Me: Tell me *Screaming*

Sonke: Baby you need to calm down right now

Me: All I need is for you to tell me that all this is not true

Sonke: Lee, Please calm down baby, this is not healthy for the baby

Me: What is not healthy for me right now is you

Sonke: You don’t mean that Makhumalo

Me: get out

Sonke: Baby

Me: Go to your hoes

Sonke: You are pregnant lethu, you shouldn’t be stressing our baby kanje

Me: I should have left your ass long time ago but I was just naïve to think you will be a better
husband and a better father

Sonke: Baby please

Me: do you know how happy i was this morning when Dr. Lumia told me i am having twins, do
you have any idea how you have crushed me? How you have killed our home?

Sonke: Twins?

I ignored him

Me: All I wanted was for you to love me

Sonke: Baby

Me: You don’t deserve to be their father’s sonke, Please go

He came and hugged me tight, squeezing me

Sonke: I love you lee, I love my babies too

We stood in that position for a while was I was crying on his chest, his t-shirt was damp from my
tears and I was inhaling his perfume, I was tired of fighting and I didn’t have enough strength to
not fight him

Me: How could you go around sleeping with these girls without condoms sonke, how could you
make them pregnant and ….(I took a deep breath in)

Sonke: Shuu

Me: What kind of a monster are you? How could you kill the twin’s mom?

Sonke: No Lee

Me: You love your kids, how can you take their mother away?

Sonke: Shooo

Me: I don’t know you

Sonke: I am your husband lee

Me: I am not safe here, I need to go home

I pushed him away but he held me more tight that I didn’t have the energy to push him, I felt like
I was drugged

Sonke: This is your home lee and I will never hurt you

Me: Will you kill me after giving birth?

Sonke: You are my life lethu, i would never do that

I cried

Me: Please let me go

He held me more tight

I pushed him and i ran to the bathroom and i started throwing up, He running after me and he
got me water from the kitchen, i didn’t take it, I hated every moment of him being around me, he
rubbed my back as i threw up, the only thing that was coming out of my mouth was liquids and
no food

Sonke: Are you okay?

I ignored his question

Sonke: Did you eat today?

I Ignored his question again

Sonke: Please say something

I ignored him

Sonke: Can i make you something to eat?

I shook my head saying no

He ran water on the bath tub and poured the Nivea bubble bath, he helped me up

Sonke: Baby you need to take a bath, it will make you feel better

Me: I don’t need a bath

Sonke: Please baby

Me: I need you gone

Sonke: Angiyi ndawo

Me: Then I need to leave

Sonke: No one is leaving this house between you and i

Me: Please

Sonke: No

I decided to calm down a bit, i knew fighting him might cause me to faint like the last time.

Sonke: Let me help you

He took off my shirt, he unhooked my bra and took off the pants and panty, he helped me get
inside the bath tub, the water was just a perfect temperature and it smelled sweet and my body
allowed the heat to sooth my body and I it did calm me down, he left the bathroom and i started
crying again.

What do i do now that I know the truth? Yes he has been cheating, got some girls pregnant and
killed some woman but what do I do? Do I leave him? Do i live on my own? Do i raise these kids
on my own? Will i ever be safe with him? I know his truth so he will not just allow me to walk out
of his like just like that? What have i done? I started crying again….

I can tolerate some things but not being cheated on over and over again and I still put up with it,
Sonke showed me no respect by putting his dick to all those woman’s pussies and they knew
that he is a married man and they still entertained him.

Sonke walked in while i was crying and he sat on top on the toilet seat pad

Sonke: Ngyaxolisa nana

I didn’t respond to his apology

Me: I want to go home in small Ville

Sonke: No lethu, You can’t leave us like this

Me: I don’t trust you anymore sonke

Sonke: Then we should work on building the trust again

Me: Right now i don’t know who you were fucking or who else you got pregnant in this past 2
weeks so nje just give me space

Sonke: Trust me baby it’s you only now I promise

Me: Its was supposed to be me vele from the day you asked me out

Sonke: I know

Me: Then what happened?

Sonke: I lost focus baby

me: You loosing focus has ruined us

Sonke: Ngyaxolisa baby

me: It’s too late now

Sonke: I will do anything to make this right lee

Me: There is nothing you can do

Sonke: I can’t lose you bra

I didn’t answer him

Sonke: So you want to move out now?

Me: Yes

Sonke: IS this what you want?

Me: Yes?

Sonke: baby this is wrong, It’s not safe for you to be alone la wedwa

Me: It’s not like you care?

Sonke: I do

Me: Right

Sonke: I want you to be sure, i want you sit there and think if you want me to walk out that door
and never calm back, ngiflophile yes i admit but that was before i found out you pregnant and i
haven’t messed around after that baby

Me: You lying

Sonke: i promise you

Me: I asked you few months back if i am not good enough for you and you told me i am and you
said loved me

Sonke: I still love you lethokuhle and I will always love you, You are my wife and the mother of
my kids, i will never allow anyone to hurt you baby

Me: You don’t need anyone to come and hurt me cause you are doing it yourself, Why did you
marry me when you weren’t ready? Why did you marry me?

Sonke: I married you because i love you and i want to grow old nawe

me: When were you going to tell me about this child?

He looked away

me: I asked you a question sonke

Sonke: I don’t know, i haven’t had the time to think about it

me: were you going to kill this child too?

Sonke: No lee, I love my son and I know he is safe with his grandmother

me: Then when were you going to tell me?

Sonke: maybe after you give birth

me: Maybe?

Sonke: I don’t know lee *He snapped*

Me: Oh

Sonke: I am sorry I didn’t mean too…..

Me: Yes i am sure i want to go home

Sonke: It’s not safe babe

Me: My home is safer from you and your hoes

Sonke: Baby someone is trying to kill me

Me: The only person who is trying to killed here is me.

Sonke: Baby listen, someone is trying to kill me

I looked away with an expression that I am not interested in his lies

Sonke: they shot me and that is the reason why I haven’t been home

I turned my head and looked at him

Me: What

Sonke: I couldn’t come home cause it was not safe

I stared at him

He woke up and lifted his shirt and he had stitched under his arm

I got scared and it felt like something was moving and hurting on my stomach

Sonke: I didn’t want to stress you out so king lied to you

Me: King?

Sonke: Yes, you right, he is my right hand man

I Looked at him with shock

Sonke: i didn’t know he was going to bring philile here and disrespect you in this kind of way, all
he wanted was to make sure that you are safe.

I was still quite

Sonke: Philile works for me

Me: Oh

Sonke: Baby i am loyal, i am done cheating

Me: So you are a drug lord

Sonke: can we not talk about that right now?

Me: I don’t know you anymore

Sonke: You do know me lee

Me: I need space sonke, i just want to gather my thoughts, i feel like i don’t know you anymore

Sonke: Baby this man sitting right here is sonke shange is who I am and I love you

I looked away and he woke up and left, i decided to get out of the water, dried myself and drive
home cause i didn’t want to get home late as it was already late and that if he does let me go, i
wore my grey leggings with a grey over size jersey and i put on my fluffy sox with ankle boots, i
packed my clothes and toiletry bag and i walked out of the bedroom and sonke was sitting on
the dining room table, he starred at me a i walked towards him in the passage, i got to him and
he stood up

Sonke: Awusangifuni kwangempela lethokuhle?

That voice and those words gave me a sharp pain on my chest, i got teary immediately and i
looked away

Sonke: Lethokuhle Shange please look at me (With a calm tone)

I took a deep breath in and i looked at him

Sonke: Do you still love me?

Me: Yes I still do

Sonke: Can we still work this out?

Me: We can but right now i just want to be alone and think things through

Sonke: This is your home

me: I know

Sonke: Are you still going to come back?

Me: Yes

Sonke: When?

Me: I don’t know

Sonke: I need to know

Me: Few days, weeks or so

Sonke: Baby it’s not safe for you to be all out there without me

Me: You are not with me half the time vele

Sonke: That is not the point

Me: I will stay indoors

Sonke: Can i at least tighten the security kini?

Me: That is not my house

Sonke: But you will be living there

Me: Speak to Bantu

Sonke: Please don’t tell your family about us lee

me: Why?

Sonke: They will lose all the respect they have for me and i don’t want that to happen
Me: MXM

I dragged my suitcase and he pulled me back

Sonke: Can i at least drop you off?

Me: No i need my car

Sonke: It’s not safe, they know your car

me: Who?

Sonke: Can i drop you off?

Me: Can I take a cab?

Sonke: No

Me: Fine then

we got into his golf 7 and he told the security guards they must be on the lookout and he will be
back, he drove off and he went into gateway

Sonke: can we have supper before you go?

Me: I am tired yazi sonke

Sonke: Supper then we will go

We left the car parked outside gateway and we went to greedy Buddha, he walked in and they
took us to a table outside the balcony and it was just me and him, the table had roses and they
came with starters without us ordering, i looked at him

Sonke: Trust me

Me: I Tried before

Sonke: just for tonight then

I gave him a side smile and he laughed

We ate and when we were done the waiter cleared our table and we then had the main meal
which was mouthwatering, i wanted more but i didn’t want sonke to think i am a pig just because
i look like one and the desert was on top, i don’t think i have ever tasted food from starts to
deserts and they were all on point. when we were done he took left hand and he

Sonke: Please don’t ever doubt the ring and the promises i made on our wedding, i meant every
word and i promise i will get us back on track

I looked away trying not to cry, he moved my face to face his face
Sonke: I love you, that will never change

Me: I looked down

Sonke: Shall we go?

Me: Yes

He opened the door for me and we walked out and down stairs to the car and we drove off, he
drove around gateway and he did not go straight home and then after the 3rd driving around he
took the freeway to phoenix and he was speeding as if someone is chasing him, he went
Verulam and then drove back to small Ville, he parked outside my house as we entered the
gate, he helped me with my luggage into the house and it was as if no one is at home.

Sonke: Baby someone is following us

As he looked outside the window

Me: Who

Me: I don’t know, that is why I said someone

I went to peep on the window and it was red gold 7 like his, the difference is that sonke's car
had a sun roof and that other gold didn’t,

Me: I know that car

Sonke: From?

Me: It followed me for a while then it stopped

Sonke: When was this?

Me: A couple of months ago

Sonke: Awungitshelanga ngani

Me: Because I was not sure if it was you or someone who has a crush on me

Sonke: So you kept a secret from me?

Me: Not a secret, I just didn’t see the need of telling you

Sonke: I see

He took out his phone and dialed a number

Sonke: Sho Buddha, listen khona i khari engigijimisayo la, ungangitholela ukuthi ekabani? Okay
Gold 7 ered, no sunroof and standard rims, get me the list, i can’t see number plate so i can
give you that, sho nigga.
He hung up

me: Do you think it’s the same people who tried killing you?

Sonke: Possible

He helped me and we took the clothes upstairs

Sonke: I cannot leave you here wedwa with that car outside babe

me: You also can’t go, what if they follow you?

Sonke: No one will touch me

Me: How come they shot you

Sonke: he he you ask to many questions

He took out his phone and sent out a sms

Sonke: I will have this car tailed, why vele you didn’t tell me about this car

Me: At that time i thought it was you stalking me

Sonke: ha ha ha no comment, so this is your room?

Me: Yes

Sonke: Okay, Baby Lethu's room he he madoda

Me: Whatever

I took off my clothes and changed into my pj's while stared at me but my shirt was so tight that
even sonke laughed at me, he took off his sweater and gave me the t-shirt he had underneath
and gave me to wear it, i rocked it and it smelled so much of him that i got lost in it, he wore his
sweater back and went to the window but the car was still there, I got under the bed and he
massaged my foot and i was just about to fall asleep and his phone beeped, he attended to it
and went to the window and he came back, he made a call

Sonke: keep them in warehouse, i will see to them in the morning just make sure you find out
itrans ekabani and who paid them to follow my wife, Sharp and he hung up

Me: What you going to do to them

Sonke: Nothing, i just want to know who told them to follow you

Me: Okay

Sonke: I have to leave now

Me: Please stay

He stared at me

Sonke: Wena futhi?

Me: No one is home so I’m scared

Sonke: I will have to get permission from your family to be here

Me: Okay let me call Noxy

Sonke: Okay let me speak to your brother

He went outside and called my brother and after a few minute he came back

sonke: okay

My phone beeped, it was bantu sms

Bantu {Behave lapho ekhaya}

I text back

Me: {Will do}

He sent another one

Bantu {I love you}

I replied

Me {Love you too nigga}

Sonke: So what do i wear?

Me: You boxers

Sonke: I’m not using them

I stared at him

Sonke: Ngyadlala

I woke up and went down stairs and put the alarm on and locked all doors and i came back up
and sonke was already tucked inside my bed

Me: I thought you were going to take the sleeper couch

Sonke: Hawu ngeke cc, ngingamane ngigoduke ngiye kwami, Phela uwena oncenge mina la
futhi yimi isivakashi
Me: AArg whatever then Just don’t touch me

Sonke: Sorry i don’t do fat woman

I couldn’t help but laugh, and he turned the other way, i got into my side of the bed and switched
my side lamp off, he tapped me on my shoulder

Sonke: I need to say goodnight to some people

I pulled the duvet down to reveal my fat tummy, he kissed it and said goodnight boys

Me: Boys?

Sonke: Yes Boys

He kissed me on my forehead and said goodnight wife, I turned to face the other side and he
cuddled me

I missed him holding me like this and falling asleep to this, i don’t know what was happening
between us but all i know is that i couldn’t be without him, i might judge him with his drugs and
staff but i loved him, i just could not accept his cheating.

It was quiet at home that i could hear his heart beat and nothing else, i switched my iPod on and
connected it to the speaker and i put the volume low and it was playing Chris brown

Sonke: Sizophupha sidansa la

Me: He he he okay i will put a different folder

Usher played

Sonke: Thank you, sesingalala

I went back to bed and he held me from behind and i slept in his arms.

Chapter 27

Just when i ball up my feast i realize

I'm laying right next you

Baby we ain’t got nothing but love

And darling you go enough for the both of us oooh

Make love to me
When my days look low

Pull me in close and don’t let me go

Make love to me

I realized i was in my room with sonke next to me and Beyoncé 1+1 is playing

I woke to such a part

woke up to the bathroom to pee and went back to bed, the time was 4am

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Mmmm

I put my hands on him

Sonke: Baby your hands are cold

Me: But i want to hold you

Sonke: Come here

He put my head on his chest, i lifted my head to kiss him

Sonke: No

Me: Why?

Sonke: Your brother said no

me: Please

He gave me a quick baby kiss

me: Uyangiroba

Sonke: NO baby ngampela, i can’t do this kini

me: Awufuni?

Sonke: I do but the place is not on

Me: I knew you don’t love me

I turned around and put my head on my pillow

Sonke: Baby

I kept quiet, he came closer and reached for me and put his hands on my tummy, he kissed my
heck and u turned around to kiss him, i was so Horney that i didn’t want any 4 play, i took off the
shorts without his help and i pulled his boxes out, i got to top of him and i kissed him, his hands
were all over me and he entered me and i made a moan while he made a groan

Sonke: Shoo phela

I tried not to make noise but i couldn’t help myself, i was on another world and he was so gentle
with me, like he was scared to do me right, i increased the pace and he helped me with his
hands on my but cheek but i was tired within a minute, he turned me over and put me on my
side and he entered from behind while we were sleeping and he gave me an organism i have
ever had, maybe it was so good cause i haven’t felt him in days, i don’t know but we fell asleep
immediately after that round still listening to Beyoncé’s album 4.

Sonke: Lethu wake up

Me: Mmmm

Sonke: I am leaving

me: why so early

Sonke: Its 10am

me: What?

The time had 7.30

Me: Awu sonke

Sonke: No baby i want to be here in bed with you but i am not doing this la

He took his car keys

Sonke: Wake up uqoke, i have to show you something

me: Cant it wait

Sonke: No

I went to the bathroom locked and took a quick shower

Sonke: Uyageza?

Me: NO

Sonke: Sheshisa lethu

I came out with a towel around my waste i wore my G-string bra and put on my sweater and
sweat pants sox and air-max

Sonke: Uwena wonke lo? Airmax ube weyisa kanje?

Me: I bought it ngaleskhathi iduma nje

He laughed while fixing the bed and we opened the door and rushed down stairs, we passed
mathema sitting on babuzondis lap and she quickly woke up

Mathema: Haibo, i didn’t know benikhona

Babu zondi: Sanibonani

Sonke: Yebo sanibonani

Me: We are rushing, i will see you guys later

We got into the car and we drove off, sonke drove to La Lucia, we got in the house and all the
clothes that were in the floor was no longer there and philile's clothes were gone and breakfast
was made by mamiki, sonke went to our bedroom and i sat in the dining room eating breakfast,
sonke came back after 30 minute looking hot and fresh as i have always know him.

Sonke: Please go change

me: What is wrong with my outfit?

Sonke: Ungathi ingane ka matric ekhulelwe

I snapped then i went to change, i wore leggings with an oversize black shirt and i wore black
Yeezy

Sonke: Much better

we got into his car and he drove to Mercedes and he we parked outside and said have a look
and decide ukuthi ufuna yiphi

Me: me?

Sonke: No your ghost ha ha ha off cause you lee

I wanted a big SUV car, i knew that i will choose ML without hesitations but then i saw a white G
class and i lost focus

Me: Baby, i want this

Sonke: Lovely car, so unlike you but i love it myself

Me: So can i?

Sonke: Yes

He called a sales rep and he told him he wants that car and he is paying cash, he filled the
paper work

Sonke: Take it for a test drive while i complete the sale

the sales rep took it out for me and i got in when he parked it outside and i drove around
umhlanga and i came back after 15 minute

Me: It’s the one

Sonke: I’m done, i will follow you home with the golf

Me: So you won’t take a picture of me with the car

Sonke: hahahah sorry babe, hamba uyomake eceleni kwayuo

I went next to the car and he took pictures and the manager asked sonke to go and stand with
me and he took photos of us and when we were done i got into the car and connected my
Bluetooth to the speakers and i played Michelle Williams - WHEN JESUS SAY'S YES NOBODY
CAN SAY NO, we go to lalucia and i parked behind sonke, i got off the car and i went to hug
him and kissed him

Me: Thank you

Sonke: Ubala lolu babe

Me: It is my dream car

I took photos of it and i updated my WhatsApp display Picture and my status was 2nd born, it’s
all about the G-Class, Thank you Mnyeni wami

My WhatsApp started flooding, Sonke tagged me on Facebook with a photo that was take of me
and him with the car "Family matters - congratulations on your new ride Mrs. Shange"

I was happy, i knew that sonke is trying to cover up fir his cheating ways for buying me the car,
bottom line a gift won’t fix things but loyalty will but either way i loved my gift

I sat on the couch looking through my pictures with the car and I smiled to myself.

I finally own a Mac…G-class, I decided to send my picture to my squad group and I logged out.

I laid my head on the pillow rubbing my tummy, the babies were kicking and I assumed it was
due to my mood, I haven’t been happy lately and the feeling was good.

Sonke walked in and sat next to me

Sonke: What can I do to have this beautiful woman in to my arms?

Me: Ask

He opened his arms

Sonke: May i?

I smiled at him
Me: Sure

I laid my head on his chest and he cuddles me, he ran his hands on my tummy while the babies
kicked

Me: Did you feel them?

Sonke: Oooh that was a big one

I laughed while a kick came through again

Me: They are naughty

Sonke: These boys are going to exhaust you

Me: I am already exhausted

Sonke: Lee

Me: Mhhh

Sonke: I am sorry

I was quiet

Sonke: I am sorry for everything, I know I haven’t been the greatest husband and to be honest I
have to excuse for all that I have done, I know forgiving me won’t be easy but I will try to work
my way in to having you trusting me again

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Please let me finish

Me: Okay

Sonke: You deserve all the happiness in the world babe and I haven’t given you that and I am
sorry

He held me more tighter

Sonke: When I got shot on my way here and I was saved by king, I wanted to get home and
hold you in my arms before taking my last breath, when I woke up and I was in one of our
holiday house with my doctor, I requested for you but I was told you are not around I was hurt
but when king explained it to me that he could not bring himself in to telling you since you loved
me so much, it will kill you

I was already crying, just imagining him in pain and hospitalized just broke me

Sonke: I know how much you love me, how much you have tolerated me and how much I mean
to you and that is why I love you so much, you are not just pretty and smart but you are strong,
you are a fighter and you made me fight for you, God know I will not be able to survive should
you leave me

He held me more and more tighter

Sonke: I love you lethokuhle, you are everything that I am. I love you makhumalo

I cried more

He kissed my head and we stayed in that position for minutes until he broke the ice

Sonke: Baby you are getting too big and we need to shop

Me: You are right babe, I can’t even breath in my dressed

Sonke: And we have to set our house kahle preparing for the kids

Me: Yes baby i know but in our culture we cannot buy anything until the baby is born

Sonke: We the new generations

I laughed out loud

Me: I was hoping I give birth on your birthday

Sonke: That would the best, daddy and kids born on December the 16th

Me: It will give us more reason to celebrate the 16th

Sonke: Sisuke sidakiwe nje kodwa

Me: I miss my sparkling wine

Sonke: Comes to think of it, let me have a glass of whiskey

Me: Ass

Sonke: You sexy one futhi woza la wena, ungivuse kini wanting the big daddy neh

I woke up and ran around the table

Sonke: Wooah, usane energy engaka even with the belly

Mamiki walked in and started praying and thanking the ancestors

Mamiki: Siyakubongela makoti with the new car

I smiled and sonke looked at me

Me: Ngyabonga ma

Mamiki: Usebenzile mkhonyana

Me: Maybe you can come with us for shopping

Mamiki: Hayi ca cc

Sonke: Woza ma, nawe ungazicoshela izinto ezimubala

Mamiki: Well if you insist

We looked at each other and cracked

Mamiki: Kwenzenjani

Sonke: Hayi cha ma, ukuthi asikaze sikuzwe ukhuluma isilungu

I burst out laughing

Mamiki: Hayi phela i watch bold and days when you guys are not at home

Sonke: Kuyabonakala

i went to the bedroom and i changed, i wore a knee length cotton on dress, it was loose and
grey in color, i put my make up on and tied my weave and i put on square mini heels to
compliment my dress and i took my purse then I walked out to sonke in his study

Me: I am ready

Mamiki came dressed using a long vintage dress with gold sandals.

We locked house, i got into the driver’s seat

Sonke: Can i drive

Me: No, not my new car

Sonke:Mxm

Mamiki: Hayi ntombi, yekela umkhonyana ashayele

I looked at sonke and he stared out the window

Me: Okay fine

I got into the passenger’s side of the car and sonke drove to galleria mall, we playing Vusi
Nova's album from my phone while singing along, sonke held my hand and kissed it while I
sang along to the songs and bushing my tummy, as soon as we got to the mall we went to H&M
and we shopped and mamiki got her son a few clothes, went to cotton on and i got myself
clothes and flops and then we went to milady’s and mamiki got herself a few clothes, we also
decided to buy sonke's mom clothes, we got the boys clothes from earth child, we had lunch at
Primi's and then we went home, i was too tired that i took a nap. Sonke said he had to be at the
warehouse and i knew it was about the Golf 7 that was following me.
Sonke woke me at up at 6.30pm to tell me mamiki made supper and we went to eat in the
dining room i took a shower after eating and then i went straight bed, Sonke said he has to see
king before he sleeps so he will be home within an hour, i slept cuddling a pillow and I said a
prayer then I slept.

sonke woke me up as he was trying to sneaking into the room, i just switched my side lamp on

Me: Baby

Sonke: Sorry to wake you us baby lami

He spent 30 minute in the bathroom and then came back to bed, he smelled good and all i
wanted was to be in his arms, I turned around and I kissed him and he kissed me back

Sonke: I want you

Me: Baby I am tired

Sonke: Please babe, I need you

Me: Sonke

He kissed me and he took of my nightie and he got on top of me, he made love to me like he
has been craving me the whole day, He was so gentle with my body at the same time he knew
how to please me in all the right places

I laid on his chest once we were done and I tried sleeping but he was restless, I tried to pretend
like I cannot notice that he is being weird but it was hard

Sonke: Baby

Me: Yes

Sonke: Do you still love me the same?

Me: Okay where is this question coming from?

Sonke: I just need to know if you are down for me

me: baby i got you

Sonke: No matter what?

Me: Baby

Sonke: Answer me please

Me: Baby i am down for you, through it all…. You know that right?

Sonke: You not with me cause of the money lethu?

Me: I have my own money sonke and i have a family and they have a business and they make
as much money as you do on returns

He pulled me closer

Sonke: I am sorry to ask you this

Me: Babe, what is wrong?

Sonke: Lutho babe, I’ve just been thinking

Me: Of?

Sonke: Life

Me: And

Sonke: I love you

Me: Do you trust me?

Sonke: I trust you with my life, do you trust me

Me: I don’t know

Sonke: Meaning?

Me: You take advantage of me?

Sonke: I don’t baby

me: Then when do you cheat on me and humiliate me ka so?

Sonke: Let’s not fight baby

me: I am not fighting with you, i am asking you, why do you cheat on me?

Sonke: I don’t know babe

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Bad habit

Me: Bad habit?

Sonke: Temptation love

I laughed

Sonke: I am weak babe

me: Maybe i should try being in your level

Sonke: Please don’t

Me: Why not?

Sonke: I will kill you

me: How fair is that?

Sonke: Please lee

me: What about your son?

Sonke: Son?

Me: Yes, the son i haven’t met

Sonke: May we not talk about this

Me: We have too, if that is your blood then you will do something about it

Sonke: I will think about it

Me: You better

I faced away from him and i closed my eyes but i was too hurt, sonke has another son, a
bastard son, why is he fucking these girls without condoms and don’t even give them cash for
morning after pill

He heard that i was crying in silence and he came closer

Sonke: Don’t do this lethu, Please baby

Me: I Just can’t believe i am here, i am back here and listening to your lies

The hormones were taking over, i hate what is happening to me, i want him and the next
moment i am mad at him, these babies are driving me crazy

Sonke: I am not lying baby wami, i mean it you and my kids mean everything to me

Me: Whatever

His phone flashed from the side table

Me: So your phone is on silence now?

Sonke: Hayi Lethu, ngeke phela

He took it and cancelled the call and put the phone back on the side table

We held me tight and kissed my neck

Sorry: I love you

I couldn’t sleep after our conversation

I love sonke and I couldn’t convince myself otherwise, I loved him beyond the normal level of
love, sonke was my addiction and I saw no life without him, I love sonke with every single beat
of me and he was all that I ever wanted. Sonke is the only one that could hurt me the most and
still be the one to love me the most, he was my good and my bad and each day I was loving him
more and more

He fell asleep before i did, i moved his hands away from me cause he was suffocating me, i laid
in bed until i saw his phone flashing, i wanted to wake him up but i woke up and walked to the
phone but the call ended and there was a missed call already, i took the phone and went to the
bathroom and i sat on top of the toilet seat, i took a deep breath and i went to the missed calls, it
had P...., he also had text from this P……

I went to his Text messages

He had a text in threats of i could read it like WhatsApp, the last text was from P... so I had to
read it from the last to the first message.

P... {Please sonke}

Sonke {Stop calling me}

P.... {No sonke, i love you too much to just let you go, we will keep it under wraps sonke she will
never know}

Sonke {I promised my wife i won’t do this and i don’t want to do it anymore, into ehlanganisa
mina nawe is business only}

P... {No Sonke}

Sonke {Listen, ukulala kwethu kubeyiphutha and let’s keep this between us, i don’t want my wife
stressing over this}

P... {Thank you}

Sonke {Ngoshaya iround later}

P.... {Work related}

Sonke {ibaluleke ngani lento ofuna ukuyisho? work or personal?}

P.... {Please, I have to see you tonight sonke, ngiyakucela}

Sonke {Ngibusy with my wife today cc, ngeke ngikwazi}

P… {Hey stranger, can i see you?}

P…. {I didn’t mean that}

P... {How dare you allow you wife to speak to me that way? I thought you loved me, i hate you}

P... {Ufuna ngithini? The way she threw me out of your house}

Sonke {Watch your words}

P... {Fuck your wife sonke, that bitch and you let her treat me like a hoe}

P.... {I miss you}

P.... {I love you}

I was sweating with so much anger, I dialed the number

Philile: Baby

Me: Baby?

Philile: Where is sonke

Me: Where do you think he is?

Philile: Ufunani?

Me: I am not a bitch siyezwana, if i hear that you called my man again, hell will break loose

I hung up and walked to the bedroom and i threw the phone in the bed and it hit sonke on his
chest

Sonke: Wtf? Are you trying to kill me

i switched the lights on

Me: You went to see philile and you fucked her sonke, after everything we spoke about you still
went behind my back and fucked another woman

Sonke: Baby what are you talking about

Me: I read your SMSes

Sonke: What the fuck were you doing with my phone

Me: What the fuck were you doing with her? What does philile have that i don’t have
Sonke: Baby it’s not philile and its not what you think

Me: I called her

He woke up and walked towards me

Me: If you know what is good for you, you will not come closer to me

I opened my drawer i wore legging and a jacket on top

Sonke: Please listen to me lethu

Me: I don’t want to hear anymore lies

Sonke: Okay, okay let me tell you the truth

I stood against the robe door and folded my arms and looked at him

Me: I am listening

Sonke: She called me and told me she has to see me and i told her ngi busy, i will see her some
other time, she text me asking to see me and she told me it is business related then i went to
see her after supper cause she kept calling me, when i got into her flat she was all dressed up
sexy with candles lights and i told her that i can’t do this then i left

Me: You are lying to me again *Yelling*

Sonke: Okay we kissed baby that’s all

Me: Did you at least use a condom

Sonke: Baby we didn’t go that far

Me: Did you *Screaming*

Sonke: Yes i did

Me: Fuck you

He ran to get the pants he was using and he opened the back of his pocket and took out 2
sealed condoms

Sonke: Here baby, i used 1 from this pack

I took the hanger and threw it at him

Me: You think that will make me feel better? You came home asking me for sex kanti you had
you a hot steamy quickie with your hoe then you come to me, you are a piece of shit

I opened the door and he ran after me butt naked, then he ran back to the bedroom, I took my
Mercedes car keys and I took my phone and I opened the kitchen door and the alarm went off
Sonke: Lee please, baby let’s talk about this ngyakucela

I opened the garage door and I got into my car and I reversed

Sonke: Baby I am not going to allow you to leave like this

I started crying like a woman who just buried her husband, I was shaking and I couldn’t breathe,
my tummy felt heavy, I reversed my car and then swerved the car to miss him so I could drive to
the main gate, I drove straight to home in small Ville, I could drive to my apartment cause my
key was at home, I didn’t care if he was following me or not but I just wanted to get away from
sonke, I left the car parked in the drive through with the car door open, I unlocked the house
door and reset the alarm and I ran to my room to get my apartment spare key, I couldn’t find it
and I was crying and banging the drawers

Noxy walked in to my room

Noxy: Lethu, Bra WhatsApp

I turned around and she noticed i was crying and she came closer to me and hugged me

Noxy: Did he hit you again?

I shook my head cause i couldn’t speak and say no

Noxy left me then she walked in after a few seconds with a glass of water and she gave it to me

I drank it

Noxy: Calm down

Me: I need my keys to my apartment

Noxy: I am not allowing you to drive out of here at 2am in the morning like this

Me: I need to be alone noxy

Noxy: Be alone in your room when your family is here

I ignored her

Noxy: How about you take a relaxing bath and the sleep we will talk in the morning

The buzzer rang

Me: Sonke

Noxy: Ngimuvulele?

Me: No

Noxy: Lee kwenzekalani?

Me: I don’t want to see him noxy

Noxy: What must I tell him

Me: That he must go to hell

Noxy: I cannot say that lee

Me: Nxa

Noxy: I will tell him to come back tomorrow ke

She walked out of the room and i went to my window to see what will she say to him, he was
driving my 1 series,

Sonke: Noxy i have to see lethu mfethu

Noxy: She doesn’t want to see you sonke

Sonke: Ngicela ungikhulumela naye sbari

Noxy: I will but not right now, i have never seen her in this state and she is pregnant sonke

Sonke: I know noxy, Ngiflophile mfethu

Noxy: Just go, ubuye kahle ekuseni

Sonke: I am not leaving here

Noxy: Sorry sonke

Noxy locked my car door and the walked into the house.

Sonke looked up my bedroom window

Sonke: Baby Please

I Closed the curtain and sat on my bedroom couch, Noxy walked in

Noxy: Please stop crying lee

I nod my head telling her ok, she kissed me on my forehand

Noxy :Please bath and sleep

Me: I will sleep instead

I walked into the bed and pulled the duvet and got under it and i snuggled on my pillow

She switched the light on and closed my door

My phone rang and it was sonke calling me, i ignored it, he sent SMSes and i didn’t read them, i
put my phone on silence and faced it down

I cried until i fell asleep.

Chapter 28

Noxy: Lethu

Me: MMm with my face buried on the pillow

Noxy: Please wake up, Sonke is here to see you

me: I don’t want to see him

Noxy: Mathema let him in

me: Why?

Noxy: Ungumkhonyana so we can’t just let him stay outside in the car like his a stranger

Me: Demit

Noxy: Don’t speak like that with me

Me: I don’t want to see him

Noxy: Lee Please

Me: Fine

Noxy: Nangu la

I put my head up and he was sitting at the edge of my bed

Me: UFunani la

Noxy: Lethu

I gave noxy a deadly stare

Noxy: My son is still sleeping and it’s way too early for this noise lethu

Me: Sorry

Noxy: Please discuss this like mature people

She walked out closing the door behind her

Me: What do you want from me sonke

Sonke: Ngifuna ukuxolisa

Me: Okwesingaki?

Sonke: I left her baby, i promise you

Me: Ulale naye, futhi after you promised me you are done cheating

Sonke: Its was a mistake

Me: A mistake is something you do once, not twice or thrice

Sonke: She trapped me

Me: Did she put a gun on your head?

Sonke: NO but

Me: No Buts, you are just wasting my time and your time la, nawe awuzai ukuthi uzothini la

Sonke: Please come home

me: Home?

Sonke: Yes our home

me: That is not my home anymore

Sonke: Musa ukukhuluma kanjena lethu, you and i are married

me: You call this marriage? Is this how you treat a wife in a marriage?

Sonke: I am sorry baby

Me: sorry won’t cut it this time around

Sonke: Tell me what to do and i will do it

Me: How about you give me my virginity back, my pride back and my surname back, can you do
that?

He was quiet for a moment

Sonke: I am sorry i can’t give you that back but i can make things okay from what they are

me: How?

Sonke: Baby we will go to counselling and work things out

Me: Who needs counselling between you and i?

Sonke: We both do baby

Me: You are disturbing from my sleep, Please leave sonke, Just go

Sonke: I will if you come home with me

Me: Then you in for a long wait

Sonke: You can’t stay here with noxy, me and the boys need you and the babies you carrying
needs me and i am your husband

Me: You lost that right to telling me what i should do when you fucked another woman while i
was waiting for you in our bed, Now get out of my home or i will get security to escort you out

Sonke: Baby

Me: Please go

He sat on my bed in silence and i didn’t even look at him

His phone rang and he ignored it then after 1 minute my phone rang and it was an unknown
number calling and on my caller ID it picked up as Detective Shaun

I answered

Me: Hello

Male Voice: Hi, Can i speak to Mr. or Mrs. Shange

Me: Mrs. Shange speaking

Male Voice: You are speaking to detective Shaun

Me: How can i help you detective Shaun

Detective Shaun: Is you husband with you mam?

Me: Yes he is

Detective Shaun: Okay, i am calling to advise you that your house in sunning dale has been
burnt down last night, we need you are your husband to identify the house and the people who
were living in the house as 2 bodies are found

I woke up and sat on my bed while I stared at sonke

Me: Noma

Detective Shaun: Sorry

Me: I am sorry……Okay we will be there

Detective Shaun: Okay, Thank you for your time

I cut the call and I looked at sonke with so much fear, I took a deep breath in

Me: The house

Sonke: House?

Me: The house in sunning dale was burnt last night with 2 bodies in it

Sonke: What?

Me: I don’t know, they said we need to go there

He got up and walked out of my room while I woke up and wore my flops, fixed my hair and
wore my glasses because my eyes were paining and we walked down stairs.

Me: Noxy

Noxy: Yes

screaming from upstairs

Me: We have to go so we will see you later

Noxy: Okay

We drove with the 1 series as it was parked outside the gate, it was awkward in the car as i was
not talking to him, i switched the radio on to listen to ECR so we could hear the news but there
was nothing, when we go the road that leads to sonke’s house was full with ambulances, corps
services, police, fire extinguisher and tow truck and there was a yellow tape at the main
entrance gate, the police stopped us from entering the house as it was a crime sceene

Sonke signaled for a police officer to attend to us

Sonke: Hi we are looking for detective Shaun

Police: I will get him for you

The police came back with a tall white man dressed in jeans and t-shirt

Shaun: Hi

Me: Hi, i am Mrs. Shange and this is my husband sonke shange

Shaun: I assume the house it yours?

Sonke: The house is under my name but my ex was living here

Shaun: Who was she living with?

Sonke: Alone, as far as i know

Shaun: We found 2 bodies in the house but we are not sure who they belong too as they are
burnt badly, so the forensics team is working on it

Sonke: Okay

Shaun: Did you guys get along?

Sonke: Not really, after she lost the baby we haven’t spoken much

Shaun: Was she pregnant with your child?

Sonke: Yes but she gave birth to a still born

Shaun: That is sad, did she get along with your wife?

Shaun and sonke looked at me

me: No, she was my husband’s side chick so we didn’t get along

Sonke: Lethu

Me: what? Must i lie?

Sonke: Mxm

Shaun: Mr. Shange we will need you to identify the deceased once the forensic team is done

Sonke: Okay when will that be?

Detective Shaun: It should take 48-72 hours

Sonke: No problem

Detective Shaun: Thank you for your time

we walked back to the car and sonke started the car

Sonke: I hope it’s not Noma there

me: Shame

He drove to La Lucia

me: Shouldn’t you be taking me to small Ville?

Sonke: That is not your home

Me: Okay

He drove in the gate and he parked the car in the garage and left me sitting there, i was mad as
hell but i was scared on what just happened to noma, Who could have done this and for some
strange reason i hoped it was not noma in that house, i got out of the car and went to the house,
i packed a few of my clothes that still fits me and i requested for an uber and within 2 minute it
was at the gate and i left without saying anything and got out of the gate into the car and the
driver drove off, how dare sonke tries to control my where about, he tried calling me a few times
but i cancelled his calls, he sent me a SMS

Sonke {This thing you are doing has to stop before I lose it and i am not going to say this again}

I ignored it and as soon as i got home i took a long bath and then cuddled in bed, i was not even
hungry, i was sad, emotional and scared, Noxy walked in with a ham sandwich

Noxy: Please eat something

I was quiet as she as she tried to read my body

Me: Sonke’s house in sunning dale was burnt

Noxy: How? By Who?

Me: I don’t know, the forensics are still working on the 2 bodies found inside

Noxy: When did this happen?

Me: Last night apparently

Noxy: But i thought you sold the house

me: That’s what i thought until

Noxy: Until?

Me: Until i realized Noma, the ex-fiancé lives there

Noxy: Hayke usonke

Me: Can you see what I have to deal with?

I started crying

Me: I have put up a lot with sonke and his cheating and him abusing me noxy, i don’t deserve
this

She sat next to me

Noxy: What happened last night lethu

Me: Sonke has been cheating on me with 4 or 5 different woman, Black, white and foreign.. You
name it

Noxy: No not sonke, he adores you

I cried more and she pulled out a serviette and gave it to me, i sat up right and i looked at her

Noxy: waze kanjani?

Me: I hired a P.I and he gave me all the information

Noxy: Kodwa lethu, Why go down that road

me: Norma told me that he was cheating and I just needed proof

Noxy: and you believed her?

Me: She was right

Noxy: And you confronted sonke?

Me: He has a 4 month year old son who is motherless

Noxy: A what?

Me: Apparently he killed her

Noxy: Now you talking crap

me: I am telling you

Noxy: Where did you hear that from

me: The P.I

Noxy: and you believe the P.I?

Me: Yes, why would he lie to me?

Noxy: Did you ask sonke?

Me: Yes

Noxy: What did he say?

Me: he didn’t admit it and neither did he confess

Noxy: Nibanga loyodoti nje

me: He has a child bra and last night he left me in bed waiting for him and he went to his side
chick philile

Noxy: Philile who?

Me: My driver

Noxy: The driver

Me: Bra

Noxy: hayi usonke wenza izimanga lethu wtf

Me: Do you see what i mean and lapho he is a drug lord, i don’t even know my own husband
noxy, i don’t know who i got married to

Noxy: Calm down lethu, sonke is wrong for cheating like this and aqede amithise, now that is
totally out of it

Me: I don’t know how to handle all this noxy, i really don’t know and i am moving into my
apartment

Noxy: Bantu's brother in law is renting your apartment

Me: What? Who the fuck said he can?

Noxy: Bantu

Me: My staff?

Noxy: store room

Me: aarg man, That is my flat, dad got me that flat after matric, wtf

Noxy: calm down, you still have a home

Me: I need my own space

Noxy: okay go live at the condo in Mt Edgecombe, no one lives there and its safe

Me: That’s my only option

Noxy: But i think you are blowing things way too much

Me: I am not, his dangerous

Noxy: Sonke will never hurt you and man cheat, grow up and see the bottom line

Me: And what is the bottom line

Noxy: Sonke does everything for you

Me: he does that for his side chicks too

Noxy: But he chose you out of all off them, sonke has been a drug lord for years and you guys
dated for a year and he married you, don’t you think he chose you out of all of them?

Me: How do you know he was a drug dealer for many years

Noxy: Hawu you just said so

Me: No i did not

Noxy: Maybe i miss heard you

Me: Now my own sister is lying to me to, just leave noxy

Noxy: Okay i heard rumor and goodies told me it was true and i though you knew but you were
scared to tell us

Me: how can i not tell you noxy, you my sister mfethu

Noxy: All along i thought you knew lethu, why do you think usonke uhlonishwa kanje abantu
abaningi? Where do you think he is getting all this money from? Buying houses and cars?

Me: He has a business nje noxy, how was i supposed to see that?

Noxy: Okay now you know so what? Just because his a drug lord he is not the sonke you love
or married and having kids by? Noxy banzi have put me through shit but i still stayed with him
because i love him, he is drunk half the time and he cheats too and i still stay with him although
we are not married, you are married to sonke and he loves you

Me: He keeps cheating on me

Noxy: You should start respecting him and showing him you are his ride or die lethu, Now it’s
not about you it should be about you and him, he is a part of you now and you should be
supporting his every decision

Me: Even cheating

Noxy: No phela you need to draw the line when it comes to cheating, he needs to respect you
when it comes to that and you need to make sure he keeps to his promise

Me: Maybe i was not cut out for marriage then

Noxy: No one is cut out for it but you just have to make it work, if you don’t make it work then no
one will fight for you

Me: I don’t know

Noxy: My advice lethu would be to go out there and fight for your man, hluleka uzamile, for once
fight for what is yours, Stop running away every time you guys fight or you find out his cheating,
stay in your house and punish him and make him sleep on the spare room, make him feel how
you feel, stay out till late with me and have some girl time and don’t spent time with him until he
figures out that he is hurting you

Me: What if he no longer wants this marriage lethu, he will never tell me that directly

Noxy: Why would he drive and sleep outside the car if that was the case? Why would he bother
coming here in your room and bagging you to come home if that was the case? Sonke loves
you and you know that, that is why you do what you do, run away every time you can’t take the
heat

me: I am not going to put my life in danger noxy, hayi no

Noxy: Do you love sonke?

Me: Yes

Noxy: How much?

Me: Allot

Noxy: Would you take a bullet for him?

Me: No, i don’t know, yes maybe

Noxy: Sonke would take a bullet for you, maybe while you are here away from home, try to think
if you would take a bullet for sonke cause if you won’t then you don’t love him the way you
should

She woke up and put the trey on the side table

Noxy: Please eat and don’t starve sonke's babies

she closed the door behind me, my phone rang and it was sonke and i switched my phone off, i
ate the sandwich and drank the orange juice took my vitamins and laid in bed.

I have never seen noxy this serious with me, she has grown so much, i guess having a child
made her realize the important things in life but i am not sure about going back to lalucia.

I Stayed in small Ville for a week and i didn’t see sonke for almost a week, I had my gynea’s
visits and the babies were growing pretty well, i worked from home and he sent me emails
almost every hour, i would respond on business enquires and ignore personal emails from him, i
ignored every call i received as it was possible that it would be him, i replied on his text when he
asked me how are his babies and I emailed him the 3D scan with the pictures

He text me on how sorry he is, he also came to my home but mathema would tell him i am not
home even when he can see the car parked in the drive way but i think for respect her and
listened to what mathema was telling him, he had flowers delivered with chocolate and baby
face CD grown and sexy and his note asked me to listen to *Sorry for the stupid things i wish i
didn’t do but i do* and the next day he sent Vusi Nova *Thandiwe* was on the note and he
made sure he gets Lindt delivered and i think the babies loved it, i was getting huger by day, i
ignored sonke's mom calls cause i knew she was going to give me the lecture.

Sonke emailed me on Thursday telling me that Noma's body was one of the bodies that died in
the fire and the second boy was Max's husband, their blood traces showed traces of drugs but
the investigation is still on as they think they were murdered.
Me: What was max's husband doing with noma? Wtf is going on?

I decided to call my friend because i didn’t know about this and knowing him, his probably in
hospital

Max: Lethu

Me: Hunnies

He started crying

me: I just heard boo, phephisa

Max: why me? Why my husband

Me: I am sorry boo, i really don’t know what to say love

Max: Just when i found a man who loves me for me lethu, someone takes him away from me

Me: Phephisa love

Max: I don’t even know ubefunani nje lapha and we had a fight before he left home lethu and
now i will never see my man again

He cried louder

Me: I didn’t know him and noma were friends

Max: When he left he told me it was a business call lee

I hate that woman, i hate her, he got my husband killed and i was suspecting that he was
cheating but not a woman lee

Me: No max, he would never cheat on you

Max: Man are dogs nje lee but i want my man back, i loved my husband besides his cheating
and abuse and attitude, lethu he meant the world to me, what am i supposed to do without him
lethu? How will i sleep at night knowing he is not coming home? We just got married and this
happens to me? Why didn’t i die instead of him? Why?

he started crying again

Me: It’s the way God planned it boo, i am so sorry

Max: Thank you lee, the funeral will be this coming Saturday

Me: I will com boo but you know i am highly pregnant and i won’t even be able to help with
cooking

Max: his family got me sitting in this mattress from last night when we got the new, he went
missing and i opened a missing case and yesterday i received news that he was burned alive
Me: Mmmm babe, i am sorry, do you need anything from my side boo?

Max: No babe, his insurance has paid and the funeral is covered

me: transport?

Max: His family is working on that

Me: I will sent you 5k and you can add la ekushoda khona

Max: Thank you lovey, i appreciate it

Me: Okay love, i will keep in touch and be strong

I hung up and took a deep breathe, I thought of sonke on how i would feel if something had to
happen to him?

I went to my call logs and dialed his number

Sonke: Lethu

Me: hey

Sonke: You okay?

Me: Yes i am okay, we are okay

Sonke: Thank you for returning my calls

me: I just spoke to max

Sonke: How is he holding up

me: His not taking it well

Sonke: Eish and they just got married

I Started crying

Sonke: Baby you okay?

Me: I am just worried about max, he just lost the love of his life

Sonke: They loved each other

Me: I know, he just asked me how is he going to sleep at night knowing his husband is not going
to be coming home to him

Sonke: Mm, I know what he means

I cried
Sonke: I don’t think i will be able to survive being without you, you not being home kills me but
knowing that you gone for good will damage me, i pray to I die first cause i wouldn’t be able to
live without you baby

I cried even harder

Sonke: Shoooo baby, don’t cry, do you want me to come over?

Me: No, i will be fine

Sonke: Baby i miss you, i haven’t been to the office since you left, lethu i need you

Me: I have to go

Sonke: Lee wait

Me: Yes

Sonke: I love you

Me: I love you too

Sonke: Please come back home

Me: I have to go

Sonke: Baby wait

Me: Bye sonke

I hung up and i hugged my pillow and cried, i love him so much and i can’t be without him but if i
go home he will never change, my phone rang and it was him calling and he sent a text

Sonke {I love you makhumalo, Ngyakucela buya uze ekhaya}

I ignored the text and put my phone on silence and i logged into my Facebook account people
tagged me and max on RIP massages and some people uploaded pictures of noma and sonke
and had RIP on them and it was just sad, sonke didn’t add anything or write anything on noma's
wall, i logged out cause getting too emotion and i e-wallet max 5k and i sent him a SMS,

Me {I am sorry i cannot be there with you, be strong my angel, i love you, Lee}

Around 6pm Noxy came from work

Noxy: Lee, sonke called and he wants to speak to you

me: I spoke to him

Noxy: he wants to speak to you again

me: I will call him after supper

Noxy: Please do

We had supper, i bath and i laid in bed and i called sonke and he didn’t answer, he called back
as soon as i put the phone down

Me: Hi

Sonke: Sorry i was on another call with noma's mom

me: OH ok, Noxy said you called for me

Sonke: Yes, I wanted to tell you that noma will get buried this Sunday at Ulundi

Me: Okay, what must i do about that?

Sonke: Lee, don’t be so cold hearted

Me: Okay, i am sorry

Sonke: I was wondering if you don’t mind coming with me to her funeral

Me: I will be tired

Sonke: I know baby, but it’s just to show that we had no beef with her and her family knows you
now

Me: Fine

Sonke: Sizoya sobabili to both funerals angithi?

Me: Okay

Sonke: Mom will come to noma's funeral

Me: Fine

Sonke: Thank you

me: Goodnight

Chapter 30

There was a police with the gun next to me and detective Shaun was driving the car and there
was another police not dressed in uniform in the passenger seat... I was still crying the police
officers were annoyed

Police 1: Hey shut up man

Me: This is a mistake i didn’t kill anyone, please

Detective Shaun put on the radio which was the east coast radio and he continued driving

The car was not speeding as much but the blue lights were on, I cried so much and I said a
silence prayer, when I looked on my right hand side of the roan I saw my baby’s car and my
heart rate was out of this world, I didn’t stop crying because I didn’t know what was going on
and how was all this happening to me.

I am arrested for something I didn’t do.

Sonke was driving next to the police car and I noticed two police vans were also following us.

Sonon looked as if he was talking on the phone as he was pissed, screaming and banging his
starring wheel.

I wanted my husband to be right here with me, the drive was short and when we got into the
Durban police service is CR swart and i was taken out and put in the cell at the back on the
police station, there was no one at cell, it was cold and dark and all i could do was cry, what did
i do for this to happen to me.

The police officers pushed me inside and i sat at the corner of the cell, i was cold, I sat there for
over and an hour, no one attended to me and neither did anyone speak to me, I was struggling
to breath as I was losing my breath, my heart rate was not normal and I was getting cramps,
heavy cramps, I was cold and thirsty.

The police officers were minding their own business and every time I screamed for them they
ignored but this time around I needed to wee so badly that I couldn’t even stand, couldn’t even
wake up from the cement chair that i was sitting on.

Me: Hello

I was ignored

Me: Sorini bandla ngicela usizo

Police: Losis wazewasibanga isicefe

Me: I need the toilet

Voice: Sisi Sisabusy

Me: I can’t wait, I need the toilet

Me: Sorry, police man

Voice: Do you see a man here

Me: I am sorry mam but i need the toilet

Police: I am still busy, Please wait

Me: I can’t wait

Police: Cama laphoke mowungezwa

I tried standing up but i fell on the floor, I tried breathing in but it was too hard as the sharp pain
on my abdominal was too much, it was unbearable

Police: Sisi uzolimala, Please get up from the floor

Me: I can’t

Police: What are you doing? You are so full on drama shame

me: I can’t wake up sisi, I am getting pains on my stomach

Police: This drama you are causing is not going to work

Me: Sisi Please

I felt a hot heat on my back, as if someone placed a hot iron on my back, I felt something
fighting to come out from my bottom and I took a deep breath in as I couldn’t breathe

Another Police: Muyeke oe lo, Unedrama nje

Me: My twins

Police: Twins?

Me: I am losing my twins

Police: hawe jesu, get the keys oe

She ran out screaming and before I knew it the cell was opened and 2 police man walked in

Voice: Sisi uright

I shook my head and i tried to breath

Me: Please call my doctor, Doctor Lumia

Police man 2: Bizani ukhonyana wakhe lapho ereception…sheshisani

They helped me wake up but i couldn’t walk straight and sonke dashed in

Sonke: Lethu

I looked at him but I was in so much pain

Me: The babies

Sonke: Fuck this

Me: I am losing my babies sonke, Ouch….

I stood for a moment trying to manage the pain and the urge to push

Me: I need the toilet

Sonke: No you can’t, we need the hospital ASAP

He turned around and looked at the police officer, I am taking my wife to the hospital, follow us if
you want to I don’t care

Sonke: Lee, take it slow, we need to walk to the car

I tried walking but I couldn’t stand up straight, while I walked I felt hot water running through my
legs, when I looked down I was covered in hot water

I stopped and the police and sonke that was holding me on both sides

Me: my water

Sonke: Water?

Me: The water broke

they looked on the floor

Sonke: Damnit

Sonke lifted me up and ran with me to his car, he put me on the back seat and I laid on the
back, he got in and started the car and he drove off speeding.

All I could hear was sirens and sonke was talking to me but i couldn’t pay attention to him cause
my abdominal pain that kept going and coming was too much to bear

The more the pain came and the more I pushed

Sonke: Don’t push baby, just don’t push

Me: It’s more painful if I don’t push sonke

I was so hot, sweaty and sticky

A dialing tone rang from the car speakers and someone answered in a sleepy voice

Voice: Hello

Sonke: Dr. Lumia?

Voice: Yes
Sonke: I need you at the hospital as in now, my wife is giving birth or losing the twins i don’t
know

Dr Lumia: Your wife

Sonke: You are speaking to Mrs. Sonke Shange

Dr. Lumia: Mrs. Shange

Sonke: Yes

Dr. Lumia: where are you?

Sonke: we are on our way to st Augustine

Dr. Lumia: I am just behind the hospital, i will be there is 10 minute

Sonke: Thank you Doc

Me: aaaaaaah Sonke, i was in tears but i was slowly running out of breath and my voice was
just disappearing

Sonke: I am here lethu, don’t push just yet baby, 5 minute and we are at the hospital

Me: Baby it hurts, I need this panty out of me

every cotton i felt on my body was making my body more sore, i was sweating and, the siren
was following us and all i could do was pray, i prayed louder and next thing i heard sonke
praying while his head was looking straight on the road and hand on the starring wheel, we both
said the hail Mary prayer but i was ready to pass out as i could not handle the pain then I heard
sonke screaming

Sonke: Baby, baby were here

The door opened and sonke came and he screamed, she is bleeding

2 nurses from the hospital took and me and placed me on the wheel chair and in no time i could
see white light shining through my eyes

Voice 1: She is looing blood

Voice 2: get the drip, she is going to pass out

Voice 1: The babies are ready

Voice 2: I need a scan

Voice 1: The Doctor is here

Voice 2: Dr lumnia, what do we do

Dr Lumnia: Mrs. Shange can you hear me?

I nod my head

Dr Lumia: Listen you are bleeding which not good, the babies are here and you will have to
push when i tell you

I nod my head

Dr Lumia: Take a deep breath and when i ask you to push, close your mouth

She turned around and screamed Nurse get her a drip,

She walked away and the nurses started pocking me with needles and putting things like pegs
in my finger and i was just trying not to scream but i couldn’t help it

Voice 1: Dr, she is pushing

All of then ran towards me and the nurse held my hand and she gave me a beautiful smile and
said i am here just squeeze my hand should you need too

Dr Lumia: Lethokuhle Please take a deep breath in and push as hard as you can

I did as she asked and i pushed, i made sure that i close my mouth cause i didn’t want to lose
my breath while pushing my baby out.

Dr Lumia: That’s good, now give ne another big push for me

I gave her the push

Dr Lumia: Here we go, You are doing great, give me the biggest push you can give me

I Pushed harder this time around and i felt something coming out of me, within a few seconds i
heard a cry

Dr. Lumia: Great job lethokuhle

Dr Lumia: It’s a girl, nurse we cannot risk any moment, take the baby into the incubator while we
get the second baby out

She walked up to my side

Dr Lumia: You are doing a good job Mrs. Shange, i just need you to gather as much strength
and energy for your next pushing okay, just rest a bit and you will start feeling pain in the next
few minute, she wiped my face with a towel

Dr Lumia: You are so strong Mrs. shange

Before i knew it i was at it again and i was prepared to push, i was told to push and i did, i
pushed twice and i heard another baby crying

Dr Lumia: It’s another girl, well done Mrs. shange

While i was still trying to find myself i was too exhausted and my body was shutting down

The voices were slowly fading away.

I woke up to a heavy headache as if i was drugged, my mouth was dry and my body felt like I
was beaten up, I opened my eyes in to the a clean room and everything was white and green
but the lights were off, it was freezing cold i looked around and i saw sonke sitting on the couch
and he looked like he was sleeping, i tried sitting up straight but my abdominal gave me no
chance

Me: Ouch

I was thirsty and my mouth was dry, i looked next to me and they had a glass with water
covered with a glass lid, i tried reaching for it but i didn’t have the energy to

Sonke moved from the couch to get a better position

Me: Sonke

Sonke: mmm

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Lee

Me: Baby

Sonke: You are awake?

Me: Yes

He walked to my side and switched the light on above bed and he kissed my forehead

Sonke: Thank you God

I looked at my tummy

Me: My babies

He smiled at me and I knew that my babies are okay

Me: You are so strong mawabo

I smiled

Sonke: You gave me the most two beautiful girls in the world
I Tried smiling with my heart but my body gave me no chance

Sonke: and they are gorgeous and fair just like you lethu

Me: Really

He kissed my forehead then my lip

Sonke: Thank you baby

Me: I can’t wait to see them

Sonke: I will take you to see them when they are awake

Me: What time is it?

He looked at his watch

Sonke: 3am

me: How long have i been asleep for

Sonk: 72 Hours

Me: That long

Sonke: Your body was not ready

Me: How are my babies

Sonke: they are in the incubator but they are doing great, strong and brave just like you

I smiled at him

I really couldn’t wait to see my girls

Sonke: How are you feeling?

Me: I am tired and my whole body is aching

Sonke: I am sorry nana

Me: I will be fine

Sonke: Dr Lumia told me they girls tore you

me: Did they?

Sonke: Apparently and you lost too much blood

me: Never mind me, as long as my babies are fine

Sonke: They getting stronger every hour, they both weight 3.2KG on their 7.5 month

me: They are so big

Sonke: where do you think those nando's and pizzas were going?

He smiled and took out his phone and went to his images

Sonke: Look at them

I took the phone and i scrolled at the pictures, they were flawless, although i couldn’t see them
clearly cause they were in the glass but they had my complexion with sonke's dimples and my
forehead, they looked so healthy

Me: How long will they be in the incubator for?

Sonke: Dr Howard their pediatrician said she will keep them in for a week for observation but
they are doing very well and there is a huge improvement, Dr Lumia didn’t think they were make
it cause it was still too early

Me: Thank God, I don’t know what I was going to do if…

Sonke: Shuu don’t think of it babe

I was quiet, I wanted to ask sonke if I will be going to jail since I am arrested or did they let me
go but I was scared to raise the topic

Sonke: I am sorry love, the way things happened

Me: Yeah, how could i possibly kill my friends husband and your ex

Sonke: I know you didn’t do it babe, I got my lawyer to handle this

Me: I need my phone, i need to make calls

Sonke: Who are you going to call?

Me: My brother

Sonke: He is here, he checked in earlier but you were still asleep

me: Okay, did you tell him?

Sonke: The police are guarding your ward, so yes he saw it and i told him

me: What did he said?

Sonke: His angry and his contacting his people and sorting this out

Me: I didn’t do it sonke

Sonke: I know baby, i was with you remember and it took you 15-20 minute to get to small Ville,
that bitch probably killed herself or she had enemies that wanted her gone

Me: What evidence do they have against me?

Sonke: They have a witness

Me: Witness

Sonke: Yes

Me: Who?

Sonke: My guys are still digging

I started getting emotional and crying, sonke walked to my side of the bed and told me to not cry
and he asked me to rest. He sat on the edge of my pillow and i laid my head on his chest till i
fell asleep. I woke to a beautiful white woman standing next to my bed

Dr Lumia: Good morning mother

Me: Hi Doctor

Dr Lumia: How are you feeling?

Me: I feel tired

Dr Lumia: You should be, plus your body will be a bit messy as its still adjusting to its old body
without the kids

Me: How long will i bleed for?

Dr Lumia: It should be a couple of days, it’s uncomfortable?

Me: Yes and sore

Dr Lumia: I am sorry, i didn’t expect the girls to be that big

I laughed with so much joy in me

Dr. Lumia: and they are strong so active

I smiled as she told me about my twins

Dr. Lumia: have you met them?

Me: No, My husband promised to take me to them today

Dr Lumia: I am afraid you are not allowed to leave this room until you are released from the
police custody
I took a deep breath in

Dr Lumia: But I will check with Dr. Howard if the babies can come to you instead

Me: I would appreciate that

Dr. Lumia: How are you holding up?

Me:I didn’t kill anyone

Dr Lumia: I know, your husband is on it as we speak

Me: Meaning?

Dr. Lumia: it is your bail hearing today so I had to write a report stating you are not fit enough to
leave this hospital

Me: Thank you Doc

Dr. Lumia: at the least I can do

I smiled at her

Dr Lumia: The nurse will be in to help you bath and please eat a lot of fluid, the girls will need
breast milk

Me: Ha ha Doc, will it be okay if i give them a formula?

Dr Lumia: Are you sure?

Me: Yes, i run a business so i won’t be home most of the time

Dr Lumia: You can get a breast bump

Me: Okay i will think about that

Dry Lumia: I will arrange one while you are still here

Me: How long will i be in here for?

Dr Lumia: Few days, A week or 2, depends on the girls

Me: Okay

Dr Lumia: Let me leave you, i will check up on you later

She left and the nurse walked in while i was in my thoughts, she helped me to the bathroom and
i sat on the bath tub as the water was nice and hot, she changed my beddings while i was
bathing and gave me PJ's that sonke came with since he didn’t like hospital gowns, i used it and
i walked back to the room and i sat on the chair and i ate my breakfast then i took pain killers
and i sat on the bed, my in-between was not as sore as i expected to be, it’s the bleeding that
made me unhappy, my boobs were throbbing and heavy that I felt like my whole chest will pop
out.

The nurse gave me a breast pump and she showed me how to use it which i did try but it was
so painful, once we were done i went to rinse my boobs and then i got into bed and slept, i woke
up around 12 midday and there more flowers into my room, i went to the bathroom and when i
came back bantu and bantu was sitting on the sleeper couch, I got so excited that my face lit up

Me: Bantu

Bantu: Lee

He gave me a tight hug

Me: Ouch Bantu, Not so tight

while he was doing that sonke walked in

Sonke: Family

Me: hey baby

He walked to me and gave me a kiss on my cheek, Noxy walked

Me: Noxy

Noxy: Lee

We hugged each other while I shed a tear

Noxy: Don’t cry baby girl

Me: I am happy to see you

We hugged again

Me: I missed you guys

Sonke: good thing is that you coming home when you and the girls get discharged

I looked at bantu and Noxy and they smiled back at me

Me: How?

Bantu: Bail hearing was today

Me: Dr. Lumnia Told me

Sonke: The judge threw the case out of court as there was not enough evidence

Me: The witness

Noxy: Mxm like there way any

Me: The evidence?

Sonke: It was not enough

Noxy: Apparently the house has your finger prints and DNA

me: Wtf? I used to live there

Bantu: My point exactly

Me: I adored Max’s husband and

Noxy: Bra

Bantu: Max didn’t even talk to us

Me: He was there?

Noxy: Yes with other girls

Me: So he thinks I did it

Bantu: Looks like it

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Someone is just trying to pin this on us

Me: Fuck them

Sonke: I will get to the bottom of this, almost having my kids in a cell, nxa

Noxy: We should sue them nje

Sonke: Sho case

Me: I want to see my babies

Sonke: Should i take you?

Me: Please

Bantu: We will leave you to it while I grab lunch at the canteen

We walked out of the room and took an elevator to another floor and we walked to a passage
and we came towards the nursery, The kids were sleeping peacefully while some were sucking
on her fingers

The babies were so adorable and I kept looking for kids that will look like me or sonke.
Sonke led me in to an to isolation room and there I saw my babies, They were both on their own
incubator with drips on their foot, they used the specs that looked like spaceship glasses

I didn’t even know why, all I wanted was to carry them in my arms

I stood there looking at my babies and they were so cute, completely out of this world.

I fell in love immediately

Sonke: Our angels

Sonke put his arms around me as he stood behind me

Me: They are so beautiful

I tried hard not to cry, I just got emotional at the fact that I gave birth to such pure and innocent
babies and I wish mom could have seen them

Sonke: They ours

Me: Our very own

Sonke: Amakhosazane

I started crying and he hugged me from behind

Me: I love them so much

Sonke: They love you already

Me: How long you think they will be here for?

Sonke: A few days now

Me: I can't wait to hold them

Sonke: So do i

I turned around and looked at sonke

Me: Isabella and Elizabeth

Sonke let out a soft laugh

Me: What?

Sonke: English names?

Me: It’s beautiful names

Sonke: No English names

Me: Why not?

Sonke: English names were for the apartheid day’s lovey, not anymore

Me: But sonke

Sonke: We will come up with good names

Me: Fine, I will let this go

I turned around and we stayed in one position staring at the girls until we were disturbed by a
nurse. We walked out and stayed in my room, Bantu and sonke had got lunch and it was
nandos, i sat down and i ate and Bantu informed us he is flying back to JHB but he will be down
next weekend, noxy left as well and sonke stayed for a while and he also had to leave.

We stayed in the hospital for 3 weeks and i was so much better, the bleeding had stopped and
the kids were out of the incubator and we were set and ready to go home.

It was just a few more days before the twins turn a month old and sonke and i decided to give
them S26 gold as per our pediatrician advise since they were feeding on my breast milk like
vultures

Sonke picked us up at 1pm after signing the discharge form and he came and carried the bags
to the car then he came and carried 1 twin and i carried the other twin and we walked into my
car and it had 2 baby seat in the back, he put the twins in the back and I sat next to their car
seats and he drove us to La Lucia, we got home and he opened the door for me and he took the
bags while i un-buckled one twin and he came back and took the baby and i took the other twin
and i left to the house, when we got into the dining room everyone screamed surprise, i was so
shocked that i almost dropped my twin and sonke ran to me, everyone ran and rook the babies
and hugged me, The deco looked amazing and everyone was in a Miami outfit a banner had a
welcome home baby shower on the wall, a huge cake and cupcakes and so many gifts that
there was actually no place to put them, people from LL and Kay’s company was there, my
friends goodies and Sean and Ian and zeeno were all here and most of them were already tipsy,
sonke's mom and sisters were there, Noxy took me to my bedroom and asked me to change
which i did and i wore a vest with a Miami skirt with flops, sonke also changed into shorts and a
vest

Sonke asked me to give him a minute which I did in our bedroom

Me: Baby

Sonke: I wanted to do this

He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him then put his lips on mine, his lips was so
sweet and soft, His kiss was wet and sexy that I lost myself in him, he tried to stop kissing me
but I pulled him closer and I tried to stop then he pulled me more closer until we struggled
breathing then we stopped
I stared at him in aweh

Sonke: That’s how much I missed you

sonke was so in love with me and i could see it in his eyes, he was all over me, kissing me and
hugging me and undressing me just by looking at me.

I was stunned and softened with what he just did and to be honest I missed his lips

Sonke: We may start our event now

He walked out leaving me in such a tense and sexy body

I walked out and joined my friends and family at the pool area where everyone was at, The
twins hardly had time to sleep as everyone was carrying them, we bonded with the girls and
sonke's friends had to braai the meat with his members while enjoyed drinks, i decided to have
a virgin cocktail as my body was still weak, we took pictures and we danced and while we were
at it mamiki walked to me and told me max is here and wants to see me, my heart skipped a
beat and walked to sonke to tell him and he walked with me to max, he looked okay, a lot better
than i expected he would look

Me: Max

Max: Hi

Sonke: Zishap skhokho

Max: Surviving

Sonke: Thank you for coming

Max: lee is my girl, i know she didn’t do anything to my hubby

Me: So you believe me?

Max: Noxy showed me proof that you were at your home that night and sonke told me you guys
were together

I walked to him and gave him a hug even before he could finish his sentence

Me: How are you holding up?

Max: Bitch i need a drink

Me: ha ha Come through, iningi for wena

we walked back to the pool area and everyone screamed for max and we all hugged, we all
chilled out till late and around 5pm people had to leave, my girls left and they all took their
ciders, sonke's family left as they had family visiting the next day.
Mamiki and I cleaned the house and reset everything back to how it was.

Mamiki was to sleep outside in her room, I warmed the braai'd meat with salad and pap and we
ate that for supper and Sonke bath the boys and they went to sleep, there was so many gifts
that mamiki took them to the guest bedroom and said we will pack them tomorrow, i went to
bath while sonke was sitting with the girls in the bed and they were just looking at him and
smiling.

When I was done I wore my pj’ while sonke was playing with the girls

Sonke: Baby?

Me: Yes baby

Sonke: Don’t you want to know what my gift is?

Me: For?

Sonke: Welcome home baby shower?

Me: what could that be?

Sonke: Please follow me

He took the girls and put them in the center of our king size bed and asked me to close my eyes
which i did and then he held my hands and walked back words i assume, he stopped a few
steps away from our room and opened another door and walked me in, you can open your
eyes, i laid my eyes in to every type of pink I could possibly think of, he turned the spare
bedroom in to a nursery

It was so beautiful and it felt like I just entered another world

The built ins were all white with a dark pink and light pink court and the curtains had Sophia the
first designs and the robes were small cute and white, 2 mini sofa's and a big pink sleeper
couch and 2 rocking chairs and Barbie paintings in the room with our wedding picture

I was so impressed and amazed at what sonke just did

I turned around

Me: Baby

Sonke: I tried

Me: You outdone yourself sithandwa sami

Sonke: Mamiki washed everything that here and i made sure i get cotton staff cause their
pediatrician said they suffer from sinus so they must keep away from fluffy things

Me: Wow babe

I turned around and looked around

Sonke: I love it

Me: It is beautiful

Me: Okay and?

He took me on a tour and the we went back to the girls, I carried one and he carried the other
twin until He walked out to the kitchen and he asked to help in making the bottles and i got their
girls bed ready, i bath them and put them into their warm pj's and put them into their courts and
took the monitor with so we will hear them when they cry

I went to the kitchen and helped sonke with the bottles but he was hands on, the girls started
crying then I had to go back to then and within a few minutes later sonke walked in with two
NUK bottles made and it was just the right temperature

Me: Impressed

Sonke: I am glad

Me: How did you know?

Sonke: I listen when the doctor speaks plus i had more time to Google this staff

I let out a small laugh

Me: You never stop impressing me

Sonke: I will never futhi

We fed the twins and like vultures they drank their bottles, we sat on the rocking chairs and the
girls burped and we put them to sleep

We walked out to our bedroom with a second monitor so we will hear them should they move or
cry, When we got to the bedroom sonke took out two strings

Sonke: Baby, Majola gave the strings to put on the girls waist when they are home for safety

We walked back to the girls room to put on their strings waist and we dimmed the light and they
went back to sleep.

We walked to our bedroom and i set my alarm to wake up at 2am to check up on them, sonke
made 4 more bottles and kept them in their warmer, set the alarm and switched the lights off, he
came to the bedroom and took a shower and came to bed.

I was happy to be back home with my kids and husband, I was happy I was going to lay my
head in his arms and I thanked the heavenly father, if it was not for the lord above I would not
have made it.
I asked sonke for us to pray and he agreed without hesitations

He cuddled me on the bed while we laid in silence, everything was coming back, his cheating
and almost giving birth in a cell and being accused of murdering his ex

Me: Sonke

Sonke: Baby

Me: I am sorry for leaving you here all alone

Sonke: I don’t blame you Lee, I have been a jerk

Me: True but I had no right to leave my house, My kids and my family

Sonke: I promise you baby, Things will be different from now on

Me: Where is philile?

Sonke: I don’t know baby and I don’t care, Mina ngine baby lami and ilokho okubalelukile

Me: NO MORE CHEATING SONKE

Sonke: I promise baby

Me: No more lies

Sonke: No more

Me: What else are you hiding from me

Sonke: Nothing

Me: You swear

Sonke: I swear baby

Me: All I want is honesty and loyalty and no cheating

Sonke: I swear, I will give you all that

Me: Okay

Sonke: I love you too much

he kissed my forehead and plated a love bite on my neck

Sonke: I've been dying to leave my mark right there

I giggled

Me: But we need to abstain for a while until we are back on track
Sonke: Sorry

Me: Yep

Sonke: Never

Me: Baby

Sonke: You have no idea how much i missed you, two months without you almost killed me

Me: You still alive nje

Sonke: Almost baby

Me: Well you can wait a bit longer

Sonke: No baby, futhi You owe me

Me: Don’t get me to start

Sonke: I want you

He got on top of me even before I could say anything and started kissing me, I tried to pull away
but he already had his hands on my neck

Me: No sonke

Sonke: why?

Me: We need time off sex

Sonke: I Miss you

Me: my body is still recovering

Sonke: I will heal it

I laughed out loud

Sonke: Let’s try this

He kissed me passionately this time around and i kissed him back, his shaft was already big
and i could feel it on my tummy every, his romancing took me to heaven that i even forgot i am a
mom but I was scared that it was too early to be having sex

Me: Baby is it not too early?

Sonke: Google said you are healed within 2 weeks

Me: Let’s hold on

Sonke: Baby please, I am dying here

Me: Okay come here

He placed his lips on mine and we kissed until I was drugged by him, He pulled my pants down
with my boy legs, he kissed me more and he pulled away

Me: What’s wrong?

He smiled then took out my t-shirt revealing my boobs, he placed his lips on it and played
around with his tongue, I lost control as sonke took ownership of my body, his hands were so
magical that he went down on my body and he started messaging my honeypot with his fingers
and i was already moaning, he starting breathing heavy as if he is having a panic attack yet it
sounded so sexy as his breathing went with his hands movements, the more i moan the more
he groaned and kissed me, he took off his pj's pants and he entered me, it stinged a bit but he
was slow and gentle, he slowly slid into me and i moaned as he kissed my neck planting more
love bites and i put my arms around his shoulders, he was so gentle that i came after a few
stroke but the more wetter i got the more it felt so good, i wanted more and more of him

Me: I want to get on top

Sonke: You sure

I whispered on his neck

Me: I want to rock you

He giggled

He lifted me up and turned around to sleep on his back while and I sat on top of him and spread
my legs were apart in-between his legs and I entered him while we both moaned i started
moving my bottom forward and backwards and he put his hands on me caught my boobs and
started massaging nipples, then his hands went all the way to my waist and he started helping
me increase my pace and i started screaming his name and he was just moaning and held my
buttock tight and moved me faster, i reached cloud 101 or more as i could not hold myself
anymore, i screamed his name louder as he said my name softer into my ear

Sonke: Lee i love you (Heavy breathing)

I screamed his name as we reached my climax and he collapsed his body back to the pillow and
i collapsed on top of him all sweaty

Me: I love you sonke shange

Sonke: No as much as i love you nkosikazi wami

Those words put a smile on my face, We kissed again until we were running out of breath, we
got under the duvet and cuddled

Sonke: You have no idea how much i missed you

Me: You didn’t seem like it

Sonke: to be honest i did, i have never loved anyone the way i love you and baby i live for you.

Me: Now you are telling me fairytales

Sonke: I know you won’t believe me right now cause we just made up but just know that I love
you

He was quiet

Sonke: Baby I am a mess but i promise i am fixing myself

Me: Please do baby

Sonke: I have the most cutes baby girls ever and i would never allow another man to hurt my
kids, so i need to shape up, my kids needs to know a better man from their father

Me: Nice speech

Sonke: It’s not a speech, i mean it love wami

Me: I love you sonke and i am trying to trust you again

Sonke: I won’t let you down

Me: Don’t do it for me, Do it for you

Sonke: And my kids

I smiled when he mentioned the word kids, our 4 angels

Sonke: am i forgiven?

Me: Of cause you, I can’t keep away from you even if I wanted to

Sonke: Ngyabonga love wami

He gave me a passionate kiss leaving me speechless

Sonke: have you thought of the names?

Me: Not yet since you didn’t like the names you I kept

Sonke: I have

me: and?

Sonke: Anele and Anathi

Me: Nice i love them but I am not sold

Sonke: Okay, Lets be fair here, you name one twin and i will name the other one

Me: I like Ziyanda

Sonke: How about Zamaókuhle

Me: Zama and Ziyanda

Sonke: Yeah, I love them

Me: I love them too

Sonke: I will submit their birth certificates forms on Monday so we will have them on medical aid
and insurance

Me: Okay baby

He held me tight while I admired the names, I loved my family so much and I wanted to
celebrate with the kids, just us as a family

Chapter 31

I woke to sonke waking me up with kisses and he had his hands on my boobs but i felt as if i
was drugs, i p he was all over me and my body allowed him to invade in me, He gave me a wet
kissed then he kissed my boobs, my naïvel and then went all down to his treasure, He buried
his head on my cookie and he started eating me while I moaned, I held on tight to the sheet and
the pillows while he went deeper and deeper, he stopped and he got on top of me and i must
say, he gave me the best morning glory i couldn’t possibly forget, when we were done he went
to the bathroom and took a shower and i checked the time it was 6am,

Me: my babies

I grabbed my gown and ran to their room and they were sleeping peacefully and i checked on
the warmer, there was no bottles left and 4 bottles were empty on the sink

Me: Yoor these fat babies can eat

I checked on the boys and they were sleeping peacefully and i went back to bed, sonke came
back and wore his shorts and t shirts

Me: Baby

Sonke: Mhhh

Me: did you feed Zama and Ziyanda?

He laughed
Zonke: I fucked you so well that you forgot you have kids, when the alarm went off you didn’t
hear it and when they cried at 4.30 you didn’t hear them, i woke up and fed one and woke up
the last one and she ate and went back to sleep, in the morning i changed their nappies and
gave them milk again and they slept, hayi the one in the light pink court is so lazy just like you,
she will be ziyanda futhi

I laughed out loud and I could not control the laugh

Me: She eats a lot mase eyazela

Sonke: Ivila nje

Me: Don’t say that about my baby, Thank you though for their room, feeding them and changing
them and the sex, such a great welcome home

Sonke: You the queen, uyakwazi lokho

I blushed

Sonke: Come here, I want to show you something

I did as he asked and he took me outside and opened the garage and he drove out a Mercedes
ML

Me: What is this?

Sonke: I decided to buy this car since the family is now bigger

Me: Baby, But you just got me car

Sonke: No one said this is yours

I gave his the stare as he laughed

Sonke: its comfortable for kids and will accommodate the boys and twins with their car seat,
You’re G-class is the boss but it is not big enough for us all

Me: Yes you are right

Sonke: We will trade in the 1 series for another car,

Me: Hell no, That was my gift from my brother sonke

Sonke laughed and I knew he is pulling my leg, I walked to him and i hugged him and told him
thank you, he kissed my cheek and then told me he is starving, his breakfast was great but now
he needs real food.

I went to the kitchen and made him an English breakfast and i set the table and he ate while i
took a shower, i wore my skinny jeans with a yeezy tee that showed a color of my bra and i
wore cotton on flops, i woke the boys up to bath and they ate breakfast when they were done
and i bath the girls and i gave them purity as they were forever hungry, they ate it and i gave
them milk after that and i put them into their rocking seat in the living room and i put the cartoon
on and lwandle and lwando sat with them, sonke joined them as i unpacked all the presents and
put them away and set the guest bedroom for when we have other visitors.

Sonke and i agreed he will go and pay damages at his other son's granny in Ulundi and keep
the baby. The girls will have a bigger brother and they are only 7 months apart, he agreed to go
to her the next coming weekend.

His mom came over during the weekend and she bonded with the kids, I joined the gym to tone
up with sonke and my body was almost in shape but he loved me with my imperfections.

King and his wife came to visit the kids on Saturday and we had supper together, on Sunday we
went to church and then we had a family braai then sonke decided to drop of his mom and the
boys back enanda while I stayed home and made supper.

The next morning sonke went back to work and I stayed home with the kids, I decided to work
from home and mamiki was hands on with the girls while I decided to shop for myself.

The week passed by very fast and the girls were just getting fatter and they were eating too
much, Ziyanda was just lazy shame, all she did was be asleep half the time while Zamaókuhle
was so demanding and so in control just like her daddy.

Over the weekend sonke and his uncle with king drove to ulundi to pay for the damages and
when he came back home he told me the granny agreed but he said he will take the child in
January so he will attend crèche and we agreed that lwandle and lwazi will live with us as from
January the following year, the house was going to be small so we planned to look around for a
bigger house and sell this house, my maternity leave was getting shorter and shorter but all i
wanted was to spend more time with my babies. I decided to buy sonke a car so we will get rid
of the VR6, i got him Aston Martin, A red 2 door with a 4 sitter inside for his squad then i
planned a surprise party for him at cubana in Florida and the dress code was black, i made it
clear that no one should tell him since it was a surprise.

I wanted his day to be special so I went all out, I had to use my savings as I could not use his
credit card as he was going to pick up that I am buying cars and hiring venues but my plan was
to have the VR6 sold.

On his birthday eve i took the twins to small Ville since it was Thursday, Noxy was too excited to
keep the girls, i also picked lwandle and lwando up and arranged for his 3rd son Siyabonga to
be dropped off in small Ville, mamiki was happy to have the full house with kids and mathema
was happy to accommodate mamiki, i left small Ville at 11pm so sonke will be at home or
asleep by the time i got home and he won’t notice that the kids are not with me, when i drive
home his golf 7 was parked outside and i walked to the house, he was nowhere to be seen so i
went to our bedroom to check for him and he was there bathing, i quickly ran back to the kitchen
and switched all light off and i put the alarm on and i went to our room acting all so tired, he
came out of the in suit with a towel wrapped around his waist

Me: Hey love

Sonke: Baby benikuphi?

Me: In small Ville

Sonke: I though as much, your phone is off, ngobani?

Me: Battery died and noxy uses Samsung

Sonke: Ukungifonela besekuyicala?

Me: Askisi baby

Sonke: The babies are sleeping?

Me: Yes they are and please don’t disturb them, they are very grump

Sonke: Eish i wanted to see them

Me: In the morning baby, Bayahlupha so i need them asleep nje

Sonke: What do you expect, driving around with the babies at night

Me: Askisi baby

Sonke: Come here let me give you a massage

I sat down and he started massaging my neck and it felt so good

Sonke: You so tense, zishap?

Me: I guess being a mom comes with a lot of work

Sonke: Sorry love

Me: I am fine babe

Sonke: I was thinking

Me: Yes

Sonke: we should get a babysitter, Mamiki won’t be able to manage these kids alone

Me: I haven’t thought about that yazi, i was thinking a crèche once they are 3 months

Sonke: Hayi i don’t know

Me: We will look for the best and it will help mamiki to spend more time to herself
Sonke: I will think about it, it has to be excellent with security

Me: Of Couse, let me shower baby

Sonke: Okay i will set the bed while you shower

i went to the in suit and took a 5 minute shower and i wore my nightie on its own and i went to
bed, sonke was almost half asleep and it doesn’t look like he wants to get down, i laid in bed
wondering if my babies are sleeping

I decided to be naughty, I went to the in suit and I changed my nightie in to a red lingerie, corset
with a thong then I wore my silky black gown over and I went back to the room

Sonke looked at me

Me: What?

Sonke: Why did you change

Me: it’s too hot for a cotton nightie

Sonke: I see

I laid next to him and placed my head on his chest

Sonke: How would you feel if we had to relocate?

Me: Relocate?

Sonke: Yes

Me: Okay where to?

Sonke: Anywhere besides Durban

Me: Wow, i have never really thought of relocating

Sonke: Think about it and let me know

Me: Okay, why though

Sonke: What do you mean?

Me: Why move away from people that love us and our business

Sonke: Change is good lee and I could use starting my life afresh

Me: I see

He held me tight and his heart was beating so fast, i tried sleeping but i sensed something
wrong with him and i knew if i asked he will say nothing, i eventually drifted to my sleep, in his
arms

In the morning I woke up while he was in bed and I got a chair and I put Ciara’s Promise, He
woke up due to the noise level and he saw my face

Sonke: Lee zishap

I leaned over and I kissed him, I took out my gown and threw it aside revealing my corset and
thong

Sonke: Baby

Me: Shuuu

I started dancing for the song and moving my body in a sexy way, I started stripping for him
while sexing myself then I went to him and removed the duvet

The big man was already waving at me

I pulled him up and set him on the chair and I started dirty dancing on him and I knew he wanted
me so badly, while I was dancing the grind it on him he pulled me to him and he gave me a kiss,
he carried me to the bed and he removed his clothes and carried me back to the chair, he sat
on it and I sat on top of him facing him, I was wet already, I entered him and hey …..I gave him
the best freakiest ride until he we climaxed together then whispered in his ear

Me: Happy birthday

Sonke: You remembers?

Me: Yes, I had to remind myself this year

Sonke: Ngyazibongela babe

I kissed him then I got up

Me: Excuse me

I went to the kitchen and made breakfast butt naked and then took the breakfast to bedroom
and he was in awe, we had breakfast in bed and then i gave him what he loves in the morning,
a super-hot blow then we both took a shower and i took out his outfit that he needs to wear
which was his black replaySA and a black v neck boss t-shirt shorts and white sneakers and i
decided to wear my black skinny jeans, black see through chiffon top and a black heel, i wore
my silver hoop earring and put my braids into a pony, he had fade in his hair that made him look
so fucken hot, i stared at him in the mirror until he stopped and looked at me

Sonke: Yini Lee? You have been staring at me since we came back from showering

me: I just realized how much i love you

Sonke: I love you too my baby

I smiled and fixed my make up

Sonke: Siyaphi?

Me: I am taking you out

Sonke: The kids?

Me: Noxy picked them up?

Sonke: When?

Me: early this morning when you were fast asleep

Sonke: Cha umuntu useyalalaka, i didn’t even hear noxy buzz in

Me: Good sex has that side effect

He laughed at my comment

Sonke: And you know how to take care of King Sonke

I smiled as I loved hearing that

Sonke: Bazobuya nini?

Me: Later on

Sonke: I miss them already

Me: relax, they are in good hands

We got ready and i drove his golf and he sat on the passenger seat entertaining his phone, i
drove to Entuzuma to a place called fashion cafe, he was shocked at the fact that i took him
there and it was still a bit quiet as it was still early, we had their special and i had wine with it, he
ordered a beer and we ate and his phone kept ringing with people calling him and wishing him
happy birthday, once we were done eating his friends invited us Mzizi Kwamashu and we drove
to mzizi and we chilled there for about 2 hours then we went home and we chilled together. I
text sithemiso

Me {Please come to pick sonke up, We need to have the show on the go}

Sithembiso {Sho Thang Mam, I am on my way}

I went to our bedroom and took out sonke’s Black diesel jeans and a White Diesel sneaker and
a White Hugo Boss Golfer then I went back to the lounge

Sonke: babe, Sithembiso wants us to go to a place in umhlanga

Me: Okay
Sonke: Well, its boys only

Me: Oh

Sonke: So I was wondering if I can go

Me: You leaving me?

Sonke: It is just for a few hours

Me: Oh

Sonke: I can cancel if you want

Me: Okay but you will have to change, You can’t go in those

Sonke: Its chilled vele baby

Me: Then ngiyanqaba if you going to leave dressed like a child

He laughed out loud

Sonke: Child? You got me these clothes

I laughed

Me: I took out clothes that we were going to use tomorrow for movies so you can use those

Sonke: Movies?

Me: Yes

Sonke: Surprise?

Me: Yes but not anymore since I am telling you, don’t be out too late

Sonke: Okay babe, Thank you

He walked up to the bedroom while I sat anxiously as I wanted him to leave so I will get ready,
within 20 minute he was all fresh and damn he looked hot in black

Sonke: ngazengababa

I looked at him

Me: Durban’s finest

He laughed at my comment, then his phone gave in a notification, he looked at his phone

Sonke: Baby Sithe Is here

Me: Akangeni?
Sonke: No but I will follow him with my car, angifuni ukumuhlupha mase kufanele ngigoduke

Me: Okay kiss me before you go

I came over kissed me and he left, as soon as the car started I ran to the bathroom and took a
shower, I got out and applied my make-up then I wore a sexy thigh length dress with pull ups
stilettos and i took my black clutch and used the ML and drove to Florida,

I called everyone on my way to make sure we are set as the time was not on our side.

When I got there everyone was there, The kitchen was already preparing the orders and the bar
was all set for the people

The DJ Was already playing deep house while people were walking in, we all waited for sthe to
come through with sonke within a few minutes he did, the moment sonke walked in everyone
said surprise and he just stood at the entrance and looked around and he found my eyes and he
walked in and everyone ran to shake his hand and hung him until he got to where i was
standing and he hugged me

Sonke: I knew you were up to something, just not sure what it was

I kissed him and looked at him in his eyes

Me: I love you boo

Sonke: Nami ngiyakuthanda Makhumalo

We kissed a passionate kiss this time around and we broke it when the dj played “trey song say
Aah track” he looked at me and we cracked with laughter and people started to dance while
sonke could not keep his eyes off me

Sonke: You look to damn fine

Me: Thank you

Sonke: Just that the dress is too short

Me: Hawu babe

Sonke: But it’s my birthday, let this be the last time you wear something like this

Me: Okay

He Kissed me on my cheek and went to the dance floor

I sat and ate the snacks chilling with noxy and max, we took pictures while discussing how
people were dancing and laughing at them.

We were disrupted by a ball handsome guy, All out jaws dropped at how hot the nigger was
Guy: Hi ladies

We all looked at each other

Max: hey honey

Noxy and Me: Hello

Guy: Ninjani

Noxy: Siphilile akufani

Guy: You ladies look fine tonight

Me: Thank you

Guy: My name is ray

Noxy: I am noxy, max and lee

Max: It’s a pleasure meeting you

He laughed and his laughing was a sexy soothing laugh, His accent was just out of this world

Ray: Nice to meet you guys

Noxy Smiled and blushed

Ray: I am sorry to disturb but I am here to see this lovely lady

His eyes were fixed on me, noxy and max looked at me

Me: Me?

Ray: Yes, i saw you getting off from your Mercedes and watched you walk all the way to here
and I just had to be here to introduce myself

My heart skipped a beat and I got cold feet immediately, It has been a while since a hot guy as
ray hit on me but the timing was just wrong, I had to stop him before sonke even realizes
someone is eyeing me

Me: Oh Okay Thank you

Ray: May i get to know you better?

Me: better?

Ray: Yes take you out for lunch if that is possible

Max: She's married, that rock on her finger says it all buddy

He gave us a sarcastic smile

Ray: Thank you for the FYI but i just wanted to get to know her friendship wise not as a fucking
mate

That was too hot that max had no come back

Max: Ooow....I see

Max rolled his eyes and noxy looked at me

Noxy: Lee?

Me: Sorry unfortunatly I cannot

Ray: Reason being

Noxy: She is married

Ray: I am sure you are allowed to have friends in your marriage?

Me: Yes but my husband won’t be happy with this

Ray: I see, No problem then Mrs….?

He looked at me

Me: Shange

Ray: Shange, It was nice meeting you once again

Me: It was nice meeting you too

Ray: Hoping i will see you again

Max: Bye Bye

Ray: Goodbye ladies

He walked away to the bar then after a few minute he looked at my direction and blew a kiss, i
turned around and looked at max and noxy then i started blushing, i looked around for sonke to
see if he did not see that moment but he was sitting with king sipping on whiskey, The DJ
played DJ Coffee dance again, max pulled me to the dance floor and we started dancing but the
DJ Kept the music coming as he played Dj Tira with oskido and professor umsindo and we
danced nonstop and he played noxy's favorite artist babes wodum umnganami track and the 3
of us went out of control, i turned and sonke was staring at me and i decided to walk to him all
sweaty and losing my breath as I wanted to find out if he was okay

Me: baby let’s dance

Sonke: I would if every guy on the floor stopped staring at you

Me: Hawu baby

Sonke: For real

Me: Baby these are your friends and colleagues, they don’t see me that way

Sonke: I am a man and i know how their minds operate, please be a proper wife and sit your
ass down

King: Sonke

Sonke: I am not talking to you king, your wife is using jeans and dancing and my wife is using a
skimpy dress and dancing. Which outfit is proper here?

King was quiet

Sonke: I though as much, this dress is just not on

I decided to go to my car as i was to mad and i didn’t want to cry in front of people, i walked to
my car and i sat inside and i cried, Sonke just ruined my night and speaking to me in the
manner he did with his friend around nxa, all i wanted to do was to make sure that sonke enjoys
himself and he has fun, my dress is not that short and it’s a skater type of a dress not even
hugging my body, i wiped my tears and re applied powder and lip stick and i went to my
facebook page and uploaded a pick of me and sonke at cubana that noxy took of us and sent it
via WhatsApp to me. i wrote

***happy birthday sithandwa Sami, my hubby, my friend and ubaba wezingane zethu, God know
i am blessed with you***

Then i logged out and i went to WhatsApp and changed my DP to the same picture.

I went into our squad group chat and Sean told me he is on his way with goodies, i told them i
am in my car and they said they will meet me inside as they are too thirsty to be looking around
for my car when they get here and I replied with an okay.

I looked in to my mirror and tried to gather myself together but I was disturbed by someone
knocked on my window and when i looked up it was that Ray guy, i put the window down and
gave him a fake smile

Ray: We meet again?

Me: No you came to me again

Ray: Same difference

me: Okay, how can i help you this time around?

Ray: I saw you sitting here alone and i wanted to make sure that you were okay

Me: I am fine, i just came to powder my nose

Ray: I see
He pulled out his wallet and gave me his business card

Ray: Whenever you need to talk, i will be listening

I took it and it had Sokhulu Attorney’s and his name was Raymond Sokhulu with his landline
number, cellphone number and email address

Me: Thank you

Ray: let me not keep you, take care and have blissful night

Me: Thank you

Ray: be safe

Me: I will

He walked away and i put the card into my clutch bag

Sean sent a message on the group saying the are here, i decided to go inside but before i could
get out of the car sonke knocked on the passenger seat window and i opened the window

Sonke: Open the door

I opened the door and he sat on the seat, his eyes was red and he looked pissed and annoyed

Sonke: What are you doing here

Me: I needed some air?

Sonke: In the car?

Me: Yes

Sonke: Still need more air?

Me: I was about to come back inside

Sonke: And who was that guy?

Me: Which guys?

Sonke: Don’t

I kept quiet

Sonke: Just don’t piss me off

me: Ooh That guy

Sonke: Yes that guy

Me: He came to see if i was okay cause he saw me crying

He gave me a sarcastic laugh

Sonke: you think i am stupid?

I looked away

Me: Angazike ukuthi ufuna ngithini

He got off the car slammed the door and walked away i got off the car, locked it and went inside,
Sean and goodies saw me and we hugged each other and we had cocktails, i borrowed Sean’s
denim cardigan as it was long to my knee length and i used for sonke to stop bitching about my
dress, we took photos and they upload it on insta and Facebook, we got wasted and all i had
was red square and shooters, sisanda and her friend had Jameson and i tried my best to avoid
sonke and he did the same as he was mad, around 1 am he came to me and told me we need
to drive home, he said he will follow me with his car, i said goodbye to his friends and my friends
as the night was still young for them and went to my car and drove to lalucia and sonke was
following me with his golf, i got home and i did not park in the garage as his gift was there, i
parked outside the garage and he parked next me to, i got off and he opened the house door,
unlocked the alarm and i walked inside the house but my tummy knotted up and I felt a huge
lumb on my throat the I ran to the bathroom to throw up, I went to our bedroom and sonke was
in the bathroom, i waited for him to be done cause i didn’t want to look at him or bump into him, i
felt like i was cheating on him even though i didn’t do anything

Once he came out i quickly got off the couch and went to the bathroom and i brushed my teeth
and i took a shower then i went to the bedroom and sonke was busy on my phone, i wore my
nighties, went to switch the alarm on and i got into bed, sonke didn’t pay attention to be as he
was so busy on my phone

Me: What are you looking for?

Sonke: I am looking at tonight’s pictures

Me: Okay

I laid next to him and I switched my side lamb off, He stayed on my phone for a while and I
knew that his insecurities are creeping in, I was shaking as I didn’t know what he was looking
for, after a while he put the phone away and then laid next to me

Sonke: I know it’s no longer my birthday since it’s a new day but i would appreciate a goodnight
kiss

Me: Sorry

I turned around and i kissed him but he didn’t kiss me back so i stopped kissing him and looked
down and turned my head and body away from him

Sonke: Lethu uright?

Me: Yeah i am

Sonke: Why can’t you look at me

Me: When i stare your freak out and when i don’t stare you freak out

Sonke: You just being weird

I Turned around and got on top of him i kissed him, he kissed me back and we kissed until he
lifted my nightie up and pulled his shorts down and entered me, we had a quickie just for control
and when we were done i slept in his chest with his arm around me, we woke up around 9am
the next day,

It was that time I give him an over 1 million car

Me: Baby

Sonke: No lee, I am still sleeping

Me: Please baby

He opened his 1 eye

Sonke: What is wrong?

Me: I am pregnant

Sonke: What?

He opened both his eyes and lifted his upper body and sat up straight

Me: Now that I got your attention, I have something for you

Sonke: So you not pregnant?

Me: No

He let out a breath

Me: So you don’t want me to have other kids?

Sonke: I do, but no so soon hawu

I laughed out loud and I took his hand

Me: Please follow me

We walked to the garage and I opened the garage and the Aston martin was there

Me: Happy belated birthday sithandwa sami

Sonke: baby
Me: Yes

Sonke: Assssssssston M

Me: Yes

Sonke: Baby

Me: It’s your baby

Sonke: Where….

He kissed me all over my face and went to the car, i threw the keys to him and he opened the
car and checked it out inside

Sonke: leather interior

Me: Just the way you like it

He walked up to me, picked me up and put me against the car

Sonke: You are the best baby

Me: Ngiyabonga

Sonke: Thank you baby lami, no one has ever done this for me

Me: You have done it for me so I am just returning the favor

Sonke: I don’t deserved this… after everything i have put you through

Me: And I am just spoiling my husband

Sonke: Baby, ngiyabonga

Me: Anything for you

We kissed and kissed until i broke it off and told him we need to shower, he locked the car and
we showered together and king called sonke and invited us to kwahlabisa kwamashu for braai
meat and drinks, i was a bit hung so i took the opportunity, i wore high waist blue jeans and
tucked in my white vest and wore a long denim shirt over it with my white all-star, he wore
denim shorts and a white t -shirt and his low cut white all-star and we drove in his new Aston
martin, the driver was very short as he was racing on the road and i put my phone and played
Aston martin rick ross and drake, he was rapping for me while i sang the chorus, we got to
kawamshu and his car was turning heads, we parked it not far from kings car and we walked to
the guys who were sitting in the park with their camp chairs, they all greeted us and i went to sit
with kings wife who was wearing tight shorts and vest, they told us the meat is ready and we
ate, i decided to sip on red square and sonke had Hennessey, we all discussed what happened
yesterday and how the birthday was and he told everyone i got him a Aston martin, they all went
to the car and saw it and took pictures, sonke also took selfies of me and him, around 4pm we
decided to leave to small Ville, we spent an hour and then we left to drop the boys off at sonke's
home but sonke's mom cooked supper so we had to stay for 2 hours, she also had a braai,
sisanda was hung over but she had to try and pull it off. i also had to act okay and sonke's mom
was just too happy, she took out a cake she made for sonke and we sang for him and we left
around 9.30pm, we got home and we tucked in the girls and siyabonga, mamiki went to sleep,
we sat in the living room drinking more Hennessey and smoking weed and we danced together,
he checked on the girls and siya and we roasted more meat and we ate and we fell asleep on
the couch

We woke to mamiki waking us up and sonke went to sleep in the bedroom while I went to take a
shower, I was done by 8am and I made breakfast, sonke was too tired that I let him be, I told
mamiki I am going to the gateway mall to get a few things for the kids and she must tell sonke
when he is awake.

I took my ML and drove to gateway, when I got there I went to game and got him a court, High
chair, Mini sofa, bath tub, Bottle and baby food for him, I got him clothes from earth child and
woolies, i went to babies r us to get nappies and toiletries. i drove to the crescent and i got
grocery for the house since it was December i got mamiki and mathema 3k each a gift voucher
for xmas and i drove back home, when I got home mamiki told me sonke stepped out and said
he will be back later on so i unpacked everything and reset the bedroom, i made food for
siyabonga and fed him and gave the girls purity and gave them a nap, siyabonga had a problem
sleeping so i made an appointment for him with a pediatrician, i gave mathema her gift since
she was leaving on that coming Friday, she was happy with it and i went online and paid her
salary which was triple then what she earns as she has been working hard and we had to thank
her and she needed to spoil herself.

Sonke walked in around 4pm and he told me he went to see king as they have a meeting the
next day, i made super and he took a nap, around 7.30 i bath the kids and they had super and i
put them on their rockers and they sat in front of the TV while sonke and i had super.

Sonke: You were shopping a lot today with my bank card

Me: Yes, siyabonga needed a lot of clothes, car seat, pram, court, clothes, toiletries and food

Sonke: Oh i didn’t notice, i though you put him on lwandles bed last night cause you didn’t want
him to disturb the girls

Me: His my son now sonke, i won’t make him feel like his not a part of this family

Siyabonga started crying and i woke up to attend to him, he was crabby and i put him on my
chest and i started to rock him, he was so sleepy he could not keep his eyes open, he fell
asleep after a few minute and i put him on his court and tucked him in, i went back to the table
and finished my food i cleaned the table and washed the dishes while sonke took a bath, he
stayed with the girls and tucked them in while i was showering and when i was done i went to
the check on them and they were asleep and he came back and we cuddled in bed

Me: I think its time to let go of the VR6

Sonke: Why note the G-class

Me: No, that’s my car baby, i don’t want to lose my car

Sonke: 1 Series?

Me: That was a gift from my brother

Sonke: Never

Me: Nami ngiyanqaba nge G-Class and 1 series

Sonke: Okay i will VW kusasa

Me: Okay

He was quiet

Me: I will pick up lwandle and lwando tomorrow for xmas

Sonke: Okay

Me: I was thinking we book at a hotel for my brother’s wedding cause we all not going to fit at
our home

Sonke: I have a house in JHB

Me: Where?

Sonke: PTA Meyers park

Me: and you forgot to tell me

Sonke: You never asked

Me: Okay an who lives there

Sonke: A house keeper

Me: Okay, tell them we are coming up then

Sonke: I will and i will have grocery done

Me: Are we going to drive up or fly up

Sonke: We have a private jet

Me: oooh Since?

Sonke: I have been a drug lord

Me: Where is it pho?

Sonke: I rent it out a Virginia airport

Me: Okay, what else do i need to know

Sonke: Ukuthi ngifuna ukgmithisa futhi

Me: Oh hell no

He got on top of me and undressed me and we had it, we fell asleep and when i woke up sonke
had left and it was 9am, i went to check on the kids and they were fast asleep, the 3 bottles
were empty and that means he fed them before they slept and he even changed their nappies, i
took a shower then had breakfast and i called sonke's mom to tell her i will be picking up the
boys and she was fine with that

Around 9am I took siyabonga to our pediatrician Dr Howard and she examined him and i was
told he was fine, very strong and healthy and that he will soon get used to the environment,
once we were done we drove home and at 11am i took the 2 in 1 jeep pram and a baby carrier
and i put it in the back seat, i took a back pack and packed the kiddies purity and blankets and
made their bottles, i woke up 1 at the time bath them and fed them and put them in their car
seats on my G-class, i put siyabonga in the front and i drove to inanda, the boys were ready
when i got there and they sat in the back seat playing with the girls and we drove to gateway i
put the girls on their pram and i put siyabonga on a carrier in the front, he was touching my face
and speaking baby language with me, i was speaking with him too and he was talking back in a
language i didn’t know, we went to earth child and they chose what they want for Christmas, i
took them to spur and they ate and went to play at the game section while i sat and fed
siyabong and the girls and after an hour we drove home and sonke was home, as soon as i
parked he came out and congratulated me for carrying his squad home and helped me with
carrying them to their courts and lwandle and lwando were showing him their clothes and he
asked for his and they all looked at me and i laughed and I left them at it.

I prepared something to eat for sonke, he told me he had to leave mamiki at the Durban station
as she decided to leave early and he left with her after having food, i unpacked the kids clothes
and relaxed after wards while they were playing games, i left the kids on their rocker and
siyabonga on the baby walker and they kept an eye on them i packed clothes for the trip to jhb
and i packed the boys toiletries and the babies then i packed mines and left them in the guest
room, sonke came back after a while and we bonded and took selfies with the kids, i told them i
was a super mom today as i went to spur, we decided to Google for great crèche and we sent
emails to a few preschools, later on he helped me with tucking in the boys while i tucked in the
babies and we went to sleep

In the morning he went to work and came back around 4 and we left to the Virginia airport

I could believe that sonke owned a private jet, I still could not believe that all the money he has
is due to him selling drugs, I wondered how he did it as he is always focusing on business.

Right before we could get to the airport we saw a double story house for sale and it was open
for viewing, we buzzed and the owners were there, we left the kids in the car with the windows
open as it was safe in the yard and we viewed the house, It was so beautiful, it has a british
vintage style and I loved it, it was big enough for the entire family and the outside building was
great and bigger then out lalucia house, sonke said he will sms his lawyer to contact the owners
and they will communicate from thereafter then we left.

We got into in to the airport and we got in to the jet that looked like a mini house, very posh and
classy and I felt like i was sitting on my own living room, the flight was for about 45 minute then
we got off the lanseria airport and we got into a H1 hired car and drove to Meyers park, the drive
was not so long and we reached into a double story house, sonke buzzed in and we were
allowed in, a helper came out and helped us out the car and the luggage, sonke and i carried
the babies while sonke and lwandle followed, sonke showed lwandle and lwando to their room
and he showed me our room and he took me to a room where the babies will be sleeping, it was
like home and he made sure that everything was on point and the nursery was just beautiful.

He got a call from his lawyer and he excused himself.

I walked around the house admiring it, it was not as great as our house but we can survive for 2
weeks here, sonke came back while I was skipping the channels on the TV

He kissed my forehead and then he sat next to me

Sonke: Come let me cuddle you

I turned around and placed my head on his chest and we cuddled

Sonke: By the time we fly back to Durban the house will be ours

Me: Really

Sonke: Yes

Me: Thank you baby for all that you do for us

Sonke: It’s my duty to make sure my family is well taken care off

I turned around and kissed him

The helper helped me with supper and we settled in pretty well.

We spent charismas with my brother and his wife to be and rest of the week sonke and i were
just bonding and uploading pics on FB and insta, it felt like we were in our own holiday, the girls
were happy and sonke grew a bond with siyabonga, lwandle and lwazi adored siyabonga and
we made love every chance we got and if i didn’t know better i would say sonke was trying to
get me pregnant again but unfortunately the prevention injection was helping me in these cases.

The wedding day came and lwandle and lwando were flower boys and i was the maid of honor,
which meant that the girls and siyabonga will be stuck with sonke and he didn’t seem to
complain, he was unhappy with my dress as it revealed my cleavage and i had to promise him i
will change when we done at church, the wedding was very exquisite and sibahle's mom was
carrying siyabonga and the girls were in their pram, we did the Gauteng walk in at church and
we were done and went to mamelodi where the reception took place, I decided to sit with my
husband and kids at the reception and sonke was so in love with me and he kept kissing my
forehead and people looked at us in a snaak way, sonke and i decided to leave the reception
early as it was new year’s eve and we had guest that will come over for new year’s eve.

We got in the house around 6pm and sonke's mom sent a text saying they are on their way from
the airport, the kids were super exhausted so we had to carry them into their rooms, we went to
take a shower together and one thing led to another and then we dressed with sweat pants and
t-shirt as it was humid in JHB, sonke took the meat out and marinated it while i made pap and
chakalaka, his mom, CC and sisanda came with the uber, sonke showed them to their room
and they settled in, after a while sonke's mom came down admiring the house and she helped
with the salad and we cleared the kitchen waiting for our guest, she had a glass of wine which
was my first time to see her drink and I just knew she was not okay

I sat with her

Me: Ma, Are you okay?

Mrs. Shange: Lee, Yazi CC is pregnant

me: Oh no ma, how old is she kombe? 16

Mrs. Shange: She is doing her matric next year futhi

Me: Hawu ma, ukugilani u cc

Mrs. Shange: How am i going to tell sonke when he is spending so much of money on her, she
goes to the best high school in Durban and lapho uzomitha a year before she completes her
matric

Me: Eish I am sorry ma

Mrs. Shange: Sonke will be mad

Me: Who is the father?

Mrs. Shange: Omunye uskhotheni wase maoti

me: Have you met him

Mrs. Shange: No sisanda told me

me: Does he even work?

Mrs. Shange: Apparently his doing his 1st year in Ukzn

Me: Mmmm Sonke uzohlanya

Mrs. Shange: Tell me about it

Me: We will see ukuthi zomutshela kanjani but not tonight

Mrs. Shange: Okay sithandwa sami

We sat in the kitchen drinking wine and sonke walked in the kitchen with banzi carrying his son
and he was sleeping, i greeted and i took the baby upstairs to sleep in the spare room, bantu
and sibahle walked in with noxy, sibahle's parents and sibahle's brother, i took the babies to the
play room and they played and we settled in, around 8pm sonke and i went to feed the babies
and we bath them and they slept, lwando and lwandle ate and went to sleep and so did the rest
of the kids visiting, we said grace, ate and then we sat in the pool area and we danced and we
spoke about my wedding being exactly this time last year

Sonke: Family, can I get your attention

They said said YES>>>SONKE

Sonke: Thank you

He walked over to me and kneeled where I was sitting

Sonke: Baby, this day last year you made me the happiest man alive and you still make sure
you keep me happy despite the fights and arguments we have. I want to tell you that I love you
and just know that ngiphilela wena nezingane zami

I cried and stood up and pulled him up and I hugged him

we did the new year’s eve count down then we spent more time together and we all went to
sleep, sonke and I cuddled in bed like it was our last night together, I don’t even know when I
felt asleep but when I woke up I was in his arms while he held on to me tight.

I had to wake up early in the morning and clean the house, sonke helped me, we prepared a full
greasy breakfast and we set the table. Before I knew it we were all downstairs having breakfast
and the kids were having their breakfast in the garden, people had to leave as it was a holiday,
sonke's mom flight was at 1pm and we drove them to lanseria airport and came back home and
we cleaned the house and then settled down, sonke took a drive and came back after an hour
then we spent the day in each other’s arms, we planned to fly back home at end of that week.

We decided to take the kids out to during the week and I also went to visit Kate and she was
doing well, better that the last time I saw her. The week flew by pretty fast and before I knew it
we were flying back to Durban.

When we landed in Durban we went straight home and unpacked, ate and we slept that whole
evening with the kids in our bed.

Mamiki came back on Monday and we had to find a school for the boys in the nearby area and
the babies’ crèche to attend, we planned to move before the end of the 2nd week in January to
our new house, Sonke and I decided to rent both the lalucia house and Sunning dale house as
a holiday house.

Sonke agreed that he will sell the VR6 and he will keep his Golf and Aston Martin, I told him I
will keep and G-Class and my 1 series, we agreed that we will use the ML as a family car.

Sonke got his mom a Toyota Fortuner and she was happy as ever and that made me really
happy as she worked hard for sonke to be where he is now and she deserved to be spoiled too.

On the 2nd week of January we moved the our house in Virginia, all we had to do was pack our
clothes and food and went there, Sonke arranged for the packers to clean the house and have it
ready for us.

We decided to leave the ground floor bedroom for guest, upstairs we had 4 bedroom which all
consisted of an in suite, the babies had a big nursery opposite our bedroom while Lwandle and
lwazi had their bedroom next to the kids, we used bedroom for guest.

The play room was right next to a bathroom and then our bedroom

we had an open plan kitchen with the dining room and a huge lounge, we had the gym next to
the study.

We had 4 Guest bedroom which had in suites.

The house was simple and perfect, mamiki loved her 2 bedroom outside building, and the pool
was huge and had a Jacuzzi section with a huge garden where my boys will play soccer while
the girls played tennis.

Chapter 32

The new house was on point and the kids loved it, we decided to rent out our old houses in La
Lucia and sunning dale as holidays home and Cindy was doing a good job at it, we found a
Pre-school in Durban north for the twin and the babies, we decided to keep all of them in 1
school and sonke got a chuffer for them and a battler, The Chuffer used the dodge and we
planned to have them kept on a aftercare until 5pm as we work most of the time and we are
home by 4.30 in most days.

Mamiki agreed she will prepare supper for the kids so they will eat by 6pm and be in bed by
6.30.

Every weekend the kids will go over Enanda, Sonke and I suggested that we extend his mom’s
house so there will be enough rooms for Zama, Ziyanda and Siyabonga.

The next day he made arrangement for the house to be cleared as the building will start the next
day, we agreed that his family will stay at the sunning dale house until the revamp is done and
that will be in the next hour.
I worked from home while sonke was in the office, we spent half the day in our mini park while I
worked and mamiki looked after the kids. In the afternoon I made supper which was roasted
lamb, pap and side veggies while mamiki bath the kids.

the boys were now bathing themselves at night which was good form me since I had half of a
soccer squad, siyabonga was more in love with his brothers and he looked like sonke more than
anything, from the built to the complexion and to his features, you could tell that there was no
way sonke was going to deny this child.

After dinner we tucked the kids in and we took a bath and locked the houses and cuddled in
bed, sonke was tired, I could tell with the way he was yawning.

Me: Tired

Sonke: Very

Me: Lala baby

Sonke: After we done talking

Me: Mhhh

Sonke: Please don’t trip

Me: I am listening

Sonke: baby

Me: Yes

Sonke: My family is coming over tomorrow, the revamping of the house is starting tomorrow

Me: Sunning dale?

Sonke: It is booked the whole month

Me: Oh okay, why didn’t you tell me

Sonke: I did

Me: Not about them staying here

Sonke: I didn’t think you would mind

Me: No i don’t but i would have loved for you to run the idea past me

Sonke: Sorry sithandwa sami

I was annoyed nje

My phone rang and when i looked at the screen it did not pick up the number and Tru-caller was
still searching so i just answered

Me: Hello

Male Voice: Hi

Me: This is

Male Voice: Ray

Me: Ray who?

Male Voice: Ray Sokhulu, I met you at cubana last month

me: Oh, where did you get my number?

Ray: From one of your friend

Me: Who

Ray: Sorry I cannot reveal that

I took a deep breath in and out

me: Okay how can i help you?

Ray: I was just checking if ungene kahle onyakeni omusha

Me: I did Thank you

Ray: I am happy to hear that, Goodnight

Me: Thank you

I hung up and I was quiet, my heart rate increased and I kew sonke was about to ask me who
was that

Sonke: Uba loyo

Me: Sibahle's brother

Sonke: Ufunani ebusuku kanje?

Me: He wanted to know if sahamba kahle yini

Sonke: mmm

Me: Baby his family

Sonke: Uhlobene noshange yini

Me: Baby
Sonke: Iyajwayelake lengane

Me: His harmless

Sonke: His name is ray

Me: Nick name

Sonke: What a fucked up nick name

We laughed and i switched the side lamp and i moved closer to him and i held him tight, My
heart rate was not normal but I had to let this whole call thing go, I could not wake up and swear
my friends in the group for linking my number to that guy

Sonke woke me up in the morning asking me to prepare 3 rooms for his family and i did, they
arrived around lunch time, mamiki made lunch for them and we chilled in the garden and they
went to settle on their rooms, i made supper and sonke came home early and we had supper.
While we were having supper sisanda ran to the bathroom to throw up and sonke looked at his
mom, she pretended like she did not see anything while my stomach turned too.

Shit was about to get down.

cc came back and started playing with her food, sonke kept his eyes glued on her while I tried to
break the ice

Me: I am going back to work soon

Mrs. Shange: Spend as much time as you can with the kids

Me: I am planning to

Sonke: Cc uright?

CC: I think i am getting the flue

Me: That’s not good

Sonke: When have you been feeling like this

CC: Izolo

Mrs. Shange: I gave her alamu so i think ilona elenza abuyise

Sonke: Kufanle ubona udokotela kusasa

CC; I will

Me: Why don’t you go rest, I will make a smoothie for you

CC: Ngiyabonga sisi

She decided to take her food to the kitchen and she went to her room

Me: I knew she wasn’t herself today cause she hardly ate, i will give her corenza, she will be
okay ekuseni

Sonke: Lee, tomorrow muphelezele to the doc

Me: Me?

Sonke: Yes babe, you

He stopped eating and looked at me

Me: I am busy tomorrow sonke

Sonke: with

me: Staff

Sonke: Like?

Me: Why can’t your mom take her?

Mrs. Shange: Mudala lomuntu, uyamazi udokotela ukuthi ukuphi

Sonke: I want someone to go with her

Me: Sisanda

Sisanda: I am meeting ubaba wezingane kusasa to buy school uniforms

Sonke: Ma

Mrs. Shange: Ma wani, i am busy kusasa

Sonke: Vele kwenzekalani layindlini

Me: I…

My phone rang from the kitchen counter and i woke up to go and answer it and it was this ray
guys, i cut the call and went back to sit at the table

Sonke: Ubani?

Me: The call ended before i could answer

Sonke: I didn’t ask you that

I ignored him

Sonke: Lethu
Me: yeah

Sonke: Who was calling?

Me: Why ask me that

Sonke: Why be secretive about it

Me: It was bantu calling me sonke

Sonke: Call him back then

Me: I will after I am done eating

I gave sonke a dead stare before putting the food on my mouth

Sonke: Who is taking Cc to the doc tomorrow?

We all kept quiet

Sonke: Hebana

Sonke looked at me and I stared back with defense

Sonke: Okay, lee you are taking cc to the doc kusasa

Me: Why…

Sonke: I was not asking you

I stopped eating and I took my plate to the kitchen, threw the rest of the food in the bin and
washed my plate. I walked to the bedroom and tucked the kids in.

I checked on the babies and they were fast asleep.

I went to the lounge

Me: Nilale kahle ma

Mrs. Shange: Usuyalala my baby

Me: Yes ma, I am tired ma

Mrs. Shange: Okay my love, ulale kahle

Me: Thank you ma

Sisanda: Goodnight sweet heart

Me: Good night sisi

My phone rang again and sonke passed it to me and it had a private number, i cut the call
Sonke: Why are you not answering?

Me: Private number? Ebusuku?

I walked to my bedroom with my phone and I took a shower, wore my PJ and I laid on my bed.

I was upset at the fact that sonke is forcing me to take his sister to the doc and I will be forced to
be the one to break her pregnancy news and this ray guy keeps calling me on the other hand.

I went to my call log and deleted received calls before sonke gets all suspicious.

Sonke walked in and looked at me, He took of his tie and went to the in suit, he came back after
20 minute, and he switched the lights off and laid next to me.

He seemed much more pissed then I was but I really didn’t give a fuck, we laid in bed in silence
until I drifted off to lala land.

When I woke up in the morning sonke was sleeping next to me, I woke up and prepared the suit
he was going to use today, I woke him up and asked him to get ready for work.

I walked to out to prepare breakfast then I set the table.

I walked back to the bedroom to take a bath but sonke was still showering, I did the bed and
tidied the bedroom, I took out a max black dress I planned to use today with my black rage
sandals.

Sonke came out of the shower and just looked at me, I walked past him and took a quick
shower then I went to the bedroom and dressed up while he was also dressing up, he left me
while I was blow drying my hair then I applied my make-up.

I went to the dining room and Cc was having breakfast with sonke’s mom and sonke, I joined
them and I ate breakfast in silence. It was so awkward and obvious the sonke and I were mad at
each other

Sonke: Cc, Lee is going to go with you to the doc

Cc: Okay Bhuti

Sonke: What time lee?

Me: In the next hour or so

Sonke: Please get ready after breakfast cc

Cc: Okay bhuti

Cc ate her breakfast and went to her room to get ready, Sonke left for work without saying
anything to me, His mom went to check on the kids while I cleared the table tidied the kitchen
then I waited for cc.
We went to a GP at durdoc and and he confirmed that she was 16 weeks pregnant, when we
were done we went to the pharmacy and we got something for her vomiting and vitamin meds,
when we got home i made toast with black tea and she ate it and it helped her keeping her from
vomiting

Cc: Sisi Lthu

Me: Yes my love

Cc: Are you going to tell sonke?

Me: It is not my place too

She looked away

Me: He will ask me and I will tell him it was just a bug

Cc: Thank you

Me: You won’t be able to hide it forever angithi uyazi?

Cc: Yes

My phone rang and it was that ray guy calling me again

I excused myself and went to my bedroom

Me: What do you want

Ray: Hello princess

Me: Please stop calling me

Ray: May i meet with you just for lunch

Me: I told you I am married

Ray: It is just lunch princess

Me: I don’t want to

Ray: Then i won’t stop calling you

Me: I am blocking this number

Ray: I have many numbers

Me: Please stop this

Ray: Please have lunch with me

Me: I told you I can’t

Ray: It is just lunch

Me: My husband won’t approve

Ray: he won’t have to know

Me: I can’t lie to him

Ray: You won’t be lying, you will be meeting up with a potential friend

Me: Fine

Ray: I will sms you the details

Me: Cool

Ray: Bye princess

I hung up and I went to the kitchen and sonke's mom prepared lunch and we spoke about telling
sonke the truth and we agreed that she should cause he will be more mad at me that i knew and
i didn’t tell him anything. sonke called while we were talking

Me: Baby

Sonke: Mawabo

Me: How is your day

Sonke: Hectic

Me: I am sorry

Sonke: Is mom there

Me: Yes

Sonke: Can is speak to her

Me: Sure

I passed the phone to his mom and I went to the lounge, After a few minutes she walked up to
me and gave me the phone

Mrs. Shange: Sonke said he will be working till late today so he will order food for us for supper.

Me: Oh okay

She walked away

I sat on the couch all confused, why didn’t sonke tell me all this? He was over doing it with being
pissed and if he plans on treating me like this, I will visit my family for a month.
I went to my kids room and I bonded with my kids in the play room and siyabonga was glowing
and seemed to be looking more and more like sonke, i seriously did not see my life without my
kids, i loved them just the way they are, we took selfies and uploaded it on insta and updated
our WhatsApp and we made passion fruit and biscuit, lwandle and Lwando were turning 6 this
year, siyabonga was turning 1 in march and twins were 4 months full, my family was just perfect
and they all looked alike, sonke made sure that my kids took his eyes and dimples while the
twins took my skin-color but these kids loved each other so much. Around 6pm our supper was
delivered and we ate, ma helped me in tucking in the babies while cc tucked in the boys.

I washed the dishes, cc said she will go with me to buy school stationary for the kids and we will
do a movie since it will be the weekend, we chilled and had wine waiting for sisanda and sonke
but sisanda called to say she will not be coming home, she is at her boyfriend’s place, around
10pm we decided to call it a night and i was a bit tipsy so i took a cold shower and then sat in
bed, i tried calling sonke but his phone was off, i got a sms from ray

Ray {Hi Princess, lets meet at Musgrave bertoua Café Lounge at 4pm tomorrow, goodnight}

Me: {Okay cool}

I deleted the sms and switched the light off to sleep. I was woken up with someone trying to
open my bedroom door and sonke walked in with his phone in his hand

Me: sonke

I looked at the time and it was 12:08am

Me: Where have you been?

I switched the lights on and i he came and sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me, his shirt
was unbuttoned at the top and he was stinking of whiskey

Sonke: Sorry baby, the boys didn’t want me to leave

Me: I thought you were working till late

Sonke: I was until the guys suggested we go out

Me: and you decided not to tell me

Sonke: Sorry baby

I unbuttoned his shirt and helped him undress, i noticed his shirt had lipstick stains on the choler
i stopped, i wanted to bitch slap him but he was too drunk that i would be wasting my time, he
got into bed and i slept on the side, Hi phone gave a notification that the battery was low then i
woke up and put it into my charger

The wallpaper shocked the hell out of me

He had a white female on his screen and it looked like Samantha, the picture Mr Pian gave me
but i could not get into the phone cause he had a password, i left the phone on charge and i
went to a guest room and slept there

I didn’t want to sleep next to that asshole, God knows where he was and he comes to my house
drunk.

I was beyond being pissed

Me: Sonke is now back in to his old ways and i am fucking tired of it, who the fuck is that bitch
on his DP? Maybe i should contact Mr. Pian and know the whole truth about this asshole i am
married to, i am fucking sick of his cheating and controlling attitude.

I tried so hard to fall asleep but I couldn’t sleep, I walked to the bar and I took out out Jameson, I
had to 2 shots then I went back to the guest room and eventually i fell asleep.

I woke up around 4am and i checked on the kids, changed their nappies and gave them milk
and i went back to my bedroom, he was fast asleep, i went to the kitchen and took out ice and
put them in the bowl and i went to the bedroom and i threw them at him, he woke up with such a
fright and he looked at me

Sonke: Lee wenzani

Me: What is this, i threw his shirt at him

He looked at it and then looked at me

Sonke: You waking me up like a dog to see my shirt

Me: What is that on the collar

He looked at it and threw it on the floor

Sonke: Who is going to clean up this mess

Me: So you not going to say anything?

Sonke: No

I took his phone out the charge and asked him what this is?

Sonke: what?

I threw the phone at him and he looked at the screen

Sonke: Shit

Me: Shit neh?

He stared at me

Me: This is how you do me? After everything we have been through you go and cheat on me
again? With your hoes?

Sonke: Lethu, baby listen

Me: Fuck you sonke, fuck you

Sonke: baby

Me: Get the fuck out of my house, pack your shit and go to your hoe

Sonke: Baby wait

Me: Buyela lobukhona and i am fucking divorcing you

I opened the door and went to the kitchen and to be honest i don’t know what i was looking for
but i was banging the kitchen drawer and door and he came and held me from behind

Sonke: baby it’s not what you think, she was using my phone and she put her picture as a
screen saver

Me: Why was she even using your phone? Who the fuck is she?

Sonke: Lee calm down

Me: No sonke

I was so furious and I was crying

Sonke: Baby nothing happened between me and this girl

Me: You expect me to believe that? out of so many lies you have told me

I was crying and I managed to get him off me then i walked to the living room and he towards
me

Me: Don’t come near me

Sonke: Baby calm down

Me: Just leave sonke, leave me and my kids alone

Sonke: Baby i was with the boys and she hugged me and then she borrowed my phone baby,
nothing happened between us

Me: Something used to happen so why would it stop now

Sonke: baby that is the past and not now, baby i have changed

Me: Fuck you sonke, you always tell me you have changed but you keep fucking every girl out
there, make me a fool and play around with my feelings, you get other woman pregnant and
then i play mother to these bastard kids
Sonke: You mean that

Me: How else must i put this? How else? I stay home with your fucking crèche while you busy
fucking other woman? So what child are we going to have now? Colored babies, fuck you and
fuck your bitches

He came to me and i slapped him across his face and pushed him out of my way and i went to
our bedroom and i locked the door

He came and he knocked on the door and i sat on the floor crying and wondering why sonke
keeps doing this to me and why am i putting up with it when all he does he hurts me

He was still at the door

Sonke: Baby i love you and you only i swear i didn’t cheat on you baby i swear, please open the
door and let’s talk about this baby lami, i have changed lethu and i want only you

Me: Leave me alone and get the fuck out of my house

Sonke: baby please open the door

Me: Just leave sonke

Sonke: I can’t do that sithandwa sami, please open the door

After a few minute he went quiet the started kicking the door, i sat on that floor crying until i
heard his mom knocking on the door

Mrs. Shange: Lethokuhle, please open the door my baby

I ignored her and went to the in suit and took a hot shower, i cried on the shower and i was fat
and messy, i dried myself then i went back to the bedroom and wore my black skinny jeans,
Adidas peach sneakers, a black vest with bottle green jacket, i put my weave into a pony and i
grabbed my sling back and phone, it was now 7.30am, i opened the door and sonke was sitting
on the floor with mom, i walked past them and i went to the babies nursery and i put them into
their car seat, I walked downstairs with sonke and his mom following me

Mrs. Shange: Lethokuhle, calm down my baby

Sonke: Where are you going

he pulled 1 car seats from me and he gave him mom, Zama started crying as the pulling of the
seats frightened her

Me: Give me my baby

Sonke: This is my baby to and i am not going to allow you to leave with my babies

Me: Babies? Babies? Do you even care to know how these babies slept last night while you
were fucking other bitches
Mrs. Shange: Lethu baby

Me: No ma, This is not fair

I broke down again and cried

Mrs. Shange: I know how you feeling my baby but this is not the right thing to do

Me: No ma, You don’t know how i feel, i have putting up with his cheating and abuse and lies
and all other things and this is what he does in return? I have feelings ma

Sonke snapped

Sonke: I didn’t sleep with her, what else do you want me to fucking say letho

Me: That’s what you said about philile and Norma and now Samantha, Samantha sonke

Sonke: he kept quiet like he was shocked that i know her name

Me: Yes, i know all the bitches you fuck with

Sonke’s mom snapped

Mrs. Shange: Yazi, this is not something to discuss in front of the kids guys, go to the bedroom
and talk about things

Me: How long are we going to talk about the same thing ma, how long am i supposed to put up
with this ma? my heart is not made of steel i hurt too

Mrs. Shange: I know my love but you need to calm down and discuss this when you are okay

Me: I want to go out with my kids shishawe umoya, naye uzosala nezingane zakhe

Mrs. Shange: No my baby, you shouldn’t say such things

Sonke: Lwandle, siyabonga and lwando are also your kids lee so don’t isolate our kids just
cause of this misunderstanding… Just don’t

Mrs. Shange: Give me the baby lethu and go to the bedroom and talk with sonke

Me: I have nothing to say to him

Sonke: Stop acting like this, I have told you and I will say it again, nothing happened between
me and sam

I looked at him with so much hate

Me: You make me sick

I gave him the twin and i grabbed my 1 series car key and i went to the garage and he followed
me to the car
Sonke: Baby just listen to me, Nothing happened

Me: That’s what you always say

Sonke: I promise you

Me: tell me one thing, what is it that you hate in me?

Sonke: Nothing baby, I love you so much

Me: What was Samantha doing in the same place you were last night?

He looked at me

Me: Nxa

Me: I got into my car and i reversed my car out and i drove out of the house, i didn’t know where
i was going but i was driving.

I drove to Westwood mall and i went to spur and ordered breakfast, i ate the breakfast with hot
chocolate then i went through my phone and went to FB, i went to sonke's wall and he uploaded
pictures of me and the kids and he wrote a status 20 Min ago, "I love my family more than
anything" with Lethokuhle Khumalo, i went to his insta and there was no latest update and i
went to his tagged and nothing from Samantha or any side chick, i logged out, i ordered ice
cream with a hot chocolate cake and i sat there crying, my nose was red and my eyes were red,
around 12 i left and drove to new lands to visit Sean but he was not home s, I drove to ntuzuma
to see Cindy but she was also not at home.

I drove to gateway and i shopped at legit and naatjie then i drove to umhlanga beach and sat at
the pillar

I was so mad and all I wanted was to clear my head and think things through

I checked on my phone and i had 10 missed calls from sonke and 2 missed calls from his mom
and 1 missed calls from ray, i went to my text

Sonke {Baby ukuphi, i am sorry}

Sonke { I love you baby, please answer my calls}

Mrs. Shange { Makhumalo, please answer my call}

Ray { Hi Princess, is it possible to meet a bit early, let’s say 2-3 at Musgrave?}

I replied to Ray's text

Me {Hi, i will be at bertoua Café Lounge in the next 20 minute}

I sat there trying thinking about everything, I decided to meet with ray
I got into my car and drove to Musgrave and i parked outside and went to bertoua and i looked
around but i didn’t see ray so i sat on a table for 2 and ordered a glass of wine and calamari's
for starter and waited for my order

Ray: Princess

Me: Hi

He sat in front of me and smiled, he looked finer than ever, his eyes were breath taking, he
reminded me like the guy in Beyoncé’s halo video, this guy was simple and he was dressed in a
golf outfit and he was so sexy

Ray: Excuse my outfit, i was playing golf with my client

Me: No problem

Ray: You seem down, your eyes are buffy, did you sleep or were you crying

Me: Lack of sleep

Ray: Okay, i guess i shouldn’t take more of your time then

Me: Please

My wine came and i got right to it

Me: So to what do i owe this dinner?

Ray: I just wanted to see you again

me: Why?

Ray: Wangichaza

Me: In which way

Ray: In every way, I see potential in you

Me: I am married

Ray: I know, your friends said so

Me: Do you know my husband

Ray: I don’t want to get to know him, i want to know you

Me: Oh Okay

Ray: I am divorced with no kids unfortunately, i am 29 years of age and i live in glen Anil in
Durban north, i moved in 3 months ago after my divorce
Me: Okay, i am a mother or 5 kids and happily married

Ray: wow how old are your kids

Me: 2 boys are turning 6 this year, 1 boy is turning 1 this year and the girls are 4 months

Ray: wow so each year you are popping nje

Me: No 3 are my step sons and 2 are my twins

Ray: okay and how long have you been married for?

Me: A year now

Ray: Wow

Me: Shocking?

Ray: Not at all but you don’t seem happy though

Me: I am, i had a long day today so i am sorry if my appearance isn’t attractive

Ray: you would look fine even in the Sotho blanket honey

I laughed out loud

After my starter i ordered my main meal, our conversation was going well and he told me he
owns an advocate company and school of law and that he wanted to get to know me better and
that he think me and him can make art together, i didn’t give him thumbs up but i wanted to get
to know him, he gave me a peaceful and a relaxed side and i loved that, i found myself laughing
at every joke he popped through, he took his time to figure me out, his words were selective and
damn he was romantic to the core.

I was so free with him and he completely took my mind in to heaven, I forgot all the dram I had
that even my heart felt lighter.

I found myself laughing so much and we even sang, the environment didn’t allow us to be all out
there but we brought out something I have been missing in my life, fun and laughter.

Around 7pm we decided to call it a night and i promised to text him when i am home, i drove off
while he was paying the bill and in 15 min i was outside my house gate, i drove in and decided
to park the car outside the drive through, i texted Ray

Me {Thank you for today, i got home safe, take care}

I went inside the house and everyone was sitting in the dining room table having supper, i
walked to the kitchen and took a bottle of natural sweet wine and a glass and went to my
bedroom without talking to anyone, i walked up to the bedroom to leave it there then i walked to
check on my babies and they were sleeping, i checked on lwandle and lwando and they were
asleep to, i went to my bedroom in suit ran a bubble bath and lit the candles on for that sensual
feeling i poured my glass of wine and put my iPod on playing Kelly Clarkson save you album
and i skipped to cry, i put it on repeat and i started crying with my glass of wine in my hand, i sat
there for an hour and i ran more warm water as i didn’t want to start feeling cold.

He walked in & switched the light on and he took a shower while i was on the bath tub, i laid
there looking at him as he took a shower, the shower glass had mist but i could still make out
movements, i closed my eyes and went inside the water but i rose again when i realized i
couldn’t breathe, i sat up and he walked out of the shower and dried himself, he put the iPod
and pause and he looked at me

Sonke: Ubukuphi?

I didn’t answer him, i just looked away and drank my wine glass

Sonke: Is this your new attitude?

I ignored him

Sonke: Okay

He walked out, i decided to get out myself and i wore a gown and decided to finish my wine in
the bed, when i got into bed he was in bed already, i sat next to him and drank my wine, my
phone rang and i answered

Me: Hello

Ray: Princess

Me: Hi

Ray: Uhambe kahle?

Me: Yes i did

Ray: Thank you for seeing me

Me: You are welcome

Ray: Ulale kahle nkosazane

Me: Ngiyabonga, Nawe futh ulale kahle

I hung up and i finished my glass

Sonke pulled the blanket away from his face, he woke up took my glass and threw it against the
wall and it shattered

Me: Wow

He stared at me while I stared back

Sonke: This is what you do now?

I ignored him

Sonke: Is this what you do now?

I looked at him

Sonke: I am fucking talking to you

Me: Please go back to your side of the bed, I don’t have energy for you

Sonke: I asked you a question

Me: This attitude you are giving me now, it should be vice versa

Sonke: You go on dates now lethu?

My heart shrinked

I looked at him and his eyes were blank, his face was darker then I have ever seen

Sonke: You go on dates with other man lethu?

Me: Date?

Sonke: Don’t make me repeat what I said

Me: Then don’t expect me to answer you

He slapped me across my face that I saw flashes

I tried to wake up but he pushed me back to the bed and threw his phone at me

Sonke: What is this?

I looked at the phone and it was a picture of me and ray laughing, i was shocked that i became
thirsty all of a sudden

me: Where did you get this?

Sonke: Is that the only thing you have to say to yourself?

Me: No, where did you get this? Are you spying on me now? You tired of fucking your bitches so
you got me followed? Or wait one of your bitches sent you that?

He slapped me across my face that i fell back on the bed this time around, he opened his
wardrobe and took out a belt

Sonke: I promised i wont lay my hand on you again but right now i don’t have a choice

He locked the bedroom door and he started belting me, i didn’t scream but instead and i held on
tight to the belt and we fought for it and he let it go and he punched me on my stomach and i fell
on the floor and I put my hands on my stomach, I started coughing

Sonke: I told you before, if you ever cheat on me I will kill you

He kicked me while I was on the floor

Me: Sonke you are hurting me, please stop it

He stopped and looked at me

Sonke: You think you can cheat on me lethu? Spend the whole day with a man and god knows
what you were doing and then come and sleep in my house, my bed?

He started kicking me on my tummy and i used my hands to cover my tummy

me: Ma, cc someone please help me, his killing mamma........*Screaming

Sonke: You think my mom would come and save a hoe?

Me: I didn’t do anything with him

He grabbed me with my hair and threw me on the bad, i curled myself against the head board

Sonke: Who is this guy?

Me: His nobody

He came closer to he and I covered my face, he put his hands on my neck and pressed me
against the wall

Sonke: Who is he?

I started coughing and he let me go

He went to the safe and took out a gun and he pointed at me

Sonke: Who is he?

I started shaking, sonke was going to kill me

Me: Ray…His name is ray

Sonke: From?

Me: baby i didn’t do anything with him

Sonke: Pho ubukuphi imini yonke?

Me: I went to spur in Westwood mall and had breakfast, i drove to see Sean but he was not at
home so i went to gateway and shopped for the kids at naartjie then i met ray in Musgrave
Sonke: Met?

Me: Yes, we are just friends sonke i swear on my babies life

Sonke: Don’t use my kids for your bitching siyezwana

Me: You can check my phone for the payment notifications

He looked around for my phone and he found it and he went through the messages and started
reading messages from ray and i

Sonke: He calls you princess and you smile for that? Bitch

He dropped the phone and walked to me and i just covered my face, he grabbed me with my
legs and i tried fighting him off and he struggled to grab me with my legs so he pulled me with
my arm and threw me against the robe and the mirror on the robe broke while i fell on the floor

Sonke: I give you everything you ask for, i make sure you are happy and i make sure our kids
have a shelter and with 1 flop you run to another man?

I sat there on the floor my whole body revealed to him and i was bruised and bleeding and
crying, i covered myself with my white gown, I tried to be brave but I just broke down

Me: Nothing happened between me and ray…Nothing

Sonke came closer to me

Sonke: Anything else you want to tell me?

I shook my head

Sonke: You lucky you didn’t do anything with this guys, even with 1 kiss you would be in
hospital right now

I looked at him and he looked nothing like the sonke I am married to

He grabbed me with my hair and dragged me to the bathroom, he ran cold water and he threw
me inside the shower

Sonke: Wash yourself, you stink

I sat inside as he closed the door, the water was running on me, my legs were to sore and i
could not even use my left arm, i sat down on the shower and the water ran until i started getting
cold , i just cried in the shower then i tried drying myself but my arm was too sore i couldn’t
move it, i went to the bedroom and he had cleaned the mess up, i wore my nightie and i laid
next to him but the pain was unbearable, i woke up to the in suit and opened the drawer and
took out panado's and drank 4 and i went back to sleep, it took a while for the tablet to kick in
but when it did then i dosed off.

I was woken up by lwandle in the morning when he entered the door and ran on top of me while
sonke was lying next to me

Lwandle: Mummy we are going to church, i am ready but you not

Me: I am not well baby, i will go with you next week

Lwandle: Okay mama, i will pray that God makes you better

I shaded a tear to those words

Lwandle: Don’t cry mama, you will be okay

I gave him a fake smile and tried to speak but i was not going to make it

I nod my head and he gave me a hug

He hugged his dad then he left, there was an awkward silence then sonke's mom knocked and
came in without us telling her too

She looked at me and i looked away

Mrs. Shange: Good morning

Sonke: Hi Ma

I looked away as i was too angry at the fact that i screamed for help last night and not one of
them came to help me

Mrs. shange: Uright makoti

I nod my head and looked away

Mrs. shange: Oh okay, sonke please drop us off at church

Sonke: Eish ma

Mrs. Sonke: Please thu

Sonke: Okay but get an uber when you come back

Mrs. Shange: okay

She left, he woke up and wore his gown and sleepers and he left the room, i looked around for
my phone then i spot it on sonke's side table, i tried reaching out for it but my body failed me, i
woke up and walked to the other side of the bed and took it, i scrolled for noxy's number and i
dialed it

Noxy: Lee, ekuseni kanje

Me: I am so.....oo.....rryyy
Noxy: Lee you okay

I started crying

Noxy: lee

Me: I need you to drive me to a doc please

Noxy: Lee why what happened?

Me: I can’t really explain right now but i am in pain and i need a doc ASAP

Noxy: Which doc though?

Me: Any GP, i just need my hand to be taken care off

Noxy: okay, send me your location of the new place and i will change and come there

Me: Okay

Noxy: Where is sonke

Me: His here

Noxy: Why can’t he take you

Me: I don’t want to

Noxy: Eish okay i am on my way

I hung up the phone and tried taking shower which took me almost 30 minute, i got off the
shower and sonke was in the bedroom

I opened the robe and i looked at myself in the mirror, i was such a mess, my whole body was
bruised and i could not lift up my left arm, while i was staring at myself i noticed from a mirror
view that he was staring at me, i wore my nude g string and nude backless and strapless braa
and i put on a loose long bob tube dress and i put my hair into a pony

Sonke: Uyaphi

I close the robe and ignored him

Sonke: You still giving me that attitude

Me: Did you hit me last night cause of my attitude or cause i had dinner with a friend?

He clicked his tongue and laid on the bed, the gate buzzer rang and my phone rang and i
answered

Me: I will buzz you in now

Then I hung up

Sonke: Who is that

Me: Noxy

i grabbed my phone and purse and i started the heavy walk to down stairs and i buzzed her in, i
went to wait for her on the drive through then she came and i tried getting in the car but i was
shaking and my body was just falling apart

Noxy: What happened?

Me: Sonke hit me

Noxy: Again

Me: Yes

Noxy: Why

Me: I don’t want to talk about it

Sonke walked out to the drive way and walked towards the car

Sonke: Hey sbari

Noxy: Mkhonyana

Sonke: Where are you taking my wife ekuseni kanje?

Noxy: Well she said she needs to see a doctor because she is in pain and she cannot even
move her arm

Sonke: Oh okay, teach her how to be loyal while you are at it

Noxy: Sorry?

Sonke: Bring her back home safely

Noxy: Okay Bye

Noxy reversed and we go off the gate and then she looked at me

Noxy: wenzeni?

Me: I don’t want to talk about it right now noxy

Noxy: Okay

Noxy: Which Doc?

Me: Let’s do Mhlanga hospital cause my GP is closed today

We drove in silence, my body was there but my mind was at last night’s incident, i have never
seen sonke in that state and up until now he is still mad, we got to umhlanga and i was taken to
casualty, the doctor requested an x-ray and i took it and he confirmed that my arm is broken and
i need to put a cluster, he told me i have a lot of internal bleeding and he injected me and
prescribed a few meds for me, he then sent me theatre to have the cluster put on me and i was
done within 3 hours, we went to gateway to buy the meds and then noxy drove me home. She
did not come in as she was rushing to see banzi, I got in the house and everyone was having
lunch and the twins were watching TV,

Lwando: Mama You got a bandage

Lwandle: What happened to your hand?

They ran up to me and i kneeled to hug them

Lwando: Is that why you didn’t come to church?

Me: Yes baby

Lwandle: oooh it’s so big and hard

I smiled

Me: When i am all better we can write on it and design your name

Lwandle: Oooh i can’t wait

Sonke's mom walked up to me

Mrs. Shange: My dear, when did this happen? Are you okay?

Me: I am fine and i am sure you know since i was screaming and banging for you to save me
last night.

Mrs. Shange: sorry?

I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a yogurt and took my meds and went upstairs to my
bedroom and i locked the door, i had the yogurt and drank the meds, i changed into leggings
and a vest, i got under the blanket and started crying, i heard a knock on the door and there was
an attempt to open

Mrs. Shange: baby please open the door, Please tell me what is going on

I ignored her until she went away, after 30 minute sonke nocked

Sonke: Ngicela ukungena ekamereni lami

I woke up and opened the door and went back to bed, he walked in and locked the door, my
heart was beating so fast that i even though he can hear it, he walked to his side of the bed and
sat and his back was facing me, i was so mad at him and if i had a gun i would use it
Sonke: Ray who?

I ignored him

Sonke: What is the surname of your boyfriend and what does he do for a living?

Me: He is not my boyfriend

Sonke: I want his full name, ray who?

Me: Sokhulu

He gave in a sarcastic laugh

Sonke: So now you are dating lawyers? I thought gangsters were your type

I ignored him

Sonke: The next time you go on a date with another man, i will kill you with my bare hands
siyezwana

He turned around and looked at me straight through my eyes

Sonke: Did you hear me?

I nod my head

Sonke: I want you to say it

me: Yes

Sonke: Yes what?

Me: I hear you

He then walked away and i fell asleep

I woke up around 6.30pm and i needed food, i went downstairs and no one was down, i warmed
an already made food and i ate at the dining room when i was done i went to check on the kids
and they were not around, i went to my room and there was no message from sonke, i took
more meds and i slept the pain through

Sonke woke me up at 5am telling me it’s the kids 1st day at school today, i became emotional

Me: I can’t help them, i can’t use my arm

Sonke: Mamiki is already on it, i was telling you just in case you wanted to go with me to drop
them off today

Me: Okay
I woke up and washed my face, i wore a mini boob tube dress and jacket over my shoulders
and then i went down stairs, the kids were already eating breakfast, i fed siyabonga and i moved
to Zama and zee, sonke packed their bags, we followed the butler with sonke's Aston martin,
we got to the school and the teachers were there to take the babies and lwandle and lwazi were
too excited that they didn’t cry like all other kids, siyabong cried but he saw his big brothers all
happy and he calmed himself down, i gave him a kissed and smiled looking right into my eyes, i
cried cause i couldn’t believe my kids are attending school and i won’t be with them, sonke put
his hand around my waste and kissed me on my cheek and wiped my tears

I got more mad, he did that just to put on a show

Sonke: They need to go to school love

Me: But they so small

Sonke: They have to start somewhere

I Nod my head and gave siyabonga to the teacher and he started crying, sonke took my hand
and he led me to the car and the battler left us, the drive back home was awkward as i was
quiet and sonke kept looking at me and when i looked at him he would look away

Sonke: Planning on going to the office today?

Me: No

Sonke: But everyone is expecting you today

Me: I cannot go to work with one hand working

Sonke: You won’t have to work, you can take over the meetings

Me: Why don’t you get Samantha to help you?

He gave me a mad stare but i pretended like i cannot see him and kept my eyes glued on the
road

Sonke: Will you ever stop ukungifundekela ngo sam

Me: Ohhh Touchy now

He clicked his tongue, we got to Virginia and he parked the car, took out his laptop bag and
went to his study while i went up to our room

I skype called our client to tell them i am back and i will be handling their account and they all
wished me well and said i look fine on my Facebook pictures, i took it as a compliment but to be
honest i was fine as hell, i decided to log into spree to buy myself new clothes since i am mom
now i have to look presentable, while i was online a pop on Google had "A Durban big shot
lawyer died in a car accident this morning", i clicked on it and it took me to the daily news site
and i read the article
"Ray Sokhulu died in his ML SUV this morning as he was driving to see a client in lamontville,
Mr. sokhulu owned law firm and his is known for wining every case he took control of, Mr.
sokhulu left an ex-wife with no kids no parents behind but source does say he was secretly
seeing a married woman who swept him off his feet, we do not yet know the woman.

The accident was between an oil truck and his SUV, the truck driver did not get hurt but Mr.
sokhulu's car was smashed beyond repairs in Nandi drive

RIP Mr. R sokhulu

I closed my laptop and sat on my bed holding my chest

Me: Could it be sonke? No he wouldn’t, sonke wouldn’t do that

I ran down stairs to the study and he was busy on the phone

me: Sonke *Screaming*

He cut the call and looked at me

Sonke: What?

Me: Did you kill ray?

Sonke: Ray who?

Me: Don’t act dumb with me sonke

Sonke: No fore real

Me: Ray sokhulu

Sonke: Ngihlanganaphi mina with your fuck mates

Me: His not my fuck mate

Sonke: Well whatever he was to you

Me: He was a friend

Sonke: Well ngihlanganaphi mina with your friends?

Me: he died this morning in an accident

Sonke: So?

Me: Are you involve in his death

Sonke: I was here with you the whole night and this morning we dropped the kids of at school,
so what exactly are you trying to imply?

Me: I just want to know the truth

Sonke: I did not kill your lawyer friend lee, i don’t have time to focus on useless people

Me: Fine

He went back to his chair, sat down and took his phone out

Sonke: Sorry Mr. Clive, my call got cut there, where were we?

I walked out and i took a bath for hours then i went down stairs and i ordered lunch at woolies
and asked sonke to pick it up, he left the house and came back after 20 minute, we sat down
and ate in silence

Sonke: I know you are mad at me with this all Samantha thing but nothing happened between
her and i, she hugged me and borrowed my phone and that is where it ended, it told her i was
through with her and i love my wife, that is the truth lethokuhle, i swear on my kids life

Me: You expect me to believe you after you almost killed me thinking i was cheating?

Sonke: I didn’t mean to break your arm or beat you up the way i did, i just kept having flashes of
you and that guy

Me: I would never cheat on you sonke, you out of people should know that

Sonke: I know baby, i just lost focus and i lost control of my hands

I started crying

Me: You will never stop hitting me, will you?

Sonke: Baby i won’t touch you again i swear

Me: thats what you said so many times, you almost killed me

Sonke: If i kill you i will be killing myself, Lethokuhle.... you are my wife, a mother of my kids,
you helped me build this home from what it was to what it is now, i love you more than anything
in this world, no amount of money can compare to you, with you i know you will love me even if i
have nothing to offer, i am cold hearted i know and i am dog sometimes and i am sorry for being
that way, i was raised by a single mom and i spent most time stealing or playing soccer but now
you are my hope for everything, you always motivate me to be the best that i am and i know you
and i will grow old together, i am done cheating

Me: I love you sonke but i don’t trust you, i am still trying to trust you again and i expect you to
meet me half way, you are going to kill me sonke and our kids will hate you for it

I woke up to clear the table and he walked behind me

Sonke: Please forgive me mtomuhle

I turned around and looked at him and he gave me a puppy smile and i laughed

Sonke: is that a yes

Me: No, but pending

Sonke: What can i do for the request to be processed successfully?

Me: Love me and stop cheating

Sonke: Ubala Lolo

He came closer and gave me a tight hug but he was hurting my whole body

Me: Ouch sonke

He let me go

Sonke: Sorry baby, i will give you a body massage tonight and take care of every pain in your
body, he winked at me

He went back to the study and the battler went to pick the kids up, he came out after a few
minute

Sonke: I think we should eat out tonight yabo?

Me: The kids would love it but my body is aching

Sonke: The kids would really love it

Me: Okay, not for long and you will carry the babies cause my arm hurts

Sonke: Okay

Me: we will go to mimmos, they love pizza

Sonke: Just us

Me: Just us?

Sonke: you me and the kids

Me: Okay

The kids arrive around 5.30, sonke bath the kids and got them all dressed up in pajama’s then
we got into the ML and drove to gateway, we got to mimmos and the boys ran to the play room
while we ordered pizza and i ordered fish fingers for siyabonga and the girls had veggies and
fries since they were sucking things with their fingers, sonke took selfies and uploaded it on
Facebook and updated his status as "Night out with my empire" he also took pictures of him
kissing me and i didn’t complain, i loved the attention, we spent about 3 hours at memos then
we went to milky lane and had their ice cream and we took pictures on the photo booth and we
decided to go home since the kids had school tomorrow, Zama was very crabby so i had to
carry her and feed her and she fell asleep then sonke had to drive to the garage to fill diesel and
the we drove home, a tow truck came out of nowhere speeding next to us and max was on the
car asking sonke to pull off but max had a gun, sonke pulled out his gun and threw at me

Sonke: Use it

He pulled his pants up and put his hand on his ankle and took out a small gun and while did so i
saw blood splashing through my dress and the kids started screaming, my hands started
shaking as i was looking around to see where the blood came from and sonke was shot on his
arm, 2 bikers were next to his side 2 were on my side, the 2 bikers on his side started firing
shots they started and i screamed begging them to stop, sonke lost control of the car and he
swerved the car and went into the ongoing road and we hit quite a few cars, i was bleeding and
the kids were still screaming and calling me

Kids: Mama mama

the bikers were still behind us shooting, sonke tried speeding, i band down looking for the gun
but sonke did not make it easy for me to find it on the floor, i looked behind me and the kids
were screaming still, The back wind screen shattered due to shots coming from behind the car,
The bullet were flying in through the open windscreen and I saw lwandles head to the wind
screen and lwando was bleeding through his nose and had his hands on his neck

Me: Noooo Lwando.................No stoppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

Sonke: get down lee

Me: Sonke My kids

He turned around but he couldn’t see the boys as they were now lying on seat

I tried getting the seat belt off me but i struggled until i finally did, i tried reaching out for them
but sonke pushed me back on the seat

Me: get the fuck down lee

He hit a pavement and we hit the wind screen flying from the La Lucia bridge to the trees
nearby, I fell on top of a stone with my broke arm, I realized that I was now bleeding, the shots
did not stop as I could still hear them for where I was, I didn’t know where sonke was or the kids
was, I was in pain and I wanted my kids so badly, I tried moving but I fell on the mud and I
looked at the car light shining right through my eyes, I could still hear the bikers raving their
bikes and I could still hear gun shots, I wanted to wake up from this nightmare but no one was
waking me up, I started drifting away from the light then I saw an explosion, some pieces of my
car fell right next to me then I passed out
All I ever wanted was for him to love me the way I love him, maybe I was not good enough for
him or maybe I didn’t fit the part of being the love of his life

I loved Sonke

I lived for Sonke

My Revolved around Sonke

Sonke was my everything

I wanted to be his everything

I wanted for him to love me

I wanted to be his only one

I wanted for him to love

I wanted for him to respect me

I wanted for him to be loyal to me

I wanted him to be faithful

I wanted him to cherish me

I wanted him to have faith in me

I wanted him to rely on me

I wanted to be his truth

All I ever wanted was to be HIS LOVE

Written By Philisiwe Khuzwayo

Published By Visionary Writtings