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upon by the girls close to him. Upon ending his
relationship with his ex-girlfriend Yumi. his rude Kouhai
and his abusive maid, he decides to stay away from them.

She is Yuta's
favorite maid.
Create an opportunity for Yuta to get angry.

She is an active model.

One day she tells Yuta: I decided to go out with a young
actor who is currently working with me on the filming of
the movie. Unlike you. He is fun and I feel safe when I am
by his side .
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Chapter 1 Goodbye present, hello new me. 013

If I could confront Yuta-kun

without
interpret a character... 144

Crossroads 1-C
If I had confessed to Yuu
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After school on a rainy day during the winter of my freshman year of high school.
My girlfriend Yumi Asakawa asked me, Yuta Miyamoto, to meet up.
We are two childhood friends who took the next step, becoming a dating couple.
I wish we wouldn't meet at the back of the school since we live almost nearby, but I couldn't
do anything so I headed to the place.
Once I arrived at my destination, wondering the reason why he wanted to see me, Yumi was
already there.
Apparently she had forgotten her umbrella because her beautiful straight black hair
was a Q little wet, so I ran to her so my umbrella could protect her because it would be terrible
if she R
caught a cold.
Are p you worried about something?
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my l
presence.
She looked at me with her big, beautiful eyes, which softened a little, showing that it is the
EITHER
greatest expression of how beautiful Japanese women are.
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Yumi is always by my side and constantly supports me to follow the path of good.
EITHER
We are irreplaceable for each other.
With Yumi, all my days are pink, and even today's bone-chilling cold doesn't bother me at
all.

However, I wonder if something is happening to her, since she has remained silent and
not saying a word. I can even tell that his soft expression on his face has now changed to a
very serious one.

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And then, Yumi opened her mouth as if she had made up her mind and said the next words that pushed my
heart towards the rainy sky.
“Sorry, I want to break up with you.”
“¿... Hey?"

For a moment, I didn't understand anything he said, my thoughts suddenly stopped. After about two seconds,
I felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest.
I tried to grab all the thoughts I had in my head, but no matter how much I tried to organize them, I couldn't
understand the reason why we had to break up.
“¿... Because?"
Hearing my response, his eyes sharpened further.
“I decided to date a young actor who is currently working with me on the filming of the movie. Unlike you,
he is fun and I feel safe when I am by his side.”
... I understand, and with that there was only one thing that came to mind.
Because I believed in her, I had buried a memory deep in my heart.
“¿... Maybe it's the cute guy you were arm in arm with last month?”
At that moment, confusion invaded Yumi's dignified face.
“How do you know that?”
“... I saw them by chance when I went to the bookstore. I saw you holding onto a man's arm. At that time, I
thought I had the wrong person”:
I decided that what I saw was a mistake because I believed in you Yumi.
I thought maybe it was someone else, however, the harsh reality was cruel to me.
“... It's good that you know. Likewise, I already decided to go out with him.”
As if they were bullets, those merciless words pierced my heart, thus birthing, from the depths of my being, a
frustration and despair that was impossible to describe. The relationship we had built together for years was
easily destroyed by a third party who suddenly appeared.
But...
"I see. Thanks for everything".
“¿... That? Does this sound good to you? You will not be mad?"

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He asked me to end our relationship, but now why are you asking me that?
“If I'm not charming enough I don't know why I should get angry. Don't worry, I promise I won't tell anyone
about this. So good luck.”
I think it's obvious that what I told you is true.
Yumi left my side because I wasn't very kind and attentive to her.
Therefore, if this is how things are then I am responsible for this happening.
Finally, I showed him a smile so he wouldn't feel bad about what had just happened, I gave him my umbrella
and I went home.
... I should be nicer.
The wounds that arose from my breakup with her were turning into mistrust.

A few months have passed since then and without realizing it I was already in spring, in that season where the
petals of the cherry blossoms were flying through the air.
Some time has passed since then and it seems that the sadness of that moment had healed, however, a strange
feeling lay deep in my heart.
“Sen~~pai~~!!”
A cheerful and laughing voice mixed with a feeling of heartbeat hit my gloomy back after classes at school.
As I staggered a little I looked back.
“Ouch, that hurt.”
“You look sad today too, senpai. With that face you won't be able to make friends, right?”
The girl who suddenly bumped into me from behind was my kouhai, Akane Kurosaki.
Even though he calls me senpai, it doesn't mean that we are part of some club, but rather that, by chance, we
became friends as soon as we met.
Although he makes fun of me with a provocative attitude like today, he is popular among boys, since his
innocent personality plays very well with his age, in addition to having a beautiful face.
And I must not forget that this kind style also plays a very important role in its popularity.

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“Hey, why are you staring at me? Please don’t even think that you have a chance with me!”
“Ah…sorry, sorry.”
I didn't mean to look at her that way, but...
Are girls sensitive to this kind of thing?
Kurosaki looks at me mockingly while I looked away apologetically, she continues speaking.

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“Senpai, you just apologize all the time. If you keep doing that, they will call you trash and scum.”
"Yeah... I'm sorry".
After he told me that, I apologized again.
Did I make it a habit?
When it started?
“I get into trouble when I'm with you, so please be careful!”
“... Alright. I'll be careful".
In an attempt to forget the painful past, she showers me with cruel words, even though I once thought we got
along well.
This probably happened because my efforts were not enough.
It's still not enough. I can't find a solution, but all I could feel was that my heart was worn out.

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Goodbye to the present , hello new me

“Ahaha! You really are like a slave, Yuta-kun. “You’re just not fun to talk to.”
A voice that sounded like a tone from the bottom of my heart. A tight smile comes into
view.
Now the question is where does it come from and why am I being insulted?
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It's time to think.
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correct answer is 'I'm being insulted by Ruri-chan, my favorite maid at a maid-café.'
Did everyone get it right?
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Even if you do something well, you won't receive any special rewards.
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To start, why did I pay money to talk to a maid if in the end all she does is insult me like
that?
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People who don't have perverted minds would think so, but at this moment I was
worried about a word he said to me.
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“Like a slave.”

EITHER Those words slipped into my heart like a ghost and the next moment invaded my entire
body.
It feels like I've realized something important, like I've just come to understand it.
The next moment, I was able to analyze myself with surprising calm.
How 1 do others see me.

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Looking back, I was always belittled and oppressed by someone. It happened to me in the past, now in the
present and I am sure it will happen to me in the future.
My first girlfriend cheated on me a year ago and we broke up.
I have always been ridiculed by my kouhai and now as you see, currently my favorite maid insults me.
The world is rosy.
It seems like an idiot said something like that, but the world I see is gray.
It is garbage, without love and without need of anyone.
The name of such an unnecessary thing is Yuta Miyamoto
His late parents gave him the name Yuta so that he would grow up to be a kind boy.
My parents died in an accident, but that thought is firmly etched in my heart.
That is why I never forget to smile, I do not refuse the request of others and I do everything possible to please
everyone.
I thought it was kindness...
... But I'm tired of all that.
How much longer do I have to be nice?
Is it necessary to accept a person who disrespects me even if it breaks my heart?
No matter what they did to me, I didn't get angry, I didn't defend myself and it was just as Ruri-chan
mentioned, I was like a slave.
However, now I have realized that I am a weirdo.
I don't want to be like that anymore.
Therefore, from now on, I will only value those people who value me.
I will say what I think.
Even if I end up hurting myself by sticking to that conviction, it's much better than holding on and suffering.
“Hey, are you listening to me? You're deaf? What's the matter?"
"You make a lot of noise. “You look like an idiot.”
“¿... Hey?"

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As soon as I made up my mind, the words that I couldn't say until now flowed smoothly through my mouth.
In front of me, my favorite maid, Ruri-chan, is wide-eyed and totally surprised. Her long dyed blue hair swayed
and her big droopy eyes stared at me.

Maybe it was the shock of suddenly being answered by a person who always looked down on her, which was
why her lips trembled and her beautiful and perfect face was distorted.
Ruri-chan is the most popular maid in this store.
She wears a navy blue and white maid outfit so naturally, and her smiling face shines like the sun.
There are quite a few clients who are attracted to her who praise her, including me.
But the person who innocently supported her is now dead.
He was nice when I started coming to this maid-café, but before I knew it, he started insulting me like I was a
different person.
When I blindly worshiped her, I didn't care about the harsh words that made me want to get angry, but now I can
feel the anger welling up inside me.
“Isn't it fun to talk to me? That's because you don't try to make the conversation interesting. Even if you're the
same age as me, you get paid to have a good conversation because that's part of your job, isn't it? If you think it's
boring to talk to me, don't worry, I won't come back to this place again. Thank you for everything and goodbye.”
"Hey? I don't know what's happening to you. Why are you so angry? If you always smiled!
“That was until now. Just like you said, I was a slave, but not anymore. From now on, I am free to live as I
please.”
I placed the money on the table, got my things ready and left that idiot who didn't know what was happening to
then board the elevator.

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Normally, it would be necessary to call an employee to pay the bill, but since I left a lot of money, I guess I'll
be forgiven. Let's say it's a tuition fee.
"Hey, wait! Tell me what's bothering you so much! I will apologize! Hey!"
I could hear a voice telling me something, but I couldn't hear clearly because it was blocked by the elevator
doors. Mostly I guess they must be insults towards me for trying to leave just like that without their
permission.
As always, he gets cranky when I try to leave the place. I am convinced that it is desperation from losing a
source of money. How much money did he manage to take from me?
But those barren days are over. From now on, I will spend my money on myself. I'll buy some clothes, cut my
hair and start again.
When I left the building, night was faintly approaching in the city.
The cloudless sky and setting sun make me feel like I'm in the past.
What a beautiful sight!
Naturally, I didn't notice at all because I was always looking down.
I take a deep breath and fill my lungs with fresh air. The cells in my body are activated and my vitality
overflows everywhere.
"I am free"
Once I murmured that, an indescribable feeling of liberation and joy welled up from the depths of my heart.
I am a second year high school student whose summer vacation starts tomorrow.
I can't afford to waste precious time of about a month.
I have many things I want to do.
Why didn't I ever think of this before?
Without realizing it, the world looked colorful.
From now on, everything will become brighter.
And then, with light steps and with the happiest feeling of my life, I headed home.

When I got home, I immediately took refuge in my room and decided to collect information using my
smartphone and my computer.
Where should I start?

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I'll start by checking myself.

My bangs were long enough to cover my eyes and I was dressed in my casual, simple high school student
clothes. My face lacks ambition and when combined with my hunched back, it makes me look shorter than
my actual height.
I was a mess and even just by looking in the mirror, I could tell I had a lot of things I needed to fix.
It's not okay to put other people down, but there must be a problem with me because I saw myself as a loser.
I decided to eliminate my bad points one by one and aim to become an average high school kid.
Therefore, in order to make my vacation time off as fruitful as possible, the 'Yuta Miyamoto Renewal Plan'
will be implemented.
First, I need to solve the problem with my long, messy hair that doesn't feel clean.
Long bangs give me a feeling of security, but it has the drawback that other people can't notice my
expressions.
Plus, when I try out new clothes in the near future, even the best ones wouldn't do much for this mess of a
face I currently have.
If so, there is only one thing to do.
I open the search app on my smartphone and typed 'Barbershop in Ikebukuro'.
The search results showed up immediately and I decided to search a web page that summarized information
about the top-rated and nearby barbershops.
Hmm. The barbershops I found were more expensive than the one I used to go to, but the interiors and
atmospheres of the establishments were elegant, so if I go to one of those places, I hope it can look great in
the end.
After looking at various sites for an hour and thinking about it, I decided to go to a barbershop that has a wide
range of options to suit their clients, although it is a bit far from my house.
I headed to the reservation page without hesitation and selected the menu.
My high school has loose rules, so they won't say anything if I dye my hair, although I don't think it's good to
do such a sudden makeover.
For now, I'll choose a haircut and eyebrows.

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I myself don't know what to do with my eyebrows because I don't have any experience with it, but the guys
who always worry about looking good don't forget to take care of them, so I decided to start by imitating
them.
After deciding on the changes I was going to make, I moved on to the screen to select a stylist. I can't judge
who is good or bad, so I'll leave it to them since it's my first time.
I moved on to the next screen and luckily there was still a reservation for tomorrow afternoon.
I thought about it a little but since there is a saying that says 'God helps those who get up early,' it would be
better to make the reservation as soon as possible.
If I simply postpone my action, I won't be able to get an improvement no matter how long it takes.
I entered the rest of the details and hit the book button.
Anyway, the reservation is already confirmed.
If I don't understand something, I'll ask the stylist tomorrow, although I still have free time today.
It seems there is a lot more to find out.
It will undoubtedly be a tough summer vacation.

The next day.

“Mmm… it's hard to get in.”
I arrived at the entrance of the barbershop thirty minutes before my appointment, but unfortunately I was
overwhelmed by the atmosphere of the place, and without realizing it, I only had exactly five minutes left
until the appointment.
I never thought I would have to prepare so much to enter a barbershop.
From the clean, white-based exterior and large glass entrance, I could fully see the barbershop's sophisticated
interior.
On the other hand, I have tried to dress as well as possible, but even so, I don't think I have become a suitable
person for this place.
If I enter such a bright space, I, who am a gloomy person, will be turned into ashes and fly away instantly.

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For starters, there's a chance that even walking into the barbershop won't be a reality because I feel like
there's an invisible barrier against shady people like me.
… No wait. At this rate, summer vacation will end with just cutting my hair. If I die, then I will die, so I have
no choice but to challenge myself in the hope that my brave figure will be passed on to the next generations.
I moved my trembling legs and my heavy body with force, seeming to make big holes in the ground and in
this way I entered a divinely imposing new world─────

"Oh! It fits you well! It’s like you’ve undergone a metamorphosis~!”

"… Who is that?"
An hour passed since I entered the barbershop and with my eyes wide open I found a high school student I
had never seen before sitting in front of me.
The bangs, which were heavy as an anchor, were cut to the eyebrows and the hair on the sides of the head
about halfway to the ears, giving a three-dimensional feel to the cut. It's all achieved by controlling the weight
of the individual parts of my hair.
Carefully aligned and trimmed eyebrows give you an impression of dignity. Without flattery, he seems like a
pretty cool young man.
However, for some reason, he had a doubtful look on his face as he seemed to be searching for the identity of
the person in front of him.
…Yes, that person is me.
I never imagined that the moment would come when I would say that famous phrase: 'Who is that?' in front
of a mirror.
I ignored it, but the stylist who was in charge of my change gave me a rude compliment. I guess that shows
how different I look now.
“It would be a waste if you don't dress appropriately, since you look great~!”
"Thank you so much. "I was so surprised that I didn't even believe it was me."
The stylist looked proud as she twirled her comb over and over.
At first, when it was decided that she would be in charge of me, she seemed reluctant, but her mood gradually
improved that she now spoke with satisfaction.
“But what made you suddenly want to come to the barbershop?”

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That may be a rude question, however, I can tell that she is trying to have a proper conversation in her own
way.
He must have thought that there was a good reason why someone like me, the representative of the shady
people, would have the courage to come to the store.
That's why I decided to talk honestly about what made me want to change.
"Hey!? I think all those people around you are terrible! You better keep your distance…”
"I thought the same. That's why I was thinking about changing during the summer holidays and giving them
the surprise of their lives.”
“Let's do it! If there is anything I can help you with, just ask me!”
Maybe it's a polite comment, but since the stylist made that offer, I decided to ask her what kind of clothes
that are currently in fashion would she recommend.
She responded by giving me good information gathering methods as well as current trends, so I think I'll give
it a try after I return home.
Thank you, moderately rude stylist.
It helped me so much that I didn't care about the negatives. I'm really grateful that I had the courage to take
the first step and walk into the barbershop.
I left the place with my new self, thinking that I would ask him to cut my hair again when it got longer.

Not being satisfied with the wonderful haircut I got last week, I spent days researching clothes.
A stylist told me about 'huku', a website where fashionistas from all over the country post their own outfits.
There I learned many things.
First, I found about ten items of clothing that I liked, then I checked the brands and price of each of them. If
there was a store nearby that sold them, I would write the location on a piece of paper.
Eventually, I decided to look for a store that sold affordable, approachable, and versatile clothing. After that, I
went shopping.
Nowadays, one can buy clothes online, but you can't know if it will fit your size, which is of utmost
importance in the case of clothing, unless you actually try it on.

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I left my house, very excited, thinking that if I could get some advice from the store clerk, I would gain even
more knowledge about fashion.
The first store I visited was called 'Dokuro', which is quite popular among men and women of all ages,
fashionable people and mothers.
Many of the garments designed with the theme of 'clothing that can be embraced by people with unique
sensibilities' are very versatile. This time I decided to buy a plain black t-shirt and some skinny jeans, and
with this I was able to complete my mission without any problem.
However, the problem is the second store.
Her name is 'Rock Musician'.
As its name suggests, the store specializes in rock style clothing.
Layered shirts are fine, but I wanted a stylish shirt that could be worn alone, so I came here thinking about
purchasing a popular item from this store, which is characterized by its bright floral print.
“Hmm… It's hard to get in.”
It's the same thing I felt when I was in front of the barbershop on that occasion.
But I understood why I felt that way.
Since compared to 'Dokuro', the price of the clothes in this store was ten times higher.
Naturally, the people who come here to buy clothes are real fashionistas because even the exterior of the store
was quite elaborate.
I wonder if I, who am like a level one slime, can enter a store like this that has polished concrete and pictures
of guitars displayed on the screens outside.
Stop. I grew out of my visit to the barbershop.
“…With my current self I will be able to do it. I will be able to do it".
And as if I had put myself under a spell, I entered the store pretending to be a regular visitor with my chest
puffed out.
However, silence spread throughout the store, as if no one could see me.
Even though the hinge of the shop door made a little noise.
No one was present to at least welcome me.

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Although now that I realize, the store employees deliberately do not welcome customers so that they can
calmly look at the clothes.
Okay, then I can look around with peace of mind.
But for now, I'd better stop acting all normal.
Right now, I am a fashionable person, who came to a shop under the sun of Omotesando today─────
“Is this your first time here, Onii-san?”
After all, an expert's eyes cannot be deceived.
Since he already discovered me, I decided to honestly ask him for some advice as a beginner.
"Yeah. This is my first time. “I don't know anything about clothes, but I saw the clothes here on the web and I
thought they were cool.”
"That's how it is. I think our clothes would look good on you because you look great, Onii-san. Is there
anything in particular you're looking for?”
"Hmm. I think this".
When I showed Onee-san my smartphone, she made a surprised face.
“Oh, you mean that one! It is the most popular item of this season.”
Saying that, he walked around the store for a while, took the clothes hanging on a rack and returned.
"This is. We have three colors: blue, red and green. Would you like the blue one?”
"Yes that's fine".
The item of clothing I was looking for was more striking than in the photo. I could feel the emotion just by
looking at him.
“We have sizes 42, 44 and 46. What is your size?”
“Mmm, which one would you recommend...?”
“Well, if it's you Onii-san, then I think the size 44 would look good on you. A slightly larger one would make
you look relaxed and fit well with the current trend. Would you like to try it on?”
"Yes please".
At Onee-san's urging, I entered the fitting room at the back of the store.
Then, he handed me the clothes and closed the curtain.
After a while and after confirmation from outside, the curtain was opened.

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“W-How do I look?”
“It really suits you! It's fine if you wear it alone this season, but in autumn and winter, if you wear it under a
coat, it will give you quite a presence.”
“Then I think I’ll buy it.”
I look in the mirror and I think it looks pretty good on me.
If I go back to my old self, I feel like I won't be able to wear these clothes anymore, so if I buy this item of
clothing it will be my motivation to keep trying.

I followed Onee-san to the cash register and ended up paying.

“Yes, it really suits you. Please come again. Here is your product.”
"Thank you so much. I will come again".
We exchanged greetings and I left the store.
With this, I was able to buy a set of clothes.
Well, I will continue my research in the future and, at the end of the summer vacation, I will return to School
with a different me.
And so time passed and the vacation ended.
A new semester starts tomorrow.

“Hey, that's Miyamoto...right?”

“He seems like a different person! It looks like a model…”
“Isn't it at the level of a debut after the summer holidays...?”
Suddenly I received several compliments.
Thanks to what happened last month, I learned to see myself objectively. Well, my self-esteem wasn't very
good to begin with, so that's it.
Even I can admit it myself.
During the summer vacation, I raised my level too much.
I didn't want to waste a single second of that month off, so I did my best to make the most of each day.

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I went to the barber to get my hair cut in a modern style, I made an effort to learn more about clothes, even
bought something with my own money, and I started doing exercises to increase my muscle mass.
I had no idea at first, but luckily for me, I began to soak up the knowledge like a sponge soaks up water. If
only in appearance, I emerged from the shadows in which I lived.
No wonder my classmates were surprised when I introduced myself like this.
It's a little annoying to hear that this was my summer vacation debut, but if I put myself in their shoes, well, I
feel like they're right.
Even when I looked around the classroom, I could only notice boys and girls making a fuss from afar and no
one had enough courage to come up to me and tell me what they think. ... Except for one person.

“Are you Yuu?”

Yumi Asakawa was the owner of the cold, low-toned voice that spoke to me from behind. She is my
childhood friend and ex-girlfriend.
Her beautiful raven hair reached the hem of her blouse and was the result of her incessant care to match his
efforts, with long, slanted eyes and a small nose that made being Japanese a fact hard to believe.
Just by brushing her hair, she attracts the attention of her classmates.
She is a model student and her style stands out among girls her age. Just in case, she's taller than me.
Hearing all this, I'm sure you'll envy me for having the special status of being this beauty's childhood friend,
however, the reason why certain people can think like this so carefree is because they don't know that this is
the worst woman who cheated on me and abandoned me since as I said before, she is my ex-girlfriend.
“What do you want Asakawa?”
“Is this your summer vacation debut? This is so fun! It doesn’t make sense that you just changed your
appearance.”
At my response, which I said calmly, she suddenly blurted out those cruel words to me.
Apparently the words of a beautiful person have more weight and strength that are capable of breaking the
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However, I have grown enough to counter such attacks.

“It's true that my appearance has changed, but can you please not judge me just for that? At least I think I am
much better than you now, who is rotten inside.”
“¿... Hey? “Yuu…?”
I guess she didn't expect this counterattack after all since she was left with an open mouth and a stunned look,
which ruined her precious beauty.
I'm a little different today. Specifically, it's like the taste of a rundown ramen shop suddenly changed hands
and now tasted different.
As I said before, we are childhood friends.
We have been together for as long as I can remember and when we graduated high school we started to
become aware of each other romantically.
And then, in the spring of a year ago, neither of us had confessed properly, but we started dating as if it were
a natural thing.
Around this time, Asakawa made her debut as a model and began to stand out for her beauty.
I was proud to be the boyfriend of such a girl, but at the same time, I began to wonder if I was the right man
to be by her side.
I wondered if he liked it, since he was not someone superior or talented like the others.
I wanted to be recognized by her, who shines so brightly that I can't even look at her from the side, so I
worked hard to become a man who wouldn't embarrass her.
Now I feel like I took the wrong path, but I don't think I thought about it that way at the time.
So of course it was a shock to me when he broke up with me that day.
I realized that I was the only one who was thinking about our future unlike her.
But at the same time I thought, 'Of course.' I probably didn't try hard enough.
From a distance, things weren't very clear to me, but I assumed that this actor was a much kinder man than
me.
That's why I decided to just accept my breakup with her.
I let her free because if that made Asakawa happy, that was more than enough.
However, it seems like she broke up with that boyfriend within a week of our breakup.
This person, with whom I got along so well, ended me very easily.

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And now, after everything that happened, Asakawa started talking to me as if nothing had happened.
Well, the only thing that's changed is that he started making fun of me.
In the past, I used to think that it was inevitable and my fault that I couldn't become a suitable man for her,
but now it's different.
Asakawa betrayed me.
That fact alone remains firmly rooted in my heart.
I don't need her in my life.
Therefore, I prepared to talk to her, who was still trembling in front of me that she had even forgotten to take
a seat.
“Anyway, why do you bother talking to me? If we are no longer childhood friends or anything like that.”
“Y-You're wrong! That is not true!"
"What's the matter? “You deceived me and betrayed me.”
“A-About that… Yuu I just─────”
“Don't talk to me anymore. “I just look at you like you’re a complete stranger.”
The classroom began to murmur as if it had a life of its own.
Because I thought it would interfere with his modeling activities, I never mentioned to anyone that we were
dating, much less that he cheated on me.
Even if it was an event from the past, there is a chance that chaos could break out if it became known that she
had a boyfriend.
But that worry soon disappeared. What I happened to her now is none of my business.
“What Asakawa-san? Did you cheat on him?”
“Wow, she is the worst…”
“It is true that beautiful girls have bad personalities.”
“H-Hey everyone... “They are wrong...”
I don't know if it was sincere condemnation or pure jealousy, but my classmates seemed to be on my side.
After all this was a normal reaction.
My feelings were not wrong.

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However, there are some people who have a mocking look when saying those words.
They worshiped Asakawa so much that they couldn't see reality.
She couldn't stand the looks that passed through her as if they blamed her for everything and then, with tears in her
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But, for some reason, he seemed to be smiling.

... And so begins my new life in High School.
Asakawa is the second person I walked away from, which meant I only had one person left. Just one more
and he could truly be reborn.
I could meet the third one after school.
The class started while I was constantly suppressing my anxiety.

The bell rang announcing the end of classes.

All my classmates are happy that today's troublesome classes are over.
He had the same smile as them, but for a different reason.
I still have the moment to be able to see the face of a person dear to me.
That one thing is what makes my heart race.
I want to talk to my senpai.
“Akane-chan, would you like to go to karaoke with me today?”
"I'm sorry! I have something to do…"
“Again with that Senpai? I see you like it~”
It's no secret that I have feelings for him.
It's embarrassing to be ridiculed by my friends, but I can't worry about that.
Of course, it's fun to go out with my friends, however, there is something else I need to prioritize today after
the long summer vacation.
We can finally see each other after a month.
After classes, I ran out of the classroom to go see him.
I should be walking, but without realizing it I was already jogging. Skipping every other step, I climbed the
stairs and moved towards his classroom.
“Yuta-senpai! I came here to catch you!”
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Most of the students are still in the classroom, but senpai is the only one who was not in this place.
“Excuse me, didn't you come today, Yuta-senpai?”
“No, no… He did come. I think he already went home…”
Since I come to see him almost every day, my face is already known to all the boys in his class, so they
immediately tell me where he is.
Apparently, senpai came to school today.
But why did he leave if he normally waits for me?
Maybe he wasn't feeling well. If so, then you are in trouble. I have to go take care of him.
After thanking the person who told me where he went, I ran out of the classroom.

When I left the school building, I found a back that seemed to be senpai.
His hairstyle and posture are a little different from usual, but I realized that it was him after all.
This is the power of love!
I was more relieved to see him walking without any problems, since I truly cared about him.
I didn't receive a single response to the messages I sent her during the summer vacation, so she will pay
attention to me today until she is satisfied.
Since I couldn't stand looking at him from behind anymore, I couldn't help but hug him tightly from behind.
“Senpai~!”
“…Kurosaki. That hurts".
Senpai half turned his head to confirm the appearance of his cute kouhai.
He looks a little more unfriendly than usual, but it also made him look cool. That made my heart clench.
"I'm sorry! Leaving that aside, what happened to you!? Is this your summer vacation debut or something!?
Did you get a girlfriend!?”
It was probably because I hadn't seen him for a month, but he looked even better than before.
With her upright posture and neat, straight hair, her neat face stands out.

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I liked the gentle senpai from before, but the one now also had a hidden charm that caught my attention
easily.
I was so happy to be able to talk to him after a long time, that I continued talking without waiting for his
response.
“Even if a senpai like you makes his summer vacation debut, he won't manage to get a girlfriend! Ha ha ha!
Do you want one that much!? Well, it can't be helped~ If senpai asked me to be his─────”
“I'm sorry, but please shut up. “Your voice bothers me.”
“…Huh?”

"…Hey?"
The words that came out of his mouth like bullets from a machine gun were shattered by my voice alone and
all that was left behind was silence.
“So what if it was my summer vacation debut? So what if I wanted to have a girlfriend? Why do you think he
couldn't get a girlfriend? "Don't laugh so easily at the efforts of others."
“…Wait, Senpai…I-I…”
As if he understood the situation, sweat was dripping from his forehead and his hands didn't know where to
go.
"That? You always made fun of me, but now you can't answer me. If you are so weak, why don't you train
your own mental strength before abusing people?
Kurosaki's eyes wavered and his cheeks were tinged with anxiety.
His slightly upturned gaze gives a harsh impression, but his face is well defined on its own, so it doesn't
matter much. She was beautiful despite everything.
Her average height is the same as mine and her large breasts are far above average.
In a different sense than Asakawa, he has outstanding style. Although he doesn't have many friends, he
basically treats everyone without discrimination and is the target of admiration from the freshmen.
Why did I, who did not stand out, become linked to this existence?
And suddenly I remembered the past.

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I remember I was watching the music video of a band I liked on a train ride from school, and Akane Kurosaki
approached me because that band was also one of her favorites.
After that, he grew fond of me and the two of us often went to the game room and watched movies together.
However, when I told him that my ex-girlfriend had been unfaithful and abandoned me, Kurosaki started
making fun of me.
He was starting to trust Kurosaki.
At that moment I was sure that he would never abandon me, that he would never deny my feelings, but the
reality was different.
I was betrayed once again, albeit in a different sense of the word. Still, I kept laughing. Back then I thought
that if I tried harder, if I was kinder, maybe he would eventually understand me.
That's why I accepted his endless jokes, but that continued to this day.
I have given up on that sweet lie called hope. Kindness without feelings is meaningless.
Judging from Kurosaki's reaction just now, it was as if she had never been ridiculed because of her charm.
Yeah. I don't need her in my life anymore.
“I'm not your senpai anymore. You don't care if it's me or someone else as long as you can abuse it to your
heart's content, right? “I’m sorry, but find another boy to do that to from now on.”
“I-I'm sorry for making fun of you… *Sniff* . I'm sorry… Senpai…”
“Am I obliged to forgive you because you started crying? That means is it my fault for not crying? That's
ridiculous. I can not take this anymore"
As I staggered away from Kurosaki, who was slowly walking towards me.
Even though I saw Kurosaki cry, my heart did not waver for a second.
“S-Senpai… don't go…”
Turning my back on him and his words, I headed home.

With this, I was able to reestablish all the important relationships in my life around me.
I walked away from the girls who tried to trample and humiliate me. Finally I started again.

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Only I can love myself as I truly am. Only I can understand and protect myself.
I must regain my self-respect, which I lost because of others.
Ah, how good it feels to not be carried away by what others say.
When I came to, it was already getting dark outside.
I looked at the sky from my bedroom window and saw that the stars that I normally cannot see were shining
magnificently.
Usually I couldn't see them, but now it felt like the brightest star of all was looking at me with warm eyes.

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Akane Kurosaki 's motive

The next day.

Because I changed suddenly, a large invisible wall seemed to be erected between me
and my classmates.
Well, for starters, there's no one I was particularly close with.
c
But this is an opportunity. Now that there are no people talking to me out of curiosity, I will
take a TO closer look and look for people I would like to be friends with.
I don't want to isolate myself from everyone. Of course I want to have friends. I long for
Q
that perfect youth where I am surrounded by them.
p
But how can I become friends with someone?
Is it YO something I should do consciously?
Looking back, I feel like I was always worried about trying to please the other party
T
and that I never had friends I could get along with.
At the end of the summer vacation of my second year of high school, friendly relationships
OR
have been built within my class, and it could be said that they were already established and
complete.
l
It was not possible for a stranger to suddenly join.
With EITHER
that in mind, it may be extremely difficult to make friends right now, however, I still
had time left.
To start, you should slowly develop a strategy even during classes, right?
Then I opened the classroom door while imagining my dream life in my High School.
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The eyes of Asakawa, that unfaithful girl, were slightly swollen, perhaps from crying the night before. Sitting
in my seat, she raised her hand slightly to show her presence. What's with that clumsy greeting?
I was very clear with her yesterday. I don't think that was a dream or a mere illusion, right?
But if this were a dream, there is a possibility that everything I did on my summer vacation was also a
figment of my imagination, wasn't it?
Why are you sitting in my seat to begin with?
Could it be that Asakawa and I speak different languages?
I was careless. He should have used English, considered the common language of the world, instead of being
complacent and using Japanese.
Unfortunately, I'm not good at speaking English.
I remember once a foreigner asked me for directions when I was walking through the city streets. My English
was so bad that he didn't understand me, so I ended up taking him to a police station to get help.
It's a shame, but the only way I can communicate is through Japanese. I regret not studying English during
the summer holidays.
“That's my seat. Back off".
“Yuu, you finally started to talk openly about what you feel, but yesterday's joke was harsh. It bothered me to
hear that you didn't consider me a friend, even though it was a joke on your part. Also, call me Yumi like you
used to in the old days…”
“I wasn't kidding.”
Is the person in front of you the same as always?
I don't understand anything you're saying.
You know I'm saying how I really feel, but do you think I'm joking?
“Hey, hey, Yuu. Stop pretending you're mad at me, okay? I'm sorry for everything I've done to you until now,
but it's about you─────”
“...Are you sorry? What the hell are you complaining about? My heart is already broken because of you, since
you always denied all my feelings. Even if you unfold the damaged paper and replace it in its original shape,
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As if to fix the situation, he looked at me and tried to talk to me but all his words were irrelevant.
Unlike the other two I finished, Asakawa cheated on me and abandoned me.
Even if you apologize now, you can't mend my broken heart.
Hearing those words, his expression froze. Unlike before, it seems that my words finally reached her.
“T-That's what I'm trying to do... Is that I..."
Just like yesterday, Asakawa ran out of the classroom, a trail of bitter tears trailing behind her. However,
unlike last time, his mouth was tight and he had a desperate expression on his face, as if he didn't want to
admit something, as if he was vigorously denying the entire situation.

After all, she didn't come back even after classes started. Apparently, he went home early.
There was a gloomy atmosphere around me, but the only thing that remained in my heart was the feeling of
achievement of finally being able to convey my thoughts much better than I expected. I spent the rest of the
day feeling refreshed.

As soon as I got home, I decided to continue with my muscle training that had already become part of my
daily routine.
Now I can do it more frequently and consistently than when I started.
It's only been a month since I started working on this and although there are no visible changes in me, my
body still feels lighter and healthier than before. My mind is also calmer than usual.
What I have learned from all this is that creating a habit is the most important and difficult thing to achieve.
Next, I decided to open my newly created social media account to gather information on current and
upcoming trends in fall and winter clothing.

I used to think that any clothes would be fine as long as I can wear them and in some ways, I still think the
same, but of course now I see the greatness of many outfits.
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I have seen a picture before in which a good-looking person wearing cheap clothes and a person with a less
good-looking face wearing expensive clothes, side by side. Then they were forced to change their clothes
with each other's, and the result was that the good-looking person looked good in both kinds of clothes, and
even cheap clothes looked expensive if worn by someone with a certain style and fashion.
In other words, to wear the clothes you like, one must develop the right style to match it. We live in a quite
complicated world.
After finishing dinner, I trimmed my eyebrows before taking a shower.
I could do it tomorrow, but I feel like it would be problematic, so I decided to cut them tonight.
I was skeptical when I saw an article online that said, 'Eyebrows can change a person's impression,' but
actually, they were right. Well-groomed eyebrows convey dignity.
I couldn't stop thinking about the stylist who styled it for me the first time. She was a little rude though.
After grooming my eyebrows, I also trimmed my nails and finally it was time to take a shower.
After getting cleaned up, it was finally time to rest. I was secretly looking forward to watching all the anime I
had recorded.
On the screen, I saw the protagonist and the heroine arguing.
He was to blame, but the heroine used him as a pretext to do something terrible.
In the end, however, they both acknowledged each other's faults, apologized, and got along again.
I didn't hate how things played out, but I accidentally hit the stop button.
I used to like romantic comedies, but they seem to have lost a lot of their appeal lately.
Maybe the longing for love has disappeared.
It's sad when the beautiful and happy life you had with your girlfriend ends.
After all, to some extent, I find that story fascinating.
Like the protagonist on the screen, I was able to obey and convey my thoughts without reservation. Yet, for
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A worker's morning starts early.

It was six in the morning and the loud ringing of the alarm clock could be heard throughout my room.
My day begins after stopping that sound with anger.
While sighing, I headed to the bathroom.
After brushing my teeth, washing my face and fully waking up, I went to the living room to have breakfast.
I say breakfast, but it's just some toast with jam. I poured some milk to go with it, and that's what I had for
breakfast. Next, I had to prepare my lunch.
I carefully packed the side dishes, rice, and some jelly I made last night and closed the lid of the lunch box.
Now all that was left was to put it inside my bag.
As I was about to do that, I realized that time was almost up.
I quickly returned to my room and put on my uniform. And after adjusting my tie, I grabbed my bag, went
straight to the entrance of the house and put on my shoes.
“I'm leaving~”
Although I didn't receive a response, I still have irreplaceable memories of my parents in this house.
I said goodbye as usual and left the house with lighter steps.
Today we will have good weather again. It's almost like it's shining like the sun.
The morning immediately after cutting out everything bad in my life felt special, and even after a couple of
days, that joy still remains in my heart.
From now on, I can do whatever I want.
My days will be peaceful without being abused by my childhood friend, my kouhai, and even that maid.
I will erase the memories of these girls and will never have anything to do with them again.
... That is what I thought.
In front of the ticket office of the station near my house, I saw a familiar face. His cropped black hair with
golden underparts swung from side to side, and he was frantically searching for something or someone.
It was my kouhai, Akane Kurosaki.
I completely forgot that she and I use the same station.
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So I headed to the front doors without hesitation.

With everything I told him the day before yesterday, I didn't think he would approach me─────
“Ah, S-Senpai! Please wait!"
Damn..
Since we were already separated, I didn't have to bother listening to her.
I put that voice out of my head and continued walking towards the entrance. Ah, my remaining balance is
seven hundred and seventy-seven yen.
I feel a small kind of happiness seeing that kind of luck. Well, I also feel like my luck is currently running
out. Actually, is there a luck indicator in the first place?
“Senpai! Yuta-senpai, Ah, wait!”
"You hinder me..."
As I climbed the stairs to the platform contemplating the greatest mystery of the century, I saw my former
kouhai with her arms open in front of me to not let me pass.
Despite his actions, I noticed that his arms and legs were shaking like a baby deer. I was terrified his eyes
would meet mine.
I don't want to have this conversation now, but it was dangerous if someone imitated something like that on
the stairs.
As your High School Senpai, it's possible that if something happens you'll catch my attention.
Therefore, I have no choice but to solve this using the smallest of words.
“H-Hey, why didn't you read the message I sent you...?”
“Ah, I just blocked you. I mean that I deleted the contacts that were unnecessary to me.”
“N-It can't be... *Sniff*... ”
I don't feel any guilt as I watch her beautiful face crumple in front of me and tears roll down her cheeks,
ruining her makeup.
Of course, she was the one who made me act this way because she made fun of me in one of my worst
moments.
During the summer holidays, I deleted all my contacts and threw away all my photos and their memories as a
way to separate myself from the past. The photos I took with Asakawa when we were little, the necklace he
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The only thing I couldn't delete was the messaging app itself as it still contained the chat logs between my
late parents.
However, instead of bombing everything, I blocked Kurosaki and the others. Thanks to that, my contact list
was empty.
"Why are you crying?"
"Because... “You are cruel to me, Senpai…”
¿... Am I cruel?
I just did and said what I thought. It should be the same as Kurosaki did. She made fun of me so many times,
but now she dares to call me cruel even though she did the same thing to me?
"Cruel? You've been doing the same thing to me for a long time and it's not your fault? Have you ever
thought about how I felt?”
The moment I expressed my feelings, Kurosaki's lowered eyes widened and the wrinkles on his face
disappeared. It seems that he understood something important.
"I see... “Everything… was my fault…”
“Didn't you notice? If you want to think about it, do it alone. Don't follow me anymore. If you do something
like that next time, I will call the police.”
“... Yeah".
I walked up the stairs, passing Kurosaki.
I said I would call the police so they wouldn't take further action. Well, even if this works most of the time,
some are not intimidated by it.
Let's just say, when in doubt, saying one would involve the police turns out to be a useful life hack.
After waiting on the platform for a while, listening to the hustle and bustle of the lively city, the train finally
arrived.
There weren't many people this morning, which was quite unusual. I stood by the window and unlocked my
smartphone, which I no longer used just to watch online videos.
Kurosaki's heart was already beaten by what just happened, so he won't come to me like he did this morning.
With that confidence in mind, I started watching music videos of my favorite bands.

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After enjoying the music for a while, we apparently arrived at the station closest to the school and a group of
people wearing the same uniform as me got off the train, so I followed them.
As I walked out the front door, I realized I stupidly left my lunch at home. It was a failure on my part.
Oh, I was in a hurry and I left it on the table.
... Well, now is not the time to regret it, so today I will go to the convenience store.
I walked away from the flow of people and entered a convenience store right in front of the station.
After what just happened, I wasn't in the mood to eat a full lunch, so I bought two rice balls, a salad, and a
large bottle of tea.
As I left the store, the number of students decreased substantially, probably because I had spent a good
amount of time there, therefore, I was able to walk leisurely down the road to school.

"Cruel? You've been doing the same thing to me for a long time and it's not your fault? Have you ever
thought about how I felt?”
I felt frozen to the bone by his cold gaze. His tone was that of someone who stops believing.
The moment he said those words to me, I understood where I had gone wrong.

I met him during the winter of my senior year of high school.

After a bunch of lessons I didn't want to take, I got on a train to go home.
My days were empty.
All I did was study things that wouldn't help me in the future, have superficial conversations with friends I
don't get along with, and try to look like I enjoy studying just to look good to my parents.
The world around me was gray and boring.
The only time I could drown out the repetitive nothingness was by listening to music.

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But to my dismay, I forgot my headphones at home that day. I didn't dare listen to it over the speakers.
I decided to make a meticulous observation of the people around me.
I had no choice but to hold on to the train and look around for something, anything to relieve my boredom.
That's when I realized that a boy was wearing the same uniform as me. I could see his smartphone screen
from where I was and, to my surprise, he was watching one of my favorite band's music videos.
Well, spying wasn't good of me, but I was happy to see someone with the same weird tastes that I had.
The song he heard gave me a lot of energy and, at that moment, it was my favorite.
I could feel an inexpressible sadness in his eyes as he watched that happy song.
Then, without even realizing it, I started talking to him. It was the so-called reverse caller, in which a woman
calls a man.
It started like this, and my dull world gradually became filled with color.
A few months later, Yuta-senpai and I had accumulated numerous memories.
We played crane games in the arcade, watched the latest action movies at the theater, and had
unapologetically silly fun. Every day was full of life.
However, even when he put on a smile, he could still see the distress in the color of his eyes.
What happened to you in the past?
Would I ever be able to find out?

A new spring had arrived and I was officially his kouhai.

That would allow me to spend more time with him.
Before long, every day of my life was pleasant.
At some point, the feelings I had for him gradually changed from friendship to something more.
He is the first boy I have ever loved.

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One day he ended up telling me about his past.

His parents had died in an accident, and it was heartbreaking for him.
He had a girlfriend who supported him at the time.
He did everything he could to be a good match for her, but she was unfaithful to him.
Senpai told me these stories as cheerfully as he could, but I could clearly feel the thorns piercing his heart.
The pain was still there.
He pretended not to care, but he was traumatized by this succession of events.
The fact that he told me such painful memories, clearly painful to remember, meant that he opened up to me.
After hearing his story, I knew I shouldn't be happy, but I was.
At that moment I wondered if there was anything I could do to ease his pain.
But I got scared.
I like Yuta-senpai, his shy smile, his sometimes dark humor, his soothing voice, everything about him.
But what if he finds out about my feelings?
He might think she would betray him, something he's been through before.
If I did, our relationship would really end.
That's why I decided to bury these feelings in the back of my mind thinking that by making jokes about the
situation and making fun of him, I would assure Senpai that my feelings never went beyond friendship.
Someday, when the time came to heal his wounds, I─────

During this summer vacation, I sent him messages asking him to go out with me so he can have fun, but I
never got a single response from him.
Has your smartphone broken?
In any case, I decided to wait since we would be spending a lot of time together after the holidays.
I really wanted to contact him more, but the thought that he might notice my feelings prevented me from even
trying to call him.

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I noticed that he was more careful with his appearance and no longer had a vulnerable vibe.
He didn't know what happened during the holidays, but he finally got over his trauma! That's what I
imagined.
I was so excited by that prospect that I started saying things I wouldn't normally say, like 'I could be your
girlfriend,' and I got carried away.
My efforts were ultimately fruitless, and I didn't even stop to consider it. I began to rebuke his efforts as soon
as we met again.
Surely, he got angry and rejected me grandly. Still, I was sure that if I apologized for saying those things, he
would forgive me. Since he was so incredibly kind, I thought we could go back to the way we were before.
So, one day after his rejection and thinking about it, I decided to act like a stalker and look for him at the
ticket booths early in the morning, all to correct the mistakes I made.
─────But I was wrong! I was wrong all the time!
Every word I said to him to prevent my feelings from appearing left a mark on his heart. Each one was a
small cut, but eventually they added up and left a big scar on his self-esteem.
The reason he laughed so helplessly every time I made fun of him was not because he accepted it, but
because his heart was so hurt that all he could do was laugh.
I'm the worst. At that moment, when he told me his story, he should have made the effort to mend his broken
heart instead of waiting for it to mend over time.
I was so afraid of ruining our relationship that I shied away from honestly expressing my feelings and
repeatedly broke his wounded heart.
I have no right to cry now, so I will only do so after I apologize for everything I did.
I'm sure he won't forgive me and I'll have to disappear from his life.
Although we will never see each other face to face and we will never laugh again, I have to apologize to him.
I have taken the color away from the only person who colored my world.
It must not have been long since Senpai boarded the train.
If I hurry to catch up now, I can make it in time.
At that moment, I heard a sound that announced the arrival of the train.

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I raised my dejected face and ran up the stairs with all my strength.

“Haa... Haa Yuta-senpai!”

After arriving at the station, I continued running seriously until I finally saw Senpai's back.
He managed to hear my voice, but even though I said his name, he didn't turn around.
Still I didn't give up and ran to catch up with him.
I was tired and nervous, I couldn't breathe well and my tears were overflowing.
My vision was distorted by my tears and perhaps because I was relieved that I would soon reach him, my legs
became tangled and I fell awkwardly.
I fell on the asphalt and scraped my knees, bleeding to death. My legs were so exhausted and combined with
the pain, I couldn't stand up.
... But.
Despite the difficulty of my physical condition, I had to talk to him.
The pain I caused him was nothing comparable to this.
So, I endured the pain and tried to get up even though I felt dizzy, however, the figure that I assumed was
continuing on its way, ignoring me, was in front of me.
“... Haa... Haa... “Senpai…”

He looked at me silently, but unlike the cold gaze of yesterday and today, I could be the surprise in his eyes.
He seemed to be telling me that he didn't understand why I was chasing him.
If I don't do it now, I'll never have another chance to tell him what to do.
It doesn't matter if my tears don't stop, if my breath runs out or if my words aren't enough.
I will be honest about what I think, what I feel.
In short, I will tell you everything.

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Humans are weak creatures.

We are deceived by the looks of others, unable to express our thoughts. We forcefully swallow the idea that
pushing kindness toward others is compassion.
For fear of ruining the status quo and current relationships, we never say anything. We blindly believe that
time will solve each and every problem, and we never act accordingly.
People who truly care about something will stand their ground and act with determination.
They will overcome any difficulty while aiming for what they want.
But that is the exception and not the rule. Not many are like that, and we are all fools.
There's actually a fool here
─────And that fool is me.

I didn't think to turn around when I heard his voice chasing me.
You never learn your lesson, I thought. He'll just get discouraged and stop chasing me anyway like he did this
morning.
Even as he told me that, the footsteps kept getting closer, only to stop suddenly.
I heard someone fall behind me. This is it, I thought.
She won't get up again.
No matter how many times you try to tell me, my feelings─────
“Haa... Haa... “Senpai…”
My almost confirmed predictions were nullified as I felt a presence on my back that was about to stand up.
And before I had time to think, I turned around.
I noticed that her delicate hair, which was usually neatly combed, was now disheveled and she was bleeding
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However, those eyes that were shedding big tears of pain pierced me like a spear, and he tried to stand up.
Slowly, with the instability of a newborn fawn, he tried to walk in my direction.
Caught in his steely gaze, I am unable to say a word.
Why was he chasing me so hard?
I can't help but scream that question inside my head. The power I felt in his eyes was completely different
from before, as if his fear had suddenly disappeared.
“Sen… pai…”
“¿... What thing?"
Kurosaki's breathing was labored, but his words sounded clear.
He decided to speak with courtesy and delicacy, as if the things that each of his sentences represented were
treasures that he wanted to protect.
About the day we met.
“Since that day I spoke to you on the train, thanks to you, my boring days changed!”
He spoke when we were having fun together.
“Just watching a movie or just walking together made me happy.”
He spoke what he thought about me.
“Because I liked you Senpai... “No, I like you senpai.”
He explained to me why he started making fun of me.
“So, if you knew how I felt and... ended up hating me, I couldn't stand it, so I panicked and made fun of you.”
He talked to me about what happened yesterday and even if his words were slurred, he still conveyed his
feelings without lies or deception, even making childish expressions on his face.
“I'm really sorry for hurting you, that's why... I'm sorry".
I could never have imagined that Kurosaki would have such feelings for me.
Although I guess that was because I blocked the love of my life without even realizing it.
While I was unconscious, she noticed that part of me that I never noticed. My pain was a shackle that held
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The next thing I knew, my body stopped listening. I held her in my arms as she trembled and spoke.
Even though it was a considerable distance to the school, it was still a well-used route. It was easy to imagine
these actions spreading throughout the classes, but I still couldn't help but hug her as she blossomed
beautifully before my eyes.
It is true that her words hurt my heart and she was to blame there.
But the fact that his jokes marked me was because I was weak and sensitive.
Even the lightest joke was perceived as an insult.
Despite all that, she originally acted with me in mind.
In retrospect, I remembered that he made fun of me and my situation, but he never denied me as a person. I
acted rashly because of my feelings, but now that I can think things through calmly, I understand.
Rather, I was the one who made her avoid telling me her feelings by letting everything happen. I should have
told him, 'I'm starting to trust you, Kurosaki.' I should have even said just those words to him. Instead, all I
did was open my mouth waiting for the words to come out on their own.
I was never proactive and my lack of action made her want to hide her feelings. "Kurosaki... I'm sorry."

“W... Why do you apologize... “Senpai?”

“I am the cause of your pain, Kurosaki. “I’m so sorry I didn’t realize you were thinking about me.”
“S-Senpai... I'm sorry..."
His arms, which only touched my back, suddenly filled with strength. The warmth of a person I hadn't felt in
a long time penetrated my heart.
Letting go of the weakness of the past is also accepting someone who is willing to admit their own faults and
grow.
What has already happened will never go away.
It will take me a long time to fully trust her again.
But what I can say for sure is that my resentment towards her has already disappeared from my heart.

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Soaked in the bathtub, I stared at the pure white ceiling for a while. The warmth of the water against my skin
and the soft breeze caressing my cheeks felt good.
After what happened at the station, I accompanied Kurosaki to the infirmary and spent another normal day at
school, ignoring the constant stares of everyone around me.
I even felt Asakawa, my former childhood friend and girlfriend, looking at me with a horrified expression,
perhaps because of the rumors that surfaced. Despite all that, I am no longer a man who cares about such
things.
I'd like to think so, but there was just one doubt in my heart.
I always thought the most important thing was to be kind, remember to smile, and do everything you can to
make others feel good about themselves.
However, as a result, I have struggled to convey my feelings to anyone, and those I have allowed access to
my heart have treated me rudely.
That's why I started fighting against what I thought was unreasonable to protect myself. Saying things I
wanted to say without a filter felt good.
But is unconditional affirmation from others really the only way to be kind?
I think the answer is obvious, although I didn't understand it before.
And if I was wrong then what stops me from being wrong now?
Is it right to defeat people based solely on facts and feelings, without even looking at the intentions behind
their actions?
Of course, there is no need to forgive those who act maliciously or cross the line to harm even those who are
not involved.
But what if, like Kurosaki, they had their own feelings and intentions behind their actions?
Human beings, myself included, are creatures who grow by realizing their own mistakes.
So if we can understand the person who made the mistake and if they themselves understood it, isn't forgiving
that person true kindness?
“Yuu, you finally started talking openly about what you feel.”
I wonder what Asakawa would think behind these words.

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As I walked to school, trailing my thoughts from last night, I saw her in the same place waiting for the same
person as yesterday.
This morning I sent Kurosaki a message telling her that I had unblocked her from my contacts and she
immediately asked me if I wanted to go to school with her.
I no longer had any reason to avoid her, so I gladly accepted it.
She noticed me approaching and ran towards me while waving her small hand and with a cheerful smile, she
greeted me. It was as if all the worries that plagued his mind suddenly disappeared.
“Senpai! Good morning!"
“Good morning, Kurosaki.”
"Sorry for the sudden invitation, but I really wanted to go to school with you!"
His cheeks flushed a little from embarrassment and he had a big smile on his face. Seeing her unbridled joy
made me feel like I was having a genuine Kurosaki conversation, something we haven't had in a long time.
Maybe it means she doesn't hide her feelings as much as I do.
“You look so cool today too Senpai! Hehehe~”
“T-Thank you?”
She grabbed the hem of my shirt excitedly and my attention was drawn to her genuine, half-lidded happiness.
His cuteness alone eliminated any lingering drowsiness in me, but other than that, the glances directed at us
bothered me. We seemed like a silly couple.
“Now that I think about it, we always walked home together, but never to school.”
“I thought that if I waited for you in the morning, you would know that I liked you, and that would be too
heavy. But from now on I will always wait for you! Of course, not to the extent that I will be a nuisance!”
“... Alright".
I never realized how aggressive Kurosaki really was.
Seeing this new side of her was a real surprise, even after knowing that she held back because of me.
As I reveled in the surprise, we reached the platform and a voice announced the arrival of the train.

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“Speaking of which, are your legs okay?”

"They are very good! Rather, aren't they scars of honor? “I’m happy with them!”
“... I'm sorry".
A painfully large bandage was attached to her beautiful leg, extending from beneath her skirt.
His smile was cheerful, but I still felt guilty for indirectly causing this not-so-small injury.
Perhaps realizing my thoughts, he forcibly took my hand and led me to the train. Office workers and students
moderately filled the interior of the train and after analyzing the situation, we decided to take a place next to
the door.

The biggest enemy of high school girls were bullies. Because she is pretty and dresses well, she could
possibly get into trouble.
That's why I feel like it should be the boy's role to protect the girl, but for some reason, I was placed against
the wall as if I was protected by Kurosaki.
"Kurosaki, let's change positions."
“No, don't worry about it!”
“I’m just worried about you.”
“Thank you very much, but I'm fine! Ah~ by the way, I'm weak against tremors, so I'm sorry if I suddenly
lean towards you~”
He intentionally pressed his chest against mine while saying that.
Our summer clothes were so thin that I could almost feel them directly.
Furthermore, every time the train swayed, she made the effort to brush my entire body with hers. This is a
danger to my steel spirit that I was proud of
It seems like my body started recognizing Kurosaki as a girl again, even after everything that happened,
honestly, I'm trying my best here to hold on and not suffer socially... Wow, the girls smell so good.
“K-Kurosaki...?”
“This way I won't have to worry about falling, right?”

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As if mocking my efforts, the little devil got tangled in my arms. His hands grabbed mine like boyfriends do, and I
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“Well, what should I do next~?”

It was obvious that I wouldn't back down from their attacks, so I hit my conscience and prayed that this train
would be as fast as the Bullet Train.

After an eternity of torture, we got off the train and headed to school with other students.
“Senpai, did you defeat that boss you mentioned before?”
“You know, when I changed my weapon for that big sword, he got so scared that I ended up killing him.”
“Huh~? That's funny?"
We talked about stories I told him a long time ago.
In addition to that, new topics of conversation were born, which made it difficult to decide where to start.
“Have you heard the new song that came out last week?”
“Ah, it was really good! It was like a return to the early days of the band! I was thinking that maybe due to
corporate decisions, they had lost their edge, but the song was just─────”
A pleasant feeling spread over us as we smiled at these frivolous things. It reminded me of our time together
last year, shortly after I met her.
Suddenly she started talking to me while watching a music video and I wondered what she was doing at that
moment. Anyway, we had a great time and our interests were basically the same.
Although I consider myself a rational guy, the impact of a broken heart was too great.
Kurosaki had definitely supported me every day without me realizing it and I'm frankly happy to have
reconciled with her.
However, although we may have made mistakes and apologized, our relationship will never be the same as
before.
On the contrary, he had no idea where he might go, perhaps in a good or bad direction in the future.
Will I be able to completely trust her again? Will we be able to understand each other without repeating our
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I looked at her, realizing that she hadn't been paying attention to our conversation since she was preoccupied
thinking about such things.
Her raven hair danced in the wind, revealing the inner gold she dyed her hair with, usually not so visible.
Our eyes met, her long eyelashes trembling shyly for a second before regaining their strength, moving her
thin lips.
“Even if you don't trust me like you used to, I will continue to take care of you, senpai. So please… keep your
eyes on me too, okay?”
His smile was so bright like the morning dew that I couldn't help but smile.
If I had not listened to his words, the future would have been very different.
If my actions were a turning point, I might have had a different outcome.
If only he could have felt the hidden problems in his heart sooner.
If he had not shown interest and rejected everything, fate would be different.
However, it seems that those thoughts vanished when I saw Kurosaki.
I don't know what will happen to this relationship in the future, but I nodded deeply so that his smile would
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Ruri Otoha 's motive

“Oh Miyamoto, good morning.”

Katayama, a boy in my class, spoke to me as if we had been friends for years.
I forget his name, but I think his name was Katayama. Yeah that's right.
In any case, it was a peaceful moment before class. The students passed the time in their
c
own way as a small resistance to the immutable classes that would come later.
As TO usual, no classmates used to approach me, so I was a little surprised when Katayama,
who I don't have any particular contact with, suddenly started talking to me.
Q

I was relieved that he didn't seem to harbor any negative feelings towards me, judging by his
p
cheerful smile.
“Hey, YO what kind of cream do you use?”
“I use a mix of half Babel's 1 and Protect.”
T
“Oh, you're mixing them up! “Sometimes you can’t get the look you want with just one!”
“What kind of cream do you use Katayama?”
OR
“I use TWO cream. It's a little softer, so it's easier on the top. Sometimes I mix them with
other l
creams but I'm still researching it.”
I see. Now I understand the reason why Katayama approached me.
He EITHER had well-groomed brown hair, not too long, not too short, and a well-proportioned face.
He was wearing his uniform so that, although a little disheveled, he did not look sloppy.
He exuded a fashionable aura, the fruit of his efforts.
He is one of the popular kids in school, and also one of the most outspoken in the class.
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Despite that, he was a student like me, although he paid insurmountable attention to his appearance. He is the
only person enthusiastic and elegant enough to pass on his knowledge of hair styling, mixing creams and
waxes, so the other boys in his class compared to Katayama were not very impressive.
So, I guess, he approached a guy who seemed equally concerned about fashion as me and started talking.
“I'm sorry for approaching you suddenly. I just wanted to talk to you because, after summer vacation, you
suddenly started looking great. Some guys said it was your summer vacation debut or something, but it really
takes effort to change so much. It's something amazing".
“I think you're the most stylish boy in class, Katayama. Isn't that bag you're carrying from Kanata
Matsumoto?”
“Oh! You got it!”
Kanata Matsumoto is a national brand that anyone with a little knowledge of clothing knows about, but it was
not widely used among high school students due to its higher than usual price.
That's why no one around Katayama noticed it, but as I did, their eyes shone.
While considering this, I also felt a mix of embarrassment and happiness at being praised by him, a
fashionable boy.
“In a way you have changed. I thought you had changed a long time ago, but now you seem nicer than before.
In any case, I think I get along better with you now, so from now on don't hesitate to approach me! I’d love to
talk more about clothes and stuff with you.”
“I'm glad to hear you say that. I look forward to working with you from now on.”
Just as he said that, the bell rang for the start of classes and he returned to his seat, raising his right hand with
a smile as he walked.
Wait... Could it be that I have made a new friend?
I felt a tremendous connection during our conversation, which went more smoothly than I expected, and my
cheeks naturally relaxed at the sudden good fortune.
I prepared for it to take at least six months to make a friend, but thanks to his communication skills, my goal
was achieved basically instantly.
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His natural way of addressing others without being too formal and his cold responses were also based on
prior knowledge.
He also made me feel at ease by offering an apology due to the confusion of his sudden approach, and he
didn't even hesitate to give me a compliment.
Aside from that, there were still countless things I could learn from him, so I decided to have a meeting of
experts inside my brain to discuss the possibility of making him a real friend.

Well, that meeting got quite heated and classes soon ended without me having finished my research on
Katayama.
Today, again, Kurosaki came to pick me up and we both walked home from school together.
“Now that I think about it, Senpai, don't you think it would be fun if I dyed my hair?”
There are a certain number of people in the world with prejudices about it, saying that it draws attention or
that it is stupid. I wonder if they have any painful memories regarding colors other than black.
In any case, as someone who has admired anime and video game characters for a long time, I think it's pretty
cool.
"I don't believe it. I got involved with a girl with blue hair, so I don't really have any prejudices or anything
like that.”
"...Hmm".
Well, I didn't want to put her in a bad mood. Was it difficult to understand my point of view on colored hair?
Indeed, there were many kinds of shades of blue. There was sky blue, turquoise blue and aquamarine, for
example.
Looking around, I saw a student with just the hair color we were talking about standing before us.
“Look, that girl at the school door. “He has blue hair and…”
"Hmm? “Did something happen, Senpai?”
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The student in front of us wasn't just any girl with blue hair, right? Wasn't she?
I'm pretty sure her uniform was from a Girls Only School, which wasn't that far from ours.
The fact that he knows my school is understandable, but why is he here?
No, it's not a surprise if she had friends at this school, since that often happened with other students.
He must have come to find one of his friends or something.
Yes, I will continue to enjoy this pleasant conversation and─────
“Ah, Yuta-kun! “I’m Ruri!”

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“..Senpai?”
Many gazes began to fall on me as people wondered who the girl with the strong blue hair was talking to, and
in particular, one gaze was much stronger than the others.

I've been thinking for a while that maybe, just maybe, I'm not good with boys.
Don't get me wrong, it's not for a special reason or anything. It's just that I have always attended Girls'
Schools and never had the opportunity to interact with boys.
Those were my thoughts at the time.
When I started high school, I decided to start working part-time.
Buying products from my favorite animes and games cost a lot of money.
At first, I started working in a convenience store, but many people kept touching my hand when I gave them
change for no reason and some even left me their contact information.
I guess it wasn't good to say that I didn't like that since I slowly increased those acts until I was finally
harassed.
Fortunately, the police acted immediately, so the situation never got out of hand, but by then she was already
rejecting the men.
Because of what happened, I was too afraid to continue working at that convenience store.
That's when I turned my attention to a maid-café.
I thought that if I became one I could work even if I wasn't good with men. Certain words and actions that
crossed a line were prohibited by staff. On the other hand, one of my secret dreams was to wear a maid's
uniform.
And at the same time I could also improve my relationship with men.
With all that in mind, I immediately went for an interview and passed. I am currently one of the cast of
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Shortly after starting work, a certain client showed up.

His name was Yuta. Although at first I didn't pay much attention to him because he was dressed casually, to
my surprise, he was the same age as me.
He rarely interacted with other kids and it seemed like it was also the first time he came to a cafeteria like
this.
That's why I was curious and decided to ask him why he came to this place.
His words were: 'As long as I pay, I don't have to worry about being betrayed.'
I wasn't sure what he meant by that, but we were able to become friends quickly over our common interests in
anime and games.

After that day, Yuta started coming to the maid cafe every week, and without realizing it I was able to talk to
him without any fear.
I still remember one time I made a mistake and felt discouraged. He encouraged me with nice words, and
thanks to his support I was able to continue working here to this day.
I don't think he realizes it himself, but sometimes he gets discouraged and makes a sad face as if he were
remembering something.
Every time he made that face, I felt distraught that I couldn't do anything for him, and I really wished I could.
One day, a customer insisted that he push and insult him.
I didn't know what was fun about being insulted by others, but since he had asked me so seriously, I decided
to try it, and the person was delighted.
I don't know how word spread, but I got a flood of similar requests.
One of my senpais at work told me that it was easy to become popular as long as you created a character
tailored to you. I wondered if that was what he meant.

After that, the requests kept coming and before I knew it, I had so many followers that I was considered one
of the most popular maids in the cafeteria.
I don't know why, but apparently the boys liked being abused by me.
If that's the case, I'm sure the same thing will happen to Yuta.
If he did something that made him happy, his melancholy face would be replaced by a smile.

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At that time, I felt that the character I had created and I were starting to overlap, but in the end I decided to
ignore it, since everyone was happy with him.

However, day after day, the sadness in Yuta's eyes only grew.
I wanted to save him like he saved me with his constant support.
Although I tried to take away his pain with my words, he only returned a fragile smile.
Sometimes I got so angry with myself for being such an unworthy person, that I became cold. I could have
told him earlier, 'I want to spend more time with you,' but those words just stuck in my throat.
Why do you make that face?
Why can't you just look at me?
...I guess I'm not trying hard enough.
I looked it up on my smartphone and it said that I should be nicer to boys, and that insulting them was the
opposite of what I should do.
I agreed, but all the kids who came to the store asked me exactly the opposite.
Should I accept the opinions of real people or those of the smartphone?

One day I decided to try another way of speaking. I've studied some badass anime.
It seems that words like 'slave' and 'incompetent' were very popular these days. The truth is that I don't feel
comfortable using those terms with someone I liked, but I'm sure he'll appreciate it today. After all, I have
practiced well.

However, he did not even return his usual fragile smile after insulting him at the top of his lungs. Instead, he
seemed to be freed from some kind of shackle.
Why don't you smile?
Anxiety filled my chest at his momentary silence that I couldn't stand and insulted him.
"You make a lot of noise. “You look like an idiot.”
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Why did he abuse me back if he never did that?

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And most importantly, I never thought receiving those harsh words would be so difficult to bear. Despite that,
all the other kids who received my insults seemed elated. So what I did couldn't have been wrong!
“Isn't it fun to talk to me? That's because you don't try to make the conversation interesting. Even if you're
the same age as me, you get paid to have a good conversation because that's part of your job, isn't it? If you
think it's boring to talk to me, don't worry, I won't come back to this place again. Thank you for everything
and goodbye.”
His words did not stop. I never once thought our conversations were boring and, in fact, I was looking
forward to talking to him.
Why was Yuta angry?
Why did he say he won't come anymore?
I couldn't understand the situation, nor could I stop my lips from trembling.
Maybe he didn't like being called a slave.
I regretted it as I thought about the things I really wanted me to say to him.
I tried desperately to stop him and apologize, but my voice couldn't reach him. He left the store and never
returned.

That night, lying in my bed, I thought about what had happened.

What did I do wrong?
What happened to me?
No matter how many times I thought about it, I never found the answer.
After a while, I gave up and decided to sleep.
Maybe it had all been a horrible dream and tomorrow he would appear as usual.
He said he was on vacation, so I could see him anytime.
But what awaited me, such a naive girl, was a nightmare day.

It was the morning of the next day.

Well, I say that but I woke up early in the afternoon because I was thinking a lot last night.
My body felt like it was a little hotter and heavier than usual.

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Having just woken up, I opened my messaging app to see if Yuta had sent me any messages.
Although store policy prohibited me from asking for his personal number, he always sent messages to my
public store account.
With faint hopes, I checked and saw many notifications.
For a moment, my heart raced as if he was the one who had sent me a message. Actually, there were many
messages.
I nervously tapped the little notification icon, and what I saw was a barrage of slanderous messages from
people I had no relationship with.
"Hey...? What is this...?"
My mind couldn't keep up with what was happening and my thoughts inadvertently leaked out of my mouth.
What the hell was happening?!
W-What have I done?
Without words and scared by the suddenness of the situation, I start reading the messages. My finger dragged
across the screen, heavy as ever.
“I think it's horrible to call a client a slave.”
“Even if you do it for a laugh, did you apologize properly afterwards?”
“His hair is blue hahaha. The only people who have shiny hair are weirdos lol.”
I went through every single post I made and didn't find anything that would cause chaos. It was just
occasional selfies and information about my workplace.
Desperately grasping at straws, searching for the origin of this fire, I discovered that my conversation with
Yuta yesterday had been secretly recorded and published.
The video had been uploaded by a user from a disposable account, so I couldn't identify the culprit on my
own.
Be that as it may, that was the catalyst for the constant barrage of complaints and smears I am receiving.
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However, if people don't know me, they will just think that I am a rude maid who loves to verbally abuse her
clients.
But some of the comments were from people who had nothing to do with the whole situation, and they even
started creating theories about what and why it all happened based solely on the way I looked and the way I
spoke.
Of course, some people realized that I was a character and defended me, but that minority was overwhelmed
and gradually disappeared.
What I do? What I do?
A cold sweat did not stop as he witnessed the malice of people he did not even know.
As I stared dumbfounded into space, the screen suddenly flickered, as if my wish of not wanting to see those
messages anymore had been fulfilled.
I received the call from the manager of the maid-café, and I shuddered at the thought of answering since I
imagined what she wanted to tell me. Still, if I didn't, they could fire me.
And without even having time to decide, I pressed the answer button with my still trembling finger.
“Ruri-chan!! What are you doing!?"

“Uhm, Manager…”

“One of the girls at the store told me about the video and I saw it. Don't you think you went a little

overboard!?” "That is..."

It's not that I didn't agree with what he said.

People were usually elated that I said those things, so I was never exposed.
Why yesterday of all days...
“Anyway, please don't say that kind of thing again. If you do, I won't be able to keep you in the maid-café.
Also, I will ask that the video be removed, okay?”
"Yeah... Thank you, manager…”
“While I was not diligent enough to pay due attention, I am now in trouble, but we will solve it by doing our
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I guess upon hearing my response, he realized I was in shock, so he ended the call with those kind words.
Apparently the manager reviewed the surveillance cameras and, thanks to that, managed to find out who the
person was who recorded the video and took the appropriate actions.
The video was deleted shortly after and most of the people who were criticizing me lost interest and
disappeared.
However, there were some people who persisted. Some even went out of their way to go to the store to
complain.
They had never been in the business before, but they just came to do that.
These were people who just wanted to vent their frustration on someone else.
Although in those moments, thanks to the girls I worked with and the clients who confronted them, I
managed to live my days in peace.
However, the fear of being attacked at night on the street was still present.
Despite being the cause, the constant mental stress every day caused me to lose my appetite and I could
barely sleep.
I didn't notice it myself, but clients were worried that I was losing weight.
Even when I went shopping or to karaoke for a change of scenery, anxiety would drown me. I was so afraid
of someone following me that I couldn't concentrate well.
During those dark days, I sealed the persona I had created for myself and was unable to say the things my
clients liked.
Even when he tried to liven up the conversation, he often hindered the atmosphere and slowly diverted their
interest towards the other girls in the maid-café.
The manager of the maid-café encouraged me to become the popular one from the past, but it was a little
difficult for me to change the way I see myself.
I knew the real me was unattractive.
Until now, it didn't matter what the other person was talking about, if I couldn't give a good answer, I was
allowed to just laugh and joke.
That was a misunderstanding, and our conversations had no substance in the first place.
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Even though the summer vacation had just ended, he did not return to the business even once during that
entire time.
He had no idea what had changed his mind, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't find an answer to
that question.
That's why I decided to call my friend Riko-chan and ask her.
She is a great friend of mine and we go to the same school. I always consulted her when I had problems, and
she was much more mature than me. Basically I was always the one who consulted her about romantic things
since she is quite experienced in those topics. I was sure he could give me some good advice.
As soon as I called Riko-chan, she answered immediately.
I wanted to talk about the interesting things that had happened during the summer holidays, since we hadn't
been able to see each other due to different schedules. Despite that, we kept small talk to a minimum as we
talked about everything, without hiding a single event.
“... No, that was weird of you, Ruri-chan.”
“¿... So you think?"
It's not that I didn't expect that answer because of all the past events, but I still stayed silent for a while.
Realizing that she didn't fully understand what she meant, Riko-chan carefully chose her words as if she were
trying to explain it to a child.
“Let's see, Ruri-chan, I think your criterion for judging what makes a man happy consists only of the
customers who come to the maid-café.”
"I think so. It's just that I don't know any more men than our clients. Takuya-san, Captain-san, Yuta-kun and
a bunch of other men were happy that I abused them.”
“You might think that, but I don't think Yuta-kun is one of them.”
It can't be that Yuta-kun isn't happy.
Since I started throwing horrible words at people, the number of clients who specifically came for me
increased dramatically.
In other words, my character was in high demand. Captain-san was the first to ask me to insult him, then
Takuya-san started promoting me enthusiastically.
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He... Huh?
“Yuta-kun supported me even before I became popular. ..”
"Oh really? Well, he was different from any other client at that time. Did he ever say what he liked about
you?”
Riko-chan never put too much pressure on me, and thanks to her patience I slowly regained my ability to
think clearly.
Come on, I need to remember. I should have asked him before what he liked about me.
“... My smile".
That's right, my smile. It wasn't long after we became friends and I still didn't feel confident in myself that I
asked him a question.

“Hey, Yuta-kun. I’m not popular, but why do you support me so much?”
"Hmm... “You are cute and fun to talk to, but the most beautiful thing about you is your smile.”
"My smile?"
"Yeah. "Your smile is very radiant."
“... You surprised me, but thank you!
"I see... Yuta-kun liked him just the way he was... I understand it..."
For a moment, I thought I was going to cry.
However, my fingertips felt nothing at the edge of my eyes. Overwhelming grief dried my tears and I could
not shed a single tear.
How could I not realize something so simple?
Maybe other people liked my smile like Yuta-kun, but he was the only one who expressed it in words.
At the same time, I understand why he suddenly changed at that moment.
Maybe his heart had a scar from the beginning and that was the reason why he looked so sad. He went to the
maid-café to feel the warmth of the people and somehow managed to endure everything so that his heart
would not break.
So when I kept pushing and pushing it, whatever was hiding beneath it eventually came to the surface and
exploded. In terms of work, my character may have been the right choice, but playing it without thinking, I
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Like a slave, I acted without thinking using the character I chose.

“Ruri-chan, what do you want to do now?”
He asked a question to respect my choice instead of forcing my actions.
And after a brief silence, I said what I thought.
“I…I want to apologize to Yuta-kun. Oh, and I also want to thank you…”
First of all, I must apologize to him.
It's not enough to say that I didn't know or that I was wrong.
I hurt the same person who saved me with his words, and I still haven't paid him back.
I also felt that if I could have interacted with him as he was, without playing a character, we could have
enjoyed our place where we belong as usual.
But regretting it now won't change anything.
Just like then, I'm sure our relationship is at a complete crossroads now.
Also, I want to thank him for being there for being who he really was.
“... "Then we have to plan something. Do you happen to know which school Yuta-kun goes to?" "Yeah...
There is only one school around here with a fountain.”
He always came to the maid-café on the weekends, so I never knew where he went to school.
However, I remembered one thing. Once he told me that there was a fountain at the school where he attended.
“Then you could contact him… I don't know where he lives, and I'm not even sure you should go there, so
wait until the holidays are over. If you have no courage, I can go with you.” “Thank you, but I will try to do
it on my own.”
“Well, I'll be supporting you from backstage! If you need anything else, call me! I will listen to you whenever
you want!”
After saying that, we hung up the call and silence once again reigned in the room.
But I no longer felt alone and a small spark of courage was lit in my heart.
What a good friend I have.
It was all my fault in the first place, and he still listened to me kindly without stating the obvious or rubbing
salt in the wound. He helped me find a solution. Without it, I wouldn't even know what I did wrong.

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I will repay Yuta-kun and Riko-chan's kindness by doing something.

And even though I'm terrified that he'll reject me, I'll tell him what I need to tell him.

"If I forgive you":

I figured he was probably looking for those words. But Ruri-chan's jaw dropped to the floor and her eyes
snapped open as a drop of sweat helplessly slid down her forehead.
“Uh... Can you forgive me?”
"Of course. I'm also sorry for being rude to you. I'm sorry".
“No, that's totally… fine. “I-I told you a lot of cruel things, Yuta-kun…”
From what I can gather from his apology, he really didn't mean to hurt me by insulting me. Anyway, it was
all because of my reaction.
I didn't say anything when he started insulting me and just forced a smile. There was nothing wrong with
interpreting my reactions as acceptance.
We can't change the past, but I think everything is okay because we have both realized what things we did
wrong and now we can talk frankly again.
I felt rewarded knowing that my words had reached her, and my negative feelings I had for Ruri-chan
gradually disappeared.
She also seems to be more emaciated than before, which is understandable.
Rather, it is not surprising that this happened to her because she was slandered by countless strangers, both on
social media and in real life.
What she has experienced has been too much for a simple high school student. She has already been punished
enough.
“I guess I could have said something then, like 'don't do it' or 'I don't like it'. Doesn't that mean we're both
partly to blame?”
“... Yeah. Thank you so much".
He clasped his hands in front of his chest and looked at me with moist eyes. Just from that look, I know the
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“Realizing what you have always known is painful and emotionally hard. “Common sense is not something
that can be easily changed.”
"Yeah... "I'm sorry I didn't realize it sooner."
"You do not need to apologize. "I know what it feels like because I've been through it."
Since she attended a Girls' School all her life, she had zero experiences with men, which meant she didn't
know how to make men happy in general.
The act of insulting another person was imprinted on her, just as a little bird thinks that the first creature it
sees is its father.
Once you believe that and it actually works when you put it into practice, you won't doubt that belief at all.
Of course, nowadays, we can obtain any amount of useful information through the Internet.
However, although it is useful for mathematics and formulas, it is not useful for etiquette, common sense and
romantic relationships, since in the latter the feelings vary in different ways depending on each person, which
makes it a complicated and volatile topic.
It's like giving a game to someone who doesn't play, it won't make them happy. In the same sense, there is
knowledge that is unusable depending on the environment that surrounds us.
If you think about it this way, Ruri-chan's perception of incorporating real opinions instead of those said on
the internet can be said to be correct.
Even if you are lucky enough to realize your mistakes, it was extremely difficult to recognize them and
accept that you were wrong. I also knew deep in my heart that unconditional affirmation from others was not
kindness, but I couldn't immediately deny the thoughts that had been planted in me.
Perhaps he sensed my empathy, as the tremor in his voice was diminishing.
Then, after a few seconds of silence, he approached me as if he had made a decision, grabbing my hand while
saying something in a charming voice.
“I… I can't say I like you now, but I will do everything I can to make sure you only look at me again…
Would you forgive me?”
“I don't know if I'll ever be able to satisfy your feelings, but if that's okay with you. Clear".
“Hey! Thank you!"
His smile, that smile, was a genuine expression I hadn't seen in a long time.

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That smile that made me decide to support her.

Ruri-chan is definitely cuter when she reacts this way compared to that character she played.
Yes, this is good. From now on─────
“...Senpai?”
“... “I’m sorry I left you alone.”
Kurosaki's smile was an angry expression he hadn't seen in a while.
I realized that I had left her completely out of it and proceeded to talk to Ruri-chan as if she didn't even exist.
The looks she gave me were ten times more terrifying, since she was a beautiful girl. “Do you need to be

friends with the maid now that you have me?”

I could hear Ruri-chan's soft and clear voice as if to deny the words that Kurosaki said. “Kouhai-chan... I
wonder if that's correct? Or is it that you two are dating by chance?”

“No, we're not dating yet, but our hearts are deeply connected! So─────”
“If they're not dating, then I have a chance! I will not lose!"
Kurosaki began to puff out his large chest, affirming those words out loud, dismissing his shame. However,
pushed by Ruri-chan's positive words, she finally backed away and returned to my side.
“I'm going home for today! “Yuta-kun, could you give me your contact information?”
“He won't do that!!”
"Not well".
"Because!?"
Dodging Kurosaki, who was waving his arms trying to stop me, I exchanged contact information with Ruri-
chan, who left with satisfaction.
The only ones left were me, a kouhai who kept hitting me on my sides with a look of resentment and the
looks of the strangers who watched with curiosity.
“... I mean, senpai, you used to go to maid cafes, right? I will wear that suit as many times as you want..."

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“Oh, then how about you show me what you look like in a maid outfit next time?”
"I already told you! I'm really going to use one! Please take photos with me to make a purikura when I do!”
He says it like it's some kind of punishment, but it's definitely a reward.
Kurosaki dressed in a maid outfit should look very cute, although she might not look so good since the color
underneath her hair is blonde.
In any case, I have been able to solve another problem from the past.
I still have one more person in mind, but I wonder if it will be possible to move forward.

Unlike my turbulent days after the summer holidays, the atmosphere at the station was calm.
Normally, students would fill this place to go fulfill their duties as such, but fortunately classes had been
canceled due to the School's anniversary.
Today, Kurosaki and I planned to go to the mall, but since I arrived too early for our two pm appointment, I
just relaxed and watched the flow of people.
The streets were bustling. Children clung to their parents as they walked down the street. Office workers
hurried, smartphones in hand, hoping to arrive on time. A woman who appeared to be a college student, with
beautiful black hair down to her waist that swayed back and forth, was heading to the mall holding on to a
man's arm. They looked in love.
Like me, it must be a date.
When I observe people, I sometimes enjoy guessing their backgrounds, emotions, and thoughts.
That makes me feel like I live a life different from my own.

As my eyes wandered through the crowd, they were caught by a figure that stood out from all the others.
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Her inwardly curled bob prevented her pale neck from being too exposed, and the much more striking inner
color of her hair served to distract attention from her exposed shoulders.
When her cat eyes met mine, she smiled from ear to ear. Joyfully, he ran towards me, waving his hand.
“Senpai~! Good morning!"
“It's already noon, but good morning.”
“My morning started right when I saw you, Senpai! Did you wait for me long?”
“No, I just arrived too.”
With a textbook response, we headed to a shopping center outside the station.
Normally, when Kurosaki was wearing her uniform, she was just another cheerful high school student, a little
too pretty for her age. However, today's outfit was a little more mature than usual.
However, thanks to her beautiful figure and well-groomed face, she gave off a calm beauty that could easily
pass for a college student.
The color of his eyes were a mix of red and brown with a beautiful faint glow.
Her clothes were so thin that her breasts swayed as she walked, and even though she was next to me, I could
see them out of the corner of my eye.
“Where are you looking, Senpai~?”
“No, no, I'm just thinking about how put together and beautiful you are today, Kurosaki.”
“... I'll leave it. “Senpai, you too… you look great.”
"Glad to hear it. That makes me happy, thank you.”
I didn't lie, but it seems that I managed to escape a certain crisis.
I should have bought some sunglasses so he wouldn't see my eyes, although it looks pretty suspicious when I
put them on.
Meanwhile, we arrive at the entrance to the shopping center and look at the information map.
This shopping center is a large six-story facility. It has various clothing stores, leisure centers and movie
theaters.
It is a very popular place among middle school and high school students and families, but there are few
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“I want to go to the arcade, but I also want to go to Castle Records and Advant.”
“Ah, I want to go to Advant after a long time. “Well, it looks like there aren’t many customers, so let’s take
our time and walk around.”
"That's how it is! Come on!"

The first place we visited was Advant. Its original name is Advance Avant-Garde. It is a bookstore that has
many subcultures and niche items.
Although it is called a bookstore, it is also a popular store that delights young people with its mysterious but
abundant offering of anime products and foreign sweets.
Therefore, we often make an effort to visit it in our free time.
The first thing that caught our attention in the bookstore was the area where the manga and foreign products
are located.
For some reason, Advant has many of these products for sale nationwide and you can only find better quality
in specialty stores.
“Senpai, senpai! The new volume of Captain Aguacate is out!
“Kurosaki, you've been hooked on it since you saw his movie before... It costs three thousand two hundred
yen? Isn’t it expensive?”
It is the manga of the most popular hero movie.
Kurosaki seems to have become a big fan of Captain Avocado since we went to see his movie together.
He uses a hammer that is similar to an avocado seed to knock down his enemies, which made him look cool,
although I prefer the Purple Hamster.

“Would you like a cherry-flavored cola?”

"Hey...? It tastes delicious?"
“It could be a popular foreign product, we just don't know, you know?”
The way to enjoy this bookstore is to look at these products that you don't know if they are fashionable and
then talk about them in an interesting way.
We enjoyed Advant after a while without doing so and finally left the place.
By the way, the cherry flavored cola was quite delicious.

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Next stop was Castle Records. As you can guess from the name, this is a major CD store with a wide range of
artists and songs, from popular titles to indie gems.
The store was always lively, as bands often held events there to promote their albums.
“Speaking of which, did you buy Saba Fiction's new album, Senpai?”
“Of course I did. The bonus video of their live performance was so good that it made me want to go to their
concert one day.”
“Oh, I understand you! “His use of lighting was impressive. If I could get two tickets, we could go together!”
“Ah, I'm looking forward to it!”
Saba Fiction is the band that brought Kurosaki and me together. They had a reputation for creating genre-
defying music, and the group often incorporated elements of rock, pop, EDM, and other styles into one,
appealing to many.
In any case, I was one of the people who was fascinated by his music and the song I heard the day I met
Kurosaki was called 'Crisis'.
Unusually for the band, which used subdued and subtle tones, the song was a powerful rock ballad with a
powerful message about life.
Originally listening to it used to lift my spirits, but at that moment my future seemed so bleak that not even
that song could sweeten the bitterness.
Now that those horrible feelings are gone, the song has become my favorite from the band.

After a while, we ended the conversation and with emotion running high, Kurosaki took me by the hand and
took me to the game room.
I wanted to embarrass him since his ears were very red as we walked together, but I thought he would hit me,
so I stopped.
“Come on, Senpai! Let's play as much as we want."
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“I'm not a girl anymore!”

She said that as if she were a child.
No, it certainly has an adult part, although not in the full meaning of the word.
“Ah, Senpai! Let’s play this!”
"Good. It is a challenge".
After all, the basis of arcade games is not the crane game, but air hockey... What? Am I just saying this
because I'm bad at air hockey? Never!
We continued, we both put our money in, we stood on opposite sides of the table and took what we needed.
“I'm not going to lose~!”
"I won't do it either. Do you dare to stop my special killer shot?"
“Oh no~ Please don't do that kind of move in an arcade~!”
And thus began the battle between the two for the survival of the world.
There is not the slightest chance that I will lose because I am a legendary destroyer

"...I missed".
“Hey! “You are weak, Senpai!”
The result was a crushing defeat. Even an elementary school kid would have fought better than me. Wait!
Before you say anything, this wasn't my real skill. It was a highly sophisticated and technologically advanced
trap. Imagine the moment Kurosaki crouched down to hit the puck.
That was... I better not say another word. Those of you who have a great imagination will understand.
In other words, I was defeated by my wild instincts or something. Hmm, now I'm embarrassed, I better
change the subject.
“Kurosaki, you told me you would put on a maid outfit for me, right? It says here that you can rent them right
next to the purikura machine.”
"Hey!? W-Wait a minute! Hmm… I’m not mentally ready to do that yet.” "I see. I'm sorry. It will be for next
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Kurosaki took a step back in surprise.

Even if it's her, suddenly wearing a maid outfit must still be embarrassing. Surely apart from this very
superficial thing, girls have many other things for which they have to feel prepared.
“Ah, but I want a purikura!”
"Alright. Come on".
"Oh really!?"
I invited her to come into the booth with me, which surprised her enough that her jaw dropped. We were
finally in front of Purikura, which is rumored to be its most popular version in the world.
I know how to use them since I came here with Asakawa in the past.
So I simply inserted a four hundred yen coin, selected a color, and handed control of the screen to Kurosaki.
"Hey ... “What color do you want the purikura, Kurosaki?”
“Black and white… Why do you know how to use this?”

I brilliantly ignored his words and we entered the cabin.

'Thank you for using Paruru today! Adjust the camera position first!'
I adjust the camera so we both look good.
However, since our heights were not that different, I had almost nothing to do.
“S-Senpai, is my smile okay?”
“It looks complicated.”
Kurosaki was nervous for some reason.
Perhaps he has never had a purikura with a boy and I think that if he ever did, it must have been in a group.
Well, as your Senpai, I will take the lead here. You should act confident to make her feel safe.

'First of all, put your hand on your chin cutely!'

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"Yeah! “Pull your chin up and look up!”

'Now, kiss your partner on the cheek!'

“Kurosaki! I’ll borrow your cheeks!”
"Hey!? “Senpai!?”

'And lastly, hug your partner tight!'

“Please wait senpai! My heart! My heart!"
"Don't worry! I will guide you!"
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...Three minutes had passed, and I left the cabin satisfied, almost shiny. Meanwhile, Kurosaki had an
extremely tired face.
“Okay, now what comes next is the purikura.”
“... “What you did in there was sexual harassment.”
“I couldn't do anything else since it was 'Paruru's' orders.”
No matter what he says, Paruru's instructions are absolute.
I went to look at all the photos and verified the results.
Thanks to my expert and precise actions, a collage of natural and glamorous photos lined up on the screen for
our choice.
“Ah, we both look amazing in these photos.”
“Is it the one with the hug? He was right after all.”
“... “I’m glad you hugged me, but my heart can’t take it.”
Even though he said that, Kurosaki couldn't hold back his subtle smile.
While we were printing more photos and having a great time fawning over them, the end of our session was
finally approaching.
“I'll take that one.”
“Oh, what a coincidence. Me too".
The one we both finally chose was the one where we left hugging.
It is a masterpiece that highlights Kurosaki's tenderness with a shy and innocent smile.
Although this was a moment that had happened in real life, the fact that a small piece of paper could hold
such memories made me feel pure amazement.
After a while, our purikuras were expelled.
“Hehe, I'm glad I got to see you after so long, senpai.”
“Let's take some more photos next time we come! But with different poses!”
“...Of course, but let's do more normal poses next time.”
Kurosaki was in a very good mood, placing our little purikura inside his smartphone case. If he looks this
happy, then it was worth taking all those photos.
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“It would be embarrassing, so I might as well put it in my wallet.”

“If you're going to take care of it with love... that's fine. Also, if other girls see it…”
"That? What did you say?"
"I said nothing! Just always carry it with you!”

While we were walking calming down this noisy kouhai, her legs suddenly stopped.
“Ah, now that I think about it, I wanted to go to the bookstore. Can we go for a while?”
“Sure, come on. Is there a particular book you would like to buy?”
“My favorite model apparently appeared in a magazine, so I want to go check it out!”
Upon arriving at the bookstore, he went directly to the magazine section and began to look through them.
“¡... Ah, here it is!”
Kurosaki grabbed the magazine he was looking for and flipped through a few pages.
However, he stopped his hand and showed it to me.
“It's this girl, her name is Mina Shibuya-chan.”
The page he showed me was able to appreciate the well-groomed profile of a model.
She is half Asian, with distinctive facial features and wavy reddish-brown hair.
Recently, she has appeared in dramas and along with her youth as a university student, she seems to be the
leader of her generation.
“It's the first time I've heard of her.”
“Senpai, are you an old man or what? What do you think? Don’t you think she’s beautiful?”
"That's how it is..."
I certainly think she is a very beautiful girl, but perhaps because I am still in high school, I don't find her very
attractive. More than that...
“... However, I prefer you, Kurosaki.”
“S-Senpai!?”
“Ah, just because I believe it, doesn't mean that girl isn't beautiful, you know?”
"I know but... Ugh, is it okay for you to say that…?”
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I felt it was best to tell her that because she seemed to be worried about something.
“It's okay if you say those things to me. But don't you dare say these things to other girls!”
"Okay, I'll keep that in mind."
“You can tell me anything you want!”
"Of course, of course".
"What do you mean by that!?"
Gosh, girls are difficult
Will the day come when I can understand the heart of a woman?
I looked at Kurosaki, who was embarrassed, angry, and self-absorbed, thinking about the endless road.

"Yeah! That was fun!"

"Yeah. I feel like I had a lot of fun.”
Once we left the mall, the sky, which was supposed to be blue a few moments ago, was about to lose its
color.
We headed to the station, filling our lungs with fresh air.
“I feel like it's been a long time since we've hung out together like this.”
“That's true... Did you enjoy this day, Senpai?”
Suddenly Kurosaki's face showed anxiety.
Did I not pay proper attention to it?
"That's how it is. “I want to go out with you again. What do you say, Kurosaki?”
"Yeah! “I want to go on a date with you, Senpai!”
With the sunset as the background of his cheeks, I calmly looked at Kurosaki's face, who expressed his
emotions through his entire body.
"What is that face?"
"Ha ha ha. “You are cute Kurosaki.”
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Incident

The following Monday, I walked into the classroom as usual to find strange looks passing
me by.
¿... What the hell is going on?
Today there is nothing different about me.
c
I didn't suddenly grow twenty pounds of muscle, nor did I change my hair color from
black TO to blonde with the awakening of my former power. Nor have I become a shiny,
muscular Italian.
Q
Absolutely nothing occurred to me, so I headed to my seat.
p
My desk was written with all kinds of insults in permanent marker.
As I YO looked closely, I realized how well thought out the insults were.
I should probably feel angry or surprised, but more than that I'm a little impressed by the
T
whole content of the insults, which in truth used a few words to express themselves
badly about me.
OR
Could it be that I was classified as a cheater when we took the exams? Well, this
'industrial waste' was even written in kanji.
l
In today's terms, or rather in all terms, this is clearly bullying, however, it didn't bother me
much.
EITHER

Most likely it was someone who didn't like the attention they were suddenly giving me, or a
guy too infatuated with Asakawa or Kurosaki.
From that fan's perspective, I'm definitely a nuisance to him.
But, 4 if you like Asakawa, don't worry; Our relationship is already completely over, so your
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Well, if you keep trying to tear others down instead of improving yourself, then your chances are slim to
none.
In any case, even if the desk is a little dirty, it doesn't affect my school life. As soon as I tried to sit down
without causing a big stir...
“Hey, Miyamoto! What happened!?"
“Ah, good morning, Katayama. I just found some scribbles on my desk right when I arrived, but I'm not
really interested."
"This is a disaster! Who would do something so stupid? Hang on a minute!"
With a grim grimace, he ran out of the classroom, smartphone in hand.
About ten minutes later, he returned with a cloth, detergent, and margarine.
“They say you can put margarine¹ on a cloth and rub it. Then, you use a detergent.”
“Katayama... Thank you".
“Come on, let's clean this up quickly.”
The fact that he went out of his way to investigate and help me, who I had only known for a couple of days,
touched my heart. I was truly grateful to him.
After a few moments of cleaning with Katayama, the scribbles disappeared from my desk. He was right, and
it looked even cleaner than before.
"Thanks for helping".
"No, do not worry. More like, who made this prank of a brat...?”
“I don't know, maybe someone who can't accept the efforts of others?”
"Yeah..."
Katayama nodded. But there was no point in continuing to search for the culprit.
“I used to be the subject of gossip too. “I was always involved in that…”
“I don't know what's so fun about doing that?”
After that, we spent the rest of the day talking as if nothing bad had ever happened.

“Sorry, Senpai! “Can I go out with my friends after school today?”

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During lunchtime, while I was reading quietly in the classroom, Kurosaki came to me apologizing in an
outrageous manner.
She sat carefully in the empty seat next to me, but as I could imagine, she really stood out to the entire class.
"Better not. I think you are truly looking forward to me coming home to you…”
“Of course you do, but I also agree with you going out with your friends, Kurosaki. If you don't do it from
time to time, you might feel lonely later.”
“¡... That way you won't convince me!
Seeing that she was more absorbed than I expected, I couldn't help but increase the strength of my hand
pressing her shoulder.
The rude Kurosaki was in pain as she let out a moan, so I apologized and let go of my hand.
“Thank you for coming here to tell me. Would you like to join me for lunch?”
“I want to do it but the eyes of the people around us make me uncomfortable. So I better go back to my class!
Well then, see you tomorrow, Senpai!”
“Yes, see you tomorrow~”
Although his tone was happier than ever, his repentant eyes lingered on me for a second, almost as if he
couldn't finish regaining his strength. The atmosphere around us was undoubtedly great...
That said, unfortunately, I no longer have any after-school plans for today.
Since I have nothing to do, I'll go home and play a game.
─────That's what I would have thought of doing until then.
Like a Lego set that is built piece by piece, an idea popped into my head. I knew what I had to do.
Slowly, I get up from my seat and walk towards the group chatting near the blackboard.
Realizing that someone was watching them, some smile wryly and step back.
However, one of them breaks into a radiant smile.
I wanted to tell you something─────
“They look really scared. Have I done something?”
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“I misunderstood, then. Ah well, Katayama, do you want to hang out after class?”
... I finally said what I've been trying to do for a long time.
The first step in coming out of my solitary shell was inviting some friends over for fun.
Of course, he has his own plans and it would be best if he accepted my sudden invitation.
Perhaps, like a famous candy store, there is a chance that your schedule is full up to three months in advance.
Of course, it would be great to get his approval, but since I invited him out of the blue, I shouldn't get my
hopes up too high.
But even if you can't, just stepping out of my comfort zone and asking a friend out was great progress.
When I was looking at him to get his answer, for some reason he rubbed his arm against his face, sniffling.
... Wait, is he crying?
“I never thought... you'd ask me out.”
“I-If you're busy, maybe we could go out next time…”
“How could I be busy? I cancel all my plans for today! Let’s look at some clothes!”
“A-Ah...?”
I'm quite worried about his emotional state. In any case, I could finally go out and have fun with a friend after
class. I'm nervous now.

“Miyamoto!!! “It’s Harajuku!!!”

After classes, he had arrived in Harajuku with Katayama, who almost exploded with excitement at the sight
of clothes.
Speaking of clothes, this was the ideal place: the streets were full of clothing stores of all kinds, with different
styles ranging from classic to street style, including the special style of Harajuku.
“Do you have somewhere you want to go, Katayama? “I remember you liked Kanata Matsumoto.”
“Can we go there? There is a Kanata store at the back of the street that I would love to see.” “Let's start
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After walking through the crowd for ten minutes, we arrived at an area packed with name brand stores, all out
of reach of a high school student. Until we saw the store we wanted to visit on the corner.
“Wow, it takes a lot of courage to walk in with a uniform.”
"I know. It took me an hour to log in my first time. But it's fun to try it without thinking too much, you know?
Plus, the store clerk is friendly.”
Katayama and I walked in, me behind him, feeling a little shy. As soon as we entered, we were greeted by a
tall, energetic man.
"Welcome!"
“Hey bro, it's been a while since I've seen you!”
“Yes, it's been a while. I see you brought a friend today. You can tell he's great too.”
"That's how it is! I’m proud to be your friend!”
This is the famous putting into practice of your communication skills...
It was difficult for me at this moment to enter their conversation, but just as Katayama said, once you were
inside, this place made you feel comfortable.
“Miyamoto, what do you think of this?”
“Oh, it's long enough to wear in the fall and I think it would look good under a coat.”
“I agree, but seventy thousand yen...?”
As we walked through the store, Katayama asked that question.
Seventy thousand yen was a lot of money for a student, or rather, for everyone.
Also, that price was only for one t-shirt.
Honestly, it seemed strange to me at first, but the expensive clothes were very ingeniously made.
This one, in particular, is made of a special fabric and whose original design is usually unique and cannot be
found elsewhere and in fact, it was one of the favorites of clothing fans, so it is not surprising that Katayama
was worried that's why.
“I wonder if you have a part-time job or something, Katayama? Kanata’s clothes are expensive in general, so
buying them with pocket money is difficult.”
“Of course, I have a part-time job. I usually work in a karaoke bar, but sometimes I also take other jobs.”

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I guessed it was hard to buy these clothes without a part-time job. That's how passionate he is about clothes.
Well, in the end I didn't buy anything, but I was very satisfied to try on the clothes I had only dreamed of
owning.
However, as soon as we left the store, his expression hardened and he asked me something.
“About the graffiti this morning on your desk, aren't you going to look for the culprit?”
“With that little damage, I don't see why I should bother looking for it.”
"Understood... Miyamoto, you are optimistic in a very strange way.”
"So you think? Well, if the damage spreads to you or our kouhais, I'll have to do something.”
I can handle it if it's me they mess with.
However, it's a completely different story if you involve people you have nothing to do with it. Honestly, I
don't even want to think that there are high school students capable of such cowardly harassment.
Wait, why are Katayama's cheeks suddenly blushing?
“I can't believe you care so much about me.”
“... I don't feel well. Can we go see the next store?”
I'm happy that he was moved, but his indescribable contortion movements were disgusting.
"Yeah! There are still a lot of clothes I want to try!”
His sudden U-turn made me laugh. I guess that's what high school life is like.
And so, we continued to joke with each other, walking forward carelessly and lightly.

The maid-café's. They are paradises, amalgams of all the dreams and hopes of humanity.
In the era of concept cafes, which compete strongly with each other, maid cafes, which have existed since
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Despite this, they were pieces of man's dream, and their existence was already known to the public. As soon
as you enter, you get excited despite everything.
Dressed in colorful costumes, welcoming their 'masters' with an imperturbable smile. They were truly the
tyrannosaurs of the world of new concept cafes...!
Now, once again, it is time for us to knock on the doors of the New World.
The exterior of the business has nice decorations that don't make them look heavy. Turning the doorknob in
the shape of an angel wing, you open the door with the courage to take out the legendary sword─────
“Welcome home~! “Master~!”

... Angel. An angel swooped down with his voices that were bells announcing our arrival at the tent.
Tyrannosaurs, stegosaurs, whatever a saurian was, all disappeared from existence and the age of the dinosaurs
came to an end.
The one who descended before us was none other than Michael, the archangel... Or perhaps Gabriel? Rafael?
I'm getting tired of weird explanations, so let me lay out what happened today.

Back to Sunday, I visited the maid-café where Ruri-chan works for the first time in a month. I actually hadn't
planned on going so soon, but this happened last night.
“What are you doing tomorrow, Yuta-kun? To be honest, I've been waiting for a long time for you to come
to the maid-café! You see, I know I made you angry last time, so I would like to apologize for that. I wish I
could create more fun memories together! What are you saying? Of course I will behave like my true self,
okay? I know we don't go to the same school, but I also work on weekends here, so I feel very sad that we
can't see each other even on those days very often... Anyway, I await your response!”
I received this long message and was very overwhelmed by your impetus put into those lines.

So once I get to this point, I have no choice but to enjoy it.

The mood is at its peak with the illuminations that color the environment giving an air of freedom of the
School.
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She had long, dyed sky blue hair tied up in a ponytail. His large, drooping eyes were the living image of
tenderness.
She wore her white and navy blue maid uniform to perfection; His nameplate on his chest was decorated with
numerous cat and heart stickers, and he had an anime badge pinned to his shirt.
“Yuta-kun! Thanks for coming".
“Yes... it's been a while. I'm glad to see you're doing well."
He then led me to one of the farthest tables to take a seat.
It hadn't been that long since I last saw her, but the shadow of fatigue stopped hanging over her and
disappeared completely. She no longer seemed exhausted.
“What would you like to order?”
“An omurice Moekyun and a cola, please.”
“I got it~! "Wait a little, please."
She took my order with a beaming smile, returning to the counter while bouncing around. Seeing things I
previously thought I had given up made me incredibly happy.
About five minutes later, Ruri-chan returned with a cola in her hand while humming.
“Thank you for waiting~! Here’s your cola!”
"Thank you. Oh, I forgot to mention that I would like one more drink. But it is for you, Ruri-chan.”
“Wow! Thank you~! I'll enjoy it!"
She decided on an iced cocoa, meanwhile, I left my glass on the table so we could both talk while we had a
nice drink.
“Ruri-chan, I'm glad you're not working too hard again.”
"Hehehe thanks! I have fewer clients than before, but I am glad that some continue to support me because
they see that I have changed for the better.”
“Yes, you definitely look prettier now.”
“Wow! Oh really!? T-Thank you!”
I remember calling her cute many times before, but for some reason, she was now red to the tips of her ears
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In any case, I'm glad to see that this honest version of her continues to be a hit with other customers.
I realized its charm from the beginning.
While I was pretending to be a haughty and powerful otaku, an omelet was brought from the kitchen and
Rurichan received it.
"I will write in your omurice! Any request? “I can draw anything other than robots!” “Mmm, I'll leave it up to

you.”

"Alright! I will do my best~!”

Then, he deftly picked up a ketchup bottle and started writing on my omurice.

His skill impressed me and I became engrossed in watching his movements.

And now, the most important thing: what he wrote─────

“I love you, Yuta-kun♥.”

Your message made the omurice taste sweeter than a parfait, I'm sure. There were also hearts drawn
everywhere. Is. It was a festival of hearts that made it the most expensive of all orders
She wasn't done yet.
“Next, I'm going to cast a spell on your omurice!”
“Yes, please… Why are you sitting next to me?”
When it comes to doing magic in a maid cafe, it is common to put your hands in a heart shape and say 'moe,
moe, Kyun~', but as if it were the most natural thing in the world, he sat right next to me, intertwined His
fingers with mine and he began to whisper sweet words in my ear, the kind that only boyfriends would say.
“Yuta-kun, I love you. “I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.”
His voice was the soothing melody of a little bird, and its lack of strength made it a dozen thousand times
more powerful. The fact that he whispered it in my ear, combined with his tender breath blowing in my ear,
made me want to give up right now.
“Do you want to see more of me? Look! Why does your heart feel so excited?”
Even after melting my ears, his attack didn't end.
Right after his whispers, he lifted my hands, still intertwined with his, and placed them right above his chest.

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The softness of a thousand marshmallows, even through his uniform, washed over me. He couldn't even feel
his heartbeat.
It not only took over my sense of hearing, but also my sense of touch. They are both under his control and I
am prepared to fall to the point where it is inevitable.
It could have been game over if it was just the two of us in this place, but there were a lot of people.
If anyone saw Ruri-chan wreaking havoc, they would blame her and punish her. That thought brought me
back to reality and I steeled myself.
“R-Ruri-chan, wait.”
"Hey? What happened?"
“The other customers are looking at us…”
“Don't worry, it's the last table in the maid-café. Nobody noticed, okay?”
... He has me in his hands.
He had everything calculated in detail.
In fact, this table was the furthest from the counter and not once did other customers look our way.
What's more, I don't think his colleagues would think of doing something like whispering in a client's ear.
It was as if we were both in another dimension.
“But it would be a shame if we were caught doing this.”
He whispered those words as he stood up and sat on the chair right in front of me.
... That was dangerous. I had no idea he would prepare such a violent charge.
In fact, she could be a cheeky little devil.
I feel like if I let my guard down for a second, it could take me and eat me whole. I'd better change the
subject.
“Oh, the omurice is delicious.”
"Oh really? I see. That's because I cast some powerful spells!”
"I agree..."
“Speaking of which, what is your relationship with that kouhai from the other day?”
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However, I was faced with a difficult question.

I thought about giving him a vague answer, but for some reason I felt a strong pressure from his smile that
was not the same as always, so I decided to answer him honestly.
Of course, I chose my words carefully so as not to worsen our relationship.
“I met her last year, right after my ex-girlfriend cheated on me. We often go to the game room and watch
movies together.”
"Hmm... We go to different schools, so I'm at a disadvantage…”
He whispered something, but I couldn't catch it, unfortunately.
After a brief moment of silence, as if he was planning something, he opened his mouth.
“I'd love to hang out with you after school, even if it's just once in a while. It’s fine even if your kouhai comes
too!”
“It's okay if we go out to hang out, but Kurosaki shouldn't be with us…”
Judging by their discussion the other day, they don't seem to be very compatible with each other.
Rather, Kurosaki was just irritated by Ruri-chan's optimism. It would be a bad idea to let them get together.
After chatting and finishing my omurice, which tasted sweeter than condensed milk, I gathered my things to
leave.
"You're leaving now?"
“Yeah, I had a lot of fun today though.”
"I'm glad to hear it! Come back whenever you want, okay? I will serve you well!”
"Service... Well, thank you very much for your time!
"Have a nice day, teacher~!"
Although I noticed her dangerous tone, I left the store happy to see her acting normal for the first time in a
long time.
When I left the maid-café, darkness had already enveloped the city.
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Yumi Asakawa 's motive

Since I sat down, I have been observing Yuta Miyamoto.

At the front of the classroom, I watched him happily chatting with his newfound friend
without being noticed.
The kouhai who approaches him after class can laugh with him with a carefree smile.
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Not only that, but by chance, I saw him chatting calmly with a blue-haired girl in front of
TO the school gate.
Despite that, she still received negative emotions from him.
Q

What should I do?

p
I sink into thought as I look at Yuu.
YO But just looking at it won't change anything.
While I am well aware of this issue, of course, I sigh every day because I am not making
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any progress.
At that moment, an unexpected voice called me.
OR
“What's wrong, Asakawa-san?”

l “... “Good morning, Makabe-kun.”

I must have been distracted since I didn't realize someone was talking to me.
EITHER
“I'm sorry to speak to you like this suddenly. It just seemed like you were in a very
complicated situation, so I was wondering if I could help you with anything.”
With his permed hair and glasses, his eyes looked very kind and it seemed like he was
genuinely worried about me.
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But─────
“No, I'm just worried. But thank you for your consideration, Makabe-kun.”
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I can't tell you.

What is the point of telling my problems to a third party who is not related to my matter?
I looked back at Yuu and without realizing it, Makabe-kun had disappeared.
I feel a little guilty for telling you that, I'm sorry.
But those feelings soon faded and my thoughts returned to their original place.
¿... What should I do?
Is there something those girls have that I don't?
I don't want to admit it.
Since I have been the one who has been by his side the longest.
But now I am the most relegated.
However, I cannot accept that.
“... I see".
Now finally, I can know what I feel.
This feeling is not sadness or anger, but jealousy.
Where should I direct this feeling that is springing up in me for the first time?”

Incidents happen when you least expect it.

Two days after my desk became a dictionary of insults, I went to school with Kurosaki as usual, separating
from her at the shoe locker to change our shoes into our indoor ones.
However, as he did not return after a few minutes. I got worried, so I went to her to see how she was doing.
“Ah, senpai…”
There were countless thumbtacks scattered across his locker, some even flickering across the floor.
I panicked and ran towards her.
“Kurosaki! You're hurt!?"

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Before my eyes, I saw a long row of thumbtacks pointing upward, intentionally placed to hurt someone. If an
unsuspecting person opened and tried to grab your shoes, they would not be able to avoid an injury.
"I'm fine! "I was only surprised by this child bullying at the primary school level."
It seems I'm the only one worried.
True to his words, his face was immaculate and intact. It doesn't seem like he suffered any psychological
damage, so for now I feel relieved.
However, as the seconds pass, a horrible thought grows inside my head. One wrong move and she would
have gotten her hand hurt by those bunch of tacks.
Since I couldn't deny the possibility that she was faking it so I wouldn't worry, I carefully felt Kurosaki's
hands to see if she was really hurt.
“Ah, Mmm... “It tickles me when you touch me like that.”
“I'm worried you may have hurt yourself, please hold on a little longer.”
From the palms to the fingers, I analyzed every corner. At one point he made a small noise, probably because
he was ticklish.
"I'm sorry. “Hold on a moment longer.”
"...It is very kind of you".
It's not about being nice or anything like that.
Finally, what I feared came true. I never thought that just because you hate me, whoever you are, you would
lay your hands on those around me.
Furthermore, Kurosaki had no way of knowing the reason why he was being subjected to such childish
bullying.
Even though I knew next to nothing about it, and all I had were guesses, I had to give him an explanation.
“Kurosaki, actually─────”
“In other words, is someone jealous of you, Senpai?”
"I think so. I see that you are their target. “I am so sorry you were involved in this.”
“No, thanks to that, I can flirt with you a little bit, so no problem! ...Still, I can't believe your ex-girlfriend is
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After hearing my explanation, she didn't get angry or reproach me for anything. He just accepted it.
In fact, she seemed even more interested in Asakawa's part of the story,
“We were childhood friends. "She, as you know, ended up cheating on me and abandoned me."
“... I think it's different from my point of view."
"What do you mean?"
"It's no big deal! "I'm just a little kouhai happy that a powerful rival is already out of the picture!" Even
though the damage was already done, I couldn't help but pat this cute little weirdo on the head.

“Anyway, I'm sorry about today. “I will definitely make it up to you.”

“Hehehe, are you looking forward to it?”
As I felt her soft, silky hair under my hand, my thoughts wandered.
The culprit is probably someone from our class. If this is an act that boils down to the mere fact that there is
no harm to me, it makes sense.
Plus, only my classmates know that she and I are pretty close. And since she's already taken action, I can't

believe Kurosaki is the only target.

It would be reasonable to think that other students who are related to me would also be affected.
Students besides Kurosaki who have been involved with me─────
“I'm sorry, Kurosaki. Although, I have an idea who your next victim could be. Can I go back to my class?”
“Understood. You can always count on me if you need anything!”
“That's my line. If anything happens to you, I will definitely come to help you.”
“S-Senpai…”
I escorted Kurosaki, who was red-faced like a boiling octopus, back to his class, and then ran to mine.
As soon as I arrived, my hunch was confirmed.
The bustle I used to hear in class was nowhere to be found.
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“Katayama! Are you OK?"

“Miyamoto... This is undoubtedly the same guy who scribbled on your desk last time.”
The person in question responded quite calmly. Then, he looked up on his smartphone how to absorb the ink.
"I think so. “I’m sorry, it’s my fault you got caught up in this.”
"No problem! Rather, with this, they probably recognized that we are friends!”
He tapped me on the shoulder, hard, and gave me a thumbs up. With a little smile, he tried to cheer me up.
“Thank you, of course you are my friend. “I will fix this matter, and I am very sorry for bothering you.”
Curiously, he showed more emotion at my concern than at the sea of black dripping across his table. Still, I
wonder how he feels about all this.
However, the next moment, his face turns serious and he opens his mouth again to encourage me.
"Are you OK? “I am always willing to help you if you need anything.”
"Thanks my friend. If I can’t manage on my own, I’ll call you.”
I felt grateful and guilty for his generosity, even though he was the one affected.
Katayama is too good a friend for me.
Ignoring it is no longer an option.
I wouldn't care in the slightest if I were the only target, but now that the people I care about have been
touched, I must find out the culprit and stop him.
As I looked around for any clue that could lead me to the culprit, I felt a gaze piercing me from behind.
He had just arrived at the classroom, breathing heavily as if he had seen something incredible.
─────It was Asakawa.
Our eyes met, but she looked away as if she were guilty of something, and then headed straight to her desk.
Although she took a seat, her breathing showed no signs of calming down and her long eyelashes trembled.

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His normally direct gaze was disoriented. It seemed like he wanted to say something, but couldn't because of
something else.
I know she's not to blame because of the way she turned her back on me and the way she acts now.
Could it be that the culprit is doing it for Asakawa─────?
Remembering the whole situation, I made her cry in front of my classmates.
It could have been humiliating for her.
Could it be that by shaming her, the culprit resents me so much that he is trying to isolate me again by hurting
the people around me?
But, even if that were the case, it wouldn't make sense since at that time she and I had already ended our
relationship.
I still don't know who the culprit is, but based on what has happened so far, I will try to predict the next move
and based on that I will decide how to resolve this matter.
I made up my mind silently while not letting the culprit, who was undoubtedly watching me, notice.

It is seven o'clock at night.

The school's security lights flicker ominously in the pitch black night.
Coupled with the lack of sound, I felt like I was the only human being left in the world, a stark contrast to the
lively joy of the day.
The reason I stayed at school so late is simple...
There was a two-day lag between the time the culprit scribbled on my desk and the time he smeared ink on
my friend's desk.
However, I hoped he would take action sooner. Even if nothing happens, I will continue to wait for him like
this every day.
I considered asking our guardian for permission, but decided against it and sneaking in here instead.
This is the result of my fear that if the strange surveillance I am doing is discovered, there is a possibility that
the culprit will reduce his actions.
Since they couldn't open the classroom, I waited near Kurosaki's shoe locker.
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Therefore, if I stayed on the opposite side of the school, it would be harder for them to notice me. Conversely,
it would be easier for me to find them. If you were carrying a smartphone, you couldn't use it as a flashlight
as you would lose visibility.
Well, from here on out, it's a fight of resistance between us. Observing the crime scene, I ran through a series
of simulations to determine the most effective course of action to take.
Everything is ready.
After an hour of waiting, things finally began to move forward.
Faint footsteps echoed from the school entrance, on the other side of the building, approaching the shoe
locker where I was hiding.
He thinks he's being cautious, but he doesn't muffle his steps, perhaps not even thinking there would be
anyone around but himself.
───── It's finally here.
Because I didn't depend on any light source, I could see it clearly.
He was of average height, but his crooked posture made him look shorter. Her hair was thin and curly, as if
imitating a perm, but it was probably innate.
His name is Makabe, my classmate as expected.
Approaching Kurosaki's shoebox, he put his glasses back and looked at the palm of his right hand hurriedly.
He then muttered something to himself and took out a small case from his backpack.
Looking closer, they were indeed the same studs I had seen this morning.
The culprit looks around all restless, opens Kurosaki's shoe locker without making much noise and extending
his hand, he was about to commit another crime.
This is my strategy. I'll stop him the moment he puts a thumbtack inside Kurosaki's locker, and while he's
stunned by my sudden appearance, I'll take a photo of him with my smartphone and use it as evidence.
This is a strategy that can be used by anyone since it would capture the full action of the crime in situ.
However, the moment I unlocked my smartphone and raised it to take the photo, I suddenly saw someone
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At that moment, when the culprit was about to insert thumbtacks into Kurosaki's shoe locker, I tried to shout
at him to stop him, but before the words left my lips, the voice of the one I least expected to appear echoed in
my eardrums. .
“Stop, Makabe-kun!”
I turned around in a hurry, looking for the owner of that voice. Indeed, it was here─────
“Ah…A-Asakawa-san!?”
“What are you doing in front of one of the first years' shoe locker?”
The one who emerged from the shadows was none other than Asakawa.
He must have run to school. What he wears is not the school uniform, but one made up of a hooded
sweatshirt and jeans.
Makabe, who was the culprit at the crime scene, was shocked as he held a pencil case in his hand, making
noise.
I had no idea why Asakawa was here, but taking advantage of the opportunity that presented itself and
because Makabe's movements stopped in surprise, I hurriedly pointed my smartphone at him and took some
flash photos as evidence of his crime. "Hey? You are... Miyamoto!?”
Makabe reflexively turned in my direction after the sudden burst of light.
However, his surprise was short-lived. Realizing that his crimes had been recorded, despair takes over his
face.
“I knew you were the culprit, Makabe. Besides, I was sure you would repeat it again”, “W-Why!? You're
wrong! It is your fault! You made Asakawa-san cry! You should get what you deserve for committing such a
heinous crime!”

... Actually, this guy is a die-hard Asakawa fan.

As I said before, Asakawa is like the boss of the School.
There are both boys and girls, who admire her and are in love with her.
On the other hand, there were also students who were too toxic to be considered simple fans.
And one of them was Makabe, who was furious because I made Asakawa cry and after that he planned his
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However, what he did was unforgivable.

“...If you believe that, then do what you want. I will present this photo to the tutor so that he can take the
appropriate measures.”
Did he really believe there would be no repercussions?
Suddenly, the impatient man in front of my eyes gave a shaky smile.
“W-Wait a minute... Y-You don't have to go that far! Look, I’ll apologize properly.”

There is no room for negotiations. If I were the only victim, I could get over it, but it's impossible to forgive
him for causing harm to outsiders and crossing multiple lines.
Perhaps realizing that there was no point in trying to negotiate with me, he turned to Asakawa to appeal for
his support while large beads of sweat broke out on his face.
“A, Asakawa-san, say something! “I did all this for you, all so you could laugh from the bottom of
your─────”
"What are you talking about? When have I asked you to do something for me? You are guessing my feelings
and trying to satisfy them but hurting others without me knowing, and now you are carelessly imposing your
selfishness… Huh!?”
Asakawa had dismissed Makabe's excuses before he finished saying them, but just before she finished
speaking, she stopped talking as if remembering something she had overlooked.
"Oh, sure".
However, he quickly regained his composure and continued speaking with a strong tone.
“Anyway, I didn't ask you to do something! I didn't even know about you to begin with. Stop playing the
victim, surrender and accept your punishment.”
Asakawa rejected him bluntly.
Makabe looked at her in dismay, but even that was slowly eroded by the growing fear of whatever
punishment might come. In a last attempt to escape, he ran out of the building.
“... I guess the harassment will stop now.”
“... I think so".
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Even if it was just a coincidence, it was the first time we had talked since I cut her out of my life.
The awkwardness in the air was touchable, and neither of us spoke for a while.
But I know what I have to say.
"I'm sorry. “I thought you were the culprit, Asakawa.”
“... I understand you. Clearly you could have thought that.”
"Sorry for the misunderstanding".
Even if his reaction at the time was suspicious, I actually misunderstood him.
I was very surprised when he came out of the shadows.
Perhaps because I behaved in a hostile manner towards her and apologized honestly, she seemed to be
thinking something, as her hair tied in a ponytail swayed as if she wanted to express her feelings.
About ten seconds passed slowly. Asakawa's eyes widened for a moment and as if the expected answer had
come, he looked me in the eyes.
However, what he told me next left me even more amazed.
“There is another misunderstanding. And it was a lie when───── I told you that I had been unfaithful to
you.”
"It was a lie...?"
I couldn't hide my confusion at his sudden words, but he continued speaking.
“I'm sorry for saying it so suddenly, but if I don't do it now... I don't think I'll be able to say it for the rest of
my life, so please listen to me.”
Then, perhaps to suppress his nerves, he placed his hand on his chest and began to speak clearly.

Yuu and I have a very, very deep bond. When I say bond, I don't mean the usual friendship. I mean love.
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Our parents were very close, so when mine went abroad for work, they used to drop me off at Yuu's house.
I don't blame them for always leaving me behind, and I admire that they can use their skills in other countries.
Actually, they are the reason I wanted to be a model; It's not that kind of story.
In any case, Yuu and I spent our entire lives together and we were almost like brothers.
However, our relationship changed drastically when we were about to graduate from High School.
Yuu's parents died in an accident.
I hate to think about that time, but, like I had lost my own parents, their separation left a huge hole in my heart.
More than me, Yuu's heart hurt. Although he put on a good face, he couldn't hide the sadness in his eyes.
As the days passed, he matured quickly and when he entered high school, he could no longer see that abyss in his
eyes.
Seeing him go about his life as if nothing bad had happened, despite having gone through difficult times, scared
me.
I feared it was somewhere too out of reach, and it was then that I understood that growing love within my own
heart.
From there, things went very quickly.
Maybe it was because of how I felt, or maybe it was my own impatience.
But I furiously approached Yuu and without either of us confessing, we started dating just as the cherry trees began
to bloom.
However, now that I am a little more mature and have gained a lot of experience through my work as a model, I
know that this was a mistake and that it was a clear turning point.
I should have had the courage to tell him how I felt at that moment.
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However, even though I really wanted to confess my feelings, due to the shame of adolescence, I couldn't do
it and in the end I went with the flow.
At the same time, I passed the test for a modeling job I had applied for and was able to become the model I
had always wanted to be.

A feeling of omnipotence came over me after everything I did turned out well.
Along with this achievement, I shared mutual feelings with the boy I loved.
The best time of my life could have been then.
However, the happiness he longed for did not last as long as it should.
My modeling work was not only going well, it was going great.
I was appearing in magazines and online shows, and advancing more than all the other girls at my level. On
the other hand, having my classmates look at me with admiration was an indescribable feeling.
Furthermore, every time I told Yuu about my success with pride, he would smile as if he was the one who
had achieved it all. However, for some strange reason, he felt something strange. It was as if his heart wasn't
there, reminding me of what happened that fateful day.
Every time I thought about him, anxiety began to consume me inside: he was always kind and never angry
with me no matter what I did.
I began to wonder if he really liked me after all, the fact that we had never confessed weighed heavily on me.
Yuu is one of those people who never shows his true feelings to anyone.
We've been together all this time, but why was he hiding things from me? Yes I am his girlfriend.
At that moment, I felt a cloudy anxiety welling up from deep within me, along with anger.
Now that I think about it, it was just me.
Manipulated by my own fears and anxieties, I came up with the best method to resolve it.
I wanted to confirm whether or not his feelings for me were genuine by breaking up with him.
I'm sure that in this way, he would reveal his true feelings to me and I could reaffirm that, indeed, we were
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After class, on a cold winter day, while the rain stung my skin. I called Yuu.
He appeared without knowing anything and to protect me from the rain, he placed his umbrella over my head
since I had forgotten mine.
Even this clear display of kindness seemed uncertain to me. Was it love or just friendship? To be completely
sure of everything, I opened my mouth while he looked at me curiously.
“Sorry, I want to break up with you.”
“¿... Hey?"
Of course, this was a lie.
I mean, the fact that an actor was trying to hit on me was true.
After filming, he grabbed my arm and almost took me to a hotel, but I desperately refused and managed to
escape the situation. To begin with, I'm not interested in any guy other than Yuu.
However, having as an experience what happened to me with that boy, I was able to invent a lie with a shade
of truth. That nuance couldn't be invented and, in that sense, I had that annoying actor to thank for it.
The trouble I went through was worth it, and Yuu believed the story, visibly shocked. His eyes, normally
hidden behind his long bangs, peeked through them agitatedly.
And then, I hit him with the next words that came out of my mouth.
“I decided to date an actor who is currently working with me on the filming of the movie. Unlike you, he is
fun and I feel safe when I am by his side.”
However, the next moment, he said some unexpected words to me.

“¿... Maybe it's the cute guy you were arm in arm with last month?” He had been watching me.

But even though I didn't want to be misunderstood under normal circumstances, I took advantage of that fact
just this once.
“How do you know that?”
“... I saw them by chance when I went to the bookstore. I saw you holding onto a man's arm. At that time, I
thought I had the wrong person”:
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That should be enough. I wanted to see his reaction. Not only kindness but also his other emotions.
I was sure he would tell me not to break up with him.
Or that I didn't joke about it because he might get angry. Either way, what he would tell me would be his true
feelings.
After that, I would be sure that what we felt was mutual and that we could be happy living together from now
on to the future.
After that, I have to properly apologize for lying to her about being unfaithful.
However, soon the pain and disbelief faded from his face, leaving only a calm surface, as if he had realized
something.
"I see. Thanks for everything".
“¿... That? Does this sound good to you? You will not be mad?"
I couldn't help but ask him. Neither angry nor dissuaded, he was just willing to accept our breakup.
Because?
I never got an answer to that question, no matter how many times I thought about it.
Maybe he put aside his anger because he cared about me, and suppressed his feelings so I wouldn't worry.
Do you have any emotion other than kindness?
I had to confirm at least that much.
“If I'm not charming enough I don't know why I should get angry. Don't worry, I promise I won't tell anyone
about this. So good luck.”
He believed the lie and did not accuse me.
We should have been together from now until forever, but I didn't know an inch of his heart.
I didn't want us to break up, but our relationship reached the point of no return.
After a long time, I made a decision and talked to Yuu in the classroom.
“Good morning, Yuu. I broke up with my boyfriend two days ago, so you don't have to hold back from talking
to me anymore.”
"...I see. Don't hesitate to call me if you need anything.”

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I knew it, after all, Yuu didn't show me his heart.

When I told him I broke up with my boyfriend, he simply reacted like a machine would, as if he were part of
a larger consciousness.
But I didn't just sit idly by and watch him. Once again, I came up with the best method to solve it.

The next morning, I called Yuu while he was sleepily staring at his smartphone in class.
“Good morning, Yuu.”
“Good morning, Asakawa.”
For the first time in my life, the way he called me, so distant, made me feel like a stranger.
As if I had been ambushed, my heart tightened and I forgot how to breathe.
However, just because I had been hurt didn't mean I wouldn't advance, so I continued with my mission, as
planned.
“Are you reading a book by yourself again today? That's why you're not popular."
When I scolded him, he frowned and bit his lips.
Evidently, Yuu's face, who lowered his gaze, clouded a little.
But the next moment, he regained his usual calm and responded with a fragile smile.
“... You're right. I'll be careful".

Without saying a word, I returned to my seat, put my backpack on the floor, and sat down. I couldn't contain
my frustration.
Wasn't it normal to get angry if someone scolded you?
How could he accept it with that expression?
No, those are not Yuu's true feelings.
From that day on, every time I saw him, I reprimanded him.
I thought that if I kept doing it, one day his patience would reach the limit and I would be able to see what
was hidden under his eternal smile.
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And after many days, it finally happened.

It was the first day of school, right after summer vacation.

As soon as I entered the classroom, everything was in a scandal.
It was as if one day a new student appeared, so strong.
Looking around, I immediately found the cause of such a commotion.
His hair, usually long and dark to hide from others, was carefully cut.
The previous melancholy he exuded was nowhere to be seen, and if you had just met him, you thought he had
always been this outgoing.
No wonder our classmates were speechless.
It was like he was a totally different guy. It must have taken a huge effort to change so much in such a short
time.
Despite everything, he was still Yuu, nothing had really changed. Neither his habit of turning his head
slightly to the side, nor the fact that from time to time he ruffled that lock of hair that always bothered him.
To me, he is the same as always, so unlike the others, I didn't hesitate to talk to him, not even for a second.
“Are you Yuu?”
He realized it was me and turned around.
The look he gave me was colder than ever, and I felt my heart beat faster, wondering if it was really him.
“What do you want Asakawa?”
“Is this your summer vacation debut?
His calm response was not as meek or kind as before, so he may have really changed.
To confirm whether it had really happened or not, I slashed him with my usual, unceremonious verbal abuse.
"This is so fun! It doesn’t make sense that you just changed your appearance.”

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Yes, even if he only changes his appearance, it doesn't mean anything if Yuu doesn't say the things he truly
thinks.
But─────
“It's true that my appearance has changed, but can you please not judge me just for that? At least I think I
am much better than you now, who is rotten inside.”
"Hey...? “Yuu…?”
That was the counterattack he had been waiting for. It happened so out of nowhere, I probably looked like a
goldfish with its mouth open.
I forgot how to move, waiting for his next words.
“Anyway, why do you bother talking to me? If we are no longer childhood friends, nothing like that."
“Y-You're wrong! That is not true!"
The words he knew he would never say came out of his mouth too quickly for him to think.
I tried to respond, but I was too shocked to process anything.
"What's the matter? “You deceived me and betrayed me.”
“A-About that… Yuu I just─────”
“Don't talk to me anymore. “I just look at you like you’re a complete stranger.”
Undeterred, those hateful words continued to splash at me non-stop.
I didn't even know what he looked like, confused between the pain those hurtful words caused me and the
happiness that my wish was finally fulfilled.
After those words, which could be interpreted as if I were to blame for everything, my companions began to
gossip among themselves.
“H-Hey everyone... “They are wrong...”
Yes, that's not true. The bond that Yuu and I share will not be broken by this small detail, so don't get me
wrong. This is just a passing fight.
At that moment, I finally realized that hot tears were running down my cheeks.
I wouldn't be able to have a real conversation with him, since we wouldn't be able to sort out our feelings. It's
hard for me to leave, but I need to go somewhere and calm down.
I took one last look at the man I loved and ran out of the classroom.

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That night I was thinking about the events that happened that day.
As if it were a far-fetched dream, he finally brought out his emotions.
Now, finally, our relationship can move forward.
I'll be able to say goodbye to that freshman girl who comes to bother him almost every day until summer
vacation.
Until now, I was content just to look at them, but now that our bond has been rekindled, you will have no
choice but to turn away.
There was only one problem. Perhaps since you began to expose your feelings, you are now in danger of
being influenced by them.
In fact, he was so possessed by anger that he said things he would never say, like that I was a stranger.
Even if it wasn't true, his words hurt me deeply and I cried, but of course I was really happy.
Tomorrow I will be able to respond calmly, I will be honest and I will tell you everything.

The next day.

I sat at his desk to wait for him. Yesterday I cried so much, but I still didn't know if they were tears of sadness
or happiness.
All he knew was that his eyes were still swollen.
What if he sees my eyes and blames himself? Then I'll have to clear up that misunderstanding.
These tears were shed out of happiness and it's not that I don't like that Yuu is sincere when speaking.
If you close your heart again, I may come to regret it even if I don't want to.
After thinking about it for a while, Yuu entered the classroom with a happy smile on his face. I raised my
hand slightly to greet him, but for some reason, his jaw dropped and he ignored me.
While trying to understand what was happening to him, he finally said something.
“That's my seat. Back off".
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But it's okay, I accept it. Being able to finally let go of emotions that were repressed for years would make me
nervous too.
That's why I strung my next words as softly as I could, as if I were admonishing him. “Yuu, you finally
started to talk openly about what you feel, but yesterday's joke was harsh. It bothered me to hear that you
didn't consider me a friend, even though it was a joke on your part. Also, call me Yumi like you used to in the
old days…” “I wasn’t kidding.”

Before I could finish, he cut off my words with a violent tone.

Instead of calming down, his anger only seemed to grow, and the sparkle in his eyes dimmed. That's when I
felt a sense of urgency. The situation had deviated greatly from what he expected, and he had to calm him
down somehow.
“Hey, hey, Yuu. Stop pretending you're mad at me, okay? I'm sorry for everything I've done to you until now,
but it's about you─────”
“...Are you sorry? What the hell are you complaining about? My heart is already broken because of you,
since you always denied all my feelings. Even if you unfold the damaged paper and replace it in its original
shape, the wrinkles will not disappear.”
I didn't want to believe it, but as soon as those words left his lips, I understood.
The only thing he felt for me was anger and hatred.
My cooperation was essential for him to regain his true self, but he doesn't understand it.
To him, I'm just the worst unfaithful woman who won't stop nagging him for no reason.
An iron-cold hand squeezed my heart and my face crumpled.
“T-That's what I'm trying to do... Is that I..."
I was unable to assimilate his venom-laden words and the feeling of regret flowed directly from my heart.
Desperation occupied every space in my mind. Everything I have done has been denied.
No no no no.
I have to look ahead and explain it to him properly, but I can't look him in the eye. Before my cloudy feelings
boiled over, before tears even rolled down my face, I ran out of the classroom.

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I don't remember exactly what happened from there, but I found myself lying in my bed. Due to the lack of
light, I realized that night had already fallen.
My heart was broken by this unacceptable reality, in which he had completely rejected me.
I had worked so hard for our future, and yet this is what I get for sacrificing those days we could have spent
together.
... But, I can't give up.
Was what I did wrong?
Come to think of it, by not confessing that day, didn't that mean I was hiding my feelings?
In any case, no matter how many tears fall to the ground, no matter how much I cry, the past will never
change.
But now I have to find a way to explain everything to him.
That we didn't break up because I hated him; that I didn't scold him because I felt the worst things for him.
I have to tell him somehow.
Despite my determination, I couldn't find a clue to improve this whole situation, and time passed without
changing.
What's more, when I saw that kouhai entering the classroom with him, they both had the most fun
conversation, which almost broke my heart.
I also don't understand why he would talk without hesitation to some random girl with brightly colored hair
from another school at the entrance of our school building.
I noticed he was kinder than the day he broke up with me, so I was wondering if he would continue treating
me the same.
And without realizing it, he left me behind.
Why wasn't I in his place?
Although I don't know the relationship between him and those girls, I realized from afar that something was
up.
I don't believe that I am in any way inferior to them, and yet here I am...
The only loser.

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Fed up with the lack of progress in my daily life, I decided to go to school a little earlier than usual. It is said
that the first two hours after waking up are the ones that make people's heads spin the most.

I thought that if there were fewer students, I could walk, think and relax.
Despite my efforts, I couldn't come up with a single good idea and I finally made it to school.
As I walked into the building feeling slightly depressed, I heard a voice with a mix of impatience and anger.
“Kurosaki! You're hurt!?"
I couldn't go wrong with Yuu's voice.
I quickly hid behind one of the shoe lockers to avoid being discovered.
When I sneaked up on him, I saw that the girl he was running towards was that kouhai who always stuck to
him.
Her shoe locker was completely filled with countless studs, but she still put on a smile so as not to worry him,
a face that didn't fit the situation.
Although nothing serious seemed to have happened, Yuu was still very worried and took her to his
classroom. I saw how his intense feelings were directed at another person, and involuntarily a murky feeling
welled up inside me.
However, I suppressed those emotions and thought about the place where the two of them left.
Why were they harassing her?
I don't know what she's like personality-wise, but at least she doesn't seem like a bad girl or someone who
would be bullied.
They may have some kind of resentment against her because of her good looks, but she had many friends.
It was unlikely that girls would mess with those who are popular at school.
As for the boys, it's hard to imagine them holding a grudge against her, unless she treated them in a very
wicked way.
I don't think Yuu would get along with a kind of girl like that.
This means that the culprit is someone who hates Yuu and not that kouhai.
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Certainly, if the culprit is strong, then hurting the people close to Yuu would bring him more harm.
However, when I checked my shoe locker I found nothing.
I wonder if I would have been harassed if this happened before summer vacation. But if so, I have the feeling
that they would act sooner
Now, these actions would make him think that I am the culprit, but no one would have predicted that Yuu
would change so much.
Therefore, the perpetrator's purpose was not there.
Is his action due to the fact that I was rejected by him after the summer vacation─────?
Of course, this all started because Yuu rejected me.
Because of my work as a model, many students admire me.
Some even treat me like I'm a goddess
What if one of them saw me crying and scattered those thumbtacks to get revenge?
My steps towards the classroom naturally accelerated, and as I approached my destination, I heard Yuu's
voice just like before.
The fact that my assumption came true worried me.
What should I do? Maybe he thinks I'm to blame.
Still, if I stop coming in, I will look suspicious in everyone's eyes.
I have no choice but to keep moving forward. I tried to appear as calm as possible and quietly entered the
classroom.
The first thing I saw was Yuu, with his back to me and looking at the ink spread on a desk.
Are you trying to represent my feelings, you guilty one?
Thanks to you, people are very likely to think I'm the mastermind of all this. As he thought that, Yuu looked
back with labored breathing, as if he had been overcome with fear.
Our eyes met for the first time in a long time, but I still couldn't bear to look him directly in the eyes.
If you think I'm guilty, I won't have a way to prove my innocence.
With that in mind, I could only look away and walk towards my seat.

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She could sit up, but she wasn't comfortable in the slightest. I still had to explain to him that I hadn't done
anything, but I still couldn't look him in the eyes, thinking that if he saw my hesitation, he would think I was
the one behind everything.
Despite my fears, the day passed without a word from him, as if he was not interested.
I went home restless, changed my clothes and continued thinking about how to prove my innocence.

Every second counted.

After all, she had to talk to him before the next crime was committed.
I decided this was my only chance, I put my hair in a ponytail with a rubber band and ran out of the house.
We lived nearby, just a station away, so I could get to him in about ten minutes if I ran right away.

Since I had a running routine, I arrived at Yuu's house without being particularly tired.
I fought my anxiety for a few moments before pressing the intercom bell.
The doorbell was heard twice.
But not only did he not answer, but the house was dark.
Judging by his behavior today, he would have gone straight home unless something bad had happened.
In other words, the reason he wasn't home was because something horrible was about to happen.
It only occurred to me that Yuu was trying to catch the culprit.
Then, realizing this, I started running at full speed towards the train station.

I finally arrived at school just as the clock struck eight at night.

Despite the numerous streetlights illuminating the place, it was eerily dark.
There was no one to stop me from entering, but I chose the entrance furthest from the shoe lockers and crept
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Hidden in the shadows, I carefully looked at the school entrance and about ten minutes later, I saw someone
sneak in.
It was Makabe, one of my classmates. I've never spoken to him before, but rumor has it he's a big fan of
mine.
Although I appreciate your support as a role model, I don't like that you try to guess my feelings and act on
them.
When Makabe-kun was about to commit the crime, I couldn't take it anymore and stopped him.
“Stop, Makabe-kun!”
Then, from the shadows, right behind Makabe, Yuu stepped out as if he knew everything.
From then on, the conversation was something that even I could barely hear.
Yuu lightly brushed aside Makabe-kun's childish excuses, without even a hint of interest in his words.
Realizing that there was no way to convince Yuu, the culprit looked at me and clung miserably as his last
resort.
“A, Asakawa-san, say something! “I did all this for you, all so you could laugh from the bottom of
your─────”
"What are you talking about? When have I asked you to do something for me? You are guessing my feelings
and trying to satisfy them but hurting others without me knowing, and now you are carelessly imposing your
selfishness… Huh!?”
I was about to interrupt him without listening to his pathetic excuses when my words, which were directed at
him, turned around and pierced me.
The knife I used to stab him also stabbed me and what I did.
Assuming that Yuu was hiding his feelings, I created a fake story to confirm his true feelings.
Isn't that the same as Makabe-kun trying to help me by hurting me?
However, before I understood everything, I regained my composure and continued with my sharp words.
“Anyway, I didn't ask you to do something! I didn't even know about you to begin with. Stop playing the
victim, surrender and accept your punishment.”
When I came to, Makabe-kun had brazenly fled, leaving only Yuu and me by the shoe lockers.

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“... I guess the harassment will stop now.”

“... I think so".
It's been a long time since I talked to Yuu alone.
There was no anger or hate in his words, just the cool night breeze that carried them as it tickled my cheeks.
"I'm sorry. “I thought you were the culprit, Asakawa.”
“... I understand you. Clearly you could have thought that.”
If I were in the same situation, I'm sure I would have the same reasoning as him.
So this is not bad.
"Sorry for the misunderstanding".
At this point I'm basically sure.
Finally, the time I have been waiting for for a long time has arrived.
I really just wanted to savor the moment, but my thoughts were slowly eroding the truth.
To put it all into perspective again, I thought about what had happened and what I had just said.
Every word I said to Makabe-kun also applied to me and what I did.
I never once tried to ask him to open up to me, but simply guessed on my own and tried to satisfy my selfish
desires by hurting him.
And as a result, the only thing left in his heart was the indelible wound of having been betrayed and
abandoned by someone he trusted, and to rub salt in the wound, I kept dragging a knife through his furrows,
berating him every day.
Now I truly understand how annoying it is to impose wrong speculations on others, after seeing Makabe-kun
and experiencing his selfishness firsthand.
A dozen seconds or so passed, but he was still there waiting for me without saying a word.
It was as if his silence urged me to say something, even though I had no reason to believe it.
I broke his heart so many times that it's impossible for him to forgive me.
So this is the last time I will have the chance to talk to him.

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That's why I thought I had to try to reach his heart by telling him the truth and with an apology at the very
least.
“There is another misunderstanding. And it was a lie when───── I told you that I had been unfaithful to
you.”

His dignified tone stripped the summer of its heat, and soon after a cold that cut the skin.
Each of his words seeped into my heart, erasing the mess in my head. Even the songs of the cicadas, which
would soon die, fell on deaf ears.
My lips were dry. Anger, regret, but most of all a hurricane of emotions swirled inside me.
Did you lie to me by telling me that you were dating someone else so that I could tell you what I really
thought?
You mistreated me for so long just so I could open up to you?
From my current point of view, my past self confused kindness with obedience.
He thought the only way to enact goodness was to swallow other people's ideas without tasting them or
spitting them out.
Only recently have I realized that I was wrong.
From what she told me, Asakawa was tormented by my lapdog behavior in the past, which was the reason for
all her actions.
Immediately after breaking up, his behavior took a 180 degree turn, and now everything made sense.

As if something like that were possible.

“... "If you had told me"

Those words came from the bottom of my heart. It was a cry from my past self.
She realized something that I hadn't noticed at the time, so if she had just let me know, our relationship would
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"Very sorry. We were childhood friends and then we started dating. “We were together all the time back then,
so I assumed I knew everything about you.”
As if he fully understood his own guilt, as if he understood what I was thinking, he apologized.
There was a longing for an unattainable future, something that never went away, and then a sense of loss.
Her apology was enough to calm my negative feelings about her.
At the time, I was afraid to speak my mind for fear of ruining my relationship with my girlfriend.
Both were mistakes of mine that I have already admitted and forgiven.
Everybody makes mistakes. Whether due to misunderstandings, assumptions or simply preconceived ideas.
If we can all understand it and move on, we can move forward again.
However, Asakawa had a problem.
Looking back, what Kurosaki and Ruri-chan did was mild compared to what she did.
Heartbroken, his wounds were repairable.
However, Asakawa's behavior can also be understood as deception. Even if it is a lie, this can not only be
overlooked.
Even though my resentment towards her disappeared, it didn't mean that the past ceased to exist. Even if it
was all a lie born from his love for me, it still couldn't disappear.

Then, I looked down and took a deep breath. Then, I looked directly into his expectant eyes.

“...I also misunderstood the meaning of kindness. Kindness wasn't just about accepting everything like some
kind of slave. Sometimes true kindness is thinking about the other person, putting them back on track. That's
what you must have felt then too, but─────” “My actions cannot be forgiven without punishment.”
Before I could finish speaking, he cut me off. Asakawa understands me after all. That's why I'll have to
completely cut off my past self, and to do that, I need to end this relationship once and for all.
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“That's why we're no longer childhood friends.”

The wind stopped. Unlike last time, she took these parting words directly.
No anger, no hate, just a satisfied smile.
"...Yeah. I'm sorry".
A single tear spilled from the corner of her eye.
It slowly falls down his cheek to the floor.
It left a thin stain on the floor as if everything had come to an end—but it wasn't over. “We are no longer childhood
friends... From now on, we are just classmates who will spend their school life together.”

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Looking at her beautiful flowing locks, I realized there was calm after the storm.
As if he understood my words, his expression changed. The sadness that had overcome her faded, as if her
emotions had been released.
We can no longer go back to our old relationship.
The memory of that rainy day, cold like countless knives falling on me, would never fade.
I couldn't forget the day we broke up, and what she did was unforgivable.
However, I decided to forgive her.
Not out of pity or sympathy.
But as a way to take advantage of the opportunity to change and I am sure that this was also the right time for
Asakawa to change.
I felt that denying her the possibility of change was denying myself.
We are no longer childhood friends.
We no longer call each other by our names, nor will we spend time together like before.
All our memories will fade into oblivion, and now the only thing that will remain was that relationship as
classmates.
But, despite everything, we are friends who share school life in the same class.
If we had to talk, we would, and if we happened to be alone after class, we would at least have some small
talk. After all, the possibilities are endless.

I wonder what my fresh-out-of-summer self would think of this decision.

Would you call me naive or praise me for a job well done?
I don't know which of the two things, but I would like to see myself as the protagonist of the anime I watched
that day.
And like him, I thought it would be nice if I could look stunning now.

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Goodbye to the past , hello new me

"Ha ha ha! So you became a detective, Yuta-kun!”

"Of course not. “Everything happened so coincidentally that I never imagined things would
end like this.”
"Yes Yes. Although I am glad that you have reconciled with Asakawa-san.”
c
As if coming from the bottom of her heart, Ruri-chan congratulated me through our phone
call. TO

Well, even though she wasn't involved in this whole ordeal, I thought it would be nice to tell
Q
her what happened, so I called her the next morning.
p "Thank you. I just called to tell you how I feel. “I’ll be sure to come see you at the
maid- café, and I’m sorry for calling you unannounced.”
YO

"Ha ha ha! I'm happy to hear your morning voice! Oh, also, don't just visit me at the maid-
café! T Let's go on a date, you and me, okay? Good, see you!"
With that killer phrase, he hung up the call.
OR
Even though it was through the speakers, hearing her beautiful voice was a comfort to my
morning.
l
In fact, if I set your voice as an alarm, my quality of life would improve drastically.
Although that wouldn't help me wake up sooner.
EITHER
Wow! Time flew while I talked to her.
I thought I had enough time for a call! I quickly checked my belongings and ran towards
the entrance of the house. I had already put my lunch box in my bag.

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I left as usual and headed to the station in a hurry, since I couldn't be late.
Today, as for a long time, Kurosaki was waiting for me.
After running a bit, the station came into my line of sight, and I see his black hair blown by the wind.
I approached her from behind and touched her shoulders, without her realizing it.
“Good morning, Kurosaki!”
“Wow! You surprised me… Good morning, senpai!”
"What's the matter? “You are breathing hard.”
“You surprised me, Senpai!”
While I stroked the head of my kouhai, who started hitting me repeatedly, we passed through the entrance
gate for the train.
“Well, we found the person who filled your locker with studded shoes the other day, so I don't think he'll do it
again. “I’m sorry I got you into this…”
I decided to leave all the testing in Asakawa's hands. He said he would present it to the professor.
In the near future, Makabe will be punished.
After all is said and done, I need to apologize to the two who had nothing to do with it and were affected.
“Did you do everything you could to find the culprit!? Glad to hear it! Thank you!"
“No, it's my fault you were targeted, so you don't need to thank me.”
“Still, I'm happy you did something for me! ¡... And I can’t help but feel happy that you have reconciled with
Asakawa-senpai!”
“... Understood. Thank you".
I take in his thoughts. She's been trying to lighten the mood, so I honestly accepted her gratitude.
However, this atmosphere was short-lived. After moving and squirming, he opened his mouth.
“A-Now that I think about it, Senpai, is there anything different about me today?”
“You wear your hair over your right ear.”
“Oh, did you notice!? Since when!?"
"Since the first time I saw you. Of course I noticed it.”

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Her blonde interior, normally hidden by a black exterior, was neatly arranged behind her right ear like a
secret curtain.
It was impossible not to notice such a striking hairstyle.
To make matters worse, you could see his ears, which he rarely showed. Every time she gently adjusted her
hair, Kurosaki looked mature and classy; Frankly, it suited him well.
“W-What…?How…?”
“I think it looks amazing on you, especially with how you wear your hair up.”
“... Pervert".
He didn't mean to say anything strange, but he still narrowed his eyes and treated me like a pervert.
Despite the teasing, he grabbed the hem of my uniform tenderly.
Is he as happy as he seems or am I imagining it?
We arrived at the high school a little later, while we were talking about a new game that had just come out.
After changing our shoes in the lockers, we met up and I walked her to her classroom.
“Well, senpai! See you after class!”
“Okay~”
He waved goodbye and entered his classroom.
The calm before the incidents reigned again, and everyone tried to enjoy their precious free time before
classes started, even if it was little.
Among them, I saw one of my few friends.
“Good morning, Katayama.”
“Miyamoto! Good morning!"
“I just want to ask you one thing. Are you okay now?”
Guessing what the conversation was about, he said something to the group that was there and approached me.
The others must have understood it, so they didn't question us or anything, and that's how we managed to talk
calmly.
“Hey~! What was that!? I thought there were at least fifty criminals!”
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"Ha ha ha! I was getting ready for us to take some good shots! Anyway, thanks for your hard work!”
Once again, he thanked me. I appreciate his lighthearted banter to keep the conversation from getting too
dark.
"The same thank you".
“I told you not to worry! Leaving that aside, how about we go to Shimokitazawa this time? It is famous
because they have handmade accessories─────”
After talking about our next destination for fun, classes began.
Meanwhile, Makabe was absent from school and was nowhere to be seen.
He was probably afraid to come to school due to the revelation of his crimes.
Well, apart from everything that happened, there were already some rumors that he was doing shady things in
the background, so it's possible that the situation would have been resolved without my intervention.

“Senpai! Let’s have lunch together!”

It was lunch time. It was a rare occurrence, although it happened once every three days───── when
Kurosaki invited me to lunch.
“I was waiting for you to come!”
“Senpai knew it! “We are going to have lunch in the patio today.”
Since I had no reason to refuse, I followed her to the patio to have lunch together.
There were several benches lined up in it. They were probably placed in consideration of the many students
eating in the sun, perhaps even for the beautiful couples around.
Thanks to that, we saw several couples flirting right in front of us with a passion that rivaled the heat of the
summer sun in all its splendor. Since all the inconspicuous benches were occupied, we had to sit on one right
next to the school building. That awful!
We sat knee to knee and opened our own lunch boxes.
His mother had prepared his. It looked delicious and had many more colors than mine.
Despite this, he narrowed his eyes and began to eat my own lunch with his eyes.

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“Wow! Your lunch looks delicious today, Senpai.”

"Oh yeah? I'm making it as is, so the taste is nothing special.”
"I want to try it! Especially those bacon-wrapped asparagus.”
This girl pointed out the most striking thing without hesitation.
But who could refuse a request with those bright eyes of his? I think nobody.
So I said goodbye to both the asparagus and the bacon, and then gently moved both into her little mouth.
“Here, ah~.”
“Ah~n... Mmm! It's very good! And it tastes even better when you feed it to me!”
“¿... Gives you no shame?"
Watching her play like a child, I couldn't help but relax my face.
Ah, a beautiful kouhai and a peaceful afternoon. I wish this peace that I finally have could last
forever─────
“Miyamoto-san, can I talk to you for a moment?”
“...Asakawa? What's happening?"
It was Asakawa, a classmate, who suddenly tried to join the cheerful atmosphere.
Well, the suddenness surprised me, but there was no longer any tension between us.
So I'll just listen to what you have to say.
“It's not very important, but I was wondering if we could have lunch together.”
In her right hand she had a lunch box wrapped in a pretty pink cloth.
So it's not important, huh? More like, do you want to have lunch with me?
I said we were classmates, but wasn't it unnatural that the most popular girl in the class, out of the blue, asked
me to lunch?
Well, I had no reason to reject her anymore. I wonder what the kouhai next to me thinks.
“I don't care, but what do you say Kurosaki?”
"Hey? I? "I really... don't care, but... Why, Asakawa-senpai?"
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Asakawa sat on my right side. Now, the two most popular girls in school sat on either side.
If I were Othello, I would also be a beautiful girl, but unfortunately, I was still the same as always.
Honestly, Kurosaki and I felt a little uncomfortable, but Asakawa just opened his lunch box without realizing
it and spread out the beautifully packaged side dishes with chopsticks.
He must have prepared lunch, but his was much better than mine. I have no excuses.
“Ah, Asakawa-senpai, you're just Yuta-senpai's classmate, right?”
"That's how it is".
“Then why did you suddenly come to have lunch with him...?”
Unable to bear this indescribable atmosphere, Kurosaki went straight to the heart of the matter.
He asked something that even I was doubting.
As I applauded her inside, Asakawa responded as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
"Because? “I just wanted to have lunch with Miyamoto-kun.”
“But you have no relationship with him!”
“If I had to say it, it was love at first sight.”
It was one of those movie prince lines, but he said it with such confidence that it didn't sound ridiculous.
No, what's wrong with your reason...?
“Ah... well, again... another rival... and also... Asakawa-senpai...hahaha..."
Kurosaki, whose energy had hit rock bottom, murmured that with his eyes wide and full of wonder.
Thanks for your hard work. From here it's my turn.
“How did you fall in love at first sight? Since you are a model, Asakawa-san, you surely know many
handsome actors…”
“While that's true, everyone was surprised at how much you changed right after summer vacation. Well, not
so much for me, since I don't like to judge people by their appearance, but I figured it must take a lot of effort
to change so much. I thought it was a wonderful thing since not many can make that kind of effort.”
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A perfect alibi, a masterfully constructed story.

Before I could finish my question, she had already started to respond as if she had expected it all.
I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't argue with his long sentence.
Asakawa, I think with those skills you should aim to become an actress or something in the future.
The fact that she could act so naturally, as if we had never been anything other than classmates, suggested that she
was either an extremely gifted actress or a psychopath.
It is very likely that it was the latter.
“Asakawa… Are you okay?”
“Of course I am. W-Well, more than that, my heart beats a lot when I start pouring out strong feelings like that.”
Hey? Since when did you use to express your feelings?
Her cheeks flushed slightly and she looked up with a bit of ecstasy.
After a moment, she returned to her cold face and began to summarize her story in an unnatural manner.
“Well, I don't want to bother you right now, so let's have lunch together another time.”
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Perhaps because a trainer gave him a revive potion, Kurosaki rose from the dead and began to threaten her
like a hamster threatens a human.
Asakawa's actions are suspicious, but I don't think it will cause any harm, so it's okay to leave it alone for a
while.
More importantly, he had to confirm something with her.
“Asakawa, what did you do with the evidence?”
“I showed it to Kairin-sensei and she got furious. Maybe expulsion is out of the question, but he probably
won't do anything bad from now on."
“I see, thank you.”
After all, the final decision should be left to the teacher.
Not too serious, not too lenient, I just hope you take the appropriate measures.
“Well then, I'm done eating and I have to go now. Today I have a photo session.”
After saying that, he quickly left to gather his things.
Having said that, I don't think I came here just for lunch.
“Could it be… that you came here just to tell me that?”
“...I think that's probably it... Hey! I won’t give it to my senpai!”
I was worried about Kurosaki's emotional state, which was upset like an open wound, but he managed to
come back with great vigor, so I patted his head anyway.
Wow! Look what a big smile!

“Senpai~! See you tomorrow~!”

After classes, I separated from Kurosaki near the station and walked home alone, deep in thought.
Without a doubt, life is full of choices.
I made an effort during the summer vacation, turned to Kurosaki when he fell and forgave Asakawa.
Perhaps all of them were important crossroads in my life, and if I had chosen another path, I would be in a
completely different place.
Maybe there was a better choice I could make, or maybe I would become miserable.

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But it does not matter. I have thought it through and followed the path I wanted.
I do not regret anything. Even if a version of myself who chose another path thinks I'm unhappy, I can
brandish my choices with pride.

I have moved forward.

A beautiful kouhai, a slightly devilish maid, and an unknown classmate.

The relationships I should have let go of were back in my hands, in better shape than ever, and that's okay.
I looked up at the sky and saw that same star, the brightest of all, twinkling in the heavens as it caught sight
of me.
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If I had realized the

Kurosaki 's feelings

“Haa... Haa... “Sen... pai...”

I put every ounce of strength into my legs to stand up, but I can't move them anymore.
AND
No, if things continue like this, Senpai will leave.
If N that happens, I will understand that I will never have the opportunity to convey my

c feelings to you again.

But what I heard as I struggled to get up was an unexpected word.
R “Kurosaki!”
“¿... OR Hey? “Sen...pai?”
I was unable to understand what was happening.
c
I, who should be rejected, was being hugged by my Senpai.
This Yo is a dream?

J. However, the warm and powerful feeling that enveloped my body showed me that all
of this was real.
TO "Because... “Senpai?”
“I'm GI so sorry, Kurosaki. Even though you got these injuries you continued to follow me... “I
thought you just wanted to ridicule me.”
Ah I
VE understand.
I hurt S my Senpai because of that.
I have to apologize now.
But when I tried to do so, Senpai stopped me and spoke.
“If 1-A you were really making fun of me, you wouldn't be trying to tell me anything until
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At his request, I grabbed his hands and told him everything I felt.
And after telling him everything.
Senpai forgave me and the world became colorful again.

"I'm leaving! See you later!"

I told that to my mother who was standing in the kitchen and left my house in a hurry.
I was able to remove the bandages from my knees and ran in perfect condition.
In all this, there is a reason why I am in such a hurry.
“¡... Ah, Kurosaki! Good morning!"
“Senpai! Good morning! Today you came before me again, right!?”
"That's how it is. "I just can't keep my pretty kouhai waiting."
“L-Linda? Oh thank you..."
Secretly, I was looking forward to arriving before Senpai, but today he beat me to it.
Since that day, Senpai has come to treat me with more respect than before.
Even now, he still told me how pretty I was. Finally the 'dere' period came for my Senpai. How happy it
makes me.

At lunch time.
When I headed to his classroom as usual, a student was talking to him.
Seeing me, the boy talks to Yuta-senpai in a mocking manner.
“Miyamoto, your kouhai-chan is here~!”
“Look at her Katayama. Doesn't Kurosaki look incredibly cute today?”
“Hey, Senpai! That's embarrassing!"
I felt my face turn red from that attack of praise directed at me as soon as I arrived at his classroom.
I'm happy that he praises me, but it's embarrassing that even his friends make fun of it.
“Well, I won’t come between you.”
“Thank you Katayama. Come, here Kurosaki”
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I'm so embarrassed that I can't even see Senpai's face, but I managed to sit next to him.
“¿... “Do you think we look like a silly dating couple?”
"That is not right? You are a cute kouhai that even if we are misunderstood, it is still a long-cherished wish
that I have had for a long time.”
“Senpai, you've become quite bold, huh?”
“This means I'm maturing, I think?”
I mean, is it okay if they think you're dating me?
I pretend to be calm, but I feel so happy that I want to jump just hearing those words.
... So that's what it means, right?
In the end, I also had a happy lunch today.
Although from time to time, I get the feeling that Asakawa-senpai is looking at me horrendously for some
reason, but I'd better not worry about that.

After school, I had a date with Senpai.

I don't know if he feels the same, but it's a minor problem.
In any case, there are many opportunities for it to happen.
“Today would you like to watch a movie? “Look, there’s a new action movie coming out.”
“I thought about watching that movie too! Look, I have two tickets. Hahaha".
“You're a genius, although it's frustrating that you can guess what I think.”
I feel like I hit the nail on the head.
“Okay, I'll go buy some popcorn and soda. Let's go to our seats right away!”
“¿... Who are you talking to?"
I ignored Senpai's tsukkomi and we went to the movies.
Alright, it's time to review the plan.
For starters, it's not really an action movie as such.
In itself it is a dramatic and touching romance film that you would never imagine since it is a B class film.

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I sacrificed myself by watching the spoilers, but I had no choice but to do so.
In the second part of the film, the protagonist meets the heroine in a moving meeting, which is the climax of
the story.
If I hold Senpai's hand as if it were a matter of course, even he, who always seems all relaxed, will surely get
excited.
“It will be amazing… *Fufufu* …”
“¿... Are you OK?"
I was so focused on the excessive perfection of my plan that I accidentally giggled, but I don't care.
Already in the movie theater, the film begins as it should.
In front of my eyes, the protagonist defeats his enemies, however I am so nervous that I did not pay attention
to the story.
I'm waiting for the right moment to hold hands.
On the other hand, I glanced at Senpai and noticed that his eyes were shining as he stared at the screen.
It's my time to enjoy it!
After such a hellish time, the protagonist reunites with the heroine.
And the two start running towards each other.
─────It's now!
I slowly approach the seat next to me.
But what is this?
The protagonists began to exchange a deep kiss just as he was about to take Senpai's hand.
Of course, the protagonists are boyfriends, so it is not strange that they give each other that kind of kiss.
However, we are in such a hot scene, so it's better not to hold Senpai's hand─────
“¿!........!?”
When I was about to remove my hand, Senpai grabbed it.
My sitting body jumps in surprise at the sudden turn of events and my heart races quite a bit.

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Our fingers intertwined and thus the typical dating connection was completed.
Did Senpai know about my intentions?
Or was he also planning a strategy like me?
I don't know what the truth is, but the hand that held mine was very warm. I don't remember what happened
in the movie as my head was full of happiness.
And so the movie ended and the lights in the movie theater came on.
I can say without looking in the mirror that my face temperature is probably the highest it's ever been.
While I turned my face away so that Senpai wouldn't notice that, he spoke to me.
“The movie was a lot of fun, Kurosaki. Wasn't it great that he flew from three feet?”
“¿... Did it fly from a meter?”
Yet our hands remained gently connected.
I thought that the days he looked at me like that would make me very happy.

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If I could confront Yuta -kun

wi thout playing a character

“Yuta-kun! Thank you for coming to the maid-café today!”

"Yeah. It is a pleasure for me to see you too.”
AND
I was abandoned by my ex-girlfriend and betrayed by my kouhai.
N Heartbroken, I headed to a maid-café.
Of course, I did it on a whim.
c
I wasn't planning on going and much less had any kind of expectation for a particular
maid. R
However, at that moment I needed human warmth and even if something fake was
OR
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c
A year has passed and this maid-café, which I thought was a temporary residence, has
Yo
become an irreplaceable place for me.
It J. was all due to my favorite maid, Ruri-chan, who gently melted my frozen heart.
She doesn't abuse me like a certain kouhai did, nor did she betray me like a certain ex-
TO
girlfriend did.
GI When I cut my hair, my ex-girlfriend just laughed at it as a meager attempt on my part.
Ruri- chan, however, smiled happily and showered me with praise.
VE
He became my emotional support.
S Naturally, I started coming to the maid-café more often and now, I spend half the week
here.
That's why today, as always, it comforted me to see an angel with his arms open as if
he 1 B wanted to welcome me into his arms.
“What's on the menu today? A 'meow-meow parfait' sounds good. But I'd also love to
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“Then let's take that photo! I will also add a drink to your order.”
"Thank you! I’d love a drink!”
With that, he jumped up and went behind the counter.
Ruri-chan's charm comes from her dazzling smile and honest sensitivity.
No matter what I talk to her about, she never gives me a careless answer. When I tell him a joke, his smile is
like the tender sun, and when I'm sad, he listens to me while he comforts me.
It's like the remedy for everything.
I really don't understand why she is not popular with such a healing mass, but at least to me, she was the most
attractive girl in the whole world.
"I'm back! “I’m sorry I kept you waiting, okay?”
“Don’t worry, you looked really cute when you made me a drink.”
“Hehehe, I'm glad you said that!”
The sight of her shy, delighted smile was even cuter and I could feel my heart pounding.
“Then should I give you a reward, Yuta-kun?”
"That?"
Suddenly I felt a soft touch on my leg from under the table.
He smiled devilishly as he patted my thigh twice.
I was so nervous that I lowered my left hand, but then his cold fingers caught me.
They looked like porcelain, almost as if they weren't human.
“You can't tell anyone, okay?”
“... Of course".
Ruri-chan always tried to make physical contact with me when she noticed that no one was looking.
It made me incredibly happy, but my heart could barely handle it.
However, this immoral relationship was like a bewitching spell, and before I knew it, it had already lodged
itself in my heart as a habit that I always hope and long for.
“Well, then, shall we take the snapshot?”
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It was a shame to leave that cold and soft feeling behind, but I also wanted to get that memory, so I sweetly
agreed to separate our touch.
We got up from our seats and headed outside the store, waiting for another maid to come take our photo.
"You two! Sorry it took me~!”
“Thank you, Riko-chan!”
"Hello".
The maid who came running towards us was Riko, one of the most popular maids in the maid-café.
Although he had just joined the ranks, he quickly gained popularity with his refreshing atmosphere and
meaningful words.
Also, according to Ruri-chan, they went to the same school and were very close friends.
Be that as it may, I look at them both... while I think.
Riko's short brown hair and neutral features gave her a more girlish air, while Rurichan, with her long blue
hair as light as the Okinawan Sea and her calm, drooping eyes, gave her a genuinely sparkling and modern.
Just from their looks, I couldn't imagine the two of them being friends.
Perhaps their relationship developed after an event that involved punching each other while the setting sun
broke away from the earth in the background.
“Why is there so much slowness? “You two, stand next to each other so I can take the photo.”
"Yeah!"
"Oh, sure!"
I came to my senses after his words and stood next to Ruri-chan.
“How will we pose today?”
“Mmm, we made one of a cute rabbit the other day, so…”
“Ah, so I have an idea! Yuta-kun Look directly at Riko-chan!”
“Mmm... Like this?”
"Yeah! Keep looking forward!”
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“I'll take the photo then~!”

Riko gave the signal and put her hand on the instant camera.
Still unable to understand the intention of the pose, I glanced at Ruri-chan, who was approaching me and
gathering her hair over her ear with one of her hands.
Isn't it too close?
He got closer and closer until the distance between us was zero─────
“Hiii!”
At the same time as the shutter clicked and the flash flashed, I felt a soft sensation in my ears and the tender
movement of his lips.
“ *Fufufu* ... 'Hiii!' Hey? How cute you are!"
“I thought my heart would stop!”
That was close, I almost turned her into a murderer.
My ears were so red and hot that not even a boiled red octopus could compete.
I mean, Ruri-chan is smiling from ear to ear, but Riko will surely get angry...
"Oh really... Ruri-chan, you're not trying to get caught, are you?"
"Of course not!"
As a general rule, maid cafes prohibit their workers from having excessive physical contact, romances and the
like with their customers, but for some reason, there was almost no punishment.
These are feelings that should not be harbored.
A love that he thought he had hidden well was about to come out of his shell because of his jokes.
I have to endure it somehow, but every time he does this to me, I can't help but feel a glimmer of hope inside
my chest.
“Yuta-kun, today is also fun, isn't it?”
“... Yeah. “Thank you, Ruri-chan.”
"You are welcome!"
I have no idea what his true intentions are.
Does he really like me or is he just making fun of me?
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“Hey, Yuta-kun…”
She stares at me while looking strangely nervous.
Holding the hem of his uniform with both hands, he looks as if he is about to say something of utmost
importance.
“Here. This is my contact information─────”

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correctly

The couples laughed and got closer to each other, trying not to let themselves be overcome
by the harsh cold of winter.
The
AND blue lights, flickering in the night, make me forget the loneliness of a year that will end
in a N month.
Rubbing my hands together, I let a white snort rise toward the sky as I watch the
c countless people stroll by, more animated than usual.
“I'm R sorry I kept you waiting, Yuu.”
About ten minutes after the scheduled time, the person I was waiting for arrived. Her
OR beautiful, straight black hair almost touched her back, and swayed in the cold winds of
the night.
c
"Yumi, you're late."
"I'm Yo sorry. “It took me ages to choose these clothes.”
She
J. wore a light brown knit sweater, black skinny pants, and a leather jacket to match it all.
Although she was wearing high-heeled boots, her height far exceeded that of the
TO average man, and that, coupled with her fashion sense, made it easy to tell that she was
a model.
GI
Her makeup, consisting of eye shadow and lipstick within the color palette, further unified
her VE entire look, and even surpassed the concept of a work of art.
However, what brought her down to humanity were her smoky cheeks and reddish face,
all
S because she ran here.
"It's okay. Let's go".
"Yes, thanks".
1 C
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Although I held out my left hand to her with some hesitation, she took it in hers without hesitation.
Her thin, beautiful fingers seemed fragile enough to break at any moment, but they were warm enough to
make me think she really existed.
“You look very beautiful today, Yumi.”
"Really? That makes me happy! You also look so great that I'm falling in love with you again. The coat I
bought you the other day suits you wonderfully. “I knew it would fit you.”
As you can tell from our conversation, we're actually dating.
It may seem like this beautiful girl and I have nothing to do with each other, but we've known each other for
as long as I can remember and we've spent most of our lives together.
At first we were like brothers, but after the death of my parents, she was by my side and supported me in
those difficult times. My love for her has only grown since then.
It seemed that she felt the same way about me then and, as soon as we entered high school, she confessed her
love for me and we became friends.
When I lost my sight and sense of kindness, she would try her best to wake me up, and thanks to her efforts, I
am still able to live my life happily without going astray.
Today, we are here on a date of enlightenment that I have been waiting for for some time.
“The lighting continues from the station to here. Incredible..."
“It's true, we don't have a light show like that in our city.”
“It's not even Christmas, but there are so many people around here. I guess that's how beautiful the real thing
is."
Numerous people were heading to the venue, almost walking in line.
On the other side of the sidewalk, we saw people returning from the show, all with happy expressions and
smiles on their faces.
“Still, it's cold.”
“Yes, it started to freeze suddenly.”
“I should have brought hand warmers. It was my mistake".
“Hmm, in that case…”
Yumi took our clasped hands and put them in my coat pocket.
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“... Of course".
Thanks to our hands being joined in my pocket, the distance between us was naturally shortened.
I could feel him touching my arm through the jacket, and although it wasn't direct, it made my own body
temperature rise.
“Yuu, are you blushing?”
"You're imagining things... Oh look, we can see the lighting from here.”
“... You're right. “It really is on another level.”
Crossing the streets, we slowly approach the bright lights. The two of us finally arrived at the park where the
event was being held.
The overwhelming blue lights spread throughout the trees, from corner to corner as far as I could see.
"Incredible... Everything is blue until the other side.”
“It's like we're in the ocean.”
We walked around the park for a while, looking at all the lights above us, and after a while we found a less
crowded place.
Her normally mature and frank eyes were wide, brimming with the excitement of a little girl.
The blue lights flickered against his beautiful face. Yumi almost seemed otherworldly, like she was
untouchable and unattainable.
Will you be happy to be here with me?
She is so beautiful that I am sure she could conquer much better men than me.
I'm sure many will approach you during your modeling work.
So does it make sense to be with me─────?
“Of course he has.”
There was a pause and I looked at her surprised.
I haven't said a word, but she has responded to my thoughts as if she had.
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“How many years do you think we've been together, Yuu? I know you like the back of my hand, even what
you feel. I am with you because I love you. I love everything about you. Your sweetness, your coldness, your
kindness, and the fact that I feel more at ease when I'm with you.”
I notice that his kind eyes shine as he speaks.
I see. Just like I chose her, she chose me.
After all the choices I have made, I am now sure of it.
I'm the only one who can make Yumi happy in this world.
“... “I’m happy to be with you too, Yumi.”
"I'm wondering the same. “That’s because I always think of you first.”
*Fufufu* He giggled, it seemed like he was in a good mood as he grabbed my hand tighter.
And so not to be left behind, I also put my heart in it.
“Ah, it's snowing…”
"Yeah... It's lovely..."
It was like the moment of a drama.
However, I only looked at the falling snow for a moment, and my gaze fell on the person next to me.
The immaculate white of the falling flakes accentuated the shine of her black hair.
I could only wonder what his fragile, bright eyes were thinking.

If there were a different world, if there were a different future, maybe I wouldn't be laughing with her like I
do now.
In fact, we may be strangers and have nothing to do with each other.
If that's the case, at least in this world, I want to make her the happiest girl in the world.
I want to know more about the person who understands me best.

Oh please.
May this happiness last forever.

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Nice to meet you, I'm Sakana Aruku. Thank you for reading this work.
Q Whether you read the digital or physical version of 'Itsumo Baka ni Shite Kuru
Bishoujo-Tachi to Zetsuen Shitara, Jitsuwa Ore no Koto ga Daisuki Datta yooda', we
hope
TO you enjoy it.
It's l been about a year since I first wrote a story. Until this section of the author's words, I
have gained a lot of experience. Many thanks to Kodansha publisher Ranobe Bunko, editor
TO Morita-san, and Igayan-sensei, who was in charge of the illustrations.
Yuta b aside, I'll talk about my own impression of each of the heroines.
Asakawa had the image of the final boss since I started writing the story, that is, when
he
R hadn't decided what to do. That's why the breakup with Yuta had to be deep. It's a

TO shame he couldn't write most of the scenes where he interacts with Yuta with a smile
on his face. Of course, I love the height it has.
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was able to reconcile with Yuta soon, communicated with him more, and was able to act
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defensively against the other heroines' attack. Overall, kouhais are nice, right?
I think Ruri is a character whose appeal has suddenly increased due to the design Igayan-
sensei gave her. The blue color of her hair is beautiful, plus I think one can enjoy the
d fading of the color in the good sense of the word. Watch it again when the color has
faded AND again.
That's all.
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An unexpected meeting

In the c school yard at lunch time.

“Still I am happy. “I didn’t expect you to invite me to lunch Miyamoto.”
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his Q heart.
“Is it so surprising?”
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“You T mean Kurosaki?”

OR "That's how it is! “To Kurosaki-chan!”

It's true that Kurosaki usually comes to the classroom, so we often have lunch together.
l However today he told me. 'Every once in a while I feel like Senpai wants to have some
alone EIT time, so I understand.' That phrase caught on in a drama, that's why I decided to invite
Katayama to lunch.
HER “Now that you mention Kurosaki-chan.”
As if suddenly remembering something, Katayama turned to look at me.
“Did you know that girl is actually a very popular girl?”
AND
"Popular?"
Yes "Yeah. In our grade the popular one is Asakawa-san, in the third year it is~... Damn, I
forgot, but in the first year, Kurosaki-chan receives the attention and admiration of the
Q
boys 」
"Ah, AND really...?"
I seem to remember that when I'm walking with her, I feel like they're looking at me
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more than usual.
Her Yo face is pretty, her hair is well groomed and even when I walk next to her, her eyes
attract me.
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“Now, the experts say─────”

"The experts?"
Who are the experts on Kurosaki? His mother?
“Well, well, it might be rude to tell you that, but anyway, according to them: Kurosaki-san has become
obsessed with movies lately.”
“Ah, that's right.”
“Did you know that~? Well, from the source of that information, that seems very strange, but I see that you
used that as an excuse to ask her out, Miyamoto…”
Believe so? I guess he's trying to move our relationship forward in his own way.
But...
“Actually, instead of saying she's obsessed with movies, Kurosaki is pretty serious about it, you know?”
"Oh really?"
“That's why he acts faster than me. During that time..."

Sometime after classes.

When I finished shopping and went home, I suddenly wanted to go to the movies.
I had a brochure in my hands that made me want to go see the movies.
Upon arriving at the cinema I tried to walk towards the movie posters with light steps, when suddenly I saw a
familiar figure inside the cinema.
"Hey? "Kurosaki?"
“Ah! S-Senpai! What a coincidence to see you here!”
His expression brightened at the unexpected meeting and with that I realized that he was in a good mood, but
at the same time, it seemed that he was in a hurry.
"What's happening? You don't look like usual─────”
“N-No, no. You're wrong, you know?
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I can't say for sure but that diligent look he makes from the corner of his eye looks different from Kurosaki's
usual one.
"That's how it is! The thing is that the lighting in the cinema is unique and that's why it makes me look
different!”
“Ah, I think you're right... Huh?”
Just as I was convincing myself of his words, I noticed that Kurosaki was holding something behind his back.
“Is that a movie ticket?”
"Hey? Ah... that's... it is”
Saying that all embarrassed, she slowly showed me the movie ticket.
“This... It's a ticket to the premiere of the new The Mantisman movie!”
"I see..."
The Mantisman is possibly the most anticipated superhero movie currently.
The protagonist has been a praying mantis since he was young... That aside, this is one of my favorite works.
Since the first film was released, I have recommended Kurosaki on many occasions. Maybe now is the right
time to─────
"Kurosaki"
“Yes!”
“Do you really like Mantisman?”
"Hey?"
When I recommended it to her, she seemed uninterested, but when she gave it a chance, it was more
interesting than expected and she ended up hooked.
So when he came to buy a ticket to the preview for the second sequel, I found it.
From her point of view, she was embarrassed because she lost to me.
However, as far as I'm concerned, I'm happy to have a comrade.
“Seriously, if you thought it was interesting you should have let me know.”
"Hmm...? Oh, that's right!
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“Well, it was more interesting than I thought and I also bought two tickets to the screening of his new movie
hoping to get at least a special benefit!”
“I'm pretty sure it's going to be a poster.”
There are four types in total. The design is good and you can get it when purchasing several tickets in
exchange.
“Then I was wondering what to do because I had one ticket left over!”
“Well, I'll pay you. Could you give me that extra entry?”
Preview tickets are a little more expensive.
"Of course not! Rather, I'm going to give it to you!”
"Thank you"

“... That's what I'm talking about. Later that day, we went to see The Mantisman.”
“Ah…”
“In other words, what I mean is that Kurosaki goes to the movies a lot.”
“... You know Miyamoto.”
Katayama placed his hand on my shoulder and spoke a little as if he were apologizing. “I think the reason
Kurosaki-chan was embarrassed was because she had actually been looking at the extra ticket she bought to
invite you Miyamoto.”

“¿... So you think?"

I see. Next time I'll have to buy an extra ticket.

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