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  KAROL NIELSEN                                   5
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9    © 2011 by Karol Nielsen. Acknowledgments for the
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     Black elephants : a memoir / Karol Nielsen.
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18   isbn 978-0-8032-3537-3 (pbk.: alk. paper)
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  1 The New Zealand Sheep
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            2 Machu Picchu          11
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            3 Schlepper       25                  19
            4 Revital    35                       20
            5 Mexican Pyramids 40                 21
            6 Long Distance         43            22
            7 Sabra     50                        23
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            8 Give Peace a Chance 65
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            9 Black Elephants           81
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           10 Not a Good Soldier             91   27
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1        14 Sitting Ducks     104
2        15 The Promise 109
3        16 Lucie    115
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8        20 Pampered American             133
9        21 Smoker     139
10       22 Nine-Point-Two Miles 142
11       23 Litmus Test      151
12       24 Better to Smile        162
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The minivan bumped along hills that hugged Lake Titicaca.     14
Haze made the water look silver. I sat behind Dirk, a Ger-    15
man traveler with a ponytail. It hung to the middle of his    16
back, streaked bronze from the South American sun. He         17
wore dusty jeans and a tank top that skimmed his torso.       18
Dirk was one of those hard-core travelers, the kind I’d met   19
along the way, who took regular trips through Latin Amer-     20
ica, Africa, and the Far East. They seemed so worldly, and    21
despite the army tanks, tear gas, and guns I’d seen during    22
my year as a writer for an English-language newspaper in      23
Argentina, I still felt sheltered. I was only beginning to    24
understand the underbelly of the world, something the         25
serious travelers seemed to have understood from birth.       26
  Growing up in Connecticut, I felt the pull of faraway       27
places my father and grandfather had been, places like        28
India, China, and Vietnam. My father fought in the cen-       29
tral highlands of Vietnam, as a commissioned officer with     30
the 101st Airborne Division—the Screaming Eagles. After       31
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1    the war, he left the army and became a businessman in
2    New York City. He had a window office in the Chrysler
3    Building. He dressed in suits, ties, and wing-tipped shoes.
4    Secretly, I pictured him trekking through jungle, a Nebras-
5    ka boy, lean and tall and tan—a Viking in army fatigues.
6    My father never glamorized war, but my mother’s father
7    did. He made it sound like an exotic mission, flying over
8    the Himalayas—the camel’s hump—from India to China
9    during World War II. He was never Grandfather or Grand-
10   pa or anything that sounded old. He was Bobby, the hero
11   who flew the hump. He’d take us to Chinese restaurants
12   and try to impress us by speaking Chinese to the waiters.
13   It worked. I wanted big adventure like Bobby, action like
14   a new recruit.
15      I wanted to travel the world when I graduated from the
16   University of Pennsylvania, like Marcos, an Argentine
17   friend who’d finished a semester before me. He liked India
18   best. “So many religions!” But I didn’t have the money, and
19   my mother said I needed a job. I found one at the Buenos
20   Aires Herald, famous for its coverage of Argentina’s “dirty
21   war,” when thousands disappeared during the military dic-
22   tatorship. I ended up in Buenos Aires because, as a fresh-
23   man at Penn, an Argentine student walked up to me and
24   said, “I want to teach you the tango.” Jon never taught
25   me the tango, but I got to know most of the Argentines
26   at school. Marcos, his brother Nacho, their cousin Pablo,
27   and their friends, Jon and Martin—Yon and Mar-teen—
28   lived in an off-campus row house in West Philadelphia.
29   They called it the Argentine Embassy.
30      Martin had the classic good looks of an Argentine polo
31   player, and we dated my senior year, but he was two years
       2
younger and so studious that he hardly had time for me.         1
A straight-a student at the Wharton School of Business,         2
Martin was in the library night after night until one, two,     3
three, or four in the morning. After we’d broken up, I ran      4
into him in the library and told him I needed an extra          5
semester to finish my thesis.                                   6
   “Do you have a place to stay?” Martin asked.                 7
   “Not yet,” I said.                                           8
   “We have a room.”                                            9
   So during my last months of school, while writing my         10
thesis and an article for the Penn World Review on the debt     11
crisis in Brazil and Mexico, I lived in the new Argentine       12
Embassy, farther from campus, on a beaten-down block            13
by a crack house and a gas station. My housemate Patri-         14
cia was a graduate student who had written for La Nación,       15
Argentina’s paper of record. She knew that I wanted to          16
travel and write after college, so she said, “Come to Bue-      17
nos Aires. You can live with me.” I went, and for months        18
I lined up cushions from her two small couches and slept        19
on the floor beside her balcony, facing the Rio de la Pla-      20
ta, and then I found a place across the hall. My balcony        21
overlooked a military horse corral, and when my family          22
came for Christmas, my mother went to the balcony and           23
thought, That’s it. I’m not worrying about her anymore!         24
   This was five years after the end of the military dicta-     25
torship, but the mothers of the disappeared still marched       26
in the Plaza de Mayo, holding posters of missing children       27
and grandchildren, stepping over bodies painted on the          28
courtyard like crime-scene markers. Argentina’s still-fragile   29
democracy was dealing with labor strikes, hyperinflation,       30
and power shortages that meant walking up and down the          31
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en years older than me, about to turn thirty, and she had        1
grown weary of the violence, remembering how her broth-          2
er swiftly left the country after the last military coup. She    3
wanted to go back to the United States to find a job, meet       4
a man, maybe have children. It seemed like a betrayal to         5
the free spirit in me, since Maria had given me her well-        6
worn copy of Simone de Beauvoir’s autobiography. But             7
the truth is that Argentina had become unmanageable for          8
me, too. Hyperinflation had shrunk the value of my sal-          9
ary from a livable $300 a month to only $30 in less than a       10
year. I couldn’t even cover my half of the rent with that,       11
and now that Maria was leaving, I’d have to pay the full         12
$160 a month. The rent didn’t fluctuate. My landlord set         13
it in dollars.                                                   14
   I took a sip of my café con leche. “I want to travel before   15
I go.”                                                           16
   It was the end of summer in Argentina, the seasons            17
reversing below the equator, when I bought an Aérolinas          18
Argentinas ticket with unlimited stops for a month and           19
left, seeing penguins in Tierra del Fuego, glaciers in Pata-     20
gonia, the Bambi forest in Bariloche, the wine country in        21
Mendoza, gauchos on horseback in Salta, sandhills striped        22
rose, lime, and bone in Jujuy. I crossed the Andes to Chile,     23
spending two nervous days in Santiago during Pinochet’s          24
military rule, and then took a plane to La Paz, where Boliv-     25
ian women wore English bowler hats and baby-doll skirts.         26
Now I was on my way to Machu Picchu, the Inca ruins in           27
the Peruvian Andes.                                              28
   It was dusk when the minivan pulled into Puno, a mud-         29
dy border town on Titicaca’s shore. I couldn’t get over the      30
mud. It covered most of the cobblestone roads, except for        31
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   Dirk held up his beer and sipped. “There was a woman in         1
Brazil.” He grinned, taking a puff of his cigarette. I could       2
see the yellow tint of his teeth. “She wants me to stay.”          3
   “Why didn’t you?”                                               4
   Dirk laughed, a casual and carefree laugh that somehow          5
told me he only wanted pleasure out of life. “I don’t make         6
my life in Brazil, but it is beautiful. Have you been?”            7
   “Just Rio,” I said.                                             8
   “You don’t go north to Bahía?”                                  9
   “I don’t think I’ll get up that far.” I shrugged.               10
   He nodded and grinned as if listening to drums beat.            11
“The beaches and the people, so beautiful.”                        12
   “Someday,” I said.                                              13
   The door to the pub swung open. A man walked in, and            14
I watched him, sucking in a deep breath, the way I do huff-        15
ing up a big hill on a run. I held the air inside, as if letting   16
it out would distract me from the backpacker. He smiled            17
and stared as he sauntered toward me, lean and tall. He’s          18
the one, ran through my mind. I had never felt that kind           19
of certainty. It was the way he looked at me—as if saying,         20
You bet I am—as he headed to the back of the pub and up            21
the stairs to the balcony. I turned and watched his plaid          22
flannel shirt flop against the back pockets of his Levi’s,         23
hanging low on his hips.                                           24
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Dirk and I walked to the train station the next morning.           26
A ticket line overflowed into the street. Mostly men with          27
wool ponchos and long black hair. I waited in line, and            28
Dirk went on ahead. He asked a man up front to buy a               29
ticket for him in exchange for a few pesos. Dirk came back         30
with a ticket to Arequipa. He scribbled his address in my          31
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   “What’s your name?” he asked, his nose nearly resting            1
on my cheek.                                                        2
   “Karol.”                                                         3
   “Aviv,” he said, pronouncing his name Ah-veev. He looked         4
like an American college student with his wire-rimmed               5
glasses, shaggy chestnut hair, plaid flannel shirt, and fad-        6
ed Levi’s.                                                          7
   Aviv looked at the backpacker beside me in the cab. “This        8
is Uri.” He had black curls and aquamarine eyes.                    9
   “Hi, Uri,” I said.                                               10
   He gave me a groggy morning hello.                               11
   Aviv then pointed at the women in the front seat. “This          12
is Liat and Mihal.” Their names sounded like Lee-ot and             13
Mee-hal with a guttural h.                                          14
   “You’re American?” Aviv studied me now, like I’d stud-           15
ied him in the pub.                                                 16
   “Yes, and you?”                                                  17
   “We are Israeli, all of us in this car but you and the driver.   18
We are traveling together for some days now. We meet in             19
Bolivia, and we stay together after that.”                          20
   I remembered the first Israeli I’d met on the road. I’d          21
taken him for an American soldier at first. Big blue eyes,          22
short-cropped, dusty blond hair and bodybuilder biceps.             23
He sat next to me on the plane out of El Calafate, an Argen-        24
tine village along the Andes, where the Perito Moreno               25
Glacier spawned blue-and-white icebergs.                            26
   “I met an Israeli in Patagonia,” I said.                         27
   “We’re all traveling after our military service. We call it      28
the tax for living in Israel,” Aviv chuckled. “Men go in the        29
army three years, the women two years, and then we go on            30
a big trip. Some are going to South America, and some are           31
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The train looked like a diner. Brown vinyl benches tucked       14
under beige Formica tabletops, all along the car on both        15
sides. The Israelis found a booth near the entrance. No         16
room for me. I scanned for an open seat, spotted one sev-       17
eral rows back, and hustled for it. Aviv came over to strap     18
my bag to the metal rack above.                                 19
   “You have to tie the bags,” he said. “A lot of things get    20
stolen on the trains.”                                          21
   “Thanks.”                                                    22
   Aviv went back to his seat.                                  23
   A Peruvian man peeled oranges for his little boy and girl.   24
I tried not to stare at the oranges. I hadn’t had any break-    25
fast and didn’t have anything on me. One of the children        26
offered me a slice. I looked at the father before accepting     27
it. He smiled, and I slid the slice into my mouth.              28
   With a jerk, the train rolled out of the station. I gazed    29
out of the window at flocks of sheep roaming green hills        30
under a gray sky.                                               31
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1       “Do you want to play cards?” Aviv asked, sitting down
2    on the corner of the table in front of me.
3       “Sure.”
4       “I’ll teach you a game we play in the army.” He took out
5    a pack of cards and a bag of peanuts. I grabbed a handful.
6       As he flipped cards to demonstrate the game of Whist,
7    I could not concentrate on his words. All I noticed were
8    his hands. His fingers were as lean as the rest of him. His
9    knuckles protruded, like burls on a maple. The skin was
10   bronzed and cracked around the cuticles, like a working-
11   man’s. I liked his hands.
12      “Have you got it?”
        “I think so. Let’s try a game.”
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        “Where do you live in Israel?”
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        “A small town, the north,” he said. “Are you from New
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        “Not far. Connecticut. Very boring.”
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        “Boring sounds good.” He beamed. “Do you have paper?”
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        “Sure.” I pulled out my journal and flipped to a blank page.
20      “I will draw a map.” He made a quick sketch of his coun-
21   try. “You see, there is Jerusalem, Tel Aviv, and Haifa. I’m
22   in Kiryat Bialik, right here.” He pointed to a dot just above
23   the northern port of Haifa.
24      “You’ve been traveling long?” I asked.
25      “I’ve been six months traveling. Argentina, Chile, Brazil,
26   Bolivia, Peru,” Aviv said, counting countries with his fin-
27   gers. “How long you have been in South America?”
28      “About a year.”
29      “You travel one year?”
30      “No, I spent most of that time working for a newspaper
31   in Buenos Aires.”
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the traveler.”                                                     2
  “I keep a journal because I don’t like to forget what I’ve       3
seen,” I said.                                                     4
  “Why do you go to Argentina?”                                    5
  “I’d have traveled the world if I’d had the money, but I         6
didn’t, and my mother said I had to get a job. So I stayed         7
with an Argentine friend from school and got a job.”               8
  “Tell me, have you been to Torres del Paine in the south         9
of Chile?”                                                         10
  “No, just Santiago.”                                             11
  “Torres del Paine is such a beautiful place. I was hiking        12
in the mountains there. I want to go again.” He smiled.
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  “I only went to the south of Argentina. I loved Calafate,
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the glaciers and icebergs. They were so blue,” I said, biting
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my lower lip. “Did you go?”
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  “I know this drink,” Aviv said. “But why you don’t like
Bariloche?”                                                        20
  “It was so touristy.”                                            21
  Aviv stopped to consider my criticism for a moment,              22
then continued. “I’ve liked it very much. We don’t have            23
such mountains and forests in Israel.”                             24
  “You went to Rio?”                                               25
  “Yes, for Carnival. But the best of Brazil is the north.”        26
  “I’ve heard.”                                                    27
  “You didn’t go?”                                                 28
  “Next time I’d go to the north of Brazil, Colombia, Ecua-        29
dor, Venezuela.”                                                   30
  “Me, too.”                                                       31
Machu Picchu		                                             13
1       I made a wish, the kind I’d made blowing out candles on
2    a cake as a girl, that Aviv and I could someday tour those
3    countries together. Aviv was the first traveler who made
4    me feel this way. I liked traveling alone, always taking my
5    time to explore and observe and think, always meeting
6    someone along the way, but everyone else, including Dirk,
7    eventually seemed like an intrusion on my solitude, even if
8    slight. Aviv was the only one who made me feel as free as I
9    had been going alone. I felt a rush and put my hand on his.
10      “So, how do you know Spanish so well?”
11      “My family, we lived in Mexico.”
12      “When?”
        “I was very young. My Spanish, it was very bad. I didn’t
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     speak for something like six months. Then one day I start
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     to speak, and I don’t shut up for nothing.” He laughed.
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        “The same thing happened to me. I’d had some classes
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     too tired to listen anymore. Then all of a sudden, I don’t
20   know why, words came out of my mouth. I was chatting up
21   the ice cream man, the grocery store clerk, my doorman.”
22      Aviv grinned. “So why do you leave?”
23      “Hyperinflation. I couldn’t live off my salary anymore.”
24      Aviv nodded, a knowing nod, one that told me he knew
25   what was going on in places like Argentina. Places where
26   things got messy. Places like his homeland.
27      “You go home now?”
28      “Yes, after Machu Picchu.”
29      “Have you gone to Taquile?”
30      “The reed islands on Lake Titicaca?”
31      “No, not the reed islands. A real island on Lake Titicaca.
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them with their fight.”                                        2
   “Their fight?”                                              3
   “The island people, they don’t want boats from Puno         4
taking tourists to the island. They only want their own        5
boats to take all the tourists. The people, they don’t have    6
any other way to make money. They need the money to            7
buy coffee and sugar, all the things they don’t have on        8
the island. They share the money. It’s for all the people.     9
I make a sign with the other Israelis, Uri and Mihal and       10
Liat. The people, they are so happy we make this sign. We      11
play soccer to celebrate.”                                     12
   I’d had friends from Penn who protested apartheid, join-
                                                               13
ing a sit-in to pressure the university to divest from South
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Africa, but I always wondered who they would become after
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school, when we no longer lived in the protective bubble of
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a liberal arts college. But Aviv seemed like someone who’d
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never sell out, who’d never lose his idealism, who’d never
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let go of his dreams.
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   “I’ll go on my way back to Buenos Aires.” I wanted to see
the island and his sign.                                       20
   We played cards and talked for hours, about everything—     21
our travels, Argentina, the army, the apples he had picked     22
to finance his trip. When he returned to his seat, I heard     23
laughter and guessed his friends were ribbing him about        24
his interest in the American. Me.                              25
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I felt a rumble and woke to nightfall. The train pulled into   27
the station in Cusco. Aviv was already untying my back-        28
pack.                                                          29
   “You slept,” he said, smiling.                              30
   “We’re here already?”                                       31
Machu Picchu		                                         15
1      It was night, but I could see that Cusco looked medieval.
2    Cobblestone roads, stone facades, shingled roofs peak-
3    ing in triangles, one after another. Aviv hailed a cab and
4    directed the driver to a hostel he’d read about in his guide.
5    The car bumped up the jagged stone path and left us at the
6    hostel. It looked like a fortress, the kind that protected
7    Scottish kings.
8      Aviv nudged me in the morning. He already had on his
9    jeans and flannel shirt. “We go for breakfast.”
10     “Oh, okay, what time is it?”
11     “It’s almost nine o’clock. Usually, we’re going out much
12   earlier.”
13     “We go now,” Mihal said.
14     “We go later,” Aviv said, looking at me.
15     Uri followed Liat and Mihal out of the room.
16     I went into the bathroom to change, and when I came
17   out, Aviv was sitting on one of the single beds studying
18   the South American Traveler’s Handbook, the bible of seri-
19   ous backpackers. I had a guide that offered lengthy anthro-
20   pological insights along with the practical things, which I
21   mostly skipped over, preferring word-of-mouth tips from
22   South Americans and travelers like Aviv.
23     “I know a place to eat. I hear about it from other trav-
24   elers.”
25     “You know everything. Me, I hardly know anything
26   before I get where I’m going.”
27     “I like to research everything. Come, let’s go.”
28     I wanted him to reach out, take my hands, wrap me
29   around him, and kiss me. But he didn’t. I walked out of the
30   room behind him, watching his Levi’s pockets and the rim
31   of his flannel shirt. Outside, he walked next to me, keeping
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a friendly distance, the kind I’d kept with Dirk. We stepped      1
over cobblestones that bumped along the road. Peruvians           2
in ponchos dipped in and out among the stones, scaling            3
hills and descending them without effort. But backpackers         4
crept over the rock road, as if climbing a mountain ravine.       5
   Aviv pointed to a fortress like our hostel. “This is where     6
we eat. I have met a traveler in La Paz who said I must go        7
here.”                                                            8
   I followed Aviv up the stairs to the restaurant. Exposed       9
beams crisscrossed above oak booths along the wall.               10
“Here.” He pointed to a booth across from the bar. We             11
slid in.                                                          12
   “It looks like a pub,” I said.                                 13
   “It’s a vegetarian place.”                                     14
   A waiter came over to us. “Do you want the muesli?”            15
   “What’s that?”                                                 16
   “Yogurt, fruit, granola, and honey.”                           17
   “Okay, I never tried it.”                                      18
   Aviv asked the waiter for two mueslis.                         19
   “You never tried muesli?”                                      20
   “No, I’m not a vegetarian, not by a long stretch. My par-      21
ents are from Nebraska, and everybody from Nebraska               22
eats meat.”                                                       23
   “I don’t like how it looks before it is cooked, so I tell my   24
mother I’m not eating meat anymore. I am only twelve              25
when I tell her this, and since then I don’t eat meat.”           26
   “I’d never get away with that. My mother was tough.”           27
   I used to argue with my mother mostly about clothes            28
and hair. The faded, ripped jeans I’d wear or the split ends      29
on my long swimmer’s hair I’d refuse to cut. She once sent        30
me to my father’s barber to get the ends trimmed, and I           31
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1    ended up with a Dorothy Hamill. “That’s not fair,” I’d say.
2    “I don’t care if it’s fair. I’m your mother, and I make the
3    rules,” she’d say. I tried to run away once but only made
4    it to the hemlocks in the front yard.
5       “I tell you a story. When I am a little boy and we live
6    in Mexico, my mother and father take me to the United
7    States for a vacation. We drive through the Mojave Des-
8    ert, and I want grapes. I tell my mother, ‘Ima’—that is the
9    Hebrew word for ‘mother’—‘Ima, I want grapes.’ So my
10   mother says to me, ‘Aviv, we are in the desert, we can’t
11   find grapes here. You have to wait.’ And I say to her, ‘No,
12   Ima, I want grapes.’ So she finds me strawberries, and I say,
13   ‘No, Ima, I want grapes.’ Then she says to me, ‘But Aviv,
14   we are lucky to find strawberries in the desert. We can’t
15   find the grapes. You have to wait.’ But I tell her again, ‘No,
16   Ima, I want grapes.’ I don’t eat the strawberries. My father
17   keeps driving. Then my mother finds another place, and
18   she comes to me with grapes.”
19      The waiter set down gray ceramic bowls full of yogurt,
20   granola, cantaloupe, blueberries, strawberries, and red-
21   wine grapes. I tried a spoonful.
22      “This is really good. Still, I don’t think I’ll become a veg-
23   etarian.”
24      “This is what I’m eating, besides cottage cheese, rice,
25   eggs, and fish. Sandwiches of avocados, tomatoes, and
26   olives on a pita. And apples. Apples every day. Apples are
27   the best for me. I am eating them always. Sometimes I am
28   buying a big bag of apples and eating them all in one day.
29   Maybe one dozen, even more. When I’m picking apples to
30   save money for this trip, I am picking one and eating one,
31   picking one and eating one.”
       18
   “I like peanut butter best. I used to eat it right out of   1
the jar.”                                                      2
   Aviv spooned some yogurt, grapes, and honey into his        3
mouth.                                                         4
   “Peanut butter is okay. But not like apples. Nothing is     5
like apples, for me.”                                          6
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Aviv and I sat in a chapel, quietly looking at the golden      8
trunk by the pulpit and the stained glass windows that         9
wrapped around the chapel, full of Bible stories I’d learned   10
in Sunday school. We’d been together for several days,         11
since he pulled me out of the train line in Puno, but this     12
was our first day alone, and I had decided if he didn’t kiss   13
me soon, I was going to move on. Then I felt his lips on       14
mine, our first kiss, inside that tiny chapel, a warm spring   15
flowing inside of me. We left the chapel, holding hands.       16
   Cusco had seemed medieval and gray until then. Now          17
I noticed the Gothic church spire pointing toward the          18
baby-blue sky and evergreen Andes peeking over stone           19
forts, guarding the cobblestone square. A Peruvian woman       20
leaned against a column with her loom. She stretched one       21
leg out on the stone path and tucked the other one under       22
her navy skirt. She flipped back her long black braid as she   23
pulled threads with her butternut hands. She jerked the        24
threads into place, one after another. Threads of rose and     25
violet and blue, weaving them into diamonds on a belt.         26
She had already made half of the belt, the kind children       27
carried in bundles as they worked the cobblestone plaza        28
in bare feet.                                                  29
   Aviv and I sat down on a wooden bench in the center of      30
the square. Children pranced over the cool stones toward       31
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1    us and made a semicircle around us. They stretched out
2    their suntanned arms, clutching handmade belts and
3    ceramic jars painted with falcons and warriors.
4       “Where are you from?” asked the tallest, a girl.
5       “I’m American, and he’s Israeli.”
6       “Jerusalem, the capital of Israel. Paris, the capital of
7    France. Mitterand, the president of France,” she said.
8       “How did you learn English and all of those facts? Amaz-
9    ing,” I said.
10      “From the tourists,” she said, sounding so matter-of-fact.
11   “My name is Betty. I need shoes and a notebook for school.”
12      The other children grabbed onto her skirt hem and
13   elbows and shoulders, waiting to see what we would
14   do. Would we buy her a pair of shoes and a notebook
15   for school? They looked up at Betty, scanning her black
16   ponytail and ebony stare, and then they looked back at us,
17   mouths agape, waiting to see what would happen.
18      “You don’t have a notebook for school?” I asked. They
19   all looked at Betty again.
20      “No. I need a notebook—and shoes,” she said, pointing
21   to her black cotton Mary Janes. She wore no socks, and
22   her chopstick legs seemed almost green from the cold. It
23   was early April, and the Andean foothills were cool.
24      “Here,” Aviv said. He handed her a few bills. “I’ll take
25   a jar.”
26      Betty snatched the cash and plunked a jar into his palm
27   and dashed off over the cobblestones to the other side of the
28   courtyard, her entourage following, a goose and her gaggle.
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30   Aviv and I sat on the roadside waiting for the bus to Machu
31   Picchu. A dirt path cut through the green foothills, so green
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they looked like a fertilized lawn. We squatted outside a         1
restaurant shack. Weathered gray like Cape Cod homes              2
I’d seen on family vacations as a child. Sun and rain beat        3
hard on the wood, bleaching it from brown to driftwood            4
gray. Buttercups dimpled the valley across the road, the          5
hillside sloping down into a valley that stretched out flat       6
like a Nebraska cornfield. Beyond the valley, green moun-         7
tains rolled up and up and up, forming an Andean ridge            8
that ran as far as I could see along the horizon.                 9
   Inside the shack, a woman with molasses skin and black-        10
bean eyes leaned into the counter.                                11
   “When does the bus come?” Aviv asked in Spanish.               12
   Her raven hair, pulled back off her face, hung in a braid      13
down her back.                                                    14
   “Look, don’t know, could be hours,” she told us.               15
   “Sit, sit.” She pointed toward a picnic table near the door-   16
way. We could watch for the bus from inside, she said. We         17
ordered potato and leek soup, the only item on the menu,          18
spelled out in Spanish on a blackboard behind the counter.        19
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An hour later, the bus had not come. We walked out to the         21
roadside again and crouched.                                      22
  “Hey, there’s a car.” I pointed down the road. “Let’s go        23
for it. We’ll never get out of here unless we hitch a ride.”      24
  We waved our hands as if making snow angels and tried           25
to catch the attention of the silver car driving toward us        26
along the hillside road. A cloud of dirt kicked up in our         27
faces. The car screeched to a stop just ahead of us, and we       28
trotted for it. The driver rolled down his window. He wore        29
slacks, a button-down shirt, and penny loafers. His black         30
hair was cropped short like a fifties preppy.                     31
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1       “Going to Machu Picchu,” Aviv said in Spanish.
2       “Get in,” the driver said.
3       The driver sped up around the bend, along the edge of
4    the green slopes that dipped down into the valley. Aviv
5    nudged me in the shoulder and pointed to the gun under
6    the driver’s side seat. My grandfather, a Nebraska rancher
7    on the sheriff’s posse, used to carry a loaded pistol under
8    his car seat for protection from people like Charlie Stark-
9    weather, who’d gone on a killing spree. Peru had a different
10   kind of violence. Shining Path guerrillas were kidnapping,
11   torturing, and killing Peruvians and some foreigners. The
12   car jerked to a stop. A mound of red-brown dirt blocked
13   our path.
14      “Workers are protesting,” the driver said. He darted a
15   glance down the valley and back to the dirt blockade. “I
16   have a gun for such problems,” he said. He had the men-
17   acing look of a paramilitary man.
18      “We can’t pass?” Aviv asked.
19      “No,” the driver said. “But if you walk down there, down
20   into the farms, you can pass to another village, and there
21   you can find a bus.”
22      Aviv led the way into the valley and through a corn-
23   field. Corn silk puffing out of pale green husks brushed
24   my shoulders. On the other side of the field, we found a
25   paved road. It looked like it would take us to Machu Pic-
26   chu, if we walked and walked and walked.
27      “We can’t walk all the way,” Aviv said. “This is too much
28   walking.”
29      I pointed. “There, that’s our ride. Come on.”
30      Aviv and I hailed a truck. The driver stopped and told us
31   to climb up. I grabbed the ladder on the side of the truck
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and scaled up to a bed of dusty brown potatoes heaped a        1
story high. I crawled on top of the potatoes and clutched      2
onto the wood railing that hemmed in the potatoes.             3
  “Sort of like a hayride,” I said.                            4
  Aviv laughed.                                                5
  The truck bumped along the road, potatoes popping up         6
and down, though none flipped out of the truck. I gripped      7
onto the railing the way I held onto the safety bars of a      8
roller coaster.                                                9
  The potato truck pulled into a cobblestone courtyard at      10
dusk. When we climbed down, the driver pointed to the          11
train tracks. “There, that is where you will find the train    12
to Machu Picchu, but it won’t leave until the morning.”        13
  “Come, this way,” Aviv said. He pointed to a hostel next     14
to the train station.                                          15
  Aviv lay on the bed, one leg on the wide-plank pine floor    16
and the other stretched along the mattress, his Levi’s coat-   17
ed in potato dust. His flannel shirt flipped up over his       18
stomach. His skin was honey-colored from the Brazilian         19
sun. He stared at me with easy eyes, smiling. I pulled the     20
curtains off their hooks and went to him.                      21
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In the morning, we took a train to Machu Picchu. The Inca      23
ruins were nestled on an Andean ridge. The mountains           24
were green, a muted green, unlike the bright lime of the       25
foothills below. A gray river snaked through the valley. A     26
staircase scaled a jutting peak. Llamas bobbed their swan-     27
like necks and bleated as they pranced about the ruins. A      28
Peruvian man in a red poncho whistled folk tunes into          29
his reed flute.                                                30
   “Look, over there,” Aviv pointed to a stone slab at the     31
Machu Picchu		                                         23
1    far edge of the ruins. “That is where they are sacrificing
2    virgins to their gods.”
3       Aviv and I walked over to the block, big and rectangular
4    like a coffin. I studied the granite slab, searching the worn
5    surface, as if I might see some lingering evidence of blood.
6       “Do you think it’s true?”
7       “Of course,” Aviv said. “People do anything in the name
8    of God.”
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                                  Schlepper                    9
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Back at home in Connecticut, I sat at the kitchen table        14
with my mother, looking out the picture window while           15
she read my article. It was May, and the white dogwood         16
and the hot-pink azaleas were in bloom.                        17
   “Why don’t you start here,” she said.                       18
   “With the cartoon?” I said.                                 19
   Somewhere in the middle of the story, I’d described a       20
Buenos Aires newspaper sketch that lampooned how cool          21
Argentines stay during national crises—still packing their     22
bags for the beach, even though the country seemed poised      23
for another coup before the first presidential transition      24
since the military left power.                                 25
   “It’s a whole lot catchier.” She still had a midwestern     26
twang, after nearly twenty years in Connecticut.               27
   “Nobody will get it,” I said.                               28
   “Sure they will. Why don’t you start like this: The scene   29
is a beach.”                                                   30
   I scribbled lines onto paper. “How about this? The scene    31
                             25
1    is a beach with an Argentine couple basking in the sun,
2    sipping drinks. One says casually to the other, ‘How close
3    we came to losing democracy.’”
4       “That’s the way to start, something catchy, hook people
5    in,” she said.
6       The telephone rang. My mother reached for the phone.
7       “It’s Aviv.” She raised her eyebrows as she handed me
8    the phone. I had not told her about him.
9       “Aviv?”
10      “That’s me.”
11      “Where are you?”
12      “Brooklyn.”
13      “Brooklyn?”
14      “I stay one week with friends of my parents. Then I say,
15   why don’t I find work and stay. So now I’m with Schleppers.
16   They’re Israeli. They give me work as a mover. My tired
17   muscles will be happy to tell you all about it.” He chuckled.
18      “I’m moving to the city soon,” I said.
19      “When?”
20      “When I find an apartment.”
21      “I think you should live with me.”
22      “I couldn’t do that. What would I do when you leave?”
23      “You would miss me?”
24      “Yes.”
25      “Can I see you?”
26      “Soon.”
27      “You promise?”
28      “I promise.”
29      “Now I have to go. Do you remember Rosanna, the wom-
30   an I met in Brazil. She is here working as a nanny. We go
31   to the movies now,” Aviv said.
       26
   “Oh, yes, okay,” I said.                                      1
   He’d met Rosanna in the north of Brazil, before he met        2
me. Now she was in New York? How could he ask me to              3
live with him and then run off to see Rosanna?                   4
   After I got off the phone, my mother asked, “Who’s            5
Aviv?”                                                           6
   “I met him in Peru,” I said.                                  7
   “You didn’t mention him.”                                     8
   “I didn’t think I’d ever see him again, but he’s here, and    9
he wants to live with me. Then he says he’s got to go, he’s      10
meeting Rosanna.”                                                11
   “Who’s Rosanna?”                                              12
   “Some woman he met in Brazil.”                                13
   “Well is he worth getting so upset over?”                     14
   “I don’t know. Yes, yes, he is.”                              15
                                                                 16
Aviv and I explored Inca ruins in the Peruvian Andes for         17
two weeks before taking the train back to Puno, the Boliv-       18
ian border town on Lake Titicaca. I stopped there and took       19
a boat to the reed islands and then Taquile. As my boat          20
approached, islanders hurried down the steep steps of the        21
moon-shaped island, hurling stones at nearby boats com-          22
ing from the mainland. I could see Aviv’s protest sign, still    23
on the docks. Aviv had gone ahead to Bolivia, and I met          24
up with him in La Paz.                                           25
  It was crisp in the Altiplano as Aviv and I hiked up and       26
down the streets of La Paz, steep as San Francisco’s. Boliv-     27
ian men in colorful stocking caps and women in English           28
bowler hats and baby-doll skirts crowded the streets, sell-      29
ing supplies like batteries, razors, and aftershave along with   30
alpaca sweaters, coca tea leaves, and dried llama fetuses,       31
Schlepper						                                          27
1    cradled in small baskets as fertility amulets. I bought a
2    stocking cap, knit in bands of electric pinks, blues, yel-
3    lows, and greens that I hung on my wall after I moved to
4    New York, and Aviv bought a fleece coat that he wrapped
5    around me as we waited for my bus to Buenos Aires.
6       I had to go back to Argentina and pack a year-and-a-
7    half’s worth of belongings into my backpack and suitcases
8    and cardboard boxes before flying home, while Aviv had a
9    ticket from La Paz to San Francisco to see Dov, his father’s
10   son from his first marriage to a woman who lived on a kib-
11   butz near the Golan Heights. Dov planned to return to the
12   kibbutz with his wife and daughters once he finished his
13   PhD. Aviv’s eyes began to tear up, the way mine did after
14   my bus began to pull away.
15
16   The city felt like a sauna and smelled of garbage, piled up
17   on the sidewalks because of the sanitation strike, as I went
18   for a run along Central Park, carefully avoiding the inside
19   of the park, where a jogger had been raped and bashed in
20   the head by teenagers only weeks before I moved to the
21   city that summer. The unidentified woman would become
22   famously known as the “Central Park jogger,” and my street
23   smarts kept me out of the park until it had become a much,
24   much tamer place.
25      As I ran along Central Park South, I noticed Aviv ahead
26   of me, walking toward the Salute to Israel Parade on Fifth
27   Avenue. I’d been in the city for several weeks, sharing a
28   small place near the park with Jeanne, a friend from col-
29   lege who introduced me to Gabriel García Márquez’s One
30   Hundred Years of Solitude, inspiring my passion for Latin
31   American literature: Isabel Allende’s The Stories of Eva Luna,
       28
Jorge Amado’s Doña Flor and Her Two Husbands, Jorge              1
Luis Borges’s Labyrinths, Julio Cortázar’s Hopscotch, Car-       2
los Fuentes’s The Old Gringo, Mario Vargas Llosa’s The Real      3
Life of Alejandro Mayta, and much, much later Guillermo          4
Rosales’s The Halfway House, Roberto Bolaño’s 2666—              5
authors from Argentina, Brazil, Chile, Colombia, Cuba,           6
Mexico, Peru.                                                    7
   I hadn’t called Aviv, like I’d promised. I worried some       8
about Rosanna, though Aviv spoke about her casually, like        9
a friend instead of a lover. She was almost ten years older      10
than Aviv, and he said she was “sometimes beautiful, some-       11
times not, like Sônia Braga,” the sensual Brazilian actress      12
in Kiss of the Spiderwoman. Only a tough critic like Aviv        13
would see her that way, so I knew that Rosanna was prob-         14
ably a striking brunette, too, but the truth is the thought      15
of Aviv leaving worried me more.                                 16
   I called anyway, and we met at a diner that night.            17
   “I saw you today, near the park.”                             18
   “You should have come to me.”                                 19
   “I was going jogging, and I don’t know, I felt nervous.”      20
   “Nervous, but why?”                                           21
   “To see you in New York. Maybe it would be different.”        22
   “But there is no difference for me.”                          23
   “I’m glad.” I paused. “But what about Rosanna?”               24
   “Rosanna, she’s working as a nanny.”                          25
   “I know she’s working as a nanny, but what about her?”        26
   “I understand you. We are just friends. That is all.”         27
   “Just friends? But you went to the movies together.”          28
   “Rosanna is only a friend, nothing more.”                     29
   I still felt raw about it, but I let it go. “So, you had no   30
trouble finding a place to live?”                                31
Schlepper						                                          29
1      “No trouble. I took the first place I’ve seen. You should
2    see the floor. It’s painted the color of a mango. And there
3    are plants everywhere.”
4      “So have you seen much of New York?”
5      “I’ve been working all over. The Village, Brooklyn,
6    Queens, New Jersey. New Jersey looks like such a nice
7    place. I tell myself I would like to live in a place like New
8    Jersey.”
9      “New Jersey? That’s boring. Manhattan is so much bet-
10   ter.”
11     “It has so much energy, I can’t sleep. I always feel I am
12   missing something.”
13     “That’s what I like, knowing there’s always something
14   new, and if you miss it today, something else will come
15   along.”
16
       Aviv sighed. “Maybe if I knew I could live here always, I
17
     would feel different. But I’m only here for a few months.”
18
       “When will you go?”
19
       “Maybe September. I have only done the army. Now I
20
     must go and study at the university.”
21
       “What will you study?”
22
       “Computers at the Technion. You have this school, mit—
23
     they say in Israel that the Technion is like this school.”
24
       “It must be the best.”
25
       “It’s the best.”
26
27     “I’m starting to think about graduate school.”
28     “What do you study?”
29     “Latin America, maybe get a job with a big newspaper
30   so I can earn a living.”
31     Aviv smiled. “I can help you become an Israeli expert.”
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   We began to see each other almost every night after          1
work, spending the entire weekend together, exploring           2
the city’s contours when it was still an intensely bohe-        3
mian and dangerous place, going to diners for simple            4
meals—scrambled eggs and home fries, soup and grilled           5
cheese sandwiches—and small cafés for cappuccino and            6
cheesecake and long soulful talks, following live music or      7
a movie, usually independent or foreign. Aviv’s favorite        8
was Betty Blue, a French film about a passionate, but tor-      9
tured, romance between an aspiring writer who works as          10
a handyman and his obsessive girlfriend that begins with        11
a long scene of lovemaking.                                     12
   I’d gone to the Christian Science Sunday school, like        13
my mother and her mother—the daughter of a Nebraska             14
dentist who read Mary Baker Eddy’s textbook, Science and        15
Health with Key to the Scriptures, and adopted the religion     16
that relied on healing through prayer and forbid drinking,      17
smoking, or sex outside of marriage. Alcohol, cigarettes,       18
and drugs didn’t interest me, but abstention was an impos-      19
sible standard for a young woman who studied the world          20
map on her shower curtain instead of wedding magazines.         21
   Aviv’s taste in films seemed radically defiant and sophis-   22
ticated. He was a scathing critic of “typical American          23
movies”—a category that seemed to cover almost anything         24
that wasn’t made by Woody Allen or Spike Lee. Our first         25
argument was over Dead Poet’s Society. It didn’t matter         26
that the film was directed by Peter Weir, an Australian; it     27
was still a “typical American movie.” Aviv was irritated by     28
the fragile young man in the film, an aspiring actor who        29
commits suicide after his father crushes his dreams by          30
transferring him from an American prep school, where            31
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1    he’s inspired by theater, poetry, and his brilliant teacher
2    who urges his students to carpe diem—“seize the day”—
3    to the stale future of a military academy. “I don’t want to
4    see this guy in Israel,” Aviv said.
5       I understood Aviv, the idealist who’d had no choice but
6    to serve in the military, like every other Israeli boy and
7    girl. It didn’t matter that he’d served in a noncombat role,
8    working with computers instead of guns, during his man-
9    datory military service. He’d lost precious years in the
10   army when typical Americans were in college, like me. But
11   I understood the sensitive boy in the film, too. After my
12   first year of college, inspired by my Shakespeare professor
13   on loan from Princeton, I told my mother that I wanted
14   to study English and become a writer. My mother shot
15   back with her usual fierceness—the cowgirl confidence of
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     a cattle rancher’s daughter that I feared until I was old
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     enough to admire it—“I won’t have you lollygag around
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     reading books, you hear me, Karol Lynn.”
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        It was an especially egregious plan because of the twen-
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     ty-five thousand dollars my father was spending on tuition,
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     room, and board to send me to Penn. My mother wanted
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     me to study something professional, something that would
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     help me get a job when I graduated. “A woman needs to be
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     able to support herself in this world. Besides, if you want
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     to become a writer you have to have something to write
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27   about.” I’d never won an argument with my mother, hard
28   as I’d tried—always getting into trouble over my lip, too
29   much lip—but for the first time I didn’t fight her.
30      And to be fair, this news was probably coming as a sur-
31   prise to my mother, and in some ways to me, too, having
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shown my creativity through painting and drawing until           1
now, even winning a citywide prize for a piece in the eighth     2
grade, though it was always a slightly dubious award to          3
me because I’d copied the image of the sphinx, the way I         4
copied faces in fashion magazines, not knowing that my           5
teacher would submit it for competition. But when it came        6
to books and writing, something I considered to be the           7
domain of Ivy League intellectuals, and while, technically,      8
I would become one of them, I had come from the down-            9
to-earth pioneers of Nebraska and Iowa and Wyoming.              10
Farmers, ranchers, blacksmiths, dentists, pilots, soldiers,      11
engineers, small-business owners, a railroad clerk, a coal-      12
car worker, a secretary, and a dancer. My mother’s mother,       13
Lulalee, toured the country with the Chester Hale Girls          14
and then joined the Radio City Rockettes before marry-           15
ing my grandfather, the hump pilot. He first saw her in a        16
photograph on his sister’s piano. “I’m going to marry that       17
woman,” he said to his sister. She had married my grand-         18
mother’s brother—a bomber pilot who’d get shot down              19
and killed in action on a mission to Münster, Germany,           20
during World War II, winning a posthumous Purple Heart.          21
My grandfather, a voracious speed reader who disdained           22
the eastern establishment, would write a fantastical short       23
story collection called “The Purple World.” It was never         24
published.                                                       25
  While I had the drive to tell stories, I had no proof of its   26
possibility as a profession and couldn’t match my mother’s       27
conviction about the best way to proceed, couldn’t come          28
to the defense of my plan when it still seemed too uncer-        29
tain and far off, so I sheepishly got off the phone, settling    30
on international relations, so I could write about other         31
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1    countries, and economics, to convince my mother I’d find
2    a job, while slowly sinking into a foggy malaise that lasted
3    through college, lifting sometime in South America, where
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5    night shift at the newspaper and write. Every day.
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Aviv sat next to me on the couch of his roomy, two-bed-      14
room apartment in Harlem that he shared with a Califor-      15
nian. He’d painted the floor mango, like Aviv had said,      16
and filled the place with plants. It had a relaxed, tropi-   17
cal feel that suited Aviv. He had just finished a pickup     18
basketball game on the West 104th Street court, a few        19
blocks away.                                                 20
  “You know, I wanted to be in the nba,” Aviv said.          21
  “A basketball star?”                                       22
  “Too late for such dreams.”                                23
  “Never too late.”                                          24
  Aviv shook his head.                                       25
  “My sister Revital, she is coming to New York. She wants   26
to see the Amish.”                                           27
  “I went with my family as a girl. We stayed on a Men-      28
nonite farm and milked the cows.”                            29
  “My sister, she likes traveling, too. After she finishes   30
with the army, she travels in South America like me. Then    31
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PREFACE.
CORNISH FEASTS AND “FEASTEN” CUSTOMS.           1
LEGENDS OF PARISHES, ETC.                      56
 Cornwall Stone.                               93
FAIRIES.                                      120
SUPERSTITIONS: Miners’, Sailors’, Farmers’.   130
CHARMS, Etc.                                  143
 For Tetters.                                 149
 Toothache.                                   149
 For a Strain.                                150
 For Ague.                                    150
 For Wildfire (Erysipelas).                   150
CORNISH GAMES.                                172
 Pray, pretty Miss.                           174
 “Friskee, friskee, I was, and I was.”        175
 “Fool, fool, come to School.”                176
 “Scat” (Cornish for “slap”).                 177
 Hole in the Wall.                            177
 Malaga, Malaga Raisins (a forfeit game).     177
 She Said, and She Said.                      178
 Drop the Handkerchief.                       178
 How Many Miles to Babylon?                   179
 Rules of Contrary.                           179
 Lady Queen Anne.                                  179
 Old Witch.                                        180
 Ghost at the Well.                                182
 Mother, Mother, may I go out to Play?             182
 Here I sit on a cold green Bank.                  183
 Joggle along.                                     184
 The Jolly Miller,                                 184
 Bobby Bingo.                                      185
 Weigh the Butter, weigh the Cheese,               185
 Libbety, libbety, libbety-lat.                    186
 Ship Sail                                         186
 Buck shee, buck,                                  186
 Accroshay.                                        187
 Buckey-how.                                       187
 Cutters and Trucklers (Smugglers).                187
 Marble Playing                                    187
 Cock-haw.                                         188
 Winky-eye.                                        188
 Uppa, Uppa Holye (pronounced oopa, oopa holly).   188
 Tom Toddy,                                        189
BALLADS, Etc.                                      190
 John Dory.                                        191
 An Old Ballad On a Duke of Cornwall’s Daughter    192
 Ye Sexes give ear.                                195
 A Fox went forth.                                 196
 Tweedily, Tweedily, Twee (North Cornwall).        197
 When shall we be Married?                         198
 Sweet Nightingale.                                199
 The Stout Cripple of Cornwall.                    200
 The Baarley Mow (a harvest song).                 203
 The Long Hundred.   205
 Elicompane.         205
 Uncle Jan Dory.     205
ADDENDA.             207
INDEX.                 v
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